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Billie- didn’t mean to make you cry Me- *tear falls down face*

0:00 me: *already crying*

the original version of this song was sad. slowed, it becomes depressing as hell.. depresso mode : ON

Brain: we sad today Me: but I don’t- Brain: I SAID WE SAD, DEAL WIT IT

badass status has been updated to depressomode:(

me: :) *listens to this video* me: :(

this is one real try not to cry challenge and i absolutely *love* it

*This makes me want to hug someone, anyone :(*

Me: *Crying* Billie" What the hell did I do?

_"Welcom to Salty Spooner, how tough are ya?"_ *"I listened to 'I love you' by Billie Eilish but slowed and reverbed."* _"And?"_ *"I didn't cry."* _"Right this way,sir."_

This is what plays as the hero in a movie is about to die as everything goes to slow motion and flashbacks of their adventures start to flash across the screen

how to cry: *listen to this.*

Yeah I'm crying, but at least I don't wear size 13 Men's Nikes.

this is the most beautiful thing ive ever heard. periodt.

Have you ever been so lonely that you feel numb? The type of loneliness that your actually not alone ? But you just feel like you are? The type that you go to bed and cry ? The type that you feel like you want to die? The type that you just want to escape the sadness ? The type that you feel like you can’t go on ? Your breathing,heavily. Crying.the tears escape The only person you love doesn’t love you back. You feel disgusted in yourself for feeling like that. You want them. No,you want someone to make you feel better. You on your bed. Feeling empty. Crying. The only escape is the small soft but heavy breaths you take. The world stops for a moment You can’t help but look out into the dark sky and think about what could’ve happened. The end is coming. You hide your sadness and replace it with fake happiness to make others happy. I’m here for you,your loved. I feel the same as you. Please,take a deep breath let that breath be your escape.

LYRICS -------- [Verse 1] It's not true Tell me I’ve been lied to Crying isn't like you, ooh What the hell did I do? Never been the type to Let someone see right through, ooh [Chorus] Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothing has to change today You didn’t mean to say "I love you" I love you and I don't want to, ooh [Verse 2] Up all night on another red-eye We wish we never learned to fly Maybe we should just try To tell ourselves a good lie Didn't mean to make you cry [Chorus] Maybe won't you take it back? Say you were tryna make me laugh And nothing has to change today You didn't mean to say "I love you" I love you and I don't want to, ooh [Bridge] The smile that you gave me Even when you felt like dying [Outro] We fall apart as it gets dark I'm in your arms in Central Park There's nothing you could do or say I can’t escape the way I love you I don’t want to, but I love you, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh

when she says: "the smile that you gave me , even you feel like dying" i felt that

im just sitting at my computer at 1 AM with cereal in front of me when i clicked on this video... now my bowl is filled with tears

Am I the only one who started crying and thinking about my entire life and how I disappoint myself and my close family and the fact I keep saying I’m gonna change but never do? Yes? Ok.

There was this guy in my grade that liked me. We were riding on the bus on our way to a school field trip and we had never bonded so much before. We’d been friends the entire year. We sit together at lunch even today. On the bus, my friends and him were exchanging hand sizes. Of course, mine was the smallest. When him and I touched hands, something clicked in him. He locked his fingers with mine. Since my friends are very physical (ex, we hug, slap each other, hit, piggyback rides,) I passed it off as nothing. He asked me, “is this our thing now?” With the cutest smile. I laughed and said, “yeah, if you want it to!” We were in the theatre during the field trip and I leaned in his shoulder since the seat was very uncomfortable. He put his arm around me. Like a dumbass, I still thought it was a friend thing. But the more I thought about it, the more I began to think he liked me. Which he did. He later asked for my number, so he could text me a link to a video he was talking to me about, so I wrote it in pen on his arm. That night he texted me at 8:00. We were up at midnight. We told stories, and even got deep into each other’s stories of our lives. Personal. He cried, too. Which “crying isn’t like you” I told him, (coincidentally)(I comforted him) The next day, he wanted to call me. He told me “I love you, Anna,” I couldn’t believe it, why would he like me? There were so many other girls on the earth, and we were both Bi, and he had told me he liked this other dude we go to school with, didn’t he like HIM? At that time in denial, my song was more of a “wish you were gay” He was stubborn, didn’t care about opinion, and had once claimed he was gay. But then he told me he was bi. I’m used to my friends fluctuating between sexuality and identity. When people tried to help him, he rejected it and wanted to do it on his own, or saw some people as competitors. I didn’t want him to love me. I kept wishing he was gay. I had told him I liked him back. And now I’ve only fallen more in love with him. I told him I’d be willing to give our relationship a try. He didn’t expect me to say I liked him back. He said that he needed to think a bit. And I kept wishing he was gay. And now he’s gay. And he likes HIM... And I feel like he “didn’t mean to say I love you” And now I can never get him back This song breaks my heart every time I listen to this... I want him back... and I got what I wished for... at what cost... April 20th 2019 (Blaze it) Edit (July 1st, 2019): I am actually dating him now!! I’m so sorry that you guys had to go through the same exact thing as I did. It causes so much pain and agony, but things like this happen because you need room in your heart for the happy things. Soon after this, I finally met my best friend. I finally started to feel included in my friend group. Life got better. Don’t give up guys. Just when things feel like it’s as bad as it can be, keep your small glimmer, because things are going to always turn around the second you least expect it. Edit (April 6th, 2020): This guy turned out to be a total narcissist. I don’t hate him, but I definitely don’t like him anymore. However, this isn’t a sad ending. I broke up with him, actually in August. He showed so many red flags from the start but I figured he was just learning. Guys. If someone doesn’t respect your boundaries, run as FAST as you can away from them. He completely broke me when he clearly was more worried about himself. You can see I clearly liked him. But the story didn’t end. After that I took a break. I tried to just enjoy time being alone and tried to appreciate myself a bit more. And soon enough I found someone better. Again. Don’t give up. Don’t let your worst moments define where you want to go. Edit: (July 24th) I cant believe this is still being seen by people 😳 stay strong my loves

