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MASSIVE thank you to Citizen Soldier for believing in us. SO excited to TOUR TOGETHER!!

I don't think a song has hit me harder. " A million thoughts on my head and they all want me dead but I'm too good at holding them down." This song is what I've needed for years.😊

Who here feels like that they forgot how to cry

As someone who went through apathy, this song... Is so perfect. The feeling of feeling hollow while so full is such a heavy thing

I adore the icy visuals of this one, like ice that won't melt, eyes that won't cry.

I've lost the ability to cry about 9 years now. Lord knows what I would give to be able to cry again. Treasure the tears guys ❤️

"Wish I could cry right now" You have no idea how many people you saved and how much you've helped. This collaboration is a true miracle, thank you for those beautiful sounds^^

This song describes how I’ve felt for years In my life I’ve been through a lot and I lost my ability to cry out of sadness and while I have emotion it becomes more difficult to be sad when I can’t cry from it and yall always describe me through your songs thank you for making this music

Didn't expect to encounter a song that I instantly love. Been wanting to cry for a long while. "There is NO healing in NOT feeling ANYTHING" hit quite hard even for how true it is. "My life is full of love but I'm empty."

I'm 22 weeks pregnant and found out on February 6th that my baby has a rare condition that has effected her development in a way that gives her a 1 in 16,000 chance of being alive when she's born and an even smaller chance of living past a week old. Some days I find it hard to cry because of how much I've been crying since I found out. This song really hits me hard. Citizen soldiers music is the only thing getting me thru this.

Gut wrenching lyrics. 😢 Appreciate your honesty.

Here we go ! A great collab with a great tour is coming 🖤

Wonderful song ❤

God this is hitting me to the core, and bringing tears out, which is very much needed. I've been dealing with the ups, downs, why after 27yrs of first being diagnosed with chronic depression and anxiety, the hell, trauma from toxic fam, friends, and what I believed was true love. 2014 diagnosed with PTSD, and I also now deal with chronic illness. After my last relationship broke me to my breaking point, I have tried. Not one friend still around, and growing up in what I thought was a loving, close, family, aunts, uncles, sis, all. But reality hit n I have my dad, who I trust 99% and my daughter, who is only one I know without doubt loves me 100% of the time. Not I feel like I'm just a lost cause, but because of my daughter I refuse. Pray it is going to get better, I believe God has me still here for a reason. But I will also fight n hell, and come outta the fire for my daughter

Each new song is a new peak, and this one is no exception ❤ To this day I'm still amazed at how you are able to transfer all the emotions into words

I have been waiting for this song since I first heard it in the shorts. It's everything I've imagined it being. It just......it's real. It's something that I wish people in my life could hear. They might finally understand me at least on some level. I've had so many arguments with family over "not caring" when the truth is I've just numbed my emotions because I grew tired of the pain that came with feeling. And it's reached a point where I just wish that I could feel anything at this point rather than just being numb to the world around me. "I'm living not alive." It really describes things so well.

You guys always hit hard with the lyrics. "I really wish I could cry right, but I'm afraid I've forgotten how" kind describes what my life has turned into; people always tell me that I'm never upset, sad or something... They only see my smile, even on my worse moments... Appreciate how you guys can express what others like me can't ❤

There are very, very few songs that can transcend just being a song and flawlessly express raw human emotion, and even fewer songs that can do it on the first listen. This is one of those rare songs. Absolute perfection, from the lyrics to the slow build-up of the instruments in the background and how it truly symbolizes how bottling up our emotions will eventually cause us to break. Halocene does such an amazing job contributing here too. Absolutely amazing work.

This is another amazing song! ❤❤❤❤ I’m in love with the chorus

Wish I had the words to describe how beautiful this song is

Ouch.😂 that hurt... another incredible song and the vocals on both parts are incredible! Sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them!🤗🤗🤗

This song is so, so beautiful. Great job from both Citizen Soldier and Halocene!

That’s an incredible song!! You guys never let me down for a second

You have no idea how much it means hearing a woman's voice in one of these songs. I love you Citizen Soldier, but I think I needed to hear her.

caught it in time before work! I LOVE THIIIIIISSS!!!🥺❤‍🩹

WOW ❤ LOVE SONG !!

Love you so much thank you for every song!

Beautiful song Addie really complimented your voice great on this.

