watching the librarian have fun in sandbox after all the horror he goes through is heart warming

TBH I like these kind of maps/accompanying content much more than the dark, horror, jumpscare ones.

As a gen z whose childhood game was minecraft, the ‘going back and finding something new’ feeling is sorta there but also sorta not. Because mc gets updates every year, there’s always something new and different to see when revisiting it after some time. But it isn’t really what you were talking about, because while it is still minecraft, it’s different from how it was before. To truly get that ‘nostalgic exploration’ feeling from minecraft, i would have to go back and play the version that was out when i was a kid. While it is possible to download and play old versions, the issue is that i didn’t just play on one single version! I played on and off over a few years, and my memories about the specifics are hopelessly jumbled. If i try to list what features were in the game in the “era that i’m nostalgic for”, i’ll end up putting down two features that never actually existed in the game simultaneously. Going back to any particular old version always feels very different from how i remember it, and the ‘nostalgia magic’ is diluted because of that. For a while i’ve wanted to make a mod that compiles together all of my ‘nostalgic elements’ from different versions; like mechanics, textures, sounds, blocks, etc. from not only different versions but also fantasies or even classic mods, into a sort of unreal neverland version of minecraft. Ideally the atmosphere would be changed to be dreamlike/liminal to the max, and herobrine would definitely be a feature. Not a feature listed on the download page, but one you might see in the corner of your eye a few hours in.

7:59 - Somehow I'm discovering even more stuff about something I've known for *half* my *life*

this has to have been one of my favorite of the Classic gmod maps, i always dreamed of actually living here myself, i guess vr is the closest i'll get to that haha

8:07 I felt like that when playing Skyrim. I had that game for the longest time, but only recently have I played with the 2 DLC packs. It was so confusing to see new types of armors, hidden castles, abilities, and even whole new islands I never knew about.

I love how it cuts from happy spongebob music to just the unnerving ambience of gm_shambles.

I’ve had Barnard’s door dreams, and the new room is an offshoot of the basement with a recessed floor with sofa seating. The room is always darkened, but those dreams don’t fill me with foreboding, rather, I’m always super stoked to go check out the new space.

I remember this map in Gmod.

if you want some nostalgia, rp_tricity combines Amsterville, Hometown, and Riverview into one.

"when my cousin showed me this game for the first time around 2008, that was a gigantic seagull" 100% great timing!

I love it how you explain every detail it almost feel like im there but at the same time it gives me that feeling of safety

This map always stood out to me because of the one vacant apartment. All the others are lit up, decorated, at least have the illusion of being lived in. Then you have the vacant one, door locked, lights turned off, quiet as can be. I was always irrationally afraid of that apartment and despite just being an unused living space, in an empty map with nobody but yourself, you start to speculate about this unassuming, blacked out apartment that you can't normally access. Who lived there, has it ever been lived in, or is there someone still inside? I love little additions like that in otherwise normal maps.

Nice playthrough. I really recommend playing a game called for Rides with strangers. Its a short game about a hitchhiker, that really creates an spooky atmosphere.

I think you definitely touched on why nostalgia and horror correlate so much. It is definitely in how you've changed, but also that in many ways because you're reintroduced to that same environment with a different context: you feel vulnerable. It's like returning to your hometown to find it empty, but yet looking just the same as you left it. Seeing where you came from does set off this sense of weakness, as it does remind you of what you used to be when you were last there. It does humble you in many ways, but in others it does creep you out. It's the thought of being younger, lesser, minimised that bothers us. When you add the "Bernhard's door" subtle context changes, that makes it even worse. It sort of makes you think "Wait, was this here the whole time?". It adds mystery and intrigue, which lets the mind run wild and add to the creepiness. On a sidenote: if my memory serves me correctly there were three main versions of the original map: hl_richland, which was a map for HL2 Multiplayer and used stock Half-Life assets, ttt_richland which used some CSS assets and had a bunch of areas set up for TTT e.g T rooms and stuff, and rp_richland which was a much larger map with more custom resources. That could contribute to your lack of memory of certain things tbqh

It's so weird to see this map in daytime.

I honestly love your beliefs and reasons on environments influencing emotions and feelings just as much as your explorations. I think the topic of moods via setting is so interesting yet doesn’t garner as much attention. It’s super cool seeing maps that give me a range of different emotions, from dread to complete calm, from fear to cozy. And you just explain it so well, I often have difficulty expressing what I feel and the reasons behind it on these kinds of topics yet you do it so articulately and make it more identifiable, it’s quite impressive and it’s quite a big factor on what makes your content so enjoyable. Anyways, great video as always!

