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Problems of being the nice friend : - No one ever asks you how you're doing. - You have the feeling that you need to make others smile. - No one notices it if you're in a dip bc you are used to not show your emotions bc they already have enough problems without you... *...*

"Mama said the sun will shine; But Mama dont know what i feels like to wanna die." How many people can relate to this?

im suicidal, but im so thankful to have songs like this on the earth. Thanks to all the singers who making that. The only thing where i can put my emotions in. Much love.

A virtual hug to everyone feeling like they can't carry this anymore💝 I feel you

The worst pain to feel is no tears, no noise... just the *pain*

i don’t wanna end my life, i just want this thing inside of me to escape..

I've never understood how online hundreds, thousands, sometimes even millions of people say they are feeling the same way as you but as soon as you go into a public place, you see everyone with smiles, laughter, and always surrounded by multiple people acting the same way. I always just feel so alone ig.

"Tell my maker up above that I have had enough" really hits hard for me. I wanted to..... rest. I'm tired with nothing else to do. I'm drowning with all the expectations they have for me. I've fallen out of love with loving myself. In this game we called life, we only got one chance. People are willing to do anything just to play one more time. And here I am, sending requests everyday to the creator up above, to void my account.

I don’t want to die, I just want to close my eyes and finally, feel alright.

This lockdown is extra harsh when you’re an overthinker who constantly needs distractions to not feel sad or lonely Update: Thanks for all the likes everybody. These last few weeks have been rough. I constantly find myself trapped in my own mind. Every night I’m at war with my own thoughts and I’m constantly loosing every battle. My own thoughts want to take me out. I just wanted to say that I love you all and I hope you all find happiness because I feel that I will never find it

pretending to be okay is harder than battling depression itself

“Mama said the sun gonna shine but mama don’t know what it’s like to want to die.” Hit hard yet amazing for crying your heart out

Am I the only one who has those days where you feel so worthless? Like you don't deserve anything and everything you do is a mistake but you keep denying it could even be depression... Same

Do you ever have those awful days where you’re so sad that you can’t even cry? Cause same.

"I wonder what it's like to be ok". This hit me so hard. 😢

My mother told me back when I was in my early 20s, that I was just going through "a phase". In my early 40s now, it's a hell of a long phase!!!

*Depressed people don’t want to die... They just want the pain to stop...*

I miss the nights when I went to bed without tears in my eyes.

Thank you for being the one artist to not just discuss suicidal ideation but to give some of the reasons behind it. It's so validating even though it's painful.

When you don't even have it in you to cry anymore, that's when you know... The deafening silence.. The immense pain of pure numbness.. The overwhelming strength it takes to get out of bed.. That's how you know.....

I hope one day to come back to this song and not relate to it anymore and just seeing it as a touching song about a miserable lifetime I once had. Edit: It's been almost half a year and I'm still not at the place I want to be. But I feel a lot better now and just keep living, fighting. Every day. Thank you all for your comments, I sincerely hope you find happiness, luck and peace when you wish for it. You are so strong and beautiful!💕🍃

•cry yourself to sleep •sit in bed for an hour in the morning contemplating life •put on a fake smile and go through the day •don’t let anyone know you aren’t ok Repeat, every day...

This song brings back the nights where I shed so many tears without anyone knowing. The silent cries, the silent nights, and the hurtful thoughts I had, and then goes out of my room with a smile on my face. Thank you for making this song, I felt understood.

I remember when I used to listen to this daily, I had a really hard time and everyday I didn’t think I had something to be here for and wanted to unalive myself. I haven’t listened to this for about a year already, I started started loving myself and being myself around people, I felt like a had something to live for and especially for myself. Im slowly getting over my biggest fears and it feels amazing 😊 So to those who are going through a hard time please keep on going it might take a month even years but it’s totally worth it at the end I love you and whoever reads this I hope you know that you’re strong

The feeling of crying inside with no tears flowing just really hurts so bad

Depression: Wants to die Anxiety: Scared of everything, including dieing

The worst feeling is not feeling loved when you do get loved

“But mama don’t know what it’s like in my mind…” Hits home too closely… 😔

My depression want me to die but my anxiety is scared to

We are all just suicidal people telling others suicide isn't the answer.. Edit: why did my comment get more likes than Ansons i-

i have autism, this song is just simply beautiful. It speaks to me in so many ways. It makes me feel a little more understood. Thanks, Anson.

It's almost therapeutic to find songs like this, the ones that I can legit feel in my heart, I don't feel as alone

I feel like I’m drowning and everyone’s just standing there watching me struggle.

