Suisei Hoshimachi was originally an independent vtuber that joined with Hololive. Even though she's adopted by Hololive, she is, by no means, a lesser to her colleagues. She's a hardworking girl who always strives to improve herself and do her best. Suisei is incredible. You should worship her, yes. She's called Hexagon Idol for a reason. She's very multitalented. She can kick your ass in Tetris, she can cook, she can sing, she can act, she can draw (her model was originally drawn by herself!), she can do impressive vtubing work: editting, planning, entertaining, EVERYTHING. She's amazing. We could only hope to be as half as grossly incandescent as she is. You should subscribe to her. You should pledge your life to her and swear an oath that you'll never betray Suisei Hoshimachi. Life by her content. Breathe her songs. Quaff her drawings. Kneel whenever she does zatsudan. You must tune into her streams daily. You must marry, breed, and create a lineage of Hoshiyomis to subscribe to Suisei! Suisei is a way of life- No, Suisei IS life!!! Yes, SUB to Sui

suisei is one of the few examples of that whole “never let go of your dreams” thing that media likes to talk about and prove that it actually works

I cried so hard to Suisei's story time after time. I also had a HUGE fat cry after seeing myself there. To someone like me, it really means the world. It means this lonely road towards a pursuit of a reckless dream is less lonely when I see people recognise my work. Thank you 💙

YES, suisei still being "Suisei" after joining hololive imo is one of big factor for her success, i think its not a secret that most of hololive members (or other big vtuber agencies) is already working on the vtuber scene or at least have a necessary skill to become vtuber even some of them telling their struggle before joining hololive on stream, but Suisei struggle is well record and we can see her growth, the fact that we can see it make it more personal than just hear it from stories, which makes her viewer want her to succeed more than ever and as non jp speaking holofans im grateful that "the story of hoshimachi suisei" video by Aburage115 is realeased at the perfect time when people like me start knowing hololive

I don't wanna imagine a timeline without suisei.

Suisei's story is definitely an inspiration to many vtubers. Her passion and stubbornness is something to look up to. I've seen alot of indie vtubers quitting after 3 months or even less...weeks. One can imagine how she felt when she hit the jackpot.

It's a good day to be a Hoshiyomi. Suisei is seriously such an inspiration, beyond being a cute and funny anime girl -- she is hard-working, talented, dedicated, and incredible in every way. I'll never get tired of hearing her story !

As a witness from her first debut in 2018 I didn't really think that she would be a golden star now, but I'm just glad i did stick, there would be some occasional problems that happened but I'm glad I'm one of those thousands of people who witness her growth and achievements. and *WE* hope she will still rise up until she reaches the stars and shine bright like a comet

Suisei is the personification of "overqualified for the job"

It's easy to know why Suisei and Calli respect each other so much when you know their backgrounds. I'm also intrigued about other Hololivers like Watame, Towa and Aqua following her path. Actually, Towa herself would make a good video. The smile we did protect.

Suisei story is never fail to amaze me, she's not a quitter and doesn't gave up, she continue where most people would probably stop hoping, she put all of her skill and effort to become what she is now, which is why most Stargazers are admiring and praising her non stop Suisei will always be one of the people i respect the most

This is why I am a Hoshiyomi. I might be a not be a full-time Hoshiyomi, but I still am one. She was an indie before hololive adopted her, with her whole model and lore still intact as her identity. That just means that hololive was persuaded by Suisei, and that made me feel that she was the chosen one. And look how far she's gone because of her stubbornness. A singer I am grateful of, an idol everybody in her agency loves and admires, and a vtuber that everyone knows and loves. Taku Inoue even noticed her shine. I'm so proud of our shining comet. Edit: term correcting.

Imagine being that first gigachad that turned his red glowstick into blue on Suisei and Azki's concert.

