Man that sucks. I've largely avoided this sort of tragedy in my life thus far, but as I'm approaching my 30s I know it's bound to happen sooner or later. Your candid reaction was pretty helpful to hear.

Really sorry for your loss Toycat, dont feel pressured to make content whilst you're grieving if you arent comfortable to.

The fact that after losing one of the most important person in your life and you're still able to drop humor and give such a good vibe with such a dark topic. I'm saddened for what happened you're the best toycat Edit: dont worry about us or content take your time man we the community love you ❤

Thank you for always being open. I know we can't replace anyone important to you, or fully understand the pain (or lack thereof). I think right now it's more important to stick to your routines, be open and kind to your own mind, than to think what you could have done differently (or what you should be thinking) This is a big change. I'm so sorry..

She will always be your mother, though she has passed. Parent relationships are so nuanced, they’re complicated and no one can really ever take the place of the person who raised you- for better or worse. You will experience a range of emotions, some that will make sense, others that won’t- none of which make you a bad person. Pain demands to be felt, and there are a range of experiences that could have been, but try to find comfort in the ones you did have together. Your strength is admirable, and she was very lucky to have you as a son. Much love Andrew. You will keep her memory on, as will your brothers, just by these videos alone.

theres something about toycat just being a normal, relatable guy that makes his input on grief really interesting. he's really good at articulating himself and adding new things to the discussion

You're honestly really strong to have been able to make such a level headed video. Props to you.

i lost my grandfather earlier this year and a good friend not too long ago, your videos have always been a nice thing to watch no matter how i feel, best of luck to you toycat

Im so glad that you decided to talk about it instead of hiding from everyone

i know it's not much, but hopefully this helps a bit. i respect and appreciate your perspective. i don't know what else to say other than i'm feeling for you. i'm so sorry you're going through this. we've got your back. sorry to be so icky and parasocial about it!!!

Condolences on your loss. My brother and I have been caring for our 95yo mother for a decade. Watching her deteriorate both mentally and physically has been pretty brutal. I guess there’s really no good end to a life. Wishing you the best.

so sorry for your loss toycat. I haven't lost anyone close to me but I think your message is important and inspiring. I'm amazed that you can be so vulnerable and insightful about your situation while still processing grief. Stay well

I know we're in just a parasocial relationship but I wanted to say everything, the morgue, the funeral, the what-ifs, the weird feelings resonated with me as I've experienced the same. All the best, man!

I'm sorry for your loss, losing your mother is tough. I couldn't imagine what it must feel like. I hope you and your family can make it through. I wish you the best, we are always here for you 🧡 For your 11th anniversary you can do a cool montage of your world and it alls highlights, favorite builds, moments, etc.

Lost my father 2 years ago and the process is hard and you never stop missing them. Thank you for making that time a little easier for me. We’ve got your back now and please take it easy during this difficult time. Thoughts and prayers going out for you.

Sorry for your loss toycat ❤️ A few years back, your mindless block breaking and placing helped me though a terrible loss that made an only parent of 3. I hope this community can help you, as you've helped many of us without even realizing it. Above all else, take care of yourself.

Lost my mom 5 years ago. Its rough, man. Even though I had a fraught relationship with her, im still going through that grief. It comes in waves, but they definitely get less intense as the years go on If you need to take a break at any point, we'd all understand, toycat

words aren't enough, neither is money

I somehow know how you feel because my dad died last 2018. Losing a parent is a sad thing. My sincerest condolences to you Toycat.

you are one of the most thoughtful and open minded people i know and seeing you go through this makes me feel especially sad, because i feel like you process things in a similar way that i do and ive been watching you for nearly 9 years now. i wish you nothing but the best.

Hi ibxtoycat, I just want you to know that Kat is here for you, adorable hoe and Harrison and your entire community are here for you, and even i am if you ever need anything, and I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you can feel better as soon as possible. If you ever need help, there's people who genuinely care. Your community is here for you. Don't forget that we're ALL here for you, and i just wish I could somehow do something to help you, as your content has helped so many of us, and we genuinely appreciate it as well as you as a person. Please take as much time as you need to. We understand that you need a break, and we'll be there whenever you're ready to come back. I hope you can feel desert as soon as possible. Thank you so much for everything you do, ibxtoycat.

