I feel like everyone will think I'm a joke or think that I'm just someone who wants attention.

I hate that I’m totally ok with other people being trans, but not myself if I am. The thought is so terrifying.

This video helps me so much, I am trans but i didn't feel trapped in the wrong body I just felt i would be happier being a male rather than a female and I would rather have male parts, I dont even completely hate my female parts I just find i would be happier if i had male parts there and I was born a boy. it was really difficult coming to terms with this and im still in a bit of denial and go through body dysphoria but after this video im just gonna try doing what makes me happy.

One of the things I am trying is using a masculine name on the internet, this is a great video by the way

being transgender is hard

I cry sometimes when talking about this... :/

I've always gone through early childhood like a normal girly girl. Pigtails, tutus, pink, the works. But since I've been exposed to the community when I was about 11, I started realising that the bright pink and ponytails was not me. I started dressing a bit more masculine, but not enough to make any real difference in what people saw me as. I ditched clip bras all together when I was 12, and started binding with 2 sports bras. My mom got mad at me whenever she caught me doing it, but I didn't care. I feel like my dad's a lot more accepting than my mom is, but even he still says I never showed signs of being trans when I was younger. Well, they wouldn't know, because I hid it really well. When I was about 8, I started noticing that I wanted to hang around the boys more than the girls. I wan'ted them to just...Like me, and let me join in on what they did. Of course, they never did, and that's when it kinda sunk in that maybe what I was feeling wasn't normal. So I hid it until I was 12, when I finally told my parents how I felt, and a whole other shitshow started. My mom started thinking that I was saying I was trans to fit in with the kids in my SAGA group. Which, truth be told, I wasn't. I actually hated most of the kids in the group because they either ignored or insulted me on a weekly basis. So I've had to try and convince my parents that I don't fucking know what I am, and that at this point I'm a potato. There's times when I'm not even trying to pass, and strangers will refer to me as male, and it makes me so happy, but then my siblings/parents/unknowing friends will be like "Lol what? That's a girl!" And I hate it. Writing this out...I've gotten it. It's official people, I want to be a boy. Thank you for reading this rant/unwanted life story. I appreciate it

Hey. I was born as a female, and I don't feel comfortable as a girl at all. I want to transition to male, but my mom is really homophobic and transphobic. My step brothers boyfriend is trans and he gave me one of his binders, but I have to hide it from my mom at all times. Even when it's on my body. I wear sweatshirts and layer my clothes so she can't tell I'm wearing one. Im really scared though, because when summer comes, I won't be able to do that and she's going to see the binder and send me back to therapy after screaming at me. (She sent me there the first time because she saw I was binding with 2 sports bras) I don't know what to do because nobody knows that I feel this way. And I'm to much of a baby to tell anyone, do I guess I'll just have to get kicked out of the house? I have no idea. Pls help.

I'm questioning. I was born a girl but I'm leaning towards identifying as a boy but I'm too nervous to actually tell someone. I don't know anyone who is transphobic so I have no reason to be scared. Any advice to help make me more comfortable

My dad just thinks it’s a “phase” and that I’m being influenced by people on the internet. He keeps telling me all of the bad stuff that could happen, like if I ever get the surgery and not feel right. Or that there’s no point not in getting top surgery if I’m not getting bottom surgery, witch is not true at all. I’m only 12, I’m not getting surgery now. I’m not even 100% sure about it yet .I keep telling him to stop talking about surgeries but every time the topic of me wanting to be a boy comes up, he talks about all of the bad stuff. I just want to buy clothes from the boys section, talk to my guy friends in the boys washroom, like they do. I’m excluded from their chats in there. I want a chest binder. All that fun stuff. I wish I could but I can’t. The only one of those options I can do it get boys clothing. Witch rarely happens. I have to drag my parents over to the boys section only to get one t-shirt. There was only one time I went into the boys washroom before. That was when me and my friends stayed at school for study hall. Thats pretty much where you stay for an extra hour to study with friends. Both me and one of my guy friends had to use the washroom so we both went. He asked if I wanted to use the boys washroom like him, since I’ve been telling him about wanting to be a boy. When I went to the washroom I just felt so happy. I couldn’t stop smiling after that. I felt like myself. It’s funny how small things like using the washroom can make a person feel amazing. What I’m trying to say is, you do you boo. Do what makes you feel happy. Dress in whatever clothing you want, as long as it is appropriate of course. Be whatever you want to be. Hang out with whoever you want to hang out with. Just be yourself. It may be hard, I know how it feels. After all, I’m still going through it. But we can all do it together. Don’t let anyone tell you who you are. You’re the only one that really knows you.

Hey! One of my best friends is FTM. He isn't old enough to go through the transformation. His family is very, very homophobic. He cannot come out because they will hate him, and they would even send him to a therapy-thing.. trying to change his mind. Earlier tonight, his parents and family (since they do not know about him being trans) were saying he needs to be a ‘better girl’ and get a boyfriend and to act more lady-like and that he is disgusting and acts like a boy. He gets so depressed and suicidal from his family, and I don't know how to help him. I hate seeing him hurt... and I don't know what to do for him... any advice?

