I'm just here for my family. I love them , only thing I know is real is my mom and sister's mind would be blasted to million pieces if I die.

HOLY SHIT DID YOU HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD FOR EVERYTING IVE BEEN THINKING!!

I fiel the same...sometimes, like today, I don't wanna be here, but my family is so unaware about me that they don't even have an idea about how I feel

Thank you for sharing. Yes, hopelessness, having no purpose to your life, and a horrible emptiness that you carry everywhere you go. I was diagnosed at 49,so I find out that half of my life was absorbed by my undiagnosed adhd. And worse, I had no free will to choose what I wanted in life, both short term & long term I couldn't plan or design which direction I wanted to go. All my energy was sucked out of me as I tried to cope with the symptoms. I didn't know why I was so fanatical about routines and structure, why I felt i had no choice and unconsciously followed the same script, inept to change my irrational, and hard wired routines. I'm 53 now and worse than I was pre-diagnosis. I've been condemned to sort it all out in my "Dark Night Of The Soul". It's too complex to explain over text, but there's heaps online of course. My love and best wishes go to you. Try to stay healthy please?

Noones an accident, God has a purpose for all of us. He put you her

Hello Obara, I understand that you are tired, what you have described would make anyone feel physically and emotionally tired. You are valuable and we need you here with us, even on the days that you might feel like a waste. You are not a waste; you are valuable just as you are. Give CHADD's helpline a call, Monday-Friday, 1-5 p.m. ET, at 1-866-200-8098 and talk with one of our health information specialists. We will look for resources near you to help with ADHD treatment and educational support in college. I also suggest contacting the Suicide Prevention Lifeline, any time of day or night, for help in finding a therapist or doctor who can help you where you are now. Call them at 1-800-273-8255. If you are worried that you are considering suicide or harming yourself, call them right away, at 1-800-273-8255. There is someone right now waiting to talk with you and support you. Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ Best wishes, Karen - CHADD’s National Resource Center on ADHD

Im 40. I have spent the last 20 years going to doctors. They all told me to go fuck myself. Dont bother calling the hotline below. It will just drain you more. If you cant afford 800 per month for health insurance you will NEVER get help. Fuck this country. Move to Canada.

@@HelpForADHD All those hotlines are so cold. Its basically like telling someone to fuck off. I have zero respect for people who pass those numbers around. Most of them dont even work anymore.

If you call a suicide hotline...best case scenario is they lock you up.

I didn’t feel seen in this podcast, but I feel this comment. I feel like a child stuck in a 37 year old body. I somehow graduated from a prestigious prep school, only to drop out of 3 universities. My parents are immigrants who survived civil war and so much adversity to build a life for me, and I can barely keep a job. My dad keeps threatening to throw me out, and I‘m afraid that I’d rather just sink than find the energy to swim. I finally realize _all of my dreams_ are possible, if I can only manage my time/space/motivation to actually achieve them. I just saw an ad for a nootropic delivery service, which is hopefully more effective than Axxx Clinics. 🤞🏿 *Obara, you are not alone.* Please don’t give up yet. _(this is my second time coming across your channel. 👋🏿 )_

We're glad that you overall enjoyed the podcast. Thank you for sharing your observations on the interviewer. We will keep this in mind.

I agree… these are all really hard. Of the three, I don’t know which one is the hardest to deal with. Shame , seems to me behind much of them. Which is hardest for you?

That's also a fear of mine: when someone tells me what to do I worry I am not doing it right, even after being instructed in detail.

Executive function issues and Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria sucks.

