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“Been so close to death I got a wiff of its smell”. That really hit me .. 😕💔

"Like I'm doing CPR on myself". Honestly, no absolute words, like wow...

DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW ME IF YOU'VE NEVER WALKED IN MY SHOES/ - Clayton Jennings

My brother hung his self from depression and anxiety and heart break everyday I cry I loved him so much and my mom just died from cancer. In all alone and my life is hell and then my dad got shot by a drive by I was with him I dissent get shot but when he fell I putt his head in my hands and he died right there ples help I already ran from two fosters homes I'm only 13 . I can't live this life no more ples help😭

2:28 "I'm loud in my poetry, but live alone in a shell." Favorite line of that entire piece. So powerful

Clayton, this is beautiful. I know a lot of people that can relate to this and I know I needed this, so thank you

We love you Clayton stay strong 😔❤

"I'm tired of working for something that I can't earn" that's when the journey of endurance begins,when you push still regardless

You have just said everything I've never been able to. 😭😭. This is my life!😭😭

“ What’s the point of living, when life is a living hell? “ I keep asking myself the same. But I keep reminding myself that “ His Grace is sufficient “ like it was for Paul. And I would suggest you the same.

I'm a simple man, I see a Clayton Jennings video I press play.

"Dear anxiety" helped me and "Please don't kill yourself saved me😭😭Facts!!❣

I'm not a christian. i'm a Norse pagan and a vet of the us army. i know there are people on here that will probable say things about me and i honestly don't care. i just want to say your songs helped me iv seen and done so many things and id like to talk to you more. iv seen horrible things when i was over seas. but the most horrible things iv seen done was when i was home and to all the people reading this thank you

U are always there for us

This is exactly how I’m feeling right now.

Clayton you have helped me with all of my demons through your music thank you

This song is chilling.... And even more so, cause I know. I’ve lived it. Thank you

I love you !!!

When you are going through something and then realize that all the pain and the sorrows the hurt come to life and you don't know anymore of who you are Thank you Clayton.

That one disliker couldn't see what he/she did bexause of tears in their eyes... Early tho... Love you stay strong; I'll pray for you! ♡♡♡

I listen to these spoken word poems every day just hoping that I'll stop thinking about killing myself, you've helped me a lot even though you don't know me you still have helped me, and I thank you for that, you're the reason I'm still here

Can we just give the man the peace he seeks? Like c'mon guys, he says himself that our praise makes him insecure, and i know from experience that praise sometimes makes it worse. I'm not claiming to understand you Clayton and I'm not gonna sit here and talk about how I relate. Like "wow that's so me" or "that verse hit me deep" But you asked for peace so I'm gonna give it to you, i'm not gonna judge you as a good man or bad, I'm just gonna listen to what you have to say. Cause nobody needs validation from a KZfaq comments section, your value is independent of who's lives you impact. You're valuable because you're here, and you have something to say. So since you're here and you have something to say, I'm just gonna listen without telling you that you have to be okay. I think we all owe it to Clayton to be listeners and not "fans" who grapple for his attention. Just listen to what he has to say, you don't have to say anything to him, you just have to listen.

You have helped me with all my demons, your spoken words have hit so deep in my heart. I love you Clayton and thank you for your help.

I love all of what you do, I’m in a shit place rn and this makes things better. Thank you

Omg! I was waiting for this new vid! All lot will ask you for help but I'm just going to tell you that I'm praying for you and I hope you have some relief soon.

The only youtube chanell i click as soon as it gets uploaded is clayton He is amazing he does real for everyone love you clayton keep jesus known

Like you said, I can’t understand exactly what you feel. But I’m also fighting anxiety and depression every day. Confused with what God wants from me. Fighting the darkest thoughts. I see God using you to help so many. I hope you can see that too. Thank you for your raw honesty. ❤️🙏

It's the depression talking when I feel crazy and it's more often then that lately

The point of living is the lives you keep on changing everyday. Clayton you are a blessing to this generation. You are a blessing to me.

Clayton is a beautiful poet. His lyrics hit me in a different way. Every word he's spoken feels like he's talking to me.

God is using you to minister to all of us! Your life has a ton of meaning! I listen to your content all the time! The devil your right wants you to not feel important to the world!! GOD uses the broken to minister to the masses!! Keep looking up because that's where it all is!!

Brother you hit it again. I feel you right now this is so true you couldn’t of said it any better. Life seems to be getting harder day by day. You have helped me through a lot and pray that god will touch you with his peace. Love ya brother keep your head up.

