"my mom killed herself back in 2004, I was barely 5, I thought my life was a mistake. I was misplaced, born at the wrong time, wrong place." Its hard when you lose your fate. My dad died when I was barely 10. I didn't get to say good bye. (Sing this Part) I'm on a lonely road, What what should I do.(x3) I don't know why, I don't know how but I have always been hurt. From the start. But that Pain is gone now one I pull this trigger so lets just leave it at this.(Sing this part) I'm on a lonely road, what what should I do.(x3) I guess this means goodbye to all my allies. That is my song that I made, leave a like it if you liked the rap!

i’ve been listening to this for three years now. it gets sadder every time.

"Look, i always tried, i always cried, but when they asked me if i was fine, i lied, cause my homie was dealing with shit that made him commit suicide, i didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, it still hurts even though i know.. Your in the heavens with god, growing your wings and starting to fly, everyday i ask why, what was he dealing with? What type of bitch made him do that shit? You weren't watching! Every time he was talking, you ignored him, blocked it, was i the only one watching! He feel no pain, without you, nothing will ever be the same, sitting in the room, playing video games, but i look at your grave through this window pane, cuts through your arms, through the veins, i'm the only one to blame.. You only get one chance, Life will never be a game, You don't come back to life, you don't respawn, that night, i saw the knife.. Shoulda known you were reaching to God.. I couldn't prepare myself enough to know that you were going to take your life! I try not to cry, it's just knowing that you decided to die.. I'll never get you back... Imma say this now, through a song, I love you man.. Goodnight.. TK"

whoever played this on the piano has some beautiful soul. love it

Spoken: This goes out to all the people out there, ya know the ones struggling with depression I know its hard but you'll get through it I promise Slow Rap: I walk around with a smile on my face When in reality all I feel is disgrace Life got me messed up on so many levels Everywhere I turn I see some more of my devils I try so hard to be nice and fit in But every time I try, I fail again I love my friends and I love my fam But still I feel like no one gives a damn Every night its just another nightmare Really by now I shouldn't be scared But I'm terrified of what could happen Sometimes I'm scared of just nappin I got all these problems in my head Sometimes I wish I was dead I know it's not the solution But sometimes the air around here is like pollution Every breath I breathe it gets harder While the good memories seem farther I know I got Dakota but I feel like I'm pushing him away I don't show it but all I want is for him to stay People don't understand what I go through I don't even think the ones who say so do I stuggle with anxiety and depression Sometimes I feel like I'm in a compression I feel so stuck and I feel so alone The choices I've made I don't condone I make stupid mistakes Nah, I don't think you can relate Most people try too hard but they just dont understand My emotions are like a tightly pulled rubberband Any moment I may break Trust me that'll be a mistake I take all these pills to try and be normal ha What is normal anyways I've always been stuck inside my own mind It's like a cage and I can't get out, I'm blind

This made me realize how little time we have left on this Earth. I was rapping about me and my brother and how we would sit in a field and just have little picnics and it all feels like yesterday it was 7 years ago. It honestly hurts to think about it.

It’s beautiful to see people sharing different stories on here... it’s one of those things that really shows people still have emotions in this world

This really tugged my heartstrings. Thank you for producing this.

I tried... To save my eyes from my tears. I tried... To save myself from the words I hear.

i love this!

Gorgeous piano! As I’m getting ready to move back home to Texas, this just reminds me of my time here. Beautiful story, I can take with me wherever I go! Thank you for your work🙏🏼 👂🏼many blessings.

Bro the piano on this is simply breath taking , truly amazing and God like !

