Dan Howell was hiding this massive secret

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I spent a day with Dan Howell to learn the truth about coming out and taking a break from KZfaq. Sponsors ▸This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp - go to betterhelp.com/padilla to get 10% off your first month. ▸ Go to rocketmoney.com/padilla to cancel your unnecessary subscriptions now.
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0:00 INTRODUCTION
3:21 BULLIED AS A CHILD
7:50 ON KZfaq FOR 13 YEARS
10:11 “BASICALLY I’M GAY”
14:44 REFLECTING ON EMOTIONS
17:20 STRAIGHT FOR 28 YEARS
19:45 SPONSOR MESSAGE
21:59 COMPARING NUMBERS TO SELF-WORTH
23:46 PARASOCIAL RELATIONSHIPS
24:52 WHAT’S NEXT FOR DAN HOWELL?
26:59 WE ARE ALL DOOMED
31:27 BLOOPER

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@AnthonyPadilla Жыл бұрын

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@pxtricia.p Жыл бұрын

YAAAAAAYYYY

@strwber_ Жыл бұрын

IM SO WXCITED

@MxShadow8 Жыл бұрын

I definitely will!

@-Shadow.xoxo- Жыл бұрын

Yesssss

@tiannabowring5778 Жыл бұрын

Ahhhhh!!

@danielhowell Жыл бұрын

i watched this whole thing and i don't even know who is who

@alexandraratliff7904 Жыл бұрын

God Anthony, stop commenting on your own videos

@Glueski Жыл бұрын

Oh, hey Anthony.

@plaguedocter4791 Жыл бұрын

I can only tell because you have giraffe legs. In a good way im also string bean shaped

@blackmice7 Жыл бұрын

You guys are just so similar

@ashleypanousis9626 Жыл бұрын

@mollyisaverage Жыл бұрын

dan fighting for his life when anthony called him out for being on his gay crush tier list is so funny

@mollyisaverage Жыл бұрын

like its okay dan we can't blame you anthony is attractive

@WillowIsntSeen Жыл бұрын

@e_intelligence2487 Жыл бұрын

Where can I watch that video?

@abbieuniverse8934 Жыл бұрын

@@mollyisaverage Trueeee.

@abbieuniverse8934 Жыл бұрын

@@baguettegott3409 I can't remember. Sorry. :)

@lauralissau2207 Жыл бұрын

I love how with every other guest Anthony is just so kind and understanding and then Dan comes on and it's like "shut the fuck up" instead😂

@madeleinehiggins243 10 ай бұрын

fr it was jarring but heartwarming to see how comfortable they both were

@marmottrash 5 ай бұрын

just heartwarming because they’ve been friends for so long and dan used to be a smosh fan with loads of merch lol

@jordanhunterat Жыл бұрын

I was at Dan's show in Melbourne, and at the end everyone was shouting "you saved me" and I hope he takes with him the fact that he has made so many peoples lives so much better

@withinsanityy Жыл бұрын

🥺🥺🥺

@bobthebuilderday6leader Жыл бұрын

Gosh, I think he unintentionally saved so many of us.

@SomebodyTheOcean 10 ай бұрын

this genuienly made me tear up i hope he knows how much he's cherished

@marmottrash 5 ай бұрын

him and phil will never know but they saved me too! ❤

@spirallingandpoetry Жыл бұрын

anthony's videos usually have a air of professionalism, and not to say he's not being professional here, but at a certain point this video feels a lot more like two old friends just chatting rather than the typical interview. it's very fun :)

@abstractfriends6722 Жыл бұрын

yes!

@avillaininshiningleather7265 Жыл бұрын

Exactly what I was thinking

@abbyc9924 Жыл бұрын

Watching these two interact felt like such a healing experience that reached my inner child

@hufflepuffwannabe Жыл бұрын

Haha yes I was going to say, this video has a different vibe from Anthony’s other videos. Both are good!

@baleek4367 Жыл бұрын

It’s a testimony to the authenticity of the exchange !

@tilertyler6915 Жыл бұрын

dan talking about not wanting to be perceived but also craving attention literally sums up the introvert experience

@deathyjp Жыл бұрын

So real

@moiaena Жыл бұрын

It does, doesn't it?

@Alyss93 Жыл бұрын

More social anxiety than introversion, but there's a fine line there anyways

@ChadKingOfficial Жыл бұрын

No. You just need validation because you're insecure.

@xinriji Жыл бұрын

that feeling when you want the attention on you, but when it is actually on you, you just wanna run away

@an_omniscient_nobody Жыл бұрын

The 2020s teenagers will never understand how much of a growth period the 2010s were for everyone. It’s so crazy seeing Dan’s audience (including myself) say that they’re turning/have turned 20+. It felt like just yesterday I was 14 watching Dan and Phil- time is flyingggg

@Tiegan168 Жыл бұрын

That’s just not true is it? 😂 2020 literally started with a pandemic. These kids have it way harder than we do.

@adrianfraserr Жыл бұрын

i’m 17 rn but i grew up with dan and phil and i have so many core memories from the internet and tumblr and youtube from the 2010s lmaooo

@hwdwashere Жыл бұрын

i was watching smosh.

@wolfzmusic9706 Жыл бұрын

Not me. Never been a massive Dan fan but I'm 18 rn

@brooksbrocc Жыл бұрын

I just had my 21st birthday recently. Time went by so quick.

@MusicWhovian56123 Жыл бұрын

Hearing that Dan wrote 'We're all Doomed' to save his own life makes the show all that more meaningful.

