I wrote some bars: I've seen a lot of shit, but nothing compares that with what I'm going through now. I have to live without my mother, it's been a year ago but it feels like it was yesterday that she died. T was the 2nd Christmas day that had last spoken, never to know that the last hours had started so fast. Never knew that that shit could go so fast, because if I knew I Swear to God I would have done things differently. I had made it proud. More often said that I loved van der. The more often assisted and held until she breathed the last breath. Cancer has won but you have overcome this world. Never met anyone who was so real about their own words, wanted to live for your children, you are the reason that I have become so strong now. You are the reason that I have finally opened my eyes, life is too short to remain sitting and hoping makes something of your life that will make you happy. Pray to God every night I can promise you that he will answer. So until we meet May again I will keep dreaming about you.

Verse 1: I used to believe in fairy tales, Dreamt of love that never fails. But reality hit me hard, Love’s not a game, it leaves scars. I thought I had found the one, But love's flame burned out and then was gone. My heart, now cold, has been betrayed, Love's game was lost, love's price was paid. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Verse 2: I've been through heartache after heartache, Love's been the source of all my mistakes. I thought love was meant to be, But it seems it's not for me. I tried to fight for what was right, But love's flame dimmed and lost its light. The pain it brings is just too much, I can't keep holding onto love. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Bridge: Maybe one day I’ll find the one, Who’ll make me believe in love again. But for now I’ll just take my time, Live my life, no love to find. I’ve been hurt, but I’ll be okay, I’ll keep searching for a brighter day. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Verse 3: I've learned that love's not always fair, And sometimes it's just too much to bear. It's not easy to let go of what you thought was right, But sometimes you have to give up the fight. I thought love was the answer, But it just left me with a bitter taste of cancer. I know I'll find my way, Even if it means doing it alone every day. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Outro: Love's not worth the pain, I've grown, That's why I gave up on love. But I'll keep searching for the one, Who'll make me believe in love again.

Verse 1: There was a time I believed in love, Felt the joy and the happiness thereof. My heart beat fast at the thought of you, Thought my love was pure and true. We danced to the beat of our hearts, Thought we’d never be apart. But one day, you walked away, Left me alone to face the pain. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Verse 2: I thought I’d never love again, The wounds on my heart never mending. But then I met someone new, Thought he’d be different, thought it was true. We laughed and loved, and it felt so right, But soon enough, it turned to a fight. We struggled to hold on, but love was gone, I was left alone, once again undone. Chorus: That’s why I gave up on love, Can’t take the heartbreaks anymore. I’ll just live my life on my own, Love’s not worth the pain, I’ve grown. Verse 3: But then I met her, and everything changed, My heart opened up, and my mind was rearranged. She brought light to my darkness, And my heart was filled with kindness. We talked and laughed, and it felt so real, The kind of love that’s hard to conceal. We fell in love, and it was magical, The kind of love that’s unforgettable. Chorus: That’s why I won’t give up on love, I’ll take the heartbreaks and keep moving forward. I’ll find love that’s worth the pain, I’ll keep growing, and I won’t be the same. Verse 4: We had our ups and downs, like any love story, But we worked through them, and we found our glory. We learned to communicate and compromise, And in each other’s arms, we found our paradise. She became my best friend and my soulmate, Together we conquered any obstacle that we’d face. We built a life filled with love and passion, Our hearts beating in perfect unison. Chorus: That’s why I’ll never give up on love, I’ll take the heartbreaks and keep moving forward. I found love that’s worth the pain, I’ve grown, and I’ll never be the same. Verse 5: Now we’re old and gray, but our love still burns, Through thick and thin, our hearts still yearn. We’ve been through it all, but our love still stands, The kind of love that’s written in the sands. Our love is like a fine wine, It gets better with age, and it’s one of a kind. We’ve created a legacy of love, That will live on long after we’re gone. Chorus: That’s why I’ll never give up on love, I’ll take the heartbreaks and keep moving forward. I found love that’s worth the pain, I’ve grown, and I’ll never be the same. Outro: Love is a journey, not just a destination, It’s about learning, growing, and finding salvation. I’m grateful for the love I’ve found, For the heartbreaks that made me grow profound. Love is worth the pain, the ups and downs, For the love that’s found is the love that abounds.

This really great! There at minor differences but overall it hits the same.

this got me thinking about my ex how much i miss my ex

Eram 4 da manha e eu tava no meu quarto Nao me lembro do que pensava mas eu tava farto Da vida que eu levava, a vida nao mudava, eu gostava de ser diferente mas eu era igual, Ao pessoal que acabava sempre sem saída Tinha vicio que podia acabar com a minha vida Nao acabou com ela mas ele trouxe-me uma frida E a vida é tao bela pa ser tao pouco vivida Nao me arrependo das escolhas erradas que fiz, elas ja ficaram passadas Mas arrependo-me das coisas certas que fiz pelas pessoas erradas.

