No clickbait on this channel, just brutal honesty.

I’m 25 and have been drinking at least half a liter a day for the last 6 years straight. I’m 7 days sober today. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the best.

This brought back a lot of memories for me. i got sober at 32 and I'm 65 so it is doable.

Alcohol and cigarettes addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

I like how you tell it like it is. No sugar-coating!

I to worked in the restaurant industry for 12 years. Im 38 years old. I drank bad for 10 years. The loss of my parents in 2013 25 days apart. I got even worse strait vodka. I wound up in jails, rehab, hospitals, going through terrible withdrawls. 2021 i was diagnosed with liver cirocchiss. July 19 2021 i got sober till this day. July 19 will be 4 years sober. Liver test in May this year showed my liver is repaired its self. It can be done. I treated my self with raw garlic, tumeric, ginger other natural foods. God bless you all.

Anyone who needs to see this, It is time to quit alcohol. You got this!

Work in healthcare. Cared for a patient with cirrhosis and alcohol addiction. The day of his discharge he looked at me with despair. “When I leave here, I’m going to drink. I’m going to drink even though I don’t want to. It’s like a job.” I never forgot him

Your descriptions are so realistic that it’s bringing every detail back that I never want to think about again. I need that reminder still, even after 7 years. I never want to forget how bad it was.

So many similarities. It really is mind-blowing now when you think of what lengths we'd go to, how much we'd play mind games with ourselves and others to just stay drunk and not feeling. I'm sober with You, 3yrs for me, and I'm struggling to stay alive. Your story will help so many. Once again, thank you for your vulnerability and sharing from the ❤

Damn, I’m lookin in a mirror and listening to a story scarily like mine. Down to damn near every detail. Glad I found this channel. On day 7 for the 10,000th time. Godspeed man. Subscribed. And thank you for sharing.

That’s amazing because I drank a lot but as long as I believed I had or was having fun that it was okay but when I found out how isolated and depressed I really was I started realizing I drank myself into a a situation that was not normal for anyone and luckily I was smart enough to get help !!!! I hope anyone reading this makes the decision to Stop Drinking and be happy about that because it may turn out to be the best and smartest and bravest decision ever …

rinse and repeat. I just was explaining this to my stepdad last night who is a recovering alcoholic trying to describe what I’m going through right now. I’m praying for us all❤

Isn't it crazy how so many of us full-blown alcoholics don't even seem to enjoy it

I'm so happy that God delivered you from those days and you don't have to live like that anymore.His mercies are truly new every morning.

hey LD! like you, i much prefer my days these days, as you do yours, when comparing drinking days to sober days. just keeping the memories of those yesterdays keeps me motivated for today, and with optimism, for tomorrow. peace.

Hey ld, I know you have been sober for a long time, but I just wanted to say good job! Your story is so inspiring. You are inspiring.

Good luck to you. I drank my pancreas away - in 2016, I had a life-changing pancreatic attack. Numerous surgeries and 9 months later, I could walk again. Devastating. Havnt drank since and am doing very well.

I’m a chef as well. Alcoholism is rampant in the cooking industry. My brother cooks as well and he’s still in really bad shape… hoping he changes soon. Love the videos and would love to see that old video of when you were chef.

I admire you for being so honest and transparent LD! You are the realest KZfaqr I have ever watched and I pray you have many, many healthy years ahead!! God Bless!

Powerful! Best video to date, raw, honest and heartfelt. Godspeed, LD

Man, that was a very compelling video. So brutally honest. I can definitely relate although I dont drink. You are inspiring. God bless brother 💪💪🙏🙏

I’m fucking amazed you’re still breathing! Fascinating description of your drinking life. I had no idea how much you were drinking. I guess I was a lightweight!!

Man... That all sounds so EXHAUSTING. I lived a similar life during the worst point of my addiction. What a nightmare. I don't think I managed that quantity, but a lot even still.. and I cannot imagine ever going back. It's crazy the things we did and put up with because of our addictions. I am so glad that any of us here who lived like this and were able to move on did... And I pray every day that those who are still stuck there find the strength to move on. Sending so much love to everyone here, struggling or not! Wonderful topic, friend. You really described what an exhausting, living hell career drinking can become. ❤❤❤❤

Holy cow, I almost got nauseous just listening to your routine So glad you are not drinking anymore. Alcohol is poison!

You are awesome my brother!

