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When I was addicted to fentanyl after getting prescribed fentanyl patches for an injury, no one even knew what it was. I would sweat the patches off early and would be dope-sick for a week every month. The withdrawal from fentanyl is something you can't imagine. I ended up going on the street to get something to avoid the nightmare of fentanyl cold-turkey. Finding fentanyl on the street was impossible at the time 2012-2015 so I would buy heroin or roxicodone or Dilaudid. Fentanyl is so strong that I would snort 150 mgs of roxicodone at once and just feel..ok. Not high, just stable. It would make the withdrawal subside. It's truly a nightmare existence. I kicked fentanyl cold turkey in my bed and it was every second of 2 1/2 weeks of Hell. I didn't know if I would survive and honestly, I didn't care. But I couldn't live that way. I laid there, weeping and begging God for mercy. My heart goes out to anyone suffering the slavery of opiate addiction. Fentanyl is a curse.

I was heavily addicted to benzos, which are widely known to cause the worst side effects of any drugs. I know ex heroin addicts who said to me the benzo wirhdrawals are worse than heroin. Anyways, after my doctor cut me off cold turkey when he discovered that I was abusing the benzos, I went through what I believe hell is supposed to feel like. My addiction grew worse as I had to buy them from the streets, and from there, between ages 17 - 20 I barely have any memories of those times. When I was 20, one day I bought the wrong batch of "xanax" and I only ate 2. My parents find me unresponsive and call 911. The fire department was luckily half a mile a way, I die, and get brought back to life. After 3 days in the hospital, with the help of my parents, I tapered off that garbage once and for all. Now, I'm almost 5 years clean! Don't EVER touch that poison please.

I love how she mixes the drug with organic 0 calorie sweeteners for a more healthy approach

What we're witnessing, more than anything, is a mental health crisis that's being overlooked. The consequences are multifaceted, leading to increased homelessness, addiction, crime, and an immeasurable loss of life. We, as a society, can do more and for sure we can do much better.

Blackout dope is what we call it where I live in Ontario. It's put me in an ambulance at least 15 times. I threw my 20s away using drugs and only by the grace of God am I still here. For the past 2 years I've been fighting for my recovery, one day at a time. Tomorrow, I start college.. at 31 years old. I pray anyone affected by this disease finds the courage to change the things they can.

Absolutely terrifying. After being homeless and a two time survivor of Endocarditis due to intravenous drug use over the course of twelve years, I totally understand what alot of these people are going through. Living on the streets, shooting everything up, absesses all the time. Been clean off of all hard drugs and needles for three years now. I pray everyday for everyone dealing with this horrible disease. I have lost so many friends, more than anyone should. These videos are great, because they help get this real truth out to some people who may not know or understand. Keep them coming. Thank you. Prayers for everyone effected by this disease 🙏

I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to opioid. Opioid addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

I used to be a junkie when heroin was just heroin. Im so glad I got out when I did and pray for all these people to find their way out of this bondage and slavery.

I used to snort heroin. Started as a teen. My life went down hill. Got clean when I was 37. It's been 18 years now. I am so grateful to be free. Watching this brought tears to my eyes.

It’s really nice of her to take her friends money while slowly killing them. Incredibly noble of her

hearing carrie’s dad speak breaks my heart. he’s such a good dad. i hope his kids including carrie can overcome addiction. a girl that used to be friends with my brother in the 5th grade started using and died not even a year later from a fent overdose. drugs are awful and so scary.

I lost my son to a methadone overdose on July 27 2018. 5 years later and I still grieve everyday. This video breaks my heart...

"They can try and justify that they're selling a better dope, a cleaner dope. Death is still death." this hit me so freaking hard.

He pointed out the actual problem and it was brushed passed, which clearly demonstrates why the problem persists. We have an addiction problem, not a Fent, Benzo, or Tranq problem. Every few years the "problem" is simply a different flavor than before. Diminished education system, lack of opportunity, disenfranchisement, treated with callous indifference, no visible avenue which actually provides a way out, hopelessness. The drug will continually change, however, until the cause of the problem is functionally addressed, Addiction will continue to plague society, escalating as more join the ranks of the Lost, Forgotten, and Dismissed.

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in November. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.

