Make sure to go watch my official music video for "Savior" here: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/aNann8mGy9-beWg.html!

Damn shout to my mom. It took me 22 years to realize but my mom is the most horribly narcissistic and manipulative person I’ve ever met. Its officially been a year since I cut her out of my life. My mom had a lot of problems and no real friends. One of her daughters died and the other one is constantly in and out of rehab so I turned into her “last hope”. She’d tell me all the time I was her only friend and the only one who would listen to her and she’d tell me I was wise beyond my years and unload all the troubles adults face that children should never have to think about. But I loved her and I knew she struggled and lot and I wanted to help. So while I was young I carried her baggage around for her. I promise you when I say 90% of the stuff that comes out of her mouth is negative and I’m not exaggerating. But at the same time when I was younger I’d get grounded for things I didn’t do but she was convinced I had. She’d call me a liar and sneaky and a horrible child and all’s I could do was cry and try to tell her that it wasn’t true. That I hadn’t done the things she had accused me of. Like for example we were screaming at each other one day and she called the cops on me because she said I threaten to stab her???? Which I swear on my dead sisters grave I would never harm her or anyone for that matter. But who is the cop supposed to believe? An adult woman or a teenage girl who can’t stop crying long enough to explain her side of things. Not long after that I tried to kill myself and while I was recovering in the hospital she didn’t visit me once. Soon after that I moved in with the man that is now my husband. He taught me to set boundaries with her like telling her that I couldn’t always be an ear for her because I had my own demons I was facing. After that I thought our relationship Improved. When we initially got engaged she acted happy for us. Even offered to pay for half the wedding and I thought we were officially turning a new corner. Three days before the wedding when I text her the final details she texts back letting me know she will not be attending and that I can forget about the money she had promised. It was completely out of the blue. We’d been getting along great until then. I tried to call her but she’d send me to voicemail so my husband called her and she picked up. He had her on speaker phone in the room so I could hear what she was saying. She was telling my husband that I was a pathological liar and that I was using him and stealing his money. She tried to convince him to leave me. Luckily him and I had been best friends for years even before we started dating so he already knew that my mom was a liar. I talked to my maid of honor about it and she said she’d also periodically get calls from my mom telling her lies about me. My maid of honor has known me since we were 6 so she knew better than to listen to anything she had to say but she was afraid to tell me because she didn’t want to ruin my mother and I’s relationship. I even texted my mother after I found out all of that and told her you have one more chance at having a relationship with me. Come to my wedding or don’t expect to see me ever again. She never showed. Edit: sorry for the long rant sometimes I have to put out the evils my mom made me suffer through to feel less alone. It had been exactly a year since I sent her that text on September 21st.

For me this song is about toxic relationships, of all sorts, whether its friendships or parent/child relationships or whatever. I know everyone here probably realizes it, but I'll say it anyway: You are not responsible for other people's choices. You can be there for them, but you have to look out for your own mental and emotional health first, because sadly you're probably the only one who will. If they're threatening that by their toxic behavior, its time to let them go. You can't help them, because they don't want your help, they just want to infect you with their pain. Until they want to heal themselves, you can't help them. Sometimes loving them from a distance is what's best. Pray for them, and hope that they make better choices moving forward, so one day you can be in each other's lives again. Lots of love and prayers to everyone struggling right now. God bless.

The funny thing is that I don't even have to listen past the first note to know I will adore the music that you create, thank you for being an incredible artist...

Beth Crowley is so freaking talented. All of her songs, whether based on a book or real life, are catchy and deep and relatable all at once. I'm a teen author and my dream is that one day I'd write a book good enough for her to write a song about 🥺

I don't know why but I was associating this song with water, and the rippling uneven words is making me feel a bit better about it XD.

This. This song is literally the relationship I had with my ex-queer platonic partner. He put me through so much trauma to make himself feel better. He dragged me so far down, and refused to help himself. I showed him my love, and he sucked it all out of me like a parasite. He doesn’t want to help himself, he just wanted someone to hold his hand through it. He didn’t want to change for himself. Having to talk him out of suicide nearly every fucking week drained me. And the fact he made me feel bad for my burn out from him and made me isolate myself from other friends because he was mad I didn’t want to spend time with him, it took such a heavy toll on me that I had to complete cut him out and jump ship. Everyone who knew him jumped ship with me. I spiral due to the things he did to me. I’m just glad I was finally able to make the nightmare I mistook as a dream end.

