Yes, hospitals are dangerous places.

@@Coneman3 oh it wasn't a hospital it was just a place where the state put people that had issues. It was a tiny building in the industrial area of Mesa, AZ. Fucking disgusting.

@@justindixon7441 same thing happened to me. It was the most disgusting place ever and they definitely treated you like prisoners. Boogers all over the walls and the water smelled like straight up rat piss. It was horrible.. places like that should be shut down.

Hi, I just want to know that were you put to a private mental hospital or government? Thanks, Hope you notice me.

Bingo

I can relate... i come up with inventions , new ideas etc but i always end up in depression cause of struggles i face to impliment

@@dagadadzm5335 Yeah, the worst part is when ppl think your life is perfect only becuase your smart

@@luk_s._.9154yea ofcourse they think so

@@luk_s._.9154 yea, similar things happen to me..

Macarena Naveda ikr

That part

hospital killed my daughter

I agree they watch you walk around fill you with meds when they see your stable they kick you out till the next time.

Having worked in a hospital, you're absolutely right. The hospital keeps the patients in as much as their insurance will cover. Each patient had a treatment team of recreation therapists, occupational therapists, doctors, residents, psychologists, and social workers who would meet weekly to discuss the patient and adapt treatment goals. The staff did as much as they could while the patients were in the system to try to treat/cure patients, but a lot of mental illnesses cannot be cured at this point in time, so the hospital just kept the patients there until they found a discharge - be that to another program or to a home. It was all situational. For the patients that couldn't be cured, the treatment would be focused on coping skills and minimizing their symptoms as much as possible.

I've worked there. I loved it but i admitted that we were not helping. It was mire like a mill, get them in, get them out!

Im sorry for your loss.

It is.

Emily Wilhite Sorry for your loss. I had inpatient care, and it was the same for me. I always had hope that if I ever got bad enough I could always try inpatient care. Then, when I saw what it was really like, it destroyed any hope I had left. I think I was left worse off afterward, as well.

How are you caring for yourself?

She was right. Sorry for your loss.

Betsy O'Rourke so true 💕

B a parent overly protecting their child from any difficulty is abuse

Betsy O'Rourke I hope ur kids now they have the worlds best mom

I have the same fellings help

@@leesimmons9091 Dagada DZM Best vedio in KZfaqkzfaq.info/get/bejne/bcphaaahvNaRn58.html Make you think deeply about,,,so many people are giving reaction about this... Know me how did you feel... Kill the nonsense in your mind(inshallah you will find your answers whatever it is)... Eye opening literally ❤️

Exactly. This.

I think in situations like this you gotta find something in your life that will make the after damage worth it. Your mental health and we'll being is more important. You gotta put your oxygen mask on before helping others. I hope this was helpful.

Marie Baird very true. Boundaries are super important.

You have to ask yourself if you really want to die or if you want to feel better so bad that you would die to feel better. Honestly, a lot of people have bad experiences with psychiatric hospitals and I have too. The best thing the psychiatric hospital did for me was wake me up to the fact that I needed to drastically change my life because there was no way I could go back to what was there before, of course I don’t have kids so I’m privileged. The second best thing the psychiatric hospital did for me was drive me crazy with trauma so much that whenever I have suicidal thoughts I think about how I absolutely refuse to be inpatient in a psych unit again and I gotta mentally work through this and remove some of the stressors in my life before it gets really bad. Even if you know it’ll damage your life after, people will be more aware of you problem and over time you will be more confident in talking about it and hopefully taking action. Do what you need to do

I spent three days in a behavioral unit a year ago and it was miserable. I was a nameless, faceless patient. Staff was kind to me but I can tell they mostly wanted to do their job on me, so I let them. I wanted to go home after all. We did all these demeaning groups that were a waste of time and money. The food was atrocious. There was nothing to do. I couldn’t have a phone or video game. How I’m supposed to self-harm with a Nintendo Switch is beyond me. It was a touch better than prison. I got my own room and there weren’t any bars. But the man on the other side of my shared bathroom was sometimes violent and disconnected from reality. What I learned from that experience is to cope with life and never talk frankly about my mental health issues. I might get sent to what feels like a prison for telling someone I need help. Oh and let’s not forget the thousands of dollars it costs.

Ouch looks like UBI Is needed

@C NB What are you even saying? 😂🤣😅

feel u 100%

If you have an active suicide plan, most facilities will cover the cost legally they have to admit you. That’s what happened to me her in AZ

Micro-dose Psilocybin. Take it every 3 days for 1 month.

That's it. That's exactly what I want to do. I want to end who I am symbolically. I've been through a heck of a lot of emotional/mental abuse by my father ever since my mom died, and it's screwed me up so badly. If I'm not laying in bed then I'm walking around the house listening to music with my earbuds. This has been going on for nearly five years now, and I'll finally be 18 next April. I'm planning on a full makeover; cutting my hair, trying makeup & new clothes, losing some weight, getting my first job, and finally having my own place. A place of my own where I can make new, happy memories and hopefully move on from my past.

