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First Time Hearing Ronald by Falling In Reverse FIR | Su!cide Survivor Reacts

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Mental Amanda

Күн бұрын

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@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

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@91GT347 Ай бұрын

That pic on your wall is my phones background.lol❤

@DarkPrevaitor Ай бұрын

Being happy and able to love and appreciate yourself is incredibly important. For some it is a very very long way, some may never end it but those that do will become stronger than ever before. Learn to love the darkness you we can see ourselves in the light! Now that you have been listening to a lot of talented singers it may be time to please the eyes aswell. It is a whole differnet style of music but the visuals alone will blow you away. So if you feel like you'd enjoy 10 minutes of an emotionally loaded, visually stunning display of art you might want to take a look at: The Closing Ritual | Defqon.1 Weekend Festival 2022 If you'd like to keep it at a shorter rate of 4 minutes, the following track is the first one in the above mentioned Closing Ritual: Hard Driver - Rise Again (Defqon.1 2022 Closing Theme) | Q-dance Records This is totally different than anything else on here but it'll be worth it every second. The whole event, even if you dislike the music, should be strongly concidered to be put on your "Once in my life"-list. Head high, head first! Cheers.

@gabriellauria Ай бұрын

"afterlife" by citizen soldier would be a good addition to the channel

@BL4CKH34D_07 Ай бұрын

Do react this! famous last words-one in the chamber & the end of the beginning related to your name (su!cide survivor), cs this good one

@franzwohlgemuth2002 Ай бұрын

The song is about finally snapping from being pushed too far... Tech's part is the conscience trying to have a say but ends up making it worse. It dives into the transition from innocence to the harsh realities of life. It's as a blunt outcry against the darkness, recognition of inner demons and societal evils.

@vdeserisy Ай бұрын

Ronnie also did a song featuring Jelly Roll called All My Life. Very different from anything he's done! You should check it out

@KatieB-vr6mw Ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing your Dad's advice. ❤️ I need that!

@Chrisjb8583 Ай бұрын

Great job on the reaction amanda and analysis, keep up the good work.

@user-qr7km4ol9e Ай бұрын

I haven't felt alright since I was 7. And I'm 45 now

@user-qr7km4ol9e Ай бұрын

I also don't remember what it feels like to be happy. It's been so long that if I was in a situation where I should be happy, I will not know the feeling or how to act. Do not understand what happy feels like. Doesn't mean I'm all sad and depressed. It just means I don't know what happiness feels like anymore

@HippyGoLuckyHomestead Ай бұрын

I know what you mean. When I was first Born I didn't talk to my parents for almost two years.

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Was there something that happened around that time that triggered these feelings?

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

When I was on the ledge, it had been so long since I had been genuinely happy. Decades in fact. I'd had moments of elation, like when I met the guys from *N Sync, sure, but I wasn't happy day to day. I felt empty at best and despair at worst. There were many questions I had to ask myself and many changes I had to make in order to figure out what happiness was for me and how to get there. If you would like me to elaborate, please message me on IG (@mentalamanda) or email me (email is in video description). I promise you can find it again, even after all these years!

@user-qr7km4ol9e Ай бұрын

@@MentalAmanda I added a photo now lol

@Soulja4ChristWeAreAtWar Ай бұрын

I like this song already, but your breakdown has made me appreciate it so much more. Thanks.

@jdkoftinoff Ай бұрын

Excellent analysis!!! Thank you, this is better analysis than every other reaction to this song I"ve seen so far! thank you!

@Len_M. Ай бұрын

That is the source of a lot of former Soldiers PTSD. They get touched by the malevolence and really get scared of what they could truely be capable of. Carl Jung was one of the people that brought popularity to the notion of your Shadow. Ordinary Men is a good book, Unit 731 on the Japanese side was truly horrific, they called people Logs in their paperwork to hide some of what they did in Manchuria.

@MentalAmanda 21 күн бұрын

Ordinary Men is such an excellent book. I was introduced to it back when I was watching Breaking Bad in 2021 as a way to show that absolutely anyone can "break bad". I love psychology and I love learning about WW2 and it was a page turner. It's a dark truth most people want to deny, but we are all capable of unspeakable atrocities and all it really takes is being put in a particular situation.

