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Red flags are different from person to person. My girlfriend posted a suicidal song on Facebook and she never had before. I IMMEDIATELY called her and she didn’t answer. I’m a trucker so was in different state and called her parents and had them rush to our apartment and get manager to let them in. She had taken pills and the speed I reacted saved her. Small things can be big flags.

What hits me the most is the names at the end. Those are actual real names of people who killed themselves because of bullying due to their sexual orientation. And there is a fucking 13 year old. Humanity can be so disgusting sometimes it shocks me every time. Thanks for this reaction I needed something like this

One day me and my dad were listening to music on his phone as we were driving to go get groceries. After a few minutes this song comes on, i didn't know the lyrics or what they ment so i tried to sing along as best i could. When the song ended my dad paused the music and asked me what the song meant, i said i don't know and he told me about the origins of this song. How it was written in tribute to the many lgbtq children who took their lives in September, hence why its called "September's children". My dad told me that after i came out as a lesbian, he listens to that song and hopes that he's doing everything right being my dad. This song is now one of my favorites.

This is a song that I had on repeat, in highschool. I was bullied, heavily, for just existing, for my whole childhood (including high school). I am also bisexual and didn't come out until I was 25. I was never bullied for my sexuality, but watching this again, for the first time, since coming out, hit me hard. Rise Against is one of my favorite bands and this song was one of the reasons. One of the mantras that I continue to use, in terms of my mental health struggles, comes from a band called The Ghost Inside. From "Mercy", the line is "Life's Swinging Hard, but I'm Swinging Harder" (Sorry for the lengthy comment)

Thank you Amanda for reacting to this video and trust me i don't wanted to make you cry. But this song means so much to me. This song speaks from the hearts of so many of us. "Normal" or LGBTQ+ doesn't matter. Bullying was and is a thing that i lived through and am still living with it. The bullying is not that rough as it was in my teens, but when you are mentally unstable it can hurt a lot. And the 2. verse on the song... it can also be done at work, in the public... How many times as a teen did i though about doing this. But living in germany it is not that easy to get a gun - luckily...

In high-scool, I always stuck up for the misfits, and I never realized until years later after to running into some of them; how much it meant to them. I was just doing the right thing, and never thought it was something deserving of the thanks I recieved for it.

My ex girlfriend, who was and will always be my first love took her own life because she didn't find acceptance as a trans woman. I myself experienced a time in my life where there was constant struggle and hate and bullying, (even though I'm "only" gay) when I really wanted to end it all. And I am glad I didn't, because it got so much better. Yes, I do still have those scars from the past and yes, every now and then they do hurt but I am now at a point where I can truthfully say that I am making progress in healing. This song and video mean so much to me because to me personally it was a milestone in fighting back against my bullies. About 4 years ago I showed this video during a presentation in my music class. I just wanted them to know what they were doing to me and for the first time in years, while and after this was playing nobody laughed at me or made a mean/degrading commet. This will always be the reason why this song is so special today.

I love this song. Haven’t even watched the video, but I already want to thank you for doing this song

Rise Against has so many good songs with meaning. They're on my bucket list to see, just never played near when I've had the funds to go. This one always brings tears. Do love the tribute they give in the middle to the kids that all committed suicide (September's children) due to being bullied for "those they chose to kiss." My oldest has had to deal with that as well, but thankfully they've seemed to have made it through to the other side. Currently working for the summer at the beach and making friends and having so much better of a time than they were able to in my backwards, small hometown in the sticks.

Yup, song still makes me cry after all these years. It hits me in a different way though because my son is starting pre K next year which means it’s only a matter of time before my son may have to deal with bullies and I’m not ready. I was lucky enough to not be bullied and have a decent friend group around me. My depression always came from inside me and not from others. But it’s making me so anxious going in to this next stage of my sons life where I can’t go and protect him. Thank you for everything you do Amanda. You really are making a difference

Hello, Amanda. Just came across your channel an hour or so, and 4 or 5 videos ago. Love your positive energy. The song Ghost by Badflower has, and continues to, help(ed) me through my own struggles with putting myself to sleep. One line at the end just always sticks out to me. "The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so f#%&ed." It is a very heavy song and video, so DO NOT watch/listen on a bad day. You are loved, appreciated and right where you're meant to be. 🙂

