Chills

Sean's gonna be in a movie later this year, but before that he's made his own

I feel so horrible because I can’t help him the way he has helped me. His videos always added a light to my world when it was dark and the fact that I can’t do that for him makes me feel so sad.

watching Sean watch his old self like that honesty gave me chills. I loved that era of Jacksepticeye but I also love that it ended and Sean started taking time for himself and started putting out content he liked, I hope he knows we don’t expect him to put on a persona anymore

This video conveyed your hardship very well. I hope you know you were never as alone as you showed in the video. There were always millions of people wrapping their arms around you at all times.

Thinking of you, Sean. ❤️

The camera at the end, I think it’s meant to represent us. Obsessively watching and waiting, always wanting more. I can’t imagine the amount of pressure the audience puts on any KZfaqr. It’s really haunting imagery and really makes me think. We as an audience need to be less demanding and understand the person on the other side of the screen is a human being with their own life and their own unique circumstances. Many of these entertainers brought us entertainment during quarantine and never really got a proper break to process what was going on in their own lives. Sean had digestive issues and probably had COVID that exacerbated his asthma. I’ve been subscribed to Sean for a very long time and I don’t think this man has ever slowed down and given himself a proper vacation or just time to think. Sean if you’re reading this enjoy every moment of your time off. Whenever you’re ready to come back whether is 1 month or 1 year we’ll all be here supporting you on both KZfaq and Reddit.

Yesterday- October 21st, 2022- marked exactly _15 Months_ since Seán gave us this masterpiece and I still think people do him a tremendous disservice by only seeing Bo Burnham’s _Inside_ or some other creator’s work when they watch it. I go back to this video all the time. Not because it’s some general expression of COVID lockdown or an inspiration from Inside (no offense towards Bo Burnham). *THIS SEÁN MCLOUGHLIN’S PERSONAL STORY!* _This is HIS ASTHMA! IT’S HIS DIGESTIVE ISSUES!_ This was but a mere fraction of what _he_ had to go through! Not anyone else.

you have honestly inspired me, so many times. when i needed motivation to lose weight, i ran every day listening to “All The Way” on repeat. one of my biggest accomplishments and you were there for every step. when i needed company late night at work, and school, your videos were there. thank you, Jack.

So beautiful and heartbreaking. This really resonated with... something. This video gives condensed "inside" vibes All the best, Jack. Incredible work

I relate to this on so many levels. The depression, the isolation, the guilt, the looking at videos/pictures of yourself from a younger time and feeling empty inside. I've enjoyed your content from when you were a young, loud, boisterous lad, and I enjoy it now. I wish I could give that feeling to you, as well. I hope you're alright, Jack-a-boy.

So in the beginning there’s this scene where Jack is running at night, and I love how his anxiety is represented not just by the weird KZfaq autofocus thing (great use of that feature BTW), but also by the aspect ratio narrowing down - the world literally closing in on him. At first, Jack was able to fend off the asthma attacks with inhalers, but later down the line we see the same narrow aspect ratio come back. Except this time it doesn’t go away. The anxiety stays and it becomes a part of Jack’s life. Hours turning to days turning to months, all while being juxtaposed against shots of the outside world in a wider aspect ratio. And only once the lockdown lifts Jack is able to overcome his fear, with the black borders gradually thinning. Yet there’s still the watchful eye of the audience…

This feels more like reality than anything. Honestly it just shows how badly he needed a break. Whatever it is your health comes first and as much as we all wanna see him back.. I'd be happier knowing he is happy and healthy.

It sucks that you basically have to rely on inhalers and other medicine almost all the time. I feel bad, and I wish everything good to you and your health, Sean👍

Cried watching this. Cried for the fact that I cannot help a man who's made me laugh everyday, who's made me smile and cheered me up through his videos, his personality, his tweets and his realness. I love you, Jack, and I still probably can't comprehend what you've been going through but I genuinely hope you get through it strong and I wish you the very best of luck in life. You're like a dad I never had, might sound weird but, that's how much I respect you and your work, man.

