Oh, Krystal, I do understand your grief. My husband passed about the same time yours did, and I'm still raw too. The anniversaries of certain things are so hard and make me miss him as if it happened yesterday. My plants definitely show where I am emotionally as well! But, they're resilient (for the most part😉) and remind me that life does go on. Be good to yourself and know that there are those of us out here that understand and care. ❤

Came for the plants, stayed for the lovely lady that grows them ❤ you're doing so good. ❤❤ Chin up beautiful!

Thank you for being such a light in this community. Although you’re going through some tough times you still choose to put a smile on our face ❤

You are one of the strongest people I know. I randomly saw your reel one day and I followed you here. I loved you so much that now I have 25 + plants at my home that are too of a different variety. You touch the hearts of the people and inspire people like me. Be strong. All my love, strength, and prayers to you. From India ❤

He is looking down so proud of you I promise you that! Thank you for your funny happy content! Your jokes makes my day every time I watch your videos! Keep thriving you have came such a long way! 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Thank you for sharing, because you really don't have to. I certainly treasure and celebrate your vulnerability! You bring so much joy, Krystal. I am praying for your strength and happiness on your journey! You're certainly a special person. I can tell your husband is special through you!

yesss the long form vids are always so fun to watch!!

Your voice is so calming, and I absolutely love hearing you talk about plants and all of the different kinds. I am expanding my knowledge and you are definitely helping me in my journey! I wish you all of the love and positivity in the universe

Thank you for sharing your personal grief, as a cancer survivor I know how precious life and loved ones are, and all I can say is that it will get easier with time and plants do help. I got my first plant a year ago, after losing a beloved pet and it filled the spot where the empty dish was. Now I have 50 and counting, and you are my plant guru! I watch your videos every day for inspiration. Your humour, knowledge and sense of fun make this a truly rewarding hobby/ wallet drainer/ addiction/way of life!! And my current favourite is my almost-ready- to- bloom Thanksgiving cactus, which I put in a cupboard like you said. Woo hoo! Keep the videos coming, big hugs to you and thanks so much from Canada!❤😊🌱🌵

You’ve been missed and thought about for sure…it’s so nice to see this video today!!! Hoping you have a wonderful day 🥰

Krystal, my heart is with you and I understand your grief. Plants have been my refuge after having lost my grandson in April 2021. For me it has helped me to realize that, as much as our circumstances have changed, life... it goes on. I get to pour out all the love I felt, and feel for him, on my plants. Otherwise, I would be crushing others, with the depth of my loss. So, here's to dealing with 'the things' and remaining strong. God Bless and take good care❤

“The thought of watering a moss pole makes me cringe” so REAL!

Pablo is such a good boy! Chilling in the corner and not digging up plants 😅

I totally understand how a plant can have sentimental value 😢 My son passed 12 years ago and I have a Monstera deliciosa that was given to me at his funeral. I’ve had my ups and downs with this plan, and it is thriving so much now that I’ve learned how to care for them, Thanks to you. It’s my favorite ❤️ it keeps our love ones memories alive.

That Philodendron Jungle Boogie said "Mama, mama Krystal. Where are yoooouuuu, I'm still heeerrrrrreeeee, water me pleeeeeeease" & then did a little boogie 💃 when you finally found the strength to water it 💔❤️‍🩹❤️💓 Love you Krystal & thank you for making me smile, laugh, cry, cry & cry somemore ohhhh did this episode get me 😢

Thank you for always sharing what you can about your journey ❤ I’m sure it’s very hard, especially to be vulnerable on camera, but what you are able to share is always appreciated. For my fave plants, my Monstera threw out its first leaf with double fenestrations and I’m OBSESSED 😍 it’s only one small hole but the fact that’s it’s maturing and growing means I’m doing something right and I’m so happy for it! Her name is Penelope😅

I love that you said that about the plant names 😊 I like to know them both ur the best most positive person ❤

I truly cannot say I know your pain. Though I’ve lost loved ones - a husband is so different. I am so sorry for your loss. Plant therapy is real! I suffer from depression and as I get older, it gets harder. The plants are a real awareness for me: health/sickness; good days/bad days; life/death and even rebirth. But for the most part just looking at them brings me joy, that joy overtakes my depression and I can move forward. I think another thing is not having any children, the plants make me feel responsible and that I have something that relies on me to make it through. Why should they suffer just because I’m having a bad day? I take it day by day - and enjoy every sprout of new growth (life). I believe Another reason why propagating seems so important is I enjoy stories of people that have deceased loved one’s plants or a cutting - life will always continue on as will the beautiful memories. ❤ God bless you!

