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“Most men are wounded little kids on the inside looking for validation and healing” hit me like a ton of bricks… Danm well said brother🙏🏾💯

Somebody has to mention how beautiful this shot is! How stable it is, the angle, the warm light inside the car and of course the quality of the audio! Nice one! Great job!

"Getting in touch with your feelings is a little feminine, but once you do that work, when you get on the other side of it the divine masculine that emerges from that, has so much more depth and so much more substance then the masculinity you were trying to force before that " Well said brother, i wish more men understood this.

THIS is what KZfaq and social media was made for. What an incredibly brave, helpful thing to release into the world.

I think the sacrifice your father made was not in vain. He made you realize those things and become a good man today. Your father didn't run from the consequences of his actions, he just paid the ultimate price, worse than any jail he could be thrown into. He was a good man and may he rest in peace and never be forgotten.

23, feeling really lost in life. Depressed, too. Having someone to listen to about these stuffs makes me feel better. To better days ahead.

As a woman I want to thank you for being the safe space for men, immensely. You are a highly respectable individual, I hope you make it far in life. To me, you define what a true man is.

I’m 16 years old and I have had an addiction that I have promised to stop over and over and over. I am finally taking genuine action and I will use your life as an example of why I can do better, thanks for sharing your personal experiences and shining a light on those in the dark.

Sex is most mens biggest downfall and can absolutely destroy your life if you do not become conscious with it. Society has normalised porn etc when is literally is destroying and stopping men having a good healthy life. Completely agree. Did a video on my experience just the other day.. good to know more and more men are getting this

Thank you for sharing this experience with us. Stay strong brother. Love!

"Say to the believing men that they restrain their eyes and guard their private parts. That is purer for them. Surely, Allah is well aware of what they do." (Holy Qur'an 24:31)- Really appreciate you opening up and sharing this crucial wisdom. As a Muslim man, I'm often reminded of a simple yet difficult commandment of the Qur'an to keep in mind as a defensive tactic against the temptations in society. As men/women when we go out for even a simple stroll if we can practice not gawking and simply keeping our gaze low to the ground it can greatly decrease the risk of flaring up our carnal passions and putting us in harms way.

Being vulnerable and in touch with your feelings isnt feminine and especially not in the bad way, its just human. You have to understand your feelings in order to be able to control them and not let them control you. As they say understanding your enemy is the best way to defeat them although your emotions arent your enemies they are just a part of you.

This is the kind of content we need on youtube. No flashy transitions, no perfected cuts, just raw thoughts. I one day wish to start a channel like this.

As a 37 year old man who has been grappling with the idea of suicide for years. I needed to hear this. I have 2 sons and 3 daughters and a wife and sometimes I forget how much I mean to the people around me. I’ve made so many mistakes in my life and I am ashamed of having children out of wedlock with 3 different women and not always being able afford things of pay for things. But I know that none of my kids had their mothers around and I am all they have so I have to keep going. Thanks for this

Brother, you have no idea how much I needed to hear this. God bless you. I’ve wrestled with this for over half my life now, and I’m only 28. And everyday for years now I have felt this demon clinging to me, too afraid to look it in the eyes. I’m so grateful that I’m not alone as a man seeing what this has done to us, taking ownership of our choices and moving forward is our primal superpower and one that should be encouraged in all men, growing from adversity. Please continue to spread your message, as will I. Bless you X “Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.” (Crime & Punishment)

From a Christian outlook on pornography… the devil wants you to keep everything in the dark and not be vulnerable and talk abt it, but Jesus wants us to shine it in the light and ask others for help. Jesus loves you all and just know if you are fighting the grips of lust and pornography you are not alone. Vulnerability will not make you weak, but instead it will make you become more confident in yourself and strong in your identity!!! ❤

I’m 19 and this video hit me right when I needed it. I’ve been trying to desexualize my brain, and improve my relationships to no avail. I had an unhealthy addiction to pornography for a year but, for the past month I’ve been free of it.

You are going to help so many young men of my generation with this kind of honest and vulnerable conversation. Needed this

Driving in a car is like looking at the stars or at a campfire, your best thoughts come out while gazing at something continuously, dynamically changing shape. I haven’t seen someone put their camera on their car like this before, it really makes it feel like I’m there with you. I’m sorry to hear about your dad’s passing, and your storytelling brought tears to my eyes. I hope you and your family are doing well.

