Wow thank you for this video she use to be a good friend of mine and I haven't heard from her in over a year wow it breaks my heart if there s anyway of getting a hold of her I would love to talk to her and get her some help 💕 this purpose of these videos are to show you and learn from what real life people go through shmm some of you literally are straight pigs to talk the way you do about another human being you don't like what you see don't watch it and or leave negative comments this one hits home for me ....

She’s telling her story. Just because you feel she should move on from her trauma doesn’t mean she’s at that place yet. Sometimes just speaking these things help. We are to love and not judge.

Hi Heather, my little sister died in her sleep from using and drinking. She was in her 40's and left 5 children. Today is the best day to get clean.

Growing up with my mom and step dad being addicted to prescription pills my mom Over dosed in my basement last month. I made a choice early in life to NEVER go down the same road as them. I can't imagine doing to my daughter what my mom did to me. The cycle stops with me.

I used to be an addict. Some may say I’m still an addict b/c I’ve been on Methadone for 15 years. Methadone saved my life. I’ll be a MD lifer before I go back to a street addict. This channel centers me. Whenever I get an itch I watch these kinds of channels and it keeps me sober. TY Mark. Your channel helps keep me grounded . TY again~~

i think it’s really good you do these interviews, it really humanizes them and shows that they are real people with real problems and not just some “addict”

This is my story to a tee but with two kids ..baby daddy now in Attica prison for murder...I'm four year clean with my kids back..they hold the emotional scars of MY past life...I hold my guilt that will NEVER let me free... BUT... Life it's good and gives us what we need when we need and deserve it! To everyone battling inner deamons..... Never ever never ever give up!!!!!!!

Amazing insight to this womans world. Hope she finds peace within herself and the happiness she is after.

I pray for Heather as I have an adult daughter named Heather also addicted to heroin.

If you’ve ever questioned the damage a partner with narcissistic personality disorder can do, this is your antidote.

There’s something I love about this girl. She’s still humble and can still see happiness sometimes. Not a lot of happiness, but she still smiles and still has a good head on her shoulders. She just lost her way, but it’s not too late. Praying for you Heather. For what it means.

I wonder if this show will ever expand to other cities. These short stories are intriguing and eye opening.

i wish you luck Heather, no daughter is better without mum...YOU CAN do it, you can, for her.

Sensitive people have a higher addiction rate.

So many of these interviewees seem to have moved to LA with big dreams and money to burn and have ended up on Skid Row. It really lives up to its reputation as a town that chews you up and spits you out!!! So sad 😞

You being a neutral person for them to speak to or confess to is a wonderful thing. May this KZfaq project go on as long as the people on the streets need it.

You can't deny she loves her child. A mother's pain is like no other. I have faith in you,heather. Dont give up. You're not in over your head yet!

If you think you're lonely imagine how your child feels. I get it. I'm an ex addict. Our kids have nothing to take the sadness away from us not being there. You need to start somewhere.

I’m a therapist and I work with the homeless, I wish I could travel and provide therapy to some of these individuals because I feel like so many need to be heard and validated......

As much as my heart grieves for the pain addicts live with, the thought of their children living through their addiction is utterly heartbreaking. No child deserves to have their parent stolen from them by addiction. Thanks for your brilliant work. You are giving a voice to those society ignores. So important to hear their stories.

When visiting LA I have driven down skid row and I promise you she is not the only white woman there - there are people there from all walks of life and it really just shows and shines a light on the discrepancies in our society and that no matter what your color - no one is above this. I am making this statement because she alluded to the fact that she was one of the only white women there.

I love that this plattform allows for them to open up and tell their story, Thank you Mark.

Heather not sure if you realize your voice has a calming effect. I would pay to have you read books online. No joke. Thank you for sharing your story wishing you the very best. ❤️🙏🏼

My cousin who is a dentist just told me that he did her teeth work (partial for front)....small world.

Don't give up Heather. Please. Don't give up. Your daughter needs you and you need her. I know you are hurting. I know your pain cant even be put into words. But know that there are so many other women that will love you and wrap their arms around you and support you and know the deep pain you are in. Please don't give up. You have such a beautiful heart and soul.

this woman can go so far. she's built for it. she literally looks like she could clean up & work in corporate. i hope she is well. 💓🦋

Thankyou for sharing its nice hearing certain things that make you feel less alone.

