Billy Bob Thornton: "I've Never Been the Same Since My Brother Died" | Oprah's Master Class

Billy Bob Thornton: "I've Never Been the Same Since My Brother Died" | Oprah's Master Class | OWN

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10 жыл бұрын

Filmmaker Billy Bob Thornton says that he was forever changed when his younger brother Jimmy died suddenly of a heart condition. Watch Billy Bob describe the sadness that will never go away and how he's come to accept that he'll only ever be "50 percent happy." He also shares his poignant advice for anyone who has lost a loved one. For more on #masterclass, visit bit.ly/1ZQfeZO
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@results_not_found 6 жыл бұрын

"..and I've never trusted happiness since" - wow..that's exactly what I've been feeling my entire life

@fml5910 4 жыл бұрын

It's hard to trust when you work hard to get it, and then people steal it away from you. And there's nothing you can do about it.

@mariamalseedi5134 4 жыл бұрын

Don't give up and never

@coll4455 4 жыл бұрын

It’s exactly how I have felt since my brother died.

@brooke80448 3 жыл бұрын

Same

@ewitsmemario6236 3 жыл бұрын

7 months now. I just want my brother to come home*

@Kinypshun 6 жыл бұрын

Heard every cliché in the past 5 years...."Time heals"...."She wouldn't want you to be sad"..."Time to get on with living..." so I stopped telling people how I really feel - broken. My sister's death broke me. Thank you Billy Bob Thornton for putting my feelings into words.

@queenmo2374 5 жыл бұрын

We are the same!

@smritigautam4291 5 жыл бұрын

You are right. People always do so and then you adhere to not to tell anyone how you feel.

@dmc522 5 жыл бұрын

Yes this is exactly how I feel since May 21, 2017. My life will never ever be the same, the day my sister died. 4 1/2 yrs younger than me. The pain is so gut wrenching I feel like I’m living a nightmare & when will I wake up. She always said , we were soulmates. We felt like twins. Siblings don’t get the attention or should I say we are almost the forgotten ones in grief. No one can replace that thing with a close sister or brother.

@Kinypshun 4 жыл бұрын

@@dmc522 I am so sorry. It comforts me to know that someone else out there feels the same as me. We were 4 years apart as well. Thank you.

@Kinypshun 4 жыл бұрын

@@dmc522 I wish I could take away your pain. I got to say goodbye to my sister and you were robbed of that. I don't know much, but I do know about addiction. I am in recovery 21 years. Please believe me - There is nothing you could have done to prevent the outcome with your beloved sister. I wish you love, peace, and every blessing in your life.

@sprite7761 8 жыл бұрын

Dedicated to Those who've lost our brothers or sisters!

@ellitestar 6 жыл бұрын

or a Mother...

@marshwetland3808 5 жыл бұрын

My brother. :'( 40 years ago.

@davequ 5 жыл бұрын

or my wife. "Closure" is bs ... and he explains exactly why. I'll never be the same, and don't want to be.

@thenaification 5 жыл бұрын

I just lost my brother, 240 days ago to be specific, and I still cry every day and night thinking about him, missing him. He was my only brother and I love him more than anything, even more that I love myself. All I want to do is follow him to the after life. I just want to be with him again.

@dipenbhusal3574 5 жыл бұрын

13 days back. I lost my sister

@shenanigans4030 8 жыл бұрын

He totally gets it. This is exactly what it feels like. So glad I found this.

@katylake6314 2 жыл бұрын

Completely agree. Such healing words from someone who understands.

@donaldwarren2497 2 жыл бұрын

Going through this now.

@shannonhaywood328 2 жыл бұрын

@@donaldwarren2497 you'll be ok. Takes some time to dull the sharpness but it comes. I promise.

@natashahardy1564 Жыл бұрын

Totally gets it. “I’m 50% happy and 50% sad at any given time.” I’m more like 30/70, but it is what it is

@joshuathompson5395 7 ай бұрын

I’m sorry, I completely understand I wish all of y’all the best of love and if anyone of y’all needs to talk just message.

@camiehowlett2781 10 жыл бұрын

This was a great way to describe grief.

@lafur22 Жыл бұрын

I lost my lil brother 9 months ago. I raised him. This is exactly how i feel. It shattered my heart into a million pieces

@ariam2042 10 ай бұрын

Same my younger brother 4 years ago...exact description of my feelings

@mbzcs 9 ай бұрын

Its truth?

@leesonsoonka-ce2jp 7 ай бұрын

My sincere condolences 😢 stay strong buddy

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@txbadazz6102 5 ай бұрын

Lost my younger brother to fentanyl on Halloween 2022 and I haven’t been the same since. May peace be on everyone’s heart who have lost a brother or sister. It’s a different kind of hurt. 🙏

@bicarbonat1 8 жыл бұрын

I've never heard anyone precisely voice what has always been my outlook regarding the people I've lost until this video.

@JPMJPM 7 жыл бұрын

+OWN What an intimate interview. How gracious of Billy Bob to be so honest and vulnerable in front of us. I know exactly how he feels. I am probably also 50% happy and 50% sad at any given moment.

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

+Jennifer Mitts sending u strength

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

😢

@vickiewiseman7112 7 жыл бұрын

mara.iara Me either. Today is the one year anniversary of my daddy's death. I am so so sad and depressed and broken. I am so thankful for my daughter sharing this with me. I am sure I am not alone!