Brother, I lost my father to suicide. Thank you for making this. I hope it helped you too. I’m with you. Take care.

My ex husband took his life leaving my 2 kids behind. Son is 16. Daughter is 13. I appreciate you being vulnerable.

I wanted to share this to hopefully help others as well, porn and masturbation destroyed my mental health, it made me no longer enjoy the small things and just regular hobbies, I was so addicted to that high level of dopamine that I couldn’t enjoy the simple things and regular activities. If your reading this push thru it and I promise you will see change in your life.

I‘m a young woman in her twenties who has struggled with this topic a lot for many years. The addiction came along with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, self-consciousness and a broken body image. As I am Christian I mostly find myself in a better place overall these days though I think mental fights like that never really stop and last a lifetime. You just become a better fighter. I am glad you‘re opening up and share your story. That is very powerful and I‘m confident it’s a help for one or the other. Stay blessed y‘all. :)

This man comes from a place of honesty and genuineness which is rare. You gained a subscriber.

For your father to open up his addiction to YOU, the son shows the strength and how he most likely admired you

cinematography is on point 👌 and relating to sexuality is so true, man needs to have a grip on the urges. Meditation, cold showers, gym really helps! Every man struggles with this but only few speak about it. True Self is what we do when we are alone.

This video was part of your journey. Now, it is part of our journey. Stay strong brother, we'll both hang in there.

I been battling with suicidal thoughts for 28yrs.. im 33 today. Just had another episode yesterday. Whenever i feel like im alone. I look back when i really was alone in a dark room inside my head. And i heard his voice. I felt his love. Being delivered from prison/intuitions/death i know today the devil hates me so much he attacks me and if not me my family. Being God's annoited is not easy even though ppl think its a cop out. I been so alone my whole life, im just now seeimg im not alone. As i came across another sign qt this moment. Just coming across these comments. We are loved.

Why aren’t more KZfaqrs putting their expensive cameras outside of their car, facing the windshield, and driving out at night like you did?! I was hooked!

I can tell that this man has a beautiful soul, I'm wishing him the absolute best and can't wait to see everything he accomplishes with this amazing channel

I’m a woman and it popped out in my recommended I don’t know why, BUT I wanna say that this video has provided so much relief and comfort to me as a woman, because now I know that men with a healthy way of thinking and self-awareness exist in the Internet space. It’s such an important message! As a woman, I constantly feel like men stopped seeing us for what we are - humans with personalities, they are more interested in getting into your panties than your thoughts. I used to work in an all-male team and it was a torture to listen them talking about women exclusively in a sexual way. It’s very sad because I genuinely like men but something very wrong is going on with them as a societal group due to obvious reasons of the endless stream of free porn and datings apps and hookup culture, it’s easy to get distracted and lost and stop seeing what’s important.

Just started learning how to rebuild my confidence after I went off to college. The hookup culture at my university is too much for me. I suffered from a porn addiction through high school. The pandemic shutdown ruined me, shut me down, left me with no emotion towards my loved ones. I needed to watch this video. Thank you for your advice and may your father rest in eternal peace. Inshallah, all the men who’ve seen this video will, like myself, use this video to help their journey to recovery🙏

Sexual deviancy has led to me loosing everything in the past. Now, eleven years later, with more to lose, I'm dabbling again. I'm self-aware now, but it's harder than ever to stop. A man can rationalize anything. Thank you for the video.

Good video 👌 I’ve stopped watching porn for around 5 years now. I’m 49. I’ve taught myself to stop looking at young women in admiration, for their beauty, and to act my fkn age. I’ll be dead in my grave when I no longer have the capacity to gain pleasure from the sheer gorgeousness of beautiful women, but it doesn’t mean I have to gawk like a teenager at them now. I think a lot of young men could do well to listen to what you have to say. Porn is bs. It’s actually quite liberating to no longer lust after females like that. Whether that’s on the screen or in the street. All the best.

