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ENGLISH "Sayoko" Mikito-P (Akane Sasu Sora)
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6 жыл бұрын"But then again, that's nothing new."
I'm so fucking tired.
This is a song that speaks to a lot of people. As such, there are a lot of interpretations. But I wanted to do this right.
Depression, anxiety, and suicide are all very real. There's no magical solution. It's a constant, painful struggle that swallows your life, if you could say it was any way to live at all.
It's something you work through, for what feels like the longest stretch of your life. And getting started is the hardest part, when even the smallest of steps feel like they're on a tightrope.
But please, don't be afraid to get help. There are people out there who want to help you. Just take that first step, and I promise you.
Please be strong. Please be safe.
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Vocals: Akane Sasu Sora
Lyrics: Akane Sasu Sora
Mixing: BriCie (bit.ly/BriCie)
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LYRICS:
There is nothing in my fridge but the pills that I take
and the tea I drink it down with at least twice a day
Every swallow, every bottle, they don’t help at all
I feel like flying as I fall
Not a single thing is clean here, not even my phone
bearing fingerprints and streaks from the grease of my own
tangled hair that wraps around me and strangles my view
but then again, that’s nothing new
I’ve only just, only just now noticed
ugly brown marks, tracing scars along
and across my wrist, from when I missed...
Hesitated, hoped just a bit
So I lie there, with my eyes shut tightly
No, I can’t move, morning light shines over me, but I don’t...
‘Cause I know it’s not for me.
I have friends, but Eri and Takayuki both
seem too busy for a girl who’s still trying to cope
We don’t call, chat, or hang out, no they’re living their lives
I wish I knew what that was like.
I have family, but it’s pointless, I’m faking a smile
‘cause I’m lying through my teeth, and shaking all the while
What’s the point of blood anyway? They’ll never be proud.
I roll my sleeve and let it out.
I’ve only just barely woken up, yet
I want to sleep in this bed forever,
for all of time. I take a bite
apple, that will pale, snow white.
If I climbed up the veranda, lost my
balance and fell, if I made it look like an accident…
Would heaven still let me in?
Oh, those funny shows I cried watching once
and all the music that had changed my entire life, none
None of them speak to me anymore…
What did I love them for?
I’ve only just, only just now noticed
ugly brown marks, chasing scars along
and across my wrist, from where I missed…
Knock on locked door, I open it.
So I lie here, with my eyes shut gently
Body won’t move, but the morning light shining through I see
I let it take me.
I really tried, I really tried, I did…
but they won’t stop, every day only brought more
pain for me… So why should I feel at all?
I wonder as I fall
I’ve always wanted to fly
So God, just LET ME DIE.
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@AkaneSasuSora 6 жыл бұрын
1-800-273-8255 (National Suicide Prevention Lifeline) 1-800-784-2433 (National Hopeline Network) 1-800-366-8288 (S.A.F.E. Self-Abuse Finally Ends) 1-866-488-7386 (Trevor Hotline for LGBTQIA+ Suicide) 1-877-565-8860 (Trans Lifeline) 741741 (Crisis Text Line) You are not alone.
@livi_bwop 6 жыл бұрын
wow these lyrics are so different than the other covers i’ve heard and it’s way more emotional ...
@jmaes7735 5 жыл бұрын
This is a more literal translation... the lyrics most people use are a little washed out in my opinion.
@arturiapendragonkingofknig9808 4 жыл бұрын
Yeah, I had a wtf moment
@JCFan-mt4sh 3 жыл бұрын
Accurate lyrics of original
@gilbertmargallo5269 3 жыл бұрын
Pw
@rumsand 6 жыл бұрын
"You've done well." Everyone deserves to hear that. Thank you for living, for being alive. You've done well.
@rhisayap6865 6 жыл бұрын
thank you whoever you are! Thank you so much! You just don’t know, but this is something..... You’ve done well too!!!! You are working hard! And people around you must be greatful you exist! Have a great day 😊
@ShizukaNee 6 жыл бұрын
This song holds a special place in my heart and everytime I hear it , it always brings me back.
