That totally makes sense. I think it's normal for our brains to be curious and think about the what-ifs. I have extensive scarring from self harming and will occasionally find myself thinking, 'I should have sought help sooner before it got so bad' but it's a part of me, it was a coping mechanism and I wouldn't be here without it so just try to reassure myself that I did the best I could at the time with the resources I had. And scars are totally bizarre - mine are forever changing from pink to white and smooth to raised etc so feel you on that one!

I just came out to all my friends and asked them to call me Ross and use male pronouns .and they all accepted me

I really appreciate this video because a lot of people have moments of doubt before and/or after top surgery and so many people don't really talk about it. It's an important part of the experience, you've made a huuge life changing decision, it makes sense to have moments of doubt or fear or maybe feeling overwhemped at times. it seems like it's something that we've wanted for so long and ultimately makes us much happier on a daily basis, we're just so grateful for it that we feel almost.. guilty? to have negative thoughts pop into our heads every now and then. its really important for people to know (especially youth) that sometimes things like that will pop into your head and that its okay to feel that way for a split second, it doesnt mean you made a mistake or you're being ungrateful, it just means it's a huge change that takes time to adjust too. It's okay to think about the other possible outcomes, its okay to feel doubtful sometimes, whatever you're feeling in a temporary moment is okay because it'll pass and you're happier in the long run. Trans youth doesnt really get to hear that perspective very often because no one talks about it, they don't get to hear that it's okay and normal to feel that way sometimes, that it doesnt make you less of a man. so thank you for sharing so openly about something that's quite personal, i think it'll help a lot of people out to know that theres someone they can relate to on this topic. its also important to note that yes, these bad moments happen and its normal but there are also incredibly good moments that greatly outweigh the bad ones.

You are one of those people who just radiate genuine kindness and happiness, Jamie☺️ I'm so glad I found your channel. I feel very alone at times, but when I watch your videos, I feel less lonely. Your smile makes me happier no matter how dysphoric I feel that day. Thank you❤️

"Everybody look at my nipples!" - Jamie 2k17 😂😂😂😂😂

Funny thing about skin and scaring, I have never had a major surgical procedure but I did cut the top off my thumb once and also have tattoos. The thumb was a pretty deep cut and I remember the area pulsated and hurt sometimes even years after it had healed, one of my tattoos also would get a little bumpy with hot weather for years after having it done. Eventually this "behaviour" stopped so yeah, scars are weird that way so I can imagine yours make you wonder at times. Anyway I am glad you are happy with the results of your top surgery, cheers!

You're a really cute guy. You make great videos - I've been sharing your channel with my FTM friends. :)

I just. ..watch your blogs. ..because of way you talk. love your personality man. ....keep going (amazing )

"It always seemed that the only way to live without regrets was just to never regret anything you did. And that seems to be the only hope for the future, anyway."

Thank you for bringing smiles with your videos. Good luck in the future. Hugz 💙

I'm entirely in favour of the sticky-out bit of hair. but holy hell do I ever know this feeling. i'm so not keen to get double-incision but I'm probably gonna end up with it bc I'm... not flat-chested. also yikes I didn't realise surgery scars can change colour?

Im still in the phase of obsessively googling info about surgery (which is actually how I discovered your videos. I've been binge watching them and youre great btw!). I'm torn between major breast reduction (as small as I can talk them into without a doctor's note saying Im Offically Trans) and full FTM mastectomy and "just sucking it up and learning to love my body." Most of the time, I do know that I *want* surgery, and the only times I don't are when I get really tangled up in other peoples' opinions and ideologies about what is "natural"... also because the recovery period seems hard as heck. You've mentioned so many times in several different videos how glad you are that you went through with it and how worth it it was to you, even though recovery was unpleasant, and that's reassuring to me. @other viewers: do any of you want to share your experiences/thoughts like this? It's something I spend an embarrassing amount of time thinking about. A mind reader would be incredibly bored.

I got a really masculine hair cut today and my parents don't like it what do

this video popped up right after I came out of top surgery 😁

my health insurance finally agreed to pay for my top surgery (tho they still use she/her pronouns but hey, as long as they pay it) and now i'm probably getting it in april!

This is really important for me to hear, as I'm going back up to my GIC in a couple of weeks to discuss my Top surgery routes, and I'm leaning towards Peri, though I'm also looking at DI in case I get told that's better for my current shape... It's certainly a mess of emotions and confusion at the moment~! Also, having to consider surgeons, too - thinking heavily about Yelland in Brighton [mostly coz he was recommended to me, and secondly because he's based near my sister's house. I'd hate to travel all the way back to Romford while still in pain lol~!]. Decisions, decisions...