I've spent 26 years being gaslit to the point I can no longer cry. This song speaks to me in a way that's both raw and healing. It's like my mind's been given a voice by you, it can finally be heard. Thank you

The titel just don't fit for me, cause I'm literly crying right now a bit.🥺 Wow was this an impactful song. Straight from the first verse it's so beautifully made. You two made a great piece of art with a meaning, many out there are dealing with. Thank you!❤🙏

November is the worst time in my life that echoes every year. I lost my grandfather to Cancer. I get too happy, I cry, I feel frustrated, I cry, I feel hope, I cry. But grief? Genuine sorrow? It just doesn't happen, or they'll form in my eyes, gloss my sight, but I can't break down. They form and I go numb and it shuts down. Once again, another song I really needed, another song that lets me feel what I need, to shatter like I desperately needed to move forward in healing. Thank you. thank you so much, for being you, for making music, for listening to us and making pieces to help us feel heard, to help YOURSELVES be heard. Just like you tell us we're not alone, you are not alone. We see you, and at least from this australian, fuck mate, I'm so fucking thankful for you.

Been waiting for this song for so long and it didn't disappoint. Feels like I've run out of tears to cry, so your music has become my replacement to release those feelings

This was one of the songs I was most looking forward to.😍 Your band and music are my safe space when I'm going through difficult days. Your songs always help me, comfort me, give me strength to remain firm! and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. So thank you very much for existing! ❤️❤️❤️

Love itttt, I have been so excited for this song and such perfect timing because I'm struggling with my emotions quite a lot at the moment. The lyrics "My life is full of love but I'm empty" I relate so much to that as I could be surrounded by people and still feel alone. Thank you guys, love you❤

"To fall apart right now would feel like ecstasy but these walls weren't built to break" This line hit me in the chest so hard! I haven't cried in longer than I could remember even though I know it would make everything better..

I feel this song. I cry a lot, but no emotion really gets let loose, crying doesn't let loose all the negative emotion. It's like, you take the tears, and before they spill over the dam, you filter out all of the emotion and capture it, sending it right back. Love these songs so much!

Playing this on repeat all day at school 🖤🖤🖤🖤

Wow ❤, I really wish I could cry right now. Today marks 2 years since a friend of mine died and there's nothing better than a new Citizen Soldier song to brighten your day a little

Wow... absolutely amazing!

Thank you jake for everything I have been feeling sad here lately but you always make me feel better about myself I just want to say thank you

I don't think I've ever heard a song that describes me more than this

It hurts how much this describes my life. Thank you for putting the feelings in words that I dont know how to articulate♥

This is fire, damn 🔥

This is one of the best songs ive ever heard!!!!!

I feel this. Everyday and night. I've been hated by friends and people. Never felt something hit harder than this truthful song that explains my feelings tonight. Thank you for such an amazing song.

I simply love the harmony in the way voices of you both match and mix together. It feels so heavenly. I don't know how to describe this.... So much emotions put in one song. The best part about your songs is that I can hear just a little bit of it and then can't get it out of my head and i'm waiting unpatiently for the full release. There are so many of your songs that I adore and it really feels like each new one is better than the previous one!

I so felt this song so much, that even I wish I could cry, too. 😭

You guys have helped me beyond what you know. I would give anything to have the money to see you guys live ❤

These songs always seem to come out right as I'm feeling that way 💔

and i thought wired for worthless was the song i was gonna be the most connected to, thank you for putting my feelings into words you guys.

I needed this in everyway. It tells the scars Im too scared to tell anyone about.

I've been coping my reading,by numbing my feelings. Sometimes I can't cry and sometimes I can't stop. I'm broken hut your songs have been helpful. I've been broken for so many years and I never even realized till I realized I'd dint wanna live. Then j found you guys. THANK YOU ❤

Hearing Jake and Addies voices together hits a lot different. Being a fan of both bands for a while now, and I don’t regret stumbling across either of them in my times of need.

Beautiful song. It hits so hard

Beautiful song, hit me so hard. "I really wish that I could cry right now I really wish that I could let this out", "I've had to wear a thousand faces be fake to just replace this" I needed this, thank you!

I've been waiting for this one to drop 🖤🖤🖤

Ain’t no way both my favorite artist just collaborated to make a masterpiece 😭💗💗

Every one of your guys songs has always hit me hard, but this one specifically has really hit me hard. I don't think I have every felt so in common with a song. Glad Halocene was able to team up with you she is an amazing artist, her voice works so well with your guys band. Great job never seems to amaze when you guys produce such great music.

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you

I hope u are ok, while helping us u may forget yourself. We fans feel u too

Another depressing banger. It's strange how pain and suffering can make something beautifully. You guys really had master this craft and the second singer just adds so much. Its perfect.