Admitting to selling fentanyl on camera with no type of identity cover is insane

RIP Gordo. I'm a recovering addict who had over 15 years clean, relapsed and was out there again for 10 years, and have now been off of drugs since 2013. It's not easy, it's an every day battle! Without going into a whole lot of detail, I am so grateful that I got off of drugs in time to be there for my elderly mother when she got sick and she could trust me to handle her finances and also her medication. That was a real gift from God!

Psilocybin mushrooms healed me . I can't explain it but my experience has been spiritual and eye opening . I also started micro dosing . It really helped me get rid of depression and anxiety .

That poor father the fear of losing any one of he's children is just horrific, I'm so sorry you have to go through this xx

Him dying before his 40th birthday really made me incredibly sad. He knew it, but wasn't strong enough to stop it... that broke my heart. He seemed like he would have been a really great person.

Watching this in sober living right now. I've been clean for 13 months now... Never thought I'd make it this far, but I'm on fire and see no signs of slowing down. I'm able to actually enjoy life now, it's incredible. It seriously pains me to see people suffering through what I've been through. I wouldn't wish addiction on my worst enemy.

People nod out and then when someone says the word narcan they wake up instantly lol

I was an addict for 15 years. I did magic mushrooms just once and I never touched it again. The desire to take drugs was replaced with this kindness like “why would you do that to yourself” and I just couldn’t do it again. Anyone who’s suffering, try psychedelics

Kicked fentanyl 78 days ago! I just smoke pot now and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been so is my family. Anyone out there going through it you can overcome it trust me.

To anybody who is reading this: this report is not sensationalist. If anything, it's a lighter take on what is going on. Take it seriously. And parents, watch your children.

She says her fent is good and safe but then says she saved hundreds of lives with narcan. This women is confused

Unfortunately we treat addiction in the wrong way. Addiction is not the main problem it’s a symptom of an even bigger problem. There’s a reason people want to be out of their minds, until you fix that reason they will keep using and die.

No. Just no. As a man who lived through a 22 year love affair with heroin, I have to say that “blaming” anyone isn’t the answer. As long as the demand is there, the supply will be there as well. Nobody wakes up and says “I’m going to get addicted to heroin today”, the addiction stems from underlying issues that all too often go untreated. When I was 17, I was in a motorcycle accident that should have claimed my life. I broke 37 bones, fractured my skull and managed to grate 40% of the skin off my body by sliding down the tarmac at 60 miles an hour with no helmet, shoes or even a shirt. I was in hospital for 9 months, getting regular infusions of Demerol every 4 hours that entire time. Upon my release, I endured over 2 dozen reconstructive surgeries and was prescribed 240 Oxy 30s and 180 Oxy 15s a month for over 10 years. One day my doctor was raided and shut down, leaving me in debilitating pain until I stumbled across heroin. By the time I realized I was completely addicted, it was far too late. It wasn’t until a couple of years ago that I was able to get clean and have been ever since. The downside though is that in my early 40s I feel as if I’m living in a 100 year old body. My pain is so severe and constant that basic things like running to the store or taking the dogs out brings me to tears… I’m sorry for the lengthy comment, this just hits home for me. Again, it’s not the drugs or even the individual that’s the problem, it is the underlying issues that cause people to seek comfort in substances and when those substances work so well they obliterate all pain, sadness, worry, etc. you can imagine how difficult it is to turn away from and walk back towards pain, suffering, sadness and so on.

This is horrible anyone involved in dealing drugs like these has no excuses. Anyone who thinks cutting off supply will do any good should seriously reconsider. And to anyone who is going through something like this, i truly, truly hope you get better

The father with 3 drug dependent children acts like a victim...while causing his children to be homeless. Tough love doesn't heal, and punishment isn't a teacher that abused children respond to.

I experienced the benzo cut dope and it was scary. I used for 5 years with no real memory issues but relapsed one last time and barely remember 18 months. I was trying to get clean so I UAd at lots of appointments and I was always positive for benzos & opiates despite the fact that I was only (to my knowledge) using heroin. I'm so happy to say that I have 5 years clean now.

There is a lack of spirit and empathy in the world right now unmatched by any point in history. We need communities and families again.

So sad for so many reasons. Excellent reporting.