I grew up in a very deep south rural community like you were describing, and from my experience, It's definitely gotten A LOT better, but it's no where near how it should be, the bullying and isolation was horrendous even if you were Slightly different from the rest of the group (Which I was) Thankfully I got out after almost a year and transferred to homeschooling, but not everyone has that option, we need to really band together and fight back against this kind of psychological warfare that these kids don't even know they're participating in....

id forgotten this song from their discography... it had such a massive emotional weight to me as a teenager during an extremely dark time, that I've mostly blacked out of my memory. nearly a decade later though, and watching your reaction to this just filled me with a feeling of pure gratitude that i am still here and that you and anyone else reading this are too. let's prove them all wrong 💪

I love your channel Amanda, your real and it's not staged . Appreciate you speaking out with mental health ❤️💯

I've been trying to find the exact reason why I enjoy reaction videos. This is why. As it turns out, I enjoy reaction videos because I always want to know what people think about something. I wanna hear what they have to say, their point of views, their sides. Please keep doing this. I'm new here and I love how you react to this song, which I've loved since I was in college.

This song always gets me so bad I struggled so bad through highschool if it wasn't for my two best friends I never would have made it we don't talk much these days but I try to reach out and thank them every now and again because I wouldn't be here without them. I look forward to checking out more more of your channel I think I'm really going to enjoy it

The world needs more intelligent, compassionate, wonderful people. Please keep doing what you do. You are doing so much good work.

This video was honest, and beautiful. Thank you for this.

Este video necesita tener muchisimas mas produccion y reconocimiento, muchas gracias por ser TAN INCREIBLE AMANDA, amor para todos

My love for Rise Against just continues to grow day but day! I really wish I had listened to them earlier in life when I needed to hear what they have to say.

I have loved this song for years, listening to it still gives me goosebumps. Loved your reaction. I so greatly appreciate your perspective.

Rise Against is my second favourite band of all time after Linkin Park. The endgame album is a god damn masterpiece and every song is worth a listen. Honestly though I would love to see a reaction to Hero of War from the Appeal to Reason album as it is the most powerful song Rise Against has done for me.

Thank you, I remember these kids every fall, as part of the LGBTQ+ community I will never forget them. I was in high school, they gave me courage to come out.

You're doing valuable work here. I appreciate you thanks ❤

Bullying needs to end period! I hate reading about suicides in youths and elders. If you’re going through this just know this you are loved, valued and are extremely important. You are beautiful, handsome, smart, loving, kind, gentle, and most of all you have a positive impact on everyone’s life regardless if you see it or not. Be who are and love yourself and to hell what other people say. You are special and you matter!

Thank you for helping People, thank you for being part of the Solution

Huge issue in school that is constantly overlooked is bullying, there's school massacres everywhere, everyone asking why. Here's a example cocktailed with mental health

Rise Against is from Chicago and I’m from the suburbs. One of the names he says in the break, I’m not going to specify who for privacy, is someone I had met in my area a few times as he was friends with a close friend of mine. Sweet kid, would never know he was fighting demons deep inside and when the news broke he had taken his own life we were all collectively shocked. His parents, very religious and by the book, seemed to not care at his funeral that he had passed. That was the first time I ever questioned my beliefs as a human being, and I did so at 13 years of age.

I’ve started following you like 4 months ago and you make so much sense I have tried to end it like 7 times but sense I’ve been following you I feel better how you talk and tell people that following you thanks so much

Rise Against covers some pretty hard topics. I've always grouped them in with what I have coined "Folk Punk". The music is very straight forward skate punk, but the lyrics are from a mid to far left contentious place. You should really check Hero of War. Being a vet it is one of the most hard songs to listen to. Instant tears, can be very ptsd inducing as well. Other good ones are: Prayer for the Refugee Savior Re-Education Ready to Fall Like the Angel

THANK YOU.

Back in school, i was a creature nearly full of hatred, rage, and malice that i didn't find out till recently was aimed at myself. I say creature because I turned my hatred outward, instead of seeking help. I aimed my hatred and malice towards bullies, and ended up becoming what I hated, a bigger bully towards the bullies. I was a hateful, violent person not willing to reach out and get help in healing. It was only after several self attempts and addiction which lead to an OD, that I finally reached out, desperate to 'fix me'. I won't lie and say I'm better or even close. But, I'm getting there, slowly but surely.

