My death anxiety is almost everyday, i cannot stop it. I fear death i keep thinking and im counting my days even though im 17. "Death will catch me" "i will be dead and never come back, staring into darkness forever, losing everything i loved" "i will have to die and i cant stop" "im gonna have to die someday and i cant stop it". These thoughts terrify me everyday, my head hurts everyday. Update 2020:Hey guys IV recovered and healed from my anxiety as well and IV seen so many people like me,I hope you's are become better too and be strong you can win and find something better in life trust me. Be strong and try and make Ur life better and more meaning even U don't see meaning keep trying,I felt like I had no meaning in life and now I have a better life and exploring the world, stay safe everyone and plss be strong

My anxiety is about death as well, but not so much loved ones dying as what happens after. It freaks me out not knowing what happens and I hate the thought of this life meaning nothing.

When I think about death, I come to this video and read the comments. It actually helps a lot.

Oh my goodness.. I'm literally in my bathroom sobbing. This is the first person who has related to my constant fear of death... Thank you

oh my goodness, this is like my anxiety. I'm always afraid of death and what happens after. thank you so much for being here. have a wonderful day!

This makes me feel so much better knowing I'm not the only one with this kind of anxiety

Theres only 3 reasons why I'm scared of dying, the pain, my loved ones tears, experiencing life even more, i dont wanna die... what if heaven isnt real... what if i dont live another life... what if i die tomorrow... i dont be alone... what if i never speak to anyone again.... i really hope when i die, i dont get to think or exist anymore.. (mentally) i have anxiety attacks about this occasionally, but the more i think the more it hurts...

i have the same things. depression/anxiety. my death anxiety centers around the fact that i have no choice in the matter and the fear of what will happen to me when i die. also, losing loved ones and being alone

I’m 11 years old and I’m scared of dying and I mostly think of it at night and it keeps me up all night and sometimes makes me start crying. I’m scared that when you die you don’t feel anything and nothing happens for the rest of eternity and it’s my birthday this Saturday and I do t like birthdays because it reminds of that I have one less year of life and I’m really scared for when my grandparent and parents die and they have to go through what I fear and I’m a,so scared that their is no heaven or hell and their is just nothing and nothing happens for ever and ever. I feel sorry for the animals because they don’t get to experience life as we humans do and some animals are killed at a very young age and sometimes right after birth. I am also scared that I will become a grandfather very soon and I get scared that life it too short and you one get one chance of life which inspires me to make the best out of it and not waste my one chance of life.

I also have this kind of anxiety. I am constantly thinking about ths death of my loved ones and especially when I go to bed every night. It is a scary thought that comes and goes. When I go to bed to sleep I 'll start crying because of it.

I have travel anxiety. When we travel I am so afraid of car crashes or not being able to get home. I hate traveling.

I have anxiety of death in general. Conversely I would never wanna be immortal. A strange conflict I guess, but I've gotten a little better at dealing with death by changing my views on it.

Don't feel bad/awkward about this. I think so many people in our generation have anxiety or anxiety and depression. *hugs*

OMFG. This literally is exactly how I feel. When I say I feel anxious about death, most people don't understand that I'm mainly focused around my family members and people I love. Like I can be in the car then suddenly imagine someone dying and get extremely upset - it seems to be so unexpected and uncontrollable. I'm so so so glad you understand it.

You are 100% totally not crazy. I have this as well, and have had it my entire life. I also used to wake my parents up to check on them, and worrying about my grandparents to the point of being sick. I'm a 27 year old married woman now, and I still experience this. I don't really have any advice but I appreciate you sharing your story. Know that there is someone else who is going through what you are, and you are not crazy. I'm curious though, are you incredibly empathetic? I find that others who have this anxiety seem to be. Please do an update if you get a lot of interesting responses, and I wish you the best.

For me im like, one day im going to die. Its gonna happen. That day is coming. And the day that the Earth is left floating in space, lifeless, dusty and cracking, will come. And the day the Sun will explode will come. And then there will be nothing. An empty abyss. But how i would i know? Becos i wont be there. I wont even be in darkness. I just wont... be. First time i ever wrote that down. gaddamn.

I kinda have this fear of death. but sometimes it really gets to the point where I have those scenarios in my head like what if the car is gonna crash, maybe I am ill, etc. for some weeks i was even scared of an asteorid destroying earth and things that are soo unlikely to happen, but which I couldn't control. and then I think even if nothing like that happens we're all going to die and that makes me fucking anxious. what helps me is just to stay busy and positive and in the moment!

