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Cutting is weird. It's a constant state of fear and relief at the same time. Fear of physical pain, relief from emotional pain.

just came to see my reason to make sure I’m not just looking for attention from myself

I’ve grown up being told that self-harm was just cutting your wrists. So I have punched myself, grabbed my hair as hard i can, bit myself, dig my claws into myself, etc, and kept going because I thought it wasnt self harm. ⚠️WE NEED TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT SELF HARM ISNT JUST CUTTING⚠️

For me, it’s a euphoric feeling. It makes me feel powerful, it makes me feel good to look down and see the scars because it means I’m strong. It is about control for me, always has been, and even when I’m in a good and stable place I still have a need to do it.

Sometimes self harm starts for one reason and continues for a million other

i thought my phone broke at the beginning

video creator: “i hope this helps people to talk with their doctor..” reality: “i hope my parents never see this..”

I frequently want to self-harm due to loneliness. When im feeling "touch starved", i start to self-harming.

sending love to everyone who harms right now, has harmed, is trying to stop, or already stopped. i hope you all find happiness soon. you deserve it, even if you forget that sometimes💞💞

Reasons people self harm:/ ***self harm is injuring yourself*** 1. To feel something. They feel a strong emotion, depression, anger. 2. To feel anything, they might feel numb. It fills a void. 3. To have a sense of control..feeling out of control, self harm is their control. They feel in charge of their choises. 4. It feels like a relief. It can feel like relief..this is maybe why they do self harm. Self harming calms..but carried by guilt. 5. Form of self punishment...they may believe they deserve the pain. 6. A way to communicate without words. Hurting themself is probably then trying to get help without using words. This is very hard, anyone who has, or is self harming I am truely sorry, and I hope everything in your life gets better. No matter what you think otherwise, you are worth it and beautiful. I love you, and so many more people love you to believe it or not. I struggle with this too but I try my hardest to not self harm. 🙁💘

I started because I found out I liked pain. Even when I was pretty young, I liked certain pains. It was calming. I'd let myself get hurt on purpose just to enjoy the cuts and bruises. I didn't start officially self harming until middle school, and instead of just enjoying the sensation, it was to numb myself when I was feeling overwhelmed by something, oftentimes when I was angry. Instead of lashing out, I'd aim it at myself. I haven't in a while, now! I still like pain a great deal, but I don't seek it anymore, though I do enjoy getting tattooed a little too much.

I know that many people fear that they are self harming for attention and I'm one of them but... what if we actually are? It hurts, and it's scaring, it's a terrible thing to do to yourself. So maybe we are doing it for attention, but it is because we need it desperately, because we want someone to see us and notice the pain we're going through and it is nothing to feel guilty about. What you're feeling is valid.

Me who self harms, watching this knowing it’s going to trigger me like 👁👄👁

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one of my favourite people on earth started self harm lately and here i am in tears trying to understand her behaviour as i'm trying to be as understanding and as comprehending as i can be. she's my favourite person.

I once read about how healing process boosts serotonin in our bodies. Then it suddenly hit me - my self harming for "no reason" was actually a desperate attempt to get this sweet, sweet serotonin boost! Crazy!

This hits hard. Back in the days when those methods were comforting.

I do it because I deserve to feel pain and I feel like I’m giving myself punishment. Edit: 7 months later, I don't self-harm anymore! I'm actually doing alright nowadays and I hope some of like people who liked/replied can say the same.

I never knew people did it to feel satisfied, if always done it as a punishment to myself

I use to say when I was young I can hurt myself more than you can hurt me. That’s when I started to hurt myself

Sometimes I feel like I’m a box. And there are all these books filling up. The books are all the things that I did wrong. The books never go away. The box is my life. Self harming tips the box, so all the books fall out. But, twice the amount of books come back. Sometimes I wish I can turn the box upside down. Completely let all the books fall out forever. But, then the books fall. They would fall onto everyone I know. Sometimes I have “panic attacks”. It feels like someone covered my box up, but the books are still coming in. The pressure increases and increases until I can’t handle it and I have to tip my box over by self harming.