First LD nice to see you doing good

LD! Raw story ! It sounds like such a difficult struggle and time. The best part if this is the fact you survived and are spreading awareness and help. Hugs n blessings to you LD. Thank God 🙏🏼💚

It's a true gift. Keep inspiring!

Sending my love & support. I am glad that you quit drinking. I will pray that your health stabilizes & improves. Your videos are invaluable to so many...

I remember just being in the bathroom at work realizing I overdid it. Trying to come up with any excuse to leave, man was that draining. Worst part about it is when I did leave it was straight to the liquor store because I had already started. I’ve romanticized alcohol but there is nothing romantic about that.

I’ve said it before brother but I use to do the same thing with putting my car in park at stoplights. Same as you my anxiety would be so bad I would think at any moment I might pass out and roll into traffic. You were the first person I ever heard say that who could relate to me. Definitely no way to live! Hope all is well bro, much love 🙏 💯

Wow Chef it sounds exhausting! Glad you are better now… And you’re enjoying your life & family. Love hearing the birds chirps. Thanks for sharing & being so honest about your experience. ❤❤❤

Thanks for sharing all that. As they say “confession is good for the soul” and I think that as we admit the problem to ourselves and others it helps us along the road.

Thank you for sharing your story with us! You are the shit. I am so glad you are telling your story from this side ❤

I quit drinking regularly at 53. Had to do it every Saturday. Had to...decided I was done wondering what I had said or done and feeling like I was hit over the head with a $h*#bag every Sunday morning for 20 years. No more excuses. If you are adjusting your life around alcohol and making excuses to use alcohol, those are warning signs to stop. Because if it takes over, it ruins your health and your life. Thanks again LD, keep inspiring.

Thankyou for the honesty i realized even though my journey hasnt led to intensity as yours it very well could.

All anyone needs to do is go to a few speaker meetings at AA. You will hear your story and countless others. We are not alone❤

LD, this literally made me cry. I felt so sorry for you and me too, for what we lived through every day just to drink. Pitiful. But now we are free from that bondage,thank God.

Hey G, your story is so sad but true. It really brings to light how serious alcoholism is and that we do such dangerous things an still can't quit. Being sober, I now think of all the dumb things I did and am grateful that I made it through alive. ! I'm glad that we all are on a healthy journey. Thank you for sharing! It's 100° here and going to get hotter by the weekend 😮 Take care love Jersey girl. ❤❤❤ I haven't seen Kristen on here in awhile. Hope she is okay.

So glad you changed your life and can share your story for others- I’m sure your wife and kids are as well.

I have no idea why I enjoy your videos so much as I'm not an alcoholic. I enjoy a couple beers every few days, but that's the extent of it. Maybe one heavy night every 3-4 months. However, I do have a gambling addiction, and I've struggled with it for nearly 15 yrs since my early 20s. So even though we have completely different stories, we share the burden of our addiction. My physical health may not have suffered, but every other ramification i can empathise with - the deceit, lies, anxiety, shame, self-loathing, anger. It's inspires me greatly that even amidst the most intense adversity, you're pulling through, looking great and doing good things to raise awareness amongst the wider addict community. Much love from the UK.

Brother I don’t know how you made it drinking like that for so long. Your daily routine was ridiculous. Wow

Hey LD! Its hotter than Haiti here in Illinois. I'm sure the heat is out by you too now. Great video. God bless.

I used to get diarrhea a lot when I drank too. Big fan of immodium! (My family called it "swamp ass" resulting from heavy drinking...i know gross....)

I lost a friend last year to liver failure alcoholism. Thank god you have found sobriety. I am praying for you. God bless.

I know this probably isn't easy to share it all, but thank you for doing it.

OMG the shit we went through to be able to function, to provide for our families. Scary familiar. So glad your still here to remind people how horrible life is as a alcoholic. So glad your on your way back. Praying everything is going to heel. Never give up hope. God bless!!!

I wish I had found you years ago man! You’re such a blessing and a motivator

Amazing that you functioned like you did. I am surprised that you suffered so much and drank so much at the same time! 😮

Another great video. You've come a long way, L.D.

