Katie Blankenship yes you are not alone buddy ... I also have the same disease ... Just be busy !

I can go days in bed with no desire to get up. I won't even turn on the tv. I know what you mean

Watching a year later! I have Bipolar II Disorder, Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder. All resistant to meds. Family thinks I’m lazy and they don’t even try to understand. After my dear Mom died I lost the only person who didn’t understand but believed me. ❤️

Katie Blankenship you’re definitely not alone!!

Gina La Perugina NYC your mom is still with you, talk to her in spirit ❤️

That's such a reckless thing to say. I can tell you you're wrong, coming from someone who isn't already dead for the sake of my children and God...because I love their life, even if I hate mine.

I don’t want to commit an act so selfish, and that’s the thought that dragged me back from the edge of the end.

Some see their death as a release to those family members you’re claiming kept you here. It’s all perspective

How selfish is it to tell someone with a life so painful that they want it to end that they need to bear it?

Thinking suicide is selfish is what keeps me from it people that will hurt because of it so if it helps what’s wrong with thinking like that

hey how to diagnose it ? can u tell me i am 16 and having this problem

@@unexplained5277 officially it needs to be diagnosed by a psychologist or psychiatrist. Bipolar can be mild or completely out of control. Mild cases are harder to diagnose.

Hey man i also have bipol disorder i want to know that i am 18 now so much life ahead Will i able to enjoy life with happiness

@@sandeepSingh-bs4cl Yes, life can be happy and full. Find what works for you... Meditation helps me a lot. Don't give up.

@@unexplained5277 the best I know of is to see a psychologist. Unfortunately as far as I know there aren’t any empirical tests. As in there aren’t any blood, dna, brain scans or paper tests to definitively decide on it. There are a list of symptoms if you have a number of them it is likely, again without a medical opinion it is just a guide. There is also a lot of overlap with other issues depression, schizophrenia, asd. Best of luck.

I’m so sorry for your lost 😞

What excactly do you want them to do? Serious question lol

Suicide itself is very selfish, suicidal thoughts are not at all. The cause of those thoughts is most of the time treatable and i hope that stigma will go away asap!

I believe that most people who commit suicide are not trying to actually kill themselves. They are just trying to make the terrible pain go away. death is collatoral damage. Its not the goal.

@@kmuller7381 It's the only option they haven't tried in most cases.

❤💯

Suicide is selfish in the emotional damage and financial damage you inflict on the people around you, the people that you most likely care about the most. If you put your affairs in order, give people a heads up, and do it properly then it's different.

glad you have some social support its very important

@@aprofessor5862 yes thank you, and you are you surrounded by your loved once, hope you are and I’m here for you as well.

Same here! I'm known as crazy Chris...that hurts.

please get help

@@ft-sd6ux why don't you share it with all of us! 😭

Omega 3 fish oils. Lots of magnesium, vitamin b and a gaba supplement. Stop drinking caffeine, alcohol and any type of sugary drink besides 100% juice. No fatty food only turkey or grilled chicken. Hot bath at night

You're not!! Same

absolutely is bipolar 2 means you have mood dysfunction sure but you are not delusional and split from reality which does occur in bipolar 1

tell you later bipolar 2 is much more chronic, and the depressive episodes tend to be longer. Justina is right, it’s not a lesser form, it’s a different form.

It’s horrible no matter what. I have bipolar 1, rapid cycle. I didn’t think I had 1 because I didn’t think I suffered from mania. But I did end up having a horrible episode with psychosis. I have OCD, PTSD, insomnia and anxiety as well... my lows are hard, and long. There have been times I couldn’t even get out of bed. Because my lows were so hard, when they diagnosed me, I figured I was actually 2. Not because it’s a “lesser form” though. Personally I think both are pretty horrible. And no matter what, it’s extremely isolating having this constant war within your own brain.

It's not a fxxking competition!!

Oliva rdh.

Same here Rachel ...I am from India ,,suffering and suffering.. But we have to fight with this for our family..