I hurt myself because I am so afraid to be hurt by others. How ironic. :(

Reasons why i like psych2go: 1. They understand emotions and stuff 2.Helps me (idk how) 3.Its always really calm and never mean and stuff like that

I stopped myself for a bit, but I have started again, and that's why I'm here, watching this video. I find it a better way for me to open up rather than talking to people, and so far it is working, I mean, I'm still here living, maybe not quite living mentally, but definitely living physically. Thanks for all the videos!

the first 10 seconds of a silent black screen was the perfect time for me to stare off into space and then shit myself when the video actually started

This makes me a little sad

Just wanted to say that these videos along with others are great- one of my friends was cutting frequently but after he sought out help with us he’s been much happier and hasn’t cut since which is really encouraging🤞☺️

I have never understood why people have harmed themselves, but now I have a better understanding. Thank you for making this video

I have a girlfriend who does self harm, and this video is really helpful

I feel like this helped me a little because I've been trying to find a reason why I even self harm. It's such a hard thing to explain since for me it just happened, it was like I lost control of myself and something took over. I'm still trying to figure out why I do it. I know I shouldn't, but it's not easy to stop. Please, if you are reading this, dont start, it will turn into an addiction that you could struggle with for a very long time. You might not even know why you do it, which makes it even worse when people ask why you did it. Please if you are having these thoughts, reach out and get help of some kind. It can be hard, but you can do it. I believe in you. And please keep going on with life

I find your voice so immeasurably calming while describing very difficult topics. Subscribed!

Number five is why I've cut from the age 13-32. There have been bouts where I've gone 5 years without self punishment, but it always comes back around. I've learned that a part of my depression cycle is self punishment. For me, it's a cycle that I can only embrace until I understand enough to move forward. One day I will not punish myself for "bad" actions or misdeads. I'm still working towards that day and I know it will come, but I can not punish myself for punishing myself.

I’ve been having thoughts of relapsing lately, so I’m watching this to try and better myself - it seems like educating myself is time better spent than hurting myself

for me, i used to self harm as a way of punishment. as a way to punish myself for being who i am. i felt as though my feelings were invalid to everyone around me and that there was something wrong with me. i’ve never felt like a normal person ever since i was a child. i let other people’s words define me. i lived for them and not for me.. as of now, i want everyone to know that you are who you are and that’s okay. you don’t have to change for anyone. you’re beautiful and worthy of so much love. i know sometimes it may feel like you’re drowning, like you’re fighting a battle everyday in your head, and like there’s no in the world who loves you. but by me you are loved, and you are perfectly made. ❤️ be strong

It was very hard for me to explain to my loved ones why I used to self harm, in this video you have made it clear and simple, thank you for that

I am so glad that a channel is tring educate people.

TW: Mentions of self harm, suicide As a 13 year old who does/has self-harmed, it's hard to explain why you do it, unless you have just done it or are about to. I know I shouldn't do it, but it's hard. For some reason, the littlest thing's can make me suicidal or want to harm myself. Recently it's been getting worse these past 3 days, I don't know why or how. It got so bad that 2 days ago I constantly thought of suicide, and how I would do so either in the near future, or anytime soon. Yesterday, I harmed myself. It didn't quite fill the void. So then I attempted suicide. I was supposedly around a minute or 2 from being unconscious, but then I thought of my friend. I thought of the fact that they would never know I've done this, they would be concerned as to why I havent answered or seen any of their messages. Then I stopped, I stopped the attempt. I sat back and looked at what I had just done. That was when I started having a bad panic attack, one of the worst I've had. I couldnt stop crying, nor breathing rapidly. I grabbed my phone, I kept telling myself that I need to ask for help, and that I really was not ok and I needed to tell someone that. So I told my friend. They calmed me down, my panic attack stopped. I told them that I was scared, what if I did go through with it just because I wasn't in the right mindset? They told me that they're here for me, and to text them whenever I feel that way. The amount of guilt I felt that day was terrible. I felt selfish. The more I looked at my scars I regretted them like I always do. If there is anyone who feels like this then PLEASE remember, without you, reality will be altered. For example, if I had gone through with what I was doing then my family and friends lives wouldn't be their normal everyday life. I know it's hard, and sometimes you can't see or feel it, but people do care about you, they really do. People are there to support you. You can't keep it all to yourself, you need to ask for help, either of friends, family, therapist or anyone at all. Speaking out helps. It may be hard to find the right time to but trust me, once you've told someone and they help you, it's a huge weight lifted off of you. A relief that someone is here for you. Everyone is here to support you, no matter what you're going through. You are enough, you are amazing, talented, inspiring, strong and so many other things! Don't think that you're weak because you feel like this, when in reality you're incredibly strong. You've made it through your toughest days, you've pushed through them, and one day, all of this will get better. It might not completely go away, but you will start getting better. Just continue pushing through. You have everyone's support.

