mental disorder is really hard.
I go shopping and I want to say, "Do you want a plastic bag?" I want to say 'please', but I can't speak.
I am afraid of socialising and can't even go to the hairdresser.
I have zero self-esteem, I suddenly become emotionally unstable and I feel self-loathing because I can't control myself.
I despair of myself like this every day.
When I look at social networking sites, some people feel that their physical immobility and rarefied thoughts are 'their fault', which is a 'symptom of the disease'... and it makes my heart ache.
We, in the midst of all this, are doing our best to live. Just living with the illness is something that only you know how hard it is.
I have been trying for years to free myself from the aftereffects my parents put on me, but I still suffer every day.
Self-harm, choosing to hurt themselves over hurting someone else.
So don't beat yourself up.
What you can do now,
Take care of your mind and body.
Just being alive is great.
Just being alive is good enough.
Don't blame yourself.
Let's keep on living.
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I have lived in Japan for 10 years following my husband's posting
We live a simple life of 2 couples & 4 kittens
I grew up in a dysfunctional family with some abuse.
My self-esteem was in tatters.
I repeatedly cut my wrist.
Now I have a sleep disorder, anxiety disorder and borderline personality disorder.
I'm emotionally unstable, a crybaby and prone to mental illness.
I can't leave the house on my own,
Almost a recluse except on her husband's holidays.
Likes alone time.
I feel calm when I am with my husband.
I have other ways to calm my mind, hobbies and interests, other than wrist cutting.
I am trying my best to live my life, looking for ways to spend my time in a positive way.
On this channel, I record my emotional changes, what I have learnt and how I enjoy my daily life.
I record my emotional changes, what I have learnt and how I enjoy my daily life on this channel.
If you subscribe to my channel, give me a high rating, or leave a comment, it will encourage and motivate me,
It will encourage and motivate me,
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Thank you♡
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