LD I would do the same only difference was with Vicodin ES… it’s a wonder my liver tolerated all that Tylenol. U can’t smell a pill & easy to take with u. I find it so incredibly mind blowing that nobody knew or thought they “caught a wiff” of alcohol while you were at work. 🥰 Hugs

LD I am counting over a year without a drink of alcohol and your work is a part of my journey so thanks for what you do❤

Man great video. shows the reality of alcohol addiction . These videos really do help people I know because they help me keep on the right path . Thank you so much for doing these

LD question for you, you’ve mentioned how you would try to hit the sweet spot but I guess it’s hard to imagine to continue to drink when you’re already at the point you are holding on to the walls. Would you just say one more? Im so proud of you for fighting back against this awful poison.

Happy you are where u are today in sobriety my friend 🫶🏻🙏🏻♥️

I can relate to a lot of what you went through, and there are some things you went through that I'm amazed you made it out. I want to thank you for helping me stop drinking.

"Drinking On The Toilet" could be the name of my autobiography. Love your honesty as always.

You are a great cook I guess 💯

Dear Brother…I literally have no words to describe your honesty and openness with this video. Although I was never a morning drinker, I completely understand some of the things you referenced…on the toilet for at least 30 minutes (that still happens often unfortunately…sorry for the TMI…lol), being afraid to drive to work (out here in Metropolitan Phoenix AZ we don’t have any back roads, so I had to navigate the freeway…uggg)…the sitting on the back porch drinking and smoking after work until I couldn’t drink or smoke anymore…the excitement and also DREAD of having a day off and having to deal with the “return to work day”…I called off MANY of those days…it was a nightmare!!! Those days are over, as I am practicing the Sinclair Method to control my drinking. I don’t know how I survived it, and I NEVER want to be there again! God Bless You Brother…YOU are an inspiration to MANY! ❤️✌️❤️

Thank you for being so honest and encouraging…you are amazing…much love

He's totally Right Y'all, just stop and get it over with now. And hey man, they knew, everybody you worked with knew.

I'm surprised nobody ever smelled it on you and confronted you about it. Your lack of DUIs is even more impressive. I'm a sober meth addict. 4 years now! But I can always spot when one of my employees has been drinking or using. Great video man!

68 days clean today. Went into rehab beginning of the year had 2 relapses but living sober. Totally relate, alcohol was my master, I was a daily blackout drunk and towards the end I was a daily day drinker too, fucking sucks. AA saved me, god bless brother

Ibuprofen plus alcohol. Text book for liver problems. God man you are amazing. The things you did it's incredible you are alive. Keep pushing bro!

I am humbled by your honesty. I hope you’re OK now.

I’ve been in relapse for the past year trying so hard to stop again Ty for sharing I’ll be binge watching today

There were quite a few things you mentioned that I can totally relate to. Especially being drunk or hungover at work and just feeling miserable. So many times I wanted to call in sick and stay home, but usually I would drag myself to work, or wherever I needed to be. I felt so bad, I'd be literally counting the seconds until it was time for me to go home. Such a horrible way to live and I'm so glad I don't have to live that way anymore. Your story just goes to show that no matter who you are or what you've done, you are not alone. Lots of people out there have had the same experiences as you, myself included. For me, watching your videos really is like looking in the mirror at times; been there, done that! Alcoholism, or any other addiction for that matter, is absolutely exhausting and NOBODY should have to live like that! But you're right, above all else you have to want to get sober for you, not just for others! Thanks for sharing this story, LD! 🙏❤

God when you brought up the anxiety you experienced driving into work after a hard long night really hit home. The AC maxed out the entire commute also hits home, I ran hot as hell didn't matter if it was 15-20 degrees outside or 80+ in the mornings. Otherwise I'd be sweating my ass off and would make the anxiety worse. I'd see stars and feel like I was on the verge of a panic attack anytime I saw a silver highway patrol car lurking. Depersonalization is also scary where you realized you've been driving for 45 minutes but remember none of it.

Hey LD, I get major anxiety driving in highways. I have to blast the ac, turn the music off, and I have a lavender roll I sniff. Most of the time it was ac and window down. Luckily I never ever drank in the am. Did I think about it oh yeah but never did that. I’m hopeful that as time goes on without alcohol my anxiety gets better. I have to take backroads too but in FL you have to cross bridges over the ocean. No way around it. So yeah anxiety and big bridges I literally shake. The I can’t do this and hold on for dear life. Anyways thanks for the video so glad those days are in your rear view mirror my friend.

Totally Awesome Video L.D.!!! Let’s Go!!! Speaking the Facts!!!💯♥️♥️♥️

Can relate to the fear of failing a breathalyzer. Sometimes I'd wonder if I was sober enough to pass one of those if I got pulled over. I never would plan on it, but if the family needs something, they didn't know if I had drank and I would go take care of stuff for them.

