Hey lovebutts! ♡ I'm starting to film my Halloween videos this weekend. Is there anything you want to see?!

OMG EMMA WEARS MARZIAS MERCH!!!!💕💕🍋🍋🍋 So cute❤️

For the past few years, I had no friends (due to a bad relationship that destroyed my confidence and self-worth). But recently, I managed to reconnect with my old friends and now i have a more stable mental state. Even though I didn't achieve anything but rather just went back to 'normal' than negative, I'm still happy... happier (:

last week i kicked my fear to people in the face and i did something that i always wanted to do, to dye my hair in crazy colors, i have been actracting a lot of weird looks and it kinda freak me out but i think this is helping me to care less about other people opinions and not be so freaked out while being in the point of atention of everyone, and im so proud of myself

I've just officially enrolled at a college in Bristol. I've been homeschooled for the last 2 years due to health problems but it's made my anxiety about being in groups so much worse. I'm so proud of myself for being able to go in and be able to be in a large group of complete strangers for about an hour

I'm so glad Emma started streaming on Twitch, it's beautiful chaos. Love you Grandma!

I can't tell you how happy I am that you're feeling better and that you decided to go back towards the original direction of this channel! I've been following you since your Daenerys video came out quite a few years ago and I can't ever get enough of your creative spark. I'm sure it's going to be great

Mertz and you at the same time, lemme get some tea ! :3

missed you so much, so glad to see you again after the health update!

Yay! I am so so happy you are back! We all missed you so much

So glad you're feeling better Emma! I've really enjoyed your channel for a while, looking forward to more vids. Recently I did my ranked placement matches in Rocket League and got Plat so I'm pretty proud of that lol 🙂

your hoodie is sooo cute omg..THANK YOU MARZIA FOR THIS 😭😭

So nice seeing you upload again! Something I'm proud of is getting a new job where I can work from home. In that job I get to conquer my fear of talking to people I don't know (aside from the little twitch fam). Can't wait to see more from you!

The whole reason I started watching you is because of your creativity I love your fx looks they are goals !!!

Something i've been really proud of recently is redecorating my room and making it more "me", it makes me feel sooo much better!

It's actually amazing how much we have in common. Love you vidz!

I'm proud of myself because I have been putting forth the effort to get out of my own head and try and make friends. I struggle terribly with anxiety and I think I'm growing past that! Can't wait for your fx makeup!!!!

I'm so glad to hear you're going back to FX makeup videos! I l enjoy your beauty videos too but the character ones have always been my favorites :D also something I have been proud of is that I made two cosplays for two different conventions over the summer and I was super proud of both of them! I even met Jessica Nigri at one of the cons and she was really into my punk Sailor Moon cosplay

Glad to hear you're doing well lately with the Diabetes, more than I can say for myself currently. I hope things just keep getting better and easier for you

Oh, Emma, I've had a bit of a crap week and hearing your voice instantly puts me at ease because you have a lovely sort of lyrical tone to your speech, but also because I know you'll chat about things I tend toward, too ;) I'm soooo glad to see you healthy enough to come back to YT bits more. For the record, I adore your characters (my favorite might still be the post-apocalyptic survivor) so I hope you keep beauty character and art-inspired looks, but obvi do what you love - it shows. Your Question: I'm proud of stepping outside of my comfort zone with my social life, developing over the past 6mo - 1yr. I have (usually) high-functioning anxiety and depression disorders with OCD for flavor that have ranged moderate to severe for half my life, and I kept up academically but fell behind on a lot of other developing. So I *really* get it on the classic Millenial "how do I adult?", lol. I've had a tough but meaningful visit with my best friend/basically sister and we chatted about how to change our interactions to keep the bond tight as ever long-distance. I'm proud I finally called her recently, weeks after the visit, to spend our hours catching up and making sure to keep attention where I might've accidentally tuned out before, because she's doing some really amazing things. I've also built a very open and purposefully transparent friendship with a more recent acquaintance that we're poking at becoming a relationship, which is very nerve-wracking for me because I was beginning to set myself (and still am curious to explore) if I fall into the aromantic or asexual spectrums - I'm a very openly caring and huggy person, but (possibly/likely aforementioned developmental setbacks) I've only been able to hold platonic relationships. So... pushing my social anxiety. It seemed to work out well for you and Marzia! Question for You: What is your family like? Blood and/or found-family. Mine is large (extended, I'm an only child) and tight and a special part of my life, so I'm curious how that is for others.