As someone currently getting a graduate degree in statistics, I'm tempted to ask a few of my professors if they might have any interest in studying this sort of thing. Make it a real study instead of just a creepypasta.

I was going to rewatch one of ur videos but this is much better!!

God, the way how the happy music suddenly cut off to an ominous hum at the end is just... Mmmm, my already twitchy body didn't like that. These were the "weird" kind of goosebumps...

My Bernhard’s Door in a video game experience was with Super Mario Sunshine. I’ve been playing the game on and off basically my whole life(Was born in 2000, Sunshine came out in 2002), so naturally when I discovered a level I had never before seen(I was around 12-15ish, don’t remember what age exactly), it felt very surreal and dreamlike. From someone who’s has multiple Bernhard’s Door type dreams, it was a _very_ similar feeling, at least to the dreams that weren’t foreboding. I’ve since learned to speedrun the game, so I’m probably not gonna find anything new from playing it… however, I’ve learned to mod/data mine the game, which lets me kinda chase that high lmao

I remember when this was strictly a map fro HL2DM, and I remember it being the setting for many old Gmod shorts. This map never creeps me out, I always feel cozy and reflective whenever I see it.

This really shows how your brain evolves from childhood to adulthood. Something as simple as running through a map and pushing buttons and opening doors is entertaining and all, but now its just... another map. The only thing that puts a smile on your face about it is the memory of how much fun you used to have when you were a kid. I agree with you, this is a wonderful overview of nostalgia and the human mind. I'm sure in hundreds of years from know humans will have a better understanding of how we feel the way we do about nostalgic things and even video game nostalgia (which I think will be very prevalent in the decades to come, as video games become more engrained in our society.)

I’ve recently remembered a liminal like dream (I had when little) where in it, I was playing STARWARS Bounty Hunter, and I had always gone to a particular location that would noclip me to some abandoned ball pit area. It was very ominous looking back on it. And it was one of those dreams I’ve had on more than one occasion, like I’d have it once every week I believe. I also remembered another recurring dream. I had always walked down this hotel hallway, and it always had a demon of some kind at the end of it. Again, I was very young when having this dream. But I remember getting closer and closer to it, and then finally beating and sucking up to it…then I’ve never had that dream ever again since. It’s kinda ironic, while this channel focuses on liminal spaces and such, it’s made me remember some dreams that were liminal space like dreams. I like this channel, it’s very interesting in the liminal space aspect. Keep up the good work Librarian!

me and my buddies used to play ttt on this map and omg it was a mess lol

I had to click this as soon as I saw the notification

HOLY SHIT I REMEMBER THIS MAP

This map is definitely an updated version from the previous ones. I remember the sky box being a more suburban setting with solid brick walls all around. The basement definitely feels even more bigger than before. Still an amazing video though. Love your stuff man.

I played this map in hl2 first before gmod because I didnt had gmod so I create bunch of npc on the map with the console and play the map.

Yet again, another great video and your commentary stellar as always! By the way, what mods do you use for your Gmod VR?

I've felt the discovering something new in a childhood game very often with the Stanley Parable

Can’t forget about the classics

Since watching your videos I redownloaded gmod and I totally get what you mean. It's familiar yet feels very alien. Best way I can describe it is from a songs lyric "I want to go home but I am home"

Notification squad v2

It's good to see the Safety Glock deployed for fun and not out of fear.

I remember venturiantale playing on this map with the weeping angels... I miss those days, and I wonder what happened to them...

wow the timing, revisited this channel to a brand new video.

Lol, I would love to see more of The Librarian messing around in Sandbox every now and then.

Sometimes, my dreams would keep repeating at a part. I was trying to make my dream more limital, and ended up repeating at a part.

Regarding 8:17 : I grew up with Fallout 3, sometimes I boot it up and just explore around the map, but there are times that I discover something new, like Rockopolis or some unmarked quest. Funny thing is that abandoned Vaults really feel like liminal spaces, Vault 106 (the Vault where psychoactive drugs are pumped through the vents) being the perfect example of this liminal-esque environment mixed with dreamlike hallucinations of the player's father and other characters walking down the halls. Ah yes, the Dunwich building also invokes that feeling pretty well, when you enter the offices in the daytime you can see the contrast between the sunshafts illuminating the desks and the darkness further from the windows, maybe it's just me, but it gives both a feeling of safety (standing near the bright windows) and a feeling of neglect and abandonment (from the state of the building itself and the lighting in the deeper parts of the offices)

Best way I can describe what you where talking about. Would be nostalgic mixed with kenopsia. I, myself get that feeling as well in source games.

I first played gmod in 08 too lol. All this old dead data is there to experience. It's a weird lonely feeling not unlike joining an empty CSS server or something.