I love your plants and the stories that go with them. I feel like my brain activated its muscle memory because I am now very much into plants and have had good luck with them. I used to help my dad prune, water, and care for his garden. I thought none of it stuck... until lately. He passed two years ago, and I feel comforted while I'm gardening. I have a tiny porch, but I have filled it with plants that fit. Someday I hope to have a big enough space to plant rosebushes. Those were my dad's favorites. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and life with us. Hugs from San Pedro, California.

Love being a part of your plant journey ❤️🌿❤️

I could watch you talk about your plants ALL DAY! Love these videos from you ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

When the beginning your channel iam watching your videos, today i seen big difference in your face and how you talk. I know its hard to stay with the pain, but i am glad you have strengths to do all the things you want to do ,❤i will pray for you be safe and strong girl 👧

Welcome to the Monstera family!!!!

Hi Krystal nice to see you - thanks for sharing a bit about your late husband. I have a plant that was gifted to me when my grandpa passed away and it feels important to me too, like your Avatar plant. Sending hugs

Krystal grief is a process, some years it’s easier then others. Tomorrow is the 31st Remembrance Day of my father and as I’m typing this my tears are rolling. There is no measure there are no rules to grievance my hart goes out to you stay blessed 🙏🏽💜🤩✨

Thank you for opening up to us ❤. It really helped me . I lost my mom last year in march . I always bought her outdoor plants and shrubs to brighten her space because she didnt have a green thumb.

Krystal, thank you souch for sharing with us and being so open. I'm so, so sorry for your loss and completely understand how hard it can be to even think about "the things" let alone talk about them, but as someone who has known loss since a very young age, I really appreciate you talking about it in such an honest way. Sending lots of love and healing energy your way 🤗

Ah, sweetie, I am so sorry for your loss. Grief is difficult at best. Every day will be somewhat easier.❤ Your newbies are gorgeous but then all of your plants are. Keep the faith one day at a time.😘

I’m so sorry to hear about the passing of your husband. You deserve so much time for your grief. Please take the time to take care of yourself. Your community stands by you.

I LOVE YOUR CONTENT KRYSTAL, thanks for being authentic, funny, and creative.

Bless you. I became obsessed with plants this past March. I've been going through many issues and the plants have renewed a big part of my spirit. You've been such an inspiration for me. It's so weird I feel like we are friends😂. Our personalities are very much alike. Something I did abt a month ago was to turn my entry way table in to a prayer table. I have all of my prayer plants on there. Not only are they stunning, they really do remind me that God has got me. I wish I could post a picture in the comments but I don't know if you can lol. Thank you for being a blessing. I'm truly sorry for the loss of your husband.

Cacti and succulents are amazing plants. Mammalaria grow wild where I live

Krystal I'm sorry for your loss...much love, comfort, and support from me to you 💕🤟🖤

Thank you for making these videos. You've helped me in my plant journey, and kept it all completely interesting. And thank you for sharing your journey, my heart and prayers go out to you. Please keep posting content, your sincerity and love for plants is contagious! ❤

Thank you Krystal for sharing your beautiful travel and the last story. Which made me cry. You still have a piece of him. He is always with you and will be 4ever. Okay, I have been dealing with some severe pain and it has been really hard to physically and mentally to take care of myself. So my green babies have suffered. But my favorites are Pothos, especially my green w/white stripes, I had to cut it up and what I was able to save, I am rooting in water.🤞🏽In Dec, I found my baby Philodendron Selloum(hope), but I think it has some root rot but bc of my condition I can't move it due to its weight. So if yall can pray for me and it that I can get to it before its gone. I bought the perlite, Growing soil, and another pot(same size pot) oh and new shears. I hope to get my medical results and pray for no surgery. Thank you Love you all. Thank you Krystal for sharing ❤️