This is so under rated. You deserve so much more making this song even more beautiful. Thank you so much.

i think there was something in my eye this whole song :/

Driving down in empty road in the pouring rain 🌧 in the evening type of feelings 🥺❤️

If you close you eyes while listening to this you’re in despressomode

holy crap i went through the whole song without realizing i was crying silently the whole time. this is so freakin beautiful.

This makes me think of the innocent days before love came along when you just had friends.... I wish I never had my first heart break because that shit really hit me dead on into such a darker reality:(

*this really gets me in my feelings. it really hits me right in the heart. especially when you’ve been through it.*

I have never felt so much pain in my chest. I just want it to be over. [difficulties in daily activities, not the song, the song is incredibly gorgeous and deserves so much more]

a couple hours ago i was listening to this, blasting it on my speaker and singing along, and when it got to “i love you” my voice just broke, and i just started crying my eyes out, and i was listening to my own voice and i sounded so hurt edit: its happening again

this is the most beautiful thing i’ve ever heard

This should be put on Spotify or something

She is speaking to the person she loves saying, “I Love You”, but the person she’s saying it to doesn’t understand WHY she loves them. They think that she is mocking them, because...we as humans can sometimes try so hard to hide our hearts and authenticity from others, solely based on what we’ve been through. So when someone actually manages to SEE us in spite of that-it makes us want to HIDE even MORE because we LITERALLY don’t WANT to LOVE or comprehend the fact that someone actually loves US. (“What the hell did I do, never been the type to, let someone see right THROUGH”)... So...what they are saying is: they don’t want anyone to see their heart, because that will ULTIMATELY make them FEEL, which is something they literally do not want to, because when they do it, it makes them hurt & want to cry. So they literally want HER to take BACK the genuine love that SHE feels for THEM. But she STILL does it. ...This song is so damn deep. Because she subtly spoke her feelings for another, while at the exact same time...elaborating the perspective of the other person & why they are so against experiencing genuine love. #Wow.❤️

“ the smile that you gave me even when you felt like dying” tears fall down my face every time I hear that

"I love you and I don't want to" geTs mE tHe mOST uwu

this song is so sad, but now it's even sadder when it's slowed down. thank you for putting this in my existence i am now crying as hard as i can.

the way she sings i love you really gets me every damn time:( it’s so beautiful but so heartbreaking at the same time.

thank you so so much for 2 million views everyone :'))

This truly got me.

the fact that nobody pops up in my mind when i listen to this means ive truly healed and moved on wow

this gave me big sad

gave me chills.

i’m NOT a soft person, but the bridge can make me breakdown

In 10th grade, I was real deep in the closet. I was bi, but I didn't tell anyone. I really liked this guy. We always ended up in groups. He always noticed when I got a haircut, which kind of made me feel nice. He always stood really close to me, making my heart beat so much. One day we were in a group and he asked me what my deepest darkest secret was. He stared right into my eyes and I thought he knew, but it wasn't until homecoming until something happened I was walking trying to find my friends at the dance, and someone places a red licorice on my shoulder. I took the licorice and turned around, and it was him, and he was walking away towards the hallway outside the dance area.I look at the licorice, and I wanted to follow him. I didn't... Over the next few months I tried my hardest to stay closeted because I was so scared to come out. I pulled myself farther away from him, but he got closer, sitting next to me during assemblies and even on the last day, he sat right next to me. He left the next year. I didn't realize it then, but I loved him, the way he noticed me when no one did, he would get do close to me, like he knew who I was. I think he liked me too. I hope to see him again soon.