@xim287 Жыл бұрын

This isn't even an interview, it's just two friends hanging out 😭 I love it

@milkteamachine Жыл бұрын

I started watching Dan in 2011 and the fandom was absolutely feral. I'm honestly surprised that him and Phil still live together because I can't imagine how uncomfortable of a situation that was to barely be able to interact in public without it ending up in a "phan proof" compilation.

@resurrectthenight Жыл бұрын

Feral is an understatement, really. It was a disgusting time in the phandom

@mayacollette Жыл бұрын

I remember being in the fandom and every week we'd be arguing with other people in the fandom to take down their conspiracy posts or "proof". it was an odd dynamic especially bc so many of us were queer. We would make gay jokes about everyone but then when things felt more serious to us we would try and "do the right thing". like there was an old video that i think dan had deleted and asked that it not be re-uploaded anywhere bc it had some personal information in it so every time someone would come across a repost of it we would tell each other so we could all report it and hopefully take it down. and i honestly think we were so adamant about "protecting" (i don't really think we were helping but we thought we were) dan and phil bc a lot of us were in situations where it would be genuinely dangerous for us to be outed and it was honestly a little stressful sometimes because we had fear for them and their potential safety/mental health but honestly even that is probably bc of parasocial relationships and projection. All the people within the circle i was in were queer and out online but most of them weren't out irl and we all made assumptions about what their boundaries were based off what our own experience was which was like.. definitely not ideal and lead to problems.

@lizzzzyizhere Жыл бұрын

even to this day i'll see phannies post phan proof videos and it's ridiculous.

@bug7055 Жыл бұрын

same here, fan since 2011, grew up in that hell. the fandom wasn’t just feral it was despicably objectifying as nobody had any consideration for moral boundaries. i’m glad that era is long, long dead

@chelskiig2343 Жыл бұрын

as someone who was in the fandom in like 2012/2013 (i was 10/11) i agree, i did ship them & read the fan fictions but never commented on their videos about it or anything like that. i understand now how it’s so toxic & such an uncomfortable position to put people in

@livelaughForte Жыл бұрын

Every single time I think "they're nothing alike," they laugh manically in the same exact way

@jaymievl 6 ай бұрын

I hope Dan realises that, whilst he was scared of talking about depression and losing followers, he (w Phil) was literally the reason why some of us are still here now. I literally got so down and would spiral during nights and the only way to catch my breath and settle down was watching Phan for one vid at the time. Every time.

@marmottrash 5 ай бұрын

same their channels and the gaming videos helped me escape and actually feel like smiling/laughing lol

@penina8438 Жыл бұрын

Anthony is like the older brother Dan always needed. I’m glad they’ve managed to have a such a long and genuine friendship

@beesbrownies Жыл бұрын

LITERALLY! Perfect description of them

@aurora_tw1g Жыл бұрын

Dan came to this interview READY TO TALK. Bro just keeps going and honestly it makes me so happy to see him talk about this so much now :D

@liv-bv3pl Жыл бұрын

Yes u can see how comfortable he is w anthony bc they r old friends

@bbdumplin9146 Жыл бұрын

They are just buddies hanging out and let us watch and I love it .

@namelesstimelord1008 Жыл бұрын

Hearing Dan say that he sort of tries to be a person he would've needed as a teen made me tear up a bit, because for me he literally was that person. His videos gave me comfort and safety as a 15 year old. I remember feeling that maybe I don't need to have it all figured out and maybe everything will work out after all. Dan managed word out some of the thoughts and fears I couldn't, while still being funny and making me feel seen through a screen. Also the fact that I learned English through both Dan and Anthony is still blows my mind! Thank you for being what I needed as a lost young scared human.

@Elena-ty5xg Жыл бұрын

Same ❤️

@cuca_ Жыл бұрын

I mean it was Anthony who said that

@bazhene Жыл бұрын

yes oh my god❤️😩

@slytherinpwincess1053 Жыл бұрын

Same

@seolway1709 Жыл бұрын

this doesn’t even feels like an interview, it gives me old friend’s conversation vibe… and it is brilliant bc they ARE old friends. never thought about dan on this show, but loved every second of it! these two helped me so much with my mental health for past ten tears and i am truly happy to see them so open and honest about themselves. wish dan and anthony the best, can’t wait to see them even happier and healthier :,)

@crabtoes2210 Жыл бұрын

I feel like this is a perfect way to actually be an LGBTQ+ ally. Listening and bouncing off of what we actually say. Rather than just screaming “I love gay” “gay people are cool.” It’s so refreshing to see a straight creator actually act in a genuinely respectful way

@Otsena Жыл бұрын

Do you mean active listening/summarizing? In that case I agree! A lot of people don't have these skills or are aware of these skills and how important and powerful they are when it comes to listening to people who are considered as the minority group.

@phoebescott6787 Жыл бұрын

Well I don't mind both methods 😏/hj

@maddielee1109 Жыл бұрын

ally??????????

@hannahfritz6252 Жыл бұрын

@@maddielee1109 lmao ikr

@elisecode2212 Жыл бұрын

i watched his interviews with aromantic people (since i'm aro) and i was impressed. for one thing, just by his giving them the opportunity to share their experiences, but also by how he contributed to the conversations. it meant a lot.

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

I vividly remember when Dan posted "basically I'm gay" and I cried the whole day because I felt so proud of him and I was happy that he could finally be himself!