I hope she finds peace and love, i was addicted to heroin for many years my ass did heroin in California for about 7 years o moved to Oklahoma in 2012, and been clean since then i moved states that's what helped me!

Heather, please take care of yourself and your health. Your little girl needs, loves and wants you!!!!!

It's hard when you lose your kids and you are trying to stay sober through the pain I did it for seven years to get my kids back

These videos make me cry more than almost anything. Thank you for making these. They really touch my heart, and move my soul.

I wish I could tell her to take what she grew up feeling and make sure her daughter knows that SHE is enough, don’t let her daughter feel abandoned. Rise above, girl. Find that strength inside and work hard to get clean to show your daughter that you beat that crap for HER. You CAN do it. You have that strength. You don’t deserve this. You deserve to have your daughter and she deserves to see how much you love her. I’m a single mom. I don’t have an addiction but I do have depression. Bipolar II. Fibromyalgia. I’m not a perfect mom. I am a single mom. I choose my daughter. It’s NOT easy. And I don’t think that overcoming an addiction is simple. But I know she can do it. Please.

I know she said she wasn’t ready to go to rehab but her daughter is only 6. I hope she can do it to be in her daughter’s life so she doesn’t miss out. She still can be there for her if she gets it together! 🙏 I just wanted to add that I like how Mark ended this on a positive note. If possible, it seems like a great way to end every interview.

This is going to be enlightening. The most difficult addiction that I have beaten was nicotine. The trickiest was GHB because you become addicted very quickly. I have heard that heroin is the most addictive substance known to man and I can't imagine being in its clutches. I'm weak though, so that doesn't help. It seems the quality of a person's upbringing have a great impact on their perceived need to fill a hole in their life.

Everyone in the comments talks about how horrendous the parents of these individuals were/are. If Heather’s daughter finds herself on that stool telling her story, I wonder what your opinion of Heather would be?

This. This one got to me. I was wondering which one I’d resonate with, not that I use, only marijuana but the neglectful childhood, this resonated with me to the point I cried WITH her. This is like a look into the future of what my life could be like if I let my childhood and past take over my life. I pray for your healing Heather, all you needed was to be nurtured and loved.

Seeing these videos has completely changed my perspective & has opened my eyes to how horrible some people truly have it. Thank you.

I'm a ex addict ...im clean about 12 year's ...this people r like us ...they need help ...my help was family ...my heart r with all that still on drugs If I can do it ..everyone can ...bless them all . Elsa from Portugal

I’ve watched so many of these videos ....over & over the question comes up “are your mom & dad together “? 95% has had absolutely no parental guidance basically NO support system . There only support came from some kind of chemical It’s so sad to see that there is no end to this revolving. Door

Praying for you Heather. Be careful out there and God bless 🙏

She said she was straight for 6 years then admits to pill addiction when her daughter was an infant. Post breast augmentation. My kids are my world. I can’t imagine choosing drugs over them. I guess I still can’t understand drug addiction. Everything that can happen to a woman I’ve experienced. I just feel like my greatest revenge against those men is to rise rise rise. My mom Was a drug addict. My father was murdered at age 5. Kids don’t ask to be born. Let’s take care of them ❤️❤️❤️

Unfortunately children's lives don't pause until we are ready. It's often very hard. My husband, my mother and my best friend all died from different causes back to back in a short time. I could barely function and wanted to die myself losing my husband (of 20+ yrs), with actual PTSD being the one who found his body, but I have 5 kids...no excuses. I have to put them and their emotional health first because once I decided to get pregnant, I signed up for that responsibility no matter what life threw at me. I also was fostering 2 other children whose parents did this, refusing to put them first, while I was surviving actual tragedies. Words and promises mean nothing...actions are everything.

This really breaks my heart. I only wish her the best and so she stays really really strong. This world is really fcked up. Thank you Mark for these videos, for their rawness and sharing stories.

The way she says, "but you're just trying to be normal again" that really hits hard and is very sad..because when certain traumatic events happen some of us can't get the pain to go away. I hope with everything she is able to get clean and see her daughter. I'm so sorry so many people are going through this.