Everything you described in the video is what I deal with. I often fear death and losing loved ones. The feeling comes and goes. Every time I say goodbye to my friends and family I have to say please drive safe because I'm afraid something could happen to them. If I see a story on the news about someone dying I will worry for days. What if that happens to me? What if someone close to me dies? If anyone has any advice on how to be at peace with death please share.

I’m only 10, I fear family members dying. Especially my dad, I love him to death, I couldn’t imagine him dying. Everyday I shower I picture me crying with him in his death bed. I can’t do anything about it, I tell him how much I love him everyday but I still am scared of not being able to say how much I really really love him before he dies. That’s why I vow to stay next to him when he gets old, I don’t care if it means I have to sacrifice everything I’ve ever worked for. I don’t care about my own death anymore. Sometimes the thoughts will go away for 2 weeks or two, but then it just comes back. It just comes back random moments, I’m trying to be stronger, he always tells me how much he loves me and I get so happy I cry tears, I love him to death. I’ll sacrifice the world for him, I’ll take a bullet for him, anything for him. I can give away anyone I love (except for my brothers and mother & grandma & uncle / auntie & cousins). I LOVE my dad, I could not imagine anything without him..

I also had that kind of anxiety when I was a kid. I couldn't sleep alone because I was sure that my parents would die in the middle of the night. This went on from the age 5 to 10. Every night I would cry to my parents because I was sure that they would die. I have had all kinds of hysteric fears like having illnesses to really small things that aren't even big thing but to me it feels like I'm going to die of anxiety. I feel like a crazy person and I know that these thoughts aren't realistic but I cant help it. When I get these thought they won't stop and I just think about it over an over again. It was a little while ago when I got to know that these are called Intrusive thoughts. Currently my situation is a lot better than it used to be. I have social anxiety and it's even difficult to post comments. But your video gave me the courage to talk a bit about my experience and I hope it will get better for you :)

I’m 23 years old and have just recently developed anxiety within the last few months and it’s usually always about death - my family’s, my boyfriend’s, and my own. It’s strange because there were no major deaths in my life for it to just happen out of nowhere but it’s happening and I’m suddenly so aware of my own mortality and it terrifies me. I still don’t know how to deal with it... and every night I miss being naive and feeling invincible.

Something ironic, I quit tea (any form of caffeine) because I realized it greatly contributed to my anxiety. Sigh... I miss tea...

I started having panic attacks several months ago, about various things, death, illnesses, unhappiness, failure. At the time it happens, usually in the evening time, it feels horrible, as if I can't control my brain, or can't think of anything positive or useful. However I rationalise it, at the moment I have the panic attack I cannot stop all those psychosomatic symptoms, like racing heart, so I just wait for it to pass. Distractions work, as prevention and partially as cure. On the plus side, when I'm not having panic attacks, I can consciously appreciate and enjoy that feeling of peaceful mind, and even think of rational arguments to appease myself against the things I dread. (For example, I remind myself how grateful I should be for what life has given me so far, family-wise, beloved ones-wise etc). Also, as you mentioned, a partner is precious , because, as I see things, death is the absolute form of loneliness, and (erotic) love is the absolute form of togetherness, so I feel like it's a natural antidote. Also, the acceptance that life is tough and unfair, but all we can do is strive to alleviate its toughness and unfairness, and then laugh it off, enjoy the good parts of it. As the song goes, ''life's a piece of shit, when you look at it'', but still we should ''always look on the bright side''. Thank you for the video, it's a reminder that it's not the end of the world to have an issue like that, and it's way more common than we think (in fact, most people I know had at least one psychologically difficult phase, in their lives, some took anti-depressant pills, many still see a psychologist, but noone is characterised by it, or has surrendered to it).

I've been through a period like this 2 years ago, i was 21 back then. It lasted for almost an year. I suffered from severe depression but i also had panic attacks and anxiety attacks. Also, i was having a lot of negative ideas that i couldn't control, they were involuntary, annoying and scary. It was the first experience of this kind, i did not know what to do. So i searched for help, my mom sent me to a good psychologist ( also a woman). I went to her for 10 months and she helped me with everything. One of the exercises i did to feel better was this one: every morning when i woke up i had to think about all the things that scared me and gave me pannic attacks. I had to do this for 15-20 minutes. Just repeating over and over again what i am afraid of and letting out all the negative emotions. Then, i had to do the same thing every hour ( for 5 minutes), for the rest of the day. After some time, the panick attacks were less problematic to me. And the exercise was changed a little bit: i still did the morning "routine", and then the same thinh after 3 hours for 5 minutes. This way the panick attacks were gone, because i let all the bad emotions out, i did not keep them inside. Thanks to this woman, after one year of severe depression, anxiety and panick attacks i was finally myself again. Sorry for the long comment, i hope this will help you somehow.