@SunIsLost Жыл бұрын

Yea

@mars_is_cooler Жыл бұрын

I remember when he came out I felt so alone because I was the only gay person I knew at the time and he released the video and I cried constantly because it was like me, the story was different but the feelings weren't and I still cry every time I watch it because I'm reminded of that time I love it

@beesbrownies Жыл бұрын

I saw him live and let me tell you: to hear him say to a giant room full of people "I am unapologetically gay" casually as a segway hit me like a truck. How far he has come ❤️❤️

@emmyjulianne6850 Жыл бұрын

That was such a chaotic time bc half of my friends were like “I TOLD YOU SO!” And the other half were like “cmon!!! Don’t say that.” And it caused a bit of discourse…for some reason 😂

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

@@mars_is_cooler I hope you don't feel as lonely anymore and that you were able to find people as amazing as you to surround yourself ❤️

@fadfadet584 Жыл бұрын

"The idea of commiting to anything long enough for it to be on my body forever terrifies me, and that sounds like a therapy thing." NOT DAN CALLING ME OUT LIKE THAT

@ethnolushx_thishouseisacircus Жыл бұрын

really

@gentlefires Жыл бұрын

It's always wonderful to hear Dan talk. He's such an intelligent, articulate young man. And watching you both talk like old friends, bouncing off each other's sentences was so refreshing.

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

I hope Dan knows how many people he has helped throughout the years. Dan and his community has always been a safe space for LGBTQIA+ people even before he came out and I love it so much.

@junglejin3096 Жыл бұрын

For real it's crazy how Dan and Phil were known for having a gay audience before they even came out

@transmaniandevil Жыл бұрын

I wasn’t out IRL because I went to Christian schools but I could be out online so the phandom was my first safe space as a closeted queer trans kid 🥹 he’s done so much for us he doesn’t know

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

@@transmaniandevil I'm so happy to be a part of the phabdon and I'm glad you could find comfort on it, I was also a closeted queer person irl when I was a teen and having these people online to talk to made it bearable

@scaleonkhan183 Жыл бұрын

@@junglejin3096 right!! it's like we picked up on the vibes and stuck together

@abeerzeeshan9136 Жыл бұрын

I don’t mean to be homophobic but when was the I and A added to the lgbtq and what do they represent

@mldag1678 Жыл бұрын

Loved when Dan acknowledged that they were NOT qualified for that conversation lmao - more people should be like that honestly

@ececansuertugrul8325 Жыл бұрын

He has always been more aware than the average human. People like him should teach classes maybe the next generation wouldnt have so many mental problems.

@metaslaveforever 11 ай бұрын

@@ececansuertugrul8325 bad take

@lily5458 11 ай бұрын

@@metaslaveforever why

@awhellyeah12 7 ай бұрын

@@ececansuertugrul8325it’s way more complicated than that

@breezieb3297 4 ай бұрын

@@lily5458 Most mental illnesses are either completely random or genetic. Teaching children well will have very little effect on how many of them grow up to be mentally ill.

@AlbertSquareAfterDark 2 ай бұрын

I’m not a huge watcher of “KZfaqrs” but I have SUCH respect for Dan Howell. He has such incredible emotional intelligence, has taken the darkest moments of his life and used them to help people and then has the actual audacity to be one of the wittiest and most beautiful man on earth, inside and out. He might not feel it sometimes but he really has his head screwed on the right way. I hope he finds contentment one day. He truly deserves it.

@biancaportillo6552 Жыл бұрын

i was 14 years old when i first saw a dan and phil video and i just turned 25 this week 😭 their audience has 100% aged upped and evolved with him. still love them even if i haven’t seen much of their content in the past 5ish years. im just happy they’re doing well.

@lindsaytoles2023 Жыл бұрын

As someone who turns 40 next year and is just now embracing my gender identity, I need people like Dan as a role model. Thank you for being you out loud!

@G_FRE Жыл бұрын

You're valid or else 😤

@lindsaytoles2023 Жыл бұрын

@@G_FRE 😁

@_veronica_r Жыл бұрын

You're loved and appreciated and an incredible human or else 😤 lol

@laurengibson748 Жыл бұрын

A suggestion I would give is don't put too much of your identity in your gender. Because gender puts you in a box of "you have to look and act a certain way". Your character, morals, and actions are what really matters. Good luck on your journey in deciding how you want to live your life ✨️

@G_FRE Жыл бұрын

@@_veronica_r You too mf 💪😤😤

@zachnoodles804 Жыл бұрын

I love how Anthony and Dan are so similairly dressed and look so similair but have completly different personalities it works so well and makes the best video

@ross9944 Жыл бұрын

edgy humor British gamer version and edgy fashion American whatever anthony is version

@dianamaqque9935 Жыл бұрын

Unexpected but so needed. I could listen to Dan talk for hours. Literally when I need to calm down I just have one of his story times type vids on. I found him and Phil by coincidence and what a journey it has been. I just want to say. Dan I hope you’re happy and healthy and thank you so much for contributing to my health and happiness.

@rashi4553 11 ай бұрын

Dan's truly a gem. The way he understands and presents is his superpower. He's so eloquent and smart and honest about everything, I love him for this

@elizabethheyn5365 Жыл бұрын

Me realising it’s been 10 years and I still relate to Dan Howell. Looks like it really wasnt a phase, mom.

@doraveronika Жыл бұрын

It's like re-uniting with an old friend. Everything about him feels so familiar. I lived and breathed his videos when I was younger.

@elizabethheyn5365 Жыл бұрын

@@doraveronika I did, too. My friend really got me into Dan and Phil. The first from scratch brownies I ever made was their graveyard brownies.

@doraveronika Жыл бұрын

@@elizabethheyn5365 oh my god you just unlocked a memory! I made those brownies too, probably the first thing I ever baked.

