this hit me where it hurt

goddamn, i’m really regretting that i qualified as a “gifted kid”. ever since i was 8 fucking years old and was placed in double advanced classes, i have been struggling with school, home life, and mental health in general. i just wish i had time to grow up normally without having to deal with internal struggles

God, I remember what it was like. I burnt out in 7th-ish grade after I failed an exam for the first time. I basically begged to be homeschooled because my mental health wasn’t helping and I was getting bullied. Quarantine hit and it was basically mandated homeschooling and it actually improved my mental health and grades so much. Of course it was a lot easier work in general but I had like half a day to work on things I wanted to work on. I’m pretty sure I’m one of the only people who can say they came out of 2020 better than they did going into it. Riding off of that, I struggled in my first year of high school, but I took the initiative to take a lower leveled class, even though it hurt. I ended up failing a class (I struggle turning in work) but it didn’t hurt bad. 2nd year of high school was pretty bland. But it was really only up from where I was previously. And now I’m in my 3rd and I’m doing things I want to do. I guess my point is, don’t be too hard on yourself. Everything will pass, and one day, even your own hurtful thoughts will too. Btw Toxic Thoughts by Faith Marie is a pretty good listen for when your feeling down.

I think the worst part about it for non-university students is that you're still kids. Kids don't know their limits. They don't understand when enough is enough. When I was in high school, I would stay up doing work and get maybe 2-3 hours a night. And the fact that parents and teachers push and scare high school students into "well, in college it gets worse" is such bullshit. I'm in college. I started at 22 years old, and you know what that gives you? Perspective. I know my limits. I wish 16-year-old me did too. So, for all you burnt-out kids: your self-worth is NOT tied to the Mt. Everest of work your shitty high school teachers pile on you. You CAN and WILL get into college (if you so choose) regardless of your class rank. You are loved. You are worth it. Don't let some fucking essay on the "Grapes of Wrath" tell you otherwise.

i got a 7/8 for a chemistry test- and told my parents and hearing my dad say 'ooh good job! shoot higher next time' and *then* hearing my mum say 'why didn't you get full marks in the first place? study harder.' broke my little 11 year old heart at that time

Collect your virtual hug here! As so many other comments have said, your true worth has nothing to do with academic achievements and everything to do with who you are as a person. And if you don't know exactly who you are yet, thats ok too. Hang in there :)

I’m a burnt out gifted kid but i’m so burnt out i can’t even finish my assignments at all.

I've been crying and getting mad at memories for the past hour because of the last tiktok. I swear it's the worst felling ever when your parents were like "what do you mean you got 17 put of 20, 18 out of 20 ? You could have got better" and now they are wondering why I'm breaking when I'm frustrated or why I'm "hard on myself". You made me like this. It was your idea to pretend that 7/10 wasn't good enough to get me a great future, that I had to be the perfect kid everywhere or I would not do anything in life. Now I'm just drained and damaged and I don't *want* to do anything in life. I kinda am like those rock pile, waiting for the wind to push them on way or the other, because I can't stand up and pick something for myself, everything I ever did was with you behind my back watching every goddamn thing I was saying or doing. You're the reason I don't feel like I want to live. You're the reason that I just cry when I see things that remind me of my own struggle, you're the reason I'm even inconfortable with myself in the first place. And the worst is really when she say "Oh I'm really proud of her" at family gatherings. Like, Stop lying. Stop fucking lying. You were never proud of me, so stop lying. You're just telling them shit because you want to look better but I know you. You where the one that borned me and raided me. You're the one that makes me feel scared and inconfortable every goddamn day. I know what you're doing, I know how you're playing this game. Now that you realise it's too late. It took me 2 months of love and death and caring and crying until 4 am to heal a little bit, take mesure of my worth. It took you both 2 days and a half to destroy it without even trying. Sometimes i'm just a sobbing mess on my bed or in the corner or the bathroom but never with you by my side. I don't believe in you anymore. I don't thing I ever did. You never helped me when I needed it. You never cared. And now I will not trust you. I will not be by your side. I aspire to be anything that you arent, I want to be a caring, conforting, nice person that you can go when you feel down. I don't want to be the person you're hiding from when you're just shatered on the ground because your brain and society don't give you a break. I'm almost wishing that i'm infertile so I can be sure that if I ever find myself becoming like you, less people will suffer from it. Fuck you mom Oh my god I took this shit way too personaly i'm so so sorry.