Everyone here complains about when they have to lie when people ask if your ok. It hurts when you can act so well nobody even asks

“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.” ― Mark Twain

"wonder what it's like to be ok" this hits hard, especially now that the only reason I am still trying to stay alive is because I don't want to hurt my family

I feel like in the comment section we are like a family

"Wonder what it's like to be OK" "Would you like me if i drank that" "Heavy from the hurt inside my veins" "If you wanted i could take that" "I'll do anything for love" "I don't feel like I'm enough" "I could promise if you knew me you would walk away" "Mama don't know what it's like to wanna die" These lines hit me hard Edit: didn't expect people to feel the same.

"I know I'll be fine, It's just that every time this comes back" This had it for me. You know its not the last time you'll feel this way, but hold on! You're not alone! This is the lowest you'll get. I promise there will be a better tomorrow or at least a better tomorrow for your friends and family. Hold on, please. Your life is worth it!

I don't remember what it feels like to be happy anymore.

I hate when they ask “are you okay?” Because that’s just another reminder that I’m not..

I need to cry, to let it all out but I can't, My body won't let me...

What if mama is the problem?

It doesn’t matter if this song blows up or if millions of people here it. This will always be our song that we can come here to cry to. This song is for all of us here, because we should know that we are worth it. We all need this song

Once i said "i can't carry this anymore", today i can say "i don't carry this anymore".

“Tell my maker up above that i have had enough” HIT ME

To anyone reading this, we got this. We can carry it.

When the tears stop but the pain doesn't. Just ran out of tears but the pain is just stuck there

"But Mama don't know whats its like to wanna die" HIT DIFFERENT

*Being depressed😔 is like living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that wants to die*

와... 미쳤다. 진짜 이 노래 너무 좋네요. 하루종일 반복해서 듣고 있습니다. Trying my best 만큼 좋네요.. 와.. 진짜 목소리 떨림도...

I feel like I'm not even qualified to feel this sad. Everyone has valid reasons, everyone is going through a harder time than me to be listening to these songs and crying. I don't even know why im so sad suddenly anymore.

the fact that we all relate to these lyrics just shows how broken we all are . but remember it's okie, because we're all here to support each other because we know how badly it hurts . have a wonderful day guys

Thank you for your music, Anson. Whether it’s an uplifting song, like Trying My Best, or a song where you just need to get how you’re feeling off your chest, I’m glad that I came across your music this past year. After 70+ rounds of ECT and the memory loss that has resulted, the only sure thing I’ll be able to remember is music. My love for it, my love for singing (tho I can’t bring myself to sing in front of others very often, if at all), and if I could change my course in life it would be choosing to be a musician. I may not have any talent with writing, and maybe even singing, but music is the only thing that can keep me grounded. That can help me feel, process, and cope with my thoughts and experiences. With all of the comments you get across your videos, you’ll probably never see this one… but I really wish I could sing with you. With my social anxiety I probably couldn’t bring myself to actually produce any sound, but maybe one day I can work up the courage to put my voice out there. So really, thank you again for sharing your music and your creativity, I hope you never stop.

I have bipolar I take the meds, I do the therapy, and yet a part of me always feels sad. My depression get so bad sometimes. I’m glad I have a song I can relate to. Love and support to all those struggling. ❤️

Is anyone else scared of crying or letting out their feelings in front of others because they might say your being silly or childish or irrational or they’ll just get laughed at or is it just me

"Are you okay?" How I wish there's someone would actually say that.

Miss the nights when i could cry and just let it all out when i laid in my bed, lately I feel like I died a long time ago, i survived life for so long and im tired, I am a tired old soul in a young body and my problem is, I forgot how to actuall live my life and enjoy it.

You know it hurts when no noise leaves your mouth and your silent tears run down while your partner is next to you asleep.

“Momma said it’s gonna be alright... momma don’t know what it’s like in my mind” That got me goosebumbs, i honestly started crying right here

I'm that friend. That friend that walks in the back if the side walk isn't big enough. That friend who gets left behind. That friend who has all their problems over looked. That friend who can't let out their feelings because "they have problems to". That friend who is "always sad". That friend who gets called dramatic if they try to let out their feelings. That friend who gets called toxic when they stand up for themselves That friend who only gets picked for partners in an odd group bc their smart I'm that friend.

Anson's songs know me better than I know myself

People aren’t *weak…* They have just been *strong* for to long..

Hey, are you okay? It’s okay to not be okay. I just wanna let you know people around you love you You’re important You’re special I love you I love you for you... And there is someone that cares about you. I need you to stay alive for me.. I know when I say it’s going to be okay you don’t believe me But I’ve been in this situation It all gets better at some point. And I need you to stay alive to see it

I swear the FBI agent in my phone knows when I’m in a bad mood and always recommends songs that get me feeling better.. Thank you FBI agent, you're the best. (edit: this song is a bomb and I love it)

It's crazy how many people come back to this everyday. This song is legendary 💕 2022 anyone??