@cloudofreverie786 Жыл бұрын

The phandom did very questionable things but we ended up just gay so it checks out lmao

@stylinjournals Жыл бұрын

I grew up with Dan (and Phil) and I just turned 22 last week. I remember being a teenager learning to speak english and SCREAMING on twitter at them to bring the tour to Brazil. The day Dan posted BIG video I cried for half a hour to the point my mom wanted to take me to the hospital. That was also the day I came out to her. I don't think I'll ever be able to tell Dan how fucking grateful I'm for him giving me such an amazing and fun teen years and such an understanding and deep begining of adulthood. Can't wait to see my future but I'm sure Dan will be there. I love you SO FUCKING MUCH DANIELLLL, WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!!! 🖤

@annasaddiction5129 Жыл бұрын

@harmony200013 Жыл бұрын

happy late birthday and i'm so proud of you for coming out, that shit's hard! dan may have given you some courage to do so but in the end you were the one who came through for yourself & that's so important!! i wish you all the best for your future but i have a feeling it's a bright one :) 💛

@UnBesoDeCristal Жыл бұрын

I also feel like watching them in my teens and interacting as a fan helped me become fluent in English AND I'm turning 22 this month... very funny coincidence!! and happy bday!

@stylinjournals Жыл бұрын

@@harmony200013 this so so so kind of you! thank you so much, i wish you the best

@stylinjournals Жыл бұрын

@@UnBesoDeCristal omg thats amazing, happy early birthday

@small_and_dangerous2068 4 ай бұрын

This interview still gives me chills. Dan is such an articulate speaker and Anthony is great with his questions, his ability to sincerely listen, and his clear friendship with Dan being something he uses to make Dan feel comfortable. I appreciate the very introspective Dan of today because he reminds me of the growth that I realized I went on in the past with him without even knowing he was growing too. He was an adult making content that I found relatable and comforting during a period where I was a scared teenager. I was such an anxious and scared person, but Dan (and Phil) provided a world of content that made me feel understood and safe. They made me want to try writing again and they’re the reason I fell in love with it after a long period of depression and are quite honestly the reason why I think I’ve found my passion in life. BUT- to know Dan was growing and struggling behind the scenes. To know that while he was honest about so much, there was also so much hidden. The fact that despite a lot of struggling and difficult moments he still made content that has made millions of people happy and changed so many lives? I can’t thank him enough. And as an adult I want to meet and hug Dan and Phil not in my teenage fangirl way (I mean there’d be a bit of that that would likely resurface lol) but in a genuine, sincere, honest to god grip of a strong hug. Because they provided a safe space for me to grow and feel safe and overcome a lot of my mental health obstacles. And I suppose that’s a thing that’s still on my bucket list but for almost a different and more meaningful reason: hug Dan as hard as I can (which might be difficult, I’m a 5’4” 130 pound woman and he’s taller than my father by many inches lol) and tell him “Thank you for giving me that space to feel understood and to grow. Thank you for the content you made for me when I most needed it, even though you were struggling. I hope you take care of yourself and start making the things that feel the most fulfilling to you.”

@disney_doll Жыл бұрын

I grew up watching both Anthony & Dan. As an almost 30 year old, it’s so refreshing seeing them catch up on camera as great friends, but also giving strong advice. It’s so entertaining, even though they are having good conversation. Yea it’s like an interview but it’s more than that too. Great video, as usual! 🎉

@anthropomorphisis Жыл бұрын

This felt more like a conversation than any other interview ever in a good way.

@anthropomorphisis Жыл бұрын

I also loved Dan telling Anthony that it was okay he made the joke. :)

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

As someone who has been watching Dan for years I feel so bad about how people were so invasive and tried to out him so many times before he was ready.

@cai0409 Жыл бұрын

Same. I wouldn’t say I ever tried to out him, but I definitely contributed to the whole assuming thing and I deeply regretted it after his coming out video. In my defense, I was a young in-the-closet teen 😅

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

@@cai0409 I never tried to either and I ever remember thinking "there's no way he's coming out" when he tweeted about posting a new video that he always wanted to post in June lol

@romanfairy Жыл бұрын

He talked about renting a separate apartment to film in and it clicked for so many of the wierd phan theories. At the time it made sense, Dan and Phil were relatable wierdos on the internet, looking like they were still in thier room was what made sense for the "brand" but i think its staged appearance definitely feed the theories in wierd ways. Im so glad that both of them and the internet has a reached a point where they can be honest and say, this is a set, respect my private life, ect. Because they didnt have that that long ago

@AmbiCahira Жыл бұрын

I'm a millennial too and I feel so glad for the progress I've seen in LGBTQ+ acceptance and attitude since childhood. My guy friend since the past 21 years told me recently that I give off lesbian vibes and encouraged me to explore it in case it's an undiscovered part of myself and it felt surprisingly wholesome. I think the biggest reason that convo could happen is because we know eachother so well but also that it is so much less taboo now to be gay or talk about it. I'm open to the possibility of falling in love with a woman one day but so far that hasn't happened yet.

@StellaMarisma Жыл бұрын

Someone telling you you give off "lesbian vibes" and suggests you explore your sexuality because of it sounds very presumptuous. A "vibe" is not a sexuality, I don't know how many times someone has seemed gay to me only to end up being straight, so our perceptions of others' sexualities can be extremely inaccurate. Like why did your friend say "lesbian" vibes? Out of the long, long list of sexualities, why immediately assume you're a closeted lesbian? Besides, it's really not his or anyone's place to guess at your sexuality and then make suggestions to you based off their assumption. Have you ever actually been attracted to other women before? Had crushes on them growing up or been physically attracted to them? Have your crushes all exclusively been male? These are questions and conversations you're meant to have with yourself, not with a friend who may just be projecting his queerness onto you, which I've noticed is an unfortunate tendency of a lot of LGBT+ members (I'm LGBT+ myself btw so I've witnessed this behavior firsthand.)