@witchescauldron 7 жыл бұрын

I agree...this is quite heart-wrenching to watch, but also very true (for me) ♡

@brianharrison2671 8 жыл бұрын

i lost my brother in 2014 he was 23 i was 25. It is the hardest thing iv been through and im still wish he was here today he was my best freind

@d.k87 6 жыл бұрын

brian harrison, i lost my brother too in 2013 august, he was only 26, there is no day goes by that i dont think about him, he was my best friend my son everything to me,,, i will never ever forget him till i live even its make me cry everytime,

@adwaa4833 6 жыл бұрын

He is in a better place now.

@Mary-qz7lo 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my brother 3 weeks ago. He was 23 and i'm 21..he was my best friend too it just hurts so bad

@albertosoto6249 6 жыл бұрын

brian harrison I lost my brother when I was 25, he was 27, I know the pain you gotta go through everyday.

@Titabandz 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my older brother in 2015. Ever since that happened i felt bitter inside and sad every single day. He passed away when he was 17. I lost my best friend, the person who I loved the most in this word and I still can’t get over it and will never get over it. I miss him so much.

@johnnyappleberry8992 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my dad, my mom, and my baby brother, all in one year, at 32 years of age, i lost my whole family. Not an hour of my life have i not thought of one, or all of them since they left. But I've come to realize, life, is about loss. But i know in my heart, I'll see them again one day, One sweet day.. . . .

@katiel1979 Жыл бұрын

Oh god that’s traumatizing 😢you poor thing god bless you

@Jim-pt8kk 3 ай бұрын

I’m always amazed at how some people seem to be at target for bad news and bad luck a lot of which isn’t their fault and other families seem to skate through life

@Optimusprimeisachad 3 ай бұрын

I’m sorry for your loss loss bro god bless you bro your family will be proud of you

@mariecourtney7672 2 ай бұрын

You will see them for sure❤💔

@MsJgreen77 8 жыл бұрын

I am literally dying from missing my brother.

@hamsammich9278 8 жыл бұрын

+MsJgreen77 I ended up in hospital with broken heart syndrome from the shock of my brother dying. The physical pain overwhelmed me for weeks. I realized I had to get well for my family & keep going because he wouldn't want me suffering. It's a horrible thing losing a sibling. I'm the oldest & I should have gone 1st , I still feel guilty I didn't . hope you can find some comfort in knowing your brother's still with you in spirit. I think of mine being with me through the good times & I feel better . Peace to you.

@MsJgreen77 8 жыл бұрын

Thank you. The pain is just too much at times.

@hamsammich9278 8 жыл бұрын

+MsJgreen77 I know how you feel . It's been 6 years since my brother died & it can still hurt, throat tightens up & chest pains then the tears . Last time it happened was a couple of weeks back when his favourite band came on over the shop speakers & I had to run out ( I feel sorry for the person who had to put back all the things I was getting because I just left the trolley in the aisle) It's ok to be upset, it's normal. Dont ever let others tell you how you should feel. We greive in our own way . Each anniversary I get something blue because that was his favourite colour, this year I'm adding on to the memorial tattoo I got for him . I'm sure he'll be with me having a good lol when I'm going "ouch!" getting it done :)

@mariesauers326 6 жыл бұрын

MsJgreen77 I'm so sorry for your loss. It is so painful!!

@mariesauers326 6 жыл бұрын

Ham Sammich thank you for your comments.

@siddhantpurohit6501 8 жыл бұрын

I respect this man a lot now, after hearing this speech.

@randycrawford1132 6 жыл бұрын

Siddhant Purohit yeah me too

@lindamaygregory 6 жыл бұрын

Me too. 💜

@michellemajako 3 жыл бұрын

Asherah 1147 listen to the entire interview and it changes your mind about him. Or don’t.

@KOGr104 3 жыл бұрын

@Asherah 1147 I’m sorry but you wouldn’t understand the feeling he describes it perfectly and what he means but he will never trust it again is if you trust it it could turn on you just like that

@chris4235 7 жыл бұрын

My brother died suddenly early this year. Billy Bob has expressed my feelings exactly. I will never be the same.

@willm678 6 жыл бұрын

Chris42 Sorry for your loss.

@frags7819 5 жыл бұрын

Ive lost my brother yesterday and i love and miss him so much

@nadzworld698 3 жыл бұрын

My brother just died yesterday 😢💔

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

@@nadzworld698Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

@@frags7819Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@kerdunne3422 6 жыл бұрын

He pretty much described exactly how I feel when my own brother died. It's the worst thing that ever happened to me.

@HandsAreBlazingRed Жыл бұрын

I lost my brother 2 years ago and I’m sure you know the pain never goes away you’ll carry it till you die and it hurts a lot it’s the worst feeling in the world.

@jessepurcell-thompson2633 11 ай бұрын

I lost my brother nearly 3 years ago and it’s by far the worst thing that’s ever happened to me too

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

@@HandsAreBlazingRedLook up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

@@jessepurcell-thompson2633Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@keithbloch 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my best friend in 1979. He was 23. I think about him almost every day.