Toycat, I feel you. My cat died today at the age of 7 because of kidney problems. I’m very thankful that you can always brighten my day and I want you to know you’re not alone ❤️

Very rarely do I ever comment, but I've been a subscriber for a very long time now. I felt it was important, this time around, to say something though-even if it is a bit long-winded. I just wanted to let you know that you are being helpful. You are having an impact. You are doing good. One of the reasons I have always loved this channel (and by extension your others) is because of your real-talks. This is no exception. And frankly, your insight into something that is so universal yet so painful is both very touching and so informative. I remember, years ago, on a stream (or maybe it was a video), you were talking about parasocial relationships and how we, the audience, often see creators like yourself as characters rather than real people. "Do you actually think of toycat once the video ends-how he's doing, what he's thinking-as a real person who is currently existing, living their own life?" Or something like that. It's always stuck with me. Anyways, my point, I think, is that there are those of us who do think and care, even if it is in this strange, cross-continental, parasocial way. You make a great impact and I really appreciate the video. Thank you.

I'm really glad you shared this; I lost a family friend and personal friend this past week. I wasn't particularly close to either the way you were to your mother but it's really nice to hear someone I don't know talk about personal loss so openly.

Dealing with grief is way more important than your upload times man and I glad you realize that and Im glad that you put what you felt on here now we know that you better Ive been watching you for years dude.

My sincerest condolences. Andrew, your videos are always there for us when we need to be cheered up. I hope in someway our support through these comments can help you.

Long time viewer infrequent commenter here, can't stress enough how sorry I am for your loss, I don't have anything to say that you haven't already heard by I'm sending you all the best wishes. Take as much time as you need to grieve and process your emotions we'll all be here lovingly waiting for you to get back

anniversary video idea: a tour of all of the "bases" you've made over the years, from cave home to melon house and the big redstone bed (i count it), you could maybe do a ranking list? or a list of your favorite big projects. I'd say you should do fan faves but idk if you have time to solicit the fan fave builds. on a personal note: i really do understand what youre going through and what you said resonates a lot. Grief DOES come in waves. Losing a parent, especially one who you feel like is the only person who really gets why you are who you are, is really really hard. There is no advice. When people say "let me know if i can do anything," there's nothing you really CAN ask them to do. Niceties are an annoying part of grieving. And I hope you see that other people do hear you and we do love you (in a parasocial way hehe) and we are rooting for you. I'm sorry this happened.

I apologize for your loss ,When my mom figure died everyone tried making me feel like a horrible person because I didn’t cry or seem like I felt bad my brain kinda just forgot her it’s more of a numbness as I just seen her as a dead body idk my brain is weird around death

Hopes and prayers out to you, Toycat. Good luck!

Dude. I cried listening to you. makes me think about a lot of stuff. I wish we could be there for you more then we are. I am sorry for your loss dude. be strong, you can grief and be strong still, you can cry and still be strong. you rock dude.

Thank you for all the enjoyment, laughs, and quality big salmon content you bring us Toycat. I hope you take as much time as you need to find a sense of peace and calm amidst all the chaos.

Please take a break mate, please take time to mourn ♥ Rest well Mama Toycat ❤

My condonlences! I do appreciate you putting into words this urge of not wanting to feel bad. I had quite the same when my grandma passed away last year. Bar my mom she was the closest relative to me, my confidant I would even tell things my parents would not know. And when she passed away just days after we met for the last time, planning already for her birthday a few months ahead, I wondered why I did not fall in this hole of despair. I was confronted with the absurdity of not being able to talk to her, with all the ramifications of her not being there. Maybe subconsciously I consoled my mother (her daughter) who was around when she died and actually did CPR on her...

A complicated, strained relationship with a parent makes grieving them even more complex and confusing in my opinion. All the guilt ('maybe I should feel more grief?'), the frustration about unresolved issues. Maybe you thought you were on a good way to heal the relationship and now this opportunity is taken. Maybe you are angry because you now have to work through all bad childhood memories on your own without being able to confront the parent. Again the guilt of feeling anger towards a person who can't defend themself anymore. Loosing the last tie that held you to your heritage, your upbringing, no matter how rough it may have been. And in all this mess is the small, or huge, part of the heartbreak over the loss of the parent who probably loved you in their own faulted ways. I hope you can take time for yourself, to deal with the things that need to be dealt with and feel the feelings that need to be felt. Take care.

Thank you so much for uploading this. I’ve never seen somebody explain loss in this way, and it really made me think about things in a different way. I’m so sorry for your loss, please take as much time as you need.