Hi, I'm a trans male, born female. Ever since I was really young I wanted to be a boy. I dressed like a boy and I played with boys. I sobbed whenever my mom tried to get me to wear a dress. When I was in eighth grade I decided to come out. I cut my hair super short, shaved in that popular pixie cut like style and I wrote a speech. Then I chickened out because of my dads family. They are pretty homophobic and awful. I started wearing skirts because my mom said that if I didn't people would think I was a boy and I didn't want that. I did want that. I started chest binding a few months after that. All DIY, Mulan type. I look back now and realize how dangerous that was but I didn't care. First I came out to me friends then to my family a few years later. They were extremely supportive. Many people doubted me because I am a gay trans male but I'm happy with my choice and I feel much happier now.

Thank you. I needed that. I’ve lately been kind of obsessed with having to find out wether I’m trans or not. And honestly, I don’t know. There are times when I think “yes, definitely, that’s me!” , And others when I’m doubting everything. Sometimes I don’t know if my feelings are “real”. I’ve decided I’d jus try stuff out. I’m probably gonna cut my hair short, and see how I feel. I’m just really afraid of what people might think of me. That I only want attention. That I’m trying to be someone I’m not. Honestly, i don’t even know what I’m so scared of, it doesn’t really make sense actually...

I used to be that one kid who was basically who the stereotype on what little girls was based on. Due to that, my recent struggles with gender have been difficult since I've heard that a good amount of the transmasc community was more drawn to things labeled as boy things while I was happy to be girly even if now it makes me kinda dysphoric. Glad I found this video even if it's a bit older.

This is exactly what I needed to hear. I've been questioning for almost 3 or so years, and everyday I just imagine how happy I would be male. I keep going back and forth, and I'll probably go back again, but I think I might truly be trans. So for the first time I've ever done this: Hi, I'm Roman (M) and I'm transgender. Nice to meet you!

I'm 18 and just finding out I'm trans and even though my mom is very blatantly not transphobic I'm afraid to open up because it'll just cause stress and anxiety so I'm just waiting to start transitioning till I leave for college 😔

Hi. First, I just wanted to say that all of the stories in the comment section have really helped me, and I decided might as well contribute my story/position. So, I was born as a female, but I don't want to be a girl. I want to be a boy. I first started thinking, "Hey, maybe I'm transgender," about 3 months ago. Since then I have come out to my close friends, and they accept me. But even though I have come out to some people, I'm still not 100% sure I'm trans at times. It's confusing. Like at some points I am very masculine... actually I am pretty much always masculine. When I was younger I didn't really think about whether I was a boy or a girl. Actually, a few times when I was a kid I thought about, "What if I was a boy?" I tended to play with more masculine toys, (toy cars, and... stuff; I can't remember much). I was forced to wear girls clothing, which I never exactly liked, but I wore it because I didn't think I had a choice in whether I wore girls or boys clothing. More recently I have started to wear clothes that makes me look more masculine. Mostly just border shorts/boys swimming trunks, with a gender-neutral t-shirt in more "masculine colours", (red, blue, black... idk really) I also have short hair. I got short hair *before* I even knew what transgender was. All that I knew was that I wanted short hair, a boys haircut even. I've always been considered a Tomboy. I had a guy friend in elementary school, but we later stopped talking cause he had other friends that he'd rather hang out with. In 7th grade (I'm in 7th grade), I finally got into a friend group. My friend group is all-girls (4 people total, including me) but they are very much like me. I get along with them very well. Now, the dreaded topic of my body, and my dysphoria. I have never liked the idea of me being feminine or having a feminine body in any way, (wearing dresses/skirts, wearing makeup, having boobs, having prominent hips, ect.). I've never liked my soft, round face/body and I wish that it'd become rougher. Luckily, because of my genes, I can grow a moustache, without going on T, but it's a bit strange when the people that don't know that I'm trans make a comment like, "You know you have a bit of a moustache, right?" then I respond with, "I know." Yeah... Anyway, my friends are now all calling me by my preferred name and pronouns (Maxx and him/he/his), and I like it so much more than [Deadname] and she/her pronouns. I wear a binder every time I go outside. I was able to convince my grandma to get me a binder by telling her it was just a type of sports bra. AND, good luck to anyone else reading through this comment section. Hope my story or someone else's story helps you figure out whatever you are going through. :]

I really think I'm trans but my mom always talks about how she's so happy about having a daughter and how she'd be sad if she only had boys and it's just so hard for me to understand myself and how I'm feeling when she's like this. I have nobody to tell about it either

I accidentally came out to my parents too early and theyre transphobic I mean like I told them but they said "you're a girl you just dont like girly things" I c ant tell if theyre im denial or just think Im stupid but I know for a fact that Im trans and then I came out to my friends and they are way more accepting. But how do I explain to my parents that im not joking

Okay so uhm, I read all the comments about their life stories and I honestly cried because there were quite a few a relate to. 1. the girly girl- When I was younger I always found the dolls, babies, and dresses so amazing and cool. But then when I was in 2nd grade I wore dresses to school everyday(Btw, I am a girl) A girl asked me "why are you always wearing dresses" I didn't answer because I didn't know how to respond. I don't know if I'm going through a faze but I don't really feel exactly 'right' in my body. I've always had bigger "female parts" and they don't feel correct. My mom always wanted a boy for cars, trucks, dinosaurs, video games. I've always liked more boy-ish clothes and stuff. Today, I finally asked my mom about binding for 'a cosplay' but it was really to see if my body felt right. I've always had better relationships with men(as friends) then girls. The girls were always too focused on boys, or dances, or even social media and looking pretty. Never once in my school life have I been not insecure about my body. 2- My name feels different. I hate it. The name 'Madison' feels way too formal and stuffy. I don't know. I might just be a tomboy or just in a phase. If you read this thank you!!