@albertosoto6249 6 жыл бұрын

When my brother die, almost three years ago, It feel like at times I'm happy and all of the sudden I become very emotional and melancholy. I completely agree with the 50% happy and 50% sad at any given time. 😢😢😢

@JK-vy8vh 3 жыл бұрын

How are you now my younger brother passed a year ago come tonight. It's felt like forever and I've broken both my hands in the past year because I've been so mad about it. 23 years old he didn't even make it to 25 I'm 25 now and I lost him when I was 24. I've lost two of my best friends I grew up with but seeing my brother in a casket felt so much worse. My friend shot himself but I couldn't bear seeing my brother but I stayed for 15 mins like I did with my friends. It's the hardest thing Ive done. The vividness of it is gone but I still feel that sting constantly.

@nadzworld698 3 жыл бұрын

My brother just died yesterday 😢💔

@pm5206 2 жыл бұрын

@@nadzworld698 I cry with you.

@maryannvitelli5818 2 жыл бұрын

@@nadzworld698 I'm sorry for you. Brothers are so special. They are our "knights". Always think of him, every single day. And, say his name, and tell him how you feel and that you love him. It helps me, anyway. Been almost 4 yrs for me. Still rough. Prayers. 💛

@emily12102 2 жыл бұрын

@@JK-vy8vh I am really really sorry for your lost. It is so unfair how some people do not get the chance to live a long life and grow old with their loved ones. And on the other hand it must be so hard how others have to live their lives without their loved ones and grow old with one person missing all the time. I really hope you are doing alright at the moment and that you will never forget about what an important person your bother has been to you!

@kristymarie6065 4 жыл бұрын

I miss my brother so much he just passed away in may of 2019. I’ll never be the same

@jerometaylor2019 3 жыл бұрын

Kristy. Today is my bother’s birthday. He was 18 months older than me. He died suddenly. I’m sorry we have this in common. I hope you’re doing ok. It’s okay that others don’t understand your pain or try to relate with things that seem less painful. There are lots of us.

@kristymarie6065 3 жыл бұрын

@@jerometaylor2019 thank you. I’m sorry for your loss also and Happy Birthday to your brother

@charlottejackson7690 3 жыл бұрын

Lost my brother 2019 my sister July 5th 2021

@jeanine1406 4 ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss ❤

@dylanwanatee161 6 жыл бұрын

I loss my brother 21 yrs ago. I was 16 he was 13 and died of a gunshot wound to the head. I was there when it happened. The sound, the smell the image of him when he was laying there. Ever since then, I was never the same. I became numb. Experiencing the trauma changes you. I still remember like it was yesterday still. It affected my life and those around me. I wish I could take that time and change it. Call it selfish but that image will never go away.

@raymason6427 5 жыл бұрын

I remember the day my brother died, he was 17 I was 25. He was killed by a careless driver. I remember everything from that day. It's burned into my mind like a movie that never stops playing, it's just always there. I feel for you brother, you aren't alone in your hurt and pain.

@JennaDeWeese 5 жыл бұрын

my brother hung himself at our familys house 3 yrs ago and i feel the same way. i am so sorry. it totally changes u.

@Hr-pj3kj 4 жыл бұрын

Dylan Wanatee I lost my brother in a similar way. I too was 16 and he was shot and I was there as well. It was 1993 and I’ve thought of him and the day he died everyday since. You never forget.

@lokalnivodic1527 3 жыл бұрын

People who don't understand, never they will...

@ahill4642 4 ай бұрын

People, I’m so sorry for your losses. I lost my mom when she was only 48 and it ripped my damn heart out. I hope you all can feel some peace grow over the years, though the loss is deep and yes, changes us. And there’s no shame in talking to a professional if the grief and trauma’s too deep. ❤️

@coll4455 4 жыл бұрын

This was like hearing words straight from my heart. I lost my brother suddenly a little over a year ago. “I have never trusted happiness since” I’m pregnant with my first child a little boy he’s due any day. This has been a big part of what has helped me continue with out him.

@daniyzalakiyra8477 Жыл бұрын

Hey are you doing okay now?

@Hannah-wd9ev 4 жыл бұрын

I watch this video every time my grief needs to be validated. When I hear your words...I am comforted knowing it's okay to say out loud "I've never trusted happiness since." Thank you Sir❤ Hugs to all the siblings out there who have had to deal with this kind of pain.

@jimmorrissey4032 Жыл бұрын

I am the same .......this is spot on .....

@thestrengthwithin4249 8 ай бұрын

Thank you 🙏 💚

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up the autobiography Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@MrsJackson1108 2 жыл бұрын

Losing a sibling just hits different. This is exactly on the mark! I needed this ♥️

@tiffanyburtin6206 11 ай бұрын

Definitely hits differently

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64.😇

@ang_ro 6 жыл бұрын

He gets it. I lost both my parents by the time I was 18. I'm 38 now... The grief subsides but the melancholy does stick with you. Some losses just do impact you forever.

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@DngrDan 6 ай бұрын

I lost my mom when I was 11 in an accident and my father just last year at 29. He died alone in some rural community down in Mexico. We were the perfect middle class family until that one freak accident that destroyed everything. Sometimes you feel like you're living a counterfeit life. Like the true reality exists in some alternate universe where you're all still alive and together..

@elemeno33 7 жыл бұрын

I can totally relate to this. The sadness is always within distance of a smile.

@joncampos5551 5 жыл бұрын

bee doobee Excellent quote! I will always remember that.