Yeah i cried hearing this song.maybe one day all of my sorrowful things will fade away.maybe i will have the strength to heal myself.

No one notice your pain No one notice your tears No one notice you stress They just notice your mistakes

*Deadly.* What is more deadly,a gun or a thought? A gun gives you the opportunity,but a thought pulls the trigger.

This song is so true I wish I could wake up and not cry or go to bed crying my eyes out 😭😭

I've been in a living hell for as long as I can remember. Since I was as young as 8 ive been fighting a battle against depression, anxiety and for the last 3 years ptsd. Clearly I've been losing. I'm tired of living in this world of grey. I'm honestly ... getting close to my breaking point.

don’t know if anyone cares but i just came back to this song after about a year and a half of being completely clean and generally not slipping back into that depressive state of mind. i remember looking out of my window and begging a god that i don’t even believe in to end my pain. i wanted to die at that point in my life. i cried listening to this song again after a while, not really because i was sad, but because i was proud of hi far i’ve come and so badly wanted to give that girl crying in her bedroom every night a big hug and whisper ‘it will be ok’. i am a bit worried because during quarantine i feel i’ve started to slip into old, triggering habits. i don’t know if anyone will have read this far but i want to tell people going through the same thing i did, that even though at this point in time everything seems hopeless and life seems pointless, there is good around you and there is good to come. you’re at a rough chapter in your life, every character has them, but soon you’ll turn a page and it will start to get better, it’s all part of your story. i love you❤️

the only times people care: -when your born -when you die

This relates to me so well, that im hurting so i can just go numb

This has been on repeat 😢😢 I really can’t carry this anymore…

“Mama said the sun’s gonna shine, but she don’t know what it’s like to want to die” I felt that...😢

ever feel like you’ll never be enough? like no matter what you do it’s not enough for anyone you wanna disappear you don’t wanna die you just wanna disappear or go somewhere where no one knows you start over no one can judge you at all

My mind right now- "What more could i lose?".hurts so bad, hope oneday i won't feel this way.

I've dealt with depression my entire life and I always isolate. Then, I'll have a moment where I come back to life and then I have to wade through the wreckage of reality. Relationships dead. My self worth, dead. But damn it, I'M alive. I pray you all find balance and serenity. It seems like a dream someone else dreamt and I'm just trying to put it in a jar.

i wanna die but i dont wanna upset ppl if i did lol update 9 months later* i feel so much worse.

*I'm used to being the happy kid the one that everyone can trust with their problems but I have no one to talk to so I just pretend to be the happy kid that always cracks jokes till my cover is exposed.*

Clinical depression, seasonal depression, emotional burnout from an emotionally draining field of work, mental burnout from taking on too much at work because it's expected, bent, broken, and wracked with longing for friends after the last two years, constant anxiety, memory issues from all of it... I can't carry it.

The agony, The chaos that we have inside. All of the pain that we couldn't cry out. It's just, sometimes it's too heavy to even do something about it. You just let it go. No tears, no rant's. You just wrap it in silence. Have you ever done that? Well, I've had. Somehow songs like this, it doesn't change everything inside but somehow, it lessens the pain that eventually, it's like it's not there. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SONGS ANSON ❤️🍁

How does he sing my exact thoughts

“Wonder what it’s like to be okay.” Wonder if I’ll ever find out.

For anyone who's reading this just now that you're not alone I've been in pain even hurting myself but just no that you still have people that still love you so no matter what comes in your way just no that there will be happiness in the future so don't think that your life is useless because life will get better just no I've been in the same thing depression anxiety and all that stuff but if you need to talk it out I'm here for you ❤

I miss the nights when I used to sleep peacefully

Ive never related more to a song. Its currently 5:30a.m and im laying in bed, eyes full of tears. I haven't related more to a song than this

Am I the only one laying in bed in the middle of the night and crying my eyes out