Watching this video and seeing all of your comments makes me feel way better. I've been dealing with anxiety since 2011 ever since the Japan Earthquake. ( idk why but it started since then) . But lately it's been so bad. I'm terrified of a loved one dying . And it's been specifically through cancer. It seems like everyone is getting it ! It gets so bad to the point where I'm like " what's the point of living if we're all going to die anyways!" I stopped cleaning my room, I struggle to exercise, I'm terrified of being happy and enjoying my life bc I'm ALWAYS afraid something will go wrong. The worst part is when people think you can easily turn anxiety off. Or they don't take you seriously :(

the really bad panic attacks i get happen when I'm not busy in life/in a slump, or when i'm alone, or when it's night time & i'm not totally tired out - like i have to constantly tire myself out, cause if i go sleep at a time i'm not ready to just plop down dead asleep, i'll start thinking about the blackness of death & how when i fall asleep, that's basically what it'll be like for eternity & yadda yadda - so then my body will wake itself up in this jolt cause i start to think i was dying in my sleep, & then I start panicking, & then I'll get this horrible burning cold feeling on my shoulders, neck, & face & i'll start to get shaky & usually cry like a lil weenie & get dizzy & can't breath which leads to me feeling light-headed and more like i'm going to die. I honestly feel like i know what my death is going to feel like, every time i get one of those attacks, i just... it feels so real for a second. but I just have to remind myself it's just my brain, i guess. I started getting panic attacks when I was younger, like sixth grade - but back then it was more of the fear of passing out/dying in front of other people (i didn't want to pass out in front of anyone or have a heart attack in front of my class mates or at the mall etc.) but now it's like I'm scared to die just in general, alone or not - I just don't want to die, ya know? and I'm not scared about what'll happen to me when my loved ones die, I'm scared of what will happen to them... will they really just not... exist? will they really just be basically asleep for ever? will death be just like it was before we were born? just nothing? i live in fear of dying to the point where it ruins my life so much that I wish I could just kill myself, but I can't, cause that's the one thing I'm horrified of lol! it's like a horrible cycle I can't get out of - i can't kill myself, i can't live, sometimes i can't even do anything without that black sludge of death filling my mind. (& times where I'm ok, and laughing or even in pain - sometimes even afterwards I'll think about how much I'll miss laughing or feeling pain, when I'm dead & feeling nothing - that thought just ruins the moments for me every once in a while) one of the few things that calms me down during a full blown panic attack now is laying on the floor, a cold one. i listen to my dog's heart beat sometimes too. (hopefully no one's there to witness my 'episodes' ((i keep my anxiety super private)), but if someone is, i'll try to focus on talking to them.) anything to distract me, really. and then after a full blown panic attack, my body is so exhausted from being so tense & freaked out, that it's almost like someone shot me with a tranquilizer, & if all goes well, I'll fall asleep. but is sucks now, for a good four or five years, I didn't have any serious panic attacks cause I thought I learned how to stop them, but lately these newer ones come & it just... it's like my old younger self going through it again, except now it's evolved into something almost worse. even during the day now sometimes, when I'm just being around people or living life, i'll start asking myself how the people around me can go through everyday knowing their inevitable end, and how they can be so brave that they don't dwell on the nothingness that comes after death, every single second; like what they do to keep themselves distracted, or what they think is worth the little time on earth that they have, I guess - ugh, I don't even like typing about it cause i feel that static in my head buzzing, so I think I'm going to stop honestly. thanks for the video, even though I don't know how to stop this anxiety crap completely - it still makes me feel a little less anxious knowing i'm not completely alone with these thoughts & feelings & symptoms. i stay away from caffeine, cause that can make my panic worse than it is, I've noticed... but I hope you get through it, & hope all of us dealing w/ this can figure out a way to enjoy time, rather than dwell on it.

Isn't hypochondria fantastic? I'm always worried that I'm dying of cancer. xD

I think about it way to much it's really depressing

I have this death thoughts too and then I feel bad that my brain makes up stories in my head... I now it doesn't makes sense but I know how you feel!