@hamsammich9278 8 жыл бұрын

Billy hits the nail on the head how it feels. My brother died at the same age from the same condition , a part of me died with him that day . I've accepted I'll never be the same as I was before he died.

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@heater9124 6 жыл бұрын

My goodness. This man. What a beautiful way to express his grief.

@intuitiveperspective1208 9 жыл бұрын

I have watched this so many times. I connected with it in a way I have never connected with another persons words. I feel like he was able to articulate how I have felt all these years in a way I have never been able to

@raulsantos425 6 жыл бұрын

heather McCain that’s exactly how I felt when I first saw this

@smritigautam4291 5 жыл бұрын

Yes true. I always watch this whenever I miss my baby brother.

@JennaDeWeese 5 жыл бұрын

agreed

@katgm25 6 жыл бұрын

This is exactly how I feel about my son, Robbie. In early spring 2010 he was diagnosed with brain cancer. Fought through surgeries, and chemo with the bravery of a man twice his age. He celebrated his 24th birthday in 2012, and 6 weeks later he died. I cry everyday for him. Thank you

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@GabrielTheMagolorMain 9 жыл бұрын

That's a good way to put it, not trusting happiness...I really identify with that.

@danseabreeze1404 6 жыл бұрын

I agree, ever since I lost my mother in 2009, same sadness persists no matter what I'm doing or even if I"m laughing and "having a good time" on the outside and I've also accepted it.

@justinmonday9904 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my brother on December 26th from recovering from beating cancer. It’s the hardest thing in life and I agree with everything he has said.

@francistaylor7223 6 жыл бұрын

Justin Lunes lost my big bro in August. I come back to this video every so often. I hope you’re doing okay.

@sanchoancho6510 6 ай бұрын

I lost my brother 28 years ago on my 19th bday. I’m 47 now. It hurts the same now as it did back then.

@faithhopelove9176 3 күн бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss.❤

@daiselmeraz 2 жыл бұрын

My brother passed a month ago, and it’s true 50% happy 50% sad at any given moment. It still does not feel real. The sadness my family feels, it’s just too much to handle at times. Hearing the music he liked, brings us back to the times when he was here, it brings us sadness, but the memories is what brings us Joy. We will never be the same, you never get “over it.”

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@appleman957dontcare5 6 ай бұрын

saw this short clip on tik tok the day after my brother passed away and it just broke me it summed up everything so well he died at 38 of pneumonia and i couldnt put into words how i felt until i saw this fighting tears just writing this just wanted to write this so someone might like it so i can come back to this video cause being the youngest in the family out of all the cousins of coarse you go to alot of funerals grandparents, uncles, aunties, friends of family members but my brothers one broke me into pieces so thank you for simplifying the words.

@tati.thais.pastore 2 ай бұрын

My brother died too at 38. 💙

@Forfeit11 9 жыл бұрын

My sister died of arvc when she was 16, I was 19. 27 now, still feels like yesterday. I feel billy on this 100%.

@mmsizzlak3726 6 жыл бұрын

"I've never trusted happiness since.... There's a melancholy that never goes away....." Damn.... How those words dug so deeply, so quickly, that i was haunted by them before comprehension of the statements could even set in... It's ironic how such words so tragically poetic can be strung together then pronounced into something so beautiful... Like staring up at the night sky knowing full well it's mostly empty space and immeasurable distances, yet still in awe of its graceful alignment and infinite structures and arriving at the realization that we are right smack in the middle of it all

@lunabooh3520 6 жыл бұрын

I lost my brother about a year ago he was 21 I am 16 now and I miss him so much I wish he was still here with me today I just really miss him so much and it hurts so bad.

@pearlford8341 6 жыл бұрын

Luna Booh.So sorry for ur grief Luna life has a way of hurting people.ur young and hopefuly have a lot of life ahead of u hold on to that and happiness will hit u once again.maybe marriage n children one day.Hold on to every bit of happines that comes ur way.💙

@DA-lf7jc Жыл бұрын

I listen to this periodically because, strangely, it quiets my mind when he says so definitively: "You will never get over it." I guess hearing the truth quiets the mind, even when it's painful. Maybe especially when it's painful.

@andreazimperi 8 жыл бұрын

My younger sister who was my best friend died suddenly of a brain aneurysm on January 19 2015 and until that day I never experienced true grief and everything I read about grief and the "5 stages" of grief made me question how I was feeling until I came across this video because it validated how I was feeling contrary to how the so called experts on grief, my family etc thought I should feel and now whenever I am out of the blue without warning sucker punched with a wave of grief I watch this video to hear someone express the truth about grieving and it makes me feel not so alone.

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

sending you love n strength. I lost my baby sister years ago.she was just 13. I never Forget her

@carolineeatock2072 2 жыл бұрын

I lost my sister, my only sibling, suddenly 3 months ago. This resonates with me. I find it strangely comforting.

@brownies2001 3 жыл бұрын

My brother died in a tragic car accident when he was 18 and I was 20 in 2001. I started therapy this past June to work on my grief. Listening to Billy speak about his brother let’s me know I’m not alone in my feelings. When your younger you not aware of your siblings importance in your life. They become apart your identity and when they leave you are lost. You feel like you lost apart of yourself. I’m working through my pain. Thanks Oprah and team for posting this video.