*this is a vent* the gifted kid burnout was strong this week. i hate that phrase, because last year i told my best friend at the time "i think im burnt out." and she looked me dead in the eyes and told me that i was too young, too good, that my life was too easy for me to be going through burnout. i think that's when i stopped looking up to her. once i was talking to my "friends" during lunch, and somehow we started talking about crying on command. my day was pretty shitty so when i was the only person who could cry on command i wasn't really surprised, it just felt like crying. i blamed my ability on staring at the lights, and just being good at it, but on girl looked at me. and. she knew. she wasn't even my best friend. my best friend was right there and she didn't notice. she was talking to someone else. but this girl that i'd had barely a few conversations with, she knew. she could tell. and that almost made me actually cry. i was so tired. so so tired. this girl's my best friend now, and i tell her everything. i dont know where i would be without her. but this week was another hard week. i feel like im slipping into a depression or something, i don't know. i feel so numb, so tired. my math teacher takes forever to put in grades, so right now alot of my assignments show up as missing, so i'm failing her class. it makes me feel so embarrassed, so ashamed, but also i can't bring myself to care. im so tired. i want to scream. im angry, but im too tired to be angry. i just want it all to stop. i want it to be over and done with. i want to be 37, living in a blue house with white accents and three adopted kids, and being happy. feeling free. at the same time i want to be 5, singing along to "party in the usa" and arguing with my aunt on pink vs. purple. at the same time i want to be dead, simply not existing. i want to never have existed. i want to not have to feel. im so tired. im living. but im not happy about it. i just want to go to sleep, but i know that if i do, the morning will come faster, and i'll have to go through the world all over again. and again. and again. and again. there's no point in delaying the inevitable, but i will anyways, because it makes me feel like i have some sort of control over myself. one day its going to be over. just a few more years. this school year's almost over. a few more days till the end of the week. a few more months till the end of the year. a few more years till the end of school. will it ever end, truly? senior year seems so far away. and ill dissapoint everyone if i dont go to college. is that another four years? five? six? its so much. i just want to go to sleep. i just want to sleep in, and then crochet myself a top, and then watercolor in the sun. and then sleep. but i cant, and i feel like im dying. i dont want to die. i just want to get out of this cycle. wake up, go to school, go home, cry, go to sleep. wake up. go to school. go home. stress. cry. go to sleep. i cant do this. im so tired. im so sorry, this was super tmi but i just started wiriting and couldn't stop.

I feel like as far as gifted kids go, I honestly never put that much effort into anything and still managed to do alright. Always the thought of- "eh, even if I don't study, I'll end up doing well enough", was something I fell back on a lot. Quarantine hit me hard, and for the last 2.5 years- I cared even less, using the excuse of: "they'll lower the boundaries, we'll all do good." But when things changed, and I was put in a more competitive place to prepare for a serious and difficult exam, I couldn't even get myself to try and study. It's an exam that I was expected to do great in, but now that I have only 2 months left for it, I'm considering not even pursuing it and giving up entirely. Now I feel like whatever does end up happening, the reality will never be enough to meet the expectations put on me for being "the gifted kid". Everyone in the comments, my heart goes out to you.

I used to get A+s without even picking up a book the entire year now I’m barely passing

I had a panic attack during an exam a few days ago and I was so sure I had absolutely failed, I was almost crying afterwards and my teacher tried to comfort me. Then we got the results... 100%, A+. I wasn't happy though, just a little bit relieved.