I'm a survivor of 22 attempts since 1986. I learned that the pain doesn't stop. It transfers to those who love you. I'm so happy that I found my purpose 8 years ago. No self harming thoughts since. Loving Life!

This song has a very special spot in my heart. I was bullied most of my childhood and tried to end it by OD'ing on my dads sleeping meds when I was 18. The bullying only ended when I put the bully in hospital because he went too far while we were in the workshop at school. I completely crushed his nose and jaw with a hammer, and to this day he needs a feeding tube to eat. I don't feel sorry for him and don't regret doing it. Now I'm 29 and have a wife and daughter who loves me for who I am, and whom I would give everything for. Never give up, because YOU MATTER.

I know I'm a year later here, but I just wanna say this is a song that has saved my life multiple times, just as a reminder that somebody out there cares and that people out there accept me. Thank you

This video really got me. Not because of bullying, but I’ve struggled with Schizophrenia, depression,and bi-polar. And every day for years the three words that are on repeat are “make it stop”

Not enough people react to this! I'm glad you did!

I grew up in a large family, and was taught how to deal with bullying, unfortunately(perhaps) I was taught in large part by siblings who picked on me. And children are simultaneously the most innocent and malevolent people. There is interesting literature about how human development happens and how those not properly reared and socialized end up being cruel or even cruel just out of fear of standing out or standing up. I sometimes think about how much things might have been different if I understood then what I do now. Knowing full well that I wouldn't understand without those experiences. Accepting that path as worth traveling to achieve where I am today and where I will one day be, that's been a game changer. Developing an internal locus of control and empathy toward even the bully, has made every aspect of life not only more bearable, but also illuminating opportunities to shed light and beauty into the world.

Still, after almost 2 decades, sends shivers down my spine and waters my eyes. Can't count how many times I've cried my eyes out listening to this. The memories won't fade. And living with the consquences of extensive bullying is like REN states "a pendulum, eternally swaying from the dark to the light"... There's bad times for sure, but there will be good times again!

Great vid. I am blessed to not have gone through what you speak about, but thought it was awesome as I watched your vid, the license plate on the car in front of me says "uragft"! Awesome.

This song brings me back!!!! I swear this song helped me get through school. I was in I think the 6th grade and my life was miserable. I was bullied by even the teachers. So this song is very close and dear to me.

This song hits you like a fucking truck. We had an english project to show everyone in the class a song with a meaning and talk about the meaning after the song ended. This was the song I chose. I couldn't get through the last part of the speech without being on the verge of breaking down.

Amanda, "Make it stop!" Very appropriate.

Looking back, i eould have missed out on so much. All the friends i made in College, all the bright sunny days, all the smiles of my niece and every single little thing. It does get better, really, it does. I still have bad days sometimes, but they're a lot less bad. I get through them and a better one lies beyond dawn. Don't give up. And for all those, that can find a bit of help in these words: god loves you. He does, I'm 100% sure. He is not like those bigoted people at church. He loves you and he always will. Because you are one of his children and he made each of us, exactly the way we are. Your perfect the way you are.

I love how genuine and real you are. Keep being you. And based on this video, you might want to check out Millencolin - The Ballad.

Such a powerful song and perspective..I'm not crying, you are...sniff...

Don't know the band or song but absolutely great song for Amanda to do a discussion of and a great outcome at the end. Remember the words at the end of a Testament song I know, "Where are you going to, no life's not done with you, You've only just begun, to live your life, for you"

This band is real and touches on real issues ❤️❤️

Yeah, so worried in this day and age about how the kids are to each other. My daughter turns 8 next month, growing up too fast, and I dread what might happen when she gets into the higher grades. When I was in school I was the one who drew in the misfits and bullied because I beat up the bullies and kept my circle safe from that.

I just want to say thank u, bc I already lost some friends, bc of wrong and missguided thoughts, but it always matters it always gets better, even if we are going through hard times I'm pretty sure it always gets better.

never heard this song until now and i was not ready, when i was in highschool, i went to a alternative school and there was only around 100 of us in the school, in one weekend 2 people commited suicide. the day we got back to school was very weird, quiet, we heard them make the announcment but we all already knew at that point, one of them was my friend, self inflicted gun shot, the music video really, really hurts to watch.