@xinglii7395 5 жыл бұрын
Shizuka-Nee have a good day
@namelessking111 4 жыл бұрын
I remember listening to this during my roughest nights, alone in my room, while sobbing uncontrollably. This gave me so much comfort for nobody understands my depression except for the lyrics of this song that hits way too deep in my soul.
@monbub 3 жыл бұрын
I understand your depression 💖
@Rose_MidKnight 6 жыл бұрын
The lyrics are something that speak to me strongly. I'm just lucky that I didn't scar as much as some people. I'm someone that has taken those steps, the attempts to be better, get better. The first step was always easy, it was being able to love myself that I can't seem to master. I've gotten to the point with my mental illness that I have gotten physical sick. Getting up, moving, breathing, finding a reason to keep going, it's always a struggle, its always like climbing a really tall mountain. I'm sure some of you understand this in some way or another. Man, this sounds so personal but songs like these, they make me feel not so alone, despite the support I already have. It reminds me that, others understand this too. No matter if their situation is worse, or not as bad as mine. Feelings are feelings, and they are all just. It's hard for me to apply these feelings of understanding to myself, but still, it's a nice reminder. You guys are also out there, also hurting, also giving it your all to stand back up. Ahem, I suppose what I was trying to get at was, this song, like a few others I've heard, speak to what I feel. All the pain that I can't put into words are being sung. The thoughts on how to die... I'm sure some of us had similar thoughts. Thank you for another amazing cover.
@pd3422 6 жыл бұрын
Rose MidKnight I can relate to your feelings.
@hallosche5092 4 жыл бұрын
Even though it’s been 2 years since this video came out, I can share the same feelings as you. I guess that’s just a testament to how music can communicate thoughts and feelings that words can’t.
@MikhaelAhava Жыл бұрын
How are you four years now in the future?
@Rose_MidKnight Жыл бұрын
@@MikhaelAhava How am I now? I dunno, it's been a roller coaster. I can at least say I've improved in many ways, and face hardships and got through them. It's been a very rocky uneven road though. I'm in the low part again just as low.
@tinksouffle Жыл бұрын
@@Rose_MidKnight @Rose MidKnight this may sound personal, but I've been getting onto rollercoasters so often that everyone told me to go take a break and love myself more first, but I yearn too much for that high emotional connection but still trying to get up by my own hands only - you'll get there, you've done so well to get this far.
@dienveji 3 жыл бұрын
This is the most eloquent translation hands down
@coreywhyte4991 5 жыл бұрын
"So god just let me die!" It sends chills up my spine everytime. It changed the emotion so instantly. This still remains a favourite.
@monbub 3 жыл бұрын
Everytime I have a mental breakdown or start self harming, I always come back to this song just to listen to my pain being put into words. This song has brought me so much comfort and this version of it is my most favorite. Thank you so much for singing this. Your voice is like a warm hug.
@catcher881 4 жыл бұрын
In case anyone needs this: if your meds aren't working for you and you were diagnosed w depression, i suggest considering the possibility that it might be a different disorder/illness/condition. I mention depression because of how common it is and that it might be the first concern that someone has for which they reached out for help in the first place. I had the same experience of the meds (SSRIs) not doing much to me, and after much research and talking to the doctor, we settled on me having bipolar 2. So now, i take mood stabilizers instead. I finally felt a difference. I intend this with the most care and concern. You deserve a life, you deserve to feel good. I hope you are able to continue on and live. Stay alive, you can do this. 💜
@MikhaelAhava Жыл бұрын
"If I climbed up the veranda, lost my balance and fell, if I made it look like an accident… Would heaven still let me in?" Damn, I almost did try this but someone stopped me.
@MiStiCfeaT 6 жыл бұрын
I love slow covers/versions for this song...it just feels right... and it makes me really want to sing along even more...
@Dancing1Lover2012 4 жыл бұрын
Out of all the translated lyrics I've heard, this one will always remain my favorite. It's so much more relatable and impactful. Thank you for this beautiful cover.
@legoluigi56 6 жыл бұрын
Great job on the lyrics and your performance was incredible~ always good to see you improving!