Every time I go away I miss your smile looking in your eyes I see the beauty of this life thinking 'bout the past I wonder where I'd be without you in my life going few years back I remember dreaming about the life I have right now every night I cried thinking I'll never find someone like that but I always knew that only love can heal a broken heart I Tried my best to escape this loop that we call living everyday felt worse I lost all hope but I kept wishing deep down I hoped that there will come a time when I find the meaning since I knew no one's born without a reason so i kept believing that one day I'll find a soul that would share my pain and give my life a new meaning

I tried to face all this stuff by myself and I promise I tried but it's impossible to do it feeling completely alone, and I am sorry I wasn't strong enough to face the world alone but now you are gone, you at least have a new family though, and I think that they do love you but I know that they actually hate me even though I brought you into this world that doesn't mean anything's them and they didn't know what I was going through in the end I don't blame them nor hate them because Maybe you will get truly loved by the system because when I got put in system I didn't get that same true love and I prayed since you two were babies that you didn't experience my experiences with it and you would make it

Soft, soothing and touches the nerves at just the right scale. Well done

Love this. Definitely going to look into more of your work this is ART

I can hold it.. I can still hold it... FUCK SAKE HAND ME A TISSUE

I feel everything i got tears in my eyes Some deep shit dawg Thank you for making it😊 Means too much to me I got so many bars for it

This is so beautiful. Thank you so much!

Okay Hey guys, I just want to thank everyone who shared their lyrics on this song! Everyone wrote beautiful texts and I want to take the time that I have read everyone's lyrics and they all gave me chills! This song is so sad but yet with your lyrics and this music together you made my day! THANK YOU FORM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

uff nice what a beautiful piano good job

She's dying inside but people nowadays are too dumb to realize, she's about to cry but she waits until it's at night and now she says "I'm so done with these lies it makes my flames ignite, it makes me wanna cry, it makes me wanna die!"

I tried so hard to keep my older brother out of trouble it hurt me deep when i found out he was in jail again and im glad i found this beat so i can tell him how i feel 💛💛💛 thank u so much for making this beat

this is really pretty and amazing it puts me in a state of mind and lets me open up

(Verse 1) I'm tired of running, tired of chasing dreams, Feeling like I'm stuck in a never-ending stream. Every day is a battle, trying to keep my head up high, But sometimes I wonder, how much longer can I try? I'm tired of pretending, putting on a brave face, When inside I'm drowning in this endless chase. The weight on my shoulders is getting hard to bear, I'm tired of the struggles, it's more than I can bear. (Chorus) I'm tired, so tired, of this constant fight, Searching for a glimmer of hope in the darkest night. But I won't give up, no, I'll keep pushing through, Even when I'm tired, I'll rise and start anew. (Verse 2) I'm tired of the pressure, the expectations weighing me down, Always striving for perfection, wearing a perpetual frown. The world keeps spinning, but I'm stuck in this loop, I'm tired of the routine, feeling like a shattered truth. I'm tired of the noise, the voices in my head, Telling me to keep going, but sometimes I'd rather be dead. But deep down, there's a fire that refuses to die, Even when I'm tired, I'll find the strength to fly. (Bridge) But in these moments of exhaustion, I find clarity, I realize that being tired doesn't define me. It's just a temporary state, a stepping stone in my journey, I'll rest, recharge, and come back with a renewed fury. (Chorus) I'm tired, so tired, of this constant fight, Searching for a glimmer of hope in the darkest night. But I won't give up, no, I'll keep pushing through, Even when I'm tired, I'll rise and start anew.

I like to listen to this when I sit on the roof and gaze at the endless amount of stars and think where did it all go wrong.

This song is beautiful and relaxing

Oh my gosh this is really amazing it's taking me to another life also makes me remember a lot of things I missed it 💔

See me right know, in the confort of pain, I'm drained I'm ashamed betrayed by my pain, my fears hold me ,can't explain/ I tried and can't look back because my past laughs, last time I checked I was miles back...going towards a unsecure path hope it can spread some light to my past, but I can't my action dictate my chances so if I fall I better be still, until my moment comes I'll be sure to catch it, just to prove my WILL....

