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I’m really hurting right now. My husband passed away last month. We were married a long time. Going places we always went together is the hardest. Hearing his favorite songs is hard. I wish I could hug him.Thank you for making this video. I hope one day to be happy again. Right now, I just wish he was still here with me.

I lost my beautiful husband 21 days ago and I am in a dark place. I feel for all the others in this position as it hurts 😢

I lost my wife of 55 years in January last year. Her loss nearly destroyed me. Fourteen months later I still experience intense sadness and tears flow. But those moments are far less frequent now. I will grieve for the rest of my life. However, now I’m finding happiness in life. Reality is that love never dies.

I very suddenly and unexpectedly lost my husband 6 weeks ago to a pulmonary embolism. I'm only 40 years old and he had just turned 52 only 3 weeks before he passed. We had been together for 22 years. In fact, we had just celebrated our 22nd anniversary 9 days before his passing. I had been with my husband since I was only 18 years old. We actually met the same week that I graduated from high school. The very last thing on my mind as an 18-year-old kid fresh out of high school and still living at home with my parents was finding my soulmate and settling down, but there he was. It was undeniable. Our bond and connection were almost instantaneous and it didn't take long at all for us to fall in love. The rest is history. We have rarely been apart in these last 22 years. My husband was my soulmate, my rock, and my best friend. We always supported each other and we always knew that no matter what challenges or difficult times we faced that it would all work out and be okay because we had each other. We did almost EVERYTHING together. We were a team. We were one. We could finish each other's sentences and read each other's minds. We had just gone under contract to buy our dream home only 4-5 days before he passed. That's how sudden and unexpected his passing was. We were so excited to start our next chapter in our new home (which I am still going through with in his honor). I feel so lost. I feel like I've been robbed. We should have easily had another 25-30+ years together. He was much too young to go and I'm much too young to be a widow. I didn't just lose my husband, but I lost my best friend. Just his presence alone brought me so much comfort. My parents try to be as supportive as they can, but even they don't know what to say to me and sometimes say things that piss me off. I felt horrible for going off on my 75-year-old mother several nights ago because she hadn't even mentioned my husband since he passed and was just talking and treating me as if nothing had happened, but she just doesn't get it. She told me that she wasn't sure if she was supposed to talk about him. My parents still have each other (they just celebrated their 50th anniversary in May), which I am SUPER grateful for, but NOBODY truly understands what I'm going through. I don't want to feel like my grief is a burden to people and I sure as hell don't want people to think they need to avoid me because I'm "that new widow" who is depressing and miserable to be around. The loss of a spouse (especially a soulmate) is a loss like none other. My birthday is next month and I'm dreading it, because it will be my first one in 22 years without him. I miss him so much it physically hurts.

I’m a widow of 10 years now. I cried everyday for 2 years and wouldn’t move on unto about 4 years. I have now learned to live with it and try to make the best out of it. At times my sad feelings still flare up as if it just happened. There’s so many stages of grieving and everyone is different. I try to stay busy as possible and enjoy my family and friends. It’s a long process to be happy again. Thanks for sharing all your feelings.

I lost my Wife 6 days ago and now im in a dark dark place. Me and my 3month daugther are alone now. I just realized that without her my life stops. She was the oil in my gastank. I miss her every single moment. This 30minutes were good to hear. I love the way you talk about it without all the god wanted me to carry on and...thank you for sharing and showing that i could possibly be happy again without dishonor the memory of my one true love. Max from Hungary

I just passed the second anniversary of my husband’s passing. We were married for 27 years. The first year, I rarely left the house. The second year, I decided I needed to move away to a new city, away from the people and other couples we were friends with, as a couple. I’m just now starting to make new friends, and to learn how to live by myself and be comfortable with it. The tough, sad days are still there and will always be there. Thank you for your optimism and insight. This is a journey we had never planned to take.....

Lost my husband of 29 years unexpectedly 1 month ago today. I miss him so much and it's so hard. My kids are all at home and have been amazing, but the loneliness is unbearable. Thank you for this video. I look forward to the time I can be happy again.

