★"And maybe after it all, after all of that pain, although it may be short, I still could shine."★
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Happy 2021 everyone! It has been a difficult year for so many of us and it left me with some time to reflect on myself, my past, and my future. While I am hopeful for what the new year will bring, the anxiety and heaviness of the decisions I've made and have yet to make are definitely there as well.
This song is wonderful at explaining the internal conflict I've always felt and is very personal and dear to my heart. It is both a message to my past self and a reminder for my current self. I'm sure, once listening to the song, that it'll relate to you in some ways as well. (^ v ^) I hope it provides you with some hope and comfort as we step firmly into 2021.
Be kind. Be humble. But take no crap! Thank you for the wonderful year you've given me and my channel, and I hope to continue to see you all around!
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★ORIGINAL:
Song: To My Youth/나의 사춘기에게
Artist: Bolbbalgan4/볼빨간사춘기
★COVER:
English Lyrics, Vocals, Art & Video: Airah
Music: ‪@MRAcoustic‬ ( • 볼빨간사춘기 - 나의 사춘기에게 (Aco... )
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★LYRICS:
At some point in my life, I used to wish that I could just disappear.
The whole world seemed dark and I'd cry each night to sleep when I got tired.
Will my troubled mind finally feel at ease if I just disappeared?
I was so afraid that everyone had their eyes on me for years.
Those peaceful days, beautiful days
I lived through all of them in pain.
I didn't know about receiving love
And for that I hated myself.
Mom and Dad always will be
Looking only at me.
This isn't how I really feel but
I keep getting further away.
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
That one saying that time is medicine was really true for me as well.
As the days went by, I got better and slowly felt more like myself.
But sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again.
I'm afraid that someone will come to take my happiness away.
Those beautiful memories
Were all so painful just to live.
It hurt until I couldn't hurt no more
But the pain would still remain.
All my friends and all those people
Are looking only at me.
This isn't how I really am but
I keep getting further away.
But maybe I can still be a bright light that's living and alive in this world so it'll still shine.
And maybe after it all, after all of that pain, although it may be short, I still could shine.
So I couldn't give up yet; the me that couldn't peacefully sleep even for one night.
Because if I keep trying my best to stand up like this I
Can finally find myself.
Ahhh (x4)
How painful. How painful must it have been?
How painful. How painful must it have been?
Just how much?
Just how much?
Just how much did I hope for this?