@theardentone 6 жыл бұрын

My brother died the thanksgiving before last, and tonight I'm having a hard time being fine with it. 50% happy and 50% sad at any given time is such an accurate desciption of life after the first person you ever really knew dies. The world is not the same, and yet it sadly is. Haven't been able to cry in over a year now, but I have my standard tears-rolling-down-my-cheeks-when-it-hits face going on anyway. No one ever tells you that you can miss someone so much that you can't even cry because it hurts too much. It's like my body and mind are fighting over whether we accept this ridiculous part of life or not. My brother and I were 10 months and 27 days apart in age. Irish Twins. For one glorious month a year, I got to annoy my brother about us being the same age. The joke got old during our teens, but had a resurgence a few years later, with the type of humor only those who have grown together can know and accept. I want more than anything in the world to annoy my older brother one last time about being the same age for one final glorious month.. and I never will be able to again. Sudden and unexpected death of a young person is one of the most cruel horrors our existence has to offer. I'm alive, but 50% of me is gone.

@Bantu_ 2 жыл бұрын

I feel you man... I lost my brother more than a year ago and he was the love of my life... nowadays, the world is grey. It has lost its colour and I go through life with a constant sadness and loneliness that is just too much to bare

@marioauditore2859 Жыл бұрын

Your words hits like it's coming from my own heart. My brother died 4 years ago. I've never felt happy again, even if i have a good day, when i go sleep it's always the same empty feeling. I lost both my grandparents a little while after he died and even tho i loved them too, i felt nothing. I kinda blame myself for that, but the truth is that seems like i died the day my brother left

@michelebellan8391 Жыл бұрын

I feel exactly the same as you do. My brother died 4 months ago. I find it difficult to talk to people and open up about what I’m really feeling,but reading your words made me feel understood and in a way i know i have someone who is sharing this pain with me.

@marioauditore2859 Жыл бұрын

@@michelebellan8391 True, it's really hard do open up about it. But trust me, you're not alone

@aprilforse2881 5 жыл бұрын

My 28 year old brother drowned on July 7, 2018. Billy Bob eloquently stated my exact feelings - there’s a melancholy in me that never goes away. I’ll forever miss you, John.

@jerometaylor2019 4 жыл бұрын

April Forse I want you to know that I saw this comment and I’m thinking of your brother John tonight. I lost my brother Daniel in 2017 he was 34 years old. We will miss them forever April but I hope you’re doing good in life, I hope you find happiness ❤️

@iksenakhan9077 6 жыл бұрын

He is such a wise person. My dad's younger brother was brutally murdered outside of a bar, head stomped flat. I was young but i remember it basically ruining our whole lives and changing everything. Dad turned to the bottle and will never be the same and our family will always be accustomed and used to violence. It's always so good to hear when someone understands

@melissawilliams5691 6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry. Such tragedies tear more families apart than they ever bring together. I know. I know how hard it is, but break away from the violence and the drinking, yourself. Perhaps you can honor your brother by living the best life you can and healing as much as you can. This pain stays with us forever, but hopefully it will not destroy us.

@timexkills65 5 жыл бұрын

I lost my brother to violence also and it’s not fun don’t blame your dad he probably knew him all his life ! I’m only 20 years old my brother was 23 he passed away this year ! It’s still so unreal and unbelievable to myself that I’m typing this even know I know he’s gone and in paradise!

@luckyy13 7 жыл бұрын

i feel the exact same way. I'll never be happy. But that's ok. I just miss my brother. It's been 4 months.

@brandimartin5142 11 ай бұрын

I lost my brother a little over a year ago and I’ve watched this video so many times bc he’s the only person who is truly able to describe how I feel. Even in happy moments I’m still sad. My brother was my best friend and we went through a lot together. Our story deserved a happy ending and I’m having a tough time coming to terms with the fact that we’ll never get one.

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@vicodin36 3 жыл бұрын

Hits hard. Emotions fitting into right words. Lost someone 17 years ago. Feels like yesterday.

@aamalkhan7659 Жыл бұрын

I feel you 💔

@chascapena1261 6 жыл бұрын

50% Sad. Damn nailed it. Thanks for sharing.

@smritigautam4291 6 жыл бұрын

Watched this so many times. It seems to echo with my feelings for my brother who died recently of liver failure. He was just 19. Every word of Billy bob Thornton seems so relevant and exact of what you feel when you lose a sibling..

@noomwa 6 жыл бұрын

Omg, these are the words i have struggled to say about my dad.... my life has never been the same since he left us.

@nellyluscious 6 жыл бұрын

I was absolutely touched when watching this. Its absolutely true! I feel like at times and its been 17yrs since my Mother been gone! Its like a empty place. Although I have gotten better over years, but you just never get over it. Like a wound that slowly heals.

@anniewoodward7261 6 жыл бұрын

NellyBelle, we can never get over death. Losing someone can be just as painful 30 years afterwards as it was when it happened. Your mom would want you to be happy.

@belindaphillips2779 6 жыл бұрын

God is available he will bring your mom to you all you have to do is ask

@Mrs.Ohara1 7 жыл бұрын

I lost my little brother 3 years ago this coming October. It's been a long road. This video hits it on the nose for me. Trying to find my footing in this world without him is nearly impossible. But the days do go on and we do survive and still press on. Miss you Raymond. From a place so deep in my being there is no word to describe it. Love you forever.