What do you do now?

This is such an important concept. I think we should meet all suicidal / at risk people with this concept of being able to symbolically end the old self/old way of life. Proud of you and grateful for your example

@khronosfateless One thing I find helpful is making slow and steady changes where the bar for a new habit or goal is low enough to meet it no matter what. Say, you want to workout 45 minutes each morning but just start with 5. You get this boost of confidence in yourself when you meet goals. Make easy goals and a timeline to improve/increase those bars (and make the goals based on who you want to become years from now). Once you accomplish your “one most important thing” each day or meet a goal really celebrate it. Another thing is auditing what in your life is draining you. Do you need to change jobs too? Do you spend time with people who bring you down? Add things that make you feel better (hobbies, eating well, working out) slowly, but also cut out influences outside of yourself that are potentially harming you. Often depression is a result of long term stress and overwhelm. The unsustainable stress is almost always partly environmental -and can also be self imposed (ie being raised by perfectionist parents as a child). It’s also important to remember in the process that you have innate value- even if you aren’t “successful” or productive at any given moment in life, you are always enough.

But I loved my old self . This present guy is sad , negative. I was always happy & energetic. I’m 50 this is my first encounter with depression. It was triggered after my eye surgery, a month later insomnia..

I'm very sorry that you had that experience. I too have been looked upon as though I wanted a" week vacation" or even treated like a guinea pig and given different meds than I was prescribed. However I do hope that you continue to teach yourself about YOUR SPECIFIC DIAGNOSIS.. learn what's triggering the thought that you me human beings don't belong on the earth anymore.🙏💙

The same thing happened to me

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@Dana Hale me too 😢

I feel black, dark, and empty. The few times I feel SOMETHING... it's hatred of the fact the entire rest of this species I belong to is fucked up in the head.

@Dana Hale It certainly is. I just wish I could beam EVERYTHING I know into other people's heads. It would frighten the hell out of them... and bring them down to MY level...

@Dana Hale Sorry I lost interest. I just don't care, and want to die.

@Dana Hale Meds don't help me have a home. Meds aren't a person to help me when I can't help myself.

I was thinking of going inpatient. I don’t think I will now that I e literally seen so many don’t go comments. I’m sorry you had that experience

@@Daye2D410 depends on where you go

This was my experience, inpatient made me worse

@@Daye2D410 in my opinion it helped me so much but when I went in I was forced and didn’t want to accept the help and now I wish I could go back :(

I was forced to camp out in the common area for 30 hours where a woman with severe hallucinations and inability to properly communicate sat in the recliner next to me and took a p×ss into it as we watched Top Gun and eating oatmeal raisin cookies. It was absolutely heinous. These places where you're _supposed_ to find relief in a safe haven, are total tresh. Edit: The first time she took a leak on herself that day was when her and I decided to go with the Case Worker and bask🌞 Then as she's sitting on top of the big plastic trunk holding sports equipment, the CW and I both locked eyes like, "Are you fukin seeing this sh¡t right now?" Lol Her gown was drenched. She's dark skinned and she was so damn ashy that when she stood up to get help with that, you could actually see the evidence of ash that got wet - it was literal piss streams that channeled down to her socks🧦 It was secretly hilarious but at the same time, I felt so ashamed for being there. I also got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 there and wasn't given any medication at all until night 2 so, of course, I was hypervigilant and delirious considering the circumstances. I'm glad that I know another part of what's wrong, though but dang, these facilities have no soul whatsoever - like, do better.

I know this comment is old but yeh I feel the same way, I've been struglling with MDD for 5 years now, everytime i hear something like that now i just put on a fake smile and internally scream

girl same. Hugs 🫂 I know this isn’t easy but you’re not alone in this

This comment resonates with me so hard.. I am breaking down right now

frrr tho that’s like if someone’s arm broke and you’re like “here’s a bandaid.” like aight thanks bud. but anyways, i’m telling you that it will get better. been thru some dark dark days and i didn’t think i would make it. but i did. please jus hold on. it will get better. but if you give up then it cannot get better. if you hold on it will. circumstances will get better i know from experience. sending love and prayers ❤️

@@chi1610 lucky you, not everyone’s life goes that way, you’re did doesn’t mean s9mekne else’s will

Lack of financially stability definitely makes everything worse. All of 2019 was me searching for a stable job that made more than barely above minimum wage and not back breaking because physically I cannot do jobs like that and my anxiety was almost debilitating. Just anxiety attacks daily and panic attacks before interviews. My savings had run out and I had NOTHING. I finally got a tip on a job and applied and got it and now I've been recovering for the last 5 months.

Universal health care wouldn't create more psychologists and psychiatrists. There is a shortage.

"A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊 I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc

There is free counseling...it is very very beneficial. I have tried it. Since you can’t afford healthcare you should qualify for Medicaid which also pays for counseling...