💐You're so good with plants and I love watching your channel when I can 💐

Very sorry for your loss Krystal, new follower here! I clicked on one of your videos about a month ago and have been hooked trying to get caught up on all of them ever since. I just recently discovered my love for plants and your videos have helped me tremendously. I love your personality and wish you nothing but comfort and happiness on your journey. Like you i have a plant that i have held near and dear to my heart for almost 8 years now. It is a Peace Lily, my grandmother gave it to me when i got my first place of my own. It was a plant from my aunts funeral (one of the last living ones) me and my aunt were very close and she was a second mother to me. I have seen this plant die down to 1 leaf and come back so many times. I just moved into a new home 7 months ago and this lily finally started thriving and im over the moon about it! i havent gotten any flowers yet (this is my goal) but i have hope! I have recently been inspired by your collection of plants to try my luck with Monstera plants! i ordered a mini monstera and a thai constellation that im patiently waiting to arrive :) I hope that as time goes by you feel less sad about your loss and start to remember happy times and remember that a part of him will always be with you in your heart. Its never easy losing someone you love, dont be too hard on yourself and dont bottle the feelings up you are human and you are allowed to grieve however you see fit! stay strong and keep doing what youre doing! you have a community here who supports you and want to see the best for you

🎉😂 Happy Belated Birthday , you have my condolences on your lost. Have to say that you opened a new window in my life because you given me PLANTS in my life girlfriend I had ❤for plants but since I been following you the love had grown . I really want to thank you for that, 🎉🎉

You make plant ownership and care so much fun. You've inspired me to create my own channel one day. I just have to take that leap. I just have one question... how did Richard not make this list!? 😂

great vid my dear..keep up the goodwork.👍

You are AMAZING! You are talented. You are inspiring. Your funny voices are the best. We LoooOoOoVe you! 🫂 ❤️ 🪴Hello from Vancouver Canada 👋

Thank you for sharing; I had no idea you are grieving. I came upon your channel bc I purchased plants after my husband went to be with our Lord. I learned a lot from your shorts and can relate to wanting to keep the special plants thriving. I bought the anthurium red and strawberry cream syngonium for my husband as he likes the colour red and strawberries. Sending you comfort and praying you receive peace that’s beyond our understanding ❤

I have a peace lily i got at my daughter's baby shower i still have it 14yrs later it will always be my favorite plant cause it reminds me of my granddaughter

you seem like such a loving and caring person, I really hope life treats you well and you’ll be as happy and healthy as possible 🖤 greetings and love from gremany!!

You are such a ray of sunshine 🌞 you definitely brighten my day! Thank you❤

Krystal you have such a beautiful spirit. Thank you I’m your transparency of grief. Your sharing will indeed help someone else 🫶🏾 my favorite plants have been succulents as well.

even through tough times you are so witty and fun. a big shout out to you for being able to push through and i know your hubby would be so proud of you. &another shout out for helping me too without even knowing it. P.S you have the prettiest eyes ever!!

Thank you for sharing your stories with us...and Avatar is BEAUTIFUL! What a beautiful story.

I recently got into plants a few months ago and your videos are truly my favorite. You've taught me so much and I even successfully rescued a rotting cactus from Lowes! 2/3 survived and are thriving now. The baby one is my current favorite it has 4 new growths!

I stumbled on your shorts here and instantly loved you! Thank you for sharing your story with us. I lost my dad this past summer and for my birthday, I wanted to find Hoyas native to the Philippines just to feel connected with my dad. I’m a new plant mom but it’s safe to say I’m now obsessed with Hoyas.

I understand your struggle and am so sorry for your loss. I gravitated toward plants to cope with grief. It’s what got me out of bed and kept my thoughts on life as I watched them grow. I acquired an Alocasia azlanni and silver dragon as rescues last month. Both had terrible root rot 😢. The root are beginning to show the beautiful white color again 💚 just waiting for new leaves next 🤞🏻

I’m sorry for your loss 😢. I can’t imagine.

