I don't usually comment on KZfaq at all but I'm a fan of your channel - you are an excellent ASMR artist. Your honesty here is courageous and I can also relate very much to what you are saying about friends. Realising some people around you really aren't friends at all can be really difficult, but moving on is the right thing to do. I wish you the best with everything.

You seem like a wonderful person and I hope the things that bring you down now will one day only be a forgotten memory . Thank you for the content.

i'm 31 and got ghosted by people i thought were my friends in recent years too. i also realized they're not real friends because i've had people in my life who have stood by my side and played no games and never made me question their love and support. hang in there, i'm sure you will meet new people who have more integrity and truly care to show up for you!

Thank you for making this video, very relaxing to watch as always. It was nice hearing something more personal from you. I'm about the same age as you, and what you said about friendships and loneliness was very relatable. Happy to hear that things are slowly getting better for you. Sending lots of love and support! 😊

I don't know how can they bully you.. I would love to work with you, I find you very chill and I would love to be friends with you if I knew you in real life 🖤

At 30 years old you are doing great!😃 If I can give you some advice, it would be do the things that make you truly happy. You'll find as you focus more on these things that like minded people will gravitate to you. You'll find people will come and go like seasons change and most people that come into our lives aren't meant to stay the whole journey. But with your wonderful personality I know you'll find new friends. In the mean time focus on yourself, your partner, and your family. Life is short so drink the wine, eat the cake, do all the things and go all the places you really love. And most importantly only invest your time in those people that add value to your life. I know this is a little deep but I felt compelled to share with you as I've been through everything you are going through. With that said great video as always Erudwen ! I wish you all the best, CHEERS!

I would happily support you via ko-fi, Patreon, whichever. I hope you can eventually make it to your goal of part-time work! Friendships in your late 20s and later are tough. What they did was really cold. I'm sorry they turned out not to be real friends. Many flakes out there nowadays... it's sad. Keep up the positivity, I'm sure you will eventually build up a circle of true and reliable people. Thank you for all your wonderful content! ❤

You have become my favourite ASMR artist, I watch your videos before I go to sleep at night most nights. You help me a great deal as I have a very stressful life. I have a really difficult job and the trick to coping with it is just leaving it there and not taking it home with you. We must look after ourselves in many ways, and I hope you're taking time for yourself to rest when you need to.

Dont ever let anyone make you feel less than. You seem like a very intelligent and thoughtful person and if these people are gossipping and making you feel shitty then they probably have their own issues theyre taking out on you. It isnt worth your time. Thank you for your videos and for baring your soul to your subscribers.

Thank you for your kindness and effort. Love this channel.

Hopefully you feel better. I've been at jobs with similar situations myself and it can be tough to find a job with people who help build you up not take you down. The people who are doing things negatively at work are probably doing that because they're threatened of you and insecure about their work. It's an odd compliment of how strong you are at work. I hope you become surrounded by people who build you up and bring joy in your life. Your videos bring so much joy to people and we'd love to see you full of happiness in return.

I havent been watching your videos for long but this one got me both sentimental and happy knowing how you started off and where you are today. Loving your view on things, Im pushing 30 myself and am having similar experiences and change in mindset. Keep doing what you do, you're great! Also from a fellow swede, SKÅL!

work stress can be so overwhelming. Good for you for even putting yourself out there, for working hard and for providing for yourself. take time for yourself, take time for rest and don't feel bad!

I legit look forward to your latest video each week so I can take time to relax before work the next day! So thank you ^_^ Keep up the good work. You have great ideas and I have no doubt you’ll be able to reach your dream goals :) x X x

Your videos make me smile, and its so fun to learn about the games you enjoy through ASMR. Thanks for all that you do! Happy Holidays!

Loveee this type of content from you. Very relaxing and I’m so glad things are getting better. 🥰🖤

I think a lot people feel the same way and it takes a strong person to let themselves be vulnerable and talk about it as openly you just did, so thank you for taking the time to make this video. Keep your head up, put out positive vibes and you'll be rewarded with better days.

I love seeing this side of you! I struggle with having real friends as well, and have dealt with a lot of toxic jobs. I relate to this so much!

i love your whispers!! i hope you feel better soon :)

This was a heartfelt message. It's sometimes difficult to imagine the folks we see on KZfaq as people with life issues. I appreciate the candor. It appears as if you've been a le to better deal with toxic work environments, it's not easy, but you are pushing through. Keep going, take care of yourself and the rest will take care of itself. I mean this. We've all experienced adversity, personally that's how I found your channel. Wanting to relax. Thanks for sharing.

Stumbled onto your channel today when I was recommended the Dark Souls art video and I’ve gotta say, not only are you fantastic at asmr but you have a great skill to express meaning with the words you use. Brilliant stuff, instantly reduced my anxiety today. Thank you.

Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I'm glad things have been doing better, even it's it's just a little, day by day. I feel a similar experience at my own workplace, with no HR to help out. I just try my best to just go to work, do my job and leave. I hope you can continue to have a smooth transition at work, and come out stress free everyday ~☺️

You seem like such a kind person. I can't wait to see the continued growth of your channel

I can relate to that. Last year I travelled to spend a month with my mother and brother. I was eager to see my "best friends" before the trip, after much effort to convince them, I did. My brother's friends treated me like they've known me for years. When I got back, my "best friends" treated me like they last saw me yesterday. It was really sad because I spend a month missing them and could wait to get together with them again. But that's life, I guess. I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't expect anything from anyone anymore. To be honest, I don't have the right to be loved by the ones I love, so I don't hold any grudges, that said, it's sad anyways.

Been “liking” every video I see of yours the last couple of days! Pray it boosts you in the algorithm. Lord willing, you should have some amazing days coming up!

Love the sweet update video, it is very soothing to listen to and I love the range covered! Sending all the love your way 💕I know it can be hard realising your friends aren't quite as close as you'd like, and it is quite lonely and a bit disheartening (going through it myself in my late 20s 😢) but now you've recognised it and can take steps towards finding tohse forever friends woh are more focused around your interests and you'll make it hun! Thank you so much for all your lovely videos, they help me feel nice and soothed, and I hope some of the comments by the amazing people above and below go some way to making you feel the same ❤Sweet dreams and take care to all ❤

Hey Erudwen! Amazing video as always. Your ASMR content is some of the best on the platform! I wish you nothing but the best

I don't usually comment, but this time I'm going to take the time to say that I really like your videos and hope you get better and better soon (keep believing in your dream, you'll get there one day!).

Growing older can be tough...I lost alot of friends in my late 20s myself. Hang in there, all the best!

Sorry to hear about your bad friends. They don't deserve you! You seem like a kind and good hearted person, good people will come to you!!!

your vids are awesome. Happy to hear you're doing a bit better than before!

I think the buy-me-a-coffee page is a good start! Making content and asmr is your passion so follow your heart. Maybe start a patreon when you reach more followers! All the best Erudwen ❤

The body follows the mind and the mind follows the body, so working on reducing your stress is very important for your body's health. Very good job thus on learning to not just say yes to everything, it's not easy to do. I understand how you feel; went through it all myself too and you seem to be handling it better than I did. All around, thank you for your efforts and I hope you will feel better soon!

Hope all the best for you in the future. Sorry about your "friends", had something similar happen to me in the past with whom I thought of as my closest friend and it's just a shame when people aren't being upfront. But in the end it's a positive change to not have people like this in your life I think. In general I don't see a lot of talk online about female loneliness so I think you're very brave talking about your feelings in this way. Like I said, hope all the best for you, you should be proud of yourself and the work you've put in with your channel. It's genuinely great to find smaller channels who "get" ASMR, the scene has changed so much and lost its roots a bit, at least in my opinion 😅

Best wishes! Love your videos!

Was falling asleep when I heard you talking about wanting to move into a cottage and build a homestead. That’s always been a dream of mine that always seems further and further away as bills and responsibilities pile up. But as long as you keep your priorities straight and a positive mindset, I’m sure you’ll get there. Make that shit happen!

Du gör ett superbra jobb! Den bästa svenska ASMR kanalen 😊 Har själv haft sånna vänner som du beskriver… inte värt att lägga tid och energi på, bättre att fokusera den på något annat, så träffar man nya personer man klickar med längre fram i livet 😊 fortsätt bara med det du gör så kommer allt att gå bra

I appreciate you so much! And lots of others do too. You are perfect the way you are. Have a good week!

I hope you get better soon as possible!

as an american, i’ve always heard things about place like sweden and finland being the kindest countries. after hearing you i get punched with reality. However you are strong and resilient. keep up the good work!❤

Started a new chapter in my life February of this year. I moved to a house in Virginia very far away from my father. It was hard at first I don't have a partner, I had toxic relationships in the past, she just bought me down. So after this summer going by I honestly could not be happier. I love my neighbors we get along so well, they are musicians just like me so they come to my house to play my drum setvand guitars. I left my old job that was also just so toxic to the point where I had no energy to even do anything. Don't be afraid to leave places that bring you down, if you have some skills and experience you will always find something better. I didn't know your channel existed until tonight when I had trouble sleeping and saw your Bloodborne book, Elden ring collector's edition. I'm so happy you appreciate this stuff. I hope you can do this part time and maybe make a full blown career out of this. I know I personally very much enjoyed your videos. Sending good vibes your way hoping to hear good news in the future next time. Take care.

And yes continue with your plans. You deserve it

I just turned 30 this year and also was recently ghosted by close friends. They had a fallout with someone other than me. I chose to defend that person. Now about 10-20 people I somewhat knew through them won't acknowledge my existence in public. In a small town thats kind of a social death sentence. I got back into playing world of warcraft recently to drown out some of the negativity with nostalgia and thats when KZfaq started recommending your videos. Your channel and personality are awesome. You seem kind and your creativity and passion come through the screen in your videos. I have no doubt that you're just turning the page on a new chapter. I've lacked inspiration to log back into my ASMR channel and make content. But the positive effect you have on your viewers and their responses in the comments here give me pause to think: could I make others happy with an upload? Call it parasocial, but it seems as if real personal friendships can be just as fleeting as you get older. If you can contribute to your own success and be happy doing so, go all in on this channel and have fun! I'll be rooting for you!