@VXRWPN 21 күн бұрын

Falling in reverse, last resort reimagined is a perfect mental health song!🙏🏼

@d-docnemesis7925 Ай бұрын

You mention at one point that watching those true crime docs as a kid wasn't healthy because - correct me if I'm wrong - it takes away the trust in the world, in a good world where everything goes right in the end, that a kid needs. I kinda felt that. I lost that trust pretty early. And yeah, I watched a lot of age inappropriate stuff, but never true crime or based on true events. My parents made sure that I understood that the things weren't real and it didn't affect me. I lost that trust through life. I experienced chronic illness and pain from an early age, as well as bullying (partly because of it). I had a friend who lost their mom too damn early, two friends who had an alcoholic parent and multiple people who experienced some form of SA as teenagers. What really broke my trust in the world was in 7th grade, when a good friend started opening up about being abused by her own father. It didn't (and still doesn't) go in my head how you can do something like that to anyone, especially your own kid. It also really shook me that hearing it came out of nowhere. There were no signs. The possibility of something like that happening in my close circle didn't even cross my mind. Since it was there it was hard not to believe that everything bad that could happen also would actually happen out of nowhere. Rather be prepared for the worst all the time than be surprised again. As a kid I was always complimented for being so mature. Looking back, I'm not so sure that's a good thing...

@MentalAmanda 26 күн бұрын

I too was complimented for being mature and I am also torn about it. I never connected with other kids. I felt more comfortable and had more fun with my parents until my teen years hit. It stunted my social growth. I was mature because life forced me to be so with my daddy being terminal, mental challenges and knowing that I was "different", dealing with abuse from a babysitter at a young age and growing up in poverty. I think it was the crime shows that made me afraid but life experiences that truly made me see that is isn't just some anomole Ted Bundy figure that is lurking out there somewhere, it's that anyone can turn on you. I still have the ability to trust, but it has to be earned. You mentioned being prepared for the worst at all time, and I think I've settled in a hybrid of that thanks to my mom. She always told me to pray for the best but expect the worst. In other words, be open to good things happening and make choices that encourage those things, but be prepared so if things do go south, you're not shellshocked and paralyzed. It works pretty well for me.

@d-docnemesis7925 26 күн бұрын

@@MentalAmanda absolutely. I can totally relate.

@scottclark3761 Ай бұрын

I always hate it when people talk about their demons....there's no demons...there's just you. We all have a darkness. If you deny it, or try to fight it, it becomes stronger. You have to make peace...and realize it's just you. That has power.

@travisspaulding2222 Ай бұрын

Yeah, I mean, I get the demons thing is just a metaphor, but I agree with you. Whatever you call it, it isn't a 3rd party. The key is to channel it into something productive.

@Ryashon01 Ай бұрын

I mean... the saying isn't literal. Darkness = Demons. Trying to spin it a different way but it's the same thing.

@jamesgreer9366 Ай бұрын

Power or not... There are still demons... Always will be!! And if they ever come out again.... I'll have nothing, absolutely nothing but living that life, I just don't want too!!! But there are a lot of assholes in the world that will always try to drag them out!! That's why I became a hermit crab!!

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

The idea of calling our darkness "demons" can seem like we're externalizing something inherently part of us. However, research suggests that naming and personifying our darker aspects can be beneficial. By giving a name to our darkness, we create psychological distance, which helps us observe and understand it more objectively. This approach allows us to gain insight into our behaviors and emotions without feeling overwhelmed. In therapeutic settings, techniques like externalization separate individuals from their problems, making it easier to address them. It's less about fighting oneself and more about understanding and transforming that aspect. Ultimately, the goal is to find a balance where we neither suppress nor are dominated by our darkness.

@scottclark3761 Ай бұрын

@@MentalAmanda I agree with the ultimate goal. I find when folks get used to externalizing their problems, they tend to also externalize their locus of control. While I see it could be beneficial in a therapujtic setting, in general I am more of a proponent of accountability. A professional therapist should be able to bring your thoughts inwards afterwards. but most folks don't do that on their own. I had to learn to create space within myself to allow some of the darker rages to be known, and make peace with them. I am not saying that is easy....easy to say, hard to do! But my personal turning point was when I realized....it's just me. It's a part of me. Like a finger. That allowed me to return to the center. But it also meant I had to hold these darker sides accountable, and take that accountability on myself. It's kinda hard to describe. But, in general, I dislike an external locus of control, and I worry that a demon is an excuse to stay in that mode. People hate change. Just a counterpoint. Thank you for a well thought response! You're an empathic and caring person.