This video was much needed for me I turn 24 and this addiction is stick to myself and my past since I was 15 . Till the age of 20 I was not much concerned about the side effects although I was trying to get out of this loop from so long . This habit ruined my relationship, self confidence and break me to the point where I felt useless and got no self control and self worth. I am really close to control it now nothing new is happening in my emotions I just control the urge to do it. Skipping day over and over makes me a bit proud of myself. I respect your courage and I love the work that you put in your channel. Keep shining brother.❤️

as a woman it makes me so happy to know someone is out there to help men, i feel like men’s mental health is not talked about enough, it brings me peace to know you are out there trying your best to help men. You are a real man

It takes a great amount of courage to talk about what you went through. I admire your strength for undertaking this mission. Goodness in the world is currently losing the battle and could use ton more men like you. May God give you all the strength you need to keep doing this work for humanity.

You have my deepest empathy and condolences for the loss of your father. You have my deepest respect and admiration for the courage to make this video.

Thank you so much for starting this conversation! If we talk about this more regularly, we can create a better world for every gender. Mens mental health is often pushed under the rug, and working on it will greatly improve society.

i love how at the beginning he starts with a confrontational yet friendly "hey bro" , trying to single it to the viewer as a more in depth and intimate conversation. But as he moved on he started to use more inclusive terms like 'guys', idk if im talking nonsense but it did feel like it subconsciously made me understand there are more than just me and this dude struggling with our own battles. I do hope everyone overcomes these issues, talks about it and embraces their surroundings. Love you all - random guy

I've learned that to overcome vices it all starts with being Honest with yourself. Acknowledging and accepting there's something wrong with you. The worst action a man can take is lying and decieving himself.

"Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing" -August Wilson I couldn't agree more with what was said in this video. Thank you! I look forward to seeing more of your content!

Thanks man, I teared up a little when you said at the end "You are Loved, You Matter". Thanks a lot for sharing this experience

I couldn’t agree more with your mission. My father took his own life as well, after years of choosing alcohol over his own family. It’s absolutely vital for our youth to have good male role models, I mean just look how far this world has already fallen you know?

Thank you for doing this. I lost my dad at 16 to a heart attack, stressed out of his mind and not taking care of himself. The split conscience rings so true to me.

“You are loved, you matter, and you have barely scratched the surface of what you are capable of.” - I don’t know you from a can of paint, but thank you. I really really needed to hear that at this time with all that I have been going through this year and you might have just saved my life.

I’m 18. I have had a porn addiction for 8 years. I was about the relapse then I saw this video. Strong message

My father took his life a little more than a year ago and the hardest thing for me (still) is thinking about him in the act. I can fully thank Buddhism for helping me through the pain from a spiritual standpoint. It's crazy how a scenario or combination of scenarios can stack up and cause someone to do something to that extent. We as men are not encouraged to speak our minds, and with things like alimony, child support, custody battle, poor physical health, the effect of his partner's mental health issues on his peace, and lack of proper retirement funding after 35+ years of grind that I watched my father unfairly have to go through, I have seen what live can do to you as a traditional man. He wanted to give all he had to everyone and people took advantage. He was at the point where nearly a month prior to the act, he was able to hide it from the entirety of his family as he had already made up his mind. One of the biggest things is that YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT SOMEONE IS TRULY GOING THROUGH and how important it is to treat everyone like they're on your team. No matter what. I wish you the best on your long journey of spiritual recovery so you may flourish.

"Love the thing you most wish didn't happen" is a quote I hold dear to my heart.

It's almost 7 am on a Saturday. Im finishing up my coffee and I stumbled upon this video and for some reason, I watched and listened to your story. Thank you for the motivation to get up and be a better version of myself.

If this video is being recommended to your feed, you know your vice. You still have time, don't give up. I'm saying this to myself also, don't have 'those' thoughts but will never loose hope. We are gonna make it.

This clip seems to be the most honest thing I've seen lately on KZfaq. Thank you.

Lost my father to suicide when I was 13. Now I’m 26 and this was healing to hear for me. We are not alone. Thanks for sharing

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this. Really makes me look at life in a different perspective. Finding yourself after all the trauma is a scary step but takes work to work through all of it and at the end it is all worth it ❤

I think a huge problem in life is that there is a large movement towards hedonism. Things are so much more progressive now and a large focus on yourself has been a trend. It's gotten to a point where people are encouraged to indulge on food, drugs, p0rn, etc. It's gotten to the point huge droves of people arguing that being super fat is still healthy, fap is healthy and important, etc etc. A huge flaw with this new trend of indulgence is a high percentage of people who lack self discipline/self control. Something that I learned from stoicism is the importance of striving toward self control. Full self control sometimes isnt an option for people, but the pursuit of that goal creates strong mental strength and improved clarity. Unfortunately, we all do struggle with some sort of vice, bad habit, or whatever else. It's the way we decide to handle them is what the problem is. We all need to come together to help one another and I respect you for doing it on such a large scale.