Let all that toxicity around you fade away, so you can breath in some good, positive vibes. The real friends will reach you when you least expect it, so don't worry. Just know that behind the camera, you have people in your corner rooting for you. Keep being you and please don't stop the ASMR videos, I haven't felt this relaxed in a while! Also, I'm sure you'll wake up in your dream cabin before you know it! Embrace the journey and enjoy the destination! ❤😁❤😁

I've watched this everyday for 3 days

Right around 30 is where you have the very real realisation that work is absolute garbage, you're right on track 👍🏻

The winter months are always dreadful as it’s beginning. Going from hotter days to cold is such a shock to the system

You seem like a truly sweet and lovely person. I wish all the best for you❤❤

A lot of us who watch your videos have had similar experiences. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, and I hope that our comments make you feel better.

Wow, I need to check out flea markets in my area... I hope things get better for you!

I think you should definitely monetize and I hope you're very successful!

There's some studies that show that prolonged respiratory issues after covid may be caused by tiny blood clotts in the lungs that are very hard to detect. Covid was a strange virus... it can take quite some time for all symptoms to go away, but from my research and personal experience with "long covid" (i'm no professional), the symptoms will mend eventually. There are even cases of covid causing fibrosis, which isn't nearly as serious as an average case of fibrosis. Fibrosis caused by covid will almost certainly mend in time as it shows in all the case studies i've read about. I'm not a professional, but i had prolonged respiratory issues after covid as well

So brave of you to talk about your loneliness. It's a shame, cause you strike me as a special person. The passion and love you radiate when you talk about things you are into is very endearing and inspiring. I'm sure a lot of humans out there would concider themselves lucky to have you as a friend. And I really hope you will find special ones that connect with your perticular vibe.

Thanks!

thanks for this!

Thank you for sharing, big fan. New subscriber. It's odd but you are saying what's on my mind. Very similar lives. Take care.

Hi Erudwen, just a suggestion. I hope you set up a Patreon. I would be happy to support your channel. I mean this in the best possible way, you put me to sleep so easily! 😂 I hope you feel better very soon!

Hello Erudwen, thank you for the video.

Erudwen, thank you for your openness and for creating great content! It would be a privilege to support you through a coffee page, membership, or another avenue. You rock, my friend!🤜

Stay positive! I wish you all the best on here i think you are going to do very well. consider more popular games and touch on them, zelda, the witcher, skyrim. Any guides or content will draw in different people.

My real life friends also demonstrated how they didn’t actually care about me so I had to cut them off. It sucks how people grow complacent in their relationships.

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I don't normally comment on videos, but this one hit a bit different. I'm sure everyone watching this video has faced similar situations, so you're amongst friends here. Make sure to take care of yourself, and don't let negative people bring you down dude.

I really hope you can find a better job with nicer people, and that this will slso help you with your help. Also i really like your videos and hope you can make many more more for us.

I love you so much, you are amazing! I don’t mean it in a cringe way. I am happily married and wish you and your partner well from the UK. Everything you’ve done for the ASMR community is so amazing, you’re the best!! If you ever want to chat about your current situation to a complete stranger hit me up.

I've found that the least toxic jobs are the ones where everyone is super professional and efficient at their job. Because there's no bullshit, everyone's just working. Unfortunately, these jobs can also be the ones where you experience burnout because you feel compelled to also work as hard. Here's to your subs increasing and you finding a more stress-free way to earn a living. In the meantime, I suggest following the advice in How To Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie. Give everyone else their flowers, accept credit for nothing, and keep getting the paycheck because that's all that matters in the end.

Your heart is so full of kindness, but your work environment is not kind. I'm glad you're standing up for yourself and telling your coworkers no. Frankly, when a beautiful woman stands up for herself it's inspiring!! Some of your other coworkers probably feel bullied too. Maybe they'll see you and feel inspired to stand up for themselves. I think you have huge potential to inspire people around you!

How do you not have 500K followers already

Stay strong =).

Heja dig ❣️ Kram!

You are so sweet, so relaxing 🧡If you are curious, I also make ASMR videos 🥰

Please see a doctor if you have any health problems. I have had health issues since childhood and it doesn't get better with age. Waking up at night because you can't breathe due to asthma is not cool^^. Maybe you should also give your friends another chance, or at least listen to why they didn't answer. Otherwise you might regret your decision when your older. Partner and family are great, but sometimes you need good friends to talk to.

Well hopefully your boyfriend is good to you cause from what it sounds like, you don't need more negative toxicity in your life. I'll be praying for you 🙏🤙❤️

Congrats on not doing Onlyfans or the like. Don't cheapen yourself.