I first played Borderlands 2 many years ago. I was playing it with my SO the other day and we came across areas, easter eggs, and little details I never even knew about. It's fun coming across those things and it's cool how developers always manage to slip them in without you even realizing.

" A N A R C H Y " **Throws Cinderblock through window**

It's so amazing to see you feeling these strong emotions

My Bernhard's Door Phenomenon moment was booting up GMod for the first time in years when I was stuck at home with COVID and went to rp_downtown_v2. There's a few buildings there that I had just never really used much/at all while rping as a kid, and so being in a familiar place but exploring unfamiliar areas within it and with nobody around when I felt like I was expecting people to be there was an unsettling experience. I also absolutely feel that feeling you were talking about at the end where your past and present selves feel like they're clashing when you experience something that you haven't for a long time. Me and a friend call it Coloring Book Feelings because there was one time when when my depression was especially bad and on top of it I was transitioning meds and so in an effort to stimulate my brain and feel better we got some coloring books and doing something that I hadn't done since I was a tiny child just filled me with such a profound...I've never been able to accurately describe it, but it's like nostalgia but sad, but it hit me so hard that I broke down crying. And I absolutely feel that (not as hard though lol) when playing old GMod maps because I'm thinking about who I was and how I felt the last time I was playing on these maps and it just creates such a dissonance with who I am and how I feel playing them now.

Not only does the librarian deserve a nice break from all the scary. But I can only just watch these kinds of maps. I’m too much of a scaredy cat and I love the way Librarian explains the worlds he’s exploring

All I want in life is to find somebody to watch The Librarian videos with and hold hands

I watch your videos in bed to help me sleep, theyre so calming. They legitimately help me fall asleep.

omg i remember this map so fondly. one day i found it just gone on the selector, i was so sad :( this was before i knew how mods work tho lol

Man, this map in general gives me nostalgia from certain old gmod videos from back then, good old memories...

Nostalgia hit me like a brick when I saw this vid

Absolutely love this! I hope you do more classic gmod RP maps. Takes me back to such more simple times, when life wasn’t miserable. Thanks librarian :)

I have been playing GTA III for more than half my life now, and booting it up again not long ago just to have a play around and listen to some HEAD RADIO, I stumbled upon a grave yard in the middle of Staunton Island... I have never seen this before, I had no idea this game had a cemetery at all. I know these streets better than the back of my hand, from countless hours driving around having fun not really doing the missions. And yet I have never seen this graveyard here before, and it was right in the middle of the city too, where I must have driven past it thousands of times without realising it was there this whole time Hit weird

I was wondering how long it'd take to see another Safety Glock cameo.

Best content as if now, just exploring these maps, giving details, and giving your honest opinion about it. Keep up the work!

i recently discovered your channel and i really like your commentary and overall content. keep up the great work man :)

That part where you talked about how you talked about how much you change as a person in between the time you don't touch something really stood out to me. I've gotten this feeling with games, or even just movies or series I used to watch in the past, because, I feel something a bit different that I wanted to explain. How you talk about the old view clashing with the new one makes me think of a recent experience I had coming back to something that I enjoyed a lot when I was young. Basically, there was this sense of, in a weird way, though how much different you are, how you're at the same time the exact same person. To me it was down to the enjoyment of it, the fact that me right now could enjoy this just as much or even more than I did when I was young makes me feel this undoubtable sense of how we are truly the same person deep down, even if we have changed so much.

I Want A Full Video Of The Librarian Goofing Around In Gary’s Mod. That Is All I Want.

love your videos they always make me laugh and smile i also love the spooky ones :3

What you just explained in 3:30 is the answer to my dreams I've been looking for more than a decade. Thank you sir, honestly. Your videos are marvelous

You're videos are amazing and thought provoking. I've never seen this map before but those 2 brick buildings remind me of the apartment buildings in front of where I went to pre school.

I wanted to share one of the coolest experiences i've had in gaming and it happened on the ttt_richland version of this map. I was a youngin' playing TTT and at one point said "theres a place near where I live called richland lol" (in Pennsylvania) and someone else chimed in "thats where I live". I didn't believe him at first but I added him and started talking and it turns out it was true. We talked for awhile and he even invited me to his schools computer club; but it fizzled out. Just funny that this map was unintentionally named after a real life place and that someone who lived there happened to be playing the same time I said that. Thanks for reminding me of this.