Suisei is imo one of the pinnacle members of Hololive. Her music and voice are top tier, her general content is entertaining, and she has a versatile enough use of voice, tone, and personality to make her interactions entertaining and engaging. Plus, she's one of the few Hololive members who has little to no breaks in their 3d lives, which makes it easier to watch for non-jp speakers.

I swear, Suisei is an idol anime protagonist, we're living in her storyline.

Suisei is genuinely one of the coolest VTubers out there, and her journey from small indie to one of the biggest singers in VTubing continues to inspire me to this day. I appreciate your emphasis on how much she had to do by herself before she hit it big; as an indie VTuber who also does all of her assets/content by herself, learning that made me a massive Hoshiyomi. She’s so talented, and I’m very glad that her persistence and her “my way or the highway” attitude about keeping her own persona paid off. Sui chan wa… kyou mo kawaii! 💫✨

I wanna talk about how comet theme suits her so well, comet is a microscopic object in vastness of space something you gonna have hard time to see, but when it's gonna blast past you it's gonna shine as a brightest star, and if it hits the planet impact gonna be extremely destructive, and well Suisei was just like a comet in saturated space of vtubers until she hit just the right spot trough her hard work and determination, she managed to make people notice her notice how bright she shines and became a real star...

BASED SUISEI! Ty DN, for covering one of my favourite Vtubers! Her dedication and stubbornness is truly inspiring!

She's now the 1st Vtuber to be on First Take! Grats to Suisei and all her hard work.

I had no idea of everything she went through, my appreciation for suisei has increased tenfold. I’m so glad she didn’t quit, we would have lost one of the best vtubers in the industry today

Her willpower and determination shine so bright, with a voice that can sing, it is no surprise that our Comet shines so bright in the night sky. She stuck with it, fought for her place, and didn't take no for an answer. And we would be less if she hadn't. Thank you for showing why we love her so. I totally agree with giving small indies a chance. One (perhaps so many more) of them is destined for greatness. They just need encouragement from someone to give them a chance.

Why do I feel like I'm following Suisei's path AAAAAAAAAAA

Suisei is a huge inspiration to me and one of the reasons why I refuse to give up this whole vtubing journey. I strive for the same perseverance. She's a star everyone should look up to. She's the dream. Thank you for this video, Nousagi. I will continue to work hard! Also, heyda everyone!!! 💜

Suisei is truly a star I'm glad Suisei is being so stubborn. Now she's truly a successful idol! It's possible to make your dreams come true like Suisei

Suisei is a vtubing god. She is incredible. Her talent is way beyond what many people who could even hope to achieve. I remember watching her before she joined hololive and years later when I found out that the person I watched earlier was Susiei, I was very happy for her. Her hardwork got rewarded.

Hey man, thanks for covering the story of Sui-chan. Her great singing voice, as well as her inspiring story, is what made me a Hoshiyomi since my second week in the rabbit hole.

Coming back here from her The First Take performance Fucking amazing. I am so proud to be a Hoshiyomi

I'm learning new things about vtubing talents everyday. Such an uplifting traditional story, but it's a traditional story for a very good reason. There was no mistake in me finding this video in my recommended, we could all use that little push to possibly make a difference. Suisei, and likewise, this video may very well be that push for alot of people. I also would like to mention, highly memeable, and umm... his last Suisei video. I guess there is in fact alot of good reasons to like her, just proves that Sui really is something.

Despite being someone who only been in the hololive rabbit hole for 2 years, not understanding a lot of Japanese and has been a huge fan of hololive EN... Stellar Stellar is still by far my most favourite hololive song to listen to.

And the fact that she got to keep her identity as Hoshimachi Suisei and being adopted as part of the official Hololive members now is a massive win on its own. Getting recognized as the person you wanted to be, not the person you’re forced to be. She deserves it all 👏🏻

She's also self-aware enough to recognize weaknesses in herself and be willing find ways to improve herself. For example, when ID Gen 1 had their first 3D performance, and surprised EVERYONE, Suisei mentioned she wanted Risu to teach her the technique she uses to sing.