A dear friend of mine sent me your video. I lost my husband unexpectedly on 4/25/2022. We had so much fun that weekend like we always do. We even drove to his hometown to visit his family. My husband and I were together for 15 years. He was not sick. He was a very healthy 54 year old that took care of himself. He exercised regularly and watched what he ate. He didn’t smoke or drink, but yet one morning as he was about to shower for work, he literally dropped. He passed away within 5 minutes. The autopsy revealed he had blood clots in both lungs which he got after getting the Covid vaccine. It’s so much I could say about him. I love and miss him so much. It’s been 8 months; however, it seems like yesterday. I’m going to continue watching your videos. Hopefully, I can get pass 4/25/2022.

“To give yourself a permission to be happy” I think that is the key word and the hardest thing to do after a spouse loss.

Lost my husband a month ago to COVID. I feel guilty when I laughed during a phone call with a friend. It seems life will be meaningless and empty forever. I miss my husband so much. He & I did everything together. I had the best. There will never be another.

I lost Don 2 1/2 months ago, and am very lost and sad without him, I am 72, so the thought of going forward is very difficult right now. But some day I do hope to be happy again. Your videos do help, so thank you.

I understand. It has been 5 yrs since my husband of 50 yrs died. You are a God send to many people. You are helping many grieving widows. I, like you, moved to a different town and it has really helped. God bless you.

This warmed my heart......when i tell people i am a happy widow they struggle because society has shown us that being a widow comes with shame, pain and pity. I was widowed at 27 i lost my husband to suicide, as a young woman i didnt know or experience this process or seen someone being widowed at this age BUT like you say i never wanted the term to define me and decided to do the work. Its 7 years later and what a unique journey, the journey of adjusting my own mindset first and realising that i am still here, i still have this 1 life that matters, i still have 2 amazing kids that i am raising. In summary i realise i am still WORTHY, LOVED and DESERVING of my best life. Thank you for sharing this, so much of what you say i can relate to.

Thank you for making this video. I lost my husband a year ago. We were married for 22 years. Together for over thirty. I have watched a few of your videos. Alot of things that you have said hits home. I do feel lost many times I am hoping to be happy again. Thank you.

My husband had a long talk with me before he died. He told me he didn't want me to be sad for a long time. He also told me to move forward and find new love. It was a difficult talk, but when I start to feel sad I can still hear his words and it helps a lot! It's been 25 yrs since he died and I still miss him but I have more happy days than sad ones....

hi thanks for this video . I came across it just scanning. I lost my husband june 2017 we were married 49years. I am now ready to move forward and this video helped. Thanks for taking the time to share.

Thank you so much this one conversation open myself to get up out of grieving and sadness. It’s been 3 years you where my lightbulb moment❤️ it’s time to live!!!

I just want to say thank you. I lost my husband on 4-4-22 on our 24th anniversary he passed away after a 5 year battle of suffering you have made me understand how and what I’m going through and thank you for opening my eyes to understand that I’m a 45 year old that I still needs to live. Thank you thank you

Beautiful, I needed this so much. Relating to this is really helpful/ supportive, I'm not alone in this.x

Hal, my common law husband, died on June 6, 2021 at 6 pm. We were together for 17 yrs. He had tongue cancer for 2 yrs. and suffered a lot, then he was diagnosed w lung cancer in March and passed away 3 months later. Everything in this house and yard reminds me of him and my memories of him made me feel a pit in my stomach. Grief and crying hits you when you least expect it. I did a lot of praying and reading scriptures an I now feel closer to God. It’s been 9 mo. now and I think I’m beginning to accept it more now even though it’s still hard to get out of bed most days. I made up my mind that I need to move on w my life and not dwell on my grief and thoughts about death and my own mortality so much by holding my thoughts captive and redirecting them . So I started going to the gym again 3 X a week and I’m beginning to paint again. I’m a retired school teacher. I want to move now and I’m glad you said that helped you. New beginnings! Everyone loved him a lot. I’ll cherish the time we had together, but I just can’t stop living bc of his death. He’s I the arms of God now and we’ll meet again. I have to let go and let God be God.

I lost my husband 6 weeks ago. It was a matter of weeks from being diagnosed with cancer until he was gone. It was so fast. I enjoyed this video and know it is possible to move on despite the immense grief I am now going through. I am all alone right now, no one to support me, alot of bills to pay, and not knowing what direction my future holds for me. I'm glad that I have my faith and know the Lord is watching out for me. He knows what is going on, and I know He is there for me. I'm trusting in Him to make me one happy widow that can have a bright future despite all the grief losing a future with the man I truly loved and called best friend.