1:20 the way he opened his eyes and his pupils dilated is probably one of the greatest film scenes I’ve ever seen 🙏🏼

He’s known for being loud, and that makes the silence that much more deafening

Sean is the kinda guy that works harder than all of us to entertain. Always putting the audience before himself and his health. I’ve so much respect for you man. You’ve earned everything you have and you deserve to take care of yourself

i'm so proud of creators like sean and bo burnham for expressing their vulnerability and pain to us. for not suffering in silence anymore. thank you, sean, for this amazing, personal, eye-opening film

years ago, I think it was "That Dragon, Cancer" where Jack said something along the lines of "I don't think I've ever been depressed seriously, I mean I've been sad but..." I can't help but to think you have better I see standing of it from this video and where you are now, just remember we're all here for you through and through. Best of wishes to you

Man, the more I see Sean expressing himself seriously, the more I like it, and the more I want of it. Keep it up, good sir. And of course, wishing you healthy body and mind.

This is incredible. You're a king.

Man Asthma fucking sucks man. The absolute primal fear of waking up and not being able to breath is one of the most terrifying feelings I have ever felt. On top of that having to then sort your brain out enough to find your inhaler is like a irl quick time event. I really feel you man, I don’t suffer from it anymore but I remember the feeling and will never forget it. Keep fighting it man, much love Edit: holy shit man the likes

This shows so much. So much anxiety, so much pressure, so much fear. But I also see beauty, passion, and heart. It's perfect

The isolation, the panic, the guilt, the pressure, seeing a part of yourself frozen in time... I'm always shocked when reminded other creators feel this too. The cinematography in this is just as powerful as the message. Well done.

Took me a while to take this all in. This has to be the most relatable bit of content and hits hard for everyone; especially fellow creators. Sean, you have blazed the way for so many of us, are the most genuine human as I have ever seen at every single VidCon we chatted. Take your time to find you and if it's no longer in content or at this pace or on this platform - that is fine too. We appreciate you.

The moment you recognised the meds he’s taking. I feel you bro.

I know you'll probably never see this but thank you Sean. Thank you for everything you've done and thank you for showing this to us. If you need to stop doing KZfaq in a more permanent sense, we will understand. And if you do go, thank you for all of the content, laughs, crys, and best times of my life. Thank you for helping all of us, please help yourself now.

Holy fuck. This is incredible. Biggest Flexes in Anime.

i cried!! jack, this is so well made and even without words you shared your story clearly. I'm here for you if you ever need somebody, take care jack

5 and a half minutes in and tears are running down my face. The emotions in this are so real, because they're my emotions too. At 5:38 when I saw the sertraline, I just smiled with tears running from my eyes and said "Hey, I take those too." I don't even know what to say really, but you existing means a lot to me. I'm gonna keep watching the video now, I just had to stop and write this for a minute. I don't know why.

That whole short film was insanely gripping. The way the emotions were portrayed, and the camera techniques used made this hard to look away from. I also almost cried, so-

Jack is one of the strongest dudes i know on this platform, man has been through alot and is still pushing ❤️ respect ✊

Wow, I don't think I've ever watched anything quite like this that said so much without saying much at all. Incredibly well done. As many other people have said already, if you ever need any help I'm always around to do whatever I can and I genuinely mean that.

Sean, youve saved my life countless times, literally. The world is so scary, i love this so much. I can relate to this to an extant beyond my explanation 😭😭. I love you as a creator and i hope you feel well. Lots of hope 🙂

These periods really make you aware of how grateful you should be if you're healthy. I've been struggling with isolation and bowel cramps (something i believe seán went through as well) for the last 22 months and i admire how this video brings the struggles to light.

This really makes me think

This just makes me think that in the end, after jacksepticeye, he's still Sean. He's still a person, and what he does takes an enormous toll on him.

seeing this again after 9 months still love it so much I've seen it so many times it's just so great

This literally made me feel anxious/scared I can’t imagine how your feeling hope you get better take all the time you need. We’ll always be here when you need us.

This feels like a goodbye to Jack and a hello to Sean.

amazing work man, I've been looking forward to this. I love it!

I'm so sorry you went through this experience. You were courageous to put this out there. You are there for all of us, we are here for you too. Don't forget to reach out for help--no shame, only away to feel better. You, Sean are appreciated.

