I’m so sorry for your loss.🌹🌹

God bless you...

So sorry for your loss

💔💔💔

He’s resting with zero pain or consciousness as well as your pops. No heaven but you can still dream

Thank you! ❤

​@HeatherGray93 you're a beautiful young woman. Keep your head up. You have 2 daughters to take care of.. make sure the next man you bring is clean sober and does not drink. You should think about becoming a motivational speaker. You need to move on from Having pictures of you and him together, he chose not to be. It's just like a break up.

MrBob8618. You might want to check yourself. I think you were good up to “you have 2 daughters to take care of”….after that it’s a bit insensitive and inappropriate. Just my opinion but maybe think about it.

@@mrbob8618 What kinda bs is this comment? She should remove pictures of her husband then comparing him DYING to a normal break-up? No matter how he died, she’s still a widow. She still loves him. He was her husband & the father of her children yet here you are telling her to forget about him & move on. You can’t tell her how to feel & grieve. What is wrong with you?!

​@HeatherGray93 Heather, there's something so impressive about you. You're so self-composed and eloquent in the midst of such a difficult time. I don't even know you, but I admire you so much. Keep speaking- you're very good at expressing hard things. Wishing you peace, love, and a long happy future with your girls.

Thank you.

@@HeatherGray93 You’re naturally so beautiful; modeling, acting, best selling autobiography in near future. You can do anything you set your mind to! Sending ❤💪🙏

@@HeatherGray93 girlfriend what’s your Instagram ? I have a story as well I’d love to connect with ya !

Same. My son died of an overdose two months ago. He did not care about anything else. It’s an obsession. I just wish I knew how to reach him. They have no idea how much hurt they cause while they’re alive and after they’ve died. Addiction is a destructive force that destroys all it touches.

Same here. I didn't care about anything when I was using drugs. Thankfully I've been clean since 3/2009

I've been clean 4yrs. It is all addicts care about but don't think they don't wish it away every second of every day. It's literally hell on earth. Everyone has a story. No addict woke up one day and thought to themselves I'm gonna become an addict today. It just happens and some make it out while others don't unfortunately.

I know that feeling all to well my daddy passed away on Dec.11 from cancer his funeral was Dec.18 then it’s my brother’s birthday on Dec.22 who passed away then here comes Christmas so I still have to put on a brave face for the kids and then boom my birthday is on December 29 so trust me I truly understand that zombie state you describe 😞

And they don't care as long as they make the money.

RIP to your Son & I hope he get justice . God Bless You & Your Friends & Family as well .

I'm so sorry 😢no parent should have to go through this.

Wow this is so so sad 😞 I been clean for 7 years and I caused a lot of trauma on my children to this day they won’t even take cold medicine all because of me they think it will kill them smh 🤦🏾‍♀️ so sorry for this family loss I know exactly how they feel my oldest daughter dad died from an drug overdose three years ago 😢I thought we had more time with him but god had other plans but anyway once again I’m sorry for their loss addiction is a disease and it’s a struggle for anyone that’s going through this just know you are loved no matter what you are loved fly high to all the ones we’ve lost to drug abuse 😢🥺💔🤍🤍🤍🕊

I'm so sorry and saddened..my Billy died as a result of fentynal laced herion..at 16 he was prescribed oxytocin for pain from foot surgery..he sadly managed the addiction in and out of treatment for 15yrs..He died 6/3/20 at 32yrs old..his life and love were gone..no justice was served..the dealer still walks in southwest florida..all of my Billys treatment was in NY..he suffered, I asked him to come live in florida with me, his Momma..he made it 8 months and it killed him within a few hours of purchase..horrendous sad memories of that day..my heart is forever broken..love n hugs to all the grieving families..

They don't expect to die but our loved ones are addicted, chemically changed, body, mind, soul..they do know the risk but are willing to chance it for the relief they are seeking. IM SO VERY SORRY..MY BILLYBOY RIP 6/3/20..

I'm sorry your husband is a victim of this destructive disease. It's so painful to watch the person you love battle with addiction. I hope and pray your husband decides it's time to get clean before it is too late. 🙏 If you ever need to talk, please feel free to reach out to me.

🙏🏻🙏🏻 for you all I have a brother n law thats in his 50's & hooked on zanax & it's sad he saw where I was at 9yrs ago I was hooked on heroin & I finally got tired im 43yrs old I starting using Roxys 30mgs when I was 29yrs old those 14 yrs were Hell . I just hope he can finally get tired before it's to late I would hate for my wife to have to receive that call God Bless 🙌🏻

benzos are horrifically debilitating and destructive .