In 2009 I was widowed at 42. I had all the bills falling on me, so I had to go back to work quickly also. Then 2 weeks after burying my husband, my dad told us that he had stage 4 cancer and I jumped into taking care of him and didn't really have time to grieve. I truly grieved both after my dad passed away 8 months to the day of losing my husband. People thought I was crazy because I didn't allow myself to curl up in a ball and not exist anymore. I just needed to pack up and start my life over in a new place and away from every reminder I had of both of them. It was the best thing I did for myself. I am now married again and I still have moments that I think about my past husband and I am so glad I have a man in my life that supports my bad days as well as my good days.

Ty Leo I needed to hear this it’s 3 months for me today I can’t keep crying & in this depression any more I want to move forward

Wow! My experience is so similar to yours. I recently met a widower with two kids. We’ve been helping each other move forward. Thanks for sharing! Your nails are gorgeous by the way.😊

I just discovered your videos today. Thank you for giving us all some comfort. I unexpectedly lost my husband of 45 years about 18 months ago, and I struggle each day. Again, thanks for reminding us that we are not alone.

Thankyou for taking the time in making this video. It was really helpful as I am going through grief right now and it really is the most painful thing ever .

I tried to listen to you back when it first happened. I just was too grieved, too shocked, too broken. But I hear you now. I am moving toward happiness and freeing myself from the dark night of my soul. It will be 1 year in July 2022. Your right, the grief will never resolve itself, but it gets less heavy.

Lost my beloved June 30 2020 and miss him terribly but I count my blessings every day.... I choose happiness even after 55 years of a wonderful marriage ❤️

Just subscribed - thank you so much for sharing these videos. One day I had a wonderful marriage, loved my husband deeply and was so happy and the next day he was gone after he was hit by a drunk driver. I was devastated and broken into tiny pieces. Left to raise a baby and toddler on my own. Many years later I also remarried and my new husband is also widowed. We help each other with our grief because as you say it doesn't go away we just learn to live with it.

I haven't lost anyone yet, but I appreciate you sharing your experience, and learning to live with your loss. Your positive nature is contagious.

I lost my husband to liver cancer, day before his 59th birthday last year. We are together for 28 1/2 years, I'm glad I saw your video. Only people who experience it will understand what we are going thru.

I really appreciate you taking the time AND energy to make these videos! You are helping so many people. Hugs to you and your family. It's hard, isn't it? xoxo

I lost my husband unexpectedly 3months ago. We were married for 18months and then he was just gone. I've been trying to be strong but these couple of days has really been a struggle. I'm going to 29years old tomorrow. A new chapter is starting in my life and it hurts alot to think about it. Thank you for sharing your story, its encouraging.

Thank you. Finally someone I can relate to that has gone through this. I lost my husband of 17 years to covid last year, and I am going to binge watch your videos now. Thank you.

You are such a good speaker, I lost my husband in 2017 as well and I have not been able to put my feelings into words like you have, even with 3 years of biweekly therapy. Thank you for sharing.

Loosing a husband is one of the hardest things to go through. In 2012 I lost my father, then a few months later my husband died. I felt such a loss and tremendous grief. I took one day at a time, put myself through nursing school then eventually found love again. Let yourself heal and allow yourself to find happiness.

I sold everything we owned and started fresh new everything house car furniture etc nothing reminds me of my marriage or husband . My memories are in my heart . It’s easier . I couldn’t live in the same town or shop the same stores or go anywhere we went .

I lost my husband 2 months ago. It was devastating to lose the love of my life and I struggle every single day. I'm so thankful to have found you. You echo all the things I've felt. Thank you for making me feel a little less out of control and to know that the things I'm feeling are normal... that it's okay to smile again.

You might not have all the professional qualifications, but you know from your experience how to speak to people on this topic and you express yourself beautifully. I find this very helpful. Thank you very much, Leo! God bless you!

You are so real and better than any therapist. Thank you for doing this. God bless!