REAL STORY: Its all started when i was 6, i was the second child .. i was really stupid then haha yea... but we were poor and we were happy all the time bit then my little brother came i was very happy that i can play with somebody because at school everybosy hated me .. they looked at me like i was a animal or just a weird kid.. after 3 years i was 9 and we did go to my grandma there i was in highschool.. i met 3 frieds but they were jist like me hated and stupid haha .. but when we started talking i just thought about changin.. because i was too lazy and i dint want to learn from school.. then my mom gone to netherlands and she met a man who is my 3th little brother father.. i loved my brothers .. but then we must go to netherlands.. my mom said there was hope to have a good life i know she is not lying so i said oke.. next 3 years we really jumped from poor to actually RICH and we loved the house but most of the family i did go to highschool and again.... everybody hated me.. there i was first in love with a girl.. but she never talked to me .. so i felt alone in the world i wanted to give up on it and just go... but when higschool finished i went to college.. there first 1 year was bad.. again.. but then somebody came a new boy hes name was alex he was really smart but he had no friends and then i walked to him i said "hey uhm whats your name ?" He said "hey my name is alex and your's ?" I was so happy that somebody talked to me.. we were talking hours to hours and then next year.. we wanted to get a future so we started studying and working but i left work i was lazyy.. he said.. what are you soing ?? If you keep up like this your future is gone.. at that day my life changed and now im a succesful man with my friend alex ❤🙏 never give up👌

man this is just perfect

Was a pleasure using this melody/beat on my first song ever! THANK YOU EDOBY AND KEEP DOING YOUR THING! PS: Song on all stores called "True Love"

look took me about a year to write this ever since youve been gone ive been so lifeless i wish i could go out like you but life is priceless i try to figure out an excuse to manifest but when it comes to you seconds turn to hours and hours to days i sit hear frustrated because my feelings stay the same here or not your to blame because i was there for you every single day but when i dont text you you think its time to end your pain and when i think about it thats when comes the rain i couldnt force myself to see you in the grave because words for you couldnt be spoken and if i saw your parents the pain would be awoken your drunk dad i wouldve chosen or probably you crack head mom who always plays the victim but they neglected your and sent you in a cave of depression so i think its time for a confession i loved you girl ever since elementary and now those feelings are just complementary around you my fears and scars seemed to dissipate you were the lover of my soul and the master of my fate a love like this i couldnt dream to create because you were an angel even before that date yeah you were lost and things went to waste you were heart broken and cold and that fake shit was old and when we fought it was a storm with you it was complicated but me i wanted it dated you were short and i was long term you stabbed punched and said things that truly burned at that time those feelings were deserved the punishment i earned because i fucked around even though i loved you but i never talked shit about you saying im a fuckboy because you didnt claim me first and then things made a turn for the worst like pow and brains did disperse but ur wrist were the worst or maybe the pills you had eatin you battling you demons but accepted defeat and the pain is just worst every day i cry over you but i sort the words in different way i aint a broke record im just a broke person a broken heart with a few missing pieces and you knew many of the reasons due to the mental diseases one second you sweet and my queen the next ur stone cold and cold hearted but that got my love restarted but i regret when we parted you went one way and i went the other but ik we were always meant for each other so i love you and sleep soundly sincerely a man who loves you proudly

Love the instrumental. Is there any sheet music available for this relaxing masterpiece?

This track is beautyful. Just beautyful

people who listen to this kind of music you are the only good things in this world

You can do a cover to “Myself by Layton Greene” with this beat

As long as I'm in the time we'll stay strong and alright

They have so much time to make it. No stress.

you should have more likes, this is so amazing

I don't think I've ever felt so connected to a beat before. 1 up brother this is some deep shit right here it's inspiring me to get the pad back out 🖎👊

I remember feeling like I wasn't good enough Had me questioning myself I wasn't sure enough Had me looking in the mirror Tryna analyze my figure I ain't Perfect You want perfect So that figures You always put me in a bad place Said we were moving at a fast pace It was all my fault (fault) I fell in love too hard I loved you when I didn't love myself (yeah, yeah) Said you love me But you only loved yourself You rocked me so hard You played all your cards right You played with my heart (I might) I might not be the same way You were walking in the door you wasn't saying "Hi" You were walking out the door you wasn't saying "Bye Bye" Seems like you only got that way when things ain't go your way (oh, oh) How could you tell me you love and behave this way (mmm) Sometimes I don't Know how I survived You picked me up You threw me in the sky And when I fell you let me hit the ground (oh, oh) I still felt alone with you around (mmm) I learned my lesson (lesson) Yeah shit got hectic (hectic) But all in all the experience it was a blessing (yeah) You taught me patience (patience) Can't skip the basics (basics) Seems like you only wanted me for that sensation (yeah) I remember all the lies (all the lies) All the night you made me cry (made me cry) When you controlled my mind (you controlled my mind) Had me wishing I would die (Had me wishing I would DIEEE) You will never know how I feel (How I feel) I gave my all to you my love was real (My love was Reaall baby) But you didn't love me But you didn't love meeee I loved you when I didn't love myself Said you love me, but you only love yourself You rocked me so hard You played all your cards right (oh) You played with my heart I might (I mighhhhtt) Might not be the same way, Might not be the same Lay