@@jackcarterog001 actually, it does, if the government wants to...it's not what money is in the purse, but who holds the purse that decides how many doctors and therapists there are. A country that invests in free education from kindi to university, and a free healthcare system, would not be having these issues, but unfortunately, greed rules the hearts and minds of politicians. For profit corporations have bought them and are swindling people's taxes towards the rich and trying to convince us that our suffering and death is necessary and even patriotic.

Alice P im sorry you had that experience, did you read reviews about that hospital though?

Im so sorry :( that sounds terrible. Were the antipsychotics meant to augment another medication? Because anti psychotics can be used on conditions that aren't related to psychosis. I took some for a while

I went voluntarily too and it ruined my life. I lost my job for being away, was mistreated inside, and my family stopped respecting me when I came out. Going to the hospital is my biggest regret.

they prescribed me antipsychotics too, even tho im p sure i’m just depressed and suicidal

I’m so sorry you experienced that trauma. There is still so much discrimination and abuse of those with mental illness.

I almost thought the same thing until I noticed the dog on the ground and I think the camera angle was to make the dog more noticeable because a dog has a calming effect to people.

Omg you saved me

Thank you for sharing this information, fr 🙏 ✨

This! This is great info right here.

True. You can't use your laptop, but you can use your roommates methadone. Inability to function implies that neglecting work for 3 weeks is not an option. Re-learning to function is anxiety provoking, it takes practice, and it requires support. It's time to evolve.

Nia Pgn awful

Hey, welcome to the east coast mental health care. I was treated in a facility in CT. So I feel your pain there.

East coast mental health care fucking sucks. I have too many stories

I really loved this video and very well explained. I was suffering from Depression for a long time. I got to clear my thoughts and move ahead overcoming Depression with the help of #RicckyKa I would also request everyone to also watch the video from #RicckyKa on Depression and Mental disorders. It’s really very good and gives all the solutions to overcome and avoid any mental brain related disorders.

Marsha Magic Why when I read this did I automatically think of Strong? I live in Rochester and Strong CPEP sucks. I knew right away. They always acted like I was there for attention. My suicidal thoughts were just attention seeking.

You’re so right about the travel. Always helps with my depression and gives me hope too.

That’s so encouraging!

I agree and it makes perfect sense. I’ve noticed my son becoming depressed and he’s developed severe anxiety when we moved to this small rural town from the east coast. I am going to move back to a busier city and take him on a vacation because this town honestly sucks and it’s causing me to become depressed too.

I wish I had money so I could travel too .. I'm dying to experience it at least once in my life Good for you tho I'm happy you got better

This is it!

I really hope things improve for you 🙏😔

Me too

😶exactly how Im feeling now

@Jefparkn Your post is identical to my every single thought. I only go through the motions. I am completely numb and derive no pleasure from anything. I am ashamed to tell anyone how bad it has gotten. I don’t want sympathy. I would be embarrassed for people to feel sorry for me. I have dogs that depend on me too. I don’t want anyone in my life to feel guilty. I would not leave a note. The only thing stopping me is my fear of botching it up and not going to heaven.

@Jefparkn In some irrational nonsensical crazy way, your post caused a slight neuron spark. To know someone's situation exactly to the letter describes my own thoughts and what I am going through.... I think posting anonymously on a You Tube thread because you don't care to share with anyone in your life speaks to me too. At least you know you are not alone in your situation. I had previously replied but just needed to share this with you.

they are awful

Exactly

And that problem and bescue of that no one gets help

same

Not to mention the fact cop's will damn near harass you every damn time they see you on the street. And they will search for anything and everything they can to send you back to the hospital. I was walking down the street one time and apparently somewhere near by a guy wrecked his truck and walked off. I was stopped by a cop who demanded my ID and all because I refused to give him my ID he cuffed me and put me in the back of the cruiser and another cop that had dealings with me in the past showed up and even though I clearly wasn't the guy who wrecked out because I told the cop to "fuck off you're not getting shit pig" which is my legal right the cop that knew me said I was in an "obvious mental health crisis's" and was being "belligerent" and "aggressive" towards law enforcement so I was illegally forced into the mental hospital and when I was released that same night the cop then tried pulling shit out his ass again to get me sent back.

totally

Yeah I got admitted with people shitting on the floor, screaming constantly, or didn't know who they are. I felt bad for them but was freaked out for just having depression.

Yes, this video is a load of rubbish. Horrible advice from clueless people. They should delete this out of shame and learn some respect.

Yes ! WHERE ??

I'm asking the same. I need help... but real help. But, I cannot get more than phone and zoom calls. Words over the phone, hearing the same thing..... I cannot reframe the tragedy, I cannot escape the trauma and loss. Move on.? To what?... my life just was destroyed.... not yours. They're paradime, or suggestions... maybe possible in your mind.... but, not mine.