It hits even more as a "gifted kid" when you have a learning disability. Growing up, struggling to even get the bare minimum led me down a path that secured me in getting all A's, but has engrained such a deep sense of self worth on grades and work ethic that has led to hospitalization from making myself sick (bronchitis, ED, Heart Issues, etc.). To all the "gifted kids" out there, your worth is not the grade on a test, assignment, or exam, your worth is you being true to yourself and the fact that you lived through everything you've been through in life.

ah yes, the drainage of my entire bein that i tried to hide away w my hyperfixations and escapism (:

went from the kid who learned everything fast to the kid who gets stressed out in every subject

i used to be so good at school, there was even a time where i got straight a+'s in a semester. Still getting straight a's, but i am right at my breaking point, and i can definitely confirm that my brain has been overworked, and my intelligence is slowly seeping away from all the homework i have been doing.

this is so real. i go to a private school where all the kids are so smart and the work is so hard. every day i feel so stupid there. i’ve gone there my whole life but when i was younger it was easy. i was the smart kid. my class mates new me as thay my parents did my siblings did. and now i got a 2/20 on my most recent latin quiz. im 2 weeks behind in math. i can barely keep up with the logic hw. i feel like i physically can’t get myself to do the work no matter how hard i try. i just feel so stupid. i want to feel smart again but i’m just so tired

i was crying in the bathroom and then realised the time i "wasted" and then had a panic attack coz of it and after that was done i went to study coz exams with tears on my book

I want to say something uplifting but the only thing I can reliably say is that this video actually just stabbed me in the ribs and left me to die

This video made me cry. It made me feel something real for the first time that I can remember in a very long time. I felt like a person again during and after this video. This video made me realize that I am not okay. And it's okay that I'm not.

I just had my parents evening 30 minutes ago with exams coming up next week, and my geography teacher told me to make sure I take care of myself. Honestly coming out of that meeting I was holding back tears because I realised I haven’t been paying attention to anything to do with my wellbeing, and I attach my self worth to my grades way too much. So much love to everyone here and I know you will all do great things in the future ❤❤❤ good luck to all of you with exams soon and well done to everyone who has already done them!! So proud of you ❤️

i wish i was back in 2020 again, when i was still a gifted kid in school, i wasn’t burnt out, nothing. until last year. 7th grade came along. i was so burnt out and was diagnosed with depression. i was so scared of dissapointing my parents that i pretty much got 60’s on all my tests it wasn’t a great feeling. i hate being the gifted child prodigy that can achieve anything with my “happy go-lucky and can-do” attitude, i hated having to keep that reputation along with being one of the most well-known people in my town. whenever i’d get a 8/10 i’d be yelled at. i havent even started highschool yet and i’m still so burnt out and yet no one seems to care about how i feel. sry for writing this

0:29 is so relatable. I burned out in 6th grade, right after COVID. My grades plummeted. I failed math and my mental health was horrible. I was struggling with self identity and horrible bullies in a catholic school with a total number of students around 150. Then I came out as trans, I moved to a public school, made friends, and now I’m in 8th grade with all A’s and B’s. It gets better, I promise.

this video just made me realized I'm not a burnt out "gifted" kid I just got lazy as shit

5:22 rllyhit hard coz in the start of an acdemic year u choose perticular teachers as your favourite and hope to make them proud in the end u jst watch their eyes as they know ur falling appart

I am a fellow burnt-out gifted kid, I went from being smart, getting all A's in my classes to F's. It's hard. I also recently found out that I have autism. It's hard. And because I am "Smart" in others eyes, they don't think I should get help. I've just had to learn how to deal with it on my own and struggle in silence. I'll keep it that way until I win, I may be burnt-out, but I'm not going to quit.

6:25 I want that when I turn in an assignment T-T

i got this video recommended to me, only to cry over an assignment a few hours later.

This all hits different when the one putting the overwhelming pressure on you was yourself and not parents, teachers, or administrative figures...