The part where he was watching his own video was like breaking the fourth wall in a way- it was so real! this whole thing was very well put together, im so sorry you've been going through this

Masterpiece

I never expected you to upload a little movie triller like this. Its absolutely amazing! Great job Sean! :)

I feel such a strong sense of guilt coming from this. An illusion about the need, the obligation, to stay competitive with others and keep up appearances Wishing you could... even for just a moment... Take all of those fears away, and just breathe.

I really relate to this. during lockdown my anxiety had almost tripled in size and i used to wake up feeling so overwhelmed with what i can describe as a heavy feeling in both my chest and stomach, the feeling that no one truly understands, being locked inside my own head , trying to cope with fluoxetine, ending up feeling like a zombie and barely anything at all, the world to me had lost its colour and i could only imagine how that would feel on top of both physical and mental health, im so sorry... jack... we understand you though! or at least i do.. from one adult to another...

i am honestly just speechless... that last shot of the camera is so so powerful. thanks for sharing this with us, jack ♥️

Powerful video. I do love the final shot of heading out into a bright sunny world again, leaving the camera behind. It's hopeful and contrasts well with the dark tone of the rest of the video. Really well done man

in a sense it's weird to dive so deep into someone's life, and well not just "someone's" but to a man's who has been helping many go through hardships with his jokes, laughs and in general bright character. seeing this side of you Sean makes people rethink the value of their problems, and rethink the value of their behaviour towards others. Thank you for this.

The cinematography is just gorgeous. You've grown so much as a creator, it's amazing. I relate to the feeling of isolation, chronic illness, and the anxiety of social media. I'm really impressed, Sean. I hope everything gets better for you soon, and just know that even if you never come back to KZfaq, I've loved your content, and I'm so proud of you. You've done our little island proud.

The part where Jack watches old videos of him being full of joy just breaks my heart.

Man, I felt so much of this, you often don't see the difficult side of this life path and you showcased so many of the dark emotions perfectly. Beautifully done Seán this was pure art.

This man gave us a house tour, an insight into his day to day life, a cinematic masterpiece, and an emotional rollercoaster all in one without saying a word 🤯

These shots are actually amazing, each one really manages to express what it wants to, whether it is loneliness, anxiety, depression and this mysterious feeling that you’re always being watched

The borders closing in without me ever noticing was the scariest part of it all. I know how it must've felt to be so isolated, so concious and feeling so trapped inside. So I'm glad that you've made a hell of a production out of that! Anyways, take care jack our boy. I loved this film, and we're here for ya!

This was excellent Sean. The last shot hit hardest, gave me creepy vibes of “do you even exist if the camera’s not on”. Truly impressed bro.

this was a masterpiece of a short film, the actual display and convenience of emotion was so powerful. We're really proud of you Sean, hope you're doing okay!

I hope Jack takes a break from YT for a while because he honestly deserves it for what's he's been giving us Watching this video makes me sad and want to give him a warm hug for what he has been through :'(

What really made this so strong is this wasn’t jacksepticeye. This is Sean

That part with all the eyes on his bared self got me deep. Can't even fathom the pressure you feel.

Ngl this made my heart race and I was honestly about to cry at a few points. Before I saw this video, I had already thought that I related to Jack in some way or other but now it feels like I relate to him even more. The feeling of isolation, the anxiety, everything about this video made me really think about how much we don't notice the little things that possibly go on in the background. We care about you, Jack. 💜

I find myself returning to this piece often. It’s so stunningly human. Thank you for the honesty and the vulnerability.

This shows that you never truly know what people are going through and that the people who put the most joy in the world aren’t always feeling joy themselves

The beginning was giving me “Sean could be in a music video” vibes, than after that I was like “🥺I hope he’s doing ok”

This was the single greatest piece of art I have seen in months. I was sobbing at the end. I literally tore a muscle yesterday from how hard I was gripping my sheets due to a night terror. I felt this in my heart. The endless pills. Everyone telling me their opinions on how I need to fix myself. Day after day on repeat. Wake up, wait for my alarm. Fake it till I make it through the day. Avoid sleep because of the darkness that lurks there. Scream, thrash, wake up, wait for my alarm. Emptiness filling every corner of my mind. I cannot express enough my gratitude to you for sharing your soul. I hope you have found your light. This helped me find another step in my path to find mine again. It truly was pure, real, and perfect. You are heard, you are important, and you are loved. Good luck in all your endeavours Sean. Keep being you. From the very core of who I am, thank you so very much.