My dad passed in 2009, and my mom in 2022 . . . the big thing I've realized is that when it's a parent, you kinda spend a decade (or maybe the rest of your life?) re-processing their passing and who they were to you, the impacts they had -- and the utterly normal humanity of them . . . And sudden deaths suck in their own way -- we all know death is a thing, but when you get slapped in the face with how it can happen at any moment, it shifts your perspective of life and relationships a bit. Hamilton's 'who lives, who dies, who tells your story' resonates a lot. All the love, Mr Cat.

Sorry to hear man, I've been crazy busy the last week. Wish i could send a msg earlier, All of the best man. You sound like you are taking it well and in a mature way. Losing a parent is a terrible tragedy. Condolences dude. It must be hard on you and I hope you grieve and recover swiftly.

So sorry Andrew we’re here if you need anything sending all my love to you and your family❤

I really hope you are doing alright. My mother passed away as well and I actually used to watch your videos back then and they helped me get through it. I thank you for helping me through that time and I hope that we can help you as well. ❤

Rip. I’ll be praying for you Andrew! I pray you’ll get through this and it is okay to feel sad over this❤

I cannot thank you enough for this video. You have always been someone I can deeply relate to in what you put forward on the internet. I know the whole parasocial relationship and what not. But after going through a loss earlier this year as well, hearing someone else talk about loss makes me know I’m not alone. Thank you for this and I’m so sorry for your loss even though I’m sure that’s the last thing you want to head.

i’m so sorry for your loss toycat ❤ thank you for being so open, honest & vulnerable, i hope it was as helpful for you as it is for everyone listening. take all the time you need & take care

My younger brother passed in march, he was totally normal too, i lived with him the past 5 years. Im just glad i got those years with him. We never know when our time is coming apparently

I stopped using Google when the doodle of the day reminded me of father"s day three months after my dad's passing. Grief is weird, you'll get on the other side. I'm really sorry for your loss.

I lost my mother 12 years ago. Its a really upsetting and heartbreaking time when a parent dies. I feel you mate, it will get easier. You seem strong. She would of loved that. Hope you’ll be okay mate.

I haven’t had a close family member die in about a decade now, so I don’t really remember the pain. I really hope the best for you! You have all of us to support you Mr. Toycat! (I did lose my 98 year old great grandfather in 2017, but it was pretty much expected at that point, he didn’t remember any of our names.)

I’m so sorry for your loss Toycat, but seriously. Take all the time you need. If you can only post a video a week, or no videos for awhile we understand 💜

Sorry for your loss Andrew. It’s nice to see you stand strong after what happened and I hope you and your family can get through it together. My sincerest condolences

You are such a precious man. I'm so sorry. I've always loved your sardonic view on the world.

I'm sorry for your loss. My own mother died nearly 10 years ago. I feel similarly about grief, I wish I didn't have to feel emotions regarding it. I still think about my mom almost every day.

I just saw your video on the mob vote petition and came here to hear what happened. I’m so sorry for your loss. Grief is a strange thing and it hits everyone differently. I hope you find peace and are kind to yourself.

Your mindset and talking points around this unfortunate situation make me feel more prepared and less scared for when this same situation hits me. Thank you.

i really appreciate that you're open about how you feel and what your thoughts have been surrounding this. probably my biggest fear in the world is losing my parents, and the older i get the worse that fear becomes. i've always wondered what you do after something like this happens. i never thought id be able to handle it, but to hear your perspective on some of these feelings it really makes me feel comforted somehow. i dont really know how to explain it, but this video really touched me, and i sincerely hope that things will go smoothly through this time for you. your videos have always given me comfort, and i hope that you can find some comfort in your life as well now toycat, thank you for this

Andrew, it is perfectly okay to need a small break from video making, you shouldn’t need to apologize. I love your content and wish that you can feel better.

Condolences, ibx. I know first hand that losing a mother is absolutely brutal, especially when they had raised you on their own. But as painful and surreal as it is, don’t get trapped in the rabbit hole of regret. Tragedy is crooked, there are no clean lines through it. Life is what you dwell on, so try to dwell on the good.

6:51 Honestly too real. My friend died almost a year ago, but I still think "Oh he would love this meme... oh... right" Im praying for you

The let’s plays really do attract the best people in this community, the comments are so beautiful. Sending all the love around everywhere ❤❤❤

Yea the whole thing is very confusing. When my mother died it didn't feel real for a very long time and even now i still sometimes dream of her as if im going over to tell her something and shes just not there in the dream, she disappears halfway through the dream as i realize shes dead. Well I hope you'll pull through alright man.

I'm so sorry for your loss. There are no words to describe the anguish you and your brothers are facing. May she rest and you all find eventual peace in her passing. It will take time but it will happen. We're all thinking of you!