Hello! *A little off video's topic* So I just delivered the final document to my lawyer, so I can legally change my name... and I'm feeling so scared... *like, REALLY SCARED* that it's not going to work. I know that by different countries, your experience were/would be not the same, but I was looking for a video of you if you ever talked about it and I couldn't find it... so if you don't have one, could you talk about this process, your feelings about it, how hard or easy were/would it (be). - Btw, I love your videos and most of them I can relate a lot and it helps me so much. I'm glad you can openly talk about your surgery, I'm not sure how it's going to be for me. haha

I told my mom on a paper that I want to be girl. Now she is being really nice to me. Kinda creepy because she isn't usal that nice to me. 10 years I have been suffering as a guy now that I'm 15 I told my mother. Just pray that she will help me.

I realise this wasn't the topic of the video but I have to say you're good looking af! damn!

Im 6 days post op and im so happy with my results! (I had Periareola) And im doing fine! I never had any pain which is awesome!

ILY JAMIE! I've been having top dysphoria for YEARS... I was a 34DDD, and they only approved "reduction" to a 34D. I want to be 'flat' but insurance in the states doesn't cover this type of procedure. I also need skin surgery for losing 60 lbs. ("man boobs") I like how you touch on all aspects of different types of suegeries that are available. I had breast reduction a few years ago. I wanted them GONE, but insurance wouldn't accept it. I have top dysphoria so bad I can't even begin to describe it. As long as they're gone, I don't care if I have nipples or not! Tattoo's can take care of that!! I've lost so much weight and have skin flaps all over that I HOPE I can get this covered under "man boobs" skin surgery!!" I gained back 20 lbs just because I HATED my skin flaps, and now I'm facing "failure" because my skin flaps made me want to gain some weight back so I avoid infections. You're so dang awesome for documentation of what you went through that you are in my top 5 KZfaq video people!! 😆😉 Keep the vids coming, you help us more than you know! ❤

I hope your happy with your life 🤗😊🤓 ( in a good way)

I can't help but feel like the surgeon talked you into the procedure he wanted to do. I'm glad you're happy though :) namaste.

There are oils or stuff like that to help the scar to disappear, I think you should talk about it to a doctor. I also have scars wich were purple or pink x) and I used something named "be-oil" for 2 months and now they are white and smaller! I don't know if you can get that oil cause I live in france but you can try to ask in a pharmacy, it usually don't cost a lot (I buyed mine for 10€)

Hi Jamie just one question when you are searching for a surgeon what would you look up (specifically one that has done double incision)

you're so sweet Jamie! love you xxx

You're the best!

im nervous as i feel like if i het it what if i dont like it? im also nervous because as i live I Scotland I'd have to travel down to England for the procedure and that means travel back up on a train and of course on hote expenses. im nervous as i hsbe a huge cup and im worried sbout excess skin im a 38 ff

lov u

Hi Jammi from Orlando.I was just updating laptop and thought I need to see a bigger message from you.Phone not biggest photo of you.Hope this week is going well for you.Paul,Take Care my friend

im the same way right now, i probably would qualify for peri here but i am on the "full" side haha. i really wanted peri at first but now im quite comfortable with getting DI. Im not super picky about scars anyway, so hopefully itll all work out!

How quickly could you get back to normal life post-op? :)

Hallo. Thank you for posting videos about top surgery.. I have seen 5- 6 videos, you made about top surgery. I think, your videos are very informative and good. But there is one question, that I did not find an answer to.. I would really appreciate to know, if you regained sensibility sensibility in your niples after surgery ?..if yes, after how long time ?.. is the the same kind of sensibility as before top surgery ?.

i wish i had top surgery...

I have painful scars and use silicone gel

Hi just viewed some of your videos and enjoyed them now what is your next goal you have for yourself by the way I subscribed ♥

I had peri, I was borderline for Di /peri, I had a very small chest but I had more excess skin than tissue inside because I spent 2 years breastfeeding so my chest was empty lol I have a 6 month review in June to see if the surgeon or I want to have a revision purely because of the amount of skin I had so we shall see, I'm happy now 16 weeks on...maybe 17 weeks now lol thanks for sharing

hi you are very attractive. I just had to say it.

what about bottom surgery for male parts?

you look so cute in this vid dude c:

Jamie, how long did it take to your ears become this way, after you took of your ear reamers/strechers?

you are beautiful

Can someone tell me if he has a tattoo, mole or whatever in his left ear? I know it's an odd question, but it's driving me mad.

I get duck-butt hair on the side of my head too lol

Early squaddd

love u !!

You look so much like a guy I used to have a massive crush on 🙊

*whispers* it makes sense

😍😍😍😍

❤️❤️

ohmygod you're so cute!!!

Yasss

Mastectomy?

Your so cute.

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That's one dislike is a Trump supporter.

you're the only trans person that doesn't self pity. thank you

FIRST

eras una herrmosa chica 💔

So what about the rest of your life? Do you have anything else to talk about? Aside from your sexuality and your surgery?

No one needs to change anything about their bodies! Your bodies are made the way they are for a reason. They work perfectly the way they are. Surgery is dangerous and doctors are making money off the trans community.