I wanna jump on this beat...😭😭

Reminds me of my ex 22 years we was together it me hard still does now😢

Like I met my girl when I was 18 years old And she was just turning 23 I really love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, made 6 or 7 racks A couple days later on twitter I saw This photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm checking out who did it When I stumbled on this girl And I could tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't finished I typed her twitter name into my Insta So I could check on every single little digit Why didn't I just message her? Trust me I was thinking But I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my image The truth So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so excited That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, rambling like a fool, excited Look Look And we were talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my messages then re-writing In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day, Them phone calls in the night it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I liked it and She's into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the perfect balance There's nothing better than a girl with talent Drive, ambition all of them things above She's showing an abundance I ain't even met her yet She works around the corner but lives just outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys If that even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some staircase So much for a first date I just had a show And I asked if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things could go No problem she down to roll Travel in the cold So I went across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering correctly It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are obsessed with I was on her from the jump I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw Skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I think that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds trying to give the girl a hug And all my friends were drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me moaning like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I remember Cuz we had a conversation for ages about our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are true And as months went by we both got into it, and intimate And I'mma spare you the details cuz Both of our parents are probably listening But really we were into it Into us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers And I love her cuz she knows me And that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting ready for the world And you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I want it And I'm just being honest Yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have Been absurd but out of every single girl This is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I need it And I don't think she sees it so I'm being ever sweeter When we're speaking and we're meeting I've got affectionate messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful until she sees it Believes it, understands it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm feeling I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had running The places that we've been The music we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my shcedule's a mess Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in need While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible, One message or text and girls will get in your bed She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure We all got a work to survive So now she's popping up at shows Taking pictures on her own And at first it wasn't cool But fuck it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in some studio Taking pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies He ain't looking for no pictures I know it's your profession But read their intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And crushing 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you Cause I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind? When I think about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women From achieving what they can because In secret they've been feelig insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew I really coulda do a lot of things to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs I acted like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself? And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her backstage? What if he selling lots? What if he's got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you What if he actually replies? What if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do? What if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been? What he's trying to give her everything she needs And expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her follow her dream But instead I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so you'll never know That hurts just as much when you let them go

i had dreams when i was younger of a perfect life, perfect job 2 kids and a perfect wife, but reality hit hard in my not so perfect mind, i’m seeing people around me slowly die, i’ve got to ask myself “am i next in line” if i chose this path it was a big misunderstanding, i lost mum at 16 she won’t ever meet her grandkids, she left no note behind so i won’t ever understand it, i might happy today i can’t promise for tomorrow, my mood flips are like 016 water bottles, i have no trust for people i see everyone as hollow, do you follow? are you getting where i’m coming from, and i could of done a lot so i’m very fucking sorry mum, guilt fills my body it’s something i am running from, i could talk for hours about the memories i have, the smiles and the laughs about the shit that we would chat, you was my mum and my best friend, and now that you’re gone it feels like i’ve hit a dead end, and i’ve got to ask myself was i being stupid? was i missing the signs? reading the page but not inbetween the lines? or did you bury your head when you cried, when you said that was you okay was it a lie? was it something i could of stopped or a matter of time? there’s so many questions i won’t ever have the answer to, i hope we meet in another life and call it chapter 2,

had shit to say but know one was there so I took time alone ever since a kid i felt lost and trapped in my thoughts gotta make it out the storm gotta figures out my place express my pain and talk dem man cappin when dey rappin me i spit shit raw need still awake its kinna late it's suin in morning feelin numb with little love I guess my heart just frozen summer times dont feel rigjt my conicous hella cold yh only comparison to me n u is my pages n u both folded take me in listen are you listening if u see me with a bussdown my mumzy is gilstening love is kl you feel tha spark until there wish u was alive i guess it isn't what it isn't is it is what it is rip im outta focus i rlly gottablow quick struggling meals indomi yu dk you me h the one only do not disturb plz don't.phone me it's cold world so id rather do up lonley real talk big up all tha homies cuh dey wer there when i aint noticed had to go thru the Storm to start growing but what you dont know is that im still stuck its like im good but same time im not same time i rlly miss my pops it's these mixed emotions that rlly got me fucked memories tryna fade away fade away never had a coat in dem rainy days smiling laughing chatting but i still feel outta place been over a decade and this pain ain't gone away u won't catch me on tha strip but u can catch me @ pain lane wish i could be segregated from.the fakes you migjt think that im chill in reality i feel a way aint got much to say head high praying for better days