It just feels like no one is going to take me seriously

Wow, these comments have really helped me. I thought I was wrong, I feel like I'd prefer to be male but it was something I had to love 100%, and that I couldn't feel feminine at all. Writing that down seems ridiculous now. After watching some of Jamie's videos and reading these comments, I think I might be ready to talk to some of my close friends about this. Thank you all for sharing your stories and feelings

Hi Jamie, I recently stumbled upon your youtube account. For school we have to search news articles and make a report about it. Yes there's a news article about you and your transition here in the Netherlands! I might've picked your story because my teacher told me to stop messing about and search for real work and this is me protesting against him. But I've also picked your story because I'm quite interested by it. I've always called myself a boy-girl. Not because I'm transgender but because I'm a girl who never played with dolls but rather played with lego or cars. You'll also never see me wearing make-up and I'll NEVER wear a dress... bbrrr only the thought of that. But back to the point. Jamie, you got me - a 15 year old dutch girl - interested in your story, I'm making a school project about you. I hope you don't mind. You're awesome, keep up the good work! :) (also my younger brother's name is Jamie so your name is great)

I tried being girly, I always go back to being and looking more masculine though. All I hear from my family and everyone is "it's a phase". I don't know.. I don't think it is but I'm 16 is it too late

Im here at 1am in the morning, I can’t sleep because my identity has been driving me crazy, I don’t know who I am at the moment and it honestly sucks. I currently identify as non binary, and have done for months. But now I think I might ftm trans.

So I was born a female and idk what gender I am, I prefer being more masculine, I think I might be a trans boy but at the same time I think I might be gender fluid. Sometimes I think to myself “what if I’m just a girl and I’m just confused” but I don’t feel comfortable being a girl. (I don’t mind people saying she/her cause I’m used to it but I prefer he/him) I also read online someone who used to relate to me but then that feeling kinda faded away when they grew up. So I don’t know if I’m trans or just a confused girl

For some reason, this video made me so happy- I’ve had a childhood where girls like pink, wear dresses, and all that good stuff. When I was about 7 or 8, I started hanging out with the boys in our class more, and that made me think, does this make me a boy? At the time, I didn’t know what the term transgender was, my mother only told me there was gay and straight. Male and female. I stumbled across the community when I was about 10, and that’s where I found so many different sexualities, genders, and so on. And when I learned about being trans, that’s when I thought, could I be trans? A boy? After that, I started to get drawn to clothing that a bit more masculine, yet still feminine at the same time. I’ve always dreamt of being a boy, yet I had an overwhelming fear about coming out to my family, fearing that they’ll say “oh it’s just a phase”, or “what’ll happen to my little girl”. Yet I’ve told most of my friends, to address me as Rohannie, and to use he/him or they/them pronouns, along with some teachers as well. For right now at least, I’m still wondering if I want to be genderqueer or trans, yet I know that I won’t be anyone’s “daughter”.

So... I don’t know if I am transgender or not. I question me being a female sometimes, but I just don’t know if I’d regret the descicion or not. I’m thinking just to tell my mom, I’m not sure yet...

KZfaq really wouldn't understand me if they profiled me based on the video's I'm watching.

I’m always so confused about everything. Like I completely hate my body because I see myself as fat even though I’m not really overweight. I also hate looking at mirrors because it feels weird. Every time I go shopping with my mom I always fantasize about being able to shop in the men’s section. I don’t feel comfortable in my gender but, I don’t know if I’m trans. I know there’s something wrong with me. I change my social media to a male name that I think fits me (as you can see). I always feel happy whenever I say something like “hello I’m conner” in my head and I said “hello I’m izzy” just felt completely different and uncomfortable. I really enjoy it when people accidentally call me by he/him pro nouns.i hate every time I’m addressed as Isabella/izzy at school because it gives me and uncomfortable feeling. I hate showers and I use men’s soap, but I’m scared someone will smell it. I often fantasize about people calling me conner and me coming of as male. I just get this fear of rejection. One time I made a binder and I pinned my hair to look male and I put my brothers clothes on and it scared me how right it felt. I’m just always confused and I don’t know what to do anymore

I remeber when I was in like, pre-k, I asked my mom and my friend, "How do you become a boy?" I've liked girls for as long as I can remember, and I thought I was gay. I've been bullied before, but over the summer before fifth grade, I realized that there was a possibility i am trans. I went to get a haircut once, and when the women asked wat kind of haircut syle i wanted, I said "A boy cut". I am too scared to tell me parents and grandparents, although I know that they would accept me, becuase I have always been my grandpa's little girl, and my mom likes to play with my long hair. About a week ago, I took a shower, and put my hair into a ponytail to hide it behind my neck, and I played with my hair to make it look more masculine. I sometimes pull on my shoulders to try to make them broader.