@PARADOXsquared Жыл бұрын

@@StellaMarisma Relax, there's a huge difference between telling this to a stranger and telling this to someone that has been a friend for *21 years*. She said the conversation is wholesome so let's trust that she knows more about her life than us internet strangers could possibly know.

@sarahhardin7768 Жыл бұрын

Honestly hearing Dan talk about mental health in the way he is, is just so refreshing. It’s super awesome to see how far they both have grown- and like they said the internet (while still toxic) has too.

@alyssam8550 Жыл бұрын

Dan and Phil straight up got me through being a teenager. I had horrible mental health issues, and they were my escape. I had a tumblr dedicated to them for years lmao. At interactive introverts I got the chance to meet them, and by that point my mental health was much better (and I was an adult) and I still broke down crying because what they had done for me as a teenager meant so much. I wanted to tell them, but all I got out was a shaky "thank you, for everything" and I'm not even a crier lol I saw we're all doomed in Phoenix. The quote he ended it on jabbed a knife through my heart, in a good way lmao!

@octopus3240 Жыл бұрын

… im the 69th person who liked ur comment

@amylouise6646 Жыл бұрын

What was the end quote?

@alyssam8550 Жыл бұрын

@@amylouise6646 embrace the void and have the courage to exist. It was a throwback to a quote he said once a long time ago, and it meant something to me back then. But I feel like it really took on a new meaning now.

@JasminMiettunen Жыл бұрын

I didn’t really grow up with the whole thing, I just had a bit of a phase in the later years after the whole phandom culture, maybe 2018-ish, where I watched the gaming channel and then some of their other videos together. I feel like I missed out on some craziness, and I was definitely the kind of mentally ill kid who would’ve gotten into it lmao. I'm thinking of going to the we're all doomed show because it’s going through here and the tickets are a reasonable price 😅

@alyssam8550 Жыл бұрын

@@JasminMiettunen I really enjoyed it! And I think anyone who is on this corner of the internet probably would.

@cz2854 Жыл бұрын

I really love how Dan and Anthony have become closer as friends post Dan's coming out. I felt so sorry that Dan felt he needed to hold himself back with Anthony for so long, and it's wonderful to see Anthony show him every time they hang out that he enjoys the real Dan's company.

@em-qr2qq 10 ай бұрын

Dan helped me realized that ignoring that I had depression wasn’t okay. That it’s okay to be depressed

@lc4life369 Жыл бұрын

The way this guy describes the way it felt for him when other people say "thats gay" as an insult is exactly how sooooo many woman feel when they hear someone being called a "c*nt" or a "p*ssy" or all the other insults like that. It gets to you even when its not an insult meant to you. especially when your a kid hearing boys talk to eachother that way.

@bronzeowl9 10 ай бұрын

what do you even do about this? how do you even live a good life when it kinda seems like everyone low-key believes you're inferior for being gay or being a woman?

@maddyc2412 10 ай бұрын

@@bronzeowl9you don't believe and don't live your life like you do. Gay guys and all women combined way outnumbers all douchey straight guys on the planet

@hotdogs2549 10 ай бұрын

@@bronzeowl9I call it out, and then tell them to replace it with their own characteristics. Eg “That’s straight” or “you’re being a ballsack”. And they HATE it. It opens the conversation up to WHY those replacements don’t “hit” as hard.

@TunaFish556 10 ай бұрын

@@bronzeowl9 for example, when someone tells me the shirt im wearing is gay, i just reply with ‘’could be gayer’’. It really confuses them and makes them question why ‘gay’ is even considered as an insult.

@johnfranks9451 8 ай бұрын

but men also call eachother "dick" or "dickhead" in a negative way, or say "bollocks" when something goes wrong also....im not saying pussy is the classiest insult but youre stretching a bit to compare that to using "gay" as a slur.

@Somethingcorporate99 Жыл бұрын

I remember back in 2013/2014 being 17/18 at college, Dan & Phil's radio one show was my favourite thing to watch on a Sunday. I would go to the laundry room with my laptop and sit and watch them while I waited for my clothes to wash and dry. Having them be part of my routine helped keep me going when I was in one of my worst places mentally as the routine and the feeling of not being alone meant so much to me then. I'm 27 now and having Dan come back in the last few months to semi regular posting has been great

@luciabee Жыл бұрын

i relate so much to that experience!! how beautiful that we've all made it this far together

@scaleonkhan183 Жыл бұрын

One of my tweets ended up on the radio show and I remember being so happy. Still have my screenshot of the last moments of the final radio show too.

