The booktube community has definitely helped me through a lot of rough times.

Thanks for taking the time to watch.

Why would people bully you?!?!?!?!?! I would have given anything go be your friend lol. You are awesome, Jesse!

Oh, don't you worry, we'll always stay by you.

Why do all the best you tubers have all the saddest stories?

Thank you so much for your sweet words. You are great.

booktube changed him so much he's so outgoing now

That's how I got through my bullying too. I went to books. They took to me to somewhere else

I LOVE YOU JESSE! You have no need to be insecure, you are a beautiful person, inside and out

My Dad got lung cancer, and my whole world changed too. He died a year and a half ago and it has proven to be the absolute worst. I too pushed people away, and I also still struggle with things I was put through when I was bullied. I'm glad your momma is doing well, and I'm glad to see you've made a good life for yourself so far :) Gives me some hope.

it's definitely a hard thing to go through, but that feeling once you know that person beat cancer. I swear, there is no other feeling like that.

Thank you for watching. Your kind words mean a lot to me.

I think the things I've been through have really opened my eyes and showed me that you can't waste your days being down, you have to keep your head up and hang in there. I still have my bad days, but I try my hardest to keep shining positivity.

I actually love your videos. I think it's so awesome that you have such a awesome attitude throughout all of that (mentioned in your video). And thank you for inspiring me to become part of the book tube community!

We love you, Jesse.

She's doing so much better.

I'm happy. I'm living a very positive and uplifting life right now. It feels good.

I may or may not have started crying during this video.

Hardly. haha. It's okay. We all go through hardships. I know people have been through worse than what I've been through.

Thanks for being such a sweetheart! Your videos always help me to keep living a positive lifestyle and to keep smiling. Thanks for being such a great and uplifting friend!

I thought the plane was a turtle

I love you, holly! thanks for always being so sweet and watching and commenting on my video.

im so happy you're happy now!

Yeah, I figure people think of me as outgoing, but that's not the case. Thanks for the kind words.

I think so too & I agree. The things we go through shape us and make us who we are today. I'm pretty sure you're my long lost sister. I swear by it. haha.

wow, that must have been so hard. sending positive thoughts your way.

It was a really sad time and it's hard for me to really open up about the way I felt during that time in my life. It was a really dark time for me and I hope I never have to relive it.

Dude. Thats the most honest video somebody has put up regarding their life. I'm truly a fan of you now and I can see that you are a truly honest personality. Will continue to be a loyal subscriber :)

Thanks so much. You're so sweet and supportive and I appreciate you!

i'd love to go to mexico and visit you guys someday!

Just watched that video... It was beautiful. Brought some tears to my eyes but beautiful:') u seem like a great guy. We all have tough experiences, but we get through them. That's just life :) my grandpa died when I was young, but back then emotions didn't come to me as easily as they do now. I still love him this moment , though. My dad had a minor brain tumor too, but it was removed and dealt with. He is now a happy man, deth* in one ear, but happy. "Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened" :)

Agreed. I doubt that I'd have any friends if it weren't for youtube. Thanks for the virtual hug. :)

How could I forget GOA?! haha. It definitely played a big part in my life. :)

wow, you are so strong. I can't imagine losing my grandmother at such a young age.

I love you, Hope! Thank you for being wonderful.

Jesse you are so amazing that you have stayed strong through all of this. I watch and love your videos and am so happy that you pushed through it all

Thank you for being the reason why I love books so much! Love you!

that was so inspiring ! I'm sorry that u had to go through all of that, may God bless you and your family Jesse 💖💖 keep on the great work and you're my favorite book tuber!

OMG, Jesse! You are such an amazing person and I am so glad you overcame all of those struggles.

I know this was so long ago that you did this video but I’m so happy to hear that you guys were able to stick together (after some bumps) and that you’re mom is a survivor. So much love to you and your family ❤️

This may or may not have made me cry. You're an amazing person who has gone through so much. You inspire me:)

Aww thanks for sharing Jessie! So sorry you had to go through so much! I love your channel!

Literally this just shows how strong you are, I love your videos so much! You are such an inspiration to me and a lot of other booktubers!