@emmetval2952 5 жыл бұрын
I have no idea why I’m commenting here over a year ago when i heard this but here i go... This may be out of desperation or some bs coming out of my mind but this song is really what i feel on a daily basis. Well, except for cutting to kill, because i dont cut to kill, i cut like once or twice to feel pain, because its the only thing that’s real for me. I just scratch the rest of the time. Friends don’t really help either because, whether they like it or not, they have their own lives and they won’t admit that they don’t have time for you. The center of my problem comes from my family. You literally can’t talk to them, yet you’re forced to. I come home every day, trying to put on a bright face, but something always ALWAYS goes wrong and I mess up somehow. Then they focus on that for days upon days and won’t let up and its not like parental criticism, it’s nearly cussing every time, and you can’t explain yourself even if you don’t go wrong, and if you explain a good point, you get a point in your face or gut. You can’t have emotion because if u show emotion, you are blamed for incorrect behavior. If you have no emotion, they call you abnormal and want you to change. If you suddenly explode because of all the pressure, you’re dead. Most of the time, i just train myself to not feel anything anymore, but every night i go to bed and think of something i could do to make it better but you can’t. You just can’t. I get suicidal thoughts on a daily basis and funnily enough, heights is one of the common ones too, but cyanide and hanging are most prevalent. I always cry myself to sleep at the end of the day however, and its not pretty. I don’t know if this is a cry for help or I’m just an idiot. But either way at the end of the day i still want to die.
@SandTurtle 5 жыл бұрын
i just want you to know that you should reach out to someone, most people who are on the internet have the same problem and use the internet to cope, please don't kill yourself, we all love you.
@miauchiha741 4 жыл бұрын
Death will come to all of us one, unfortunately for us we mustn't be the ones to decide when it comes to us, it's like being an uninvited guest of the next world. It may be hard and suffocating but please bear with it, you will be rewarded for your patience, each and every second of it will be rewarded just endure it, that's all my religion Islam teaches us, hopefully it helps u even just a little bit🥰🥺🥺
@TehCrystalDolphin 3 жыл бұрын
Hey, I came back here after 2 years. I shut myself off from my family, my friends, the echoing voicing that repeatedly said continuously,” end it all no one will ever hear your suffering.” After countless years of hearing that voice in my mind, after slitting my left arm so many times I can’t count. After wearing all my long sleeves and my sweaters, I’ve come to say you can get through it. I don’t want to witness someone else baring through the same pain. Slowly isolating yourself from others, trying to inflict pain on yourself in order to finally feel something else. Please don’t, those scars will be there forever reminding you and practically baring you back to the past. You can do it.
@wuba5456 11 ай бұрын
4 years ago and you've voiced my feelings, though I don't cut myself because it seems much too obvious. I never get people who freely yell at their parents or come home really late or anything... you live with these people, only makes it worse. I hope you're doing better today. If it doesn't feel like you are then it will someday, and though it'll suck until then you have music, art, any details can make you happy if you try to notice them
@ChaolaoFueChi 6 жыл бұрын
This is the smoothest voice that I've ever heard in my entire life, and call those numbers if by any chance that you are suicidal because that would make the world darker by day by day.
@eazydance 5 жыл бұрын
god, i had no idea how hard this would hit me when i started listening... ive heard the song before and different translations of it but right now i guess its just 3 am and the scope of my situation is harder to ignore than usual and... this dug up a lot of strong feelings that ive been ignoring for months upon months now. i didnt expect for this to make me start crying like halfway thru lol but it feels good to actually address my emotions instead of shoving them away all the time. so thank u for making such a beautiful cathartic cover
@captainlongballs8022 3 жыл бұрын
I really appreciate you using a more real translation. Many times the ideas of self hard and suicidality are completely left out or translated in a way that glosses over them.
@rivkaquella310 Жыл бұрын
I always come back to this song when things are rough. these lyrics especially. it feels right.
@tanahisiansssc48 6 жыл бұрын
I R O N I C . The melody sounds like a slow jazz with a hint of sexiness yet the lyric's soo gloomy. 10/10 Akane. Why does your voice sound soo good???
@JLippold51 6 жыл бұрын
Wow this really hit me. I feel so much with the lyrics especially with the part about family
@JLippold51 6 жыл бұрын
And also the part about friends. Sometimes I feel that I'm not worth the effort for my friends since I can't even cope.