Depressed Nousagi once again give a such a good information to us and still make our day, love you, Nousagi

From a tiny indie to the best musician in the industry - I'm so glad to be a Hoshiyomi and follow her journey

the vtuber equivalent of " cant stop wont stop"..... much respect to the blue shooting star....... time for the ego boost usagi san : grade A work as always and beautiful delivery... keep dem coming 😊

That's me at 3:12! Although that's a very old clip, thank you for featuring me in your video. 🙇‍♀️

There's so many inspiring stories in this VTuber community like Suisei, Subaru and Ironmouse, people who struggled so much and gone against all the odds and now they're getting the success they deserve, it gives me a bit more motivation to follow my dreams...

This video has so much more weight in light of her recent mic drop performance on “First take”

There was a moment I remember back in 2019-2020 is when Suisei standing alone on the stage in Minecraft. She sang a song and her wish is to standing with her friends. (esp. Sora) 3 years later, she now have over 1.5 million subscribers and having a name in the VTuber industry. As an old Hoshiyomi at that time, I or we really support her and we are damn proud with her.

Suisei is definitely one of my favourite vtubers. She's just amazing! The drive, the passion, the skills - she dazzles bright like an everpresent star in a sea of stars. She may have doubted herself, and in spite of her inner voice that constantly told her to quit, she never did. Her perseverance to keep going in the face of hardship is a true inspiration.

10:15 you mentioned about luck that she was part of hololive during the vtuber boom. I want to add that luck means nothing if there's no hard work to take advantage of it, and as a you mentioned, Suisei has tons of!

Feels good to be back here after watching suisei on first take

Suisei has grown over time to be one of if not my favorite Vtubers in the whole ecosystem. I love her music, Her personality, and more over her drive. She kept going well after almost anyone else would have quit Because she had a dream she wanted to fulfil, Literal Rocky levels of determination and I just love to see that in a person.

Suisei is a true idol. Like, putting aside the whole singer performer part of being an idol. I mean that she deserves being idolised. The woman is so talented, so stubborn (in a good way) (Edit: persistent might be the better word), so hardworking. I can't help but admire her. Vtubing has many great singers, some might arguably even be better than Suisei but she's the only one I refer to as a goddess or queen of singing or music. I don't even watch her streams a lot (partially because I don't understand Japanese but lately I just don't have time to watch streams at all) but Suisei is one of my favourite Vtubers. Not the first admittedly but she's in the top three. And honestly, even when not understanding her she's very fun to watch. She can be so very cool but also be an absolutely adorable dork the next second. Also, I have to mention how impressive her visuals are. Her outfits are iconic (her original indie ones less so, but they are still really cute) and they all look great, she has a really attractive design and the way she moves in 3D... She has this natural grace and elegance (or is being a dork, which is really cute and funny). Whenever I talk/type about Suisei's 3D I always feel the need to mention that it seems to me that she almost naturally walks like she is strutting on stage rather than just walk like a regular person.

Finally, the "wishing star" herself~

being indie sometimes looks more of a passion project i see a lot of very talented vtubers getting no views or having 1yr anniversary with like less than 3k subs etc and you watch them and they are really talented its so weird,

Everytime i hear/see suisei's background story, i literally watch the video fighting back my own damn tears. shes so damn inspirational and stronk asf. shes amazing

Suisei is my first Hololive member that I found from clip, then read her whole story untill Hololive in the clip comment section and other source, making me in awe and make me watched a lot of her clip And when I try to watch her stream, it was very fun and her singing amaze me, making me follow her and make me fall to the rabbit hole because of her back in 2020 So grateful and glad this was happened, and glad to follow & support her till now Suisei just awesome

She truly persevered and was rewarded in the end. She’s truly amazing. Man she’s a star I look up to

Singing department: based on the number of he tracks in my playlist... she's up there with top artists related to game/anime OSTs like Kawada Mami, KOKIA, Ray, and many others... her songs are just that good. Design department: I will not put a score to vtubers character design, but I WILL judge them for their costume design... I don't like things that are too stylized... and let me tell that most of Suisei's are top tier in my list for being totally wearable without being too weird. First hook: yeah... it's that Project Winter clip. I mean... who doesn't love axe-wielding Suicopath? Truth department: SMALL CHEST IS BEST CHE-- wait... some delivery person is at the front... I don't remember ordering anything tho...