I feel the exact same way except about my own death more so than others. You're not crazy. I pace around, I get fast heart rate and I get triggered by nothing and everything. Thanks for sharing your experience, helps me knowing that there are other people out there.

This video is sooooo important!! Thank you for opening up. I also deal with it. You're not alone!!

Hello Lucy, a quick solution for the effect that is anxiety is to slowly exhale air out of the lungs and then hold it there as long as you can. The mind will quickly snap out of any negative pattern and focus itself on what you are doing and in that moment you will feel the mind stimulated and awake to the present. Of course then you will breathe again but most importantly you will breathe deeply and this will relax the body. The cause is in the subconscious but don't fear, as you get older you will find a solution to dealing with it so that triggers no longer control you.

So, I feel like all of us here who commented on this video have the same thoughts, we see other people who don;t or don;t realize they have these ideas and we think we're alone. You just realized that this is absolutely normal, what you feel is normal, it's just that you don;t really need to interpret those thought anymore, and you just really need them to go through you w.o them leaving a mark on you. Keep yourself busy, make everyday count, try to love everything around you and make future plans. Don;t waste time, or wait for it to pass, make a list of what you want to do and do it, it will hep so much, not just that you need to keep urself busy, but to actually try things, to prove urself you can do anything and you will be so happy after. For example I thought I'd never quit smoking and one day I did, you won;t imagine what happened, each time I was having a bad day I would think, wow I went through this and wow, I made it happen, I'm no longer a smoker, and damn that feels so good to focus on something you accomplished. I had some awful times with anxiety, I'm in therapy right now, but I'm doing so much better and I'm so damn strong. What you need to know is that everyone goes through the same things as you, just try to live your life, be safe, try to stay out of trouble, exercise and try to eat as healthy as possible, but don;t exagerate that unhealthy food is part of life, that laziness is also part of life, thinking of loved ones dying proves you truly love and are loved, so let;s try to embrace our fears, let them run through us and get pass them every time. If I helped at least 1 person with my comment then I;m happy. Be safe guys!

Lucy, you are such a brave woman. I don't think you realize what you did in your video. You actually put into words exactly what so many people suffer with. Never before have I been able to describe in detail what the feelings I was dealing with. You just did it for me. Night time has always been the worst time for me when trying to sleep. Worrying thoughts just race through my brain and throw me into a panic. I have learned a few things to do when this is happening. First I remember to breathe. Take slow deep breaths. I try closing my eyes and visualize a large red stop sign coming at my face. Also, I close my eyes and I count backwards from 100 visualizing each number. Doing these things forces my brain to change my train of thought. Thank you Lucy, for easing part of my stress of not being able to explain how I feel.

This is so me. I stay up late every single night and think about dying. The process, family and friends I will leave behind, everything. It worries me to the point of me getting a headache, sweating, and pacing throughout my house.

If it helps anyone I had a constant fear of death a couple of years ago and it got bad, but I managed to overcome it, so it's not necessarily permanent? I found whenever I found my Brain going to a bad place I just forced myself to mentally sing the chorus of No Scrubs and for some reason that worked, lol

My mom and I both have trouble talking to strangers. If we are in the store and need to ask where something is we'll usually end up in an argument over whose turn it is to go ask. Also phone calls are the worst. I have to write out everything I want to say, otherwise I panic and leave out basic information like my name. It's so irrational--ironically I do not get stage fright.

All of us is here for the same thing. My anxiety of death hits me every single second. I went to psychiatrist and they did nothing than talk with me. I am so scared of dying. I’m scared of the pain. I will tell myself “girl you will die now” every single time. i cant even sleep. i’ve been sleeping at 6 am for months now.

I totally understand the brain fighting itself. I have quite mastered anxiety through years of dealing with it. Nowadays I meditate everyday and that helps a lot

I'm watching in 2019, today I just got this awful feeling in my mind that I'm going to die one day my husband too and my children I start crying out of nowhere and my husband freaks out, and ask why I'm crying I tell him and he says why r you thinking of this. And I said idk I just thought of it. It's super scary when you think of this I'm crying right now because of it thank you so much for sharing. That's why I can't watch any TV series that have end of the world or death, like the walking dead, the 100 ect scares me and my heart hurts everytime.