@TellTheFtruth Ай бұрын

Do the trilogy, what has happened in his Life!!!! The real Story by Ronnie!!! 1) Losing my mind 2) Losing my Life 3) Drugs

@TellTheFtruth Ай бұрын

Great Reaction! Ronnie speaks in my heart.

@user-jo3y2525 Ай бұрын

Everything you said is spot on ! Not enough time . That is very true

@muffinstheterror6459 Ай бұрын

The music at this part sounds like it can be a final boss music

@user-sv9on2wf9i 24 күн бұрын

Sorry to bother you again . I am a disabled veteran and receiving help from the v.a. however I have to watch what I say because I don't want to be committed to the tenth floor. Having some problems,I think about my death all the time. Driving, In the grocery store, in bed just all the time . I have seen so much death that my death bothers me and I don't know why. IT is final,no coming back, no seeing my children,no having a beer,and so on and so on. Just a rotting pile of organic material. Why was I born ? Just to die and never to come back . Amanda,,, why ?? 🇺🇲🇺🇲🪖🪖👮👮🚓🚓. Should I just get it over with now ??? Sorry for dumping on you with all this crap. Thank you 👻☠️💀😇

@MentalAmanda 9 күн бұрын

You're not bothering me. I created this community for people to have a safe place to share. It’s incredibly tough to deal with such persistent thoughts and the weight of everything you’ve experienced. Your feelings are completely valid, and it’s okay to reach out for support. If you’re open to it, I can refer you to veterans’ support groups that might provide a sense of community and understanding since others will be facing similar darkness. Additionally, we have a live stream every other Sunday where others (including quite a few veterans) gather to share their experiences and support each other. It might be helpful to connect with others who’ve been through similar struggles. You’re not alone, and there are people who care and want to help. Message me on IG (@mentalamanda) or email me (in video descriptions) and I can get you the info.

@user-sv9on2wf9i 9 күн бұрын

@@MentalAmanda thank you for the reply. I have been receiving help from the v. A. For a number of years now however it's nice to know that people other then healthcare workers, that is their job to care, do care if you know what I mean ? Seeing people that talk to you because they get a pay check to do so is a lot different then just ordinary people that listen because they care ( like you ) !! Just you replying to me helps very much. Thank you, Frank. Your a good person 😊. 🇺🇲🇺🇲🪖🪖👮👮🚓🚓

@user-sw2xp8tl9b Ай бұрын

Not my typical music but the way you break things down is great and I understand like I would never have if not for the breakdowns

@roger3141 Ай бұрын

This was very interesting, especially listening to your explanation. I normally don't listen to this genre, but I did hear some things I liked. I just found your channel and your story last week. We all have to come to our own personal understanding of ourselves and the universe around us. For me, I believe in the influences of angels and demons, but in the end, it is my own choices that I'm responsible for. Try to do your best, but realize that perfection is unattainable. For me, the forgiveness of a loving God gives me hope. For you it might be something different. I look forward to exploring this new genre of music. May we all find the love and understanding we need.

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

I love that we can all find different sources of hope and am glad that you found something that works for you and can still hold space for my different journey. Emoji I'm glad to have broadened your musical horizons. I have certainly grown a lot from my odyssey into various artists in this community!

@jhemarca2596 Ай бұрын

Did I missed the Watch the World Burn reaction? I think that one as prequel to this has a lot of message as well. Also if not yet done, twenty One pilots has helped a lot of people and their songs are beyond heartfelt.

@WarMooseEternal Ай бұрын

This song is one of my favorites! It goes so hard! I enjoyed your views on this. Tech's verse goes so hard! Also i think youd like tech n9nes songs and alex terrible killed it in this. The duel between him and ronnie is epic Hope you are doing well and having a great day!

@TheSkitzoDrengr Ай бұрын

Still waiting to feel alright if I'm being honest. 33 next month, and never felt okay.

@MentalAmanda 21 күн бұрын

I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this way. I know how tough it is, and it's important to acknowledge these feelings. I spent over two decades in that darkness. Reaching out for support, whether from friends, family, or a mental health professional, can be a crucial step. You can also message me on IG @mentalamanda. Remember, it’s okay to seek help and take steps towards feeling better. You deserve to find healing, and I promise that there is hope even when it feels distant.