@treatmenice1564 6 жыл бұрын

Lost my younger brother Oct. 9, 2016, almost a year and it feels like yesterday! People just don't understand sibling loss. I'm shamed that I'm not over this most tragic event. Todd was my best friend! I'll never (he died at 42) stop missing him! 1/2 of me died with him. Love Forever!

@Kinypshun 6 жыл бұрын

Sending you love and acceptance. I know that feeling of shame from people thinking I should "move on" with life etc. I hereby give you permission to grief for the rest of your life.

@jm6326 5 жыл бұрын

Treatmenice my brother died 7 months ago. 1/2 of me died w him too.. sorry for your loss 😏

@nonyabidnass8314 9 жыл бұрын

Not that anyone cares, I've felt this way my entire life.

@serarthurdayne6967 9 жыл бұрын

Nonya Bidnass I care dude. And I want you to know, whoever you are, wherever you are, you will find people who care, and love you. You probably have many already. Peace be with you.

@LemonadepieX 7 жыл бұрын

I care for you.

@carlam.3254 7 жыл бұрын

Nonya Bidnass I care.

@johnarizona3820 7 жыл бұрын

Billed filled with Gods perfect love in Jesus name, bless you Nonya, I care and God cares for you perfectly.

@lanabanana68 6 жыл бұрын

i care,and yes,me too.

@tomnohmy8556 6 жыл бұрын

The loss of my dad in 1992 to me, was like the loss of ur brother, he was my best friend and haven't had a best friend since. Ur right, u never get over it, I'm crying at this very moment as I write this down.

@ronmurphy5043 4 жыл бұрын

Tom, I lost my dad about a year ago and my pet companion. You are right, we will never get over it as some people would say nor should we. Some in my family want to see me happy again, but I don't think I will ever be that person again and that's ok, would you agree.

@guywill7875 6 жыл бұрын

incredible testimony to the loss of someone that totally impacts your life.

@SewTexas 8 жыл бұрын

Billy Bob, You are so accurate, you NEVER get over a loss, for my it was my son, a mis diagnosed blood clot, life switched gears, I am not the same person I was, it hurts at the bottom of your soul, it is always there, what he is missing, I never ever want to forget life was when he was in it. Their loss makes you who you now are. He left the world 3 fabulous children and a wife who has never recovered his loss. He was loved, as your brother Jimmy. Thanks for sharing. You are in a club that no one ever wants to be a member, no one understands a loss unless you have lost.

@miguelneavez792 8 жыл бұрын

Billy Bob, thank you I lost my son christain july13 ,2015 . he flipped his car. your words expressed how I feel. almost scared to be fully happy for fear the pain that will come if you love all the way again. -Miguel

@ryanarevalo7143 9 күн бұрын

I lost my brother two days ago, 6/23/24, in a motorcycle accident. He was 23. I feel a tremendous emptiness. He means so much to me. He’ll always be my brother and nothing can take that away from me or him. I love you, Bryson. I always will, little bro. Forever. 💙🕊️

@faithhopelove9176 3 күн бұрын

I'm so sorry Ryan, for the loss of your brother Bryson. I lost my brother, Danny to suicide in 1987. He was 23 too. May you find peace in your heart and healing. Hugs from Michigan.❤

@tiagobrandao5623 7 жыл бұрын

"and then he died, and I never trusted happiness again."

@horrorbiz72 7 ай бұрын

My older brother died 7 months ago. I feel broken. My best friend, my mentor, my protector is gone. There’s not a day that I can function properly. There are really bad days and some days that aren’t that bad. But never a day that I can say was good. He described exactly how I feel.

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@CinematicComics 8 жыл бұрын

i know the feeling billy bob and had to watch this video because i lost my favorite brother 4 years ago suddenly.i too,will never be the same.this brought tears to my eyes.the world's a lonelier,less wonderful place but as an artist use it in your acting&writing and i'll use it in mine and never forget.

@CinematicComics 8 жыл бұрын

thanks Peggy.i appreciate it!it's tough and hard to get over it.

@bocobob 8 жыл бұрын

Tragedy and suffering are part of human experience. Melancholy runs through all our lives. No one here gets out scar free. There are just fleeting moments of happiness, We all know that . Many try to pretend it's great, but they know the truth deep down inside

@noluvatall182 5 жыл бұрын

I lost my oldest brother 4 days ago and I've been a mental wreck since recieving that call... I am changed forever.

@jerometaylor2019 4 жыл бұрын

eric Christopher Eric. I’m 2 years into losing my big brother. I see you posted this soon after your loss. I hope you are ok, and I know the pain is hard. I hope you’re good friend

@rachaelhutchings8661 6 жыл бұрын

Beautiful, I will always remember my Mum who died when I was young things were never the same and never will be.

@gitadine 8 жыл бұрын

I've just lost my brother 10 days ago. He was just 19. I keep playing "what if" scenarios in my head even though I know it's nowhere near helpful. Sometimes I pretend he's still here, just resting in his room or out with his friends. I'm told to be strong for my mother. Everyone cares for my mother. But my sister and my father and I, are we not allowed to grieve? What are we supposed to do?

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

sending you Strength n love😢

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

I lost my baby sister .she was 13. years ago. but I remember her every single day.

@gitadine 7 жыл бұрын

Thank you. I hope the best for the both of us.