I have recently been trying to figure out my gender identity and sexuality but I wasn’t sure at first about who I was, I was was born a girl but I’m not sure if I want to be one. Near the start of the year, I realised that I felt like I was part of the LGBTQ+ community. I assumed that I was bi at first as I knew that I was attracted to boys and since I felt different I thought that would be attracted to girls too. After a few weeks of thinking I found out that no, I didn’t feel attracted to girls. This stage was hard for me because I just felt really confused about it all, I knew that I was gay but I wasn’t attracted to girls. I did some research about the different sexualities but nothing seemed to fit me. I ended up finding your page and soon I was watching a lot of your videos and then it started to make a bit more sense. I thought about what I knew about me and tried to put it all together: I never liked playing with dolls or doing makeup and wearing dresses, I felt like I was gay but only attracted to boys not girls, I always just thought of myself as a tomboy and that I wasn’t a girly girl like everyone else. It only made sense that I was trans FTM. However I don’t feel like I wasn’t supposed to be a girl so I thought that I might be non-binary but it just didn’t feel right I know that everyone would be supportive as my friends are omni and pan and my mum watches a tv show about someone who is FTM and she uses correct pronouns for him I’m still figuring everything out but watching your videos has really helped me discover how I feel

Jammi, you are a joy and love transmitter! You just effuse joy and peace and love...........that is a tremendous and wonderful gift! Thank you so much, Jammi...............Ray

*Thank you SO SO much for this* It's been one and a half years since i've been thinking about being trans and even though I'm sure about being trans, I'm incredibly dysphoric because of my parents. This has helped me so much and it made me smile. When I first though about being trans, it was when I found out my friend was trans. After breaking up with my boyfriend last year [when I was still labled as a female], I started realizing I felt like I wasn't myself. When I started feeling like this, I asked my friends to call me by they/them and he/him pronouns and after a few weeks I felt less confused about myself and being called a male felt really comfortable. Then one day, I had a whole meltdown in my bathroom and that's when everything clicked. When I looked at my face and down to my body, nothing felt right. The dresses, the long hair, the pronouns, nothing felt comfortable. But until now, my parents are getting just suspicous and calling it a phase or just being tomboy, without even talking to me about it properly. But this week, i've been feeling extremely depressed and dysphoric so I came to YT for help and this popped up. I really appreciate your words, thank you.

Thank you for this video and all the comments here are so helpful. Right now I really don't know my gender and I'm too afraid to ask. I was born female and as a kid I did really like dresses and sometimes also barbies. However I did dream of magically transforming into a boy or being reborn as a boy or something like that. Right now I'm 14 (almost 15) and I don't know. I don't really experience body dysphoria (that happened a grand total of 2 times) and overall I'm comfortable in my body, sometimes I do feel I would be happier if I had a male body and it's so confusing. Society also sucks, I like playing video games and that kind of stuff, but there's always boys teasing me about how childish the games i play are and that girls aren't good gamers. It really makes me question my gender. Right now I am experimenting with pronouns online and sometimes when I'm alone I also dress like a boy (2 sportsbras as a binder, hair tucked into a hat, baggy shirts and pants and sometimes socks as a packer) It does make me feel happy, but also a little weird. sorry if this story didn't make any sense, I just needed to get it off my chest.

Can't wait to see the Channel 4 documentary, thanks for sharing your story :)

This is the best "advice" sort of video I’ve watched on this,, It really helped

as someone who's egg just cracked, so to speak, in their mid 20s.... I just couldn't ignore it anymore. listening to you and other people talk is super soothing as my mind goes 100 miles an hour from fear to happiness and everything inbetween... thank you for all your content. it'll take me a lot of time to unpack all of this after being in denial for something so obvious all these years.

Thank you so so so much! I have to send this to my friend because she just came out to me, and she is really confused about everything, and so am i

I've watching your content for a while now and didn't know about this video. Thanks, it was really helpful

You're an inspiration to many, thanks for sharing your experience and thoughts with everyone. This is a really great video, keep it up :)

While I am not trans I have a tremendous amount of respect for you in making this video Jamie. Thanks for sharing your experiences as there are so many who need and should hear stories similar to them in order to discover and be comfortable in whichever sexual orientation they identify with.

Thanks for all that you doing, it's really helpful and calms down, you are wonderful person

This was extremely comforting. Being used to people listing very specific things I NEED to be

Great advice,( love all your videos Jaimie!)... but I will just add a safety tip, DON'T LEAVE ANYTHING WRITTEN if you think someone that you live with may snoop around and find it later! I did that accidentally a few years ago and trust me when I say that is not a pleasant way to come out😂😟😨🤯

This video that made me realise that I was trans. that was 8 years ago. I have now been on T for three months, and it is awesome. I just wanted to say thank you for being a positive and informative trans outlet, that have helped me through the wait time. And I hope you keep being the amazing and awesome person and get everything that want in life. - a fellow trans man

Omg, I acctually almost started crying when I looked at you for the first time cuz you are like the man I want to be like.