Loved this vid, also love your sweatshirt! And to answer your question. I'm proud of myself for learning to deal with a new illness I've gotten too. I feel like Ive kept it (semi) together, and I am working on figuring it all out and staying positive too!

It will sound silly, but not oversharing is probably the thing I'm most proud of this week. This was a lovely update by the way, loved the chit chat.

very happy to see that you're doing well!!!!!!!!! in two weeks i will be traveling for 3 weeks to japan! i worked hard and saved money and planed everyting myself and also paying for everything myself! it is the first time that i will travel abroad without my parent and also the first time i plan and pay hahaha... i'm very excited and very proud that i have succeeded in this!!!!! hope everything will go well!!!

I'm in the process of buying a house right now! we just came back from the inspection, it looks great, I can't wait to move in. I'm so glad you're feeling better, keep up the great work!!!

I got so excited when I saw that you uploaded! Honestly, you're one of very few KZfaqrs that seems so genuine & I love watching anything you make. You always help me feel better when things are kind of shit. You're so beautiful inside & out, I hope things continue to get better for you. ♥ Oh, & if you haven't already, I recommend that you check out Age Of Youth/Hello My Twenties. It's a K-Drama that I consider one of my favorites & I think maybe you'd enjoy it as well. ^_^

Aaw, I've missed your face! So glad to see you're feeling well enough to make videos again

Yes, im happy you are back, i love this kind of videos and i look forward for October videos =p

You said Fringe! I am so overwhelmed with happiness that you know it and love it!!

Glad you are doing better Emma! Cant wait to see your future amazing content 🙈What I am proud of myself for doing is going to bar. Never been in one at nighttime and it was more of piano bar rather than a dancing one and loved it for that. I dont get out much and struggle with social situations too. Glad I have stepped out of my comfortzone for a change ☺️

Emmaaaaaa!! I love when you post!

I'm glad you're doing well Emma ♥️ I have anxiety issues and going to college is scary for me. I hadn't gone in a while. I finally had the courage to go this semester and I'm pretty proud of myself for getting back on track 🙃

I know someone who has type one diabetes so I'm aware (from an outside point of view) how stressful it can be) and I'm glad you're doing well 😊 I am so so excited for you to go back to FX stuff on here, I've been subscribed for years and you're super talented!

Its so nice to see your face in my sub list again! To answer your question, I FINALLY started going to therapy for my anxiety and depression. I've had anxiety issues for probably longer than I even realized at the time, and I have a feeling that its leading me towards depression, because the anxiety has been much worse the last few years. After going to a regular doctor for an "annual" exam (my first in 15 years - lol) the doctor suggested therapy but I put it off for a couple of months because, for me, reaching out is one of the hardest things to do. But I've got a lot of (really good) things happening in my personal life that I want to be present and functioning for, and I can't do that if I'm holed up in my room crying for no reason, or too anxious and uncomfortable to even shower. So, yeah, therapy.

i first subscribed back in the day cos of your fx videos! can't wait to see more soon. all the best Emma! (:

I love you so much your such a honest KZfaqr that's what make you my FAVE❤️

Finishing college while going through a big personal problem. There were a few times I wanted to quit and I was hardly in class but I pushed through and got grades that I never expected to get. I'm so proud of myself! ☺

Missed you so much! Can't wait for your Halloween videos :D

Lovely Emma, a comforting pleasure to watch, as always.