I used to have a great life a month ago and after taking an antibiotic and having an allergy reaction the docs didn’t even care I told them no I didn’t want to take it anymore but ended up taking 5 doses except for one. The side effects were nonstop trembling high depression Hugh anxiety and it took a week to get somewhat back to normal though anxiety was still lingering and so I decided to try acupuncture maybe this is what set it off idk but after an hour after the session I became extremely sensitive which I wasn’t warned about apparently that can happen after that I lost my appetite and started getting low pleasers from life and now I tried to get a psychologist but was referred to psychiatry like always and of course instead of wanting to work through my traumas they immediately ordered an antidepressant I just didn’t say no because I just wondered what would happen if I had said no. I think I have mid high functioning depression because it does seem to interfere and to make matters worse my sleep is weird now too I have a routine but even then when I sleep I go to sleep for a couple hours and wake up hyperventilating for no reason go back to sleep couple hours later wake up again same thing then 3 hrs later same thing. I am just super tired emotionally and right now is the worst since it seems I cannot talk to anyone who relates since this stupid covid thing. I hope at least you can grow and get better hopefully I will too I am gonna try almost anything I can before even thinking about meds because that is what got me here in the first place why would they think that I would trust them again especially after the way they treated me! 🤦❤️ I have kaiser currently trying to apply for medi - cal so I don’t have to deal with kaiser.

I wouldn't trust a therapist either. They fill you full of drugs that turn you into an emotionless zombie and possibly an addict. The therapist I was seeing one day got a better job offer up the country and her replacement was a cold mf. The drugs were the worst part. I went from a caring person to a violent zombie. Two fellas jumped me and apparently I stick one of them in the liver. Can't remember doing it. Thankfully I got sick of the tablets and haven't had any in 9 months. Was going good until my dog got really sick with cancer. Sadly she doesn't have long left. And tbh I'm done as soon as she passes. I kept hundreds of those tablets exactly for this moment. I'm not afraid, in fact I'm happy to finally be done. Can I just say that you are pretty and seem to be a nice person and I'm sure any man/woman would be so happy to have you. I hope life works out for you. Remember that if you do ever decide to do it that it's a done deal. You only get one shot. I know it sounds hypocritical coming from me. But even though I'm done, it doesn't mean that I shouldn't try to help you. I actually care about other people in my shoes. And I just want you to know that there is somebody that cares about you. Stay strong kid. ✊

listen to some calming sound like this kzfaq.info/get/bejne/mZqnqtpqprSZdYU.html any sound that brings you closer to relaxation like the sound of nature (rain, river, wind, etc.). I deal with my depression & anxiety through these.

@@thefightisalwaysfixed8890 hey you you still there 😨😭😰

If it doesn’t interfere with your day to day life than you don’t have depression sweetie

A great book on amazon which will help with mental health www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B08MDK65QG

Couldn’t have said it any better myself

How they miss the logic that lawsuits come from MALtreatment, nor right, good, or fair, humane treament, I don't know. I once asked how come they treated me badly , making me worse,and the answer I got from the mental health staff was :"In order for you not to like it too much here and not wanting to leave". What a sick,cruel and preposterous logic! And they might tell who might be at risk for that, I am not the type liking to be locked in, idle with empty days and the only helpful thing being regular meals. Because I was not even left in peace in my room, despite being there for severe insomnia. I am so grateful for DAA which helped me off medicine addiction around 2008. It tookme 2 years, and I felt such a relief in my body and noted symptoms of side-effects (=illness!) peter out! Painful back-cramps went, body rashes and dark circles around my eyes! The sleep I now get is mine, with aid of homeopathy and calming minerals, as well as prayer, acceptance, understanding, forgiveness,gratitude and self-inquiry.

i don’t have autism but i also suffer from being easily over stimulated by noise. when i was admitted i constantly had to take breaks in another room or outside because the other patients were banging on walls or screaming at eachother or both. i wish they offered accommodations for this! unfortunately some people will try to choke on earplugs to hurt or kill themselves.

@@mae1011 Right? They seriously should take into consideration that some people struggle with loud noise. You could choke on anything, even the food they feed us, so why make earplugs (which some people need) unaccessible?

Oh no omg I don’t have autism but loud noises bother me so much I can’t stand them this makes me so nervous

@@fiahahahahha3727 What I usually tried to do is stuff toilet paper in my ears. It didn't help much, but it was something

@@statickitten good to know thank you, literally just had a mental breakdown cause our fire alarms went off for 2 hours

I think their version of depression is "not feelin' super duper"

Right. You know. It's like. You know. Like OMG! Like. Y'know? Follow the farkin' money. Bet they all work for some arsehole insurance company.

@@ellebasi88 actually it does matter. you can try to help someone who just got in a car accident and then you move them, and then their bones break. The same applies here. Just "trying" to help, whether or not you have a single fucking clue what youre talking about, does absolutely nothing or can make things worse in many cases.

I agree. Especially with the jolly ending. "just remember no matter what your going though, you got this" -I haven't felt like "I've got this" for a long time.

exactly. Most of these so called professionals are just drug dealers in it for the money. Their first go to is a ton a pills and pills can make it worse. In fact the main side effects of antidepressants is suicidal tendencies

Sara Pattishall from a rape survivor I don’t even compare the two. I have been inpatient over 25 times and thank God or I’d be dead

I also have ptsd from being shot at

I can relate to the feeling of being mentally “raped” Yes it is not compared to physical rape but it is a violation. To be forcibly violated, to feel powerless and utterly destroyed. It is no less a very real experience just as they have found that emotional pain is comparable to physical pain in the brain.