I’m a Mama & I understand… & the only reason I’m still here is because of my 2 young boys that depend on me to show them what love is supposed to be like. The thoughts that envelop someone struggling with depression are uncontrollable & overwhelmingly devastating, to feel like this world would be better off without you like your presence is not beneficial or a burden is heart wrenching. I can’t imagine one of my boys feeling this agony & I would go to the ends of the earth to protect them… I would face any torture, any pain, any devastation, any depression, anything with every piece of my being, & be wanting to disappear but I will never leave them like that, nor will I let them believe that they weren’t enough to make me stay, that they weren’t everything I ever hoped for & that they aren’t important enough to make me fight with everything I have & everything I am to prove to them that our love is stronger then my weaknesses & that they are the most amazing, special & perfectly made people in my world & that I deeply love them unconditionally in every way, everyday & will now always & forever. What I have always told them is that I fell in love with them at first beat because the second I heard their little heart beating over the baby monitor I was hooked they changed my world end I would go through everything every pain every heartache everything all over again with a smile on my face if I knew that they were at the end so knowing that I can do the same now that I have them because they deserve to have a mothers love & no one can ever love them the way I do. I need them to know that’s how I feel. And I’m sure there’s a lot of other parents who love their children the same a lot of your parents all of you young kids and adults reaching out for love acceptance and understanding you’re worth it whether you believe it or not you are you’re special and priceless and irreplaceable there’s only one of you in this whole universe and this world needs you for some reason or other it needs you and you’re strong enough to stay to find out even though sometimes it doesn’t feel like you are I promise you are, please don’t give up. Life is not easy or fair it’s what you decide it’s going to be so surround yourself with only positivity & force yourself to be positive temporarily, & it will make a make a difference. I’m sending you all some love… even if the sun doesn’t shine & it’s not ok. Your Special & you have purpose & your loved.

I try so hard to have a good time everyday, keep the people in my life happy, to have fun, make memories but each moment of each day is such a struggle to not slip back into a very dark place mentally. Even accepting love & kindness is so hard when you feel like an open wound. It gets so exhausting living with the fear of breaking down, falling apart any moment. The ghost of the past follows me everywhere, I don't know if I'll ever recover from this. Tonight was especially difficult and I couldn't do anything to calm myself down, I have college tomorrow and got only a few hours to sleep. This comment section really helped to soothe the clenched feeling of the heart and the बेचैनी of the mind. Thanks for existing y'all kind souls, wishing, praying it stops hurting for you too.❤️

I just want someone who would say "I know you're not okay" instead of asking "are you okay" I just want someone who really cares I just want someone who knows what I really feel I just want someone who would cheer me up the way I cheer others up I just want someone.... someone who can understand me.

it’s like you’re stuck... you can’t move you don’t want to move stuck sitting there tears rolling down your face throat becoming tense stomach drops everything starts aching more tears come down it just goes on and on and it starts a panic attack barely able to breathe and you just want someone a certain someone to come and give you a hug and just never let go and the bad part home is what causes it

Stay strong ❤ 4 years back I was standing in a place which this song describe very very true but right now I feel much much better,❤yes some days difficult when I remember those days but all I can you if you want to do something you can move the mountains ❤😊 Love you alls❤

How can a song be so horrible and yet so beautiful at the same time ? Yet again, life is that way too. Sending love and prayers to all with heavy hearts.

2019 has sucked. i got broken up with someone who had been dating me for 3 years. one friend died in a car crash. another friend took their life. my depression and anxiety are just getting worse. i’m back to the therapist. my mom is sick with a chronic illness. my grandma has cancer. my great grandpa died. my baby cousin is on a breathing machine. i have barely any friends, only a few. only one who understands. but yet every. single. day. i put on a smile, i help my classmates who cry, but most of them are crying because there boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with them. i’ve lost friends from trying to help them, they say i don’t understand what it’s like to cry myself asleep because i am always smiling. always happy. little does anyone know that i cry more then humanly imaginable. i cry so much that pillows will get soaked after i cry on them. i’m so young too, 16 years old. i know that the most hurt people most the time seem to be the happiest. which is where a little speech comes in, if your friend seems happy, obviously there’s a high possibility that they ARE happy. but look into their eyes, do they look hurt? you may not think you know what the look of hurt looks like, but once you see it, you’ll know exactly what it is. then, if you see that look, start being there more then ever. ask them if they’re ok. they’re going to say yes... but just keep asking. if they ask why you’re asking then tell them: “you look hurt, i don’t think you’re ok.” some friends are stubborn but eventually they’ll open up. just remember that they’re going through something bad, so be patient with them. EDIT: thank you so much for the support it means everything🥺 and if any of y’all need to talk text me @ 7122303144

...i'm tired of acting everybody think i'm that funny girl who wants everyone to be happy..but did they know the pain i'm living..? yes i'm that "funny girl" who always put a smile on ppl faces, always by their side to help them..but they don't even ask about my day or even how i'm doing..atleast seiing ppl happy make me happy..?idk..i'm stuck in my bubble trynna get out but i can't..i tried for 5 years but i fail..i just wanna be free to be myself :) hoping one day my life change

Anson's music helps so much.. I've been so angry and so sad for so long that I'm questioning if something is wrong with me. Why can't I just be happy? "Wonder what it's like to be okay" hits home.

With tears in your eyes, fighting every day with all the light left in your heart, its scary!