@sabrina.c9377 6 жыл бұрын
I can't help but agree with you. I'm in a similar situation as well but I struggle my way through because I know happier days are waiting for me. Stay strong
@pd3422 5 жыл бұрын
Same here..... but *hoping for better days*~😊
@silhouette_chr Жыл бұрын
Will forever be my favourite cover of sayoko :(
@The_Harsh_Truth 2 жыл бұрын
How perfect lyrics can you write? Him: *YES!*
@sourdz 6 жыл бұрын
Very :100: Edit: Okay I had time to come back and add to my comment but damn this is amazing. I cannot begin to stress how great this cover is. The lyrics are so great too! #1 KZfaqr that excites me with just a notification on upload
@harmonihill3628 5 жыл бұрын
Akane's voice is really soothing. It was raining eariler, and I listened to this, and it almost made me cry. (Again.) this is really sad yet soothing. In someway, this is relatable.
@pumpkinzested4187 6 жыл бұрын
Beautiful as always Akane, and thank you so much for this. I have some friends who are struggling with things such as depression and suicide and it’s nice to see others aware of it and encouraging them to seek help. I hope you make it through whatever’s causing you struggle in life. ❤️
@unbeelievable 6 жыл бұрын
this hit me really hard. your covers and livestreams have helped me through my first depressive episode a couple of years ago which im really thankful for. im going through a rough time right now, but most importantly, this time i know i can get through it. please keep up the hard work
@iAcerjs 6 жыл бұрын
Wow.. this is so strong... it's incredibly well done and hits right in the heart. Thank you so much for this Akane.
@paranormaljuice5311 2 жыл бұрын
I really feel the "ive only just only just now noticed, ugly brown marks tracing scars along and across my wrists, from when i missed. Hesitated hoped just a bit."
@unwantedexpiredyogurt389 3 жыл бұрын
FINALLY SOMEONE who's translation is the most accurate, you did a lovely job! ^_^
@crab4561 6 жыл бұрын
Love how you’re also using singing as a media to deliver an important message Keep it uppppppp the singing is angeliccc
@rainydaizz 6 жыл бұрын
I love your voice. It's so soothing. Perfect for the song. Damn the feels man!
@khakis69 3 жыл бұрын
It's not that I don't like the other English lyrics (I've sang them many times on my own) but these ones are closest to the original meaning and I really love that. The parts about losing your love for the tv shows and music that gave your life meaning always hits hard in the original and I'm so glad it was kept in this version.
@yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh 6 жыл бұрын
I never knew sayoko could sound ever more pretty pitched slightly??? I'm in love holy shit I also love osamuraisan's arrangement!!
@cadence5102 6 жыл бұрын
This is so sad... Once again though, your vocals and lyrics are incredible!
@suz5191 6 жыл бұрын
gosh I love this so much I've heard so many covers of this song, but your rendition is really nice and stands out to me great job!
@iiperplexed3136 6 жыл бұрын
These are my favorite lyrics ever. Thank you so much
@maya-p 6 жыл бұрын
The lyrics yessss...! I always felt the original Japanese version was a bit too dull, this has a lot more impact and I love it!!! ♥
@snivythefencer2898 6 жыл бұрын
I'm on the verge of tears right now Akane. Beautiful. Just beautiful. Thank you for this...
@glo911902 6 жыл бұрын
I love this version so much! Please keep up the amazing work!
@MaryULe 3 жыл бұрын
This cover is great!! The lyrics seem to flow nicely while still holding a true meaning to the original lyrics ^^
@rhisayap6865 6 жыл бұрын
This...... this is so timely! It feels like you’re speaking/singing what’s on my mind~ and tears are rolling down on my face- unstoppable...................
@ZeldaNerd137 6 жыл бұрын
This song is so emotional and I think you got the vibe perfectly. Beautiful
@hung-yenhoang1462 6 жыл бұрын
I wish you could add this to your "Greatest Hits" playlist.
@hung-yenhoang1462 6 жыл бұрын
Thanks Akane!