Coming from someone who used to struggle, thinking there were no ways things could get better, but did eventually grow past it, this will help people. I resonated so much with a lot of the things you said and a while ago when I needed it, it would've helped. I'm grateful I no longer need it but I'm really glad that it seems like men are finally having some of the conversations we need to have with ourselves/each other, thank you.

The courage that it takes to face and talk about these personal stories is huge. I am really thankful that I found your channel, it has been a great source of inspiration since the very beginning. Keep it going☀️

Hey Man, deeply sorry for your loss. Indeed this oversexualizing of our brain due to pornography is what is decaying our society. It takes real effort and commitment to realize and break free from it. Just keep seeking God's help, hopefully one day he's going to break us all free from this satanic addiction and we will feel attracted for our spouses ❤

This video just appeared on my feed (which btw, is such a beautiful video, and set up). My father committed suicide when I was young, and it was a very similar situation as yours. He saw that was losing control, so he planned it, got everything covered by the life insurance, and one day he just did it... And he gave us very clear signs, but i was too young to connect the dots, or even have a deep talk to him about his feelings.. now after more than 10 years, I catch myself thinking how he had that wounded child inside, who was struggling everyday, trying to control himself, and trying to be loved.. and if i could now, I would go back and give him the biggest hug and be there for him. I just want to thank you for bringing this awareness to people, because not a lot of people talk about.. and it can save lifes and families. Thank you you for opening up about this, and I trully wish you all the success moving forward.

Your video touched me deeply und totally changed my perspective on (my) fatherhood. Changed my perspective on my father‘s suicide. That you acknowledge it wasn’t the best solution, totally uplifts the value of being a father, fighting for yourself and your family members. You don‘t know, how thankful I am, that you shared your story. Thank you! :)

God bless you brother. Thank you for your story, ive been suffering from this addiction since 11 and i had no one to guide me. I broke down and asked God for guidance and ive come across peoples stories and now ive heard yours and its given me the courage to stop for good. I hope God blesses you and you can find peace in him. Thank you brother, God bless🙏

I know a lot of men aren't going to take this the right way, but I think it's important and potentially life changing. One of the best things I ever did (without knowing it) for desexualizing my brain was making a female friend (someone who is not your wife or gf). I met a woman a work and we quickly became fast friends. Within the year she was one of my best friends, aside from my other two buddies and my wife. I'm not saying this is an easy or simple thing, and if you're married your wife will likely have something to say about that. But when you become best friends with a women, like true friends, you see her for just the woman she is - all her hopes, goals, struggles, pain and suffering - you can never look at another woman the same. And you would never think about even allowing your mind to go anywhere sexually, because if you did, you would have to end that friendship (for it would dishonor you, dishonor your wife, dishonor God, and dishonor your friend). And losing a best friend is like losing a part of yourself, so you would never do it.

I've been struggling for quite a long time with pornography and this video helped me talk about it with my friends and parents. I don't know if you'll see this but thank you from the bottom of my heart

great timing for this video. Just lost a friend to suicide on friday. He was only 36, he was all tatted up, tough guy on the outside, but like you said, a hurt little boy on the inside.

I ve been on KZfaq for more than 10 years and honestly, recording from outside of a car is a genuine idea. Apart from content, i admire the screen quality. You have a taste brother.

man i hope you read this... im 37 now my litle brother suicide when i was 23 and he was 16,now being strugling whit porn for 2 decades,I think im heallyng in this moment of my live but have being hard and still is, your history touch me deep for evident reasons, whish you the best.

