Please leave your questions for my next Q&A video in the comments or DM me on instagram! I love you guys so much and appreciate your support more than ever. As anxious as opening up about my story makes me, i’m relieved to have gotten this off my chest, as i really do miss being close with you guys. I’ve always shared personal things about my life, and the hardships i go through, and after being so inactive, especially the past year, i wanted to show you guys the truth, as social media can be deceiving, especially i post things of me having fun travelling or shopping. Things aren’t always so glamorous, and i want to start showing that side too, and being more honest and real with you all. Sorry for the times i’ve come across out of touch, and for not showing the true struggles i go through, sometimes i’m just not ready to open up yet. Thank you for being patient with me♥️

Been here since you were 14/15 and am so proud of who you’ve grown into

You literally dropped this whilst I’m hitting rock bottom. I’m literally planning on running away as an adult and escaping my abusive and toxic south Asian family as a brown girl without telling anyone anything 😢

you’re so so brave for posting this. look beyond the haters and know that you’re comforting so many young girls who look up to you and share the same experiences. i hope you’re able to heal while back at home with the support of those around you, body image is such a serious topic and i can’t imagine how hard it must have been for you, especially with everything else going on. please surround yourself around those who love you for who you are and truly care about you

I’m 34 and struggle with anxiety and depression. It’s super hard. We just have to keep our heads up and fight each day

Thank you for being so vulnerable with us India! You honestly don’t owe anyone an explanation but I hope your healing journey continues to progress and just know that the present is not permanent and everything WILL be okay ❤️❤️

sending love 🥰 it kinda broke me to see you break down but i think its so admirable that you’re being real about not being okay so people feel less alone about feeling sad xx

So sorry you have dealt with this. I deal with the same right now so know that your videos help people and you are really making a change with these videos. This is a very tough thing to post. You are amazing!!!!!!

so relatable and not many KZfaqrs talk about divorced parents! thanks for sharing x

I’ve been a subscriber since you were fifteen. I love you how you finally feel comfortable to talk about things that matter because it can make a lot of people relate ❤️

i’ve been following you since we were both maybe 13 or 14 and have gone through a lot of the same shit. i’m so sorry you had to deal with this stuff and i really hope life keeps looking up for you ❤️

I rarely comment on yt videos but I can’t thank you enough for having the courage to be so honest, and for that, you are so much stronger than you know. I relate to you in so so so many ways and it’s amazing to know that I’m not alone through my struggles. I want you to know that it will get better. I know we don’t know each other but it’s amazing how much you can connect to one person through social media. Keep your head up girl, you will move mountains ❤️

Thank you so much for sharing all of this and being so vulnerable, I have had so many issues with food and eating disorders and it’s made me feel so insane, lonely and embarrassed. This video is like a weight off my shoulders, thank you for being so open, honest and raw. You will be helping so many people🫶🏼

The video of your breakdown broke my heart. Thanks for showing us your vulnerable side & the side that life is not always "perfect" as it may seem. That's really brave. And you're really strong. We're proud of you for trying your best to heal and being honest.

i just want to say that ur channel is so comforting i've been watching for so many years so thank you for sharing this with us and being real with us ❤️

this was very raw and brave of you to do, this was very genuine, God bless you xx

You are so strong and I appreciate you so much for sharing such a vulnerable part of your life that could also help others realise they are not alone, I do relate with your experience to an extend and I'm so sorry for what happened, I'm so proud of you for getting out of that state, send you love ! ♥

girl you are so beautiful and strong! I am so proud of your ability to pull through this and to even share this online! sending lots of love your way xx

I’m so glad you’re sharing this about the controlling relationship. As a mom who’s been through this I’m grateful to you for sharing the cycle of abuse as well as your ED. Girls need to hear this. He was breaking you down eroding your sense of self and that ties into the control issues with disordered eating. 💔 You’re incredibly BRAVE and HEALTHY to be able to share this with so match self awareness. Thank you!!! 🙏🏼 Sending so much Love and strength and well wishes your way. 💛💛💛

I used to watch your channel religiously years ago, this just came up on my suggested because I’m subbed. sending so much love, I know how hard Ed’s are but you are so deserving of a life freed from that hell, I promise. ❤

I don't normally comment but I just wanted to say that it's so refreshing to see other people who have gone through some of the same things.. sometimes people aren't right for one another and that's okay. I didn't know that this was such a common thing to go through so thanks for spending time to talk. ☺

istg i have hit rock bottom & everything has fallen apart and you dropped this you're the strongest. thank you sm india ily

I’m so proud of you India ❤️❤️ur so strong and inspiring I love you !

