“everytime i leave my house it is a conscious choice to make myself uncomfortable in the name of something greater for myself” EXACTLY

i genuinely cannot thank you enough for talking about your experiences and being vulnerable online, it’s so comforting seeing someone as inspirational as you are sharing their feelings like that

Sounds like you’ve found your calling in life, helping people the way that lady helped u

The fact that I’m feel so connected to this whole video

Madeline really serves us with everything we need without even asking 😭❤

As someone diagnosed with severe high trait anxiety, OCD and eating issues, thank you so much for this. Honestly beyond relatable. You are so pure, and you should be so proud of yourself for being so open and honest because it will help thousands of us and hopefully you too. Never ever be embarrassed of it. Thank you 🧡🧡🧡

thank you Madeline. We need more honest conversations like this, people always stray from the details and try to make mental illness look cute or talk about it as a joke without acknowledging when shit actually gets real

as a person with anxiety, this video feels really validating. a lot of time in my life I always have had a little part of my brain that I feel like I know will always stick with me throughout my life. anxiety has always been a huge part of my life, especially when I was growing up, and knowing that it will always stick with me in my life is such a sinking feeling. I’ve always felt like it was so difficult to talk to anyone without anxiety about this, but this video gives me a sense of security, that a lot of people feel the exact way i do.

Not me watching these videos to deal with my anxiety...💀 Madeline is our therapist frfr

this video was posted at the perfect time i was literally deep thinking about how to deal with my anxiety

i’m literally so happy with how quickly you went straight to the point right at the beginning of the video

She never fails to give and deliver. So thank you ever so much for sharing it. The wonderful feelings from Colombia 🇨🇴.

Honestly thank you so much for talking about this Madeline, you dont understand how much this has helped me understand myself x

I recently came across your videos and I've been loving the monologues and the personal experience content ❤️ you're really eloquent and authentic

I haven’t had a panic attack for probably 3, maybe even 4 years now, but when I think about when I used to take them multiple times a day, I almost can’t fathom it anymore. That feeling cannot be compared to anything else. It feels like it will never ever stop. There is no way out. And the way it completely robs you of every ounce of energy is wild.

omg. thank you. idk why but I cried watching this. i don’t necessarily have the level of anxiety you mention but I do suffer from manic and depressive episodes and this video was very clarifying to me. i started piecing together things i haven’t thought about in years.

thank you so much for being so open about your mental health & sharing a bit of your brain. you are helping so many people feel less alone. love you 🤍

you help me so much I love you and these podcasts theyre one of the only things I look forward to, thank you❤

i love you madeline-you explain everything so well and it really helps everyone who watches, even people who don't have similar experiences. you help expose people to all these subjects and make it so entertaining and relaxing to watch/listen. thank you

i cannot thank you enough for making this.I grew up with debilitating amounts of anxiety and seeing someone who's also come out of the other side of it open up about it in a way that's so raw and vulnerable feels so cathartic.forcing yourself to get better is so exhausting but it's all i've ever known,and this makes it feel more manageable.

I love seeing you and hearing you. You are like therapy for me so thankful for you❤

Ahhh I’ve never heard a description of someone else’s experience of anxiety that’s so similar to my own :’) I also massively struggled with school- I was told that my attendance was gonna make me fail all of my GCSEs, but that made school feel even more anxiety inducing. Then in the December, I realised I needed to at least prove them wrong so I stubbornly taught myself the content as a ‘fuck you’ lol (it worked). But yeah, I’m also finding it strange to navigate as an adult, cos it’s down to me to find structure each day, and sometimes I’m just not capable .. but similar to what you said- the more I start to avoid, rather than challenge, the harder each of those things feel to face. I’m trying to get myself out of a rut with it right now cos I’ve got three weeks to write my dissertation& final essays or I won’t get to graduate this year :’) but cos I’m trapped to those exact deadlines, it’s made me feel claustrophobic in that sense. Whereas I feel like it’d be entirely different if I knew I could get a 2 week deadline and still graduate with my cohort .... but ah well, I hope this didn’t turn into a trauma dump (I’m a lil bit disconnected atm) but I just wanted to share with you that I really related to those experiences

no because i'm OBsessed with you.....thank you for speaking so openly and honestly about such a hard thing that so many of us have to deal with every day!! you can tell you really HAVE been working on understanding this part of yourself for a while now and you honestly seem so wise!!!! i definitely needed to hear this

My anxiety makes me physically ill and forces me not to eat so i can not imagine eating in the middle of a panic attack. This video was so validating because I don’t know anyone who has anxiety to my severity. Although the things we get anxious about are different the panic attacks you have are so similar to mine. On another note I had severe acne due to the amount of stress I was putting on my body, before I got anxiety medication. Even with medication I still struggle but it has helped.