I’m curious how a lot of these documentaries haven’t gotten people arrested

If 3 out of your 5 children are addicted to drugs, and one of them started using heroin at age 13, you did something wrong as a parent. What happened to your children that led them to drug addiction? Where were you?

I was addicted to benzos for years… had my first dose of fentanyl from a Xanax… had passed out for 32 hours, woke up to police and first responders trying to get me back. Stay safe out there, please find the help! I’ve been clean 3 years now going strong!

I'm a food delivery driver in Victoria BC. I have seen the effects of the legalization of hard drugs in my province. I've lived in my city for over 50 years and it is changed quite a bit in the last few years and not for the better

I have six years clean of both opiates and benzos. I tried quitting so many times but the last time stuck. I quit both cold turkey. Let me tell you, no WARN you, away from benzos. Opiate cold turkey is hell. Benzo cold turkey, if it doesn't kill you, is something beyond hell and it takes a long, long time. I didn't feel right for well over a YEAR. I was praying for opiate withdrawal while getting off the benzos. It made opiate withdrawal seem downright pleasant. PLEASE stay away from benzos! I lost a lot to them.

My brother in law died a few months ago from a fentanyl overdose. I had picked him up from jail a week prior, he was so full of life and was sober for the entire time he was locked up. We talked the whole way home and I saw just how happy he was to be out, but addiction is a different type of prison. He was an EMT/firefighter before he got hooked, but sometimes things just don't work out the way they should. I used to use drugs myself and we'd talk about ways for him to get better, I blame myself for not doing more to help him. Keep your family close because there's demons out there just waiting to take hold of em, I miss him and think of him every single day.

I'm sober almost 9 months but was a fentanyl, carfentanil, and benzodope addict. This is such an important documentary and I'm so happy someone is speaking out about how scary the drug users experience is right now. I'd love to share some more of my story and experience, I've seen so much, saved so many people, lost so many friends, it's been a ride. Benzodope is particularly frightening as the withdrawal is nasty, narcan doesn't save you, and you lose days where anything can happen to you. It's so scary but I think the only way to fix this is inject a more safe supply into the market and try to offer more harm reduction efforts and treatment options. Stay safe, dont use alone

After 21 years in the game i have never heard of anyone using monkfruit sweetener as a cutting agent

This show is so very heartbreaking. Even more so because it seems not many people even care whats going on. God bless all.

I spent 15 years addicted to natural heroin and Xanax & never oded once. After just 2 years on fent I woke up from an od after being treated with narcan. Luckily I have been on suboxone since and I’m about to graduate with my degree in behavioral health and substance abuse. The streets are tough. But there is hope. Anyone that survives this epidemic is an effing miracle and has the potential to help so many who are still suffering. If you want help there are resources to help you. Please choose help. Please don’t use in solitude. Stay vigilant. Your life is precious 💜

I find it hard to believe a dealer would just openly advertise their identity Thanks for all these likes and the replies lol

Im clean for 4 years now..and i was in the same streets you just saw in Vancouver BC. Now im in Quebec healthy, Happy with my family...thank God!

RIP Gord... bless you and your family. And EVERY family touched by this heartbreaking epidemic RIP Liam Wilsom 4/29/96- 7/27/18. We miss you♡♡

My mother passed 2 days before my 13th birthday from an overdose. The doctors fed her as much as they could for profit. Unfortunately i almost went down the same path, which recently i have opened my eyes too in the past few years. Im 21 now and my life is changing for the better day by day! My prayers go out to anyone battling or lost someone due to something so unfair!

"Asked us to only use her first name..." as she shows her face clearly commiting numerous felonies. It blows my mind people are willing to put themselves out there like that. Why? Do they think law enforcement will never see this or use it to find them. Madness.

That girl in the beginning claiming she makes up to 15k a day yet drives a shitbox car and lives in a shitty little apartment lol

This was an excellent article on the effects on Tranq👍🏽

my god, the guy with the three addicted children. Fucking heartbreaking...