Mr. Clayton Jennings. Sir I just wanted to say that I hope that the Lord continues to bless you with the gift that he has given you in reaching out to others with the knowledge and wisdom you speak. That's man honestly. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

Already loving it and I know this is going to bring me to tears again because I feel it deep down to my soul Edit: 😞Yep the tears are here, this hits me so hard 😰 So many words that hit me to the core because this is how I feel. This is what I think, I feel this so deeply 😭

Clayton, I was just released from the hospital yesterday. I live with an autoimmune in my brain - Cerebral Lupus. I have been fighting for my life. I look healthy, so everyone questions me, am I really sick, I can read their minds? Family members don't invite me away, friends stay clear all because it's too much for them to handle. It has broken me! I have yearned for Heaven more than anything else, suicide has never been an option, until now! My best friend admitted me and they found a chemical imbalance. However, your words, your life, your truth and your wild and raw self have helped me more times than you will ever know. ROCK ON brother! You inspire the world to 'WAKE UP' and you inspire those of us who don't know what to do with these feelings. THANK you! You are one of HIS ANGELS, BIG wings! Grateful always.... keep going, keep strong, keep being real and keep telling us what you are feeling....

Thank you for being so genuinely you. I recently came across your KZfaq channel and it is helping me find me again. I can only imagine what it took to discover yourself and the path you have been down. Thank you for all that you do and all that you share with the world it means something.

This put me to tears.

Hell yeah!

This actually made me cry, I heard this and it got to me, how do u sing so deep, your amazing Clayton you keep all of your fans going me too I love you so much

You have always been a mentor to me i share your stories in my local church and i know well its God work.. Thank you keep preaching jesus

Man this is one of the most deepest poems you get made I hear and feel the pain in this Clayton bro your strong you push on when others quit you still reach others with your poems even when people slander you I admire your strength to he honest I wish I had strength like that

I listened to all your songs even when I cannot sleep I listen to them into I fall asleep 😪👼🏼🚶🏼‍♂️

I just discovered you. I don't know who you are. But brother. I feel you 100. You ARE incredible. YOUR poetry touches every ounce of HUMANE human heart. Not all are humane anymore unfortunately. I don't know but this is on replay... Over and over and over and over... And thank you for speaking for me when I am not able to speak these things to relieve. God bless you brother. God bless you and your loved ones. And your life. The pain is deep and its real and you created something out of it. God's gotchu. I feel the same way... God bless you. Love you broski. I don't who you are, but thank you

Thank you for your words. I pray that you stay strong and never give up. Don't let the devil win. I pray God wraps you up and holds you close.

I can relate when he said "please don't kill yourself saved me" because it did! i may have never met you but you have already helped so much in my life. I'm praying for you brother, I can only begin to imagine the pain and walking in your shoes. There's a lot of us in your corner keep fighting were here like you were there for us! Much love and Many Prayers!

Clayton you are saying everything that I have wanted to and just so afraid to. I live this for so long that I'm tired of this hell that I have been living.

This is my life every day

I have no words. Absolutely incredible. Touching. Stay strong man. We’ve all got your back. Thank you for what you do!

Clayton what you’re doing and what you keep doing inspires many and I’m one of them,you helped me to keep pushing when I was at my weakest,you kept me going when I thought it’s time to give up,and because of you I’m still here,the voices in my head aren’t gone completely and the demons that creep up on me when I’m alone haven’t gone away entirely but I’ve learned to overcome them every time they come,I tried living with demons but got tired because they just invite more,you taught me to push them away in a way I never thought possible,and now because of you I know giving up is not an option.

I’m glad I stayed by your side for the last year. I found you September last year and goddd am I thankful... you’re gods greatest messenger. I don’t think I can ever really comprehend just how many lives you’ve saved. Thank you Clayton🖤 I know you see these messages everyday but THANK you. God bless you.

Man, you are going to come out of this so strong, an immovable force with God inside you and an insanely moving testimony. Hang in there, I’m praying for you.

I have always dealt with low self esteem, anxiety, PTSD and depression...for as far back as I can remember. I was a foster child, placed in homes that were nightmares. I thought I won the battle of it all, until recently. My life has been a constant struggle this last year and I'm overwhelmed and not sure where I belong or do I belong. I just told my friend today, does God even know I'm here? Maybe I'm not worthy enough for him to listen to me. I sat down tonight and this came across my KZfaq feed. EVERY word you spoke, spoke to me. I so enjoy your words. I don't feel so alone. Thank you!!!!!

I told my parents about my depression and...I can tell that they love me...