I know this is a old video but I'm so glad I found it I have been questioning and I really don't feel comfortable being a female I've tried pushing myself to be feminine which really isn't something that someone should do but I've tried and it won't work so I tried using different pronouns like They/Them which still doesn't feel right so I put myself in a imaginary situation like imagining if I were trans and it felt amazing I loved imagining people seeing me as a male I'm still not completely sure but this really helped me thank you so much

ok i know im about 5 years late, but i really just need to put this out somewhere, so here it goes. i think im trans. only up until recently did i realize this, but im not sure if im right or not. all my life i’ve been hyper feminine. skirts, hair down to my hooha, all female friends, etc. and even for most of this year, i was (for some reason) extra, *extra* feminine as i started a new school this year. there was barely a day that went by i want wearing a fashionable flowy skirt or a cute dress, and if it wasn’t those, it was something else that i felt made me look more like the girls i saw around me. and then, in the middle of the year, something in me just… burst. i’d started wearing beanies more, as it made me appear to have short hair. i started wearing baggier clothes to disguise my chest, whereas a month before i would’ve been trying to flaunt it as best i could without breaking dress code. i went thrifting a lot, and did a huge wardrobe purge of all the things that made me feel too girly and tried to replace them as best as possible when shopping. my style changed dramatically, and my parents even agreed to let me cut my hair *way* shorter, which i’m very happy about. ass length hair begone! ive been experimenting with pronouns, and as of late, im beginning to favor he/him more and more. she/her makes me uncomfortable at best, and i flinch every time i introduce myself to someone with my deadname. they/them is okay, but it just doesn’t feel like me, you know? i recently asked some of my closer friends to call me a new name that sounds like nickname of my deadname, but it feels too… close. i’ve been thinking about achilles but im not sure if that’s the right one, or if there’s one i like more that i just haven’t found yet, and i don’t wanna change my name too much. i just wish it were simpler. help meeee

thank you so much, it really helped me and agdhakd I'm bad at expressing myself. I'm just really happy after seeing this video because you are so cute and helpful; thank you, jammi, thank you so much for being who you are ❤

I have been going through a lot with this and this video did help me to understand thank you. 😊

Tha k you for this video. I’ve been searching for anyone to talk to. Feeling so lonely

this really helped, i guess i thought i needed to label myself right away. thank you

Ive been thinking about this for years and hiding it from myself and I have definitely not told anybody but it's been on my mind a lot more recently keeping me up at night. I decided to start trying things this week to see how I feel about them because I wrote that off as super weird to myself when I was about 12.

Needed this video right now, thank you

I'm going to a gender therapist in 1 month! :D I'm questioning my gender, but I'm sure I'm trans.

You're videos are super helpful to me. I haven't changed my account name on here because I can't do it yet because I have a lot of stuff backed up on this account. But my name is Rain, thank you so much for making these videos Jamie!

George Takei shared a post about you - the video of your transition!

Uggghhhh I need to find a chat group for this

I’m Confused with my gender. I wanna start t so bad, but what if i’m gonna regret it!? I want to be a boy, but sometimes i still feel like a girl. I’m super confused and it makes me sad. Should i wait to find out!? I need some advice, please.

I needed this, thankyou

I just feel so alone and like I will never be able to be myself.

Thank you so much 💛 this very validating.

I watched this video around 3 years ago almost tearing up "that cant be me" and now im fully out to everyone and actually pass im only 14 so i am still pre everything the only part that sucks is that i have to be stealth rn i recently moved to ky and no one from my school knows but its for my safety but i greatly appreciate this video and others it has helped me so much through my transition

I’m trans ftm at least I think but I’m 12 so I found this very helpful

You're very comforting, thank you :))

Thanks so much this was so helpful

I’ve been questioning since I was 8 and I’m 22 and I’m so freaking stressed because I want to be young as a guy and not have to wait a million years to look the way I want to

Your videos are very helpful, I would just like to say thank you! ^-^ However just some questions about what you personally would think? My family is pretty much separated into one side being very religious and the other family members are very traditional Asians. Now I know that I should be focusing on my own feelings but, what do I do when I've lived a certain way for so long. Gender has always been confusing for me, although certain things were clear and made me want to pursue this type of life. However, shouldn't I take into account what my family thinks? Topics like this aren't discussed in the part of Asia where I used to live, it was always considered a taboo type of ordeal. Likewise with my religious side of the family. Has there ever been a moment in your life where you were scared to be yourself? Sometimes it feels like this fear controls my life. How do you get past it? How are you brave enough to ask these type of questions and give this type of advice? How can I become as brave and strong as you? Thanks for taking the time to look at this comment if you see it, and thanks for being your true self!