Its relaxing to listen to it. nice job.

Man this beat brings out a part of me i never even knew was there 🔥🔥🔥

omg soo perfect

i just can't hold on, you treated me oh so wrong, on so many levels, i should have seen the clues, it was your loss, you're the one to lose, chorus , your cheating has destroyed my heart, broken torn apart, why did it end this way? I gave you all my love, you can never say I did not, I tried and then cried, too many nights spent alone without you by my side, the pain the hurt the flowing tide, and now your gone what can i do, left alone with my dream the ideal you, your cheating has destroyed my heart, broken torn apart, why did it end this way? I gave you all my love, you can never say I did not, I tried and then cried,

Absolutely beautiful ~

Very beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing this mood! :) I hope to play it one day on my piano :)

i can't breathe, im suffocating and all i ever do is think about you my mind is on weed my mind isn't free the pain that you've cause me won't let me be me the lies that you've sold i bought every one don't wanna let you go i've lost and you've won everyone tells me to follow my heart i can't even think just don't know where to start you've already hurt me one too many times while im thinking hello, you're saying good bye you're saying goodbye, you're saying goodbye while im thinking hello you're saying goodbye (while im thinking hello you're saying goodbye) you're already lucked up your ' love ' made me fucked up you played with my mind and now it's goodbye why do you have to hate me so damn much why can't you just love me im never enough you don't appreciate the love that i give you say sorry and don't mean it i don't wanna live my mind is on weed my mind isn't free the pain that you've cause me won't let me be me the lies that you've sold i bought every one don't wanna let you go i've lost and you've won everyone tells me to follow my heart i can't even think just don't know where to start you've already hurt me one too many times while im thinking hello, you're saying good bye you're saying goodbye, you're saying goodbye while im thinking hello you're saying good bye (while im thinking hello you're saying goodbye) (everyone tells me to follow my heart) (i can't even think, just don't know where to start) (while im thinking hello, you're saying good bye) (while im thinking hello you're saying goodbye)

This slow rap is for my friends that drowned during Hurricane Harvey. The tragedy broke my heart. I felt like you were super safe from the start. All of my thoughts are filled with darkness. I need a little more time to be heartless. I could do other things but I write this. The weather had no sense of polite ness. And all the time I think of you. Because we make a group, 3 is better then 2. And I know that I know that I wasn't afraid Just to go to the door and then call out your name. And I miss all the memories that we have shared. Like when we made a nice stick lair. All the time, I looked up to you. When you need something I'll be there for you too. And I just wanted to have a better life. All the things are just strife. If you can hear me, Your the best of the friend. I wish your life would never end. I would hang out with you till the day was dead. Now it's goodbye like any time well read. Hurricane Harvey was really bad for Texas. And a lot of my friends lived in Texas and a lot of them died because of drowning.