Thanks for having the guts to react to this video, as many on KZfaq won’t. Probably the most important video I’ve seen. I’m straight but bawl every time I see this. Thanks again from a schizophrenic, male child rape survivor

Hugs love ya you're awesome nobody should be bullied

Watching this music video makes me drop a tear every time. I'm straight, but I was bullied too most of the time I was in school and kindergarten. For whatever "reason". I guess the "reason" was me being shy and an "easy target". What I'm saying is, there is not a single reason that justifies bullying someone. There is no such thing as a "normal" person. Whether you love men, women or both, no matter what your skin color or religion is, no matter what your hobbies are, you are who you are and you are perfect as you are. It just doesn't get in my head how some people still cannot understand this. Luckily for me it never got so far that I seriously considered suicide, but this song still makes me feel proud of who I am and happy that I'm alive, having great friends which I love and hobbies that fulfill me. And great music I can listen to, like Rise Against. I discovered this band like a week ago and my love for this band keeps growing. Not only is their music sounding great, but also very meaningful. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

They've been one of my favorite bands for 16 years now. They have definitely helped get me through some shit. A song I don't see get a lot of attention is Tragedy + Time. Idc if you do a reaction to it. Just make sure you hear it.

I love your videos, because like you I and a survivor. The worst voices I heard was in my head (schizophrenic) and I always thought it would be easier if I didn't exist. I try to help everyone I can because I know how it feels and the pain. I have a tattoo to remind myself to be open and tell people when I'm off. Please find someone that can be there for you and will listen, they are out there I promise it. I will be that person if you need it.

I like your videos and your message

I have nothing against the LGBTQ+, as long as they leave me be myself, I have nothing bad to about it. I've been bullied my whole life, that I just don't care about people's religion, sexuality, etc. My best friend said she loves my attitude because I don't judge. (Also Savior is a good song.)

Rise Against is a great band! Glad you got to experience them..

Hi Amanda. First time I've visited your channel. Lovely reaction to a video that can be hard to watch, especially since it speaks to your own life experience. Rise Against are a fantastic band. Tim McIlraith, their singer and main songwriter, writes many songs about redemption of the downtrodden (although that doesn't do his songs the credit they deserve). A couple of other songs of theirs I can recommend are: " Survive", " Prayer of the Refugee", "People live here", "Audience of one" and "The Numbers". Hell, they have 11 albums worth of bangers. Check them out. They're great! Take care Amanda and keep making fantastic videos.

I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees.

AA meetings and steps helped me love myself. "They say things like let us love you until you do" I also have a psychiatrist I speak to monthly... I survived an attempt back in may 3rd of 2021 that left me in a coma for 4 weeks

Whatever has happened to a male or a female in this life does not determine your future or your past it only determines how much stronger you will be to go on further and never let the past control your future

Coming back to your channel to rewatch some of your videos and it's got me realizing some other stuff. First off, I love your empathy, it's nice to see some pure emotion, even if it's a negative one. Seeing this video again, I still think the message is important, but I also feel for the cast/extras. Imagine having to pretend you're that disgusting of a human? It helps get the message across, but I hope the people who helped create the video are doing well. They also seem to be late teens/early twenties while the brain is still developing. I've been wondering that more and more when kids and YA are used in media, are they developed enough to fully seperate what their character does from themselves?

My childhood in primary and secondary school was nonstop bullying. Not just simple name calling or crap like that I mean SERIOUS sheet! lol I was a shy kid up until about 28 years old, the bullying pushed me harder into my shell to cope. Here is a short list of some of the best (worst) things I survived though - 6 years old - kids broke my big toes while standing outside class waiting to go into class by stomping on them with their heels (several times), Beaten up many times in and outside of class or even outside of school hours - it got so bad once that I gave myself bruises - in the _hope_ that the bullies would take pity on me and not beat me up for a bit, it made them go even harder! lol At age 16 I was slashed by a kid with a long chef's knife during class by a bully - I put my hands up in self defence and received "Defensive Wounds" that cut my middle left finger to the bone, it took 6 weeks to heal without stitches as nobody would help me get stitches and the school swept the incident under the carpet. I was forced to go into a canoe in a dirty river with the bullies 2 weeks later while the finger was trying to heal by me taping it together with clear plastic tape and elastic bands, I told the teacher I refuse to go into that canoe with them as they will tip me out knowing that I can not swim plus they did this to my finger which has not gotten the treatment it needed so will get infected from that river water when they tip the canoe - the teacher told me bluntly to get in the canoe or leave and don't come back - I quit school right there and then. Went on to become long term unemployed for 13 years and homeless for a bit. During that time I did consider ending my life many times but could never find a way that would guarantee a quick and 100% death sentence that also will not mentally hurt others who find me... Other things that happened was I was pushed over which broke both wrists which I still today decades later have sore wrists that never properly healed, I was run down by a car while riding my bike (both at aged 16 after the finger thing above.) These are the highlights of my pain - much more of course but these are the best bits! lol The finger one was the inspiration for my band's name!! Due to not getting stitches, that finger sometimes feels tingly, numb, normal or occasionally it feels like a brand new FRESH cut finger to the bone!! Quite painful nerve damage right there! Get stitches if you can... Since that time, I have been 18 years full time employed since then, started my own small business and learned how to play all instruments for my band which I started including how to record, edit, mix, master and produce to upload onto Spotify etc. Well and truly out of that shell now! If you have had a bad time in your teens, do not end your life, it TRULY does get better as time goes on!!