This is my best friend Gordie. I was his best man at his wedding, and we go way back as little shits growing up in a small town in the Caribou of British Columbia, Canada. We were ride or die for many years and we been through a lot and seen a lot. Fortunately, I decided to throw in the towel and I am now almost 8 years sober from alcohol, cocaine and other garbage I used to put in me, as of August. Gordie used to always reach out to me for help and I tried my best to guide him to the right path. Not only as I see Gordie as my brother, I see him as a hero. This does not get any more raw and educational for the people who are thinking about dabbling into hard drugs or the ones trying their best to get out of it and when people save lives, they are heros. I'm sure this video will help save some. I love this guy. RIP, brother Gordie.

great job, and great reporter.. keep up the good work

My daughter OD'd and aspirated,had a heart attack, respiratory failure, kidney and liver failure, septic shock and she lost 90%of her hearing. Hospitalized for 9 days 8 of those days ahhe couldn't eat because when she tried she would silently aspirate. She had to learn to walk again. She is 22 with the mindset of maybe a 16yr old.

i’m so proud of everyone who has overcame a drug addiction. ❤

So Kiesha's cooking and selling drugs, allows herself to be filmed doing so with face unblurred, uses her first name. Extremely bold and or stupid if she thinks this won't bite come back to haunt her.

What in the hell makes a 13 year old start taking heroin? It’s extremely sad, that a child decides to take that horrific path.

This is heartbreaking...I am so glad I am where I am now in my life! On another note I cannot imagine letting the camera's inside cooking stuff up, smoking etc.

I'm just seeing these videos. Thank you, bc this is educational. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

When I was a kid, I witnessed firsthand what drugs did to my family. I vowed to never touch anything that will alter my mind. Even today, I won’t even take prescription drugs. I tore my ACL and meniscus in the military, and they prescribed me 100 Percocet with a refill. Smh, I never took one. Instead, I chose to use an ice machine for pain management. To people who are affected by this disease, continue to push through. You got this! I’m rooting for you!

What I love about VICE is that they don’t “sugarcoat” these kind of docs! Keeping it raw is what it takes to educate today’s viewers.

Don't do drugs. Just don't do drugs. Doesn't matter what substance you use. This is what it will always look like

Wow such a good content. Thx

I'm glad I made it out of 25 years of opiate addiction I had a ridiculous tolerance to benzos and loved to mix them. Im so glad this wasnt around when I was in active addiction. Gods grace saved my life when he gave me my daughter and something to love more than the dope. My daughter saved my life. I cant say the same for all my friends that died to drugs. Over the years one by one I lost every single person I've ever known. I dont see friends at stores or get surprise phone calls anymore, they are all dead. I thank God for the 2nd chance at life he gave me and I strive to be the best dad i can be. My daughters mom is still in active addiction, I'm now divorced and a single dad. I have custody of my daughter now. (That's rare in Pennsylvania!) Gods grace in action.

I made it to 9 months sober last year before relapsing hard after the death of a loved one (hospitals and hospice had no beds so i was the full time caretaker and didn't sleep for over 3 weeks because of the smell of rotting flesh, abscesses, and her constant screaming. I didn't relapse to deal with grief, I collapsed from exhastion with a heart rate pushing 250 and wound up in the hospital being shot up with clonazepam to avoid a heart attack and that sent me spiraling) and I'm currently about to be 3 months sober again after getting back on the wagon - videos like this motivate me. I've never purposefully done fentanyl, I've tested 99% of the drugs I've done for purity, but I've still lost over 40 friends and associates and honestly I've died once myself when my room mates mother gave us fentanyl laced cocaine (we were dumb kids and she fled the scene once we started to OD) I don't tell anyone that story to avoid judgement. It was one of the darkest nights of my life. I felt like a failure, and to a degree, I still do. Fentanyl pulled my entire city under seemingly. Oxy and codeine ran very rampant through my generation from the early 2000s to 2012 or so and then a 3-4 year string of huge mexican xanax shipments bridged the pills to the pressed fentanyl. Most of my friends had no idea what withdrawals were before starting to use and by the time they realized they were totally dependent on opiates they were mixing them with benzos to make them stretch as the price began to soar, this connecting run of mexican blanks skyrocketed peoples tolerances and pushed them towards heroin and then of course fake perc 30s. I'm only 24 years old and most of my childhood friends and classmates are already dead. You might assume most of the kids affected and killed were trouble kids but I'm here to say that whatever lie you have told yourself to make yourself feel safe be it that you're too rich or too successful or that you live in too nice of a neighborhood to be a junkie is just that; a comfortable lie. I've watched fentanyl rot people of all walks of life inside out, anything from bikers and dealers with 20+ years in the game to rich kids on scholarships and foreign exchange students. One of my best friends that made it out was a world touring musician and even he found himself addicted to opiates. Hold your children close and tell them about withdrawals, explain dope sickness and abscesses to them in disgusting detail until they can't forget it. I regret getting into drugs but the only reason I avoided being a needle freak or an overdose statistic is because my mom told me about withdrawals from a young age. I still had a bad case of it wont happen to me which led to pills, cocaine, alcohol, gang violence, and lost youth but at least I'm not dead. I still use the same phone I used to score all of my drugs on and every time I have to scroll back to find a conversation on my contacts list I ruin my day by looking at the list of friends I'll never get to talk to or hug again. You don't want this lifestyle. Get clean, I believe in you. I may have not been a fentanyl addict but I kicked a 3+ year xanax habit that destroyed my memory, my balance, gave me seizures, made me hallucinate, etc when I got clean. Don't let these symptoms stop you, its worth it, I promise you. Go to rehab, check into a hospital, do everything you can before this pulls you under. Don't lie to yourself. It will.