Absolutely agree with that sentiment towards these places. I was forced to take medication that lowered my blood pressure to dangerously low levels, despite me telling them that that would happen. I also was forced to reveal personal health information to my family with penalty of being forced to stay even longer. They also violated my right to medical privacy. The nurses and doctors were jaded and power hungry and the only people there who made me feel some sort of relief were the actual patients, but often time staff would yell at us for doing so. This was at the Volusia County Hospital in Daytona Beach, FL.

I experienced the same. The lack of autonomy and respect in these places is extreme and traumatizing. I'm so sorry you went through this nightmare too... you didn't deserve it 🌻

You are hero💯👊

Well done - you actually have incredible strength and resilience, maybe more than you realize! Your comment has actually lifted me a bit because I feel the same. I've made more progress by myself and reading your comment jusr made me realize that and it feels good! Thank you and I hope you are keeping well 🙏 x

Same here, I've done better dealing with it on my own than with "professional" help which is extremely depressing because honestly I know I need the help but I can't find it anywhere. I've just been more truamatized. Sending you so much love dude I'm sorry you've experienced similar 🌻

I feel the same. I’m sorry.

I agree with you that the stigma is just as strong

Agreed. It's like describing pregnancy to to someone who has never been pregnant, or insomnia to someone who naturally crashes when their head hits the pillow. Depression is extremely hard to explain.

@@projectionv.accountability1010 felt that insomnia part

@@sunkid02 Insomnia has got to be one of the levels of hell.

@@projectionv.accountability1010 BRUH 🤦🏿‍♂️

Same🙁

Please hang on 🙏🙏 I’ll be praying for you

Same

same bro

I just hope you are still alive and let go of those notes. Write down how you feel in journal and write 1x a day what you are grateful for.

This is wrong!

Disgusting, I'm so sorry this happened to you.

Sadly, that's not always the case. A lot of the time, the patients are disrespected, ignored, and/or put on pills or crazy diets instead of actually helping them. I hate mental hospitals so much.

x_KitKat_ x can confirm. Worked in the area of a psych hospital as a medical provider (before moving on to purely upper management) The handling of psych patients is almost always not professional or up to standard. Some people end up getting admitted for “prolonged stays” (as a way of racking up insurance charges) while others get prescribed unusually high doses of SSRIs. An all around disaster, avoid the psych ward if possible.

I recently mustered up the strength to ask for help because I didn't want to give in to my feelings and attempts of suicide from 16 years constant. I was in a hospital mental health building where they watch and nurses look after you. I thought it would be good for me. I got a room that I woke up in every day with workmen staring at me like I was in a zoo because I got the only room without curtains and they told me to just deal with it and get changed around the corner because all but one nurse was too lazy to get spare curtains. I even put them up myself when they finally got them. They stole food I got, they treated me like a child who doesn't know or understand anything. And I was told I'm broken and negative and need to be fixed because I'm bad. Exact words. They were so bad with their security even. I had a bag with me that had several sharp objects in it and it took them 3 hours to take inventory of all my items and still missed several things such as a dart from a dart board and a lighter. I even managed to trick their phsych team into letting me leave because I miraculously got rid of all the life long mental health disabilities I have lol. I'm currently dealing with 16 years of pure incomparable bottling of weekly suicide attempts. Borderline personality disorder (all 9 symptoms lol). Severe depression and anxiety, an overactive thyroid and peturity gland and a few more. Probably a few I don't know about because I'm scared to talk about it. I've just walked away from an abusive relationship where there was narcissism, manipulation, physical abuse and allot of what I've learned as gaslighting. I'm probably not going to reach out any more than typing on KZfaq comments. I've been not asking, not just trying but begging for help. But I've even been told from a professional "your too far gone and nothing can stop it, your gone and it's too late". ALL I WANT IS TO NOT HURT. These videos help me understand myself allot more. But I wish I could speak to someone like this who doesn't just have a qualification, but an understanding as well. To all those people out there hurting and confused, at least if you get the strength to ask your life can change. Some of us have no hope left but to die and yet wet don't want to. But it's the only way to end the suffering you know will always haunt and torture you mentally and physically. Get help before it's too late. Or you'll be commenting on KZfaq videos feeling hopeless and wishing you had a purpose in life and had the same possibilities for help most of you do. Do it for yourself because you deserve it.

@@ekatskatingrink they keep checking on cameras for 24/7 without any reason

@@ekatskatingrink I would never go

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Stay strong!! Hope you feel better soon xx

I know it's been a year and this isn't much but this calms me down and makes me feel a lot better I like to play this in my sleep and it just makes me feel less anxious and more hopeful somehow you don't need any scamming doctors or medication anyway ❤️ kzfaq.info/get/bejne/adZ-o6uLlt_aY30.html

Hope you’re doing okay or in a better place

I feel the same way girl.