Oh my god guys, I'm going through some hard times and the timing of this video couldn't be better... thank you :') 💚

This was hard to watch because it hits so close to home for me. I had to take deep breaths just to get through it but thank you for posting

I remember when you made the poll about why we self-harm. It is hard. It is really hard to break the circle of pain. Especially when you still feel you deserve all of it. Asking for help it's never easy, I feel shame that people sees me as someone weak, even after I was "cured" from my depression.

i’ve relapse once in the first part of quarantine and ive been feeling close to relapsing again but this video somehow helped me. i guess it’s the fact that i understand myself and what i’m thinking so it helps me come up with something to prevent me from relapsing again. thank you guys for this video💕 and you everyone out there who are also struggling, you can get through this. please please please please pleeeeaaasssee find someone to talk to. don’t isolate yourself and don’t lose hope. life is worth living. life has its bumps but you are stronger. i believe in you💕💕

Everyone in the comments like “oh just try to be happy and keep going you are loved etc.” And as a 13 year old who does hit, bite, punch and ‘use’ scissors sometimes I just wanna say honey, no matter how much you comment that stuff it is not that easy. But thanks for trying.

I do this frequently. No other coping mechanisms work. I know it will ruin my life and end in me either leading a miserable life for decades, or an early death due to severe injury, but I have earned this. I accept my fate. I understand the consequences, and due to the lack of punishment from my parents of my previous actions, I will punish myself in its stead. I will whip my back with my belt until I am fully scarred.

For me, it makes my emotions feel easier to control when I feel pain caused by myself

I've had experience self harming but I'm officially getting therapy 😊 so I hope to get better soon (Edit) For everyone wishing me luck I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for all your kind words and wishing luck. I wish you all luck on your journeys getting better! I hope that one day we can finally be free from any pain that we are suffering from ❤

TW: ⚠️ i’ve never actually self harmed with more sharper blades i almost did but i stopped myself. i always did end up digging my nails in different parts of my body of scratching my legs because i was always so stressed, frustrated whatever. i get episodes where my entire body turns dead cold and my hands won’t stop shaking. doing something to my body helped and that’s most likely not good 💀

“Don’t be afraid to speak up” that hit me hard cause when I tried to tell my parents that I wanted to talk to a therapist about it and the fact that I self harm cause it’s not normal or oaky, my parents told me to move on that its just a phase and that its normal for a teenager. It hurts a lot to hear that, at least ell me that everything is okay or try to help me :(

I am really glad you made this video. I often feel misunderstood in the fact that people think that self harm is just a tension relief but to me most of the time it’s the self punishment. I’m so ashamed of it obviously but I am relieved to know that it’s not just me who does it for punishment. Again I’m so ashamed of it and hate myself for it but I really appreciate this video and it helped me feel not quite as alone knowing that I’m not the only one who does it for the reason I do. Thank you Psych2Go.

*Next Video:* How to prevent other people from doing Self-Harm

me :sees title :0 yes I need this do bad for my online friend he's struggling trough anxiety and depression like me im finding a way to be happy so he dosent hurt himself and dosent try to die edit: it's 3 in the morning and after five hours i get 35 like this is most I had if anyone is struggling through anything im here to listen you can aways talk to me and please dont be afraid to seek for help

Been listen to the channel for about a year. All ways been interested in psychology and looking forward to the new channel.

these videos have helped me understand myself a little more and some of the people around me.. ive learned more watching these videos than i did in high school

I can relate. I cut myself to distract me from my emotion, and to punish myself for having such a bad thought. But whatever it is, don't harm yourself. Talk to your loved ones. Distract yourself with positive things. I know it's hard, but you'll figure it out.

I can relate to 1,2,4, and 5. I'm currently in the long road of recovery from self harm. I've found that journaling and art help me to express myself and find another way to vent through the pain in another way. I wish I knew before I started self harming that the urges never go away. I have heard alot of people trying to spread the word about preventing suicide, and I understand because suicide isn't something you can come back from. But I also think more people should be spreading the word about preventing self harm. Thank you Psych2go for your videos.