I’m both happy and sad. I asked my dad for a binder and he said no. He supports me, he just thinks that binders look to tight and he doesn’t want me to suffocate in one so he’s going to buy me more sports bras. (I came out to my fam as trans in 2020 btw, they support me. They just want me to wait until I’m an adult to decide if I’m sure about taking the changes) Edit: I’m ftm

Jamie has rather expressive eyebrows

I started questioning my gender about twenty minutes ago, it's the second time it happens and I'm just really confused about everything. Am I a boy? A girl? Genderfluid? Who am I? Do I feel comfortable being a girl? I feel desperate to know who I am and it is not. nice.

I know in my current situation, coming out before I'm an adult would most likely be a big mistake, considering family issues. However, I do hate waiting for the right timing. If you feel like you know you're trans, but your family won't accept it at the time, just try to take small steps that are possible towards your goal. For example: -I shaved my head (a short haircut helps) -masculine/gender neutral clothing - I'm trying to grow out all my body hair, even my face/legs. It isn't all about top/bottom surgery, or testosterone. As long as you believe one day you'll reach your ideal, any progress helps.

Thanks for this video

Two dislikes. Disrespectful. Thank you for this great Video!

I'm a huge gamer and always kinda hid myself in my games so I made a little diary in one of mine and when I had any thoughts I didn't know I put them down. Every week or so I'd go through everything and read my thoughts again. It helped a lot. I don't exactly feel trapped in the wrong body but instead I always feel like I expect something else on my body and when I talk I expect a different voice. This along with looking back at my thoughts and how I felt when I was younger made it clear that I was trans. I knew by 8 easily. Possibly 6 even. I regret not coming out because I'm sure my dad (at the time, I was adopted but not fully adopted and my parents who raised me were family as they were my biological father's parents but now they passed on and I live with my mom and grandma, thats the short version) knew something because he talked to me about gender affirming surgery and they both were LGBTQ friendly. Big thing was I never knew about trans so I had no idea what I was feeling. I didn't know it wasn't "normal" and didn't know others felt similarly. Now about a year or 2 ago (2018-2020 I think) I finally uncovered it all and understood. I feel better when in the right clothes and feel better being called my name rather than deadnamed. The more I accept it the stronger it feels and the worse it feels but at the same time I feel it'll feel right someday if I keep going. I'm gonna feel like I'm me and be less depressed. Your videos help me understand and bring a little laughter and joy in my life. Don't let anyone tell you any different! You are you and you can be and feel like the person you are! Stay strong!

for the past two years i've been struggling with this and there's just a constant thought that i'm not and i'm just pretending/faking to feel this way...

This helped me figure myself out thanks

I am questioning and this is helping!

About six months ago, I came out as bi. Right before soccer practice. When I got back and took a shower, my dad asked me to talk to him by the garden. I was so sure they would accept me, because a few days before they said they would love me no matter what. I was wrong..so, so, so absolutely wrong. He said it was to stand, then he said it was to fit in. He even said it was because of my anxiety. Now I know I’m transgender ftm Pansexual. This is the worst thing to ever happen to me. I wish I was different. I wish I was a straight cisgender female like my family always wanted me to be. But I have to be that kind of “daughter”. I had to be like this, the one that nobody wishes for. I’m a disappointment, nobody in my family would love me if they found out their sweet, girly (grand)daughter/niece that they would always dress up femininely was a boy. They buy me tight shirts and makeup. They call me names like “sissy” and “babygirl” and I’m tired of it. I want things to change, but they never will. I’m tired of being like this. I wish they would’ve just disowned me the day I said “well I’m Bisexual” I’m tired of living, but living is just so damn wonderful. I’ve wanted to cut, but my body screamed no. I can’t do that to myself. I just couldn’t bring myself to ever do that to my body.

Thank you, Jammi. ☺

I really need help. Through out my whole life I had been balancing between feminity and masculinity. When I look at my female body I feel beautiful but also weird and when I imagine myself in a male body I feel excited but also weird..? The thing is that I don't have many signs from the past to show if I'm truly a boy or girl and I really need help. Also I am SO SO happy that you want to help me by saying I'm "gender fluid", "bigender", "demigender", but... (please don't start typing really fast in caps) I don't believe in more than 2 genders. PLEASE DON'T GET MAD AT ME. I respect your pronouns even if it's something really freaking ridiculous like "ziximem/ziximom/ziximam" (I know that doesn't actually exist but you know what I mean, right?). So please if somebody can help, please please do. (also here are some things that might help you help me): 1. I love short hair. Every single year of my life I always cut my hair in Summer but now I happily have a pixie cut so I have short hair all year long. 2. I always had a masculine-feminine style. Basically, I wear whatever makes me feel comfortable and cool. 3. I like make up. 4. I shave my armpits in the Summer/when I go swimming. 5. I like to shave my legs when I'm bored (also I like the smooth feeling afterwards) 6. I like when I have bruises and little scars from falling or climbing because it makes me feel stronger (I don't self-harm on purpose I just like it when there are memories on my skin from climbing a big tree or helping a friend when somebody tried to hurt them). 7. I love men products. 8. I like sports even though I'm terribly bad at them. 9. I hate having long and painted nails. 10. I used to feel insecure about my hairy legs and arms until one day I became in love with them because they made me feel "cool" (or what I call now, masculine). 11. I'm mad at myself when I'm "not masculine enough". 12. I like my soft feminine face features. 13. Dresses and skirts always made me feel 'uneasy and weird' and the more older I get the more they make me feel that way. 14. I started crying when I realised that my boobs got bigger (BTW I'm 13 so I'm still in the middle of puberty). So, I guess that's all. I'd really appreciate if somebody can help, thanks ^^♡

