sad/ disappointing result but deep down looking back in hindsight I'm a little proud of all my efforts regardless of the score. no excuses but here are my thoughts:
sometimes you genuinely stayed consistent year round, put in the work, made improvements and really really really did try your best (only you know your true best) only to find out your best wasn't good enough :(
many 5am study session and revising on weekends and never ever having time to going out ( and never did ) and trying to get in a 5am run before school almost every day whilst fully exerting myself intellectually for the hardest and longest time of my life whilst trying not to burn out only to end up with mediocre grades, i guess ambition does kill- (Macbeth) and isn't good ( maybe)
when you try so hard just to fail (can't really articulate this internal feeling) and still to this day, this has the biggest scar on my psyche, knowing that I definitely had potential to get all band 6s and truly believed it was possible, I guess fate wasn't on my side and i made too many careless mistake during the exam and misread some questions which was not supposed to happen leading to my down fall
still to this day every time i see the mark i feel like crying its so disappointing i can't even verbalise,
disappointing isn't even the right word, its beyond that
I guess now for university I won't put so much pressure on myself and I'll try enjoy the journey a little more, grades don't matter much now, its growth and doing your best whilst having a good balance and staying healthy for the long term (mentally and physically) and is what counts! because grades are superficial and not worth the pain. (ALTHOUGH i will still try get good grades still because i just cant help my self but it wont be the be all end all
I still can’t believe it
Sometimes hard work doesn’t pay off - jimmy lin