@zelefex8366 6 жыл бұрын
nice akane, you touched everyones hearts again. I still dont know why you have so little subs, you should haven millions
@jabarilambert344 3 жыл бұрын
This hit right in the feelings
@ElizabethRasmussen562 5 жыл бұрын
It’s sad I’m relating too much to this😭WHY!? 😭I will always listen to this when I’m in trouble. I’ll try. This is so FUCKING ANOYING. I need a permanent vent. Help. God damnt. Fuck life. These lyrics, each and every sentence, letter, word, is perfect and indescribable.💘
@kujaleoseon9352 5 жыл бұрын
this is my favourite cover of this song, you earned yourself a new subscriber
@atekasaeed2418 6 жыл бұрын
This is how I feel every day. I just made an attempt too. This song brought me to tears
@atekasaeed2418 6 жыл бұрын
Justice Optified I appreciate you checking up on me . Honestly I am getting worse. Nothing helps
@atekasaeed2418 6 жыл бұрын
Justice Optified I go to therapy but it doesn't help :( I've called help lines but they just get mean with me :(
@pd3422 5 жыл бұрын
I can relate with you Ateka Saeed😢
@bennpingell3140 5 жыл бұрын
@@atekasaeed2418 try to reach out to places like reddit most people who have an internet addiction are depressed as well i really hope you're alive please respond so i can make sure
@atekasaeed2418 5 жыл бұрын
benn pingell thank you for caring
@stridinghearts 6 жыл бұрын
i wanna give the akane singing this a big hug
@theblitz1687 6 жыл бұрын
I honestly didnt expect this when i clicked on this video. Damn. You are so talented
@itsm3keileigh 6 жыл бұрын
Its so beautiful and i think i have tears on my face
@narwElle 6 жыл бұрын
this is such a beautiful cover! ;;
@ReiyaBlossom 6 жыл бұрын
I'M SOBBING ;w; This was so well done!
@Winter-fj5em 6 жыл бұрын
If your reading this keep reading I just wanted to give you a free hug and tell you I love you and here is a 🍫 chocolate bar :3 this made me cry his voice has come so far
@minekidzUtube 6 жыл бұрын
Your voice always makes my day better!
@ziziyabd7829 6 жыл бұрын
You're angel akane..I'm melt
@RafaelNguyenAlvarez12 6 жыл бұрын
Your voice is soothing
@stevegunawan421 5 жыл бұрын
frick, those are some rlly strong lyrics ;-;
@wolfgirlholo62 6 жыл бұрын
This is the most saddest and impacting cover of this song I have heard
@ayucouldeat 6 жыл бұрын
this is so soothing aA 💕
@kaitlync374 6 жыл бұрын
Love your translation.
@RodrigoATK 3 жыл бұрын
Aun recuerdo la primera vez que salio este hermoso cover♥ siempre lo canto a todo pulmòn... ♪I have family, but it’s pointless, I’m faking a smile♫
@5656_music 5 жыл бұрын
I like your voice very much .
@nathanwill8432 6 жыл бұрын
This!!! makes me glad i subscribed to you
@noahcarson4769 6 жыл бұрын
Great song and great singing. Keep going! :))
@Sam-tk9ry 6 жыл бұрын
omg the song totslly suits ur voice with the lyrics
@justarandomguy4383 6 жыл бұрын
So perfect 💙
@Al_09a 6 жыл бұрын
This is AMAZIN 😍
@lululemon5777 6 жыл бұрын
I'm getting goosebumps ... ;A:
@SimonNZ6969 6 жыл бұрын
I found this oddly pleasant.
@robbieaskew1542 6 жыл бұрын
Finally thank you
@srgazpacho9801 6 жыл бұрын
Loved it :')
@nomore714 6 жыл бұрын
Wow those world in the description are very sad and this is the sad true. Thanks man👍👌
@jrocken20 6 жыл бұрын
Oh my god 😨 why is this so dark but still sound good 😖
@o9xcreep_jilley399 2 жыл бұрын
this what iven looking for
@Nation16 6 жыл бұрын
❤love you❤
@ShadowGuitarNight 3 жыл бұрын
Any guitar tabs for this song? C:
@moemoe5321 6 жыл бұрын
😍
@machiimi6277 6 жыл бұрын
:)
@ryanevans6277 6 жыл бұрын
Babe, All my love.
@Al_09a 6 жыл бұрын
This is AMAZIN 😍
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