If 3 of 4 kids are addicted, it might be a parenting problem. Move away from the area.

Damn thats so sad to watch. I was on fent too, it really is hell. It enslaves you completely, the pain of cold turkey is insane. Im so glad that i got into a morphine substitution program & im able to taper it of more and more. My Heart goes out to everyone that suffers from Addiction. Y’all ain’t alone ❤️

I’m having trouble understanding how drug dealers appear on camera without hiding their faces or disguising their voices, even demonstrating how they make the drugs that kill the people they sell to and there’s no legal consequences.

Watching Carrie take responsibility for where she is almost made me cry. She’s still a child. Addicted to heroin at 13. It’s too sad

Benzodiazepines work for a few months, but the body builds up a tolerance to it extremely quickly, to the point where they need it just to feel normal, and the withdrawal effects are so intense that at its worst you wouldn't even be able to put one foot in front of the other to walk, that's how bad it is, you can die from the withdrawal effects, the heart just can't take the pressure..

Can't imagine what Kensington Philadelphia looks like today 😢

this is one of the saddest docs ive ever seen. i am 17 months sober today actually. Im so glad Im not in this cycle anymore. i hope anyone suffering with addiction can get through it cause it is possible despite what our minds tell us.

A 23 year old friend of mine that had his whole life ahead of him just passed away from this BS.......10/27/2022 REST IN PEACE ENRIQUE 🙏

How do they get these interviews

We need to accept that people are going to use and have it made legally and clean. Distribute it in clinics. People should have to sign up, have a social worker, and while they're using, their kids are in foster care. We take the money used to police and incarcerate to get kids out of this environment and to offer rehab to those who want it. Those who don't, well, at least we can keep their kids safe. Better funding for social services and child care. If people want to rot, at least we can make it so criminals don't profit. We shouldn't profit as a society either. It sucks but people are rotting in the streets and criminals are making tens of thousands killing them. Accept the problem and get the people in clinics where they're surround by social workers and med staff, not criminals and people sucking the life out of them.

I don't think anyone who purposely sells Fentanyl as their main product can be considered an "ethical dealer"

I beat addiction but it still ripped my life apart. I lost my dad to complications from addiction, 2 years later I lost my brother to an OD. 2 years after that I lost my sister to it. In between those, I lost over 2 dozen of my closest friends. Something needs to change.

Proudly 9 years clean of hydromorphone, started injecting inter-muscular at 14. I have holes in my arms from injecting. Overdosed 2 times, on my second overdose is when I decided to quit. I quit at the right time cause the stuff on the streets is insane now! Recovery is always possible it just takes time!

15:00 If all three of your children are addicts, you have failed as a father.

My ex wife is a victim of this addiction. She lost her entire family to opioids and finally graduated to consuming meth. The people that she got caught up with and the situations she gets herself into is a disgusting and dangerous nightmare.