@ramaagus7503 Ай бұрын

Next Falling in reverse - voices in my head

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Great song kzfaq.info/get/bejne/adN0orN7ldm4mok.htmlsi=ZjJ5OB58X6Sw3Bnz

@user-dt8zq2ev1h Ай бұрын

That person who told you that in the beginning of video is right you Amanda are a inspiration to us All and someday the world 🌎 and also i agree i wish I knew what the hell they're talking about in there lyrics 🤣😅 Ryan Barron

@Triplexxxtentaion Ай бұрын

React to 'Lean Wit Me' by juice wrld, its a very good song. Rest in peace Juice wrld.

@scotthoran5744 Ай бұрын

Most if not all of falling in reverse have captions you can use to understand what they are talking about... anyways thanks for posting

@ashleycarper1991 Ай бұрын

"Voices in my head" is another deep song by falling in reverse!

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

That is a great song: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/adN0orN7ldm4mok.htmlsi=p0YS3nvl84GQz-rR

@ashleycarper1991 Ай бұрын

@MentalAmanda thank you! I didn't know you did this one. Much love best friend ❤️

@vdeserisy Ай бұрын

yes Ronnie's mom abandoned him when he was a baby

@donaldchapman4312 Ай бұрын

I’m not sure if I’m misunderstanding your story, but I certainly hope you show your child and partner unconditional love, and vice versa. I was lucky enough to have loving parents, they loved me even when I didn’t love myself. Thank God they never gave up on me.

@LemonPlayzYT Ай бұрын

imagine having a good dad

@donaldchapman4312 Ай бұрын

@@LemonPlayzYT I don’t have to.

@LemonPlayzYT Ай бұрын

@@donaldchapman4312 lmao

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

I absolutely do love my son and boyfriend with abandon and am grateful for all of the love I get in return. It's just a different type of love than I got from my parents and doesn't always feel quite as eternal through no fault of their own simply because of the abnormally intense bond I shared with my mom and dad.

@donaldchapman4312 Ай бұрын

@@MentalAmanda I understand. My strongest family relationship was with my grandpa, may he rest in peace. My strongest relationship I had with a partner I ruined while I was in a dark place in my life, through not fault of her own. I ended up pushing her away. I think the real question is how do we strengthen the bond between those that we love and ourselves? That has to do more with how we make that person feel, and in turn how that person feels about us. Is it dependent upon circumstances, or something we can gently nudge in a positive direction?

@BL4CKH34D_07 Ай бұрын

Do react this! famous last words-one in the chamber & the end of the beginning related to your name (su!cide survivor), cs this good one

@SpencerHelle3128 Ай бұрын

Super Hero by Falling In Reverse is also good. Sometimes Your The Hammer. Sometimes your the Nail.

@artoartoartoartoarto Ай бұрын

Do falling in reverse -last resort…promise u will cry 😊😔

@Messynessyxx Ай бұрын

id love to see you check out sleep token... my favourite band, helped me out of a lot of stuff.. are you really okay? - sleep token i think would be up your alley.

@mrcjc9298 Ай бұрын

Jordan Peterson mentioned that book ‘ ordinary men’ as he said, “the scariest thing is, you are the concentration camp guard.”

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

I've read that book and it's excellent because it shows that the potential for hatred and cruelty is in everyone. This idea serves as a cautionary tale about the importance of self-awareness, ethical decision-making, and understanding the influence of authority and group dynamics.

@Latiniel31 Ай бұрын

great reaction

@diegocalvo10 Ай бұрын

React to 'The girl that never was' by James Blunt

@marinedude_06 Ай бұрын

I totally get that, I'm 36 years old. I'm single and disabled. It sucks cause some days I feel like I'll be lucky if I hit 40 and find my significant other.

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

I have seen people find love in their 40s, 50s, 60s and beyond, many with significant disabilities. It's never too late and you are absolutely worthy! But even if you don't find someone, you are still worthy and lovable.