Man I feel it so deep it's like reliving what I'm already living bro u got me there I'm mean wwwooooowwwww it's special man u got me almost tearing up love it bro

this is art

Do I really have to open up my mind? Stop and freeze the time? To tell you things were never right, I was never fine? Life’s getting crazier and crazier but it all seemed like a lie A big circle encircling the world that we live in; bearing no purpose of life Do I really need to rap this all out for you to finally realize? To finally pay attention to my feelings, to finally break the ice To see through the thin layers of cries, the silence of things that went wry I’m desperately prying this metal cage; I’m giving it all in one try I tried, to salvage this feeling that was long gone It was long lost, emotions always comes with a cost I’m stuck at this junction, this road that is crossed Memories paused, my heartbeat stopped just so I could feel my own pulse My own fault, things never went right cos I’m all wrongs All mistakes and missteps left not forgiven, we all beg and sob Tears painting our pain on the soil; this love is a lost cause You’re long gone, I tried to forget you but I guess I still lost

Great ! Love it

Awesome peaceful music

Motivating my self Esteem Asking me to not be so hard on me Chasing something I cannot see, Lost cause and Found peace Then lost control And found a drink Lose your way And fight the beast Spiral down and it all repeats Past the Brink of life Throwing you to many things at once In between giving up And curious how much more you can take The cool breeze on a nice day, the warm breath from the right Face Soft kiss you can still taste Laughter with the ones you hold Dear and close Even when they go off and become the ghost Maybe it's good to no That we all fall down Years after we crawl And fine are selfs questioning all we ever known, How out of no where you can feel Alone Then feels like that feeling will never Go A random moment when the Return of hope You ever regret something you wrote? I have more than once And I've felt embarrassed about who I was .or what I felt, and couldn't find nothing that helped So i Remained in need of Help, cuz no one wants to admit when you can't help your self Pride is the cost of health When you keep putting others or your self down Then that weighs on your soul even when you don't no I can't tell you what happens when you get old I'm only 29 and this just a little that I probably think I no, and when I do grow old I'll sit and laugh at the stupid shit I thought and in my chair I hope to Rock And watch sunset in my favor spot with the people I saved a spot That's a nice thought I don't think this will be one those things I Regret I wrote That's a step towars some hope ya this was a good mental note

What's life? When you have demons in your mind? Does anyone notice or care when you try to fit in when you care I've tried over and over again A battle that I can't seem to win Who's to say it won't end Who's gonna be there when I'm dead I know suicide isn't an option but when you're stuck and have tried There's nothing left inside

BEAUTIFUL

Crazy Real vibe....

se puede usar sin fines lucrativos?

I tried and I cried but now I just wanna die I see my life set out in front of me and its just straight line that ran parallel to yours until you took your own life. not finishing this

Love this song 😢💜

Amazing

nice piano music i like this

I tried to be sombody but all I got was rejection thrown into my face god forgive me I know I'm a sinner lookin for repentance I'm just lookin for my place please show me your grace this life im livin is full of ups and downs with your faith I'll never fall in the end you'll be their for us all till then I'm gonna be standin tall and keep my back up off that wall every loss thrown in my way is just another reason to grind got answers I gotta find to bad u cant hit rewind gotta focus on the present gotta focus on the matter at hand I call out to god like I'm talkin to a friend this life that I'm livin it's been a long road I hate the devil broke my code how can I go back and make things right cause repentance doesn't happen over night i tried to be sombody but all I got was rejection thrown into my face god forgive me I know I'm a sinner lookin for repentance I'm just lookin for my place please show me your grace .

this is really great

Omgggggg this so nice man

This is just a little bit of what I wrote... I tried so hard that night, To forget the pain that was inside my body. I tried so hard that night, To forget that you have died. You left me all alone; Now I have nowhere to go. I have nobody to hold. I tried so hard that night; I tried so hard that night... Please give me some feedback on what you think. Thank you.

Where can I get the song without it saying 'edoby'