This was my reality 9 months ago. I couldn't think straight, all I could hear and see was static. One night I was just tired, so exhausted of wanting to die everyday and my wishes not being fulfilled, that I screamed out GOD I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE TAKE IT AWAY OR I WILL. the first time I mentioned the name of Jesus in months, that night changed my life. I'm a worship leader now, I work in children's ministry, and I'm aspiring to become a pastor. Every time I listen to one of your messages I think, I wish I had this 9 months ago, this would've saved me from so much physical and emotional pain. Thank you, for being an inspiration to me, and for being the voice to others who are me 9 months ago, the person who wanted nothing more than for someone to "step inside my brain for 5 seconds and tell me what to do, tell me what to feel, tell me how to react. I can't do it anymore, my brain won't let me".

Thank you Clayton, this is your purpose to help others through their struggles. Those who cannot appreciate that you have your own fight while trying to encourage others - are blind to the strength that is inside of you. I hope there is a faithful someone you can turn to during times of need to pray with you.

Really really needed to hear tthis, even if it hurts and breaks my heart to know so many people relate and you, yourself struggle so much it's good to know we are never alone. I hope it gets easier for you and that this season will pass and the next one will be full of joy and peace. Thank you for all of the poetry and also the realness, while also speaking of God. We are here for you and even God is even if it feels like he's far away in the clouds somewhere.

Oh Clayton, I'm so sorry that you're struggling to hold on. So many of us have been there or are there now and your words are helping us hold on. Please keep fighting! Don't let the devil win!!! I'm praying for you.

This deep poetry hits home, sometimes I would of already gave up if it wasn't for God. Since he loves us so much, the devil knows that it's spiritual and wants you to give up to burn with him. That's the only reason I still walk today. God bless all God's children fighting this unseen war!

Clayton I relate to this so much everyday is a fight for me and listening to you makes me feel better thank you

I saw "We all struggle" in rehab. I've never heard you before, (understand I'm 64.) I got out today and checked you out & I'm blown away. It's like you who I am. Thank you for your powerful words about Jesus.....

I relate to this so much. I listen to you're stuff and it helps me fight my demons.

I’ve been close to taking my own life because of depression listing to this and your don’t kill your self really hits home you tell the truth and don’t sugar coat it. And when you said “ you don’t know me if you not walked in my shoes” there is so much truth in that I’m a U.S. Army Vet and have seen and did stuff that lost people haven’t but they sit and judge, but I was taught that there is only one judge in life and that’s God. Thank you for what you say it’s the truth

So many of us can relate!! It helps us realize we are not alone and I hope you know that your not alone. We get it!! 💜

I point people to Heaven but you condemn them to Hell, wow! That line got me brother Clayton. Keep leading People to Christ, keep reaching out to the lost and the depressed, broken and hopeless with your message of Hope. God bless you for every little thing you've done for the Kingdom. Remember the glory which lies ahead is much greater and better than what is here. Keep running the race of life and it can never be over as long as God is in control. Hang on there. You are loved.

Stay strong bro. You're touching lives and giving that strength to others. That alone makes you a star. You rock.

I couldn't look away not for even a second! The part where you talked about if you dont teach your daughter to define herself then someone else will just spoke to me. You're such an inspiration. You inspired me to start my own spoken words, I uploaded my first one today! It talks about uncertainty. If anyone is going through this too, listen to it and let me know what you're thinking.

Clayton, I feel your pain through every word, I have lived in chronic pain for over twenty-five years and often find myself crying out to God, "Where are you?" I know He is still right beside me and will never leave me to bear this alone, so, I fight on. The race isn't easy but I refuse to stop running, understanding, this fight is mine but the battle belongs to God. I FIGHT ON!

clayton thank you god has given you the ability to be real and speak your truth and threw your truth you save people man i watch alot of your videos and relate so much and feel like you have walked 100 miles in my shoes when im in my bad places you really help me remeber that god has a an for allnof us no matter how our minds work

this is so incredible. super sad to think others feel the exact same pain i do- i would never wish this level of pain on anyone. God bless all of you. for real.

I love clayton Jennings when I am sad I listen to you and sometime you make me happy thank you so muck I am a big fan.

never give up Clayton. i know it’s hard. it’s really hard. i support you with every bit of me. no one will ever help me as much as you do. please. i need you. and if you need a break, we’ll all understand. God bless. i love you💜💜

I long to see the day that God will deliver you. I really don’t understand why he keeps you in that hell.

Wow!! This is awesome! God bless you!