Thank you for sharing, I have been watching you for years and know it isn't easy to share hard parts of life, so proud of you. ❤

India, firstly I am so sorry you went through all of this and that at times you felt so alone. But thank you so much for sharing this, because doing so you are helping people feel less alone. Sending love and positive energy to you. Onwards and upwards 💕

so proud of u xxx ur channel is my comfort truly

India I’ve been watching u since I was 13 I’m 19 now I’m so so so proud of u. Thank you for your honesty xxx

this actually helped me a lot. it’s a great reminder that you are still YOU when your dreams come true, so if you don’t work through your bs now, it’s going to severely interfere with your new life. the life of your dreams requires you to be the you of your dreams. not just externally like I focus a lot on, but internally as well. I am so proud of you India. you’re going to come back into your dream life and you’re going to be your most secure and powerful self when you do

I just want to tell you, I’ve been watching you for years and one thing I can truly say, is we all have things that make us run away, whether it’s for real or running from ourselves. For several months I hit rock bottom when I didn’t know I even did. A lot of it stemmed from career and school goals and I have struggled with an ED it’s super hard to tell ourselves that we can ask for help or even vent. I have a hard time speaking up and expressing myself. I love that you have been able to speak for yourself and vent and express how you have been feeling. I love you dearly India 💕💕 I’m so sorry that you dealt with all of this. I wish you the best of luck in your journey with everything. (I’m really bad with words I’m sorry lol) 💕

Love you so much India ❤ Glad that you’re doing better and so happy you’re back on youtube im watching you sience you were 14 and your videos are such an nostalgic thing to me and always kinda motivates me

omg this is so vulnerable ❤

love this. ty for ur honesty

I’ve always liked you and your videos 🥰 happy that you are healing

OG watcher here. Thank you for sharing your story, I know it must have been not easy but you are so brave for doing it. Proud of you, and glad to have you back❤ keep being true to yourself because when you do that, that’s when things will come back into place.

Thank you for sharing with us everything India❤ I really love how mature and honest you are. You are already doing very well in many aspects! Hope you build a good relationship with food soon and heal well!

I haven't seen your videos in a while however, I am really glad you talked about this angel ◡̈ we are all here for you and are proud of you! everything will be alright and I am always here if you need to talk sweetie. also there is nothing to be ashamed of, it takes a lot of courage to open up and realize you're struggling. were all fighting our battles, you're on the right path of healingg ◡̈

Been struggling myself and same things but I'm happy to hear you're doing better .. I want to do too. You gave me hope ❤

I am glad you seem to be doing better now and I hope you continue to improve. You have a beautiful smile and I like to watch it at all times.

You are doing so so much better than you think. Sending you lots of love 🤍☁️✨

i have so much love for you india and i’m extremely proud of you! so sorry you went through all of that, you definitely don’t deserve it at all but like you said it’s good to take away the life lessons and learn from everything we go through. you are such a ray of sunshine and i have been watching your videos pretty much since the beginning and i have so much hope for you in this next chapter of your life. you are radiating joy in this healing journey and i can’t wait to see what happens next in your life 🥰🤍✨

So incredibly proud of you

I am SO SO SOOO PROUD OF YOU❤❤

I am so proud of you for posting this ❤

u r so strong, loveu and im happy you r better now!

India I am so proud of you, everything you went through shaped you to be the woman you are and are going to be. Girl you are so strong and courageous from moving to LA at a young age, coming back from that and being honest with yourself and vulnerable with us. India you are the girl that walked into Ford and got signed (they weren't even taking walk throughs), you're the girl that decided to have a relationship with her dad regardless of you being the child. 15 year old me looked up to you and 20 year old me still does but now I appreciate your strength India, you have a beautiful heart and have grown to be an amazing young lady. You taught me confidence and to dream. I want you to know you are loved by your family and by God. Allow yourself grace, be kind to yourself and know that you are That Girl. If you fall 10 times you'll surely get up 11. 💖💕❤️Go easy on yourself and if anything I've learned about you is that your aren't prideful (you went back to England instead of staying in a toxic space, you don't care to be right) and that's beautiful. I am proud of you India ❤️

Sending so much love to you India ❤️

My forever favourite KZfaqr! I love you and ur honesty. I struggled similarly with food. We got this girl💪❤️. Thanks for being so open and telling ur story it really helps

I’m nearly 28 and only came across this video randomly, but wow you are such a brave young lady for sharing this. I hope you are finding yourself and continuing to work on your overall health ❣️

This video suddenly appears in the perfect time I’m struggling a lot with my ED too, I’m trying to recover on my own but tbh it’s so hard and I just kept relapsing , i feel exhausted 😩

Thank you for sharing this, you are so genuine and amazing. God bless you always

sending u so much love

So proud of you 👏!