One thing I'm proud of recently is starting to go to ballet classes! I really love dancing and theater and I'd like to pursue it professionally but I've been so scared that I started too late or it would never happen. I still have my day job for now but it feels so good to be improving myself and my dancing and start taking steps toward my new goals :)

I'm proud because I did make an appointment with the psychologist for the next week, is struggle to ask for help but I finally did it. I don't have any questions for you, I just like to hear you talk is very calming. Hope you are doing fine and take care xoxo

I recently got a full time job , I'm 18 and getting this job means everything to me because I have really really bad social anxiety so this was a big deal and I'm pretty proud of myself

love your videos, i've missed you

she's wearing a sweater from marzia's line! omg :)

When you said you love Bon Jovi, my first thought was around the time I found your channel and you had this awesome Bon Jovi T-shirt in one of your videos. And that's when I was like - she is so beautiful and likes one of my favourite bands, too and I just subscribed. You are such a cool person and I just can relate to your social anxiety that every time I see you post a video, it is really calming for me. Oh and one thing I've been proud of is writing my thesis, instead of procrastinating all summer. :)

You are so genuinely sweet and normal ( in a good way) . I hope you and Brad feel better.

I missed you so much!!! Welcome back :D love youuuu

Missed youu!! And Brad too!

Hi Emma! You are amazing

Glad to see you're doing well. For myself, I have a lot of social anxiety but I'm really pushing my boundaries for the coming school year by taking on a bunch of volunteer positions at school. I'm a volunteer coordinator, room parent and a member of the new promotional team. All of which involve talking to both other parents and reaching out into our community. So I'm equal parts terrified and proud of myself for taking it all on. As for Halloween I'm alway rooting for someone to do Frank from Donnie Darko.

Yay for feeling better! Cats are everything, hopefully you get to have some in the near future. Do you have any other tattoos planned for yourself? Something I am proud of myself for doing is starting to exercise regularly. Even if it's just 20-30 minutes a day, it makes me feel like I'm doing something with myself, especially since I spend 8 hours a day in an office chair.

Loved this I am so glad that you are feeling better

Something I'm very proud of is setting and keeping my boundaries just this week. I went to the introduction week of my new college, and I'd hoped for a whole lot of fun, getting to know people and the city, and at night maybe going for some drinks. What I got was by 9 am the first beers were finished, the music was awful and loud, and it was just absolutely the worst and anything but my enviroment. It was supposed to be a Monday to Friday thing, but I was already so done with it by Monday night. I talked to some people on Tuesday, called my mum in tears, and decided to leave the next day. The rest of Tuesday I was so much more happy and relieved, and Wednesday was a day spent in my own bed. It was glorious. Also, I'm so happy to see you so happy and lively, Emma! I've only followed you for a short time now, but I've seen you in some of the old D&D videos on Brad's channel. Hope things will get even better for you (and Brad) and that shit will finally settle down a bit. Lots of love!

OMG im so happy you're going to do more cosplay related video as a fellow cosplayer that i am 💕

Yeayyy im so glad you're gonna do more special fx stuff again, really miss those! :> I cant say i did much things that I've been proud off, seeing that im feeling very demotivated in life these past months. I guess the only thing worth mentioning was achieving a 4-flat pointer in my last year of uni and i have officially graduated. But after that i have no idea what to do in life so yea :/

Loooove your honesty, Emma. Talking about the future of youtube and showing that this is a bussiness and not just a hobby like most youtubers do is refreshing. I appreciate it. Glad to know you're feeling better, and hopefully Brad is as well. Looking forward to the fx videos! xx

Great video 😊The one thing that I've done recently that I'm really proud of myself for is finally getting into a pathways course so I can go to uni next year; I also completed the process mostly on my own, which felt like a major accomplishment.

All always want you to follow your heart, but I loveeee your makeup videos, whatever you do I'll support you obviously, just letting you know I think you're talented at makeup 💕

I made it into the thumbnail I'm crying! I love you Emma

Something I'm proud of is i feel like my band has properly kicked off! We have our first gig opening for another band and it just feels great!!

Yay, can't wait to see more special effects makeup!! As for you question, I feel like I've done a fair bit that I'm proud of recently. One that comes to mind is facing my fear of heights and going to a bar on the 54th floor of a building!