There’s a lot I would love to say about Suisei and how much I admire her, but I’m sure it’s already been said by most in this comment section lol. Instead, I’ll talk about 2 key factors that are worth mentioning in more detail that played heavily towards Sui's success. Honestly, Susei is what every person with dreams and aspiration should strive to be. Hard work doesn’t always pay off but as the saying goes, *“It’s better to have tried and failed rather than living in regret of not trying at all”.* Suisei went through some extremely hard times and being rejected by multiple talent agencies will do a number on one psyche. Not everyone is strong-willed enough to recover from their first rejection, let alone attempted to reapply to said agencies a second time. No matter how many times you fail, as long as you maintain that Grindset mentality then nothing is unachievable. Hard work doesn’t pay off all the time but it will eventually so long as you continue to persevere. Suisei is a prime example of just that and my admiration/respect for her couldn’t be any higher than it already is. As mentioned in this video, luck did play a key role in her success, but I believe one of the *most important* turning-points in her career was the Project Winter Collab. Even though she wasn’t directly associated with the members of Hololive, their act of kindness/friendliness to reach out and include her is what gave Suisei the exposure/stage she needed to reach out towards the broader audience. After that collab, her career as a Vtuber snowballed, growing and massing a larger audience of dedicated fans by the day (which is kind of poetic since Project “Winter” lol). To me, this is definitely one of the key moments in her life that gave her the opportunity to soar into the stars and it’s one of the many reasons why I love Hololive out of any other Vtubing group. They all support and build each other up like family, and it makes me proud to be a long time fan of them all. ^~^

I love these documentary on basically legendary Vtubers in the scene see their origins and growth to what they are today I would love to see others being covered like the 4 Heavenly kings of Vtubers, Sora and Mito and how they being the first talent respectively influence the rest of their branch one being an idols base and one being livers base, The OG EN Vtube scene and the people who are in it like Ironmouse Etc. I love this channel, I honestly find the videos very interesting and entertaining keep up the good work man.

Considering this was before the pandemic boom, 6k in a year in an already saturated market is...honestly pretty good. Idols are a dime a dozen in Japan. Suisei had an uphill battle that most singers would have given up on. The fact that Suisei decided to go the direction of vtuber was a pretty huge gamble as she can only get by on her skills and talents as oppose to her looks. There are a ton of indie vsingers out there and even indie vsingers that actually play instruments ontop of singing such as Saki Ch. it really is impressive that Suisei made it at all and that's pretty amazing.

Like my late grandma used to say. "It's alright to be persistent, and be as stubborn as you want. As long as you know what you are doing and know what your end goal is"

Also, thank you for shouting out new indies. It's always fun discovering new talented ones. Ada is incredible.

Agency: "You have to re-debut with a new name and character" Axe-wielding Sui-sigma: "I missed the part where that's my problem"

The Suisei train that could

I always liked Suisei , she felt different from others. But damn, knowing her backstory now, I have huge respect for her.

Very pleasantly surprised by the mention of Ada M. at the end, thank you very much, I hope more get to know her!

Gj, she's the one that showed me true strength comes from within. And the one who made me go forward. Truly a Goddess.