I love how the melody/chord progression mirrors Therapy. It's like two sides of the same emotional coin.

I've discovered you, wonderful people, just this year and let me say that you're amazing! I've never struggled with anxiety or diagnosed depression, so it's a normal thing for me to diminish my problems. But your songs hit hard almost every time and remind me that my own feelings actually matters. Your beautiful songs support me at hard times! Please, keep on doing what you love and take care!💜

This song is so amazing I can really relate

So amazing how every song hits every bit of my trauma dead on! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being all of our voices when we cant speak the words!🖤

Your songs once struck a chord in my heart and brought me to tears, but now they don't. Now, I simply appreciate their beauty. This means your songs have healed me. Thank you. ❤

Hell yes to this song!! Hell yes to everything Citizen Soldier!! Seriously!!

This song hits so hard, the lyrics are amazing. This song makes me wish I could cry. 💙

This song is so relatable and touching. It's how I feel on the daily but I'm too scared to let it out. Thank you so much for this amazing song❤

This…is perfection

This... is just so much. Exactly how I'd felt, for years... I've been doing much better the past couple, but still occasionally feel this way... I'd sing music like this, alone in the library at church, to finally, barely, manage to make myself just cry... Would've been nice to have this song then.

This song is so beautiful I can't even describe it. It reminds me of how beautiful ICU is ❤❤❤

great song. thank you. you say words so many other people cant say

I haven't been abel to cry in month's but just listening to this made me start to tear up and cry, thank you, yet another masterpiece.

Was just realizing the other day that my SAD had developed into the numbness stage, and I'm having a hard time feeling emotions, so this hit a lot harder than it would've otherwise. Thank you as always for putting lyrics to feelings in a way the rest of us can't. 🙏🏻

I love your songs so damn much. I'm listening to them every single day. You guys are so great! Thank you so much for giving me something that makes me feel understood. It's like you know everything about me, even though we've never met. Keep going, you are doing such an amazing job! Thanks again❤

I just woke up to a new citizen soldier song. Love this masterpiece of a song

Ironically, yall made me cry. I remember before therapy started working and this is exactly how I felt.

Another amazing song and with Halocene in chefs kiss awesome work

Excellent collaboration!

Thank you for this beautiful and emotional song!

The "I really wish that I could cry right now, but I'm afraid that I've forgotten how. Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known" really felt that .❤

This is such an amazing song, like all of them. Thank you guys once again!!!

What an incredible collab!! I can’t wait to get a hold of your new album, they really keep me going on long rides ❤

I relate to this song in a different way than probably intended. I don't feel like I can open up to people and be vunderable, and I wish I could cry. 💙

This is the collab we needed😍In love with this emotional masterpiece🥺It reflects my feelings and say things that I couldn't say🥺

YOOO, THIS IS SO GOOD AGAIN! I have no idea how this band can always just simply make things better, only by showing that I'm not the only one feeling like this. Thank you so much, Citizen Soldier in everyone's name. Keep rocking! 🖤🤟

I was falling apart emotionally last night. Falling asleep alone these last few months have been nothing short of agonizing. I really needed this. Thank you.

Had to listen to this song because it really fits right now. Have you ever had that moment that every part of your body says you should be crying but nothing comes out. My eyes hurt like I’ve been crying for hours but not a single tear will come out. FML…..

Another close to home song for me🖤 amazing collab as well.

Pure love ❤

This song is amazing ! I felt so afraid when I understood that I did'nt know how to express or just act "naturally", now that I forced myself to change so... To be that "unbreakable". I'm on the way to question the person I am and want to become, so I can recognize Support to anyone reading this 💪

This song really hits hard, I have friends that always helped me through my problems but I always bottled them up and it made it hard for me to express myself and cry, this is absolutely beautiful, good job! ❤

FOR SURE GOING ON MY SONGS I CRY TO PLAYLIST 🖤🖤🖤🖤

Two absolutely beautiful voices with yet another sad but beautiful song

Silence is the most defining sound, this song hit harder than I thought it would when I took the time to slow down and actually listen to it! “As frozen in fight or flight” ripped right thru me with my life situation! Now back to dry my tears and adjust that mask, until I can stop running from the silence. ❤ thank you for another great song!

How does this hit so hard?! The amount of times where I think I should feel scared or sad about something but fell nothing….dang. Also the fact you can hear the emotion behind “cry right now” is amazing!

This is Amazinggggggggggg, the lyrics are super real and hit hard.

Ive been waiting for this song since its first tease. Both of you absolutely killed it, and you sound great together. i cant stop listening!