I’ve heard this same word salad of excuse from myself and from many friends that I’ve lost. “Everyone else is so judge mental” oof, I feel for this woman but when I hear those same bullshit excuses it’s hard to feel sorry. Notice it’s always. “Me me me me me me, they did this for me. Yada yada” it’s always what have you done for me lately. She’s gotta change her own mind.

Wishing her the best. I thank her for being so real and raw with us, complete strangers. She has a good heart and I hope she can get herself where she wants to be one day.

I am praying for the peace within her

One of the few addicts on these vids who could get sober and her past wouldn't still be reflected on her face and throughout her body. She has big, strong hands. I think her heart is too.

"Yr guilt keeps u sick, & keeps u away from the ppl u love the most." Addiction is indeed a carousel of doom , but shame is the ticket to ride w/no expiration date.

Mark Im On Every few Hrs To See what's Uploaded...The truth On the Streets.Its truly the best Real Raw Videos About Life and which direction it goes.......Nail ON THE HEAD.......GODBLESS ALL

One thing I've learned from all these interviews is how exceptionally intelligent and articulate most of these people are. I mean really intelligent.

I’m a adult child of an addict. I have ptsd from abuse and abandonment. Heather is creating the same abandonment for her daughter that she felt as a child and still does today. Self medicating with drugs never helps. Being willing to turn your life over to a higher power and reaching for recovery and working a program is so important for addicts. I wish her healing. I wish her daughter healing. Hopefully Heather makes it out alive and is capable of being a good mother one day.

Heather....Your daughter is your Angel Baby. Please use the strength I know you have and get yourself in rehab. She needs you and you need her! Remember you were once a lil girl that was missing that unconditional love....don't let the cycle repeat! I have faith in you.....You are stronger than you think! Please do it for you and your baby girl!

I can identify with her. I met my ex and got her pregnant after first week at 29. I soon found out not only was she dysfunctional but her whole family was. I would have done anything to give my child a home that wasn't broken since I came from one. This woman cheated on me while she was pregnant but I stuck it out. I married her eventually and she decided to divorce me after cheating again. I stayed in same house for years to give illusion to my daughter but eventually it was over. My kid suffers to this day with depression I beleive because her parents split up and it KILLS me. I also ended up using opiates into my late 30's and early 40's due to car accident and mental weakness but finally got on methadone which was a saving grace. It took me YEARS to find out that this drug could save my life when hospitals and clinics gave me zero inclination that it could help. If anyone has opiate addictions from pills taking more than 60 mg daily or heroine, methadone will work but you HAVE to be ready to live. It saved my life and can save hers but she has to address her demons simultaneously and the only way to do that is through God. Nobody can help us but ourselves and God. In the end we are alone and nothing anyone else gives us can save us from ourselves.

I hear your story and I sympathize with you. You didn’t go unheard today ❤️ I wish the best for you, you sound like an incredibly strong woman

This story is a great example of how addiction affects anyone anywhere any race and any class and how easy it is to fall from the top to bottom really quick!!!!

Thank you again for your work

Didn't realize your daughters name is the same as mine till I rewound/ listened a second time. What a coincindence. I pray to God that you find the strength, and peace within your life to give your Ashley the Mom/life she deserves. Sometimes, like myself, it may take medication maintenance to get to that point, but regardless, she would be better off with you even if it means having to take suboxone, methadone, etc. To stabilize yourself until you're strong enough to do it on your own

My heart hurts for Heather you deserve so much good in your life and love and belonging. When you’re ready you’ll make it right again! It’s all up to you!

She's not ready to get clean and sober, it's sad because she's still stuck in the phase where you're blaming the world and can't see the forest through the trees. I hope she meets her bottom soon so she can get the help she needs and becomes ready and willing to accept it.

What a great interview. Thank You Heather and Soft White Underbelly!

The person who I thought was going to sell me marijuana sold me crystal meth? Really?? (Not that I think drug dealers are virtuous - but that one jumped out at me.)

Very intelligent woman. If she got clean, she could help so many people because she is so articulate. She helped me see this situation and the mindset behind why this becomes a problem for people. She is an amazing person and has so much to offer. I pray she gets help. She seems lovely and so relatable for those of us who have never done drugs. I see the vicious circle she is in.