@cherark1 7 жыл бұрын

+gitadine Cry in front of ur parents. sometimes they r grieving so much that they can't see. give them strength. yes it's OK to grieve.cry as much as you can. don't keep everything bottled in. we r not super heroes. we r only human.n Your family is going thru a crises. you hv to be there for each other

@Rton1000 7 жыл бұрын

I had a similar situation, my brother died 4 years ago, aged 23, when everyone was having their 18th birthday drinking like crazy, I had to oversee the purchase of a bodybag and book a slot in the crematorium to get my Brother's ashes... as my Mother wasnt in a state to do it - 4 years since, the pain has not subsided, and in fact really grows on you - Dont try to lose it or run away from it - Its very vital you feel that pain, as it teaches you what value you hold to the things you love and make you happy - treasure the happy moments- they should feel alot happier now that you know how destroyed and empty you can feel. Dont be strong - Be whatever you can be. Embrace it all - this pain,happyness,sadness,loss whatever you feel is how you know you are Human. Wishing you all the best. -Anton

@aimeemcdonald3372 8 жыл бұрын

My brother died 3 months ago at age 29, I'm 25 and I don't think I'll ever be the same either.

@1farahnaz 8 жыл бұрын

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I wish you a lot of strenth on your path ❤️

@pearlford8341 6 жыл бұрын

Aimee McDonald. So sad for u Aimee it will still be very raw at the moment. Keep strong. tho its easy for someone else to say.Big hug.xxx

@brendacabral9256 5 жыл бұрын

my brother also died at 29 last month and girl I feel you

@jm6326 5 жыл бұрын

Brenda Cabral my brother died feb 7 2018. Im still waiting to feel better. Hope u stay strong.

@theatergirl15 5 жыл бұрын

I'm just over 2 months out. My brother was 29 and I am 27. He passed suddenly in the beginning of January. I will never be the same. I will be different and that is ok. But damn it hurts. So much.

@groseburning1993 4 жыл бұрын

I’ve never had someone say it’s okay to keep being sad about a important persons death Because that’s how I feel about my mom

@jerometaylor2019 4 жыл бұрын

NativeRose x it is ok, I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my big brother. You have every right to be upset about your mother for as long as you have to.

@groseburning1993 4 ай бұрын

@@jerometaylor2019 extra sad 4 yrs later.. My older brother is now passed so now I understand this more than ever

@pitbullmom3234 6 жыл бұрын

I feel the same rip 💔 my son I miss him every second

@jshepard152 6 жыл бұрын

Eve Garcia Very sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine.

@timexkills65 5 жыл бұрын

My brother was killed trust me my mom is hurting a lot ! Be strong and talk to us girl rs I’m 20 my brother was 23 just know every day you get closer to seeing your son

@fabionaps Жыл бұрын

Lost my brother a few months ago and I am new person. There's the man I was before he died and the man I am after his death. I won't ever get over it is the truth. I will honor my brother Mauro daily. I love you and I miss you Mauro

@staceyng127 6 жыл бұрын

I Lost My Brother To And I Saw Him Killed. I Miss Him So Much 😢. You Have A Beautiful Soul And So Unique. Great Actor And Great Voice

@hollycline2427 6 жыл бұрын

CrazyAngel1984 StaceyGraves So sorry ♥️♥️♥️♥️

@jm6326 5 жыл бұрын

Stacey NG my brother died in my arms and i tried saving him with CPR. In Feb this year. This video is accurate right? Sorry u had to go thru that. I kno exactly how u feel

@melissar7366 7 жыл бұрын

months after my brother passed away this makes so much sense to me now. Crazy...

@erinnw.1057 Ай бұрын

“50% happy and 50% sad at any given moment” I feel the same way about my brother’s passing. It changed everything in me. I’ll never be the same. I think about him every single day, and when I talk about him, I still speak in present tense.

@TrudyPatootie 4 жыл бұрын

My identical twin sister died. I died that day too.... I finally am to the place after 13 years of finding the 50% happiness that I never ever thought that I would feel again. Thank you for validating my feelings Billy Bob..and I'm ok now.. and that is good enough for me.

@khuzaimahkhalid5848 6 жыл бұрын

Im missing my father a lot. Hes gone 8 years ago when I was 17. Since then I always have that melancholy in me. I thought I was wrong to feel this way until today. 50% happy 50% sad. Suddenly I found this vid and that explains everything - I'll embrace that for the rest of my life. Sure its gonna be okay. Thanks Bob.

@hollycline2427 6 жыл бұрын

Khuzaimah Khalid Same both my parents died young 50 happy 50 percent sad You wish it would go away but it doesn't

@frags7819 5 жыл бұрын

Ive just lost my big brother yesterday and today we barried him and i cant express in words how i feel right now i just wanna die and go see him

@LeftTackle21 5 жыл бұрын

My sister passed away a few weeks ago and the irony of life I guess, the day she was cremated, would’ve been her 27th birthday. I miss my best friend and I miss my only sister.

@PositiveMommaLife 6 жыл бұрын

He truly loved his brother.....I'm sorry for your loss. Your brother is still with you.

@krystalroxX7 4 жыл бұрын

A year next month since my brother passed. New respect for Billy Bob. Hit the nail on the head with this. 🙏❤😔

@BasketballCoachesNetwork 5 жыл бұрын

The same exact thing happened to me, I am crying every time I watch this video, knowing that I am not the only one suffeting like that. I feel exactly the same, everythinf in this video is how i feel....