8 Months bro and no desire to drink. Your videos definitely helped. Thanks man

Brilliant video! Well done 👏

I understand cause I was the same. Stay strong brother God bless you and Jesus Christ be with you ❤🎉😊

Got to give him that this guy delivers 😅

Randomly this came across my feed. Felt with my fair share too brother. Incredible testimony! Hold the line and stay the course

Thanks for your honesty man.

Thankyou so much for being so vulnerable

You have been through So much ! This Illness is so cruel ! How many illnesses do people have to hide from their family friends work colleagues in fear of their ‘judgement’ ! Whilst suffering such physical symptoms besides the shame ! fear ! Often pushing you’re body and mind to the max to ‘make it up to those who you feel not worthy’ huge load to carry !! Such a strain on you’re poor body ! You’re a walking miracle ! And all those who are suffering the effects of this illness sending Love 💗 and Respect to you my Friend ✨

You were a true rockstar.

To other people who are not alcoholics this sounds sickening and like suicide ,i went through a similar experience I would walk miles in a snowstorm to get my beer ,i wish i put more effort into other aspects of my life .!!

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know it is helping so many people.❤❤❤

Wow, I can’t even imagine that. I’m amazed you’re still trucking along. Glad you’re better now and able to provide such great insights into what it was like. God bless.

Thanks for sharing, your videos are so helpful. God bless.

Damn, im sorry of your experience in this life, but glad you're fighting through

Awesome video LD! Your video is making me wonder about the genetic compent to alcholism.

You are a hero to many, thank you for the truth. Take care. Bless you forever, and thank you again.

Thank you for sharing your story in such a concise and frank manner. Everyone who has been through this has their own journey but there is so much relatability in yours. I quit drinking about 22 months ago and while it hasn’t been all sunshine and roses (those things called feelings begin to surface and it can be, as you mentioned, very uncomfortable) but it’s one of the best choices I ever made. Thank you again for sharing!!

Wow I relate so much to this story . Thank u for sharing

Hi LD. It is amazing the similarities alcoholics have in their habits. It was so embarrassing trying to hide the extent to which I drank, from getting rid of the empties to alternating stores to purchase the poison. I never went out without a rucksack for obvious reasons. Trying to cover up being an alkie can become a rather exhausting chore. Although it was a very rare thing that I drank before work (unless I was getting the bus) I was constantly worried every morning that I was over the limit for driving from the booze I had consumed the night before, this caused constant anxiety. I can relate to spending all day in bed when not working. I would go to the store, stock up, get back in bed and drink until I passed out for a couple of hours, I would wake up and start drinking again. Two sessions a day was a frequent occurrence, watching films etc (I could watch the same film the following day because I would never remember the story line, the same with books). "When is this ever going to end"?.......Ouch. That hit home, I can recall having this thought time and time and time again, always promising tomorrow would be the day (and sometimes actually believing that statement). I so want to leave this stuff in the past, I am trying not to dwell on it too much. There is nothing I can do to change my history, but I certainly do not want to repeat it. I know one thing for sure, I will definitely not be drinking today. Day 10 here. Thanks for the reminders LD. I am glad you are happy with the life you are now living, living free. I congratulate you on turning things around. Have a blessed day everyone. And as LD said......we are not alone.

Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out Everywhere!❤

Thanks dude. Great video. So happy to hear you made it through that vicious cycle of addiction. One day at a time dude, one day at a time.

Wow. I know how hard it is. I was also able to stop. I don’t know how but I Will NEVER GO BACK. ❤ Alcohol is a Ball n Chain

Fascinating. I can totally relate man. I owned my own business and had my employees making booze runs for me. Can't believe I survived it man. You speak my life verbatim.

God bless you ❤ 🙏

Probably a God thing that you are still here to speak to people and impact lives for the better. Thank you for making sacrifices to help save lives. 👊

these kinds of videos are completely interesting. how could anybody waste their time watching nonsense on tv when they could hear first hand what drama is happening with actual people. i always imagined that this only happened to people in their 50s and later. it is scary to hear the truth.

Its amazing how you managed to hold down a demanding job while going through all that. So many of us struggle with anxiety, depression, anger, despair and also fatigue we turn to one addiction or another just trying to get through the day.

The sore butt … bringing back the memories