Hello lib, long time no see i've gone busy enough watching your videos so i'm back again. For my childhood experiences related on Garry's Mod i don't think i remember maps i've played back then but i do remember only Gm_fork which gives me the experience of being alone on valley. Just to remind you i've never played with Multiplayer because i get the feeling of being threaten badly by some toxic players and i've really accustomed being literally playing alone

this made remember when I was a kid watching people goof around gmod maps spawning nextbots and running from them like horror movies,especially on this map.

These videos are appreciated.

Oh wow I always seen this map yet never knew its name!

oh man this map, its something else, so nostalgic

I still listen to The Slats because of this map

lol @ at the abrupt ending. It's not that it was scary but the complete shift in atmosphere can be a quite a surprise.

The room that floods with the radio on this map is a moment I’ll never forget

because of this map in the vid being a personal nostalgic map/experience, 3 maps that i dont think is not nearly as popular anymore or was slightly forgotten about that i got a personal nostalgia factor for in gmod in my early days of playing this game are, new pork city (some earthbound centric map), Zs you are a virus inside joe, and a price is right map.

So nostalgic love these videos

I like this map, creating npcs and having fun in garrys mod 😁👍

You have the best commentary 😤

I was really feeling the nostalgia mood, then you hit me with that ending lol

Personally I would like to see him play a non-horror game or at least something that’s not horror focused like Subnautica or something, but honestly I just want to see him have fun with a game.

I really hope someday the librarian gets 250k+ subs! he really deserves it, one of the only gmod youtubers I watch all days

i absolutely love this map, this is one of the first ones i downloaded on my cracked version of garrys mod

Ah, been a few since I've seen this place. Atleast 8 years...

8:07 For me it's GTA San Andreas. It's true that after all these years there's nothing new to find but you can notice an interesting transition. Places that were "hunted" and had some mistery now give that familiar nostalgia feeling. You come back and feel like all that was to do had been done and there's only peace and nostalgia left.

I remember being 14 when this map was released, about a decade ago and just having such a intense uneasy feeling about the whole map for some reason. Maybe it was that classic Source eeriness we all felt with empty maps, but this truly did spook me for some reason. Anyone else relate to that?

Subbed way back on your essay about those maps and here and there I give a chance to small channels and most of the time I unsub after a month, maybe even less, but you have something different to your content, something unique, something so good that I'm still here looking forward to your next upload!

One of my top 10 favourite maps

I've actually gotten quite used to the "you mean this was here the whole time?!" feeling in recent years, all stemming from the same game.

Bro this is actually so crazy because you were saying about how saw this map like 2008 and that’s when I was born and you were talking about how a child born on the day you saw the map would be older now then when you saw the map so when did you see the map

When i first got my quest 2 and tried it with vrmod i got this indescribable feeling. Spending so much time in gm_construct (the map i tested it on) and the source engine in general it felt so fucking surreal to actually be pretty much physically inside the game, even if i could feel the box strapped to my face and my view of gmod in the quest was for some reason blown up so i had a smaller field of view and i could clearly see individual pixels

I still remember all of the variations of this map. Including all of the versions on other source engine games like Half Life 2 Deathmatch. There'd be lightsabers and various other props like a cross that made the map stand out from others.

this venturing tale map of weeping angle video is so nostalgic!

This was great, but... Can I say? I wouldn't mind seeing more of Mr. Librarian just having Sandbox fun sometime. It's kind of refreshing.

I got Gmod almost 1 year ago so this nostalgia feeling doesn’t hit me with Gmod mods, but it does with Gmod videos.

8:20 Recently I've played Redout and started doing some of the tracks slow just to look at the environments. You tend to not pay much attention to that stuff when racing because you're going too fast for your brain to process anything other than the direction the track is sending you and how your racecraft is oriented on the track. One thing I noticed is that the underwater sections on many of the game's tracks actually don't have you driving through the water. There's a tunnel effect going on where the water is kept away from the track with some of invisible energy field though the game still 'muffles' your sounds as though you were driving under the water.

8:15 Diablo 2 was one of the first games I've ever played, and it was only last year I found out you can use f1, f2, f3, ect as a shortcut to spells. I always picked necromancer because I couldn't handle juggling spells by hovering my mouse down to the right spell slot and change it everytime

Why do I have a feeling that something bad is bound to happen just by reading all those positive comments for such a video? Strange.

that abrupt ending was kinda creepy

You should explore gm_parallax, it’s not to big of a map but I think you might enjoy it! It gives off kind of liminal space/illusion vibes.

what would be the scariest map you’ve ever played?

as you said nostalgia, i instantly got nostalgia.

I find new stuff in old games sometimes! It's cool.

i had it with the metal gear solid games. i booted them up a year or so back to replay them and discovered a ton of stuff i didnt know as a kid. and there is a minigame in mgs3 that i know of and still havent played to this day for some daft reason