Around the age of 15-16 I decided that I think I am transgender male and uses he/him pronouns. Then when I graduated high school I came out to my parents. They took it as joke at first then I was left for college. I was able to come out on campus and I liked how they refer me with male pronouns and being able to be me. However at the same time I was terrified if my parents found out. Then the double life in college failed after I attempted suicide. I took a break from college. Currently I still think I am transgender male but I am using two sets of pronouns he/him and they/them. My parents are still not accepting me and I started to question myself if I am really trans or am I faking. Have I tricked myself into this of wanting to become a boy.

Really good video. Thank you. :)

For me I struggle with that physically I desperately wish I was male, but socially I am hesitant. I like my social relationship as a girl with other girls, I’m scared of presenting as a man, I’m scared of using a men’s room. I don’t know where I fall with this and it’s scary.

Here I was thinking that all trans people know for sure who they are and what I’m going through is wrong and uncommon and stupid. This comments section helped me more than the video

You are legit my idol rn I feel trans but idk and I'm trying to cut my hair idk how my parents will react

i'm 23 & it's only just sort of clicked that i've always felt really resentful at everyone trying to push me into being feminine. I thought i was just a tomboy cause that's what everyone said about me for so long but i honestly don't think i resonate with the person everyone else seems to see me as. it's more like i'm playing the part ? i guess i thought it would be obvious & that i'd have really deep issues but i think i just settled into this because i didn't feel like i had any other choice than to accept it. i've spent 10 years being called gross because i don't want to shave & a lifetime being forced into dresses. (in my primary school girls weren't allowed to wear shorts) I never like the way people treat me as a girl. I think i just really wish this wasn't the case to begin with. I just really don't know how to feel or where to go from here. it took me having a son to even get to this place.

Hey so I reached out to Childline last night, and I know a lot of you might not live in the UK to access it, so I'll give you a run-down on what I got told (cutting out my personal info though): It sounds like you have thought about this a lot, but you have a lot of fear around coming out or later feeling that you are not trans-male. Your identity is your business. No one else's. You can choose to be who you want to be, who you are comfortable being and you can display this identity in any way that feels right for you. Gender and sexuality can be very fluid, and it can also change over time. Sometimes people know who they are from a very young age, and it sounds like you have come across that in some of your research. Other times it is later in life that people find themselves and become comfortable with who they are. It can feel like a lot of pressure when we do online research and compare ourselves to others. It sounds like some of this research has helped and given you some things to try, like changing your hair. It also sounds like you have questioned some things when you see differences. Everyone will be a little different and not everyone's journey is the same. We are here for you on this journey, no matter who you are and if this changes or stays the same. You deserve to be happy and feel comfortable in your skin. It sounds like you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself and I can hear the times you are more comfortable is when you represent more like a boy. No one has the right to tell you who you are. This is your choice, and it is also your choice if it changes or if it does not. You have also spoken about being feminine and also feeling like a boy - being a boy does not automatically mean you have to be masculine. Being a girl does not automatically mean you have to be very feminine. I am wondering how it might feel to do more things that make you feel more comfortable. It doesn't have to be things boys do, or things girls do. You can sit however you choose and you can walk any way that is comfortable for you. You have the right to do what makes you comfortable. This might mean some days wearing socks in your trousers, or wearing your hair in a shorter style. Your feelings are valid and we are here to support you. I hope this helped any of you who are also struggling.

The problem for me is definitely going to be school because I have had short hair I mean shaved sides and all since 4th grade and I’m in 7th grade haven’t come out and everyone knows me as the tomboy so bathrooms are horrible for me I still feel self conscious going into the woman’s bathrooom any where

Oof. I was pretty sure I was trans in middle school, but I kind of sat with it waiting to grow out of it ig. I'm 19 now and a freshman in college. I have a female roommate that would definitely not be cool finding out who I am. I'm 5'1 and pretty bottom-heavy with binders, but I still somehow pass 15% of the time. Plenty of people ask what my pronouns are and a lot just assume I'm transitioning anyway. My Ma's worried about me doing something I'll regret, but if I convince her I'm 100% sure (when I get to that point hopefully soon) I know she'll support me despite herself. I'm meeting with a psychiatrist in 2 weeks for ADHD testing (his whole thing is making a personalized treatment plan after and referring you to other doctors and stuff), and I think I'm finally ready to talk about what's going on and that I'd benefit from transitioning. I've made an ultimatum with myself that I can't possibly graduate without transitioning first. I'm just too unhappy.

Thank you!

Started questioning the other day. Luckily my best friend is lesbian, and she has been helping me. I told her that I may want to go by he/him now, but I may wait 4 years till I come out 100%. She is the only person that knows. She has been sending me videos, articles, and some quizzes. Looked up this video to see. Right now I’m either tran or a Demi boy. Hopefully this helps

Tysm v helpful :)

Thank you.

