This is a very special video for me. Over the time of my life I learned in many situations to hide my emotions, those that were seen as inappropriate or bad. I feel like for the longest time I've always tried to make other people happy, my teachers, my family, friends or just people I saw as authority. I never really prioritized myself. So this is kind of a reminder for me, to come back to my body and really feel what's going on there, knowing that everything has its right to be there, that some feelings are from the past, not having been seen yet. That life is about experiencing the light as well as the dark. Maybe it will trigger you. See it as a chance to find out what still needs healing inside you.
And remember to be kind to each other, because every one has their own story, own traumas and triggers. This is a reminder to love the dark inside you. It was once a strategy to keep you safe.
thank you so much for watching!
love, Lia
Poem:
When will I stop
Abandoning my own emotions
When will I stop
To hide myself in self distortion
When will I stop
To judge my heart
For past emotions
When will I start to
Live with love and with devotion
When will I start
To see all parts with loving kindness
When will I start
To feel the value of the darkness
When will I see
The patterns, my protection
When I was young
They gave me closeness
And affection
When will I see
The lie in those beliefs
Never enough
Unworthy to recieve
I'm not my mistakes
I am not small
I'm not my fear
Just feeling it all
When will I hold
The child in me
When will I start
To set it free
To feel all that it thought is wrong
When will I see that I belong
With all my imperfections still
At no ones mercy, no ones will
But to the voice inside my heart
When will I stop, when will I start
When will we learn to integrate
To heal the pain and all this hate
Can we open now and see
That feeling
Being
Really is the key.