I love her music so much and her voice as well, i hope she continues on making music like forever.

it was the time when i was first diagnosed with failed kidney, it was the time when i was almost quit pursuing my goal as an illustrator, it was the time when accidently i found suisei and hear this story straight from her video, she is the sole reason i keep pushing foward till today even though hardship come in so many ways i dont know how to thanks suisei for not giving up on her dream, truly a diamond in rought and always cute everyday

Her story is such an inspiration to all. So happy to see such a shining star be seen and appreciated by so many people. Totally deserving after all of her hard work and perseverance.

Suisei is jack of all trades, Master of: Singing Drawing Tetris KILLING Being a waifu And more... She's very dedicated and passionate in everything she does.

She's truly one hell jack of all trades, extremely good at singing, actually designed every single things in her avatar by herself, one of the tetris god, and even has a great personality Even if she was called psychopath but good lord how great and talented she is

There is really something special that exudes within Suisei, the raw talent, the personality, the charisma, just goes beyond what she's capable of. I was immediately attracted to her after hearing her sing (especially Stellar Stellar), watching her clips, and damn. Love how Cover and Hololive gave this megastar a chance, they really struck diamond of an idol on this woman.

Her music still slaps, it's just really good and I definitely appreciate her as a person and as a VTuber.

One of my very sweet viewers told me that when he watched this, it reminded him of me especially on never giving up on your dreams. Such a very sweet person. Waaaaa Suisei is really inspirational!! I will continue singing because it is what I love to do most!

One has to wonder if any of the agencies, both live and virtual, regret not giving Suisei a chance. The fact that she's always on the list of talents when people talk about virtual singers is a huge accolade.

I think it's so important as a VTuber to be dedicated and focused, because you put in so much effort even before you make your first Stream or weven Tweet. You need to think of a character, lore, you need a Model and so on, and if you can't spend much money it's even harder. The audience doesn't see all the blood, sweat and tears that go into your content. I am really happy that she pulled through and was able to join cover and to get the audience she deserves. Also it shows how strong she is and that she stays true to herself by not abandoning her persona and holding on to it. Not everyone would've done that! I am really happy for her and every other VTuber reaching their goals and it makes me proud to be a VTuber myself!

She is the beautiful comet that never gave up on her dream and became a bright shining beacon bringing incredible music to all of us. Respect the grind. Her stage presence is incredible too, she is so good at grabbing audience attention with her typically simple but elegant choreography. Hoshiyomi forever and thank you to all those who stuck by her in the early days!

There are some real special sinning stars in this V-tuber space.. A personal favourite moment of mine is when Sora personally thanked Iofi for building a bridge (of friendship) between JP & ID.. Since then we have enjoy many great streams like Peko & Moona, Reine & Coco & just recently Anya & Lamy🌟

Truly a star. Amazing video!

There ia a member in Hololive today that you just know that will accomplish whatever goal she might have set for herself, regardless of how much time it might take, she will accomplish said goal. Not just because of her talent (but, of course, talent is a big plus), but also because of her absolute passion for her craft, and extremely hard working nature. That's why I love Stellar Stellar so much, besides it being one of the best songs I've ever heard, its basically Suisei's story compressed into one song. Its like Suisei telling us "Want to know who I am? Want to know my life, my hopes and my dreams? Ok, then listen to THIS." And then you hear it... "I've become a shooting star! Stellar Stellar"

I like her perseverance and hard work. The fame and achievement she get are well deserved.

This shows why being smart in what you want to pursue is important. Suisei chose the hard way, but not recklessly because she did her share of work, research and tried, failed and succeeded and as we know the more risk, the more rewards which is what she's currently reaping, the rewards.

Suisei always were outstanding person for me, she was one of the first vtubers I genuinely liked and it's all started from the video on similar topic two years ago and of course legendary project winter stream.... Damn time got hands... Anyway I never was a huge idol person, but Suisei managing being herself in this industry is truly admirable.

These are my favorite types of stories, stories about the struggle of a nobody achieving greatness through grit. Also why I have respect for others in Hololive like Kiara and Matsuri because of their past struggles despite not really watching either of them.