@soccerjl8 Жыл бұрын

Ahh I remember tuning in for their radio show too! I still remember the songs ppl would create fanmade videos for and send in! Dan and Phil's videos - as well as those of a bunch of other youtubers circa 2012-2014 - likely helped me way more than I realized at the time, bc looking back, I definitely had anxiety but didn't know that it was a thing others experienced or how to talk about it. Seeing Dan talk about relatable feelings made me feel less alone and distracted me from my own overthinking/thought spirals. And now watching this, I totally agree with Dan that the jokes about depression/mental health helped put some of the mental health terms on the table for me to eventually finally seek therapy in more recent years :) so big, big thanks to Dan for being one of the sources of joy in my life in those vulnerable preteen to teenager years and inadvertently teaching me things about life :')

@Celestialfae99 Жыл бұрын

Yesss I was 14-15 then and I watched their radio show a lot. I was sad when it ended lol

@jef3406 Жыл бұрын

@peachbunnys01 Жыл бұрын

Dans grandma liking gay people after having a favorite gay waiter is to funny

@beckahayes Жыл бұрын

I really appreciate this episode. Not only because I love Dan, but also because Anthony seemed so relaxed and comfortable. I liked how he delivered the jokes to Dan, knowing that he wasn't being offensive, as well as how he stated the ads. It didn't seem gimmicky or over the top. Thank you for posting Anthony. Sidenote: This episode made me feel so seen. Love you Dan.

@nimzipow Жыл бұрын

So happy to see Dan on this show! My two faves on one screen. Over a decade of watching Dan - for getting me through my teenage years. Every time I go to the cinema I think of “What Not To Do In The Cinema” 😂 so glad you felt comfortable enough to share your true self with the internet, you’re the bomb, Dan.

@reyrats Жыл бұрын

You can just tell that Dan thinks thinks thinks non stop. I relate to him so much. Always have, and it’s still inspiring and deeply helpful to see him continue to fight the fight that is staying hopeful in this messy world

@callmek5 Жыл бұрын

yes! 💜

@m.d._doe Жыл бұрын

You really should do 'I spent a day with Ian Hecox' That would literally break the internet and it would be nice to see you guys again

@CatrionaThePoet Жыл бұрын

Definitely!

@shreyam7391 7 ай бұрын

you called it!!!!

@m.d._doe 7 ай бұрын

@@shreyam7391 Ik, I'm a bloody time traveller

@abigaillennon3564 Жыл бұрын

Dan and Phil were a massively impactful part of my teenage years and now in my twenties I'm just happy that they seem to have created a happy and fulfilling life for themselves, even if it is a slight step back from the public eye. Also seeing Anthony and Dan interacting is taking me back to the 2010s.

@Lexy._. 5 ай бұрын

Dan saying that the tour was him trying to save his own life made me choke up, I’m glad he’s still here and even though none of us really know him personally I hope he knows that he is loved and is important to so many people

@JuMixBoox Жыл бұрын

The fact that Dan feels his ability to come out was positively affected by his KZfaq journey and not the other way around is very interesting to me. I always sort of assumed he went back into the closet when he became a public figure.

@kiwi-se4ld Жыл бұрын

As crazy as some of the fans were, Dan and Phil and the phandom truly impacted me in a good way. I was a weird, gay, mentally ill teen who had no friends and I felt so accepted and safe in the community. Dan has made such an incredible impact on so many of us and I hope he knows.

@CasperWasHere118 Жыл бұрын

I'm only 3 minutes in and I love the friendship yall have where you can troll one another and just respond with STFU completely seriously while complementing each other in the same breath. I'm here for it

@wolffisu Жыл бұрын

I completely understand if this never happens, but I would really love to see Anthony and Ian do this. And to talk about the two different perspectives of their careers and friendship. I know that'll be very personal and maybe they can't for legality reasond or agreed to only be friends off-screen, I hope to see it one day.

@WolfTitan99 11 ай бұрын

Well you got your wish :)

@bubblegore Жыл бұрын

i don't think Dan realizes HOW MANY people he helped and encouraged with his videos because his audience when he had the "most views" used to be 16-20 and that is such a fragile age to figure out who your are and can be influenced easily.. and he used his platform to actually talk about serious shit but in a funny way and im 100% sure that ANYONE who watched his videos, even if they don't realize it, they were changed by him and not just the LGBTQ+ community literally everyone.. he just knew how to connect to people

@indiegogurt Жыл бұрын

“I do not associate with that sperm” honestly the energy I’m channeling in my life

@tallyfitzpatrick1889 Жыл бұрын

Honestly, Dan's saved me more than I'd like to admit, just getting to laugh and connect with him via the videos has been a little light throughout my teens and now in my twenties

@catalinavidal6371 Жыл бұрын

I found Dan when I was 13 (10 years ago). I was an outcast kid and he made me realize that I was fine the way I was. He was my support during the hard years of adolescence. I learned English watching his videos and now I’m an English teacher. He’ll always have a special place in my heart and I’m super happy to see him doing so well and living his life the way he deserves ❤

@leyalaatasto9096 Жыл бұрын

I left the Phandom so many years ago because I got tired of people pressuring DnP to come out in every single fucking video. Felt really vindicated when Dan finally came out of his own accord. I'm insanely happy he's doing so well these days :)

@idontneedaname318 Жыл бұрын

Anthony interviewing friends is always such a chaotic and fun interview

@MsSchneewante 2 ай бұрын

The way he pulled the ring joke with a straight face HOW?!

@kittiecandy747 6 ай бұрын

it makes me sad knowing there are people that won't grow up with dan and phil

@RebeccaRigby Жыл бұрын

No joke, Dan and Phil truly made my teenage-hood so much more happy. They were a complete escape from everything and I was always left laughing my ass off. Whilst I don’t watch them as religiously anymore as I did back then, I still come back to them for nostalgia and to just have a good laugh 🥰😂

@TheCockGobbler Жыл бұрын

I grew up watching Dan! As a queer person who has struggled with their mental health for 10+ years now, I can’t thank Dan enough for creating a space that allowed me to me to feel like I wasn’t alone when I was growing up. I am currently in graduate school studying to be a therapist because I want to help other queer people like us find peace with themselves. Thank you Dan for all of your work with queer youth and for creating a space for all of us on KZfaq where we can exist freely. ❤

@paigeee157 Жыл бұрын

I want both Dan and Anthony to know that they had a really positive impact on my teenage years, just making me smile whenever they created something

@meimei Жыл бұрын

those two were such a part of my childhood, dealing with undiagnosed autism, dealing with bullying, developing deep depression lasting a decade (only in nov 21 i came out of it first time), PTSD, and now chronically ill, i've kinda grown with the two of them and still relating to them (you still remind me of each other) depression/anxiety gang join force!