I’m so sorry to hear about your husband’s addiction, it’s never easy to come to terms with. I hope he can get some help to stop.

You probably know this already, but there has been a lot of fentanyl-laced Xanax and fake Xanax that is really fentanyl, on the streets. I’m in long term recovery and in the recovery field. Often, dealers don’t even know what’s in the bars, because they’re made overseas. Do you know where you can get Narcan, to keep around? I’m glad you found this channel and hope you have lots of support. Prayers for you and your husband. It’s nobody’s fault! Addiction does not discriminate.

And why is it that we think “recreational” drug use is normal behavior? Alcohol kills thousands every year. Drugs kill thousands every year. Cigarettes kill thousands every year. Why are we okay with this. “Everyone” is not doing it, but people say it. Imagine how many people would still be alive today were it not for that one more high! It’s okay, because “everyone” does it. I’ve been on opioids and Fentanyl since 1992 because of my chronic, severe pain in my bones, muscles and nerves. The Gulf War injuries, 7x cancer survivor, 10% survival rate on my first diagnosis of stage four squamous cell carcinoma, massive amounts of radiation treatments and numerous surgeries and more radiation implanted into my tongue and neck. Several times my Fentanyl pain patches dosed too much because of overheating and that’s why I always have Naloxone (Narcan) in my possession and my friends and family know what to do to save me. When my previous VA doctor would “FORGET” to submit my monthly Fentanyl, Hydrocodone, Gabapentin (Neurontin), etc. to the pharmacy, I’d suffer from withdrawals and just want to die from the extreme pain levels. He forgot about 9 months out of 12 months each year. He simply didn’t care. So, I have a fair idea what drug addicts go through in order to chase that “wonderful high” they must have. I’ve never been high in my life and cannot understand why “EVERYONE” does it. I guess I’m just not “NORMAL!” I love the fact that these videos exist, because I don’t want children/teens/young adults to believe that it’s “NORMAL” and that it’s okay, because “EVERYONE” is doing it. Sure, I get some hate for comments I make, because I’m a pragmatic person and people who lack common sense, sound judgement and good morales call me “JUDGMENTAL.” I certainly don’t pass judgement on others, but at times people get their feelings hurt and I simply can’t and don’t control anyone’s feelings. I control only my own feelings.I sincerely appreciate your videos and I’m convinced that lives have been changed/saved as a result of the videos. I wish that the changes brought about were multiplied exponentially. Thanks for listening.

It’s sad but true. If your from America 🇺🇸 you have such a great chance of dieing of tainted fentanyl 💊 pills, when all you wanted was a pain pill! Have compassion for people like him it’s hard to overcome ❤❤

You are on point with that they kids and adults are looking for opioids or Xanax or acid pills but it turns out to be fentanyl they aren’t looking for fentanyl exactly they are looking for the other stuff but it turns out to be something extremely fatal I hope one day the fentanyl stops completely

I would make Big Pharma pay for treatment for all this wreckage.

If you are not an addict you will never ever understand smh 🤦🏾‍♀️

Thank you for your comments and for watching.

Thank you! ❤

😔Still sharing these heartbreaking testimonials with our youngest friends & loved ones.🙏🏻 The younger they learn the better...

Because the government is crooked as well that’s why nothing is being done smh 🤦🏾‍♀️ it’s so freaking sad that everyone is being laced with fentanyl smh so sad and sorry for your loss as well as billy’s

For the love of money 💰 nothing will change until We the people get a different mindset. Health is wealth! I'm trying to enjoy a natural high and live longer After years of self abuse 💜 May God, help Us All🙏🏾

Online?? R u serious…they deliver these deadly concoctions right to your door! Young people make a call and order these drugs like they’re ordering a pizza! So sad!

I’m on a heavy dose for pain and at this time in my life I’d rather die then go thru the withdraws, I’m 58 and can’t imagine getting off it. I think death would be easier for me

inner strength - that is the only thing that keeps a person from taking - whatever they're addicted to - again... some people find something they love more than drugs, like their kids.. that's where they get their inner strength. it's the same with smoking cigarettes.. once you quit, you can never touch one again. get past the detox part, the physical addiction part, and the rest is up to the addict.

I was court order rehab countless times went to jail for 6mths got out started using again for 4mths after being clean 6 mths. After those 4mths it finally clicked and I went to rehab willingly. You don't clean til you yourself is ready. Nothing or no one else will make you get clean.