Could you be able to do “my 19th birthday” instrumental

Kleine dingen die betekenen veel. Lente ochtend hoor de vogels ik ben eventjes stil. Sta stil bij de tijd, soms lijkt dit leven een film Ik schrijf me teksten, af en toe een beetje in beeld. Maar ik wil het niet, weer een dikke haze door me keel. Ik chillem hier, word niet naar beneden getild. Diep van binnen, ben een beetje gekilt. En ik heb het pas gemaakt, when i can pay for the bils. Tot die tijd blijven rennen voor me dromen die ik heb. Jij heb ogen op een shmetta, ik heb me ogen op een stack. Jij hebt ogen voor een bitch, ik heb me ogen op een benz. Jij gelooft in een relatie? Ik geloof in me gebed. Shittt Alles komt goed als je blijft hopen. Het word me weer teveel moet wat tijd doden. Oh je bent veranderd? Ik ben blij voor je. Alles is veranderd door verhalen die verdraaid worden.

Is this free for digital streaming platform use?

I got a story for my listeners It’s about my bro so let’s get into it I didn’t realise that 4 months later I’d be sitting writing songs about my bro so let’s get into this I’m not trynna get intimate so let’s keep it legitimate My bro was only 15 years of age when he got into shit I woke up next morning 7 calls from his mum She didn’t really know me but clearly she was feeling numb She had a clue what he was doing but she didn’t take a plunge Into his life of crime gangs drugs and violence, life of time, bangs and substance

Can we get the sheets?

Can I use this and give you credit ?

I need the beat, it’s not available anymore, and I got a 3:17 worth of lyrics to match it 😅

j’écris ces lignes à 3h16 du mat, je sais même pas pourquoi je fais ça, encore une fois j’ai du me séparer de quelqu’un mais cette fois je l’aimais donc ça fais bien plus mal, encore aujourd’hui je me détache, aux yeux des gens je préfère passer pour un connard que passer pour un lâche. Oui j’ai pas eu les couilles de continuer, j’ai eu trop peur j’ai pas réussi à les affronter, ils me terrifient mes démons me hantent et m’empêchent d’avancer. Je perçois la réalité que quand c’est trop tard, quand est-ce que je vais grandir en même temps que mon putin d’âge ? quand est-ce que je vais arrêter de faire souffrir ses dames ? Je l’aimais et je l’aime encore, mais le futur me faisait trop peur On ne peut avoir la crémière, le beurre et l’argent du beurre je me pissais dessus à l’idée qu’elle aurait pu s’éloigner me laissant seul sur la route avec comme message de la journée un simple « coucou » suivi d’un « bébé ». J’ai besoin de temps mais pas pour passer à autre chose mais juste pour l’oublier. C’est dans les plus belles choses que l’on y trouve un foyer. Maintenant je suis tout seul, sans domicile fixe. Ai-je fais le bon choix ? la question est difficile

× ALLNEWSVIDEOSIMAGESMAPSSHOPPINGBOOKSFLIGHTSSEARCH TOOLS How I Met My Ex Dave Like I met my girl when I was 18 years old And she was just turning 23 I really love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, made 6 or 7 racks A couple days later on twitter I saw this photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm checking out who did it When I stumbled on this girl And I could tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't finished I typed her twitter name into my Insta so I could check on every single little digit Why didn't I just message her? Trust me I was thinking, but I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my image The truth So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so excited That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, rambling like a fool, excited Look Look And we were talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my messages then re-writing In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day, them phone calls in the night, it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I liked it and She's into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the perfect balance There's nothing better than a girl with talent Drive, ambition, all of them things above She's showing an abundance I ain't even met her yet She works around the corner but lives just outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys If that even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some staircase So much for a first date I just had a show And I asked if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things could go No problem she down to roll Travelled in the cold So I went across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering correctly It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are obsessed with I was on her from the jump I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I think that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds tryna to give the girl a hug And all my friends are drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me moaning like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans, I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I remember 'Cause we had a conversation for ages about our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are true And as months went by we both got into it, and intimate And I'ma spare you the details 'cause both of our parents are probably listening But really we were into it Into us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers and I love her 'Cause she knows me and that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting ready for the world and you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I want it And I'm just being honest, yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have been absurd but out of every single girl This is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I need it And I don't think she sees it, so I'm being even sweeter when we're speaking and we're meeting I've got affectionate messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful 'til she sees it Believes it, understands it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm feeling I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had running The places that we've been The music we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my schedule's a mess Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in need While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible, one message or text and girls will get in your bed She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure We all gotta work to survive So now she's popping up at shows Taking pictures on her own And at first it wasn't cool But fuck it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in some studio Taking pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies They ain't looking for no picture I know it's your profession But read their intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And crushing 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you 'Cause I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind? When I think about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women from Achieving what they can because in secret they've been feeling insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew, I really coulda do a lot of things to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs I acted like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself? And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her backstage? What if he selling lots? What if he's got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you What if he actually replies? What if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do? What if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been? What if he's trying to give her everything she needs And expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her follow her dream But instead I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so they'll never know That it hurts just as much when you let them go