Im amazed how many people argue against me when i talk about how much this sort of thing affects the human mind. Meanwhile just about almost everything is trying to normalize sexualizing everything. So tired of it, happy i am ahead of everyone. I try to hold on to hope that not only I but other men can make a difference

Wow. Thank you for sharing this. I'm 10 months sober from any substance (alcohol was my vice, and I had been drinking since I was 14 on and off due to parties. I'm 28 now. My drinking got terrible and repulsive when I turned 22.) and 7 days clean from PMO. I'm now keeping this rule of not looking at anybody, whether male or female, that comes into my peripheral. I noticed that I would turn so quickly when a woman would come into my peripherals and check her out as she walked away. I would do that while driving and while at the store. A little glance too long built this rationality of watching women, leading to *orn. I'm still aware of my surroundings while driving and at the store, but I take half a second longer to know who's on the side of the road or next to me in the aisle. If it's a woman, I stay put, keep my head straight, and keep driving or going about my business. I learned this from drinking. A one-drink rule or a holiday-only drinking rule led to me binge drinking and my life being a mess. I was not drinking every day, but I was still unhappy. Until I figured there was no balance with this stuff at age 27. I can't still be drinking and want a better life. It's one or the other. I was never fond of black-and-white thinking, but this…I had to pick. Black, down the rabbit hole of misery that drinking puts you in, or white, happy, sober life. Now, I'm applying that to my PMO habit. I'm 28 now and should've been serious with my life long ago, but we're here now. I want to meet someone to spend the rest of my life with, and I can't do that if I'm hiding all these vices. Here's to being my true, authentic self for the rest of my life.

My dad took his life when I was 14. He was into drugs but I'll never really know why. He was a great man.

With all my heart, thank you for this. This app needs more people like you. I love you, and I’m sorry for what you’ve been through. Have peace in knowing you have helped me, if not thousands of others.

Your father faced challenges that were difficult to navigate, but his journey has left us all with a powerful lesson. You're embodying that resilience and wisdom every step of the way. May you continue to shine brightly, using your experiences to guide not just yourself but others too.

This video gave me some ideas for something similar to try on my channel, mainly in getting those thoughts out of my head. I used to take long drives every so often when I was younger, but as the financial responsibilities of being an adult began to grow, I drifted away. Having grown up in a home with a chronically depressed mother, a heroin addicted Brother, and a Alcoholic father, I remember those breaks from the chaos of the home giving me the most peace I'd ever had. I remember spending more time at my friends than my own home. The first time I moved out I was 17. Nothing stuck until I was well into my twenties though, and the worst feeling in the world was failing after a year on my own and having to go back to that place. I've been on my own for two years now, and those problems still interfere with my daily life. And I never know when I'll get the call that my brother overdosed and died, or my father died of alcohol poisoning. Yet, I continue to chase a better version of me, because those bad examples will not be my future, they will not be my destiny. My father had maintained his sobriety for nearly a decade, when his mother died he took up the bottle again. He's 70 years old. He once told me, I could never achieve anything because I wasn't academically inclined.(But how could I be, when I was awoken to the sound of him and my brother brawling it out every night?) I'd attend school half asleep, and exhausted from the mental torture of having to hear my own family beat the hell out of each other. It seems those demons only get louder the further away I move. That said, I'm an Engineering student, who's also getting my NREMT certification back after several years of moving around and working blue collar jobs. My Councilor in High-school told me I could not get into any Universities or colleges. Yet, every single application I put in was accepted. This is kind of off topic of the whole desexualization, but alas, I needed to write a portion of that story out on paper. That's my little trauma dump. I appreciate your message, thanks.

Life is indeed the most complex tapestry of light and darkness. And it is only in vulnerability that we find healing , strength and redemption through the tough times. Thank you for the raw car chat. Grateful.

Hey man, whatever you’re battling off this camera just know you got this, and there’s always tomorrow.

01:02 🧠 Understanding the potential link between pornography and mental health issues, such as suicide, is essential. 03:07 🚹 Gaining control over one's primal instincts is crucial for men, especially in how they perceive and interact with women. 04:15 📺 The negative impacts of excessive pornography consumption on men's mental health and sexual experiences are highlighted, advocating for breaking free from such practices. 06:24 💔 The speaker's father's suicide led to a deep personal commitment to raise awareness, share experiences, and assist others in their self-improvement journeys. 09:17 🤔 Owning up to mistakes, taking responsibility, and seeking redemption are emphasized as crucial steps in personal growth and self-acceptance.