I'm so sorry, that really sucks... I feel you, I'm in a similar place in life. I frequently get the feeling of being utterly useless and hopeless, like there's nothing to live for or to even look forward to in the potential future, like there just isn't any future for me since I already don't really have a space for myself to live and feel safe in, so that I could build a better future for myself on that foundation... Sometimes it takes a few hours for me to get back to a better state, sometimes days, but I usually manage to get better somehow, especially when I'm able to get some sleep or a good meal, then I can be grateful for that and then I remember that my condition was worse in certain periods of my life, that I have been sick and injured and in more extreme physical danger, or desperately stuck in all kinds of abusive situations and that those situations usually forced me to focus on just one single thing ahead, like recovering health, getting some pain relief or getting away from a person or place... so being able to despair about multiple things at once and feeling overwhelmed by it already feels like a privilege I didn't have in certain situations, so then I have to be grateful about the injuries that are healed up now and about the pain that I don't have to suffer anymore, even though it was so familiar before... It's such a weird thing to look at my own body and be amazed about a finger that I can move normally now, with a scar that is almost invisible if I don't intentionally stare at it, as I remember not being able to use it for months and being in severe pain using my hand for a few years and even having a couple of instances where I thought I'd loose it forever and that I'd never be able to do a lot of things that were very important to me anymore, trying to cope with that strange grief and so on... and then snapping back to my current reality with a fully functioning hand, without any particular ongoing pain at the moment, being able to do simple tasks like holding a pen to write or even write this comment more easily and remind myself of how grateful I am for that. Same goes for my legs - being able to walk at all is already a blessing, even if my legs are weakened, prone to injury and pain, maybe not in the best state they could be, but still... I'm so grateful for being able to use them now, I don't take it for granted anymore, and when I slip into forgetting about it and being absorbed by some other overwhelming issue, I do my best to check myself and remember how lucky I am for having the current mobility, because it's already an improvement from where I've been even 3 years ago... Details like these help me to get myself back on a more positive mental spiral... and writing comments like this one, where I can relate to someone else's experience and hopefully make them feel even a tiny bit better in their struggles, by sharing my own story or sometimes just a few words of encouragement in some cases, or maybe some advice if I have anything regarding a certain topic... things like these, these tiny bids for connection with random strangers, completely unique each time, also help in many ways, although it's difficult to explain why, or how this would be productive in any way, especially when asked by someone who probably never experienced complete despair before. People who didn't get to that point of hopelessness in their own lives, wouldn't get it and people who have experienced those feelings and came to terms with them, don't really need an explanation, they just know, they relate. Don't despair my friend, I believe in your ability to figure things out for yourself, even though I probably never met you before. I'm sure there's something to make you feel better and get back on track for whatever project you focus on. Focus first on what would bring you relief at this moment and keep doing that until you find a bigger task to handle that will bring you satisfaction or a sense of acomplishment. These are words that I often wish to hear from somebody else, so I'm giving them to you. Maybe you need them too at this time? Best wishes to you! :)

Medication is needed first, I totally agree.

Yes!!!

Sounds like what I was telling my husband. Although my words were more like “ I know what to do I just can’t do it. Stop telling me a solution and just listen to me.” With the medication I can implement what I know rather than letting it go to waste which helps me to keep a constant dose rather than only depend on the medication and keep increasing the amount to the point that it doesn’t work anymore. He thinks taking the medication is just looking for the easy way out, I think of it as a win win for me and my boys. They deserve a mom who is the present and not anxious or depressed. They deserve stability in joy and so do I.

Absolutely spot on

@@BlessedGJI'm glad you notice benefits and do what's best for you and your children! I didn't get a diagnosis until after my three daughters were grown, and I wish they could have had a calmer mom. It is always good for everyone when we can manage our health to our best functioning. ❤️

fr wtf ?`???? give me tldr lol

Same bro don’t trip man . Keep trying and I’m saying this knowing I have to practice what I’m preaching to you ❤️

I think anyone who comes accross your comment underneath this particular video knows exactly what you mean ;) I think there's more of us, you're not alone. We can't be entirely hopeless as long as we still look for answers, right? We're still here, searching... It's obviously not the best time in our lives if we are here, meeting at this particular point, but there's still enough energy left to doomscroll and sometimes even leave a few words behind, so ther's still some hope... Who else can relate?

why are you always so grimm, Ben?

This is not true. USA has more access to stimulant medications compared to many other western countries.

@@crnkmnky why do you identify as a cranky monkey? ;)