I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤

God Bless you,also in your process of healing from the loss of my husband a year ago.You will be in my thoughts and prayers ❤

Hey girly all the hugs 🤗 all of them

About a year ago I got a red aglaonema, but it didn't have a tag and I had not taken the time to figure out what it was...and now I know 😅 I got way to excited when I saw you had one and how special it is to you😊

Thank you for sharing your emotions. ❤

I'm so jelly you got an esqueleto!! They're so gorgeous!

My favorites have been my jewel and mini phalaenopsis orchids along with the oncidium that jumped into my cart at Trader Joe's. My adenium seedlings have also been favorites.

I recently found you and I seriously ADORE you! Your amazing energy shows even through the tv. You are so hilarious and lighthearted, my new favorite! 💕

You are beautiful and courageous. Thank you for sharing a part of that intimate story with us. We can feel your sorrow, rightfully so ❤. Watching your videos, I have come to really love my maranta plant, not just for the ease of care, but for her beautiful & striking leaves 😊

Hi Krystal, love your favs, thanks for mentioning not prefering moss poles, i don't have any or want one, you said it perfectly! Too much work and a little intimidating. It is about loving the plants kind of in its natural state as possible. Planks or some branch or stake is great for me! Thanks for being yourself and honest, pls always stay that way. Happy august bday, my two daughters are August bdays! You are special! Great treating yourself. Plants fill a void in people's heart!

Krystal, Thanks so much for sharing your beautiful plants and your raw emotions. I completely understand your pain. I am going through the slow, painful process of watching my husband head towards death with Alzheimer's. My plants are a comfort and distraction from the stress. My favorite is my Plumeria Brea that I purchased recently. Some of the best times my husband and I have had were in Hawaii. I was absolutely devastated over the tragedy in Lahaina. A little while ago one of the ladies in a Facebook plant group I'm in posted that she had a few for sale. My husband’s birthday is this weekend so it felt like a divine gift. Hugs, Sherrii

Beautiful plants and sorry for your loss and sharing you journey , I love watching you ! You have an awesome down to earth personality .❤ sending support and love from Canada 🍁

the way your tone goes higher and higher as you talk more about your plants and express your love for them warms my heart. I love your shorts and long videos; they are filled with shyness, honesty, and nearly R-comedy. Sending lots of hugs to you! Hope you continue to meet many more precious plant babies throughout your journey.

Much love and hugs from England. You are very inspiring.

I just love your dog and plants! Your so calming to watch after a stressful day! I may have picked up a plant or two since I started watching your video's lol.

My birthday is august 17 and I turned 50 this year. Been in a bit of depression myself but I bought me a very large Thai constellation and I just love it! Definitely a favorite monstera in my collection. You are adorable wishing you all the best. 💚

I have followed you on Instagram for a long time and am happy to discover you on YT. thank you for your honesty about your grief and plant care. My thoughts are with you. I will definitely be following for more content.

Hi Krystal. I thought you looked familiar ❤ I raised my kids in the LBC. We used to walk all over and often shopped at the Armstrong nursery on 10th Street. We’d walk to the Lagoon on 4th street and to the beach.Those were good times. I’m mourning my youngest son who passed 2 years ago in October. The holidays are very difficult without him and I say that to mean I can empathize. My son’s fiancée is definitely struggling with his loss. We wish you well . ❤. Love your channel.

So glad you are doing self care despite the pain. You are strong and can get thru anything. Thank you for shading your heart.