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e76Berd607bUiok.html kzfaq.info/get/bejne/g8qSobiUu5rPj30.html

My mom would threaten to send me to the looney bin as a kid.

@@GhostMonkey772 That's wonderful that you found something to help you out of depression and you're doing so much better and you're clean now! I wish you all well ❤️

@@joyrambin9196 Thanks Joy! ❤

Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to give shrooms a try.

Yes, dr.sporesss

Dr.sporesss is the best, he's been my go to for anything psychedelics.

Is he on instagram?

Yes he is. dr.sporesss

Susan Green truth

This is an insane and ridiculous society. I recently tried to improve my life, BUSTED MY ASS off to fix my life, and even quit 25 years of heavy drinking (COLD TURKEY!)... and looking back at it, I can only think "I wish I retried my suicide attempt so I could have gotten it right, last time..."

Humanity is a lost cause Self centered lunatics Same. No alcohol stuff but the busting my ass for years to try to get better, trying even harder over the past year, and just got done writing in my journal about how I can’t think of one reason to continue this agonizing life. Not one. I’m so sorry you are feeling similarly. And pissed that there’s no real help for us. All I can say is I hold your hand, wherever you are, and sit with you in the same pain.

Now here's hoping my "improvements" don't end up being MORE of a stress >.< That's about my luck lol

yup.

Never been but just feel like I am unstable I need a better place to live and no matter how much I try housing is a issue I need to move not enough income I want to better myself for the good

I feel this will b great opportunity to get rest and refocus my life

The Public mental hospitals are free. The private ones cost a bunch though.

The only reason I work in a hospital right now. Part time. I drag myself in through the depression for the insurance

I can't get help either I'm a child so yeah and my parents won't get me a therapist they said they would but they never did they just pressured me more

Going through this right now. My dad recently passed from Covid. He was diagnosed with depression but I didn’t know until after he died I got diagnosed with lupus very young at 17 . He did everything for me- worked, was at hospital visits, made me meals, and paid for everything despite me pretty financially independent in HS. I feel horrible now knowing during that time how many demons he was facing and I didn’t help him. There’s no way he would’ve put himself first though.I’m not sure what the solution is but I really wish I did

I'm really sorry they restrained you. Why did you go into a manic episode?

@@thesaddestdude3575 they said they didn't have their Seroquel. I know if I don't have mine I can go through withdrawal and more likely to get manic again when having bipolar disorder and unmedicated.

same here

They can tie me to a bed but I'm taking two down with me

​@@TheJanayWellsShowwhat state was this in did they Russell you to the floor

It may help Dagada DZM Best vedio in KZfaqkzfaq.info/get/bejne/bcphaaahvNaRn58.html Make you think deeply about,,,so many people are giving reaction about this... Know me how did you feel... Kill the nonsense in your mind(inshallah you will find your answers whatever it is)... Eye opening literally ❤️

I understand from personal experience with parental narcissistic abuse. I also have identified cptsd. I am hoping this book may help as I also haven't been able to find useful professional support in my area. -: You can thrive after narcissistic abuse by Melanie Tonia Evans. There is good information on KZfaq by Melanie and another channel by Ross Rosenberg helped me understand more. It needs to be identified and studied much more effectively as it is more common/complex than many realize. Hope you find/found the help you need. You are not alone in your fight for recovery. Xo

so sorry. have you been on Daily Strength online? it's a free support group for people who are struggling. i find it way better than the suicide hotline which usually sucks. check it out. people will chat with you there. it's not religious or anything. it's not perfect but it's helped me feel less alone. people there will understand how you feel and what you are going through.

@@wordswordswords8203 I appreciate you taking the time to share. I haven't tried them but will check it out. Enough is ENOUGH Bless you !

Check out Tim Fletcher's KZfaq videos on complex PTSD

Did you find any solution for your wife since then?

n i was admitted against my will after an attempt i hated it. Till one day i finally caved and went to crafts. I had originally said "I'm not going to color like a six year old." Well, we did some leather stamping and staining to make wrist bands, and some cool wooden boxes. I loved it. Once my outlook changed it really helped, and i saw the place in a different way. It was me being difficult, and i saw after that many employees actually wanted to help.

How did you get better? What's your formula

Call out to Jesus. He loves you and wants to heal you & free you from all of it! My testimony is so long to share it here. I will tell you I was breathing bc I had air in my lungs but I felt dead and drowning in despair. . He picked up my brokeness and making it new! I will tell you that what Hes done for me He can do for you too. All glory to God. There is none like Jesus.🥰

I truly agree with you. In order to get help. you have to say that you're suicidal and I don't want to go that far and being label as suicidal it's even hard to get a therapist do to the covert so many people looking for therapist.

She is talking about those with money. Forget the rest of us.