I'm so sorry about what happened to your grandma and mom😭😰😱

Jesse we're always here for you and we'll forever be fans of your incredible videos and overall personality. It looks like you've been through a lot but you're strong and everyone can see that. Thank you for making such amazing videos and acknowledging your viewers.

I think that it's so cool that books can help us through hard times. Thank you for sharing your story, Jesse!

omg you are so strong! and I love how you channeled your feelings and sadness towards books that leaves me speechless with joy

Tears in my eyes. We're all so proud of you Jesse, you're so honest & we love you for who you are. Never change!

You're truly an inspiration Jesse and you doing this video just shows how much stronger you are now, being able to share this with us. Whatever the future holds, you'll be fine and you'll always have us, your subscribers and friends. Keep doing great videos (:

Jesse, you always find a way to inspire others, and connect in so many ways, you are truly amazing!

It was really nice knowing more about your back story. I'm sorry that you went through such a hard time, but it made you a stronger person though! I'm glad your doing better now, though!

Jesse you are such a strong person and you deserve all the subscribers in the world!

I never knew that my favorite booktuber had gone through a lot. you inspire me. The thing is that even after you have faced such hardships you are such an amazing person whose energy and positivity is contagious. Wish you all the happiness.

Jesse I just wanted say that you are so strong! My mom went through the same thing and reading really did get me out of that pit of darkness. You are such an inspiration to me!!

FEELS!!! We love you Jesse, and your attitude is inspiring!!!!

It makes me sad to how much I can relate, my books and my writing are what really help me cope.

YAY I'm glad you're happy now! SOOO Happy for you! Seriously! You're the first booktuber I subscribed onto! Thanks Jesse!

Jesse, don't ever stop doing what you love. We'll always be here with you. I won't judge, keep making videos! Love you loads

I've been watching your videos for about 3 hours now, and I got to this one and I just love you! If you think about it you wouldn't be who you are today if you hadn't gone through those hardships and they have just made you stronger! I love your channel and you're such an inspiration. Truly, things will get better and that's something everyone can take from this video! Thank you :)

You're a very brave person for just sharing what you've been through! I agree all you need are you family to help you deal with everything going. Im glad you dealt with the issues at school by just minding yourself and your family and discovered the world of books throughout out that all that. Now you have friends all over the world and you're loved for just being yourself by loads of ppl including me ily! Keep going forward and never look back!

Jesse we all love you and are your friends. Your content is great, positive and it shows how smart you are. Books make people smarter and are great life teacher

I love how throughout all these bad experiences, you always found a way to stay strong and be as positive as you can. You look so happy in your videos now, I'm so glad I found your channel. You've been such a positive impact on me, thank you for all that you do! Will always love your videos

You're story is touching. I am so glad you shared it with your viewers. I work at a dementia and Alzheimer's nursing home and I know how hard an selfless you have to be to have someone close with it. You are a great person and always have people here on youtube that will be here for you.. :)

Jesse, I recently came across you and your videos, and the booktube community in general, and I think that you are a hilarious person. Stay Strong because you will always have your viewers to help you though anything!

omg I'm from Missouri too ! and I can't imagine almost losing your mother to cancer , I award you for being able to talk about it openly with how hard it was for you . you keep being you Jesse . ❤️

I love draw your life videos and I think it takes a lot of bravery to make and post them. Your kindness and compassion is really apparent in your videos as well as the comments I see you making on other people's videos. I know how dealing with the death of loved ones is something that really changes a person in a very deep way. You are very creative, I love your channel and I think daily vlogging really suits you! Great video.

I really like this Jesse. so many draw my life videos are just chipper and light. they make you feel like they are lying. This seems real.

This is literally so real and just thank you for sharing

It's pretty amazing that you've shared these hardships of yours with so many people. It's pretty apparent that you're a resilient individual, seeing as how positive you seem to be about things. As for insecurities about bullying, I totally understand that. I was bullied in middle school, and as a high school student fairly close to graduating, I still feel some of the insecurities that come with that as well; and, like you, I turned to books as a source of escape and happiness. You're amazing for having pushed through so much and I absolutely love your channel.