You can't load this crisis on police. They are not health care professionals of addiction exerts. Opioids are not the only thing US has problems with. Police can't fix tem all. And the facts is that dealing with unlawful drugs is a dangerous. How many cops has had their lives taken fighting the problem. They're putting their own life on the line in their work. Are you? Blaming the police is absurd. They can't fix the problem. And in these situations the first responders are usually the EMTs.

It’s a sad situation they could care less about an addict 🤷🏾‍♀️ I’m an recovering addict of 7 years when I overdosed they treated me like a criminal I was cuffed to the hospital bed the doctor cared more than they did

​@@moongoddess238😢 yes indeed the cops do not care but what I see is our government not giving a care either as they allow the mess to stream through our borders from China through Mexico this is the real crime..my boy was an addict too n he died of fentanyl poisoning..I don't believe for one second that he woke up that day n said I want to overdose today..when are they going to prosecute the dealers for this? Stay strong n be well dear ❤ love n light

Congratulations to your husband on his sobriety 🎉

Yes too the wife you are strong and it’s a reason why god made you that way I wouldn’t know what to do if i experienced that I’ll be a basket case please stay vigilant and keep your mind on god yourself and your children cause they need you so much I’m going to keep you in my spiritual prayers I ask god to cover you and your children with the white light of protection and the white light of positive energy 🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊

Thank you, and congratulations on your sobriety! It is truly the best gift we could ever give ourselves or our families. ❤

Thank you❤

AMEN

Thank you very much for your comments.

Thank you Texas productions for doing these videos you I am for sure you are making a difference and I hope people in other states start doing this because it happens in every state!

We are doing this in other states. 😉 Some of our existing stories are from Florida, Oregon, California, and New Mexico. Next week we will be shooting stories in Topeka, Kansas for 3 days, with over 20 storytellers scheduled. We also plan to have similar Storytelling Summits in Florida, Louisiana, California, Michigan, Maryland, and other locations.

Same to you! One day at a time ❤

Thank you ❤

Exactly! Thank you for understanding. ❤

They blew my husbands case off too. It hurts so bad, he was a person! He was loved! He meant so much to so many.

That was him! Lol ❤ He definitely knew how to pull off the style 😍

Thank you for watching our story. That's my next step. Im just moving up the ladder until i find someone that is willing to help me. I can't, and I won't just let this go. I want some kind of justice for my husband, our kids, and myself!

Thank you ❤

Me too! Supposedly, they are sitting in a destruction bin. 🤷‍♀️

Sorry for your lost. Sounds like a powerful story.

@@TexasPictures Yes it’s

So sorry for your loss.

Thank you for your comments. We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - kzfaq.info/sun/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj

Thank you for your comments.

@christinekowalski6 Congratulations to you on your 7 years of sobriety ❤!!! That’s amazing, not everyone can do this on their own… Everyday is a battle, but it is possible! And yes, it’s very sad when we get no support from our own family, they don’t care. They don’t want to see us succeed! But with God by our side, everything is possible 😊! Congratulations again!!! ❤

Christine, congratulations on your years of sobriety and stay humbled in the fact that you are sober as a result in believing in yourself. You finally got sober for your own well-being and hopefully, you will always remember this fact. Never stray from the emotional struggle you experienced at your lowest point, because that will save you from any future relapse. Good luck and Godspeed.

Congratz on staying sober for 7 years I know it's Esp hard in todays America / world , I have not Drank in 21 years yet nobody mentions it not even my wife & She for 1 knows what Booze does / Did to me 2 DUI's Many Arrests , Driving 50+ miles Blacked out .& More . I wonder if his pills were laced all along " Assumption " as he would have a Tolerance to Opioids esp taking up to 30 + mg a day . ??? It only serves curiosity now tho IMO Truly RIP Billy .

Have you told them you're sorry of everything you did to them whilst using? Have you ever been on the other side? You still think your problem was just yours. All I se is me-me-me bor me and blaming others. You probably put your family and friends through hell. And you need to take responsibility of that

Congratulations on your sobriety, I am proud of you! 👏 👏 👏

If the police had done their job, we as a family may have more closure. It's very frustrating and unfair. An apology, from 1 detective, is literally all I have ever received from the Abilene Police Department in almost a year. Thank you for understanding!

Thank you!

We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - kzfaq.info/sun/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj

Well shucks, thanks.

I agree❤

same here the key is dont abuse it take it like your suppost to myself along with millions of other folks in my age frame would not have any quality of life without there pain medication the punk ass cops know damn well its the fentanyl that is killing all these people and that its not genuine real pain medication from the pharmacy