Thank you for sharing, we’re the same age and I started watching you when I was 15. It’s amazing watching you grow and thanks for reassuring it’s normal at our age to make stupid decisions or get ourself into toxic relationships with boys, blow all our money on clothes and most importantly not have our life 100% planned out yet. I’m 20, in uni and no clue what I even wanna do when I graduate or who I fully am yet, but that’s alright I guess xx:) sending hugs Xo

Thank you, you helped me understand my niece more. She also struggles with ED after her parents divorced. Wish you well❤

Thank you for sharing ❤️ wish you all the best, you deserve all the best ❤️

proud of u !!

hi india. you're not alone.

So proud of you India 🖤

Aw India this was heartbreaking to watch! as a long time viewer (since 2017 I think??) I've grown up with you and it's been really cool to see everything you've done. this was a hard video to watch, but just know that we are all here to support you no matter what. I think a lot of your followers notice how much happier you are in England so it's definitely a relief knowing you're back there with your family. I really appreciate you opening up too, as I can't imagine how hard that must've been. we are so proud of you!

I cried when I watched you and I'm looking forward for the videos in the future

Hey india, first of all i’am very thankful that you are being so honest with us and i hope that you will find a way to deal with issues without binge eating and throwing up afterwards…this time must been so terrifying for you… My Question for the Q&A: Do you still go to a therapist? Because i truely believe this is the best ways to find a way for a healthy dealing with issues and have high chances to not getting trapped in negative behavior patterns again…

ive never seen anything more relatable than the divorced parents family drama omg youre so real

im so proud of you for being able to open up about this, currently im going through issues with disordered eating (different to yours) and i’ve told no one about it because of how shameful it feels but also because of the toxic mindset about it and not wanting to get better, so i know how hard it is to even admit it to yourself that what you’re doing to yourself isn’t okay let alone admit this to youtube. you’re such an inspiring youtuber to me & im so proud of you for being so open and honest on this channel. sending hugs and love ❤

Genuinely so vulnerable, also you should definitely take a Nyc trip ahaha always happy when you go there

for the Q&A: Could you share your current workout/fitness routine now that you are healthy and happier, not restricting. Also you are so strong for sharing this. I know you touched many people and made them feel less alone.

I just turned 30 a few months ago and the best advice I could ever give someone is *follow the path less traveled* When I was growing up I was not close with my family, I graduated 450 out of 900 people in my class and I was not expected to do much of anything with my life. 13 years later and I have my undergraduate and masters degree and I live in Okinawa Japan (I am from the US) I am returning to the states next year but I have a good start on life and where its heading, on top of that I am married to an amazing wife and have wonderful dog and a great life. My point is, is that if you follow the path less traveled and do things others wouldnt do then it will take you places.

such a beautiful video, thank you.

Love u. Sending love to u my fellow sagit. Feel you and support you. We are all in the process of getting real and honest with ourselves and start taking good care of selves. Be blessed xx

Oh baby girl my heart breaks for you, I just wanna hug you so tight and not let go, your okay, your going to be okay regardless of how long it will take, you have so many people ready to be there with you

One day at a time ♡, you are strong and brave 💫

Lots of love from Istanbul!!! love u🩷

Keep on being positive India were all love you very much

Cool ascent 😊

We love you india. I have been here since your name was “princess” and that faceless phase. Love you so so so much from Malaysia

Take time to heal and come back when you are ready❤️Sending you lots of virtual Hugs and kisses your way India💝💝

Currently dealing with after a year of an Ed I can’t stop binging and now I’m bigger than I’ve ever been :( stopped me associating with anyone or going out. I feel disgusted.

thank you for sharing sending love from Japan!