“I won't sacrifice myself to make you stronger.” this line is so powerful and I feel like this song is written to me..... This was the state of me few days back. But now I can breathe as I came out of that toxic relationship.....

I like the choice of words when referring to the person at hand- "''Cause your mind is a cage", "So wrapped up in your pain", "Save yourself". It's acknowledging that the person is in pain, while also acknowledging that the person singing matters, too.

This reminds me of my sister. She and I went through hell together, but then she became my own hell. She became almost as abusive and cruel as our biological parents. And I realized that I had to let her go, I had to take her out of my life so that I could be okay. And that was the most painful realization I have ever had. It still pains me, for I remember the few short good years that we had together. Where we had each others back through all of it.

This goes out to my mom....this song is perfect for our relationship. Shes a narcissist and I cut her out of my life a month ago because I almost died and I got mad but she blamed me and turned around to make herself the victim...

Wow...just wow, I needed to hear this and I have come to the realisation that as much as I tried to be the one that he needed, it is not a girls job to destroy herself to bring someone else up when they don't care nor are willing to try

"Save yourself and finally let me breathe." - That line right there can really sum up what it's like being the significant other of someone with severe depression/personality disorder/other mental illness. As much as you might love them, it can get really draining being their rock so often, to the point they end up becoming a psychic vampire and draining all your emotional/mental energy. And then that's when the resentment starts to build, and then you feel awful for resenting them. But eventually the resentment and exhaustion builds up over time that it overpowers the guilt and even the love for your partner, and you just want to be free of what is now a huge burden instead of a healthy, loving relationship.

I've been in a dark place lately and I still constantly had to remind myself that it's okay to have some time for myself to heal before I try to save anyone else, because it won't work out for any of us... And I feel like this song really transmits that idea: It is okay to save yourself sometimes. And if there is someone in your life who can't live with that, they are toxic to you. I'm still learning that lesson myself, but I'm getting there. Thank you for the beautiful song, amazing as always! I love your work

I ended a friendship with someone I really loved because it had gotten to this point. I'm still cut up about it and feel massive amounts of guilt but I know I did the right thing and I won't turn back. This song empowers me to stay true to myself on days when that guilt chokes me. Thank you

*Who else is reminded of their parents, guardians, parental figures, etc. when they hear this beautiful, comforting message?* ~

Our only Savior is Jesus Christ🙏🏻

I can relate to this song totally because it reminds me of when I was growing up. My mom was more into partying, booze, and men while my gram was a workaholic. They both expected me to college because they both were teen mothers and had to grow up fast. My mom barely held down a job and preferred men and her friends over me, while gram worked hard at jobs she hated to put food on the table and pay the bills. They pretty much said, "If you don't go to college, then your life is over" from the time I was 4 or 5. It was like I was their only hope for their do-over. I dropped out at 19 because I couldn't deal with the pressure and I was failing classes but ended up with my Associate's at 25. I'm now 32 and just now overcoming how pressure and anxiety as a kid messed me up and getting my life back on track. Steering away from the story of my life, this song also reminds me of Harry Potter. How people thought of him as the savior and Dumbledore expecting him to sacrifice himself for the so-called Greater Good? Dumbledore knew about the Horcruxes before all this; he had to since he knew Voldy was coming back after he disappeared. He could've found the Horcruxes before that fateful Halloween night and the people didn't have to die. He also knew Sirius was innocent since he initiated the fidelius charm with "the rat" as the secret-keeper and could've demanded a trial since he was the head honcho of the wizarding world, but no. He let an innocent man rot in Azkaban just to get him out of the way and place an innocent little boy with abusive guardians. I know this is just a book and movie series, but this still makes me mad. Harry was no savior; he was just an innocent kid mixed up in this by a senile old man, a bitter potions master, and a dark wizard who didn't know love because of his own abusive upbringing and a mother with no confidence. That's my opinion, anyway.

when you relate so much to a song it brings back that relief of being free from a toxic friendship

Beautiful song as always. Honestly one of the best singers and deserves so much more love. 💜

Hey dear... your songs has given me strength and motivation everytime I break down. It has helped me in my worst times. I don't know how others fell about your songs but it has always been a source of motivation for me. Thanks a lot for the amazing songs. May all your dreams come true ~~Your fan forever