Cutting is one of those things where “if you know you know” it’s almost like ecstasy and that you’re in complete control of the experience. The physical pain overpowers any emotional pain giving you something to completely focus on whether you want to or not, in that sense it’s similar to an orgasm. It’s not that I like the pain and it just cuts out the emotional pain so completely I don’t have to feel it as long as the physical pain is present

I started because I thought if there was a physical representation of my pain it would be more tangible, and prove that there was a legitimate problem and that it wasn't all in my head. I continued because I didn't have the will to stop

I’ve been self harming since I was 8 and y’all I have been clean for about 9 years now and I’m 22, this video was spot on.!!!

I have a strong distaste for self-harm. Not for the people who do it, but for the action itself. It's called self-harm, the name in itself is signaling a terrible action. No one should try to harm themselves on purpose... everyone should try to seek help and speak their feelings, even if it is very hard to do so. I know everyone has different needs and emotions, and this world isn't perfect, but I wish that those who self harm themselves can stop and finally get the help they need. If you self harm yourself... I wish you the best of luck in emotional, mental, and physical recovery.

Watching this made me anxious 😓. Thanks for making many kind of videos.

Thank you for clarifying this. I've struggled with this for a long time and haven't even known the reason why. This really helped me

Big respekt and an even bigger 'thank you' to everyone behind this videos. You guys are a big help, not only for people who suffer with mental illnesses, but also for those who know people with those problems. I am sure, those channels will make a great impact. Keep up the good work.

You missed one ☝️ Boredom - u hate where u r and wat you’re doing so much that you just want to get out of the situation. That was my take on it anyways. ✂️

Knew someone close who used to self harm for a short while, but recently relapsed. It breaks my heart to see them like this

1. to feel something 2. to feel anything at all 3. to have a sense of control 4. for relief 5. its a form of self-punishment 6. its a way to communicate without words i relate :,) edit as of 2021: ive healed :D edit as of 2023: ^ idk why i said i've healed. it still occurs to me haha, a lot less often but yeah

I am talking to everyone who self harms. I can feel what you are feeling, I have seen the dark side too. But please, do it for yourselves, for those whoove you and you love, for me, just try. I know it is not easy to stop right now, but seek advice, search for ways you can stop, and make small steps and progress. Just don't be alone in this. Talk about it. It is NOT a shame. I promise, when you finnaly manage to stop, you will feel so proud, and you will have the whole life ahead of you to live free of this demon. Just discuss it, as hard as it may be, accept help for people, you will feel great, see a professional so that it can be more efficient, pray. I will be praying for you. You have strength and we all know it.

thank you so much. i know im late to comment but it helped me understand more about myself. i feel like the worst person every day of my life, but since i love knowledge, just watching your videos fill me with joy. thank you

I used to struggle with self harm since 13 years old. I had very major depression episodes when I didn't eat, didn't sleep, and barely went to the bathroom. I have scars since 7 years ago, now I have 20 years old, and my last episode of self harm was 2 months ago, when I almost collapsed. I decided I won't do it again, never again. I try to live in peace with myself, and go through these hard times with music, nature, walks, pets, anything that makes me feel more alive and more comfortable in this life.

Dang she really be attacking us-

What do I do about random negative thoughts? I could be fine one minute and feeling like I'm despised by everyone the next

I used to self-harm, until a 'certain event', where I forced myslef away from my mental health. Not only did I force suicidal thoughts, selfharming, and 'bad thoughts', I forced away things that actually helped me cope, like drawing my feelings, and talking about them, all so that everyone would stop worrying and stop feeling bad for me. (Sorry for my bad grammar, I speak english much better than I do writing it, or typing it down.)

This is all so true to me on ALL items listed. It is still a struggle for me today. It has been for the last three years (and even longer). I have self harmed in the past and still feel at risk of falling back into old habits. I am continuing therapy in the hope that one day I will feel better (or at least something).

also it's important to remember that though physical injuries are the 1st thing that comes to mind when you think of selfharm eating disorders, starving or sleep-deprivation on your own will is also self-harm~

whenever I want to feel pain, I use duct tape and not an actual blade

Watching this video felt like a release. Thank you for making this video. While this has sparked some bad thoughts, your video has done more good to me than bad.