These videos remind me that I am not the only one I am in my exam year and stressing every single day about my grades and if I will make it and I am losing my motivation a little bit I mean I’ve always told myself it’s normal and these videos are just calling me out

I want to go back in time with all the knowledge and experience I currently have AS A FAILURE

Tbh im the complete opposite of a gifted kid and i wish i was smart enough to not be so stressed abt not know how to do math or other things i see how much all of u struggle being super smart but i rlly just am tired of feeling like im not good enough bc im not smart enough ik its my faut for not going to school for 2 years bc i was lazy and i hate myself sm for it and blame myself for it i feel so bad for everyone who is tired of being overworked but i just wished i understood things and learned things as fast as all of u im proud of u guys for working through it even when u were so tired of working for hours yall are amazing

At this point i can't study a single thing and my finals here knocking at my doar

i got new friends after i changed classes they dont understand how much a had given up for studies. they know im the "smart" but now im average . they told if i jst put more effort i will get the highest grade and blah blah , that made me want to cry i looked at my past self and feel jealous even when i know that she was broken and realise it,how she made mum and dad proud and the wave of guilt for not trying and being a dissapointed like they rlly expected smth and ive ruined that image.

I was about to write a super long comment about my situation but that's not important for me. I had hard times last year, really hard times but now I feel so much better. I sincerely wish for yall to explore the bright side of your life asap. Plz try not to overwork yourself, especially if it's bc of others. Nobody's worth sacrificing your own health and personality. We can do it *big hug*

Lolzies why is this relatable tho 😍💅✨. Once I got second place in English and my mom got mad and said that she used to cry when she got less than 90. I always thought that I should too.

10:27 this is the most accurate thing i’ve ever seen

As a current gifted kid about two days into my hopefully last year of highschool in 10th grade, that has been burnt out since 5th grade, can confirm all tiktoks. Also thank you for making me feel like im not going insane. Edit: Almost Done, about to start finals, I didn't get better, it got worse and i want someone to notice but i cant muster up the courage to tell anyone, I just gotta be done with school then mabe itll get better

TW…Vent…TW Being “Gifted” since 2nd grade also comes with the fact that in 3rd grade I cried in school over a 70. That is a C. I was a 8 year-old crying over a C. I think about that a lot because my parents tried to teach me that as long as I tried it was okay and they applauded my brother’s C’s and B’s but the shrugged off my A’s because it was my “standard”. Then I got to 7th grade and I hit a wall where I couldn’t get A’s consistently, I stayed up til two every night studying and doing homework, and I still was never enough for them.

1:20 This is the most relatable thing I've ever seen.

I don't know if I was gifted as a child, but I was always told that I was smart and lazy. I would never study but still get A's and B's and I told myself that if I had studied, I would have gotten straight A's. That worked until I finished school. Now I'm at uni and not studying doesn't work anymore. I never really learned how to study and how to evenhabe the motivation to do it. I just seem to barely pass my exams with the tiny amount of work I put in (but I also failed one) and I envy all the hard working people who actually know how to study

10:38 I thought I was the only one ;-;

remember: - You Matter - "Gifted" is not a title that can be taken or lost - You deserve just as much as anyone else - You are not alone - You've got this P.S. a video that helped me kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bb10aqmonLHWeH0.html Edit: way to long

this hit so hard. i was considered a gifted kid since i was 6 and got a major burnout in 9th grade(i'm almost finished with 10th grade now) and the only reason for it was math and spanish

this, I can’t explain how much I feel this.

My burn out started in first year of high school. Since I was little I never get 1st place in school always 2nd, and my parents always reminded me to aim for number 1, so growing up I always got compared to other kids till the point where I thought I will never be enough till I get that 1st place. Then one day in my first year in hs I finally got it but all I get in a return was my parents screaming n blaming each other bcs at the time everyone was too busy with their own work, they forgot to come to my school n get my report, even tho I was already there waiting for their happy face to show up

When I was younger I got to skip ahead in pre-school because I was smart (And the month I was born in), in elementary I was the kid that the teacher asked to explain stuff to other kids, then I transferred schools for 3rd grade onward to a place made for gifted scholars, I was still doing well. Then sometime during 4th or 5th grade everything just broke, I'm still a straight A student but whenever I see my friends doing better than me I feel like shit. I've got a friend who gets everything done within the first two days in our accelerated English class, whereas I procrastinate every chance I get, he responds like "What? How do you mange to do more than 5 after school hours of homework a week?" and I'm sitting here doing 4-6 a night. It hurts and I can't stop comparing myself to them. My friends that get lower grades than me I feel way better than, then I feel like shit because in my mind I'm putting them down so I can feel up.