The thing I'm most recently proud of is marrying my husband. We paid for the whole thing and planned the whole thing ourselves. We got married at the Bristol Renaissance Fair and then had a steampunk masquerade ball reception in the ballroom of a really beautiful hotel nearby. We did all the decorations and music ourselves, it turned out really beautiful!

Omg Emma i can totally relate to your accent situation! I honestly feel like you and i sound the exact same haha, being someone from up north who moved to a different country when i was 17 and now being 21 my accent is such a mix of different dialects, i always get the sly comment from family and friends back home asking me when did i turn American lol. Being constantly around friends that don't have english as their first language also contributes to it. A tombola of accents is deffo a good way of explaining it! I love you more now that i know you love kpop btw!

I am so happy to see your videos again!!!! Looking forward to all of the Halloween goodness coming our way from your channel 😍👻

Lots of love from a relatively new subscriber! 💕 And something I'm proud of: I finally felt brave enough to decide to move outside of Sweden which has been my life long dream. Even if it's just for a few months - I'm moving to Shanghai next year!!

I did my entrance exam for med school and got an amazing score!! I worked for months on it and I'm so happy because it'll give me a really good chance of getting to uni :)

I'm such an awkward person, and I am afraid of talking to people 99% of the time, and I'm studying medicine so obviously I needed to work on that and last year I take a theater class to try to be more confident talking in front of people and I thought it was better, but last week I had to expose in class and my teaches were so mean and I cried in front of everyone, they said practically that I wasn't strong enough to be in this career. So this week I expose again, but everything came out really great, and people were really sweet with me. I still felt my heart in my throat, but I managed better. Sorry if I made grammatical mistakes, I still learning english. I'm happy to see you back. 💕

One thing I am super proud of is getting accepted to the college of my dreams :) so excited to be going there next fall!

I'll miss your beauty tutorials because you make makeup feel more accessible to me but I love your fx videos and I'd rather you make the stuff that makes you happy! I recently moved pretty far away from home for the first time to start a job in my field and I'm proud of myself for that. :)

I have Scoliosis and have had the full spinal fusion, as well as rods inserted a few years ago. I managed to hike up Devil's Peak (which is a mountain, that forms part of Table Mountain, in Cape Town, South Africa) on Saturday. It's 1000 meters high and the hike was incredibly difficult for me, but I did it! I am so incredibly proud of myself, and the aches and pains are worth it.

You would be a wonderful teacher!!

One thing I'm proud of recently - making the concrete decision to actively try and stay positive and keep anxiety under control the best I can.

Lovely to see a video from you! Glad everything's slowly getting better. I'm proud of finishing my masters dissertation, I just hope it passes lel. p.s I loved Canada, it's like England but there's snow and awesome wildlife, so i'm sure you'd love it (:

Oh my God. Lost is my favorite and I never meet anyone who loves it as much! This makes me happy!:)

Thank you for answering my questions, I'm glad you are doing well. As for k-dramas, not sure if applies since is Japanese, but have you tried watching Good Morning Call? Is super sillly but its super entertaining to watch. I guess I'm proud of dealing with anxiety related to school stuff. I'm ending my master degree and it has been crazy, not fun for my anxiety of course. No panic attacks derived from the work load is a win for me.

I lost tons of hair from when I was in DKA but after a year its finally starting to grow back! It looks hilarious because it's super obvious which strands are growing out but its finally starting to get full again

For some unknown reason your voice makes me relaxed, same as Marzia! Both of you are so kawaii 💖💖💖 love from the Philippines 🇵🇭

Awwweee this was great video

just realised youre wearing the hoodie from marzia's limone line! its so cute like you!!! ❤

Hey gorgeous! I'm so glad you're feeling better and I'm so excited for your Halloween season videos :D I turned 21 on Monday!! And on Tuesday I started my events management Lvl 4 apprenticeship! Only been there two days and I'm organising every event under the sun! It's the perfect job for me & I'm so proud of myself. I never thought I'd find something I fit into so well.My question for you: have you ever been to any comic cons? If you have did you cosplay? If you haven't then what's something you've always wanted to cosplay as/your favourite cosplay?