@ThereforeIAmNot Жыл бұрын

Listening to Dan talk is like getting secondhand therapy Between the show and You Will Get Through This Night, I've experienced such a shift in my mental health. For the first time in my life, I feel like I actually have the tools to make positive, lasting changes on the dumpster fire that is my life. All this from the guy I started watching 12 years ago for his relatable, "lol random" humour. What a journey

@Melissa-zr6zw Жыл бұрын

Man, that last part really just drove home for me how unexpected yet incredible Dan’s journey and impact both are. He can genuinely say that he’s helped hundreds of thousands (if not millions!) of people transform their lives. :’)

@ThereforeIAmNot Жыл бұрын

@@Melissa-zr6zw Right?? I'm still just starting on the journey up, but it was really the book, the show, and in a way the 10+ years of following this guy's life that triggered this serious positive change in my life. It's maybe too much to get into right now, but I will say that when Dan said parasocial relationships aren't always bad, he was so right x) I just really want him to know how much positive change he's inspired. Being a big internet personality sounds like it comes with so much negative attention, but he deserves to know how much he is loved and appreciated. Maybe one day he'll do another tour and I can finally go to a M&G and thank him 😭

@akirma2016 Жыл бұрын

I feel like Dan was so comfortable with Anthony as an interviewer/conversation partner! It makes me very happy to see him like this. Somehow the thing I took away from this video is optimism and a will to improve my life, which are precious things. Thanks to both of you, not just for this video, but for all you've done on KZfaq despite it being the hellsite it is

@kristinamichelle4281 Жыл бұрын

knowing that Dan wrote We're All Doomed to save his life makes the show so much more meaningful than it already was. my granny and i saw him back in november, and we were both sobbing by the end. i was in a really rough place at the time, struggling with college and just life in general, and the show made me come to the realization that all the little things in life are worth it. thank you, anthony for such an amazing interview/hang-out with a friend :')

@royce6485 Жыл бұрын

Both of these guys are old school youtube legends, it's awesome to see Dan feeling comfortable talking about this

@russergee49 Жыл бұрын

They have such good energy together, and it’s evident by the way they talk to each other that they are really good friends. There’s no filter and such ease in the conversation between them.

@Kai81194 Жыл бұрын

I love how you two are somehow so respectful and patronising towards each other at the same time 😂

@marielaorozco7219 Жыл бұрын

I didn’t realize how much I look up to Dan until recently. The way he holds himself and how well he can articulate how he feels is so amazing, I hope I can get there one day. Thank you for this video Anthony

@avalena444 Жыл бұрын

so so so so proud of dan and anthony. to see someone's progression online... amazing

@Outsider1095 Жыл бұрын

Why does this feel like a rly intimate convo between close friends their platonic chemistry is so sweet I’m so proud of both their growth.

@Gretchasketches Жыл бұрын

Having followed Dan for too many years it’s been really nice to see not just him but this community all grow together. Seeing how content has evolved overtime and slowly coming to a place where there is less focus on Dan but just the world in general and how we feel as an audience as individuals has been really refreshing. Dan has really mastered making you feel so much without saying too much about himself and I think you can really see that shine in his tour right now. If there is anyone to learn the complexities of the internet from I think Dan is a great and gentle supportive example

@eliasdoesthings Жыл бұрын

agh,, this made me feel a lot. when i started watching dan’s videos, i was a teen in a really rough spot. even seeing someone talk about mental health in a joking way on the internet made my own mental health seem so much more manageable. now that i’m older, seeing a more mature “i’m actually gonna deal with this” perspective from him also hits home for where i am in my mental health journey and it just means so much to see him growing as well

@lisa_vxng 2 ай бұрын

so when are we getting nun dan and maid anthony collab

@JuMixBoox Жыл бұрын

It's so true that being closeted hinders all relationships you have and so many other aspects of yourself. You don't even realise how bad it is to always have to second guess any topic you discuss with people, even if it completely unrelated and especially if you are being vulnerable about one thing. I still wish for the day when that weight falls off of my shoulders.

@seinfields Жыл бұрын

Best of luck, your day will come ❤

@wanderingwind6602 Жыл бұрын

Disclaimer, do not come out if it's not safe, but just know it's amazing. It's honestly like nothing else. To be free to truly and wholly be yourself is incredible. Even if there are people who take issue with you or ridicule you, you can go through life making deeper and less fearful connections. After coming out to the people closest to me, I realized I stopped approaching new people holding back a part of myself and wondering, " should I come out to them?" I just approached them as myself and let them see me without pretense and it was so awesome. I wasn't worried about someone accidentally saying something to someone I wasn''t out to, or about rumors reaching the wrong person. I just was.

