Thanks Daren very kind words I am glad I still feel how I do because it confirms how much love I have and even though she won't benefit from it someone will. The reason I was there in 2000 was because I had let so many people down and had not behaved as I wanted.

Thankyou so much for your comments, i did try the online thing for my counselling, to be fair i just didnt see anyone i liked and it was very wierd, in the past i have moved between partners very quickly so never thought about much, leanne is different and i like the idea of the way it makes me feel in the way i feel love. Now i know its not going to happen, but so far i havent felt like it for anyone else, nor have i seen anyone i like the look of in the slightest, the only person to come close in some ways is unavailble and an impossibility but i not fussed to be fair. Showing my feelings on here and facebook are a true sign of who i am, someone will love that and want to share it, but i very picky now and cautious, but i am perfectly happy, leanne came at me out of the blue, it only takes someone else to do the same to my heart. Not so sure about exceptional content though lol i do waffle and sometimes its really shite lol.