the best feeling ever: listening to billie at 2 am and just being sad for a bit

i dont know how billie makes me feel sad, angry, happy, confused, normal, at the same time ;-;

That’s rly f sad like tf I’m tearing so hard ASF- When she say ily tho :(

i’ve commented multiple times on this song and i finally know what this feeling is... it’s a feeling i felt from summer 2019 at 3am... i just felt that feeling rn and idk i kinda miss 2019 a little... i really like this feeling now. i feel like it’s summer but it isn’t because of the virus... i really wish i can go back to summer 2019... that’s when i figured out tiktok and started making tiktoks that we’re summer related but i felt like i would get made fun of but now that everybody has it i don’t have to feel ashamed but now it’s all about clout

crying to this is next level pain that i have reached

it was better to run away than to continue falling in love until you lost your mind ... for someone who was not for you !! 🦋

im crying for no reason now thanks

Damn.... that got me in my feels

this song reminds me of my dad. i’m referring to where she says “i love you, but i don’t want to”. he’s treated me so badly in the past and he’s abused me physically and mentally. and yet i still give him chances.

_this song makes me want to cuddle with someone while listening to this idk why :,)_

This song used to be my “trigger” because every time I’d listen to it I would cry. It holds so much meaning to me. I used to play it for my pet when he had trouble breathing and was close to dying and so I just cried every time I’d hear it. Listen I thought I got over the song and all but listening to this slowed I FINNA SWEAR TO GOD I THOUGHT MY HEART WAS GON P0P

Tomorrow would make a year since lustry posted this video and he is about to hit 1 million views. So proud! 🦋✨

Okay that song make me crying at night 12:23 am :)

"The smile that you gave me even when you felt like dieing"

This song is perfect, even more in Slowed

I'm an 11 yr old suffering from depression and anxiety. I can't do anything about this I really wanna end it all But I don't want to hurt the people who care for me What is the meaning to life? Why am I afraid to die? Why am I like this? I really wanna end it all but i just can't Nobody understands me- I normally listen to slowed down songs to calm me down. I listen to this all the time

This is so perfect. The song is beautiful enough normally but this... wow

Thanks for this! I get a huge lil peep vibe off it

Your skin is not a paper,don't cut it Your face is not a mask,don't cover it Your size is not a book, don't judge it Your life is not a film,don't end it Your neck is not a skirt,don't hang it Your heart isn't a door,don't lock it! Don't hurt yourself because of a girl/boy,someone will always will be with you. Life isn't a joke.We need to appreciate it, even if it's hard.

i don't cry usually to songs as they mean nothing to me but this legit made me cry.

This song hits different on a summer night at 6am watching the sunrise

*even tho my slowed playlist is for ariana grande and billies hyped songs this* me: you are the only exeption

I hope y’all understand Billie would’ve never made this song with the intention to make anyone feel sad though. Although I do listen to this when I’m sad and in my feelings. It just hits right.

this song just gives me a little bit of what I'm going to feel if I lose her and dude, it doesn't feel good

the song was literally written for me. or so it feels like it. it relates to my story with this one person so much it’s heartbreaking.

This made me cry harder than the original version

im not crying, my eyes are just sweating ...

Me crying: KZfaq: YoU nEeD yO gEt gRamMarLy

Wow... normally I’m so... dull. Empty. Emotionless. I put on a fake smile every day so nobody asks. So nobody has to see my daily struggles. So people think I’m badass. Tough. Strong. But this song... brings out the weak in me. The one emotion I’m used to, sadness. Fifteen seconds in and I’m bawling like a baby in the corner of my room wishing things would change... wishing I could be better.... This song puts my guard down, makes me less tough and badass. Softens me, makes me cry. Makes my thoughts run, makes my tears flow like waterfalls. It’s amazing, really... I love it dearly, and I love Billie. Tbh it makes me so calm and sad at the same time, it’s so amazing and confusing and overall just... Beautiful. Never fails to help me emotionally, despite the fact that I’m unbelievably unstable. Thank you so much for making this song, Billie, and thank YOU for making this song even sadder with the edits, it’s just as amazing. Tysm dear 💙

Omg this is amazing and the way she sounds makes it way better

_it hurts everytime i think about you_

The “what the hell did I do” is honestly one of my favourite lines. Just makes me question what did I even do to live such a un meaningful life.

there was this guy that was in my grade and he sat next me the whole year. i started to become friends with him. we would laugh at each other’s jokes. hang out for a little on the bleachers. then on jan 7, 2020. he asked me out. but he didn’t ask me out. his friend did it for him. i was confused if he liked me why didn’t he just me ask me straight to my face. i said yes. but, he stopped talking to me. i kept trying to talk to him. but he would walk away. then after 2 weeks of this. he started to flirt with my friends and other people. for 3 whole months this went on. i started to think that it was my fault that all of this was happening. then finally. i broke up with him. spring break started and i wanted to be happy just for once. then he texted me and said i miss you.. i hated this guy so much that i loved him so very much.

need a hug? i do too. come here.

