I can't tell you how much I relate. My son is almost 6 and with him i had pretty bad PPA. My husband and I decided I would stay at home with him. My family is an hour away, my best friends moved to California/Michigan and I moved to where my husband lived (Massachusetts) which is over an hour from the state where i had gone to college and spent the prior years since graduation. An hour doesn't sound like much, but it is when your friends aren't also SAHMs, have kids of their own and you have a newborn. I felt lost, isolated and resentful of my husband for getting to go to work even though i truly wanted to stay home. I decided to start therapy and after trying a couple of therapists found it very helpful. I also joined a Mom's group and met a couple of nice women who became friends. Covid hit when my daughter was 5 months old and threw me right back into another season of loneliness. I continued therapy and started reaching out to my husband's friends wives when we decided to come out of our covid bubble. My husband isn't from here, but his best friend from college is and he was adopted into a wonderful group of friends. Making friends in my 30s was not the same as my lifelong college friends who live so far. However, it has been healing to have women here who didn't know me when, but who also have children and can share in the joys and challenges. I've been here 8 years now. My son will be 6 soon and i look back on that season of loneliness as that, a season. Yours is a season too. I applaud your efforts to try to work through it. Have you thought about therapy, a women's group at your church, Mom and tot groups? My Mom was right when she said I'll also meet women when my kids start school and i have. All that to say you will get through this season. You seem to have a lot of Faith and that will also take you far. I'll be praying for you. 💛

I completely understand. I emigrated from Scotland to Australia 11 years ago when my first 2 kids were 2 and a half and 9 months old. I didn’t know anyone and I was very lonely and anxious. I joined a church that had a play group, a local primary school that had a playgroup and the baby rhyme time & story time at the library and I met friends that I am still friends with today. I also took them to soccer lessons and swimming lessons. Having somewhere to go almost every day really helped with not only meeting people and making connections but giving my days purpose outside of caring for the home. It’s a season, you got this mama 💪🏼 💗

That moment where you're enjoying your coffee but then have to hold it up high and put it to the side - that is the picture of Mom life! Brings back memories (mine are school aged now). This phase of life when they're so little is definitely a challenging time for plugging into community. Praying God would present friendship opportunities for you that are very local - church, library playgroups, etc. Thank you for sharing in such an open and vulnerable way. ❤

I feel exactly how you feel.. I have 2 boys under two and I've been struggling so much. I cry most days and feel extremely lonely in motherhood. I feel guilt for these feelings because i once suffered from infertility so i feel like if im sad or overwhelmed im not being grateful for what i once prayed for. I never imagined motherhood be so hard though. I wish we could be friends in real life. I live in PA and my family in California.. like you said i don't have a community or a friend in the same season and i wish i did.

Hey Kendra! New here to your channel ❤ I'm loving the way you edit and love that you're a proud Christian mom as well. Can't wait to watch more of your content!

I’m in the same boat. I have a 5 year old son. I’m a stay at home mom and I’m homeschooling. My family does not live near me and I haven’t found friends where I’m at. I’m going to be putting my son in a homeschooling co op so I’m praying that will open doors for the both of us.

Praying that God will bless you with some great godly friends. 🙏

Starting at 3:50, I am feeling the exact same way. Crazy. I thought I was the only one. It really is hard to put into words, but the way you said it just really hit home for me.

Does local library have like mom and tots programs? I used to that when my kids were little! ❤

Take care and thx for sharing the chicken recipe. Your cook with me videos are great!

Have you thought about going back to work or work? Maybe put the baby in daycare and get a job so that way you can get out and make new ? Just a suggestion

Lovely Video ( I emailed you ) :)