My kind of anxiety with death is I’m afraid of what will happen during death or what I would feel, and I am afraid of what it would be like not breathing anymore or what all happens, I know it might sound silly but it really takes over my mind, and it makes my life very stressful, if anyone else has a same experience plz let me know, I feel like I’m the only one who feels this😢 and the sad thing is I’m only 12 having to deal with this😭

I've had death anxiety for about 7 months now, out of nowhere I just started having nightmares and panic attacks just before I go to sleep. I'll go to try and sleep and I'll think about not being around anymore and the idea of infinity and no control over dying, just the fact that you can't stop it and one day I'll just stop. I've had this every single day for the past seven months and genuinely I need it to stop. I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety and I'm 17, it's just insane. I have no idea what to do about it and when I try and tell my mum she just tells me it's because I worry about my family but it's not that at all. I don't know why my brain does this to me it's like it just switches. I've never watched a video that I've related to more except it's my own death more than my families.

Right now since the Christmas break started, I started to overthink my death and being scared that my life will end... I dont know why but now I am so aware of dying it just makes me so sad. I've also thought of my family dying but when I was about 5-7 which is weird thoughts when you are young. Now I'm 14 but I never ever had this feeling in a long time. The way it effects me is just me imaging it in my head, if I am happy I am not thinking about it but when I go back to my thoughts it comes back and I hate it to the point I was crying so hard.... I have a problem I never told anyone I knew, I always overthink things negatively like something bad is going to happen in a situation I'm in but I still fight my thoughts at this moment and try as hard to forget it(it was so weird that before I used to watch criminal shows, and not being afraid to die but now my thoughts are deep) This video made me feel less lonely about thinking I was the only one....

This was really brave of you. Thank you for sharing it!

I have very very similar anxieties to you. Thank you for this video :) It made me feel less alone.

It's kinda comforting but sad to see so many people feeling something similar to me, it's nice to know you're not the only one struggling with things like this~

If you can’t stop it face it there’s no life without death accept what can’t be stopped

I am so happy that you made this video. I struggle with pretty much the same issues, although my anxiety is about my loved ones getting hurt or sick. At one point I could literally spend 3 hours straight colouring the relaxing colouring books, waiting for my BF to come home from his horse riding trainings that I found dangerous (do I have to mention I ride horses too, on the exact same level? And I have NO problems with MY own trainings. I never fear something could happen to ME.), until my back was so sore from bending upon my desk, that I could not sit anymore. BTW, I also think distraction is the best way possible to handle this. I also can't stand rapid changes, and "spontaneous" parties, trips or whatever have always been a torture for me. Any changes in my set plans drive me mad. The funniest thing is that no one even knows what I am going through, because the only way I can deal with it in front of the others is putting on a "tough girl" mask. Paradoxically, I constantly hear how strong and confident I am. And if I had not been forcing myself to just go out and do things, being a bit of a ruthless "policeman" to myself, if I only allowed myself to give in to my fears, I would never be where I am now.

Sometimes I’m just going to sleep and sit and and I’m like, god I’m gonna die one day and start crying, also went through a phase where I would not go to sleep and had a constant racing heart because I was constantly thinking of death 😩

You are not alone. I'm the same way. I'm 56 and worry about myself dying almost everyday. I've ended up in the ER with panic attack.

As someone who’s been dealing with this since I was 8, I find that if I think about my death as something I control, usually killing my self, death doesn’t seem as bad because there’s an aspect of control. This is the only thing that’s helped me besides just distracting myself.

This fear and anxiety has literally destroyed my life, relationships, and really just myself. It changed who I was and not in a good way. If anyone reading this has started to feel this way recently, get help! Be open and honest with your therapist. If you keep all your thoughts in your head, they’ll only grow. That’s why you need to talk about them when you get them.

Im only 15. My anxiety is so bad i burst into tears when left alone. One day ill die and ill never see anything or anyone again. Ill never love or be loved again.ill die alone and be alone... I dont know what is beyond death..

This is exactly how I feel but for some reason I've become way more emotional than normal. Like if I watch or hear anything touching, sweet, or sensitive I will just burst into tears. I recently watched Arthur (the cartoon) and started crying and I was just so perplexed by it lol

I’m 28 and this anxiety just kicked in for me a few weeks ago. It’s so good to know you can all relate. I wish I could go back to not having this. I love you all.

You are not alone and are not crazy. I experience all the same things and more ! Stay strong. Thank you for this.