@marcosro5891 Ай бұрын

I only say one thing Lorna shore- pain remains trilogy with subs. Thats all

@apparentlycancerous9988 Ай бұрын

You should check our ren x chinchilla - how to be me ❤

@deferro08 Ай бұрын

so far away , by avenged sevenfold, is a good sugestion for u

@ronburgundy3472 Ай бұрын

I think you should listen to Zach Bryan…. You’ll love him

@beezle1976 Ай бұрын

I used to watch your videos a lot when I was battling my demons. I was doing what I thought was great and even made a few comments on your videos talking about it, but then I got into a relationship with, and I dont say this to be cruel or as a begrudged ex, but pure freaking evil. The word is thrown around too much these days, but she was unadulterated narcissism, a compulsive liar, and an alcohol and heroin addict. The addictions made the relationship difficult at times, but she always paid lip service that she wanted to get better, but she didnt. She enjoyed wallowing in the mud. Around the time I received some head injuries which caused my perceptions to be skewered and I somehow hadnt noticed that she was cheating on me with about a half dozen different people. She even tried to encourage her niece (14 yr old girl) to cut her wrists and drown herself concurrently. I was running back and forward between bathrooms trying to stop both the ex, and her niece from committing self deletion, both drowning in pools of their own blood. She herself was tactical with her cuts... most visual for the least damage, but her niece she was offering real "advice" to. There's many, many other equally heinous experiences, but the point isnt to tell these things, just to give an idea of how chaotic things became and I fell heavily for a long time. Id gotten into this relationship after maybe 10 months of being in the best mental health shape of my life (severe anxiety and depression ruled me for roughly 20 years). It made it very difficult to pick myself back up to have risen but fallen so deeply again. It takes more and more effort every time. The only reason I was able to was because out of nowhere the lady I used to call my soulmate as an 18ish year old boy and "the one that got away" and only woman Ive ever truly loved came back into my life and it's like we'd seen each other yesterday. Things just fell instantly back to how we used to be (never had a falling out, we were just young and she moved to another state for modelling work and we fell out of each others lives). Anyway, point to all of this is that I would still keep an eye on your channel and saw you'd had some falls again yourself. What happened to me and how I pulled myself out of darkness again was a miracle. You wasnt so fortunate and still seem to have picked yourself up, brushed off the cobwebs and tried again. That's very impressive and takes more strength than most will ever have a need to muster. Please be proud of yourself. :)

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Don't sell yourself short! No matter the reason, you recognized the toxic behavior (survivor of narc abuse myself!) and got out of an unhealthy relationship. It's not easy for any of us, but you stuck to your guns and pushed through the discomfort. Yes, I faltered too. I am only human after all! I'm so grateful it wasn't worse. It's not whether we stumble, it's where we decide to go from there. We are BOTH strong! I'm so happy we are both in a better place now. Don't ever forget how strong and worthy you are.

@user-qr7km4ol9e Ай бұрын

Feeling out of place is my normal

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

I remember that feeling all too well.

@Topantoglows Ай бұрын

First time viewer on your channel. Your explanation of growing up with hope in people and then being exposed to the world after growing older was way too relatable and I want to ask you to stop, but no keep that up. that's some good stuff lol.

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Believe me, if I could flip a switch, I would! I feel like adulting is the biggest scam sometimes! HAHA! Welcome to the community!

@deadpoolsnipes537 Ай бұрын

❤❤❤❤😁🇺🇸

@unbyto Ай бұрын

Is it really necessary to put suicide survivor in title?

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Many reactions have a perspective they are coming from. This just lets the viewers know what angle my reaction is coming from.

@EODSnowboarder Ай бұрын

Personally, you (generally speaking) do not deserve anything. Everything in this world is earned. You want respect, you have to first show it. If you do not receive it in return, then all well...move on. If we start this "you deserve" train, then it evolves into this entitlement/victimhood narrative and that is a problem. Just my 2 cent.

@MentalAmanda Ай бұрын

Every person inherently deserves respect simply by virtue of being human. This baseline respect acknowledges each individual's inherent dignity. However, I agree with you that maintaining and deepening respect depends on reciprocal behavior and how individuals treat others. While initial respect is a given, ongoing respect is built through actions and interactions. If respect isn’t reciprocated, moving forward and focusing on constructive relationships is usually the best approach. I think that this perspective encourages personal growth and accountability, helping to build a more respectful and resilient approach to relationships and interactions and avoid the victim or entitlement mentality.