the sertraline in his drawer got me. i've been on it for nearly 6 years and while it's helped so much it's also a relly painful reminder of a part of me that I can't escape. All the love to you, Sean, and everything you've done not only for us but for yourself, too

Damn…he really showcased his struggles I think in the best way he could. I’m not going to lie, I almost understood it better than if he had just said “this is what I’m going through”. It helped drive the point through.

I almost feel guilty for not watching Sean’s videos that much anymore this guy was a HUGE part of my childhood especially the happy wheels series. We love you Sean always and forever

I go back to watch Sean’s old videos everyday just to feel like a kid again when I felt care free I. The world but this video really helps to know that I can’t be stuck in the past and wishing I could go back

I’m really sorry you’re going through all this Sean. You’ve helped me with so much that if there was any way I could hug you and take it all away, I would in a heartbeat. Wishing you only the best.

Beautiful video, gave me the chills

Imagine how many people have been going through the same thing, but can't express to anyone that this is happening.

This is truly gripping , i could only imagine the struggle you have been through , just know that we love u man and hope to see you back in your full self

I felt this on such a physical level...the foot bouncing when during something that should be relaxing like reading, the gnawing the fingernails... these are my anxiety flags too, and I felt this movie could be triggering, but watched it anyway, the absolute least I could do for Sean. Gonna do a dumb thing and get real on the internet... I adore ya man. It's been my own personal goal for the longest time to spread joy, happiness, and positivity in this world whenever and where ever I could, and to discover you and see how you live so similarly and you have such a platform and you've used it so powerfully for so long dude, but here is the deal. You are not an infinite source of jollity and happiness. You are finally, thanks to the machinations of a shitty world and the unwitting assistance given it by shittier humans, coming to the end of what you can give without dedicating a significant time purely to receive. There is no shame in that, nor is there obligation. The batteries of positivity need some long term recharge time. To that end, ya gotta find some serious self care and really devote yourself to that in the same way you devote yourself to your channel and us subs. I hope this doesn't come off as condescending or commanding, its meant in no other way than as genuine concern from a fellow human, for ya. I get the vibe as I watch this, that you, your soul, your essence would find great joy disconnected from technology and immersed in nature. Not like, park bench under a tree immersed, but like 'national park, no sounds of humanity, just you and the world' kind of nature. It's an actual spa treatment in japan! I get the feeling that you are pretty naturally an extrovert and that you gain rejuvenation around loved ones and close friends, and just worry that the 'fishbowl' affect has perhaps made you hesitant to lean into that tendency for your sanity's sake, and I hope that's not the case, but if it is, maybe the disconnection from technology and healing of nature can be shared with a few of your closest friends, people with whom you are just Sean, and don't have to be Jack around :) Take all of this with a grain of salt from a random empath who doesn't spend as much time on YT as he should, just know that I mean well, and want to help. Heck, odds are this gets lost in all the noise of the comments, and that's ok too. I'm still putting that intention out into the universe in the hopes it finds its way to you as a positive manifestation! If ya do see this, have somehow made it through this hekkin wall of text, and want to talk further, to just bounce ideas off of, or even just vent to, well I'm sure you have many friends filling that role in your life, if nothing else, I'd hazard a guess that probably 90% of your subs are really cool chill people who would listen to you with caring as Sean, I know I am one of them, what ya see is what ya get with me, hence this (probably cringe) comment of word vomit bahahahah but there is no question that so many in your life want to help, and the comments here show that there are hekkin millions of us ready to support you in the same way you have supported so many of us. Be well, Sean, none of us want you sacrificing your joy in any way to make us content, and you understand that. Manifesting love, peace, and positivity into your life man! -Elder Millenial with Boomer Vibes

This broke my heart to see how our bundle of joy, the one bringing a smile to our face is going through a hard time. It shows how much we don't know what is going on behind the cameras, i hope jack is taking the time to build himself, mentally, emotionally and physically and he gets better soon. I miss him, but i care for his health more than anything. Take your time jack, we love you!!!!