Damn ! This song brings me back to what I’d do for my ex. Always supporting him no matter how much he’d disrespect me. This song was also put on repeat after leaving him. They say music is good for the soul and I have to agree because THIS SONG helped me out of an abusive relationship

How can you not love her. I cant help but adore Beth's music, ever since the first time I heard warrior nightcore. Such a beautiful artist and I hope she gets everything she wants out of her life since she has helped so many people. Love you!!

the one dislike did it on accident through tears-

8 months later and I still listen to this song so much. This song remind me of how toxic relationships are, but mostly how it makes the abused one feel like less and how they feel like they're drowning in their thoughts and emotions while trying to push away.

If only I had the courage to tell her this before she drowned me so deep that I couldn’t get out on my own for what she now tells me was all a lie

wait I love how the lyrics fade in and fade out and how they have a ripple water like effect. also I freaking love this song like all ur others songs💙

Okay, I must comment. Many of your songs work great for explaining the emotions and thoughts and personalities of my written characters. But this one is personal. In the last days of our marriage, my ex got himself into a lot of trouble and, from jail, wrote me a letter asking me to 'help him' be a better person. My letter back was a reminder that I had been trying to help him for the last 10 of our 15 year marriage. But he only wanted to nod his head, say he'd change, and then become worse than he was before my offered hand. Sometimes, Ms. Crowley, you speak directly to *me*. And this story reminded me of the relief I felt when I finally told him he'd have to save himself, or not, because the divorce was pending and I was no longer obligated to try to lead, direct, or bleed for him.

simply beautiful just like you Beth, mesmerizing and heavenly

I knew I would love this song.. it would made me sad when the melody pulls back some memories in the back of my head but it's also comforting me in its own way 💜

All your music is beautiful and so full of meaning! I feel the emotion in every piece. Each piece is like a little story. I love it.

She's SO underrated! Beth crowley deserves more followers

The words seem to b pulled straight from my heart and my life right now!! For real!!! Always putting everything and everyone else before myself and loving deeply and pure honesty. Believing ,and wishing for the same in return but when I need him the most he's nowhere to be found. No concern. I see it, feel it and know this is the reality of this relationship but I still love him and for some reason I always no matter how long he's been gone, i let him come back. That's been my pattern for the last 2 years until a couple weeks ago! He's gone and I have not tried to contact or drive myself crazy with what ifs, why's or any of the such this go around!! I relate to his song in so many ways . I know he will never be capable of showing me the RESPECT, love, compassion and loyalty I've shown him . Therefore I'm ok and I can still look ve him, only at a distance!! This song is my new anthem, my fight song !! Thank you so much for putting my feelings and thoughts into lyrics!! Love this song!! 💯💯♥️♥️❤️❤️

Who is listening to Beth's songs one after another?

Wow... Another beautiful, heartbreaking song for me to adore ❤ Thank you Beth!

I didnt wait for him to save himself... He taught me to save myself...so he can sink or swim...im not letting him or anyone else pull me down... toxic needy jealous competitive angry spirited people are all around us..everyone is not our assignment...im learning just to worry about me. I dont have children so its just me that i need to be trying to save ..im not letting people disturb my peace because they are in pieces💯💯guys we arent their saviors. If they can't save themselves its because they dont want to...because noone can help me like i can

Every friggen song by her... amazing. Heading into the 4th time listening to it already.

Commenting for the YT algorithm, because everyone deserves to hear this beautiful song

Sometimes I think back to the beauty in which I radiaded when young, so many loves began with a mere glance. Hearts broken, and no regrets. Now they join in to cause illusions in my life. Can their hate be so present. Back to letting go.

The first song that really made me feel understood and "not crazy" after a difficult break up. Thank you for this. It was part of what I needed to get up on my feet again, and to better understand the terrible sense of guilt I felt at the time. Listened to it for a while as I was cleaning up the mess he left behind, literally and metaphorically. Thank you, thank you, thank you❤!

Ooo someone got hurt, and now doesn't trust, remember the Mirror people, we've ALL gotta look after ourselves, only then can we truly give of ourselves. ❤🌞🙏🏼🐎

As much as I love others and I'm there to support them, I'm learning that I can't be their saviour all the time. Sometimes I have to take a step back and keep my own head above the water for a bit before diving under again to help those who're sinking.