So, from someone who lives in Costa Rica, here we can see soooo many tropical plants just growing and existing in the Streets and backyards, I just can't imagine how it would be living in a place where this is not normal o: living the tropical life here! Love your channel 😁 greetings and 'Pura Vida' from Costa Rica! 😁 🌴 🌵 ☘️

I love listening to all your tips love your tips thank you

Taking a bit of Latin for my uni horticulture course, I wish I didn't, but its very useful as 'beefs' or even cactus is a very general name where as binomial Latin names are unique to each plant species, variation, cultivar, or hybrid. Its also easier then it seems just think very very very old English, don't ever be intimidated by your passion! even the hard scientific bits

I’m so sorry. You are just a delight. I enjoy watching everything you make. I’ve learned oh so much from you. I became a plant mom after my mom passed, in January. She loved plants when I was growing up. And of course you get plants when people pass. Unfortunately 2 of the 3 peace Lillie’s rotted right down the middle. They were the big ones! But they help me cope. They are good mentally I have found, and they give me a reason to keep going everyday. I know they depend on me. I am a little obsessed! But I’m loving every minute of it. Thank you for being your beautiful wonderful self. And thank you for putting yourself and your feelings out there for people to connect with. 🪴💚🌱🌿😉

Thank you for keeping me company this morning. Sending love and comfort and healing your way, I hope the sun shines and you can feel it 🫶🏼🌞✨

Keep it up. You have a blessing.

You are a good vibe girl!! So sorry about your hubby

My favorite is monstera!! I also love my burgundy rubber plant and my baby rubber plant, they are super easy to propagate too!

I'm from California too! Specifically SoCal (Riverside county). I've lived in Colorado the last 3 years though. We moved for my hubby's job.

My birthday was in September and my boss gifted me an agleoma (sp?) plant. Very different from I am used to as all of my plants are just variations of green. Last year she got me a monstera that I love so much and is thriving in my living room window. Love your videos. #tfs

It's nice that you chose to share that part of your life. Thank you. My mum passed away 2 years ago now, and I have her orchid that never blooms. It's about 10 years old. And I made a stupid choice that killed off all its leaves, I'm very new to orchids. And I've nursed it back to brand new beautiful leaves and green roots! The plant really gave me a beautiful connection and distraction.

Thank you for sharing!!!! Love all your videos. ❤🎉🙋‍♀️🌺

Thank you for being willing to share your grief, I know so many people that can understand and can relate. I lost a beloved pet of mine around this time last year and it was a miserable month of watching her slow decline. I've been really traumatized and grief stricken since and talking about it is still hard. I started watching you on Tik Tok not long after she passed, and just fell in love with your energy and plants! I went from having no plants, to having 2 rooms in my house full of them! They've been one of the only things bringing me joy since losing her, along with your channel and many others I've found since getting into plants(thanks to you!)! My heart goes out to you, much love and support from Utah

OMG I have her she's stunning just looking at it is a wow factor

I really enjoy your monthly favourites! Thanks for sharing your knowledge and part of your life with us. 💕

I don't have any cactus 🌵 but I think they are cool 💚💙💜

I just adore you ❤

I didn’t know that you’d lost your husband. My heart fully goes out to you 💛. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us and your plant love and plant journeys. Your videos really do brighten my days as well.

Hung in there time will make it bearable not stop the pain but just make it that it dose not crash you daily, weekly or whenever. Luv ur videos keep busy it helps. Volunteer if you can. Its true misery loves company haha well in moderation any way.

Long Beeaach lol Ive officially fallen in love with you and your channel !!😂🖤✨

Thanks for sharing❤my favourite plants right now...blue star fern and watermelon peperomia.

That is a beautiful mammillaria!!!!!!

❤ from india. You are amazing and your plants collection is just wowwwwww😊❤❤❤

Thanks for sharing your faves. Just got a red ag today. I don’t have any specific memories associated with it but from now on it’ll remind me of your resilience, strength, and the delight you have brought with your videos. So sorry for your loss and thanks for sharing your stories. I’m sure it helps with the healing for you and others.

Sending lots of hugs, Krystal. I cannot imagine. 😢

I loved this video thank you!

Awesome video❤ i truly enjoy all of your videos/shorts. Im glad you took some time for yourself, you have an understanding community and your mental health is most important espcially going through a roller coaster of emotions. ❤❤❤ much love

You’re so sweet! I love your sense of humor and your sensitivity. I also love the way you speak and care about plants. Take care❤️

Loved the plants but also the openness to share your loss and emotions. I can’t imagine but I am happy that you are holding on and trying your best! Take your time to heal hunny❤❤❤