look , in my past i’ve had alot exes sophia mia emma and alexis we were so young and frigid the most wed do was texting so when i broke up with alexis i said to myself that’s the last relationships leave em in the past cuh everytime i get into one im hurting the girls heart cuh i dont want my heart broken i break her heart first i know its childish but i dont wanna be in the dirt cuh ive heard alot of niggas talk about heart break they say its the most painful feeling in the world to fall so deep in love and get your heart broken by your world thats why man say dtb married to money that’s my girl dont get me wrong boys can do the same or even worse thats why sometimes i feel like love is cursed boys can look u in the eyes and say they love you and they mean it next day you catch ‘em with some next girl out there cheating but back to the story i’m about to explain my last relationship was as good as beyonces and jays i was so keen shed leave it had me fucking feeling like raye she had me feeling so mature never dared to misbehave she was 5’5 n leng with an an amazing shape i asked her how old she was and she was my age perfect height, perfect age, n our vibes were the same the only girl i could talk to continuously for days yeah she had me felling like the worlds most happy man just seeing a smile on her face its one of them tings u have to go through to understand cuh if you don’t you won’t even know what saying eventually we started talking even more and more found out we have a lot in common even more than we thought i fell so deep in love the more we even talked so i asked her to be mine and she said yes i’ll be yours i cant explain how that felt most beautiful feeling in the world to fall so deep in love and find out you’re liked by you world man i really love this girl i love her so much i use money that im trynna save i love her so much cuh her vibes are sick theyre never lame i love her so much and i know that she feels the same i love her so much find it hard to even try explain im about to share a secret that nobody knows my whole childhood wasnt good i was so insecure so when i was with you i tried my best to love me more tried to overcome insecurities just to be secure you showed nothing but love i tried to show the same but i ain’t ever been loved so dodnt know what to say when you tell me you love me

looool

Like I met my girl when I was 18 years old And she was just turning 23 I really love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did six or seven tracks, made six or seven racks A couple days later on twitter I saw This photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm checking out who did it When I stumbled on this girl And I could tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't finished I typed her twitter name into my Insta' So I could check on every single little digit Why didn't I just message her? Trust me I was thinking But I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my image The truth So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so excited That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, rambling like a fool, excited Look Look And we were talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my messages then re-writing In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day Them phone calls in the night it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I liked it and She's into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the perfect balance There's nothing better than a girl with talent Drive, ambition all of them things above She's showing an abundance I ain't even met her yet She works around the corner but lives just outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys If that even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some staircase So much for a first date I just had a show And I asked if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things could go No problem she down to roll Travel in the cold So I went across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering correctly It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are obsessed with I was on her from the jump I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw Skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I think that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds trying to give the girl a hug And all my friends were drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me moaning like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I remember Cuz we had a conversation for ages about our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are true And as months went by we both got into it, and intimate And I'ma spare you the details cuz Both of our parents are probably listening But really we were into it Into us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers And I love her 'cause she knows me And that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting ready for the world And you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I want it And I'm just being honest Yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have Been absurd but out of every single girl This is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I need it And I don't think she sees it so I'm being ever sweeter When we're speaking and we're meeting I've got affectionate messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful until she sees it Believes it, understands it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm feeling I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had running The places that we've been The music we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my shcedule's a mess Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in need While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible One message or text and girls will get in your bed She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure We all got a work to survive So now she's popping up at shows Taking pictures on her own And at first it wasn't cool But fuck it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in some studio Taking pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies He ain't looking for no pictures I know it's your profession But read their intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And crushing 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you 'Cause I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind? When I think about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women From achieving what they can because In secret they've been feelig insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew I really coulda do a lot of things to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs I acted like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself? And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her backstage? What if he selling lots? What if he's got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you What if he actually replies? What if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do? What if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been? What he's trying to give her everything she needs And expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her follow her dream But instead I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so you'll never know That hurts just as much when you let them go