You're such a wonderful poet... I'm hoping to be a singer/songwriter someday, and every time I listen to your music... It's a poem put to music. You have the writing talent of Sara Barellis... Your songwriting skills are incredible. You don't even know how much I admire your style

Have been through this multiple times, first with both parents, then with 2 best friends, several partners, finally learned my lesson, cut contact to all of them. Better.

The message of this song along with the water imagery, reminds me sooo much of 'War' by Icon for Hire "I can't keep you above water/I can't drag your soul to shore" is just one of the similar lyrics. Go give it a listen

My family has always made me be the one who takes care of my mom ever since I can remember. Her feelings were much more important than mine and I had to do anything to make sure she was happy. She vented to me about my dad whose a narcissist. I was her best friend and not her daughter. I've tried to help her get out so many times, but i drew the line when she picked him over me after he did everything to break my heart and laughed at my crying. I did everything for her and she made a choice. The only time she talks to me is to ask me to save her, to guilt me with suicide threats and to tell me how horrible I am to keep my kids from her even though neither one of them has even tried to meet my kids in, who are 4 and 3. They both drink all the time and I am protecting my kids at all costs. Damn this song is like it was written for me and her.

This song perfectly captures my life for the past two years and what I'm coming to now.

Absolutely Truth song, love this so much. Beautifully written song

I love your music Beth I sing it to my baby niece and it seems to calm her when she’s fussing. I’ve sang all my life my family being very Musial but I never had the guts to sing on KZfaq like you do keep it up

Beautiful painful honest truths....every single song

I love this and Trenches. It really seems as if you wrote both songs about me and my ex. You have a gift. Thank you.

This reminds me of a situation my friend is in. ❤️❤️ Sending love to all that relate to this.

I just can't get enough of this song. It's been on repeat for quite some time now

Wow. Such a powerful message... and it fits so many situations. I adore your strength Beth Crowley!

You are an absolutely amazing song writer & singer. I've never heard such REAL music that touched me the way your music has. You are truly gifted!

Reminds me of my ex :/ "No not this time, I'm not your savior." And, "I won't sacrifice myself to make you stronger." Reminds me of my relationship with my mum- I love this song so much since I can relate to it!

This is my favorite song of yours!!! Then again, every time I listen to a new song you make, it becomes my new favorite! They are ALL SO AMAZING!!

I‘m so glad I found this song. I needed it.

Godddd!!!!!! just when I am thinking what am I doing with my life with This boyfriend of mine...Trying soo hard to ignore all his mistakes hoping he will be better some day..trying soo hard to pull him out from his misery but knowing everything he is still the same for 6yrs now...today suddenly I stumbled across this song and damn!!! that hit me soooo sooo hard... this song is what I need right now...you gave me power Beth ....I wish I could thank you for that out loud ..Thank you for slapping me with this song..thank you..you are doing great...

I can't explain how much this song speaks to me. Thank you💙

Beautiful!!!

You’re my absolute favorite singer ever. Your music is so important to me because I discovered you at the very beginning of my journey into the US Army about 2 years ago. I enlist in just 2 days now STILL listening daily🇺🇸💙

YEAH I SEE WHERE TRUST GETS ME...AGAIN.

The perfect song to let my pass (Ex) go for good.that exactly how I feel.thank you for the song.

the worst part is I love the person who makes me relate to every single lyric.

This is beautiful, a song i didn’t know my soul needed until I clicked 🥹🙏🏼🧿🕊️❤️✨

all beth crowley's songs are so awesome. they give me so many emotions at the same time and I just love that.

This is my reminder that you will want to fix everyone and thing but you can and they will take advantage of your care ,time and money

I cried the first 5 times I listened to this. Reminds me of my ex so much. All your songs are strong and amazing. Thank you for your music❤

I love her songs and I love that my friends and family loves me and I love myself. I love being kind, smart,fun,funny,cool,brave. I’m glad that did not have to till with bad and unhealthy relationships with my family and friends. I have to save myself and heal and I will save other people like my family and friends if they want to that for them. I will not dill with toxic relationships in myself as long as I live for myself and have right people in my life because it important to me. I love this song & her music videos.