I always thought that just because i wasn't as messed up as other burnt out kids that I was fine, and it was a phase. Well, it wasn't a phase. Now i deal with more mental problem then i can imagine, and whenever some asked if im ok i say yes because I know if I don't the will give me unwanted attention and pity and i will start cry. Its too much. Im so tired.

when you couldn't finish this compilation in one sitting because it hit a little too close to home...

parents really need to see this. we really are trying but its hard and you cant just force books down our throat- it isnt going to help.

I hate being gifted, one time a teacher told me I had no excuse for an assignment being late because I was gifted, she then said it would be different if it was another kid in the class. I cried a little bit when she told me that. She also made me late for my next class.

In primary school (I'm Australian, basically k-6) I wanted to go to school to do work, I loved it so much, I loved learning, etc. And I hated weekends. Now, in High school I go to see my friends, because they're the only things I didn't have in primary school. And I still hate weekends

I did an essay of the dramatic structure of Oedipus Rex. Now in this class, you get to choose a topic to write your essay about andnI chose the hardest question. If you choose the hardest question, you'll most likely score a 7 which means you did above grade level work. I genuinely thought I was going to get a 7 but when I my essay was handed in I got a 6 which is an A. This utterly broke me. I had been a gifted kid since I was 8 and was in the science magent program for kids who passed an exam at the age of 5. I read at least 2 books a week. I was supposed to be smart and I didnt get the 7. It ruined me. I then stopped caring about my grades and put it any effort. Just enough to pass and get into my dream college University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. I never studied though because I genuinely believed I was going to fail, and if I did, ill jusy become Angel Dust from Hazbin Hotel. I was 13. I was never meant to look in the mirror and think of a failure whenever I saw myself because I got an A on an essay. The gifted kid burnout is real and its terrible. I tried to kill myself many times and i self harmed a lot. Im in a much better place now though. AND HEY, I GOT INTO MY DREAM COLLEGE AND IM IN MED SCHOOL. 13 YR OLD ME WOULD BE SO HAPPY

Right now I feel like if I took the test again I wouldn't be gifted and I feel like an imposter because I'm kind of stupid. currently scared that I'm gonna be a burnt out gifted kid

“Nobody cried. NOBODY EVEN NOTICED!! i saw them standing RIGHT THERE. kinda thought they might care.” (Because Billie said it best)

I was marked as gifted during first grade after being found to have a ninth-grade reading level. My burnout began over COVID when everyone expected me to do distance learning that wasn't even required. People only care about my grades, it feels like. My parents only seem to smile at me when I have As. Every waking day, I worry about my grades and whether or not I'll be enough for people. I'm in ninth grade now. All honors and advanced classes. Standards-wise, I'm a year ahead of my peers and can graduate junior year rather than senior year. It wasn't worth it. For the love of God... It was not worth it.

honestly, im glad i failed the gifted and talented program test when i was 5. do i seem dumber than my two older siblings for being the only one that didnt make it? yes. do i seem to mind? no. im honestly getting better grades than more than half of the gifted and talented kids in my area (they still learn the same concepts as myself and the rest of the grade) because i dont have as heavy of a homework workload after school and can focus on improving things im kinda shaky on. so dont push yourself to pass that gt test. its not really that worth it. all it does is separates you from the rest of the kids in the first few years of secondary schooling.

and now people always expect me to be able to do better but i can't, this is my best

currently in 5th grade. gifted. burnt out. tired. losing sleep. getting bullied. my parents telling me that i need to get my 95 percent up.

But it’s like, if i can’t pull myself together and succeed, then what even am I?

This feels like a personal attack

Bro my teacher put 1 bad grade (on my behavior, and this teacher barely knew and I was turning all my work and shit, cus I talked in class sometimes) on like this 4 week check for school and everyone said not to worry cus it wouldn’t effect ur report card or whatever, but I never had something like this before and broke down crying as soon as I got home many times. (This was last term btw).