This choked me up, I'm proud and grateful to be your friend on here :)

This actually made me tear up. I want to go hug every kid who is bullied or who is going through family problems (especially cancer since that is a little close to home for me) also I want to hug you. You're such a beautiful soul!

Wow, Jesse you are such an incredible person and I'm so glad that you are happy with your life now! I love your videos and I wish you the best of luck in whatever you do.

you are not depressing💖 this is what you have experienced andnit made you stronger. we are all here for you, jesse

wow jesse im so sorry to hear about what happened to you! my mom had cancer too, and i know its really hard but you seem to have overcome it in such a beautiful way!

This video made me a little emotional. My grandma passed away when I was twelve, and I've also had to deal with cancer in my family, bullying and social anxiety. It's so great to see you're doing so much better now, means there's hope for all of us too! Thank you for making this wonderful video. I'd say it's encouraging rather than depressing, since you ended it on a positive note.

Jesse you probably won’t see this, but you are seriously the most genuine, amazing KZfaqr, and definitely one of my favourites. I can’t believe anyone could possibly be mean to such a sweet lovely person. I love the bookish family!! “Well-read people are far less likely to be evil” - Lemony Snicket

Nice job! I can relate to having a parent battle (and beat) cancer. How wonderful that reading helped you through such a difficult time in your life.

You are stronger than you know Jesse. Losing your grandma at such a young age, and having all those other problems at once had to be extremely difficult to bear. My grandma passed away this March and I'm 19. I cant imagine how it'd be if I lost her when I was at school and I had all these social and other problems myself. Just remember that you have people around you who love you. Your family and friends. You are funny, full of positivity and loved by the Booktube community Jesse. :)

This is probably the only one of these that has made me tear up :'( love your videos!!

Oh my gosh, Jesse. I want to give you a huge hug right now.

I came from the future, and looking at how successful Jesse is, and how happy he is, I can't even believe this is his past. We will support you, Jesse! You are a great KZfaqr.

stay strong and i love u so much. always know that you are such an amazing person and we are all here for you.

this was emotional, and beautiful all at once 🖤

This made me cry. I just love when you are your honest self. You are such a lovely guy Jessie :)

I can feel the tears coming by the way my nose is getting all tingly. Watching your video Jesse proves everyone has a story, and even though the ink pen my be full and bright it's not the ink, but what you do with it that matters.

She's doing a lot better. It's been a few years now since she beat it and she goes for check ups every few months. Thanks.

omg I didn't know, I'm so sorry Jesse. I love you, and your booktube channel, and just, please never change.

So inspiring Jesse. Thanks so much. You are honesty

Maybe it's a little bit late because it's 2018 bit we will always be here for you, we support you and love you! No matter what

I know I'm watching this late, but I'm almost crying. Your fans (if that's what you call us) love you!

I just want to applaud this. Way too many people are pretending to be perfect on social media which really makes many people insecure because they compare themselves to the pictures on Instagram, for example. To actually share your experiences in such a way would require courage. Also, you seem happy despite everything, which shows strength so just keep going forward and do what you love to do. I'm sure you will attain all your goals and live an amazing life :)

my mother is doing so much better. thank you.

omg jesse!!!!I LOVE you so so much and your videos.Ur my fav booktuber and i want to say that you'll always have us!

it is amazing how much you can not tell and seem as a person with normal life. it is also amazing that you have the strength to share this. you are very inspiring. thank you :)

You're an extreme inspiration to me and I'm so proud of you for your strength. Stay strong, Jesseee!

OH MY GOSH THIS GOT ME FROM SMILING TO TEARS TO GIGANTIC SMILING AND OH GOODNESS THE FREAKING MUSIC

this was the most touching draw my life I ever watched on KZfaq Jesse!

Wow! thanks for starting your channel! We all love you and your life is inspiring about how you got through all those tough times. I would have never guessed that by how you are now! :)

I'm new to your channel and I absolutely love the amount of effort you put into your videos. Life has been hard but you have my best wishes, Jesse. Keep up the good work! Borahaee💜

I like you. And i realised now that having a passion for reading isnt something to hide. So thanks! Much love xx