Try to do one thing more : seek knowledge. Attend a class with a student of knowledge upon the Sunnah who is in contact with the big mashayeekh (like "Garden of 'Ilm" on youtube daily classes). Please don't be surrounded by mean and toxic people, if your family is very toxic then please have a safe distance WHILE still contacting them often and being nice to them. And don't attach your worth to what they think of !!! Very important !! And you know what, high education. vacations etc are not that important, as long as you have a job (may Allah cure you and grant you a good job) that gives you what you need etc. Do you have something like low self estim because that could be a cause too, try to work on that if that's the case in shaa Allah. May Allah help you, salam aleykum

​@@E.Ceruleansister are you in contact with Students of Knowledge and Scholars?