Never thought of myself as a gifted kid, but i am burnt out. I was always behind in my classwork, i was in lower grades then im supposed to be, the numbers jumble together and dont make sense, i cried all the time because i was scared to be so stupid, i still do, im burnt out as fuck. Its hard to get out of bed or shower or talk or brush my teeth or change clothes or eat, im so goddamn tired, but i dont deserve a break because i dont do enough to get it, so i just keep going, and it fucking hurts. Im so scared of failure, even though im already at rock bottom and my mom is disappointed in me. Every time i say "im trying mom!" All she hears is that i dont WANT to try, which is wrong, i physically CANT try anymore, my body moves so slow and my head is fucked up. Then she gets upset at me for not doing what i should be, and gets sad when i dont take care of myself or work out like i said i would, but i just physically cant, every time i try i collapse, ive literally fallen to my knees and sobbed multiple times throughout the day in my room because i physically cant take it anymore, she tells me that i need to grow up and this is what its like in the real world, but at this point i dont even know if I'll be around that long. The world feels like its caved in and the rocks are crushing me and i cant breathe. My only escape is the comfort i find in my friends, but even then im tired, they always worry about me because im so sluggish and tired all the time, its clear i dont take care of myself, but they love me anyway. I cant take it anymore i sleep so much ir i stay uo all night hearing my moms voice replay in my head and seeing the look of pure disappointment on her face as i tell her i haven't showered in four days. I literally feel suffocated, i dont have a friends house to go to either bc my mom is always busy and wont take me, im stuck, and im so tired, i just want the pain to stop, i just want to feel rested and happy again, i want to have the energy to actually walk for more than ten minutes without needing to sleep or rest, im so physically and emotionally exhausted and theres no escape. Please just make it stop. Thank you for listening to my rant.

I put in all the effort to make 25 slides on a dog breed we are thinking about getting for my dad to yell at me to finish a homework assignment that will take to 10 minutes to finish when I spent literally like 2 weeks to do that google slides presentation FOR HIM!!! I hate life. 😭😭😭

1:35 is painfully relatable

One time all my grades were 96-100 and on one of my 4 week progress reports, one of my classes dropped to an 89, so I would still be passing, my parents threatened to take everything from me and leave me with nothing but a bed and a desk in my room.

why tf does my youtube recommended gotta call me out like that, goddd

I was the second best in class and I was friends with the 1st best in class. We parted ways and it's been years since I last saw her back in elementary. I hope she's doing okay. (and not crying at the last tiktok like me lol)

I want to cry, but I can’t, there isn’t anything left

damn this really hits.

funny, the school year has been tough on me with many events happening within the family and I'm still being nagged on by others (including family) for not getting some assignments completed :)

its 2 am now i wannna sleeeeeeeeeeep but i will regret it cuz i haven't completed my 12 hours timer yet . entered yt and saw this my moms wakes me up at 6 am to study uuf

i'm that kid who consistently does well but gets hung up on that one time in year 10 when I didn't time manage my exam and got Es (Excellence, like getting an A) on 2 questions but almost achieved (fail) on the other and I knew I failed that one even though I passed? I'm also that kid who thinks achieved is failing and merit is barely passing. So I really felt most of these lol and now I'm year 12 and doing full time dance while trying for scholarships at uni/dance school wish me luck lol

I felt this in my soul lmao

*VENT* I was really good at geography, like I'm talking prodigy, as I've been watching videos and learning about it since I was like 3. And suddenly everything changed. This guy out of nowhere becomes the number one. He's only been doing this for a month or so and I've been doing this for years. Every kahoot, every test, I somehow come 2nd place to him, and it just makes me feel like I'm not good at anything, as academic validation is addicting to me. And on top of that, he's always bragging abt how good he is, and hes always saying how he's better than me, and how I'm so "dumb". Literally this one time he says: " I bet (name) is so mad right now." Mind you, he and another person, his friend make fun of me as well saying the way I run and the way I smile is weird. And my parents always expect me to do good, which puts more salt on the wound.

currently in 8th grade and I know this is gonna hit me like a bag of wet mice in a year or 2

I have sacrificed so much sleep, time, and energy for straight A’s and it’s fucking exhausting

The fact that this video is mostly black background means I can see the bags under my eyes in the reflection. Not a fun reminder of the sacrifices I have made for nothing.