I'm pretty sure Jack just showed us what most KZfaqrs feel but just never really tell their viewers and that's one of the things that I'm frightened about.

This video perfectly encapsulates how depression and anxiety feel. Thank you Jack for sharing your experience and willing to be vulnerable. You're not alone, I've been suffering with the same feelings and hope that you find relief in your day to day struggles.

Sean. you've been one of the biggest parts of my life. I remember watching your videos back in 2014, and ever since then its been a wild adventure. I never realized how much stress you and some of the others felt. it must be a lot, and that's why I wanted to say thank you. for all of it. the videos. the laughs. its been amazing. thank you.

That clip of him quietly using his inhaler during a stream.... like yeah, that's what it's like. Ruled by an illness but at the same time weaving it into your normal, and a huge part of the time no one else ever even knows. We get so good at hiding our unhealth that it comes as a shock when we actually say we're chronically ill out loud

This hit… really deep. To me, it’s the sense of despair you feel creeping up on you as the days blend together and you pretend that you’re okay but it’s really not okay. You can’t think. You can’t feel. You can’t change. It’s endless.

i am so in awe of you. you’re a true inspiration and an amazing soul who doesn’t deserve the things that befall you. much love sean :’))

This is incredibly well done. I know how personal and emotional this probably was to film. And it’s amazing how you decided to show this side of your story. I go through stuff like this a lot, and i understand this to it fullest, and it’s helpful to know you do too. Thank you for sharing and thank you for your hard work.

I didn't expect something like that. Really impressive. Thank's for sharing this deep thoughts, and keep taking care of yourself, that's what's really important. Big hug!

This really makes me think. I don't want Sean to feel all the pressure after all the good times he has brought us. Please take care of yourself mate

Jack your my hero i've watch you When i was 6 You have Been though alot please don't give up we are all here for you we believe in you not to give up hope

The way my heart hurts when I think about how we can't do nearly as well to help you like you help us. Your message went nowhere unheard. We love you, Sean.

Absolute chills watching this, unless you have experienced any mental health yourself no one truly understands. So many see it as being weak, but that is not the case at all. I would never wish this on anyone. I, myself have unfortunately had 10 years+ of fighting the constant battles in my own head - you can be your own worst enemy. Everyday just getting out of bed is a victory Sean and you got this! 💜 I remember when my ex would tell me just to cheer up 😒 it's like someone breaking their leg and asking them to walk it off - not going to happen. Time really does heal and you are not alone.

Damn, seeing all the body language too. Even though he didn’t speak, his movements spoke volumes. The leg bouncing, the hand rubbing, the hands shaking, those are all signs of anxiety. Just.. damn man. I hope you’re doing okay and/or getting better!

Sean I appreciate you being you. You have never been more than or less than a decent human being. No matter your hardships in life, know you will forever have ppl that love you. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers, Sean.

No words needed, just thank you for filming this short master piece alot off people go through this and not a lot of people take on filming this stuff I myself have anxiety and depression so this is just a thanks for filming this 💜 respect

love you jack i promise everything will get better ❤️

I never would have thought that sean's silence can be this powerful.

Watched through the video once normally, and then one more time, with _just_ the audio, eyes closed.. It's eerie, uncomfortable, anxiety- inducing... and just builds and builds until the end. Very well done. Great job on the sound engineering!

Sean, you are an amazing person. There are so many people that go to you for support, me being one of them, and I just hope you know that no matter what you do or where you go people will be there for you, whether on KZfaq or somewhere else completely different. We all love you, never stop doing what you want to do.

This was actually really hard to watch. As someone who recognised almost every medication in this video and has taken about half of them, this was painful. I take 5 tablets before I get out of bed in the morning. I’m alive but not living. This was so painful, especially the ending.

the meds in his drawer really hit hard with me, beautifully done jack, absolutely beautiful!!

That is so relatable and sad... Just stay strong - as they say, "it's always darkest before the dawn". And you are not alone, Sean. There is always someone to be there for you.

I dont know what to say except thank you for the years of hard work and effort Sean, keep bringing joy to the world.