The fact that you can talk about it so soon after the event.. I was in my room for a week or more just crying. You're too great, and free to take a break

Toycat do not feel pressured to do anything right now. I’m so sorry for your loss and cannot imagine what you’re going through. You’re the best, just take care of yourself. ❤

Im sorry for your loss, I hope future you feels better, and for your 11th year you should go on a long beautiful walk :) We love you toycat ❤

I don't know if this is a weird idea or not because I've never lost a family member that close to me, only pets, but perhaps you could create a memorial in your world since your world is sort of like a timeline of your life. I did the same thing when one of my pets died, and it makes me feel better to know there's a place acknowledging her existence that could possibly outlast any physical sign of her. Also I've always sort of felt like "I'm sorry for your loss" is interesting. I think it's fairly obvious that everyone is sorry to hear, but it might also feel strange if they didn't say it. instead, I'm happy to hear how mature you are able to discuss your loss and give inexperience people the insight to maybe be a little better prepared.

So sorry for your loss 💜 appreciate this video, I think it’s so important to know that everyone experiences grief differently. Take your time, feel what you feel and don’t push yourself to do too much too soon. Take care of yourself please.

I’m sorry for your loss, Toycat. Your strength is admirable and I’m glad you’re taking the time you need to work through this. Theres’s plenty of older videos for me to catch up on anyways! Take care

Sending love man deepest condolences

I lost my grandpa a couple of weeks ago, not unexpected because health reasons, but still was sad to me. Luckily I had gone to see him earlier on his 80th birthday, and me and my one of my sisters and my niece and one nephew were able to go see him then as well. Dino themed birthday party with 'happy 8th birthday eddie' because that's what he was called as a kid. I may not know exactly what you're going through, but I think that I have feelings adjacent to what you're feeling. (For the record, she does still count as your mother, no new memories maybe, but she did exist and referencing her as mom or mother (whatever terminology you prefer) is perfectly fine. May your animal friends bring you comfort, you always seem bright and happy around them, our lovely Disney prince toycat.

I'm sorry for your love and I do have an idea: make a remembrance park (in your own special style!) for your mother into your world. I know I'd love to walk in there once the map is updated to the store again!

the fact you actually answered the last question for that video now, knowing what had happened, is wild... so sorry for your loss.

You're so joyful and friendly to watch and bring so much joy to others, I hope the comments here supporting you help you get through this. The emptiness is so hard, especially when it's your biggest cheerleader.

All my support. I have been through this with both my mom and dad. Watch for the weird funny memories sneaking up on you. They are gems. You will go through every emotion on the human spectrum. Have someone (friend) monitor you and your decision making processes. Use your phone to record conversations regarding settlement of anything. This video is an amazing tool. The grief processing comes on its own time and in its own way. Do not set any time limits. 💙

My little brother died at the end of August and this is the only video that really captures how it feels. He left behind a two month old baby. The sudden shock that comes with all your plans for life involving another person being shattered when they die is tough to describe. I know the scatter brained feeling, and how you'll be reminded of the reality often. One thing that I resonated with the most was the idea of wanting to be on better terms with everyone. Since the loss I've appreciated good relationships with everyone much more. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I hope you make good relationships and memories with others in their memory

I really appreciate you sharing, I am going through an unexpected loss also . It helps to hear another talk about it, when it is unexpected it does hit differently. Just as heart breaking but has unique challenges with it, thank you❤️

Thanks for talking about this. I hope you can process your grief in a healthy way. This week is 9 years since I lost my only parent and it's been soul crushing especially on the anniversary ever since. It's been so difficult becoming a parent and raising my son and not being able to reference anything from my own upbringing because the only adult who was there is gone. It was very unexpected as well. I really feel like I haven't processed it in a healthy way because I still feel so shattered. I wish you the best, truly, take care of yourself however you need.

Man, this sucks. Really sorry for your loss. Don't worry about your upload schedule slowing if need be, do what's best for you. Also mad respect for opening up about all this on YT - I can't imagine it's easy to do so.

My partner's gran has her days numbered and the whole thing has been getting me really upset abd existential I dread to think how this feels, Im glad you're processing it okay at the moment, from what I understand it gets hard from the funeral so take your time until then, it's different for everyone and the most difficult time anyone can go through. Please look after yourself, see friends and try and just reflect, maybe even go to therapy if you think it would help. Thanks for making this, the real raw side of your channel has kept me here for years. Lots of love to you Andrew 💜

As many others have said I am deeply sorry for your loss. If you want to continue that UHC world nobody will judge you, you seemed genuinely upset that it had ended and if continuing it will make you feel any better then go for it. I'd like to suggest to still do things that make you happy even if they're not making you feel happy now, they will in time. Sending positive vibes your way 💖

Sorry for you loss. I lost my mother unexpectedly as well in 2015. I'm still dealing with it. It hits me every now and then.