2:08 okay that hit home

This is a rant so here we go: All throughout elementary school I was a “smart” kid, Advanced ELA, sometimes Advanced Math, and basically, my entire personality was good grades. I always had an A or higher, and when I got a question wrong, my parents would go through the test with me, and then if they didn’t understand something I got wrong, they would tell me to ask the teacher, which was basically impossible because I was shy as hell. Fast forward to Covid, where you know, everyone was off school, it was just a fun time for that short while, and then escalated quickly into chaos. 6th grade absolutely sucked, because we had to wear masks, and I put even more pressure on myself to get good grades because it was my first year of middle school and yeah. I got into Advanced ELA that year. I am now in 7th grade, and I got my first B+ in Advanced Math in Tri 1. I was so mad at myself. I felt disappointed, but my parents helped me through it, and they really aren’t as up tight about grades as they used to be, and to be honest, I still am a smart kid who cares about grades, but having fun is important too. We are kids and teenagers and young adults. We deserve to spend our time not just studying for tests and doing hours of homework the minute we get home from school. I’m really happy with my grades and my life, and just remember: GRADES DO NOT DEFINE YOU! GO HAVE FUN!

I've always been top of my class. Every year since i started school but this year idk what's up with me. Last year was really tough for me but i still maintained my grades. This time they dropped so low idek what to do anymore

I have just given up with everything. I got 8% on a science test. I used to get over 60% but I have no motivation to do anything. I try to study but it doesn't help. I feel so drained. I wish I could just be ok. I want to be happy again.

7:04 i have the same penguin

0:28 I’M SHAKING THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I’VE SEEN MONKIE KID IN THE WILD BEFORE

I thought I was burnt out, and I was, but you know what it also was? Clinical fucking depression.

0:28 no becuz im not good at socializing, sports, arts, etc., I'm not pretty or anything, and I have like no real friends. Grades were the only thing I really had, but not anymore I guess. Sometimes I feel kind of useless

1:14 I relate so much omg

I just realized I should've never been born because my mother wanted me to be a child actress and I wanted to go to college and be an engineer. Now I'm stuck in their house and I failed to do either because I had no support from my parents and I have no friends. I just want to end it all.

I remember people being proud of me 😁

The second one 😢

When you still struggle.....

3:22 not the vape 😭

i cant study like i used to. studying was so easy until now. i get distracted, i cant memorize i just cant do ANYTHING. and i question whats the fucking point because nobody even appreciates me anymore. even if i get 97 its "the usual". but if i get bad grades suddenly everyone notices (bad meaning under 90)

me watching this when im studying for an ap class for 5 hours 😀

mfw i don’t pick up studying skills bc i aced everything without trying and now i’m a senior in high school and feel like a fucking failure bc now i need study skills to stay afloat. Also, turns out I had undiagnosed ADHD and my parents refused to get me meds for the longest time bc they thought i would get addicted and shit.

senioritis though 🥲

I have straight A+s but I got one F and I’ve been so burnt out after 😕

I just gave a full marks performance in an exam then too late realised a sixteen marks error which was sO siLLy

when I was younger, about 7 yrs old, I was considered a successful student and everyone thought and hoped that I was gonna go far and be an A+ student but then my dad died and then my motivation just started to decrease every time I got a bad grade. by the time I was 9, I was basically the dumb kid at the back of the class. they told me to do the work, do the work, do the work, when I didn't see a reason to because I either had already learned it and was ready to take the test already or I just couldn't because I had no motivation for anything. so I can't tell if my failure was because my dad was no longer present, because I learned faster than the other students, or because I was burning out. does anyone know the answer to this? please tell me if you do.

Idk why im watching them when I was below average as a kid