I kind of wish I was crying a lot, i can still cry but especially with the medicine I'm taking its quite a bit harder and the medicine isnt really working fully yet

@@passion2peace I hope it starts working and will hopefully do wonders and ease your pain substantially

me currently:)

@@easyway7308 Hope you are doing good now... Pls have a support group be it friends, counselor ... Make your family to talk to the counselor, see if they can be educated on bipolar. This shall too pass is the mantra

Understand. I keep pets from keeping me falling down the rabbit hole🌼

You are doing all the right things.

why do you hide under the guise of bipolar ...you are a text book borderline. You don't belong here.

normal woman There’s nothing “normal” about you...I pity YOU! You lack empathy and compassion. YOU don’t belong here!

I love this guy. He made me feel so much better with his fantastic, empathetic talk

Hope you are doing good Jay

Bless you got this sending luck hugs prayers stay strong stay positive keep going sending luck from UK takecare

Me too

Seeking for help.. My bestie thinks she is suffering from bipolar...this hasn't been confirmed yet by a specialist though...but the symptoms are quite similar... She has had a major depressive phase..which lasted for more than an year... during which she took the most extreme step too but was fortunately saved...this was a few months back... But she's quite stable now.. in terms of having suicidal thoughts... Currently the thing is that her emotions aren't in her control...sometimes she just cries and cries literally for hours without any reason..and experiences severe headache too.. Also, there are a lot of mood swings...At a particular instant she will be very depressed, numb and cold..won't talk with anybody...and on the very same day after a few hours or on the next day she will be highly energetic and excited... Now the issue is that first of all we are in our teenage only....still at such a tender age too she is giving the best possible fight.... Secondly she hasn't informed her parents about her current symptoms for multiple reasons...as far as I have understood..the reason is she is a bit afraid of getting treated...and also she believes that if she will inform her parents then out of concern they'll start invading her privacy which she has been given currently... Another issue is that for some reasons neither can I inform them... I have been trying to convince her about informing her parents and seeking for professional help.. but she says she wants to wait.. Also..for some reasons I can't even meet her frequently...and worse...I will be going far away from her to another city in a few days.. So basically I stand almost helpless... one thing is for sure that professional help is absolutely necessary or else the condition might worsen... I don't know what to do and the only thing I could think of is seeking help through such platforms... I would be really very grateful if any professional or past sufferer can make me understand that how can I convince her for seeking professional help and also that how should I behave in her manic and low epsiodes so that I don't worsen the condition....

Strange I've never considered suicide to be selfish, my brother was the happiest I've ever seen him two days prior to leaving this planet. I've lost many people parents, siblings, best freind but suicide is by far the hardest to deal with.

@@peterbalac1915 I'm rlly sorry for your loss. The fact that u don't view it as selfish is proof that you're more empathetic and understanding than others. I only commented this long ago coz it's sadly an ongoing and popular belief/sentiment among the bereaved of those who had a friend or loved one (or even ppl they don't rlly know that much) that died by suicide. Their argument is that it's actually very selfish since the victim(s) were just thinking of themselves and not the grief they might cause after their death. It's a very victim-blaming mentality coz they don't consider the amount of anguish someone has to go through to arrive to that point. It's just rlly sad coz it just fuels the stigma around depression and other mental health issues. I hope you find peace someday. I recommend u to go to grief therapy or seminars. It might help.

My gosh, Cymbalta might as well be crack with bipolar. I was put on that before my diagnosis and I went so wild, with mixed episodes, i went and admitted myself. Did you get that?

@@happygolucky5855 lmaooo I’m on cymbalta right now after being diagnosed with bipolar 2 and I’ve been flying. My hypomania became mania when I started on it a week ago. Hate to say it (but love to say it) but i haven’t felt THIS good in a while. It makes your pupils HUGE. My family and friends have commented on how peppy and friendly I’ve been. Work is going more smoothly. Only thing is the stomach aches on and off but that goes away if I eat substantially. I see my psychiatrist in two weeks so we’ll see if this levels out but I honestly wouldn’t mind if it didn’t. I’m taking 40 mg of geodon at night and that’s supposed to knock me out but it takes a while especially if I find something to distract myself with late at night- like TED talks. Oops.