@vinmcconville5668 Жыл бұрын

Man coming out makes such a difference in having friendships, im so proud of him for being able to do it bc it’s so hard

@UnBesoDeCristal 4 ай бұрын

I remember watching his livestreams every Thursday for about a year as a 15 year old, not only did listening to him and engaging with their audience help me become much more fluent in english and expand my vocabulary, but he was a lovely and fun distraction while I was going through a very tough time, just what he describes Smosh doing for him back in the day, I think Dan is such a lovely and articulate guy and its always a delight to hear him speak. ❤

@everybody_stay_calm8149 Жыл бұрын

This interview made me so nostalgic...literally grew up watching Dan and Phil and going through so many of the same struggles with my identity without even realizing it

@Jp_-dd1rl Жыл бұрын

This might be my favorite “I spent a day with” yet; Dan is just such a natural entertainer, and you can tell these two are actually good friends. Their chemistry is unmatched. Thanks for this Anthony

@blacknoisyblue Жыл бұрын

I'm so happy Dan is a better place overall, he's always made me smile!

@freya7084 Жыл бұрын

This was like watching two genuine friends remembering the good ol’ times. Loved it

@bluedabadeee Жыл бұрын

i think its so interesting to see two youtubers who’ve been there since the beginnings coming into their own beings. I used to watch dan and phil a lot back in 2017, and to see how things have changed since then is kind of heartwarming

@kookiesbabybird Жыл бұрын

the older I get the more I begin to accept how much of an influence Dan had and still has on my personality. I'm totally here for this interview

@sophianesbitt621 Жыл бұрын

I’ve watched Dan since I was like 13, I always knew I was ‘different’ but I always felt safe in his community. I embraced myself because of him… Last year I married my wife. I hope Dan knows how much he’s helped other people as much as this community helped him

@joshy_bish Жыл бұрын

That's sweet, congrats 😊

@maebee134 Жыл бұрын

I love the way this video feels, it’s a conversation more than an interview. Both Anthony and Dan have helped me cope with some tough times in my life and I’m so happy to see them both thriving.

@lunetunes8957 11 ай бұрын

their friendship is wonderful they way they are comfortable and joking with eachother right away shows their connection, lovely given that they are old friends

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

I love when Dan and Anthony collab!! Such a powerful duo

@Silencer796 Жыл бұрын

Bot.

@MirianRodrigues483 Жыл бұрын

@@Silencer796 what???

@genericname8727 Жыл бұрын

@@MirianRodrigues483 maybe they’re a bot that just calls real people bots? Idk lol

@reesesramsay8719 Жыл бұрын

@@Silencer796 you are?

@dumpster_dory Жыл бұрын

Bro i can't believe this guy is still around considering most youtubers of that era pretty much died out, props to him, also still funny and relatable and of moderate amounts of cringe which is good actually. Also Anthony it would be so epic of you to invite Jerma985 thank u

@cybe3rr277 Жыл бұрын

если бы джерма был настоящим....

@dumpster_dory Жыл бұрын

@@cybe3rr277 надеюсь Энтони хватит денег чтобы как обычно с помощью CGI этот психопат смог появиться на интервью 😔🙏

@cybe3rr277 Жыл бұрын

@@dumpster_dory 😭😭😭

@deligarga6195 Жыл бұрын

I started watching Dan's videos in grade 7, and at the time I was dealing with panic attacks and anxiety and me and my family didnt even know what Anxiety was, let alone what to do about it. and in high school I became really depressed and was too scared to tell anyone because I thought they would tell me i was lazy, but Dans videos, especially the ones where he joked about depression and anxiety, made me feel better because at least it wasnt just me. I wasnt going crazy, there were other people experiencing these same things, and i wasnt irreparably broken. Eventually, after i graduated high school, I ended up telling my parents ab all of my mental health issues and now 4 yrs later am doing so much better and have been in therapy for almost 2 yrs, but Dans videos were so great for me as a teenager, because they were a place where i was no more "broken" than anyone else commenting ab their mental health issues.

@lexiedevore4104 Жыл бұрын

As someone who has been watching both Dan and Anthony since the early oughts of their channels, this video is so comforting. Im so happy that both of them are in a much better place these days, and their friendship is so wholesome especially now since Dan can truly be himself. Here’s to hopefully many more happy days ahead for them and their videos!

@snowisexhausted3029 Жыл бұрын

Dan is such a chaotic guest which is hilarious and Anthony just makes it 10x better with his chill personality 😂

@sarty Жыл бұрын

I appreciate what Anthony did not ask just as much as I appreciate what he did ask. Dan was so forthcoming in this interview, and Anthony did not take advantage of him at all. I admire Dan and Anthony so much and look up to them.

@miriamhalpern3026 Жыл бұрын

“I heard your mental health is attached directly to how much you’re concealing a part of you.” I feel like the only thing I’m concealing is how depressed and traumatized I am lol 🥴

@lawsome2068 Жыл бұрын

Well Concealing or suppressing trauma takes a great toll on mental health.

@miriamhalpern3026 Жыл бұрын

@@lawsome2068 so now the question is which came first. This is a chicken or the egg situation lol

@xSwordLilyx Жыл бұрын

That used to be most of me and I still concealed it 😭 I feel much better now

@CozyRi Жыл бұрын

the “where did dan go? uh oh he gay” era was the best i missed dan so much and then THE COMING OUT VIDEO ugh it made me so happy!!! a) because i love dan and him being himself is the best thing that can happen in this world AND b) my queer little self felt so so so represented and it helped me come to terms with some things i was going through myself. love this video

@goudvisjuhblub1274 Жыл бұрын

Idk how to explain this, but this video feels like a form of therapy

@KaoruSan241 Жыл бұрын

Dan’s laugh makes me so happy, I can’t help but laugh along! You both brought me so much joy as a teenager and still help keep me going as an adult, thank you both so much and I wish you nothing but happiness ❤