Can confirm sadness followed by less and less sadness and then one day you still miss them, but you're alright.

So sorry for your loss . Sending prayers for you.

So so so sorry to hear about your loss toycat. Thanks for sharing this with us, we're here for you

I’m so sorry for your loss Toycat, I lost my only parent (mom) over winter break when I was 14 and I know what kind of struggle it is to deal with a loss like that. The not getting goodbye really is a loss of closure that’s really important.

I'm so sorry toycat, I hate that this awful thing has happened to you. I can't imagine the pain.

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for making this video and sharing openly in such a way that it will really help those who watch you, who need to hear someone like you talk about such a topic. Keeping you in my heart and sending strength and love x

I feel for you here Toycat. My mum passed away unexpectedly back in march and it hit me pretty hard. It's never easy to lose someone so close, and me having depression and social anxiety only makes it worse. Six, nearly seven, months later and it still feels like it was both yesterday and a decade ago. The way I see it, you can never move on from something like that, you just move past it. It just takes time. I'm truly sorry for your loss, take any time you need away from the internet, and I wish you the best.

I lost my dad suddenly 10 years ago to a motorcycle accident. I remember when I got the news I wasn't sad either, if anything I was in shock and denial of it all. It wasn't until later it finally sank in for me that he was gone. Point is that how you are feeling after losing someone unexpectedly is understandable and grief is complicated. Take all the time you need to process it all.

So very sorry Toycat :( We all are thinking of you!! We

i am sorry for your loss it helps talking about these things but its hard for some so you are very brave to talk about it like this

I understand what you are going through and I’m sorry you are experiencing this grief. I lost my grandmother almost 3 years ago now and I still get hit with the grief. There is no timeline for when you’ll feel less sad. I hope you and your family can take time to heal together.

I'm so sorry for your loss, but thank you for sharing, i think it helps more people than you think, its comforting when people can share grief, its the one thing we all try to hide, but we all go through in some way. again, sorry for your loss!!

Thank you for being brave and opening up. I realized when I was very young death and birth are in someway similar. If you could talk to an as-yet-unborn baby they would tell you they are so afraid of changing from the warm and comfortable place they are now to the cold and unforgiving realm inhabited by the born ones. Similarly we fear the next phase of our existence because all we know is this reality where we are comfortable and confident and don't remember what it was like in the womb, and cannot fathom the joy and freedom to come. BTW, I am probably your oldest follower (be 70 next year) , so I feel I must say this: The worst loss to bear is of a child - the second is one of a spouse - and then there is the loss of a Parent. I have managed to cope with the last two and hope I never have to bear the first. Thanks for listening.

Sorry that you had to go through this. Hopefully things will get better soon.

I am so sorry to hear that, keep your head up. ♥ This is something that I dread. I am blessed to be almost 45 and still have both of my parents (and my own life insurance so those after my passing can pay everything). I hope this is something that strengthens you in some way and allows you to move forward.

Rip mama toycat. Its ok to grieve in your own way

My wife and I love your channel and all the fun knowledge you share, your witty humor, and how much care you share. My wife has lost both of her parents so she agrees with everything you said in this video. The grief will always be there, but it'll be more intense at times, like on the holidays. Thank you for sharing your sad news but in all honesty, it's made us like you even more for being a real honest person. I personally try to remember how they lived and what good memories we shared with those people. We're deeply sorry for your loss and may your closest friends be there for you if you need to share more thoughts. .. and if not you make another video! Heh.. love you Toycat, take care good man.

I appreciate you talking so open about this. I have been through this and its never easy and wierd questions always arise. Im sending you love and support navigating this ❤

I’m really sorry for your loss I really hope you feel better and I know what it’s like to lose someone in your life I’m sorry to hear that I’m praying for you and I’ll be here for you

I've said this a few times by now already but I'm so sorry for your loss. Death can be really difficult, espicially when it's somebody that you've known your whole life. You're really brave for speaking about this, thank you for everything :) And one more thing, rest in peace ❤

R.i.p. Im sorry for your loss, i know how it feels to lose someone important in your life. Death is really sad and im sorry you had to experience this too. I hope you can get through this ❤❤❤