Rise Against is one of my favorite bands and they always use their art as a voice for what's right.

Highly recommend listening to Tragedy + Time from Rise Against as well, even if you don't do a video of reacting. It really spoke to me at a low point in my life.

As a Christian conservative who’s also dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts since my early teens and I just wanna say that “Christians” who condemn or shame LGBT people aren’t Christian in any sense of the word. God taught us to love one another, not condemn people based on sexuality or ideology. Any “Christian” that ignores that should be ashamed of themselves. Aside from that though, love the video. This song has helped me out on multiple occasions and I’m glad more and more people are getting to hear it. Your message is a great one and I hope you find more success because this is a message people need to hear

From this video we can learn from it Amanda

Have you done a reaction to I’m not ok by citizen soldier? This and a few of the songs you’ve already reacted to are on my “dark” playlist, it’s rare I listen to it but there’s definitely times when I feel I’m on a downward spiral and this playlist definitely helps. Music frames what goes on in my head better than I ever could

I love this song I hope you do more of their songs actually its not so much in mental health but they have many songs that need telling.

Great videos, amazing to see someone talking about mental health in an informative way. I would love to see you react to the song Bob by Primus, it's a really really dark song about a true story.

Song reminds me of my cousin. 18 years...he jumped off a building with his mother on the phone the whole way down. He was apologizing to her.

I'm just gonna share my own experiences with mental health. And this is how I view it. Life does get better, but there will always be ups and downs. So just because it seems like it gets darker again, does not mean that the light is completely gone. And though it might get better, sometimes pain will remain, at least it did remain with me. That pain doesn't have to be a bad thing however, and you can find a reason for that pain and make it into something good. The way I was able to move forward is to accept the pain that I feel and use it for something positive. I used to be suicidal, but I haven't been for about 4 years now. My pain comes from different experiences in life, being bullied was a huge part of that when I was younger, though that doesn't affect me in any way anymore. Today, my mental health issues comes from other things I've experienced since, that has cause me to get PTSD as well as having another disorder that developed/evolved recently called Schizoaffective Disorder. I was diagnosed with this disorder this summer, but I've had symptoms since I was a child. It just got worse after I turned 20/21 and only now did the doctors realize what caused my symptoms after I suggested that it might be this disorder. Also I'd like to say that I don't mean that the pain will always remain, because I can't speak for any one else, and I still have a long road ahead of me. And I don't know how it works for others, this is just how it is for me atm. But to me, the pain isn't a bad thing anymore. It has become a tool for me to try and be a better person.

Just found your channel today. It's not likely you'll read this comment, as this upload is four months in the past, but I want to say that this is the best take on "September's Children" I've seen. Including ones I've heard in my personal life. Would love to support you, but I'm skimp. Please keep your perspective out there. Would love to introduce you to a song by a band called K's Choice -- maybe someday I'll become a patron.

Small hidden fact. This was filmed at the lead singers (Tim) old high school

There's another song by Rise Against called "Hero of War" that deals with mental trauma of a veteran who went to war as a kid and through horror and tragedy, came home broken. I warn you, it is another one that will absolutely hurt and crush you, but is worth checking out and analyzing. As a veteran whos experience mirrored almost word for word the songs, I can't recommend it enough.

My favorite punk rock band

Rise Against always hits a special way.