I have a long history of bipolar 2 since my early teens and was hospitalized last year for a mixed episode. It was suspected I might have progressed to type 1 bipolar. Morons put me on cymbalta and set me loose. I had to wait 4 months to see a doctor to manage my meds because covid wait lists. In the meantime I felt like running people over and starting fires I was so manic and irritable. I was cussing out construction workers and random people walking down the street. This isn’t normal behavior for me ever. I quit it after only being on it a couple weeks. Those aggressive symptoms were gone in days. Well I finally got in with the doctor a couple weeks ago but I was already going into full blown acute mania. Started lithium finally. So yep I am type 1 now and been rapid cycling. I still can’t believe they prescribed me that cymbalta with my history and no medical supervision

@@happygolucky5855 yes my most recent manic episode has been so much better and actually euphoric for the most part than whatever that cymbalta did to me. It really didn’t mesh well with that irritable mixed episode I had

I believe he was referring to the severity of the mania.

Where r u from?

Check out dr. Joe Dispenza's work...

I know what you're dealing with is hard and confusing, but that is far from the truth. No matter what you all have been through, your kids love you. If you feel like you've hurt them, do everything you can to turn it around and show them love and a good life. Let them know you care. They will be closer to you and you will all feel stronger. Youll feel better within. It's gonna be okay

That's not true! It would hurt them so badly

I have a son 18 years old 💗he knows my Struktur Bipolar 2 , and he’s all right with me. I am still alive , because he is here, my grandfather committed Suizid. It broke my father,he found him .... So my son love me over the moon 🌙 and I him The depression is he but there is a reason to live You child 👶 😍👶 Feel hugged 💖💖💖

@Pennywise Wadford I had a hard time recognizing it as mania or hypomania. I felt so frigging good. The happiest I have ever been. Productive , cheerful, loving, patient , supportive, what not. I worked as a school teacher and really gave them my heart and soul, and they, as children and adolescent do, gave their right back. It was so fullfilling. I was extremely loved by pupils across all age groups, even adored. They threw me a surprise party , wrote me beautiful letters for teacher's day. I was positive that I have finally found my calling and the cure against my persistent depression that had damaged for so long . However, soon as some petty, jealous and much less involved teachers tried to hurt my position, my euphoria turned into immense anger. Then a depression followed. I have ruined it. But I'm still alive, still alone, still unbroken.

It is part of the stigma. It is the old puritan standard - God, not you, is the owner of your body and works. When the average teenager is considering suicide, the underlying idea that they do not own themselves may keep them from commiting to suicide. I only know that cultures, all cultures I have looked at, are as crazy as a syphalitic squirrel when it comes to reaction to mental illness, depression, disability, and anything that doesn't fit in the very narrow beam of proper and normal.

as someone with bipolar 1, suicide is definitely selfish but it is also all part of what perspective you see your life in. the biggest stigma of ALL mental illnesses is that we can't do anything about it with our own willpower. that isn't true. recently, I've been taking my perspective and completely changing it. I'm not religious. The reason why many say its selfish is because when someone commits suicide, they were thinking only of how much they felt/did not feel/went through/how alone they were/etc. it's all thoughts about themselves. they lose the ability and the consciousness that other people around them will all be affected if they kill themselves. It's a chain reaction. Not only that, but you really do have the power to take steps in the right direction. the worst thing you can ever allow someone with a mental disorder to think is that they are helpless. selfishness doesn't always mean they're doing it on purpose. I still struggle with my life every single day. But it's all about the perspective. it makes all the difference... And medication & talk therapy.

Carly Raimey I have bipolar type 2. I’m not sure if you have ever been so low you have thought about or tried to commit suicide, but I have. I was thinking about everyone but myself. I was thinking about how I was going to be a drag on my parents for the rest of my life, that I was a burden, that they would be better off without me. Luckily I was able to figure out that these thoughts were lies and I was able to get inpatient treatment. And I would like to add that mental illness is a disease of the brain. Chemicals are unbalanced, leading us to make decisions we otherwise wouldn’t. The disease takes away the normal functioning of the brain. I think of suicide as the disease killing the sufferer. It’s no different when a cancer patient dies. You can’t get over a chemical imbalance with willpower. And I agree with you, medication and therapy are definitely the best treatment out there, but sometimes they’re not enough or they don’t work quickly enough or you have a doctor like mine who put me on two different medications that reacted badly with each other, causing me to attempt suicide. These are just my thoughts and personal experiences.