Rest In Peace Gordon. My love died in March from a mix of these drugs after a rehab stay and detox. He felt the pressure to get off maintenance when his mind wasn’t ready for him to be completely off of everything so he tried to balance with benzos n fentanyl he was found by a coworker on the floor gurgling, they thought he was going to snap out of it and left him alone for too long.. came back to him non responsive. They got his heartbeat back but he had too much brain damage and he was declared dead by the hospital March 3rd 2022 after the incident on mon feb 28th. I will miss him always and he was everything to me. These are not just addicts these are people struggling with a disease. Please help us.

You wouldn't want it if you saw what it did. My daughter died from a pute shot of fentanyl, she thought was heroin. She wasn't even 30, they worked for 2 hours to save her and couldn't. Theres a special hell these dealers are going to, its filled with the worst of the worst.

Just wait till they realize they can mix tranquilizers with the benzos and fentanyl for a stronger product 😂

It's crazy how bad the game has changed. I survived the real heroin and early fentanyl stages then turned to Suboxone and Xanax to cure that habit, which was probably just as bad if not worse. My kids need their father so the last time I was in jail I made a decision. Been sober almost 3 years off everything but I lost so many good friends to these crazy dope concoctions.

Imagine being addicted to something that you know might kill you at any use. The mental struggle of needing the high but knowing it could be a death dose must be out of this world.

Remember when Vice was an actual respected news outlet?

Its sad that government doesnt give this problem enough attention. The cost of opioid crisis is something unimaginable compared to other issues.

Living in Ontario, fent has a HUGE hold on our homeless population here, it’s heartbreaking seeing my friends who have lost family members over and over. I’ll always advocate for drug users, they’re someone’s child who’s hurting and shouldn’t be punished, I hope anyone in this comment section on/getting off drugs the absolute best. I hope you all make it out and are doing well ❤😢

There isn't a addiction crisis it's a crisis of hopelessness a society full of people with nothing to look forward to and nothing to lose true despair

Umm how is that big chick not arrested on the spot? Omg. 😂

Oh god....I'm a recovering addict. I have slipped once and the dip back down to the bottom made me feel scared and out of control. I was gone for 12 days and came back to my senses.God help me.

Man, I'm so glad that I've been lucky in life. I'm not rich or anything special but I have a quiet, peaceful life with kids in their 20s who are pursuing their careers and, apart from having some mental health issues, not causing me any great worry. My heart goes out to addicts and their families.

I went to a nurse practitioner. I told her I used to be on benzos but was proud to get off myself She then told me they’re not that bad and prescribed me them for everyday use. Then, when I had interpose withdrawal while on the same dose, she called ME an addict. Then when I told her these are addictive, she laughed and scolded me sayingI should be glad it wasn’t Xanax but clonapin. Zero informed consent, zero accountability. The withdrawals are horrendous. She’s a psych nurse and there’s no way I can ever get justice for medical malpractice and doing harm. I didn’t need that drug at all. I was looking for support in my life with stress. Evil. These drug dealing shrinks.

It's concerning that we are seeing more and more patients at our rapid detox center exhibiting the effects of unknown substances that have been added to their illicit fentanyl.

But there's no way her neighbors aren't going to tip off police about the drug house next door.

I’ve been sober for 4 years as of a week ago. When I finally got sober after 12 years, fentanyl was just coming around. For reference during the 4 years I’ve been sober I’ve buried 4 times as many friends than the friends I lost during both an 18 month deployment to Iraq and a 13 month deployment to Afghanistan with Triple Canopy back in 2012. That’s absolutely insane.

So grateful to my cousin, who told me to never take these addictive drugs. He knew my personality, and explained why l shouldn't in a matter of fact way. Being in the Entertainment industry you'll find yourself saying NO a lot, which gets you uninvited to certain parties because you don't use. Being ostracized for not taking certain drugs was the best invisible gift. Hindsight, has me eternally grateful, especially when these documentaries are made. To make it clear why being ostracized matters is because it is how you get to be backstage to network further to gain more working for your career. This is why having a manager is the best thing because their position can protect you from the negative consequences.

Im form switzerlande and im in the methadon programm it is not beeing clean but swapping and illigela substanse for a "legal" i get from the state. Even tough im not clean i never will be but this helped me so much get my life back togerther.