I'm a big white 35yo guy, maybe the "safest" combination ever, and I'm a long-time RA fan but after many many years I am still not able to watch this video without crying.

Let’s go baby girl I got you ❤

Bullying: just because you can't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't happen. Why do schools and teacher not get this?

Thank You Amanda,you are the Best❣️❣️❣️❣️

KZfaq put a warning on this and I had to press confirm 3 times before I could watch it.

This song came out while there was a sudden rise in teenage suicides in September of 2010 (I think). It seemed like suicide cases were inspiring other cases and alot of them were LGBTQ+ kids. This song is among a handful of songs that came out trying to help/telling the stories. I think Kesha's "we are who we are" was another one

Rise Against has A LOT of music out there and they always have a good message in their music. look into more.

Rise against and Linkin Park helped me survive the most daunting and hopeless times in my life. I am as of this year longer alive after my last attempt than before. +16 years.

Rise Against have been trying for years to get us to find our collective humanity. If only more people would listen.

Rise againt is an awesome punk band and bring up important issues love this band

Having a gun in your home is extremely dangerous. I can't really relate to that but I'm diagnosed clinical depression so I can "understand" to some extent. I did chamber a round sitting on my bed for hours thinking "it's 2 pound of pressure, 2 pounds of pressure and it will make it stop, they say a bullet travels faster than sound at point blank, it's just turning the lights off". Crying my eyes out, pointing the gun, resting the index on the trigger. Don't ever buy a firearm, especially if you live in the US. Don't, just don't.

Hi Amanda! I came across your videos recently and I find your reactions to songs very informative. I was wondering if you could do a reaction to Lose Yourself by Eminem? It's an incredibly powerful song imo. It talks about Eminem's rough upbringing and his struggle to gain acceptance from his peers in the rap community.

fun fact: the vid was shot in the lead singer Tim Mcllrath's old hs

coming from a suicide survivor please stop the bullying and hate

This is one of my favorite reactions to one of my favorite songs of all time. I am not a part of the lgbtq+ community, per se, though I will ALWAYS be an ally, but I am INTIMATELY familiar with how devastating and debilitating growing up being mercilessly bullied by everyone feels. I personally have never contemplated or attempted to end myself, because I always knew it had to get better, that I had so much more to look forward to. The one thing that I think could have helped me through it better is the knowledge that being "normal" is impossible. We are ALL weird. We are ALL different. The only difference between the bullies and the bullied is usually that we who were the bullied were those who DARED to be different, rather than being "just like everyone else". As an adult, I will ALWAYS advocate for the unheard, the broken, the bullied. If you're reading this and you're going through it, I sincerely say this: reach out. Talk. There is always SOMEONE willing to listen. Don't EVER give up, or give in. NEVER admit defeat, lest defeat admit you. And if the whole world seems against you, I can tell you that I love you. I understand. I am with all of you in spirit. Stay awake. Stay alive. Stay strong. In the words of a beloved animated character who most of my generation will know, Uncle Iroh, "never give in to despair. Allow yourself to go down that road, and you surrender to your basest instincts. In times of hardship, hope is something you give YOURSELF. That is the meaning of inner strength." Be blessed, live your best life, and always remember you don't owe ANYONE an explanation for how you live your own life. Stay strong, my brothers and sisters.

You should do life less frightening next

You should react to the short film Lifelines. It is about self harm. I struggle with self harm and suicidal ideation myself and I love your videos.

Great reaction! I think you'd really like the song One Less Heart to Break by Patent Pending. It's such a powerful song

Linkin Park dropped a previously-unreleased song 'Lost' that was recorded during the making of 'Meteora' (2003) that you should check out. The reason they didn't put it on the record was bc they already had 'Numb' which had a similar sound/energy/vibe. It's prbly the last time we'll get Chester's voice on an LP song (assuming they don't have any more unreleased material in their archives). They didn't remix or remaster it at all so how it sounds when you're listening to it is exactly how it sounded when they first recorded it 20y ago

Fair warning, I get a warning up front by YT before I can watch your video and underneath the video is an inlay that links to local suicide prevention hotlines. Now I don't need that anymore, but I wanted to 1 warn you that you may be age restricted, but also tell you about something cool KZfaq is doing. Not surprised it's a video of yours this happens on because you're more emotionally raw than most channels I watch. They call them 'Crisis resource panels' and I think it's dope.