She’s a beautiful soul. I’ve contributed but if I could help her as an individual I would. I really feel her pain. I hope she can get her daughter back, you got this mama 💕 It’s never too late to start over 🌟 Please update us on her

I can only dread to think how difficult her life has been and still is, but a point comes in life where the victim becomes the perpetrator. She is inflicting the sort of pain she went through as a child and feeling unwanted onto her own child. Trauma breeds trauma. I think it’s time to dry up and mum up and use the good brain you still have access to and get help to clean up your act. I hope you do because I see a lot of potential in you. I think you are very intelligent and way too smart for this lifestyle.

Watching this 10 months after it was uploaded I wonder where she is.

I am a recovering heroine Addict clean and sober 23 years and you said it best your not ready and only you can pick your clean date god bless

Indifference kills especially when ur young . And I'm so happy when I see a loving mother and child. Some people don't realize how blessed they are to have love to wire ur brain when young. So u can regulate ur emotions w out addiction. I feel all her pain. There is hope. There has to be a balance to even out the pain.

Even before she said she is a giver, I sensed that Heather really ought to put herself in a situation of helping others. She needs that. She needs a purpose and needs to feel useful. Not just useful to her daughter but to a wider range of people and regain some self-esteem. It's hard to be a parent when you have no hope in life. But when you are actively contributing to make the world better, you move on in life without anxiety because you know that you are part of the solution and not part of the problem. When she sobers up, Heather really ought to make that move towards helping others right away. I truly feel that it could save her life.

Wish I could take away all her pain and sorrow. Just feel bad for this person and hope that one day she will find some joy and happiness and LOVE.

"A man has as many masters as he has vices". Saint Augustine.

This hits home girl. You’re not alone.🥰

Her pain is profound..🙏 Shes in WAY over her head. This is a life or death situation.

She’s clever and intelligent... she reminds me of Caroline.. I just hope she won’t be following her footsteps. I pray for you Heather, remember it’s only up to you to change and it’s possible. Never give up until you at least give it a go! It’s never too late! Please try!

Heather, you say what you have to say isn't important. But your story is important. There's so much you say that people need to hear. I could see you clean and talking about life and its dangers to people. And people that have seen life make the best counsellors. As you said, you don't judge, and you can relate

Addiction is a symptom of a much deeper problem. Her story breaks my heart. Not addressing problems growing up only creates darkness and holes in the soul. I hope she finds her way to the light but without support and a whole lot of patience from her family it will take a miracle.

I believe the world became ugly once she decided to do drugs......please get help...your daughter needs you!!! You are who you hang with!! You don't need a man...get clean and get your daughter.....you are surrounded by drugs...get out and get help please you are beautiful.....

Wow! Non stop talking! Had to stop half way to take a break.

Love to you Heather. You sound like an amazing mother, there’s no doubt you love your daughter and despite my being a motherless child who lost hers to drinking and drugs I’ve never thought one “chooses” drugs/addiction over their child. They aren’t one in the same and addiction is far more complicated as there are physiological and psychological implications. Having said that, my not having a mother and dealing w one that was so pained all of the time who couldn’t keep it together enough for a phone call bc of the suffering it would cause her (and me), really effected my life negatively. Everything she went through as an child, adolescent and later an adult that caused her pain is the same thing she helped create in me. I have been burdened with severe abandonment issues and worthlessness. I share this not to judge you bc I don’t but so you know you will perpetuate the same thing in your daughter if somehow someway you can’t find a way to do whatever it takes to get back to her. It’s cause and effect. Period. It can also create this unhealthy codependency where she feels the need to rescue you which is an extraordinarily painful endeavor if/when in the end we lose the battle to the streets and then we bear that cross. For this reason my heart breaks for you the same as it did for my mother. At 38 years old I still want a mother. I hope the two of you can be together again and live a happy existence whatever that means for you both. You don’t have to be perfect, you don’t have to give her things. Trust me when I tell you, your unwavering love and support is honestly all she will ever need 🙏🏽❤️

There is something about her voice!!!... I had to watch this twice I kept dozing off. It's so calming!

She's not alone...if she could get better she would be a great advocate and women's counselor.... would really like to see an update on her because I can relate

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="220">3:40</a> NO THOSE STRESSES ARE NOT MEANT FOR CHILDREN. I’m sorry you and thousands and thousands of children get a raw deal in life because of their parents. If you’re reading this and you put your own needs/wants before feeding your children and caring for them then SHAME ON YOU. Now is the time to change. Get someone to help you. Children deserve a healthy, stable, loving start in life. You can do it.

She reminds me so much of a woman I had a teenage fling with. I'll have love for her always. We stayed friends throughout the last 22yrs and she just passed away at the age of 40. She lost kids too and just couldn't get straightened out which took her life. I so hope you find the way out, you are worth it.

what she said about the core of her issues is so heartbreaking and so relatable. I hope she gets to where she wants to be

So selfish and completely unfair to bring a child in your foolishness. She knew very well she was not in a right state of mind/life to be a parent. This is what creates ugly generational curses in families. STOP having children if you are not capable of being the parent that your child needs. :-(.

Wow Heather, I hope you get the help you need and reclaim the life that you want. It's all so tragic. Go to rehab, you can do it.

I feel terrible for all these people..almost every one of them has experienced a horrific childhood. Have a heart once in a while. Every single one of us knows someone who is struggling...

Heather, you're beautiful. I'm sorry you've been so hurt. My heart goes out to you. Drugs are a symptom of other things, you know!!.

I hope the next chapter in your life is one of sobriety.. its been 3 years since I've losted my bestfriend, my sister to her addiction drugs have tooken over and robbed her of a beautiful life everyday i check hospitals and jails hoping to never get the call shes dead on the side of the road somewhere..and just hoping for that one of her telling me shes ready to get her life back .. watching these videos trying to understand..some give u hope and others like shes already to far gone.. I hope you choose life. Best of wishes to you and those who miss you.

She may seem like she loves her daughter but she really loves the druggy lifestyle. They don't take children away and not give them back unless you are not complying. I personally know at least a dozen women who had their children removed permanently, they were all given many chances but they choose themselves and their addictions. Too much "I, I, Me,Me, I'm a victim".... don't be fooled, she chose her lifestyle and she likes it. She may as well as just sat there and vomited for 39 minutes as basically that is what she did with words.

I sympathize with this lady, man she's so heartbroken. She's trying to do the right thing for her daughter but it just breaks her. So sad, I hope she can get better and have her daughter back.

She has great perspective!! Good luck and God bless you.

Wow, I would never think she was an addict, she looks like a teacher or librarian lol, hope she can get help, she seems like a genuine person

God bless her!

I understand Heather. First when your young life can start out one big party. So many people can hurt us. There comes a point and time in our lives that we mustn’t hurt ourselves anymore. I think you’re a wonderful person that really should give yourself a chance. Anything is possible with sobriety. We must face our emotions and feelings with a clear head. Life is much more manageable sober. Reach deep down in and muster up an ounce of strength to kick what’s holding u down and holding you back. Enjoy the second half of your life. I wish you well. From someone who also don’t really have friends and has been hurt by ones that were suppose to love you. Let’s love ourselves and be kind and good to ourselves then more good things can come later. I use to self destruct when others hurt me as well. I realize now that I’m older that’s the time to treat ourselves kind. I see a lot of potential and goodness in you. When I got sober I had to quit drinking and everything cause u know one can lead to another. I never felt better in my whole life. I embraced and love sobriety. Nothing is really possible without it. It’s a good thing. Also for me I love God and accepted Islam. God is my only real true friend.

My daughter is the same age as hers. I've been planning her birthday party for months. I cannot imagine missing out on this time of her childhood. I hope she gets it together for her daughters sake.

She was easy to listen to. No cussing, posturing or sleaziness.

She could easily make it out. She is battling with her locus of evaluation. It is mostly internal, which provides hope, but she could do with trying to eliminate the external locus that seems to be holding her back. She says she isn't ready yet but how much lower does she want to go? If she leaves it for much longer, it will so much harder to make it back out. I wish her all the best.

"In my family you don't talk about what is really going on" God how I know what this is.

This hits close to home. I feel for her so much.