@@zenseed75 most that need help don’t have money or access to quality healthcare, this is a fact! Most treatment centers are there to make a profit sound terrible but it’s a fact. Big Pharmaceutical, make billions on peoples suffering. The truth is, profit over health and why cure any disease if we can profit from it. It’s sickening

@@chgofirefighter so sickening. Literally. 😭

Unfortunately only New York have option of alternatives for hospitalization. In New York they are called mental health respites centers that are modeled as bed & breakfast retreat.

Hi Kati r u feeling any better , hope OK to ask . I have been in a depression for 8 months now and have suicidal thoughts every day . I'm not very good educated pls excuse my grammer

Thats the reason why ive never spoken up, i'm scared that they will hospitalize me and that i have to go through somthing like that. The thing is, as much as it helps to go through psychiatric therapy there will always be an element missing, for me what helps the most is talking with others who have the same problems. The thing is, talking with somone who you feel you can really trust and really cares, a freinds who know your struggles is really the best. Sadly i don't have that kind of friends and its a complicated story. So i mostly hang about forums with other people who feel the same, like comment sections as these. How are you doing now? has things improved?

No. There are many. I cry so much tha I tell people that It's the eyedrops I'm prescribed that make my eyes red and watery.

Indeed, ive done that for about a year, but im going back to life as it is now, and honestly im scared as hell, walking down the hallways at Uni feels so uncanny, everything feels as a dream. I just know the others are gonna start hating me soon enough, just as highschool and school. In not too long the pressure gonna rise im gonna start failing classes as i usually do and the others are gonna stop talking with me. Atliest i hope its not like highschool where the others actively despised me. For the most part i just feel like scaling the building... and you know. It doesn't help that ive found a unsecure roof access. But i know im too scared to, i just feel like i want to crawl out of my skin, im so tired of myself, i cant even look myself in the mirror anymore.

I agree 100%

While that sentment is good and all, we have to remember that the psychiatrists need to be paid too. Somhow.

AMEN!

Well maybe not in the hundreds of thousands. @@thesaddestdude3575

Get a skill bro. Anything that you can confidently say you're good at. It will bring Fullfillment and keep the voices silent.

@@westy229 I always have active suicidal thoughts I just never act on them I plan to but I know I won't

@@westy229 im pretty sure part of the definition of depression is lack of want to do things you once enjoyed. Shut up

@@windows-kx1of i feel you

@@westy229 Actually, that was a very good suggestion. Thank you!

Oof, I am really sorry to hear that man. If there is anything I can do to help please let me know

Horrible experience! Don’t do it!

Hang in there ..... Prayers for right help people to come give you strength. One friend or listener can give a boost ❤

You should definitely ask for help.

Okay I will try my best thanks

My mum has gone through depression so when I realised I was severely depressed, I was terrified of opening up. Eventually it all become too much and i told her. She was perfectly understandable and she’s helping me get the help I need. She said she’s been where I am and it’s not a nice place to be at all.

@@joberogerson4950 that's good and I hope your doing good I'm going to therapy and I don't cut I just have a rubber band and I'm glad you told your mom

I completely relate. Took the words right out my mouth. Edit: just told my mum everything... She gave me tips and a long hug. I cried the whole time. So worth it!

What is the name of the facility?

Try a religious retreat camp which can be similar. Best wishes!

I too have been admitted 3 times and feel the same about the programmed schedule. I'm afraid I will need to go again but I don't want to

@@evenamber ditto. I have a line of sorts with my thoughts that, when I cross, I know I need to be admitted. I hate to admit how far along that line is, but I haven't reached that point for a while now. However, I am frequently worried about getting close.

Are you OK, Jesus loves you

I’ve never been to a psych ward but in those situations I would assume that all the people there would be tested and those who are positive would go into quarantine and then get admitted.

aydenly going through it too fam, wish you nothing but the best. Don’t know what to say other than the cliches, stay strong and keep moving forward.

Same.

Exact same ... except I’m 26 and I’ve been dealing with this since elementary school I’ll say

21 days dam tough the stay was for 2 weeks

I'm wicked close to homelessness because I went crazy during my first marriage. My ex-husband got me to cosign on a house he kicked me out of the day after we closed on it. I went to a hospital because I felt like killing myself. I can't afford the help despite having a job and am living in a shack without running water, or electricity now. I might have been better off killing my ex-husband and going to jail where I'd get free help.

@Angerlyinn Greed thank you. I'm doing better now. It's been 9 months since my reply. I have a road to the shack and a well dug. Saving up for electricity and eventually a very small home on a foundation.

I also went voluntarily because I knew I needed the intense care. The staff was truly amazing and helped me grow so much.

Please tell me/us, what did you receive in mental hospital that helped you?That is so interesting and important, contradicting my own and manys' experience?!

Ew

Why do you think you will lose your job. If you live in a western country, discrimination laws protect you for unfair dismissal. If it is true that you would be sacked for admitting you need help, would you want to work for them. U would say your happiness is more important than a job. Can you not get a different job? There are many different jobs out there.

