Cant find this beat on beatstars g where else do i buy it

even if i ever make a killing, i just hope i make a difference with the way im spitting, mums already proud, but id love to it out, the fucking country now, i show a different way of living, what it takes to win in me i aint comitting, if it aint forfulling, fiddle make me happy i aint afraid of quitting, dont strees my g about holding onto this fear, am i scaredof getting old, or just the way i havent blown, like i was told, and uts noticed by all piers, ive beens screaming u should leave they must notice im still here, getting judged by all these strangers on the net, but i aint stressed they just project, i aint holding back any tears, i seen way to meany death to be moaning about careers, spent over 10,000 hour in this game but, maybe id only get my flowers in the grave yard, i know ur dreading hitting 30 but we aint the same, when u see your people drying early, the youll pray to age, i do it the geaceful way, i aint afraid of grades, still i better luagh last with my baby face, day to say im questioning, this existence, tryna stay gratefull i could never be a victim, as long as it aint fatal then were turning the tables, come before we turn angels, gota celebrate us living, listen ive about had it up to here wit hthis badnes, tryna catch a break but no can do, i pray that we can soon, even tho my talentes greater than that yute, trust ne i aint hating the man blue, thats man u, ive only got myself to blame, i dont give a fuck like im healthy mate, apreciate the sun cah i felt the rain, im on my own path pussy fuck what there elders say, and fuck thus country im ready to dip like i held a blade, this year i gota stay busy blud, making sure not overythink gota make sure that i think enough, see this is where i pick it up, closer to my dresms shit, u can hear my soul right threw the speakers, if i spoke it then i mean it, rolling in the deep, i show a couple cara but if u think u know me then ur eediot, yeah i hate the world my eyes are open i can see it, born alone die alone so thats how im feeling, nobody can do this form, unless u got a open mind you probs roll your eyes if i told u my story, wake up i just dont know how u do it morning after i cant perform cah my brains fucked, im tryna stay sane but, this doesnt feel free, i might run away but i costs money that i still lean, this beanie on ma but u still peak, gues i gota stay busy till i can chill g