@jerometaylor2019 4 жыл бұрын

Same here my friend. I lost my big brother 2 years ago. I hope your life has happiness

@BasketballCoachesNetwork 3 жыл бұрын

@@jerometaylor2019 Thanks man, I am sorry for answering now. Thinks are ok, but still not good. It is just how it is. I am sorry for your loss.

@THE1804SHOWCHAPTERTWO 5 жыл бұрын

I have a newfound respect for him. I can really relate too his pain. My brother meant a lot too me!

@djlotussutol 6 ай бұрын

It has been a year exactly since I lost my brother 2 years younger than me unexpectedly. I swing from getting by to mad to sad at any given moment. I won't ever get over it and there are certain things that trigger the emotions and sometimes it just hits. Billy Bob put it into words perfectly.

@FinkleDinkles 7 ай бұрын

I lost my younger brother a month and a half ago. He was my best friend, my tag team partner in life. This perfectly puts how I’m feeling into words. Part of me died with him and I’ll never be there same, much love to everyone here as well. 🖤

@JC-du6sn 6 ай бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer. Page 64 😇

@idoc2316 3 ай бұрын

We lost our younger brothers at about the same time, my heart goes out to you.

@jellisor1995 4 жыл бұрын

5 months ago I lost my brother (21 years old) to addiction. This video summed up how I feel perfectly.

@bellaonthepathwithjesus4942 Жыл бұрын

I lost mine to,addiction today

@lizsmith4104 6 жыл бұрын

"I've never trusted happiness," my goodness!

@deroiste16 6 жыл бұрын

There's a melancholy in me that never goes away.......never has anyone out into words what I and so many others feel

@punkrockpolyamorist 6 ай бұрын

I lost my little brother 5 years ago and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss him I wish once more I could hug him and tell him how much he meant he meant and still means to me

@ladoislabonita7995 6 жыл бұрын

Same here. My life turned upside down March this year with the unexpected death of my sister. Thank you Mr Thornton... my sister was my second mom and my best friend. 💔 and nothing I say can explain the great loss I feel.

@josie1717 6 жыл бұрын

This was really helpful to hear. My sister (my buddy) died suddenly when she was 20 and I was 17. Billy just articulated what I feel as my constant. That part melancholy and part fear or impending doom is always there. Stealing any chance at those carefree and emphatic moments of pure joy. It's the same for my mom and dad too. It's true. You don't "get over it."

@ciarramcmillan7333 Жыл бұрын

My little sister died when she was 12 of a pulmonary embolism. This video perfectly explains how I feel. There’s a melancholy in me that never really goes away. I’m 50% happy and 50% sad at any given moment. I agree 10000%…. It’s so hard. The pain of losing her is worth the joy of having known her.

@mikeuhlir2161 6 жыл бұрын

Billy Bob is absolutely right. You NEVER really get over something like that. Since my stepson ( one of my best friends) died in August 2015 I have learned that you " maintain" you " manage" day to day... But you don't" get over it" . The empty hollow pit it leaves in your heart and soul is permanently there. RIP Devin Dial 12-11-91 to 8-30-15.

@joncampos5551 5 жыл бұрын

Mike Uhlir What happened to him?

@toomeyfabrication5659 2 жыл бұрын

A few years ago.. my uncle/father lost his life. I have never been able to describe my feelings about it until I watched this, a piece of me died and has never returned. I feel exactly as he described…. Love all you do billy…!! Thank you….

@ronmurphy5043 4 жыл бұрын

This has truly changed my life. If words came out of my mouth, those would be it exactly. I have to watch this everyday.

@TOCC50 Жыл бұрын

My life sucks too

@steveoliv 9 ай бұрын

This hits so deep. I've never had a type of experience where I hear someone perfectly describe what I feel daily. I'm honestly beside myself right now.

@SexyReceptionist 5 жыл бұрын

I watch this over and over. I'll forever grieve her she died almost 3 years ago.

@valbraun6897 10 жыл бұрын

No wonder we love Billy Bob. Such a real person.

@Ifitmakesyouhappy 4 жыл бұрын

I watched this almost a year ago and really put myself in his shoes and it hurt my heart to even think of losing my brother. Fast forward to valentines day, i got the call my brother was killed and life as i knew it would never be the same. I understand why you feel the way you do Billy 💔

@MrGeek2112 8 ай бұрын

"...because he deserves it." So true and thank you, Billy Bob.

@robertgreenwood5482 9 ай бұрын

This is 1 million percent how I feel. Lost my brother suddenly 9 years ago. 50/50 at any moment for sure. But gratitude and just being thankful I had such an amazing brother gets me through.

@wardharrah55 Жыл бұрын

My little brother died this week at 45 years old…I’ve lost loved ones over the years but nothing has ever hurt the way this does!!! I’m 50 years old and yet I feel as if I’m a lost kid…I’m so lost and I don’t know what to do

@africareigns Жыл бұрын

I'm 50 also, and I lost my baby brother (aged 42) on 18th May 2023. I raised him when mum was busy working. I loved being his "favourite sister in the whole wide world", even though I was his only sister. I'm broken inside.

@johnsmith-xb4hl 6 ай бұрын

I agree I lost my little brother, my best friend I feel completely lost and alone.