As a pilot who lost their medical, I understand

@@mickeypearce244 If he is a pilot or a doctor or in a government job, he'll be unemployed..

@@harls4387 scary. Can you tell more about that?

I feel this so hard. That’s what stops me from getting the help and the way America is these days it’s so hard to get help without losing your job or your whole entire savings account just to feel ok.

I was put in psych ward by my sister after a suicide attempt also,they did nothing, didnt talk to me,the only "group" talking was asking what our favorite old show was,something like that nothing about why we were there or what was going on in our lives. Maybe some got more help but I was ignored, just laid in bed most of time waiting to be released

@@Flyonthewall444 Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry you experienced that. I can definitely relate. The groups I went to seemed very superficial; we filled out basic worksheets together about coping strategies, did crafts, etc. I feel like they need to take a much more intense approach.

Those places suck, every time I come out I feel more depressed.

Agreed. They are absolutely horrible.

That sounds like shit luck..

Dude, are you still going? I really hope so, i feel the same for the most part. Just hang in there.

Look into psylocibin mushrooms, they’re becoming more popular as a very strong treatment for severe depression like yours. I’ve been considering it myself, not sure where to find thwm

@@dabulls1g Yes we need to find the shrooms for our depression. I wish I knew how to grow them myself.

Same boat, only less meds because I don't even have the money to try.

Pray to Him. He will help.

💖💖💖 How are you doing ?

Did things get better?

I'm a child myself. The main part of my depression, if not all of it is caused by the loss I feel when I'm with my mother. It feels like I lost her to sadness. It honestly feels like she died a long time ago. You must remember that your energy afects your children more than you know. From experience, if your child is depressed, see to it that you are not the cause. Be positive and happy. You will see an improvement. That is what I would tell my mum if I were brave enough.

@@user-ol5bj4dm2v yes. I agree.

Same but my mom died in November, I’ve been feeling lost and it’s so quiet in my house, I hope you’re doing okay

Bro you need to seek help in order to learn how to greave. Don't make the same mistake I did beliveing I could just block it out and handle it myself because it catches upto u in the end.. but you have the opportunity to seek help now in the early stages. Be totally open my friend to family close friends and most importantly to your doctors. I held all my grievances and my trauma my emotions and I can tell u now if I had to do it all again I would have been honest form the beginning to save all the suffering I've been through.

Stay strong and speak to someone.

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e76Berd607bUiok.html kzfaq.info/get/bejne/g8qSobiUu5rPj30.html

Well, it really differs. I know somone who has benefitted from it, but i also know some bad stories, not te emntion some of the stuff i have seen on the web, I think it really depends on the instiution.

I have 3 cute doggos and they are like my natural antidepressants sometimes 🙏❤️🐶🐶🐶

I know the people are trying to help but they just seem too bubbly like actors. The dog I'll listen too.

Call out to Jesus. He loves you and wants to heal you & free you from all of it! My testimony is so long to share it here. I will tell you I was breathing bc I had air in my lungs but I felt dead and drowning in despair. . He picked up my brokeness and making it new! I will tell you that what Hes done for me He can do for you too. All glory to God. There is none like Jesus.🥰

Those people that don't look opon those that take things into thier own hands and leave here on thier own terms as brave people obviously haven't ever been in the place where you see this sucky world as it is. You know your there when the answer to the question of what could ever make you joyous and happy if there were no limits to your every want doesn't exist for you.

If you want help, maybe i can help. Talk to me.

Hi. That's real nice offer. But im sure you dont want to hear all these awful things I go through on a daily basis. Its terrible and I dont want anyone else to have even one bad minute on account of me. You sound like a great human being. Thank you for you caring. Thats the nicest thing anyone has said or done for me in a very long time. Thank you again.

@@jayeo9032 every life is precious. Don't feel bad. If I can help in the slightest, then it's worth it.

@@htmoh8115 Thats so selfless of you, gives me a bit more faith in humanity. I don't have any friends so someone to talk to would really be amazing. I'm in a relationship going on four years. He is an addict in recovery who keeps relapsing and just found our nest egg is GONE. He wont get a job. So he he sits around all day projecting his bullshit on to me but he is angry, aggressive, verbally abusive(severely). I wake in the morning and make a cup of coffee and go outside and sit outside for hours so i dont have to be near him. Im talking hours...crying. This is al on top of severe PTSD and Major Depression and even bipolar disorder and I am diagnosed epileptic. I'm in the middle of trying to get disability so I cant work. Its just a mess. A big poopy mess. I just know that I cant continue to feel like this...im like dying inside. Well, thanks for the vent😉 That's a quick rundown.

@@jayeo9032 you don't have friends? Sad to hear that. Firstly, you need to leave your partner. He is adding fuel to your problems. At least 75% of your problem will heal if you leave. When did your epileptic start? Does medication work?

Agreed, i have not seen this, but i know several who has, most of which got better from being hospitalized but i did remember them talking about specefic people there who were cold and uncaring.

Bless you dear, sending you lots of love and hugs