I dedicate this to that friend I thought could be like a brother. Every false sense of security he gave me jst let me dig myseld further into his quick sand he called support. It took me a long while of second guessing myself to finally say goodbye. Ultimately he made that decision for me and somehow thats the best thing hes ever done for me. Goodbye bro, sorry im "too much" for you. "Chers"

This is one of my favorite song of hers.

i needed to hear this today love you, beth crowley always inspiring me all the time in some of my darkest moments your songs have provided the courage to keep on going though ive felt like giving up at times. ive listened to them on repeat.

Thank you. For this song and all of the others

Beth you are extremely talented! Very articulate as well! I can't relate to your songs the same but I empathize with your struggles! I maybe wrong but I have an admiration for you being a strong person never needing lower yourself to depths of envy or hatred! It's not easy! Stay strong to who you are!

I love this song👏💛

lately i was released from a friend who used me to make themselves feel good. she abused my kindness and gave me false hopes and promises. eventually I couldn't see 3 feet in front of me and I became cold to everyone. it took me two years to realise a friend who I cared about had used me and it tore me apart. eventually all of my friends fell apart, relationships and friendships in ruin and she blamed me for it all. at one point I started to believe it myself but i had good friends who stuck with me and helped me see clearly. it was hard cutting her off since we both go to the same college. in the end she ended up better then me and I was left in the most hardest weeks of my life. I even thought about just ending it but I never could bring myself to do it and give her the satisfaction. so I continue onward knowing someday I will find that irreplaceable someone and i hope that the people who are in the same or worse situations to me can listen to the voices of those who care and find the strength to continue on.

You are amazing the feeling of song always hits me

Why is this not on the radio?! Damn

It's been an all day Beth day 😢

this song is long over due for someone who was my best friend, for years he kept hurting me and then come back as if nothing happened or that he has forgiven me for things he blamed me for his actions. the pain will always be their but i am happy that i finally found a song that goes deep in to mine and his former friendship.

Thank you for writing this song, it really helped me in my darkest moment. I felt like I'd never find something that would picture the situation and toxic relationship I'm in. But this song express it all, I relate to every single lyric of it even after I'm years passed that dark situation. So thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone ♥

I just wanna say that I really REALLY love your songs! The first song I discovered were "I am not nothing" and from then on, I knew I'll be addicted to you! And for the first time! I'M NOT WRONG!

Thank you Beth ❤️ I needed this

Already can tell I’ll love it 😍😍😍

When I listen to this song I think about the relationship that I have with my family We aren't the best And I'm keeping them okay meaning I have to act defensive when someone questions us I hate it And I wish they could see that

This is beautifull❤❤

Wow! Beth your song writing is incredible as you grab life experiences and put them to music from the heart & soul of those you know. I identify with this 100% and sometimes we cannot be saviors to those who want to live in misery or want to die. Its sad but, its the Truth. Thank you for sharing your heart with us here. God Bless.- Skywatcher-SH

This some feels like a punch in the gut, but one i needed. Me and my best friend have been is a kinda toxic relationship for awhile and though im trying my mental health has been a complete pile of burning trash for years now and for a time there she kinda became my therapist, witch ISNT good at all. Were working through it now after a 3 month scare where she did exactly what this song says and put herself first. This feels like a song about us from her end, and though it hurts like a bitch im happy i figured it out and am working through it all without dragging her down with me. Its been a long road, and it will be ALOT longer but its good to realize how far you've come!

Beth: im not your savior Well, you just saved me through this song ,it reminds me to 'breathe' 😁 thankss this is awesome!

Brilliant love your music love this its so comforting 💗💞

i miss read the name as "sailor" but still glad i listened to this song

Yep, the LITTLE GUYS ON HIS OWN. . CHOICES DO THAT. ONCE IN AWHILE..

Nice!

Thank you so much for this. This song sounds exactly like my story's protagonist talking about/to his father...

I have related to this on a ridiculous level.. Maybe instead of changing the one you are with, try changing the one you are with.. random thought of mine.... Praying for all of you. You are good. You are important. You are enough. God loves you. And to you, complete stranger~I believe in you. Please don't give up..

God.. this song is one of the most relatable I’ve ever heard regarding the current situation with me and an ex of mine.. beauty and pain etched in this wonderful masterpiece. Amazing work as always

it's unfair I can only like this song once. it deserves so many more likes

It really helps me today. Thank you, Beth!

This song is surely a saviour ,💗