I really liked that line of not getting a break from yourself, you're forced to play the same character everyday, but there are things we can do to emulate playing from another character, such as living vicariously through fictional and non fictional characters in media and in real life.

Hope everything get better Sylvie. We all love you and your content! love from Thailand

Ms. Sylvie with everything to do Muay Thai I love you Ma'am, I have watched everything and anything legendary pokemon Dieselnoi and you are in, the first couple vids on your clinching masterclass playlist. some of your first fights on the channel(couldn't get myself to watch them to the end I couldn't bare seeing you get cut pretty bad) though sharing/teaching about the beautiful and deadly art I have watched hours worth by now. Lastly, I love that you mentioned Vipassana, Ekhart Tole's book the Power of Now introduced me to meditation and I found Vipassana there after. My favourite analoy is that of a river, we just observe the river, whatever happens to that water a leaf, branch may fall, it may recede or tide over. Still, we remain an observer sitting on the river bank listening to birds sing, planes fly by, and rythmic Ooosh, Oosss, Shoioi~ 🤣 Bless you Teacher.💛

Sylvie I am so grateful for your channel and for your willingness to share your mind and heart with us: it is beneficial and relatable in a supremely unique way that *no* other fighter, content creator, or even close/wise friends within my own sangha are. And this particular video couldn’t be more well timed. Today I woke up pretty depressed, mind racing, had to skip my own meditative practice if I wanted to get to the morning class, so I did skip my meditation which is something I never make exceptions with. My efforts in class were subpar, which has been the case for the last week: I’ve been running into my first instance of “burnout”, and the “will to do battle” within me has been broken. This past weekend I went up north to hike in the woods, similarly to you, to just try and reconnect with joy, peace, and feel good in a way that doesn’t involve Muay Thai. I’ve been ravenously pouring all my energy into Muay Thai the last several months since I returned from Thailand, to an addictive point where it’s the only space I feel joy, while everything else in my life has begun to feel uninteresting at best or a hindrance to Muay Thai at worst. And I’m glad you’re talking about feelings, be they sad, depressed, or in some other way undesirable. Unsurprisingly, the gym I train at here in the states is a MT/MMA gym full of people who are not outwardly emotional or sensitive in the ways that I definitely am. And on account of how much time I spend there, I’ve began to notice how this hypermasculine, emotionally suppressed environment is negatively impacting me and my psyche, compounding the imbalance I’ve felt in my life in general for being so wrapped up in the Muay Thai-verse and little else. I don’t know fighters who are talking about their emotional experiences: hearing your experiences, your perspectives, all the Muay Thai bones podcasts and these run-casts are so SUPREMELY grounding and resonant for me, helping me when I feel like I’m in a rut. Keep doing everything you’re doing and just being yourself, thank you so much!

Acceptance of one's feelings is so vital. I try not to resist my emotional "weather" too much. I hate feeling gloomy especially if it drags on, but it happens. Wishing you sunny skies again soon, Sylvie. ❤

All the best, Sylvie! Enjoy watching your videos just about every day.

Hope u feel better buddy

I get that same comedown after an art show or finishing some paintings, its very weird: "why am I having a panic attack after this fun and successful thing?!" Brains, amirite?!

Yo, for the last six months, whenever I'm significantly down or thrilled, I hear the deep and calm voice of Arjan Surat resonating, "EeveeRyDaay." The most profound crypto depression - I hear that specific "EeveeRyDaay" - and then I calmly accept that it's okay if this is what every day looks like for the rest of my life. Extreme happiness and fireworks of dopamine and adrenaline-"EeveeRyDaay"-somehow remind me again that if it's like this for the rest of my life, that's okay. ;)

Me: "Sylvie's run cast: what headphones will she be wearing this episode 🤣" Sylvie: doesn't wear headphones Me: well shit