I have aniexty, because I was treated so badly at the hospital last year, I have a feeling of dread most of the time, but I fight on through, exercise is a great help. Fear of death it does happen to everyone. I've such a big fear of it, even though I'm a Christian. The thought of my dad leaving me one day, I just can't even think of that. X

I also have anxiety and your description sounds very familiar. It feels like I'm suffocating and like I just can't live. For me it's usually not about death but more about having to deal with some impossible situations or everything going somehow horribly wrong. Sometimes my fears are somewhat real, sometimes not so much.

I'm laughing....not because it's funny, but because of how this is EXACTLY what I go through and it's comforting to know I'm not the only one.

The problem is that I can't get used to it every time is like.."this is the time, i will die now"

you're not alone! i feel exactly the same.

I am only eleven and I always suffer from anxiety it is almost exactly the same but I also get it about me dying too. I often think about how we were brought I to this world and there is nothing we can do about it we have to go through breakups, our family dying and us dying and our life is worthless . I normally have a panic attack or cry sooo much Xxx ❤

Everyday when I lay in bed just before I fall asleep I get an anxiety attack. The moment the begin fase begins my head just can’t stop it (even though I am fighting it). My brain starts with randomly thinking about dying. Then my brain is in 10x speed just showing pictures, emotions and the constant feeling of you cannot stop the thing you fear the most. I am thinking how about my life isn’t forever. The moment all those things go trough my head many things can happen. Normally I just go from my lay position to my sit position in the fastest reflection ever. Then I scream/cry to get it out of my head or when It is real worse I scratch my arms or neck (this happends out of my control) and in the worst case I jump out of my bed run to a door or a wall and punch my head with my fist or a wall to get it out. After I got this I just start crying not knowing what to do. Sorry if my grammar isn’t that good, I am a bit new to English

You explained how I feel perfectly I thought I was alone but it’s kind of comforting in a way that someone else understands

definitely NOT crazy!! i just watched this video and it was the first of yours i have seen and i am definitely going to watch more. i can completely relate i have only extreme panic attacks when i think about death also, i have an extreme fear of death, not just for my family but me too, it's everyone dying that worries me and that it's inevitable and makes me cry i always have done it and would cry at night thinking about it as a little girl, probably like 10 when i noticed it. i hope you have found some coping skills!! and if so do share, i am the only person i know who has this fear and it makes it hard to do life normal and i never talk about it with people, people i love have been dying recently a lot... and i don't have any good coping skills still but still trying to stay composed. blah anyway i really appreciate this video even if it was almost a year ago :P thank you Loepsie!!!

I recently started feeling like this and it’s every day and when I think about dying I freak out and I wanna cry, it’s soo uncomfortable I want it to stop. I’ve been having constant anxiety I hate it

Lately ive been experiencing different types of anxiety. An lately ive been terrified of death. My death, or loved ones. Terrified. I do almost the same thing as you.. I start by thinking of someone inna good or way or just a normal way an then my mind just like flips a switch and starts thinking of what if i got a call telling me someone i love died or is fixing to die. You know when u get nervous and you get "butterflies" in ur stomach? I get those in my chest an heart and it gets to a pretty intense feeling and then my arms start tingling and i start breathing hard and start crying from thinking of it and then it feels like my heart is slowly coming out of my chest. And then i freak out thinking im having a heart attack. And i know people are gonna die its apart of life but that dont make it any better for me. And then i start thinking about how one day you are here and the next ur just gone. Complete darkness and a feeling overcomes my body and mind and makes me panic. Im terrified of dying i dont want to die i dont want the people i love to die and knowing that everyday that passes is just another day towards the day i loose someone i love or the day i die it makes me feel like its pointless. I also get freaked out of what happens after. Whether its forever darkness, or theres a burning hell with unimaginable pain that lasts forever, or if theres a forever peace. Its terrifying.

struggling really bad with my fear of death lately, came to KZfaq to get some free therapy. glad I found you. feel a lot less alone. thank you.

I have this too... I feel so much better im not alone ... 💜

I have congestive heart failure.. my heart skips a beat or stalls frequently nowadays. I’ve done well to follow doctors medical advice and take my medications. Even so, my heart has stopped several times; suddenly and unexpected. Every time my heart skips a beat or my blood pressure drops I panic. I’m terrified because death is constant lingering over me.. 😭

I literally fear of my own death and loved ones. There are times where I lay in bed and think that one day when I die I will literally know nothing, see nothing and remember nothing. And cry for hours

I feel exactly the same way and I thought I was crazy. I’m sooo glad you shared this!! Thank you and I hope its gotten better for you!!

