Written October 2023
Lyrics:
Well I finally have an answer for the fog and the fatigue
Such a shame that’s it’s an answer that’s never gonna leave
What if I make peace with the illness and she doesn’t with me ?
She locked up my old self just to tell me there’s no key
It’s ironic
You finally make a home
Just to lose the way you live
And I know it’s chronic
But I bet I’ll waste all my wishes
Hoping things will shift
While well-meaning insensitive
folks tell me it’s a gift
I didn’t know where my life was going
but I didn’t think this was it
I know
It could be worse
It could always be worse, it’s not a competition
I know
It could be worse, it could always be worse
It’s not a consolation
I know it could be worse, well things could always be worse
And I’m tired of this stupid conversation
Tell me why do people downplay grief like it’s their occupation ?
Or even worse tell me that suffering’s an inspiration ?
Well I don’t want your pity or a standing ovation
I just want three minutes to feel things
It’s not a selfish expectation
Don’t worry about me
I know how to move past things
But let me stay here for a moment
I’m gonna stay here for a moment
And take some time to grieve
‘Cause I finally got my answer for the fog and the fatigue
And I’m sad that it’s an answer that’s never gonna leave
And I know I can face this but it still feels hard to me
She locked up my old self and no one’s sure if there’s key
It could be worse, it could be worse,
I guess it could be worse
It could be worse, it could be worse
Oh my goodness, it hurts
But I guess it could be worse