I have been clean from self-harming for almost a year and I'm really proud of myself

I just want to say that your voice is super calming and it really adds to the video.

I love your channel so much 🧡🧡🧡

I’m constantly blocking myself off, making myself feel numb to avoid emotional pain. Sometimes self harm seems like the only way to feel anything without facing myself.

This accurately explained how I felt back in highschool but thanks to my friends I survive and I'm now a degree holder. Good thing I didn't give up on life. Life gets better. Better days come.

Thank you so much for making this. My parents can now better understand my depression.

I stopped self harming 2 years ago. It was really hard to quit but I'm so proud I could do it :D Nobody in real life cares about this and I wanted to tell someone. So here I go

To anyone who is dealing with self harm right now, there are so many people in your life who love you and care about you and would be more accepting than you think to hear about what you're going through. I know getting help and/or stopping is one of the most difficult things you could do, but trust me when I say it's worth it. As someone who has dealt with it almost everyday for 4 years and is now 2 months clean, it is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But if you believe in yourself and get the help you need, you can get through it. I don't know who is reading this or needed to see this right now. But I love you, and I support you, and most importantly I believe in your ability to take back control of your health. ❤️

God I really love this channel, it has really taught me a lot for the time I've been following. It has really help me understand what people going through. I'm so excited for the new channel. ❤️

1:05 “Sometimes I let matches burn down to my fingertips to feel something, anything.” -Nicholas Cage/ Spider-Man Noir

Just sending out so much love. We forget how difficult life can be for others, and it is important that we seek to understand them and to help when we can. It can be really rough out there.

We have a society that lacks purpose and control. I have learned to take those back for myself and am teaching others to not need the crutches we are so used to.

it's ironic that this video came out day after I hurt myself.... thank you psycho2go, you help me understand what is happening with me and what to do to help myself

I relate to this video so much. I've been crying, yelling, and overall feeling terrible over multiple things that are happening to me. I haven't harmed myself and instead do things that are more productive like walking but I still have those days where I feel like giving up even though I'm staying strong.

As a concussion/brain trauma survivor... I would let (way too) hot water run on my hand, just to feel pain somewhere else than my head. And I suddenly understood why people would do that. Luckily, it didn’t grow into a habit, and I was well supported for the ptsd that comes with the tbi. Wishing everyone a good week, and reach out to someone instead of those harmful tools. You deserve to feel wellness, not pain, no matter what.

for me it’s definitely 3. our family just moved out of my childhood home, i’m afraid of losing my best friend, i’m behind on all of my schoolwork, and we’re in the middle of a pandemic. everything feels out of control and self harm makes me feel stable, at least for a few minutes

I can't wait to see more on the new channel, it might inspire and push me to seek professional help. I feel it's really difficult to take that step let alone be pushed to it, especially when you feel like nobody is wanting nor willing to help. I've been manipulated by people into believing they'd help me, only to be used or stepped on while being emotionally abused further. I'm desperate to end the pain and have in various times considered suicide and self harm for about a decade now. Everything I look at and consider looks futile to me, but I am always very hopeful and optimistic despite it all.

I harm myself on the inside not the outside, I mostly mentally hurt myself but If i use physical harm its on the inside of my body not the outside plus I have poisoned myself a few times in the past. I am learning to stop but no one is by my side since I keep quite so its a little hard.

When you depression but you don’t want to hurt ur blood cell because they did nothing to u

Thank you so much for this....I’m going through very hard times

I love your voice here it's so calming. Ily🩷

A lot of this video could be valid if you swap "Self harm" with "Binge Eating" or all kinds of other coping mechanisms. It's hard to get out of a pattern.

When I'm angry and feel I'm about to exploit, I bite my right hand, and that boiling rage disappears... Until I remember what makes me angry and bite myself again. I've been writing down my anger instead of biting myself... and there's a long way to go.

I've been self harming for 7 years now... and although these 6 things were the reasons I started.. The reason I can't stop, is because it feels like a part of me now... It's weird seeing my body without cuts and it's so hard to stop....

I video like this would have been really helpful when I was self-harming. I thought i was being selfish, attention seeking and so on but I just wanted someone to help me or notice me but I didn't know how to express my feelings which lead to a lot of pain. I'm glad there are now resources and help for kids now