Leo, I was looking for exactly that! One happy widow! ☺️ I actually searched these terms on here and *boop* you turned up. Thank you so much for your channel, you are helping lots! ❤️

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It's nice to know I am not the only one who has had several of these thoughts. Grief is the hardest thing I have ever gone through.

Thank you for such a heartfelt and hopeful message.

I just found you today. I've been a widow since 9/30/08, so the fifteenth anniversary of his death is at the end of this month. I related so much to what you had to say. Thank you and i will be watching your videos. Take good care.

Dear Leo. Thanks for sharing your experience. It makes our journey through grief less heavy if we know there are possible ways to survive in this desert of living a loss of a spouse. I really hope being a "one happy widow" soon.

Great video. Thanks so much. I guess I’ve been fortunate, but I’ve encountered few people who were reluctant to talk about my late husband, and I don’t know about anyone else, but I got, and still get, a lot of comfort from people telling me something they remember about my late husband, something he said, or how he influenced them.

Thanks for making this honest video's for all of us. I lost mij husband three weeks ago and I am struggeling. Lots of paperwork with a cloudy head is not easy. Tomorrow I return to my workplace, but now as a widow, scary. So I am glad that I find your video's for support. Greetings from the Netherlands, Ingrid (51)

I accidentally found this video this morning and I'm wishing that I had found this earlier. My husband has been gone for 16 months tomorrow. I am still navigating life without him since we did almost everything together for 34 years. I have two wonderful sons and daughters-in-law and 2 grandchildren who are just a call away even though none of us live in the same town. I had a stepdaughter whose constant drama has forced me to brake ties with for my own well-being. At 71, learning to be independent again while missing my other half is a giant step forward that I sometimes feel like I am making a little progress. Thank you for your words.

I lost my husband of 17 years two weeks ago. It was completly unexpected. We met at 18 got married at 19. Thank you so much for sharing

It’s been 5 1/2 months since my husband of 35 years passed. He had a rare, incurable cancer. Even though I have participated in two grief groups, I am very happy I found your channel. I can identify with many of your experiences and look forward to watching more of your videos.

Thank you for telling your story. I’m 70 days widowed & concur on several points you made.

Thank you for sharing your video. As a Widow of just one year, I am still trying to come to terms with this way of existing. You have helped me by just explaining the process and what to expect from myself. I'm glad you found happiness again and just hope that one day, I might too.

I have been widowed over 14 years. I absolutely agree with your assessments of course experiences. Thank you for your honesty.

You are our inspiration. Thank you again, for making this video.

My sister lost her dear husband three days ago. It was very sudden and unexpected. He was much loved by his family and me. I just found this video and I will send it to my sister when I think she’s ready to watch it. At the present time, it’s just so raw and deep for her. Thank you.

So true. I agree with what you said. I am grateful that in moving on I have remarried and am happy again. I did not think that was possible!

I just lost my boyfriend easter night and just found your video and im glad ive found this cause its a struggle daily.and you have answered so many things and feelings im having

Thank you for posting this video. My husband died on Christmas Day in an automobile accident. I find myself depressed some days then other days as long as I’m busy I am ok. I still talk to him I still blow a kiss at his urn each morning before I leave the house because we kissed each time we greeted or departed each other. This video really help me in so many ways! Much love to all of us going through this. It’s a pain no one understands until they become that person who lost the love of their life. ❤

I had posted similar thoughts with many of the same phrasings earlier in the FB group. Being happy by nature was one of the first things that drew my husband and me to each other. Weeks after Bill died, my sister-in-law gave me a wall hanging with a quote about not knowing how strong you are until you have no other choice. I liked it and hung it next to a mirror in my bedroom. When another person gave me the same wall hanging, I thanked her and altered it with inspirational quotes, the largest one is “I choose to be happy” and hung it on the opposite side of the mirror. I have mostly good days now, but when I struggle, I not only talk to Bill in my head, I look at the various quotes and family photos. This helps me. I hope everyone finds what helps them. ❤️

I applaud your honesty on such a tough subject😊

Thank you so much for this video. I buried my husband one week ago and I don’t have to tell you the roller coaster of emotions I’ve been on since. But in my ♥️ I knew that I didn’t want to be a sad widower. I want to live like you said and experience things that we talked about doing. I don’t want to wallow in sadness and wear it like a badge my whole life. I have already chosen to not wallow in sadness. But live for myself and children along with always have my husband close to my heart. Keep the videos coming.🌻🌻💫💫

Thank you for sharing. I lost my husband in 2012 from FTD a form of dementia, It was 6 years of slow decline. Our children were young adults when he died. Hearing your story shows me a picture Of myself and my children I did not recognize. But you have shown me that what I went through was not uncommon. You helped me understand my situation so much better. God bless you.