I’m glad the algorithm brought this video to my attention. Really needed to hear this message today. Lost myself this weekend to the addiction I’ve been fighting so hard to abstain from and I felt utter shame upon myself. Thank you for making this video. 🙏🏾

Won't lie, clicked on it mostly because I was drawn by the moody atmosphere created by the thumbnail and the title. Watched till the end. Beautiful video. I needed that. 💙🖤

The same thing happened to my Dad. November 4th, 2022. Thank you for sharing your story. I can directly relate.

I have not been doing very well and after trying to still be social, only to drive home early thinking about suicide, I appreciate the words you spoke. They may not completely sink in but I will listen to this video again when I need to hear those words again. Thank you. I wish the best for you and your family.

Divine intervention led me to this video at a difficult time. You are a true human being sir, thank you. I pray you prosper and touch an abundance of those in need of healing as you have my spirit today..

I really appreciate this way of opening up. Nothing flashy, just raw reflection over some important stuff. Thank you!

Dont usually comment but thanks for sharing man, that was some true authenticity there

My father took his life when I was 5 after sexually abusing my oldest sister. Mother told me it all started with pornography. That was about 19 years ago (24 now) also sometime in November. We were also raised Christiaan & your experience resonates so much with me man. Very few people in this world that I can relate too.

My dad killed himself when I was 15 I’m very sorry you had to go through this as well, I just turned 29 . Was an alcoholic through it all . Never faced anything head on. Now finally 8 months sober and dealing with myself has been the most difficult thing since losing my dad .. you’ve just gained a subscriber . Thank you

"I don't care how jacked you are, how many tattoos you have, at the end of the day, most men are wounded little kids on the inside and they're just looking for validation and healing." That is very true. I very much feel that way. It's embarrassing. Because the world has told me that I'm not supposed to be that. That at 27, I'm supposed to be a grown man, financially stable, emotionally stable, physically in my peak condition, independent and ready to provide for a family. But I'm not. I'm not any of those things. And every male figure that I could've looked up to only has words to tell me that put me down. I'm doing it all myself, trying to learn and grow and be better. Not by the world's standards, just by my own. That being that I don't have to be ashamed to show my face anymore, that I don't have to hide my mistakes, genuine mistakes. I did many things that I shouldn't have done simply because I didn't understand. I wish I could go back and undo them, but I can't. And many of them are the only reason I learned how to understand why I shouldn't do that. Unfortunately, we humans are stupid that way, the only way we understand is by making mistakes. And we can avoid the mistakes but that puts a limit on our growth. We'll always be going off what someone else said and never have any knowledge of our own unless we make mistakes and figure it out for ourselves, why things are how they are. At the end of the day, I just want to make the little kid inside of me feel okay. Little kid though he may be, he does way cooler things than the grown up coward of a mask society tells me I should wear. I am not an evil man. I made mistakes. And I hope I can fix them. I don't know if I'll ever be able to. But it's my only hope.

Man! I have no words. I needed to hear this. I'm really sorry for your loss. Thanks for this video.

Thank you for the amazing authenticity and vulnerability that you are sharing through KZfaq with each and every one of us, Brother! There are so many things in your story I can relate to, and I'm sure almost everyone else watching can, too. Back when I was a teenager trying to figure myself and the world out, I remember very vividly observing my sexual thoughts, judging them and trying to get rid of them. I ended up joining an evangelical church out of my own volition (my parents have never been particularly religious). The aspect of having a community helped me immensely with my personal growth back in the day. However, just as you said, things such as sexuality and porn were never discussed, which once again led me to a lot of internal conflict. I ended up leaving the church after 5-6 years, and that internal conflict definitely led me to a lot of risky behaviors in my 20s. Being in my 30s and having started my self-improvement and self-discovery journey, I'm extremely grateful for what you're sharing on here, as it helps me understand myself and others better. Thank you again Brother!!

I had just stopped watching porn this year. threw it out like trash. Porn addiction real. It destroyed my confidence, my self esteem, my ability to be a man. Thank you for sharing this video bringing this issue to light.