I love it

10 second mark start time - Listen; hear the words I do speak as I Stare at the ground beneath my feet Turn my gaze to the sky and wonder Is God even alive? I know that I try to believe but all I see is pain and suffering And it hurts to say but sometimes when I look at the sky in the day All I see is rain I truly do hate to say it but; sometimes I wish I could die just to see Is God even alive? This isn’t some form of Christian rap And I don’t want this to turn into a preacher’s trap Sometimes I wonder; Is God even alive? Well let me answer that question It’s all based on your heart; and your perception Always listen to what everybody says but ask questions with a; slight inflection Never; ever let someone else’s words on god put you into some sort of; self reflection Because if you wanna get to where you wanna go and be what you wanna be Then you need to understand you and choose if you wanna believe My name is SnV; and yes I’m only 18 but I bring a self awareness and knowledge that is rarely ever seen But with these words that I speak and these lines I preach I promise you I lay my head down at night and I dream No more negative self-obsession; no more negative self reflection Beating myself up over a mistake I made weeks ago that has no correction But I guess it’s a mind state have to deal with now after a Relationship where both sides are not supportive If you’re in one; love the other side and never do abort it It may have been perfect then but it’s not now Believe me; There is a place not so far off in space where it’s the ideal state The type of state where with her; marriage is the goal - you don’t contemplate Because to contemplate is to hesitate and that is not true Don’t you see, we can be what we wish to be if we were to come together - exclusively And I hate to say it but sometimes I think we may not make it I’m kind of confused when sometimes you say that we can do But then you turn around and you act like you never knew And I’m not sure if there’s something going on between me and you that’s Keeping us at an arm’s distance but I wish that We could find some sort of; common existence You see if we were able to do that then Maybe the problems that we face wouldn’t be so fat Maybe we could move on past what we have and Move on forward with our relationship that we think could be so great If we could stop fighting every single day And it’s kind of crazy the way that I look at you and I think I love you more than anything But then I look into your eyes and I realize that Maybe that love is not found and maybe we weren’t meant to be And yes on the inside it’s killing me but sometimes That’s just how it is Damn. I love you Putting this together right now, it's my first project

Your Beats So Far Have Been Very Good 👍 Keep Up THE Good Work! But May I Ask If You Can Make Like A Fast Trap Beat?

simply wow

How do you play this on piano?

Nu ma, si está bien sad :c

Beautiful

This should have billions of views...

I must write...

How much for this beat it pay what you want my dad's dying I really need this beat to express my feelings

I've been look for a beat like this thanks for making it

Omg .... The music makes me cry

When the 8-2-6 jungler types a resigned "I tried" in all-chat after all his lanes lost...

Ich bin grad' allein, ich kann nicht schlafen Sie schreibt mir vermiss‘ dich, hayatim Warum sie perfekt ist? Weil wenn sie in 'nem Benz sitzt Macht sie den Beat laut und rappt mit, ah Sie sagt Baby heut‘ ist Partnerlook Air Max Classic T-Shirt Camerun Und wenn sie Frauen in mein' Video sieht Guckt sie mich schief an Sie sagt mach nicht so, wer ist Latifa? Sie wird zu Diva, ihr Blick aggressiver Aufgeben? Niemals sie greift zu Fifa Ich nehm' FC Bayern, sie AC Milan Mitten in der Nacht, es ist Halbmond Sie raucht eine Shisha auf dem Balkon Sie sagt Baby, es macht bald boom Bald kommt…

Wow this is moving

I love this beat! But can you please make a longer version of this?? Thanks!

Just going through these motions Emotions I can't show it or control it I feel broke so I stay sipping this potion Until I lose my focus Waking up with sheets soaken I'm a product of an omen An anchor in an ocean I ain't floating I'm at the bottom like a slolam Crest approaching Bottom of a totem Slaving for a token Battered from a Roman with commotion As a slogan Sulphur for atonement The government condones it It's legal so I roll it It's legal so I smoke it If evil souls get roasted No one questions where we're going We're Smeagle so we're jones'n to our bones just for the notion Poison melatonin Foil in our deodorant Organics mismanaged Scrolls are not reopened But there's a toll on this road We can't pay but we owe it Never own it someone sold it Before we've been awoken

I tried...but I failed....miserably. I still can't be super mario 3 despite all of these.......YEAAAAAAAAAAARRRSS!...ohhh noohh. I give up....😔