Thank you for making this video. I have watched many online, but found yours to be very straight forward and honest. I lost my husband just over a year ago, we had been married nearly 49 yrs. I'm looking forward to watching all of your videos, and learning how to live, laugh, and love again.

Thank you, lots of great information! It's been almost 9 years since I lost my husband to cancer. You are right there is need to be able to communicate with people who have gone through this same situation! Thanks again, I subscribed! GOD Bless you!!!

Thnk you for the video, I lost my wife of 31 years 2 days ago, she died in my arms of a massive heart attack. Right now I hurt so bad I can even describe it. I feel dread, sadness, guilt and every other emotion right now. I feel like I’m not even part of the world, feelings I have never had. Is comforting to know I will get better, I have a chance for happiness. I have had a few moments where I laughed or smiled around friends then I feel guilty for doing that. I have never been one to cry, now I cry about everything. I look forward to viewing your other videos. Again thank you.

Thank you. ❤️ I lost my love only three weeks ago and you’ve made me feel hopeful for my future.

Love this so much! Looking forward to watching more!

It's been exactly one month since I lost the love of my life. I've been devastated since it happened. This video has helped me more than you know. I can't wait to watch more of your videos.

I am watching your video and you make perfect sense which I need to take on board . I lost my partner unexpectedly and suddenly last October 2020. We weren’t married , We were together properly less than a year BUT we had a strong connection and I loved him ( I never got to tell him) . Circumstances surrounding his passing has me feeling PTSD and I am still grieving where I am not interested in life still. But I have to keep going and stay strong for my own children . Seeing a professional is hard to afford at present but hearing you encourage me to move forward and find happiness for myself I will try to take on board because I deserve to be happy and I know he would want me to be happy to. Thank you for your advice and wisdom after what you have gone through x

I lost the love of my life right before Christmas. I cannot tell you how much I've enjoyed finding your channel, thank you .

I lost my wife 3 months ago, after 44 years of a wonderful marriage & life together. I agree with your statements about being a "happy person who has sad days", "not being bothered by the small stuff", and strange as it might seem to some who have not yet been on this journey that "losing a spouse has made me a better person". I also enjoyed reading many of the comments of others, many that i can relate to.

It took months after my husband died for me to find any happiness. The first time I smiled and laughed about something when I realized I had a moment of joy, I felt so guilty. It took a while before I realized I had the right to be happy again. I had to learn how to be happy again. He was young. I had not pictured a future without him and I had to learn to find a new kind of future too.

Thank you for posting this video.

This has helped me. I did several videos on my grief journey. It was therapy to me.

Thank you. Your comments ring so true for me. I am happy, with sad moments and that is OK.

Thanks so much for sharing your info!

Thank you for your video. I lost my boyfriend & his daughter in 2017, the year I turned 40. They passed months apart from each other, his was after a short period of illness and hers was after a few years of suffering from breast cancer. It was traumatic, a spiritual awakening & life changing all wrapped into one. I also had to find myself being more understanding than I was receiving understanding from others. Sometimes people were just rude & disrespectful, but they honestly thought that they were giving me good advice. I had to figure out that my grief made them uncomfortable and sometimes even angry & that was because of their own unresolved grief journey. I am just now finding myself wanting to date, but, I still in that thinking about it stage, maybe after my country gets vaccinated, I can actually move into actually meeting someone. But it still makes me super uncomfortable.

You are my blessing today! Thank you!