I never paid attention to Suisei until her viral "Hi honey" clip and meme from last year, and while she may not be one of my top favorite Hololive personalities, I kinda get why she has plenty of stans, this video definitely made me respect her even more.

I am one of the people who think Suisei is the best vtuber singer. My personal favorite is and will probably always be Towa, but every time i hear any of Suisei's covers and singing streams i can't help but think she is THE best. I always am stunned by how well she can control her voice and how much impact she has. No one has managed to leave such a strong impression on me before. In all the concerts that Hololive held, especially the latest, i felt like Suisei stole the show every time. And i still can't get over how stubborn and determined she is. She was rejected by many before, mainly for the same reason, and she still came back unwilling to change that main factor that got her rejected before. She knew that was her only chance and she wasn't willing to give up on it. I am sure i would've been less interested in Hololive if not for Suisei, i probably wouldn't have bought tickets for all their concerts if Suisei was not there, Suisei is one of their best catches to promote music events i'm sure.

Suisei became one of my favorite Idols not because of her talents but because of her story when I heard everything about her long journey to get to where she is now...I was floored and was moved by her perseverance and her absolutely lucky break of being able to keep her image as Hoshimachi Suisei, not many indies can claim to have that honor, if at all! she gained nothing but respect from me and soon I loved everything else about her her singing her tetris skills her singing her art skills her singing oh yeah and did I mention her singing? cause my lord she's my favorite hololive idol to listen to, those pipes are like a Valkyrie sent from the stars

Suisei was the reason why I am in this rabbit hole... I remember it was one afternoon on 2020 while waiting for my professor to come on to my zoom class, and I saw this one vtuber. Said to myself been a while since I saw a kaheru and kizuna ai like, and then boom, I was mesmerized by her, and now I am here. Thanks Suisei

Every time I find one of these mini-documentaries that tell the transition and the moments that the artist went through in her initial stages and how she ignored the adversities to be the star that she is now, it breaks me and only increases the respect and admiration that I have towards the artist. (I'm not someone who knows the idol industry, I'm still getting used to the differences it has with the "western" music industry. I met the idol world with hololive, so I'm still learning)

Big respect for the dedication. The insistence, really. Especially being Hoshimachi Suisei and only Suisei. It reminds me of my own struggles and insistence of youth. Now that I don't have the need to struggle as much I don't really push hard. I can't really push hard. I burned out. My back hurts and my brain goes dumdum... I'm barely 23. I will remember Suisei when I need a push.

Suisei is the one inspires me to never stop chasing my dream even though everything is against it.

As a Hoshiyomi, this video really summarized why we were absolute dazzle by our bright comet! Jack of all trade with a persistency to make her dream come true! LOVE IT!

I’m not saying it can’t happen, but making the jump from indie vtuber to a corporate one is a rare thing to happen and Susei is a perfect example of the “your chances are small but not impossible” scinario

I could go on writing an essay about our lord and saviour Hoshimachi Suisei, on how she inspires us to be stronger and to keep on pursuing our goals and passions, on how she never gives up, on how she never lost herself and much more. She's one of the biggest role models I know out there, standing so strong despite the pain she went through. Her music is an entire essay of it's own, no words can describe it. Anyways, thank you so much for this video and for letting us more about her and one of her greatest strengths, hearing what happened behind the scenes with her even if it is again makes me love her even more. I'm a huge Hoshiyomi and Suisei is one of my favourite Vtubers, just everything about her really pulls you in. Also, does anyone share their birthday with Sui-chan?

Back when she did her 1st solo live, I was hesitating on wether or not I should buy a ticket for it. So I decided to learn more about her, I watched a video that recaps her whole story, and I cried tbh, and it's personally really rare to be emotional like that. I then bought the ticket and I'm glad I did, I'm a big fan of her ever since that moment. Now everytime I listen to Stellar stellar I become emotional for some reasons.