This really helped me

Okay so since i don't know where else to open up: I am 17 years old, AFAB and I am questioning my gender. It started around a few years ago already but up until a few weeks ago, I always pushed the topic away because I felt like it's just a phase or that it stems from my body issues in general. I also was always scared that my two only friends when i was a bit younger would tell me I was looking for attention (one of them is trans ftm, but still, I was really scared). A few months ago the dysphoria hit me hard in the face. I always had issues with my chest, and with my hips, my face, my voice, everything. I just thought that was normal or would simply be because of my already existing body issues. But no, it was rather the other way around. I started hating my body BECAUSE of my feminine features. What i realized lately is how much I actually never wanted to be the girls n social media, I just found them pretty, but i always rather wanted to look like the guys there. I started binding a few weeks ago and it helps me a lot to cope with my issues about my chest. Cut my hair shorter (shoulderlength) and I plan to cut it shorter. My social life is pretty much into both directions, I am friends with guys and with girls, but always felt more comfortable with the thought of being around boys because i feel like i rather fit in there. I only realized years ago that no boy wanted to be friends with me beceuae well, I am physically a girl. I always wanted to have a different name, and everytime in my life when i got mistaken for a boy, I felt wonderful. But what makes me feel like I may not be trans is: - I love dresses. I LOVE FEMININE CLOTHING - I don't care about my private parts, the only thing that made me uncomfortable for my whole life is the fact that I am able to carry a child. It gives me such an uncomfortable feeling that I said since i was like 7 that i will never have children. - when i was younger, i played with dolls, but also with toy cars, played football with my brothers I don't know who I am. I love femine things as much as I love masculine ones - even though I don't even know how to classify those, since i was raised rather neutral. Not a lot of things fall into one of the categories. I see everything as "for boys AND girls and everyting in between". The thing with the dresses gets me the most though. Am I trans and just a boy loving feminine things or am I just a masculine girl? I am convinced that the best way for me to feel would be to be in a male or androgynous body. But there are also days in which my dysphoria hasnt been bad and i was able to wear dresses and skirts and just told myself that nobody would actually see me as a girl in those but that I can still look neutral in them. when i was younger I never really questioned my gender, I just know that at 9 years old i started developing a chest and i thought no. I dont want this. and that feeling never stopped. The same with my period and hips. when my mum got me my first bras, i took as long as possible before the social pressure of being stared at was too much and i had to start wearing them. But as a very young child, like before 8 to 9 years, I never even felt anything about my gender - i thought i was a girl because well everyone said so. What is going on? Can someone give me advice?

This video helps alot thanks! (In this comment I will rant, so if you don’t wanna see me rant then skip this comment!) okay so I’ve been having thoughts I might be trans like very recently like 4 days ago, ik not that long, so since it was like four days ago I feel like if I might be trans people will think I’m an attention seeker or just confuse, and I feel not valid for having these feelings out of the blue, I never really had a thought really of being a guy, but I do notice I like/ or liked to hang out with boys more oh and that I wanted for people to use he on me more or like sir, idk I always wanted a guy friend, but then like one day it hit me really hard, “what if I’m a guy?”, keep in mind this happened out of nowhere and like I wasn’t even thinking about any thoughts of me being a guy beforehand a lot, And I thought abt it more and more and the thought of me being a guy made me happy, the thought of looking more masculine makes me happy, for me my chest area I hate that part of my body, my down there area I don’t really care abt it, so for me most parts of my body make me not totally feel like a guy, I don’t totally hate being a girl, but like over time I’m staring to hate it, I use he/him pronouns as baby steps and when I tell you I loved hearing my friend say she uses them on me, omg, I felt so damn happy, the thought of changing my name into a more masculine one sounds amazing me just being a boy, it feels, so right… and I feel invalid bc I just got these thoughts, I know I shouldn’t worry abt others opinion and idc either but do you guys have maybe any other tips? But yeah that’s my rant

I've been questioning my identity since i discovered the lgbt community back in march 2020. a few weeks before lovely quarantine, i stumbled across an lgbt tik tok compilation and was intrigued, since i had never heard of the acronym. from there i went from label to label, starting w lesbian and moving down the list. bi. non-binary. demigirl. etc. i never understood who i was. after years of questioning recent digging made me realize that i'm ftm trans. my family isn't very accepting of the lgbt community, so i've never felt like i could come out. my moms pried and pried bc she thinks i'm lesbian, but i always deny it bc even if she thinks she's an ally, the way she acts says otherwise and she'll tell the rest of my homophobic family. i don't really know what to do. i can't really tell my friends eitehr because some may react in a negative way (which isn't my main concern) but i'm more scared of word finding it's way back to my family. i just can't deal with the anxiety of it, so i've tried my best to hide my entire identity by being super feminine around people so nobody questions it. i just wanna be myself, but i still have a little over three years before i'm 18 and can move out and be myself.

I just woke up but I had this weird dream where I was basically getting kidnapped but someone called me he and I got so excited I woke up