I feel the same, the fear is very intense. Thanks for sharing

Wow you’re just like me 😂 I’m so happy that I found someone like you cause I thought I was the only oneee. 😔

recently I was robbed and that triggered anxiety. I can't be alone at home that it starts. Your video helped me a lot! it's really brave of you talk about it!Kisses from Brazil

Ever since my panic attacks, it’s been a huge fear. It worries me to the point where I get no sleep. The doctors tell me everything is fine, and I believe them because I survive everyday. It’s just when my anxiety symptoms kick in, I think negative. Getting rest helps cure, but I can’t get it together. I got it together a few times, but when symptoms kick in, it starts to happen.

Thank you so much for sharing this! People (including my family) still don't quite understand anxiety or how it affects emotionally sensitive people. This type of anxiety is very similar to what I struggle with, but sometimes I worry more about having a serious disease or dying myself. Would you loop that into this type of anxiety or something different?

I watched "five feet apart" which is an amazing movie and there was one part were it said something like, death is like birth you don't know what's going to happen. So when we were in the womb we had no idea what was going to go on and its the same with death, it could lead to another life!

This is my life everyday. I try to pray to God to heal me. Some days are terrible. Some days are manageable. I feel as if I'm going to manifest it sooner supposed to. :(

I have had the same fear since I was five years old, and I remember crying to my parents at night telling them I'm scared. I have never spoken to anyone about this, because even when I was a kid, I used to tell myself that everybody dies, so it's inevitable. I just need to remember that I love them. Lucy, I have always found you very relatable, but this video was really touching. It felt good to know there are people going through the same things, having the same thoughts, and this is a good way to help each other out. Thank you for being so unique, yet so generally relatable. I'm glad to have subscribed to your channel several years ago. All your videos are worth a watch. Keep doing what you're doing! Lots of love. :)

No one can survive or escape death. Once you accept that, you will be at peace. Remember, this is a cold world where innocent people are constantly suffering, dying, murdered or tortured. One advantage of death is that you will never suffer from this cruel world. You have escaped it and are now in an eternal sleep of beautiful peace.

Super dapper dat je hier zo open over praat! Je bent sowieso niet 'gek', ieder brein heeft zo zijn eigenaardige dingen :) Als psychologiestudent vind ik het altijd vreselijk om mensen hun 'horrorervaringen' met psychologen te horen, en dit is ook weer zoiets... Van een uitspraak als "I think you're way too happy to be here", krijg ik echt kippenvel! Het klinkt alsof je jezelf veel hebt aangeleerd om het onder controle te houden, en dat is super. Ik hoop dat die nare ervaring uit het verleden je in de toekomst niet zal tegenhouden om hulp te zoeken wanneer het evt. wel nodig is! (Laten we ook vooral hopen dat het niet nodig zal zijn, of laten we stiekem hopen dat je er ooit gewoon helemaal van verlost raakt ^_^) Also, ik begrijp compleet wat je zegt over niet 'het systeem' in willen gaan en een label krijgen. Dat is ook het grootste probleem dat ik heb met de moderne GGZ in Nederland. Je gaat erin, krijgt een diagnose opgeplakt en de therapeut zoekt in de DSM welke behandeling daarbij hoort. Maar die diagnose kan er bij jou heel anders uitzien als bij een ander (kijk naar alle vragen over verschillende soorten anxiety die je kreeg, maar die totaal geen betrekking hebben op jou), en daar wordt volgens mij te weinig rekening mee gehouden, met name omdat elke patiënt zo snel mogelijk genezen moet zijn van de verzekeraars. (Ugh, als ik hier eenmaal over begin kan ik uren doorgaan...) Anyway, ik vind het cool dat je deze video gemaakt hebt! Liefs!

You are not alone! I totally sympathise with your fear of death and your situational anxiety! I get this when I get thrown into a social setting unexpectedly (I just forget how to even do small talk sometimes). Interviews and first dates suck for me because I sometimes freeze and blank, so I'll get anxiety anticipating the anxiety that I think I will experience when I need to do these things. I don't think I have SA generally speaking, but there are a couple of things that put me on edge and cause these similar feelings. It's all getting better as I get older -- less and less. Thanks for sharing. Love from the Pacific Northwest of Washington State!

Bless you! I have the same fear...and also deal with anxiety and panic attacks. My symptoms have been hot flashes, tingling, dizzy, vomiting and sweating....it feels like DEATH. You are definitely not alone!! ((Hugs))

I want a collab between you & Annika Victoria , you guys look so much alike!!!