So glad you spent time talking about her stubbornness about her staying Suisei when applying to agency's. "Why make an exception for her?" Because she's Hoshimachi Suisei, that's why.

i love my sore loser tryhard psychopath

She really is the embodiment of a comet... what started as an unassuming speck of light in an endless sea of specks of light, only for it to slowly, but surely, shine brighter and brighter, until it dominates the night sky, leaving behind a trail of glory for people to marvel at.

There are timelines where 1. Accepted the job but didn't debut as Suisei 2. Gave up Damn

truly "emboldened by the flames of ambition"

Now we live in a timeline that I didn’t expect….

I owe everything Hololive gave me to Suisei. After all, it was her Tetris skills that got me interested in "A VTuber group Hololive". That one "What Suisei Can Do in 20 Seconds" tetris clip literally hooked me so hard. So if SUISEI gave up and never pulled off the insane journey she did, I probably would have never discovered Hololive, or at least have gotten into it right before the pandemic started. It would have been a much lonelier time I guess and I would be without all the smiles and laughs that Hololive has given me. And it's honestly not just Suisei but all of Hololive that gives this feeling. They're all such an inspiration and full of charm. I also VERY MUCH appreciate all the clippers Hololive has. Without you clippers, I don't know if Hololive would have even grown as far and explosively as it did to be honest. Especially to overseas communities. I feel so motivated, but at the same time a negative feeling as great as that motivation wells up within me... because that motivation just gets corrupted by.. honestly. My lack of self-esteem and ambition. I have grand dreams and goals, but they're all hollow ambitions. I want to be the best at everything I do, simply because that'd mean I'd be better than others at it or I'd get attention (even though I don't like having a lot of attention. My whole life's been contradicting like that, it's stressful). I'd like to say I'm a lot like Suisei, where I'm mostly a jack of all trades (though I'm not a master at anything or even close to one at anything). I can pick things up pretty quickly (I was always better than others at pretty much anything (obviously not everything though) at the starting line, but people usually outgrew me fairly quickly because I just can't put in the _continuous_ effort to be better. I put in a lot of effort when I do try, but I the problem is I can only bring myself to try once in a blue moon.) but I never follow through with it or I self-sabotage and can't stop myself from self-sabotaging. It's such a helpless feeling and I can't help feeling sorry for myself. Like, I literally _KNOW_ I could get better at what I want to do, I could reach my goals. But I just don't. I dream and dream and think about it all the time, but I can't bring myself to act. Ugh, I'm just venting at this point. But I don't know how to fix it. I mean, obviously, just ACT. Just start DOING the work and put in effort. But I just _CAN'T_ and it's pulling me apart from the inside and I loathe it so so much. It's such a heavy weight on my mental. I feel like I'm chained down by this and now I just feel like a worthless sack of meat. Maybe I'm too afraid to fail and never achieve my dreams so I don't even try to have an excuse, but that's so STUPID. If I don't try then I'll ACTUALLY not achieve it. God I hate it all. I wish I could open up a status window and re-program my brain so I can delete my negatives.. but even that wish is merely an extension of my lack of willingness to act. Instead of facing reality and acting, I just daydream about fixing my problems. I'm so hopeless I should have never been born. Welp. I know this comment is going to disappear and never be seen so I'll just post it. But if anyone does see it.. what do I do? What the hell is wrong with me, why am I such a dysfunctional human being?

Ayo? Thanks for the suisei vid POG

i’ve heard this story many times but it still and always gives me chills , i love Suisei’s story

It's impressive how she kept pushing for what she wanted when it would have been easier to compromise. Keeps going despite smaller numbers. Refuses to give up being Suisei when that was the price of admission. Going back to a company that had said no. Making friends with the talents when the company wasn't as supportive as it should have been.

Now this is interesting for meanwhile YT is broken because I got this notification just now meanwhile this video was 9 - 10 mins ago

Genuinely always curious since the Mori collab, this was a cool video to find that explains who she was.