I had that trapped anxiety like crazy when I was a kid. Starting my first job was a nightmare cause I had to stay "stuck" 9 to 5 or get fired but luckily where I work now signing off early is acceptable. Also Yoga with Adrienne helped a lot with exploring my physical symptoms a bit more, if you want to try her monthly calendar.

love you madz you are such an inspiration to me this video was posted at the perfect time

And the sucky thing about anxiety is that you have to do the thing your brain is telling you not to do in order to feel better. And that is SO difficult sometimes. And it’s so hard when your trying to explain to people who don’t have anxiety what your feeling. They just don’t get it.

the way you describe your anxiety was almost identical the way i have felt my whole life especially the school part THANKYOU SO MUCH for talking about it i literally love you🫶🏼

Thank you for sharing such vulnerable part of your life. My heart goes out to you as no one should ever, EVER feel like that. As someone who is in school for this it’s both physical and mental that have sever consequences. It takes years of re-wiring but it’s a state that can always change.

this video made me break down in tears knowing I'm not alone almost lifting a weight off my shoulders, thankyou you so much.

I have had panic attacks for 6 years now. I empathize with you. Thank you for sharing your story and being vulnerable. This was very helpful for me. I hope you have a great day:) so grateful for you.

thx for being so vulnerable

Everyone suffering from a panic attack / anxiety disorder should reaaaaally make some researches about sensitization (the book "hope and help for your nerves" by Claire Weekes explains the concept really well). Understanding this concept helped me immensely, I used to have very severe panic attacks and I rarely have even small ones now. David Daish on KZfaq also explains this concepts in some of his videos. I really hope that everyone will find their healing process.

This is the most validating video I’ve ever seen, I had to watch it twice 😭❤

Thank you for making this video, I genuinely relate to your story’s so much and it has made me feel profoundly less alienated and alone. Take care of yourself and I wish you all the best Madelyn x

this is one of the most relatable videos i’ve ever watched. thanks for reminding me i’m not alone in feeling like this

Madeline - this really really spoke to me. Especially about "Why am I putting up with life like this, when I don't enjoy it ". The metaphor of the house on fire, is just spot on. Not until your actually burning, would you be willing to change it. Thanks for your honesty. I'm not sure if there is a program for GAD, which sort of sounds like what you have, but I do know AA programs and their derivates like OCA can be super helpful and enlightening. Wish you the best in your journey to enjoy life more, and also hope the car did in fact start at the end or you got the help needed for it! Thank you again for the honesty shared, I got emotional towards the end myself xxx

thank you for talking about this to us, it helps me so much🩶

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, in my country people do not really acknowledge anxiety and panic attacks and for years i've been treated for different stomach issues when in reality i was having anxiety and panik attacks and it got to the point when i was calling an ambulance because i seriously thought that i was dying and hearing other people takling about their experience gives me hope and makes me feel not alone, thank you thank you thank you

this is the most relatable video i’ve ever seen i understand u and i feel u because i’ve been through the exact same things it’s tough but i’m in therapy

These videos bring me so much comfort

Omg wow feel so much better knowing there’s others that feel the exact same way as me. so proud of how much you’ve overcome!! Keep sharing xx

Sounds super exhausting. So sorry you’re going through this. You should be so proud of yourself for coming this far, genuinely ❤ take care girl

i needed this omg thank u

The thing about missing out a lot on is real. Meditating for the last 4 years has been great for me. I certainly do experience some anxiety especially when particular experiences trigger me, but even when i do I'm more aware of it now and it doesn't really run my life. Also, breathwork is very amazing for releasing stuck trauma and energy in the body. Thank you for sharing this with us 💙

I don’t think I have ever felt more understood, thank you so much xx

i’m late to this video but i have ocd and this hit home since i have had similar food related fears and constant panic attacks. i’m so glad you talked about this because you’re helping lots of people realize how severe mental illness can be, and not just a quirky “im mentally ill”

You’re so fucking amazing❤ And so inspiring, thank you for posting this!! I hope that you get major amounts of positive results from working on this with your therapist!! Wishing you all the best! And have a brilliant day:))!

your podcasts are so important for my mental health 🙏

This video helped me so much. It was like somebody speaking on my behalf. It was soothing. Thanks for this. I can relate to some of the things you said since I'm also a mentally ill university student.

omg she’s getting consistent 🤩🤩

i was also house bound with my anxiety for many years. it was AWFUL. And i particularly was so so anxious about not being able to leave and not being ok with leaving. i related so much to everything you spoke about. by the ends of the years with my anxiety i’d get so tired of fighting id just leave

It sounds like OCD than anxiety my queen! People often associate OCD with obsessive cleaning but what you described sounds awfully like what my friend with OCD goes through.

brooo my yt algorithm is such a W for letting me find you. i never thought id find someone who shares my EXACT same sentiments. much less on youtube! love these vids.