we all hit rock bottom at some point… adult life can bring stress, anxiety, responsibilities, work problems, money problems, relationships, family problems etc. At 18, I thought that I would never get my college degree. I was in constant stress, but I did it. I got that degree. At 21, after so much anxiety and being scared of driving- I finally got my drivers license. I thought I couldn’t do it, I failed multiple times, I hated being so incapable of something. But at the end, I got that drivers license, took me a while to start driving by myself, alone - but at the end - I did it. I said fuck it, my car turned off multiple times. I turned it back on and continued. I learned. At 20 , i thought I couldn’t get a job, but I did . That same office job, that I was dying to get, brought me money- but so much fucking stress. Not the job itself, just the people surrounding me. People who want to bring you down, make you feel bad about yourself, Question yourself. This issue still exists. I haven’t gotten over it…. But I’ve learned that everything always works out at the end. You will suffer, you will fall down, you will be broke, have your heart broken, you will lose yourself, hate yourself. Life wouldn’t be interesting if everything was easy. We think some people have it easy, they have everything, but trust me, they do not. No one is perfect. We’re not supposed to be perfect. Things will go downhill, but you will always find a way to get through it. And you will get through it. You will make it. Everything always works out at the end.

I know it’s not all about views.. but if you are looking for views keep being raw and open, this was more helpful and comforting than you know. You are so brave, I am 21 still at home and very lost as well, everything will work out 🧘‍♀️

the video at 17:16 made me feel n India I got teary eyed. The hating yourself I could relate and I pray u have a beautiful journey to love urself truly no rush. I live la ma if u ever visit again I would love to get some matcha with pretty

Love you and wish u well ❤

I’m recovering from an ed so I understand completely. anyone else who is struggling to: LIFE IS WORTH LIVING. ❤

i ❤️ u india, i wish you the best always

You are so beautiful inside out. i love how real u are. Love you

Sending all my love❤

I’m 21 and still live at home, I work overtime 5 days a week, mum pays majority of groceries and I buy the things I like most and pay £40 a month as rent. I feel like a bum but my mum reassures me it’s fine because my job is across the road. Plus I’m saving up for driving lessons and a car so I can go travelling and live in my car to do my photography.

sending you love xxx

Be strong and never forget that thighs get better!

pleaaase reload your old videos!!!! i loved them

I can’t understand how young people think drinking and then throwing up is a fun

Hi, I would be really glad just for you to noticing my comment. I watch you for so long. Today I have relly my bad day, I also steuggle with ed (the same as your) for 5 years. I was thinking about all that, That I will never overcome that. I really want just hear your voice becouse you are my inspiration, we are the same age. You mean so much. I was just about watch some old videos of yours and wow this came out. That s sign I belive that I have to seen this. Thank you so much. It s amazing how weird it is like this video was made for me

Please never get involved with a person who is controlling

Do you mind me asking how your binging got better? Down from everyday to 2 times a month? I am struggling at the moment and just can’t even imagine only binging two times a month and would love any help you can offer xx

Q&A questions: 1. Are you still in contact with your ex? 2. Was he ever violent or narcissistic 3. Did modelling contribute to the ED? 4. Are you ever planning to go back to modelling? 5. When did he (ex) start behaving badly like this 6. Have you ever had past experiences with EDs before July 2022? 7. Do you want to live a “normal” life for someone your age and go to uni, so you can heal from having to grow up so fast and having lived like an adult so early?

That man was SCARY...glad she's okay .. Jesus 😲

Pls do more cooking vids!

As a person whose life is also falling apart, but I have it “too good” to “have a right” to feel bad about it & especially leave - THANK YOU! Not only this video deeply resonated with me, there’s something so bittersweet about knowing you’re not alone in your struggles, but also I absolutely admire your bravery to be vulnerable ❤️‍🩹 I always went to the camera, but it’s so hard for me to open up to the internet. But I’ve definitely started my journey this October. Seeing people like you, who are not afraid (or at least don’t let that fear stop them) to share the most vulnerable, darkest & sometimes even embarrassing parts of their life, and to be aware & accountable - is extremely inspiring and somewhat even therapeutic. I’m so proud of you for keeping your resilience even after moments of weakness, shame & failure. I’m so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself & sticking to it. I’m so proud of your progress! I truly wish you the best ❤ To heal & reconnect with the right people & re-enter the life of your dreams once you’re in a healthier state 🤍🪽 It’s people like you who help me to (re)claim my story & get on my journey 💗

I know you know this, but I really believe you need to slow down and live like someone your age. Go out and have fun, live with your mom and don’t worry about expenses. When you’ve been working for so long sometimes you forget how to be a kid again. Your dreams will always be there but your youth won’t. Enjoy it for now :)

The KZfaq channel isn’t doing too badly. That’s something to be happy about.

nice video india