I'm only 12! And I'm scared of death and possesion and lots of other stuff plz help

I have had death anxiety ever since I was a little child and now, in my 20s, I just lost my uncle. And on top of my "I am going to disappear, I am not going to exist, I will die and all my loved ones will die." I now have the grief of my uncle's death which I think my partner, who I live with, expected to have been a passing thing. But at this point I don't even want to talk to him, to let him touch me or to be near anyone because the death anxiety is growing much stronger and my uncle's death won't leave my head. The fact that I lost someone and one day it will be me and I will slowly lose everyone I love and I am not even in the same country and couldn't be there for my family. I just feel like running from everything. Really wish medication would be doing something. It isn't helping much. Sorry for the ramble, writing about it helps, so I ended up writing way too much.

I've been feeling this way for the past month now. But, my parents told me I shouldn't be worrying about death. And I still have a bright future up head of me. I'm going to the doctors soon. If they knew there was something wrong with me, they would have taking me to the doctors immediately. I hope I can be happy, smiling, laughing and goofy again like how I was before

Oh man. I get the same thing! And I have children. So I get the worst images of what the worst that could happen if I lost them or any of my other family, even my pets. Hang in there! It’s the worst.

Could you share the physical exercises? Thanks for sharing your experience and you/we are not crazy. Sorry I wrote many comments, I commented while watching to not forget

I've had terrible social anxiety pretty much all my life. What hurts most is when I opened up to people in my life about it in an attempt to let them to understand my behavior, they just don't get it. I don't blame them because they don't issues with any type of anxiety, but when I have an episode they're just not empathetic or seem to try to be at all. They tell me even though I have social anxiety I had no reason to have that kind of response which really isn't helpful. They basically just give a response along the lines of,"get over it-it's not that hard". The only person who didn't make me feel bad about how I acted was someone who also had social anxiety.

You literally explained my panic attacks all my attacks are based around this. I found this just by cooking in my kitchen with music and then full blown crying and fearing death...

loepsie u r best

same ! i have a constant fear of death when it comes to my loved ones and it's literally poisoning my life , so no you're not alone :D

Lucy, I just found your video and you nailed it! Hearing you describe the fear of death of loved ones makes me feel so much less alone - I have it and, like you, it can be better or worse depending on my self-care routine. It has been cropping up a bit more than usual (and I don’t talk about it with anyone) and has been really worrying me, so this was perfect timing to find you. THANK YOU so much for sharing and helping the rest of us 🙏🏻💙

That was liberating to listen. I feel that since I was a little girl and so understood by what you just shared. I have lost many loved ones lately and can tell you (taking the positive), that this previous stress helped me to be more serene once it really happened. Psychologists help, but family for me was the key to feel better gradually. Anxiety is horrible, my mom got scared sometimes while I had a crisis but knew the right words to soothe as most moms do, she passed away recently and I miss her dearly. Strangely, this experience has left me feeling stronger and more able to front face difficulties, as my mom was one of the people I was most scared to loose.

You are very brave to speak about such personal things so openly, and I fully respect you for doing so! Also the fact that you have such a good understanding of how your own mind works is a million steps in the right direction! 💕🌹

This Video You did Makes Me so Happy because I thought I was the only one . But Mine is Worrying about My kids which throw me into anxiety & panic attacks. Thank You So Much for Sharing this Means so much to Me . You dont even know so thank you again ❤

I have the exact same stuff - literally everything you are describing is stuff I have experienced intensely (especially the death fear of loved ones, dealing with strangers unexpectedly, and phone calls!) and I have just thought am I crazy. But now you said the same, I realise oh my gosh, this is a THING! We're not alone! Literally, my case of things is so similar, I feel like just showing your video to a my psychologist to explain what I'm experiencing, cos you described it so well, better than I can. Lots of love to you Lucy. I know you can overcome this anxiety some day very soon and you've really inspired me to help my own as well. xoxoxo

I don't have anxiety in that manner, but I do recognize some of the things still. Whenever I need to make a phone call, I go over the way I'm starting the conversation over and over in my head, to be sure I don't leave anything out - but I usually end up forgetting part of what I wanted to say or say things in a different way than I planned to. Same goes for when I have to go to a meeting, or talk with my thesis supervisor about something.. I need to go over it all in my head before, or literally write it down. I would love to see more of Tea TIme Topic! Great concept. (If any of you need some relaxing music to listen to while reading/studying/being creative, give the soundtrack from Ori and the Blind Forest a try. To me it's the perfect study music)