You’re so incredible thank you

omg madeline is literally the prettiest name ever i love madelines like the food, and also this came at the perfect time just about an hour ago i was syaing how qnxioud i am, ive come toa point where i can cope and handle my anxiety much better and just accept it without fearing it too much but i do need that extra support/help at times so thank u for this

I live listening to you talk!❤

this is so incredibly helpful thank you so much

you changed my life. I feel like someone understands how I feel everyday. thankyou

The part at the end with your car! So funny! I love it. Reminds me of my old car

This is one of the most realistic depictions of anxiety that I can relate to with actual helpful coping examples. Thank you so much for sharing! 😭🥹

such a confortable video to watch, hope you talk more about this❤

I’ve met people from all over the UK and not one of them has had a good experience with CAMHS (including myself) like there is clearly something wrong? Thanks for talking about this, felt it all v deeply and it’s nice to know there’s someone else feeling the same x

your podcasts make me get up in the morning

thank you so much for sharing your experience. i have been homebound with anxiety for about 2,5 years at this point and its been kinda brutal. but i think im finally starting to crack the code (fingers crossed)

this episode hit. thank you Madeleine. i love you so much

Thanks for sharing. I relate a lot to your story. Wish you the best!

this entire video is so on point oh my god i didn’t think anyone else like dealt with it or had the same expirience with it in the way that i do

i have ocd, this was very relatable. thank you

This is actually so crazy… I’ve been working on my audience-related anxiety for years. I had an incident in the audience of a symphony (when I was a music student), and it led me to struggle to sit in classrooms, work meetings, and regular audience settings of all kinds. I really like that your therapist gave you permission to leave. And I can’t believe that’s the real solution… I have been failing to give myself permission, especially in situations where authority made it impossible to leave (I.e. work). I am going to try to get back into audiences for fun things like going to the cinema. Thank you for sharing 💕

i LOVE these, thanku mads

What, this could not have come in a better time. I had a panic attack yesterday 😂 lately anxiety has been too much for me

I wait for new videos every week!!! Thanks for that

It really sounds like agoraphobia and OCD as well as anxiety. I’m a psych and neuroscience major wrapping up my degree now. Something I touch on frequently is the idea of brain training, which it seems like you’ve fallen onto that yourself. Keep up the work, learning how to be uncomfortable until you’re essentially numb to it is hard but you’ll get there. Try to find the balance between working on it and letting yourself be, it’s the hardest thing to find but you’ve got this.

im literally having an oral exam later and i suffer frm anxiety so this really reached the right audience at the right time 😭

i love this so much thank u

Omg I love ur vids!

YESSS I WAS Looking for forward to this today

my exam study sunday's have just consisted of listening to your podcast when you post them in the bg

This helped me so much. ❤

For me my anxiety affects me in exams it was because so back I would have a panic attack during my exams to the state a teacher would take me out of the exam and sit me down outside. I also struggle is going to group events like party's or work events. Thank you for sharing.

tuning into my weekly therapy x

Hey Madeline this was a very Good podcast keep it Up Thznks

i’ve started to cry after she said «without her i wouldn’t have my GCSE & etc» cus this is actually what i’m going through rn. i have to pass my exams, i want to go to univ BUT I CANT cus of the panic attacks. its too heartbreaking

i have OCD and agoraphobia and every time i leave my house i get so scared. but the more i do it the easier it gets. thank you for talking about it!

you are so real for this, you have no idea how many of the girls feel like this and just don’t say anything to anyone

been waiting on this frfr

I needed this video after seeing the thumbnail

Well you did good on this video about anxiety

i so needed to watch this video

vagus nerve exercises changed the game for me! Talk therapy/meds were useful at times throughout the years, but really didn't do much for me longterm. I also stopped caffeine which was necessary bc my nerves were already fried af. Somatics r the key I think.

i hope you feel better. This year is just horrible.

let’s fucking go podcast dropped perfect time i love listening to these in the background

Love your podcasts

The thumbnail 😭😭

This was so relatable. If people were not so fucking mean then I feel a lot of us who struggle with mental health would not feel this way. No one will ever understand anxiety unless they have it. That’s why it can feel like a small world when people brush it off and say oh it’s fine. Like no it is not. Mental health is a priority.

You should try out wim hof breathing basically forces your parasympathetic/healing nervous processes to start up. And calming down your bodily manifestations of anxiety are huge to calming down how the anxiety thoughts can affect you. Helped me soooo much. If I feel anxiety calming on I can put my attention on only my breath and takes me out of the clutches of anxiety. He has follow along breath work videos for beginners. Also u shud look at Hitomi Mochizuki’s channel. She has many videos on spirituality, life perceptions, yoga and how she dealt with her anxiety and her perspectives really helped me in my anxiety journey. Feels great to listen to someone else who experiences these issues with anxiety, makes me feel alone. Lots of love and support to u on ur journey girlie❤❤

You deserve to be happy always ❤

We appreciate your insights. Keep up the good work. God bless you and everyone here.

Damn You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen