In our journey to find self , we will encounter many things that will trigger us . For myself I found the first step was to become accountable for the things I allowed . to stop thinking of myself as a victim and changing the way I thought about it all . I forgave the people I use to blame for creating this child who did not like who she was , ... it followed me for 60 years . As today I am 65 . and free of all negative thought . I look at all things in life as a lesson , rather then right or wrong . I change the way I react to others as well . for just as I am free to be who I am ... this is also freedom from my judgements too , it is ok for others to be who and what they also have chosen . Until I learned to forgive myself and others for the past ... go within to learn why I felt that way ... what happened as a child that made me feel this way ... of course it was a lesson . I pray let my lessons be as painless as possible . My hope for all of us who are learning and awakening to who we truly are , much success in the Journey . Thank you for your story and beautiful meditation music !