I am soo happy that you are feeling better!! ^_^ I hope you end up going to Seoul next year. I wanna visit there as well, so hopefully I will get to go someday. Thanks to you I am part of the kdrama obsession after having watched Goblin. So I will thank you by recommending Strong Woman Do Bong Soon. It is a definite watch. Let me know what you think. Oh and to answer your question, I started vet school last week here in the united states, so I am proud to have followed my dream! :)

Emma I love your videos❤️

This is going to sound strange, but I really like you. You seem so genuine, level-headed and sweet. It's pretty rare these days to find KZfaqrs who are so down to earth and just real. If you get a Twitch channel I'll definitely tag along!

didn't think you'd put that in the video :D hearts

My answer: I've moved to Germany for a year (compulsory year abroad as part of my German degree) despite the fact its literally the most terrifying thing I've ever done. I've only been here a week but I've done so much I'm proud of from opening a bank account (harder than you'd think in a language you have only ever spoken in a classroom!) to starting my job for the year yesterday.

I'm excited to start seeing for fx videos :)

So happy you're back to a semi-regular schedule and health! I recently started a blog up that I am having a LOAD of fun writing for. I had been considering making a website for ages and finally bit the bullet and bought a domain name :) What's your favorite film (new or old) that you've seen so far this year?

For a kdrama I'd recommend 'hit the top' really enjoyed it!! 😆

Goodness phone calls are the worst! BUT! I just had a phone interview for a job I really want. The lovely women who called for the interview said she loved my confidence with my responses and answers :D I guess "fake it till you make it" really works. I got an in person interview coming up on Tuesday! Fingers crossed!

Hiiii, Emma❤ i love your chatty videos so really enjoyed watching thiiis! BIGBANG are also my favorites sooo are we matching haha? Just re-watched their parody of secret garden and ended up crying from laughter lol as for your question i got a jooob!🙌 kinda proud of that 😂 have a great weekend xx sending u big virtual hug

I love that you asked us a question.. In answer to that.. I am really proud of myself that I just moved to Brighton.. It was a huge move for me as I uprooted my whole life with no job or anything and just made it work.. I have and am so proud and love it here.. Best decision of my life.. A question for you is advice on meeting people and making friends in a new place?.. It is something that as you get older becomes harder because you aren't put in situations to meet people.. Hope you are keeping well.. :-) xxx

Thank you for answering my questions :) I love that you would live where you are now, I wish I could feel that way too but I would much rather live somewhere in Europe 😁

I see that lemon sweater!

One thing I've done recently which I'm proud of is to admit to myself that maybe my course in university is not the right one for me. I am still not sure as of yet what is, but I have moved alot by finally admitting and saying it out loud to people, what I have been thinking the last year.

Your accent is adorable

One thing that I've done that I'm proud of is to leave yr 11 for my well-being most of all and to work on starting my life

I started marching band at my high school this summer, and we just had our second game and I survived my first week of high school!!!

I just needed to subscribe bc ur so awesome

hi emma, to answer your question: i recently started getting help for my mental issues which i couldn't stand any longer. i am really relieved now and even a bit proud about it because it took me so long, even years, to do this step. i thought about it for such a long time but when even a phone call is so difficult to make (soo relieving to hear i am not the only one :D ) , contacting a stranger in order to ask for help seemed impossible for me. i love your videos and you seem to be a really cool person :) my boyfriend also plays pubg and i love to watch him play. i also tried to play it myself but totally freaked out and almost fell of the chair because i am so easily startled. guess not my type of game. so i stay with fallout shelter for the moment :D keep going, greetings from germany!

I've recently gotten a job and I'm really proud of that

So glad to see a video from you again, missed you! My question is - how is your bullet journal going? Have you been doing anything to do it or have the recent events put that on hold? :-) As to your question - my proudest achievement is being accepted onto a Criminology masters course which I was really stressing about. Lots of love from Exeter!