I lost my husband one month tomorrow and I feel 💔 lost broken alone..😭😭

Hi, I just found your videos. I'm a widow, my husband died Oct. 2019. I struggle with his loss every day. We were married for over 54 yrs. He was my everything "happy". Tomorrow is his birthday, it's going to be a difficult day, I know. Your videos are helping raise my spirits so much, thank you for this---I notice in your videos all the beautiful fabrics behind you and wonder if you are a quilter? or seamstress. Could you share more about that. I'm a quilter. Struggling to get back to my craft. I seem to have lost interest in all the hobbies I once enjoyed. Have a wonderful Easter Sunday. (hugs)

Thank you so much for your wisdom. So many things you said really resonated with me. Those connections to people who will help you heal are vital. You're right that my late husband would not want me stay in my grief. I honestly think sometimes he's nudging me from above to keep moving and be happy.

I’m 2.5 years out, a Covid widow and cancer survivor… I’ve tried to move on… still working.. thank you for this, I need your wisdom to move forward.

I’m a widow of about 10 months. My husband had some significant health issues that he never addressed, so I sort of lived with the knowledge that he’s predecease me. In a weird way I did a lot of my grieving when I made this realization, so I was part way through the stages of grief by the time he passed. Because he died in the middle of the pandemic, I still haven’t been able to spread his ashes as he wished. I feel like once I do that I’ll be able to expand my horizons.

Thank you. Very helpful. I lost my husband of 31 years suddenly just 3 weeks ago on Easter Sunday. I am a complete mess and know I need to push forward for our 4 children, but I truly am struggling. Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you for your brutal honesty!

I lost my husband 2 weeks ago...I went from being married to a single mother...everything is so crazy for me...alot of changes and I'm feeling like it's being forced on me

My husband died last October I have started to go to grief share meetings. It really helped me.

I lost my wife on 20.Dec/2020 lived tagather for 42yrs how to live alone knows nothing feels like wondering in dark.

Oh my! I just stumbled on your channel. You have helped me so much. I lost the love of my life in July and I'm a mess. But your videos are helping me make sense of it all...thank you so much.

Excellent video it’s been two months and I miss him immensely!

Thank you. YOU ARE SUCH A BLESSINGS....

You are so accurate in where I’m at with grief.

I lost my husband 6 weeks ago. I am a widow at age 32, we were together for 13 years. It was a tragic and unexpected death and I unfortunately found him. I am suffering in my grief alone. I have no idea how to live without him, the pain is unbearable. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

I found this very helpful. I have felt so alone and unable to move on. It has been about 4 1/2 months now and all I do is cry. Thank you

My husband passed in April of 2017, one week after celebrating our 27th anniversary. Our family dog had to be put to sleep, the week before, on our anniversary! Turns out, he knew he was dieing, but never confiding in me. He died suddenly at home, on the couch, right in front of me and our two adult daughters. Our son is a Marine and was able to come home, from San Diego, to be with us for his memorial service. My mother in law's aunt actually said in front of everyone there, "We're here today, for you, Maryann!" As if, she (his mother) was more important than me and his children! I was deeply hurt and don't know, to this day, what I did to deserve that. The service was beautiful, but the ceremony at the cemetery was beautifully done by the VA. My husband was a Navy Veteran, and an Admiral presented the flag to me, while our son stood beside me in his dress blues, holding my arm. Then, Taps was played on the bugle, and then the 21 gun salute. He would have been so proud of that tribute, and even more proud of his son! It was a very rough road for me, for awhile. I fell into a deep depression, had to sell my home, and eventually moved into a senior apartment building. Had two stints put into my heart, recently. Still trying to adjust to living as a single woman, again. God bless all who are grieving ❤

I have been widowed twice. When I came to the realization my life wasn’t over but just different my life took a positive direction and I am content. 🙏❤️ 💁‍♀️☕️🙏🇺🇸

Thank you so much for this. I'm 24 and my partner passed away 2/11/21. Our son will be 1 this upcoming Friday. I'm struggling terribly and feel like I don't really know who I am or how to communicate with others anymore. I was his caregiver for 6 months and it all has changed me. Some of what you are saying and just your voice alone is comforting. So thank you for taking the time to share your story to try and help others. May God bless you and your family

thank you, i just lost my partner of 17 yrs 3 weeks ago to suicide, i know he'd want me to be happy, but right now my emotions are just everywhere. i feel like your videos are helping me. you can grieve and still smile, i know it just takes time. i;m trying to do things that make make me happy ,as he was my #1 supporter in everything i do. and i know he'd want that.