perfect very very nice i love it so thats is really good

its so amazing *-*

What would you do, if you was me, I was you? Would you move on, go and find someone new? I know it hurts, believe that i'm hurting too I guess I can't hide it as well as you Look, I woke up next to the baddest bitch I've ever seen But even then all I could think was you and me My friends tell me "Anth, homie, just let it be" Unless they've been through it They don't know what the fuck I mean So please girl tell me what do I do 'Cus I know that nobody's perfect but I'm perfect for you And girl you're perfect for me That's something you couldn't see I tried to show you but what was the point if you won't believe? Now tell me why did you leave? Do you not love me no more? See I can hide all the pain, but what remains is the scars I was the best I could be I know that I have my flaws But I gave all that I had Spent more than I could afford I spent 5 thousand dollars on a ring to call you my Mrs And you still had the nerve to say I gave no commitment? There was no way that I could save ya' Three years is what I gave ya' And then you leave me and go and find a new man three weeks later? My sister thinks you cheated and honestly I don't blame her 'Cus moving on that quick is way too strange of a behavior And I bet that's he's happy 'cus he sees your posting pictures But dawg I bet my life she thinks about me when your with her He don't want you like I want you He don't need you like I need you He don't see you how I see you He don't breathe you how I breathe you And you know it, so tell me, what the fuck you see in him? We both know that you still love me So you shouldn't be with him You should be with me Right here in my home Right here all alone Making love until the morn' You love how I turn you on And one thing that I love and hate the most Is people always change but the memories don't And lately I can't even eat Lately I've been feeling ill When you cannot sleep at night That's when you know shit is real You don't even need a gun You don't even need a pill If you ever wanna die Fall in love and you'll get killed

Hey, I feel like I'm dying right now... I guess... I should say goodbye in case I won't be back here again. To Sad life - I loved you all, I'm sorry.

well done edoby

I need to start making beats like this! very dope indeed!

I'm sorry you missed out when I went to school for the first time, And you didn't have me tell you that you were all mine. I'm sorry you weren't there to take me to the mall, And you weren't there to tell me I have to stand tall. Sorry you weren't the one I saw when I came home that day Or the one I'd run to when I had a bad day. I'm sorry you didn't hear me write these; you'd have been so proud, And you weren't there to lift me up on a cloud. Sorry you weren't there to tell me there's nothing to fear, But then again you should have been here. I'm sorry you weren't the one to teach me to ride a bike, Or the one who took me on my first ride. I'm sorry you weren't the one who carried me on his back. That was my other daddy, the one I actually had! Or the one who held me tight when strength is what I lacked. I'm sorry you weren't the one to hold me when I cried Or tell me I did great when I really tried. I'm sorry you were never there to teach me how to cook Or there at night to read me my favorite book, I'm sorry me as a daughter is what you never had. You will always be my father, but you will never be my dad. 😔💔

THE LAW

Love it,😻

Now, I want to write, thanks !!

The pain that I opened kept me awoken, everyone saw and started joken, they saw my wounds and started pokin, this is from the heart the way these words are wroten, I just really don't like the way they had to come out and be spoken, I kept hurting my self without even knowing, I burned my pain so why is it still going, it's like a dark stream of water that just will not stop flowing, I'm just a lost little boat that keeps on paddling, I've lost the war so why am I still battling, it's like if a snake dies but it's rattle keeps rattling,

I walk around with a smile on my face When in reality all I feel is disgrace Life got me messed up on so many levels Everywhere I turn I see some more of my devils I try so hard to be nice and fit in But every time I try, I fail again I love my friends and I love my fam Butter still I feel like no one gives a damn Every night its just another nightmare Really by now I shouldn't be scared But I'm terrified of what could happen Sometimes I'm scared of just nappin I got all these problems in my head Sometimes I wish I was dead I know it's not the solution But sometimes the air around here is like pollution Every breath I breathe it gets harder While the good memories seem farther I know I got Rachel but I feel like I'm pushing her away I don't show it but all I want is for her to stay People don't understand what I go through I don't even think the ones who say so do I stuggle with anxiety and depression Sometimes I feel like I'm in a compression I feel so stuck and I feel so alone The choices I've made I don't condone I make stupid mistakes Nah, I don't think you can relate Most people try too hard but they just dont understand My emotions are like a tightly pulled rubberband Any moment I may break Trust me that'll be a mistake I take all these pills to try and be normal ha What is normal anyways I've always been stuck inside my own mind It's like a cage and I can't get out, I'm blind

;-; beautiful instrumental bruh :-;