What a talented young man. We are all in this together. You say what most of us are too afraid to say.. God bless you over and over again my brother. May our good and loving God keep you forever!

I love you Clayton! You help me to keep going!! Don't ever give up!! Some of us need you 😍😍 your videos have saved me!!

This is the truth that I live everyday. It's a life long struggle. Thank you for sharing the message for all of us that don't belong. Keep your head up and stay strong.

Dear Clayton I can relate to every word u say I wanna tell u that if it wasnt for u I really don't think I would be here your words touch my soul deep down in my spirit i also relate to poetry n most of your songs put tears in my eyes I've never experienced anything quite like it I truly mean it when I say thanks n I have the utmost respect for the courage n strength u show I admire u brother n u are a hero to so many of us that are lost n don't know where to go from here thanks again brother in Christ luv ya

Even off you don't feel strong, your words are. Don't give up... someone needs to hear these words. Thank you.

Wow you just explained my entire life from 9yrs old till now 36years old,fighting demons everyday ❤️I feel you brother & I don’t feel a lot ,numb from the pills 💊 stay strong 💪 you’re purpose is to save people and to have that power WOW you can get through this....”and this too shall pass”🥰lots of love ❤️

Love you so much Clayton 💝

Praying for peace and understanding for you Clayton. I can't even imagine what you are going through. All I know is God loves you and we do too! Take care of yourself and your family. They need you more than we do. People are just plain ignorant haters. You deserve to be happy and not feel like you are in hell. God will see you through this mess. Stay strong and have faith. I am praying diligently for you my friend. God bless.

My prayers for you brother. I hear you and just know that we are not only here to listen. We might be stranger's but we are here to help carry that weight. The devil is strong against one but not against all of use. You help for all to see. We help where god can. Stay strong.

I got the notification for this video as my parents were fighting and I literally said that I couldn’t take anymore and my phone vibrated as I got the notification for this. Clayton I appreciate all that you’ve done for me thus far and I know I’m just someone on the side and you’ll probably never read this but I’m here for you like you are for all of us. You help us and sometimes you might need help as well so I as well as many others are here for you❤️

Thanks..... I can only imagine the amount of people that you have touched with your music.... Those of us that suffer in silence are very thankful

Stay strong, Clayton you give us all strength, thank you, thank you, we are all with you

Clayton, I’m praying for you, and keep fighting, you couldn’t have made this at a better time for myself

Deep brotha I can’t say that I’m a stranger to what you think, I love and admire how real and open you are! I’m praying that whatever you’ve been praying for comes to you and that God will remind you that he hears you regardless of what everyone else says I know Jesus loves you is pleased with you and is proud of you not everyone can speak out brotha it takes a lot and it’s not easy it asking to go not war with the Devil but I know you Know Jesus wins! Love you and will continue to pray and support you🙏🏻

Every time I hear your voice I cry. Despite this, you empower me and you give me hope on my darkest days.

1:39 that was deep that speaks my whole life in a few words man if I could explain it

Love this! God always leads me to a random spoken word- old ones, new ones, ones I’ve seen or may need to hear again. I always ending up on exactly what I need in that moment! Your channel is an archive of blessed hope my brother 🙏🏼 God bless

I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety and my faith in my God and your video popped up on my timeline and I watched it and I spoke those 3 words JESUS HELP ME! and believe it or not I heard my Father God speaking to me again and I am so grateful for you putting your videos out there because of those 3 words you told me to say i was pulled from the dark back into the light so God bless you my brother

Pff my eyes are watering. I relate so much. Wow, Clayton. Incredibly brave of you to share this.

Clayton you’re not alone. Know God smiles on you honey. You do so much good. You have no idea how many you have saved. Praise God for you and your words, and for not being afraid to speak the most important words ever written. Love you. God bless you.

I’m fighting alongside you as I’m dealing with the same things & have been for a few years now! I’ll keep you in my prayers! It gets very overwhelming at times but the Lord is always faithful.

Love and respect brother! Keep venting we're listening and you're not alone!!

“What’s the point of living,if life’s a living hell?” THIS IS A LEGIT QUESTION 💯

😭😭😭 it's the depression talking when I'm feeling crazy.

Clayton please don't ever leave us.. I know its hard I totally understand what your going through every night for hours I cry until I fall asleep I've taken my life so many times yet I'm still here I feel as if im being forced to live a life that I don't even want and I can tell you feel the same... Your music reaches so many of us... And its truly great... You don't know me but if you ever need someone to just listen not say anything at all to just listen I will be here for you

Love all you do! Can relate so much!! ❤️❤️