Slowed down music hits different, makes me more depressed but I cant stop listening to it, cause than again its relaxing idk.

This hits rlly hard bc it's so sad how we didnt know what was coming in the future and we were just so, ungrateful but bc we were just having fun back then but we didnt know they would become memories, bc now I feel so lonely and alone and I feel that all the love I get is fake and we were so much happier back then and we never knew how much we would be missing the past, we never got to say i love you.

I was called fat and instantly started crying im still crying people are so messed up

A slight tw,I'm gonna vent if that's ok. I feel so lost,I keep spiraling down a dark hole that won't stop. The weight of nothing on my shoulders keeps me from flying up the hole. I have friends who love me,I have family,but I feel....alone. I feel like I have nobody and it's so stupid. Time is moving ahead of my pace and I hate it. It won't stop and I can't make it stop. I want everything to stop. I want to sit on my bathroom and cry without worrying about work,school,friends issues without everything going ahead. I love someone,but they don't love me back. I don't know if they do or not but I know they don't at the same time. I can't go a day in school without spiraling faster because I just can't think,I can't pay attention,I can't concentrate. J can't sleep. Sure I have maletonin but does it do anything? No. I stay awake staring at the ceiling and it won't stop. I'm always angry and mad,i always lash out at my family and sister and I want to stop but I can't,something's controlling me and I don't know what. But I just want to feel again,to be happy. But I can't. Edit ---------------- I fuck up a lot and it causes me to lose people. I don't want to and its usually to late to do anything and i fucking hate it.i want to keep a friendship or relationship without them leaving or me getting hurt. Though i cant blame anyone,someone could slightly nudge my heart and it will shatter to a million pieces. Ill sit on my floor and stare at a wall for hours wanting to feel again- why? Why cant i just bash my head into a wall and fade away? That would be kinda nice. I feel like im a puppet- like someones controlling me.but no one is ----------- I want my best friend back. I may have fallen in love with her but she likes my other friend and they like her back. I've loved her for the past 6 months. I tried to get her to like me,I tried to get her attention,for her to talk to me,but now we don't even talk. I text her and she doesn't answer or it's a short convos. I'm sitting here typing and sobbing like an idiot because of someone who will never love me. I just want her back. Please.

Ive had this on repeat for awhile just to hear someone say "I love you" even if its not directed towards me..

right now, after listening to this I just want a hug preferably from my girl

Thank you for blessing me with this.

who just thinks fineas's voice in the backround is so soothing

sorry to be that person, but i’m listening to this in 2020!!!!

“Maybe won’t you take it back say you were tryna make me laugh, and nothing has to change today.” That hit me hard, especially when my crush finally told me that her and my brother were dating. She knew I loved her.. And so did he... It rips me apart every time it gets the chance. Edit: I know I’m an idiot.

this...makes me feel something. i don't know if it's a good something or a bad something but it's strong. i love this. thank you.

It makes me so sad how people r hearing this right now and I know y’all are crying because I am too. But I don’t want y’all to feel the pain I feel I don’t want anyone to feel that shit

“ the smile that you gave even when you felt like dying.” she just described what i do

No matter how many times I listen to this song over and over, I still cry just the same 😔

I have a hard time expressing my feeling so at times I will burst out crying. I’ll come back to video when I’m home alone.

OKEY ESTA CANCIÓN ME HIZO LLORARRRR

I think of my mom with this song. Her and my dad went through a really bad divorce, and in the process she had started kind of brainwashing me and my sister to hate my dad. We had to go through counseling, I said some really not nice things and threatened him a couple times. We lost almost a year of our lives with him. It was to the point where he thought he had lost us forever. We had to go to a behavioral center to "deprogram" ourselves from our mother. Thinking about what she did, and knowing that she feels no remorse, makes me want to hate her...but I can't, because shes my mom and I love her, but I don't want to and it hurts. Everything about loving her, hurts💔

some songs slowed just do something to you. this one especially ❤️💔

here before a million views

3:52 man 😔🥺😢

It's these types of songs that remind me of all the feelings inside me I can't put into words

honestly, the only song that has let me feel anything today. We had to put my childhood pet cat to sleep today