Thanks for the talk, I used to be addicted to porn and found easy satisfaction from it, I was also depressed, had anxiety and felt so lonely to the point I would question why I was here, and seeing people my age and younger die on the news and stuff it hurt me so much. But I know you said you left the "Christian" lifestyle but for me putting Faith into Jesus Christ has helped me with all that I said above. I think it took my Grandma to really open up my eyes to God. She was my only distant family I truly knew, everyone else would just come and ask for money and leave. She passes march 23 2021 from organ failure. And I can only thank God she looked for Him. Thank you.

Thank you so much for your vulnerability. I listened to this on the way to work this morning and it set my day in the right direction. Grateful for anyone who shares their story like this.

My Father committed suicide shortly after I turned 17 as well. it's been 5 years and his death continues to be a looming blight on my mind I grapple with daily. Recognizing and learning from his actions in order to correct my own is the only result I can hope for... but that still doesn't make it any easier. thank you for sharing, it is incredibly brave of you.

Randomly stumbled upon this page after admitting that I need to overcome my pornography addiction. Thank you for sharing your testimony. I'm going through a rough patch in my life currently and this video helped me heal some more. Much love, brother. And RIP to your father.

Man you have every right to be here on media sharing your story BIG THANKS: I remember: Years ago i suffered an addiction. my life seized, there was no direction, when i woke up, it was the same thing, heading to sleep, it was the same. i would weep and wail on the floor. Toss and turn in tears, praying to God to help me... over time, i then tossed away all the mediums i would have access through to these materials, (my smartphone majorly ), i restricted computer use to public places not in privacy, changed up a few friends.. and now am flourishing. its an honorable responsibility... there's no shame.

Last weeks have been exhausting for me. Things as loniless and so on have been very present in my life. I just came across your channel after watching this video and I appreciate that you have shun a light on something for a lot of men has been perceived as tabboo. I truly felt like you have touched my soul with this speech. Keep doing what you do.

I'm sorry about your dad. Stay strong brother! Your video showed me the right path. I'm 24 years old, it's time for me to get serious and get my shit together. Today, 9th December, 2023. I vow to change myself, get rid of my vices and be the best version of myself.

Thanks for the video. I'm sorry that you lost your dad. I'm a woman and I appreciate your insight into your experience and men in general. It's interesting where we find ourselves down the track, due to people's choices and decisions. Hang in there and well done for showing your vulnerability. ❤

Hey man you don't understand Just how much this single video meant to me. I struggled with Pornography at a young age and got insanely hooked and the amount of days of my life when I look back at my young self and just have constant regret in insane.

The ruined reputation is near impossible to come back from no matter how much redemption you obtained especially for a man. That's one of the things which truly drives the spirit of suicide. Worrying about the social backlash that comes afterwards, a lot of humans dont even have a mustard seed of forgiveness in their hearts, which is why we have so many issues in the world today.

Firstly, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm glad your father was able to open up in the way that he did and take responsibility for his actions before his passing, it shows he was a truly good person. For me, desexualizing your brain comes easiest when you focus on morality. I know you place an importance on mental health in this video, which is also important in motivating you, but in my experience I've had the most success through empathy for others and my mental health improves as a byproduct. For example, the sexualization of women does not begin in pornography. While it has decreased in recent years, women have often been sexualized in movies, tv shows, video games, and advertisements. This is often depicted as a major obstacle for women, which it is, but I'd say its just as much of an issue for men even though men often brush the issues with these depictions off. These portrayals of women are the first steps of the objectification of women, which allow us to eventually enjoy intense pornography regularly, and in the worst cases men go on to sexually assault women. Think about the amount of modern porn-addicted men who love video games which have the most revealing, sexualized displays of women. We therefore must be careful with all media we ingest, not just pornography, to ensure we continue seeing other human beings as people with their own emotions, ambitions, and loved ones rather than conquests. Once this mindset is realized sexual urges won't necessarily disappear, as they shouldn't since they're a natural part of humanity, but it'll be a lot more difficult to inappropriately act upon them knowing the tremendous consequences it could have on other people. Even with pornography, once you realize the amount of women in that industry who are trafficked, coerced, and forced by pimps to film it becomes a lot more difficult to enjoy such things. Regardless of the animalistic urges that make you want to watch, that more human side of your brain will have a harder time allowing you to indulge knowing the potential abuse people in that industry are going through. This, along with practicing mindfulness during meditation and exercise, have truly been the secret to success for me.