You figuring out the thoughts are lies was you changing your perspective without chemical help. Of course. The basis of actually committing suicide is to end your own suffering so that it doesn't hurt anymore. Now, it's not really selfish in the sense that someone has something they refuse to share with others. It's a completely different kind of selfish. The selfish that doesn't allow you to see that it's your own views of yourself that make you think this way. It's not something you can just 'realize' either, so I do understand that. I have had several times in my life where I have considered suicide seriously. I used to frequently self-harm. I dropped out of college because I stopped being able to get out of bed in the morning, and I completely isolated myself from everyone around me because of the way I was feeling. Much aware of the physical effects on the brain, as even depression and anxiety are results of that. I was put on a SSRI medication that actually ultimately worsened my condition. I now have to exercise 30mins a day every single day to try and mend the separation of the lobe membranes. Although chemicals are at play, you still have the conscious ability to see the truth. It's just severely hampered by whatever we are experiencing. I used to walk around in a haze, I would have issues remembering very simple things, and I didn't feel real. I'm a champion at dissociation, lol. The medication I am on isn't really doing much for me, but I just recently started talk therapy so I hope it will continue to lead me in the right direction. You can't get over a chemical imbalance with willpower, no. You need both treatment AND willpower. That's the way it is. Without one, you will never learn how to manage this mental illness properly. After 7 years of being unaware I was even experiencing this disorder, I finally got diagnosis and started to seek information online. Those little bursts of awareness are everything. It's one of the hardest things you can do, but willpower is incredibly important, and you must never allow anything to let you think any differently. It's what forces me to get up out of bed in the mornings on a depressive low and force myself to run on the treadmill even if I'd rather rot. Telling people we don't possess the cognitive ability to have fortitude is dangerous. We are very intelligent people, very creative, and at times very lost. Sometimes we do need someone to reach out and show us the way, but management is all psychological once you begin trying medications that work for you. It's an illness that requires us to continually keep trying, or else succumb and kill ourselves because we feel like we can't take it anymore, we feel like we don't belong, and we feel like we mean nothing. It's a rationalistic way of viewing such a thing. Helps me from falling back into that chasm.

Carly Raimey beautifully well said!

Agree

how ?

@@unexplained5277 details what do you need to know

@@zawman21 how to cure bipolar depression

@@unexplained5277 I hate to say it, but there is not a cure. There is treatment. Mood stabilizers, antidepressants, SSRI medication, and talking to people who care. Best thing for a person with bipolar 2 is education. Psych2go is a good place on KZfaq to start education on things to improve life.

I have hope that thr will be a permanent cure in future

Check out dr. Joe Dispenza's work...

Lauren M it can, but that is why most bipolar patients are on something like Lithium, lamotrigine or some kind of mood stabilizers paired with an antidepressant

Yep. I take a low dose of zoloft with a 1000mg of Depakote.

all antidepressants run this risk but wellbutrin has lesser risk of doing this than ssri's.

Lexapro alone instigated one of my big major manic episodes. Pretty scary to think if 2.5% of people are going to unwittingly have this reaction to such a commonly prescribed form of therapy.

It depends on the person's genetics. I have Type 1, and SSRIs always lead to hospitalization. Wellbutrin helps with the cognitive parts of my depression without triggering mixed or manic episodes.

Soon you will be

We have to try to stabilize our self by doing excercise ..

Who's normal? What is normal?

bipolar is the new normal

I have some answers. Things that will work for you I promise. Med free and sober

@@koralite3953 it's indeed too widepsread in out day and age. Maybe the capitilastic lifestyle is truly as bad as they say

If you get mania, even once, you have Bipolar 1, not Bipolar 2.

You new LAMICTAL!! It will help with depression. Or try Latuda.

@@tamarajessup1398 that isn't true, hypomania is often found in people with bp2. Hence why I exist.

Hope you are doing well now Kyle...