To everyone out there dealing with depression: we are not alone! We are stronger than we think, we are overcoming our struggles everyday and we are handling it like heroes! Sending love to every single one of you ❤️

Depression shows you that no matter what you have ...possessions money relationships etc... happiness is an internal battle. I struggle with this as well and it is so hard. Thank you for sharing and trusting us. Love you x

Taking care of my hygiene for me makes a big difference in my depression.. Taking the time to shower and put on fresh clean clothes always makes me feel better.

You're so fucking brave. My mum killed herself after losing the fight against depression and so I know exactly how much strength and tenacity it takes. Little by little. Motion creates motion. Sometimes coping is enough and eventually it leads to thriving. Lots of love to you, Karissa.

You say that telling people about it helps, but I haven't had that happened. In fact, the more that I open up about depression and am vulnerable... the more people actually seem to stay away from me, like I have some sort of contagious disease, or are worried I'll bring them down and make them feel the sadness or loneliness that I'm experiencing.

This video came at the perfect time. I really liked your quote, "Depression isn't a choice, but what you do with it is a choice." It's been about 4 years now that I've felt chronically depressed, granted I've gone through some MAJOR life changes during those years. I was diagnosed with a chronic neurological disorder, dysautonomia, my ex-fiance called off our wedding and broke-up with me, I lost my dog, and I had to make the decision to no longer be in contact with my mom who has a history of emotional and verbal abuse. I feel like a cracked mirror that will never be "normal" again, but I'm trying to work with my "new normal" everyday. Anyways, thank you for the encouraging video and I'm sending positive thoughts your way!!

Every day is a sad day for me😭 i don't even know how to deal with depression anymore i get hated on when im on social media and every time i TRY to share my story i get called an "attention seeker" or "faker" it tears me down i am TRYING sooo hard to safely cope with depression and how to try to make my life\days better

My husbands brother recently opened up to us about his depression and how much it helped to have my husband ask him to be his gym buddy, both having a reason to get up and get out of the house, but also feeling better physically. We’ve always told him if he’s feeling alone or whatever he’s welcome at our house. He also said that our cats have been great because they always seem to know when he’s feeling a little extra shitty, cause one of them is on his lap instantly when he sits down. I suffer from seasonal depression and it’s so nice on days when you don’t want to interact with people, to have a cat or dog just being there and loving you.

What a perfectly timed video, THANK YOU, so much for opening up, the truth in your voice is radiating. Your column idea sounds splendid for those REALLY hard days. You've perfectly described how my depression and intrusive thoughts flow, i feel so comforted after this, thank you, thank you. Big tears and a full heart.

I've been subscribed to you for years, and I've always admired your no-bullshit attitude and how open you are. You're so brave for posting this, and I wish more KZfaqrs would have this kind of courage.

those comments tho oh goodness... we have no idea that there's so many people struggling with mental illness. i hope everyone will find their own way to positivity and 'better' way of living :)

"Depression isn't a choice, but what you do with it can be a choice"- wow. so so so well said.... im unbelievably proud of you for being so open. you can tell that this was not that easy to film, but it was totally worth it. i loved your tips and tricks to trick your mind in dark times and i especially loved the way how honest and productive they were. surely this will be helpful for me, but also for a lot of people

I am the same way and winter makes it so so much worse.

Karissa, I've been following you for a couple of years now and you have helped me so much!! I love seeing how happy and sunny you are because you always give me new ideas and things to do. BUT I also love seeing this side of your life because it just proves how real you always are. Your honesty is so refreshing and helps me get through these things too! You are so inpsiring and you are helping so many people. Keep doing you!

Your not alone. Comes out of nowhere. Tired, sad, lonely. Thanks for the video.

“It’s ok. It’s going to be ok.” thank you ❤️

You are by far the most sincere KZfaqr out there hands down, and this video is one of the many reasons why you're forever my favorite 🙂 Thank you for posting this Karissa!

Thanks for posting this Karissa! So sorry to hear what your going through.. it’s crazy to think that when I was going through dark times, I was hooked to watching both your channels! I’d always feel that pain drift a bit when watching your content. Honestly, watching someone as creative and different as you are most definitely lifted my spirits! It’s a bitch to deal with what your going through now for sure.. and everyone experiences something different but there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel :) x

I'm a long time follower, since the early Vancouver days. One of the things that has kept me with you through all of these years is your transparency. The fact that your channel isn't all tutorials and vlogs showcasing how beautiful you are and how perfect your life is has been what's kept me coming back. Of all the channels I'm subscribed to, you are the person I can relate to the most and who's outlook in life I admire the most. I'm so sad that you're struggling, and as I'm currently struggling with post partum depression, I can relate. Please know that while your subscribers may seem like anonymous people, we are here for you and want only the best for you! Thank you for always being real and being vulnerable. I know this wasn't an easy video for you to make ♥️

Thank you for being brave and vulnerable in making this. I’ve been following you for years. I can relate to this so much as it sneaks up on me in the most random ways and I don’t understand why some days I just cannot get out of a funk of sadness despite all the blessings in my life! Thank you for providing these tips. Just know that you are loved and have purpose on this earth and shining a light into so many people around the world. This feeling is temporary and it is not forever. Much love to you xox

I’m so grateful you made this video. You expressed your feeling in such a collected and eloquent way and I hope this was equally helpful for you to make this video as it is for every single person who watches this because talking in such a raw capacity is so difficult and to be able to watch you do it helps me talk about my own mental health struggles. I really hope you know you are not alone and I’m so genuinely thankful for you, your honesty and how unapologetically you, you are. It means the world. Everything is going to be ok ❤️

Thank you so much for posting this video. I have been watching your channel since 2012 and you are a huge inspiration. I have been going through a lot too and in the last 5 weeks I feel iv made a turn around. Eating healthy, yoga, meditation, mindfulness and being present has helped me so much. Talk to people and reaching out is so important. You are a fantastic woman x

So so brave. I personally don’t deal with depression but my boyfriend does. It can be very hard being on the other side of it watching the one you love go through something and try not to take things personally. This helps and thank you for sharing. You’re a beautiful person!

The timing on this is impeccable, I swear this is the universe's way of saying "you are not alone". I've been experiencing these blips of depression from time to time over the years. It is only now being in my mid 20s after a breakdown and rebuild that I really learned how to cope and put self-care as a priority. I found myself in a blip this week after amounting stress that I had to surrender and take a day off to re-energize my body and refuel myself with passion. When my mind races I do the same- make a list of something small that could influence my being in the here and now. Puzzles, mediating, stretching, sipping herbal tea, petting my cat and journaling help in heaps. My journal is my guide. I start by taking time to scribble things I need to do- then out loud I read what I wrote but replace the " I need" with "I will". I will tell someone I love them, I will hug myself, I will get out of my pjs, I will eat that oatmeal, I will listen to that song, I will yoga. Depression is a cloud of thunder, but it will pass. I hope anyone who reads this and is having a depressive day, remembers this is not a permanent state, it will pass.

This video was amazing, thank you for opening up! I love how you talked about doing little things like making a smoothie or showering. I used to feel stupid for being proud of those little achievements, it used to make me feel worse because it was frustrating how easily others could do those things. Changing my mind set on that was one of the best things I've ever done, everyone should feel proud of themselves no matter what the achievement is!

Thank you for using your platform to help others. You are such a strong and kind person. You have all my support and love! ❤️

So proud of you for posting this karissa! Just wanted to remind you how strong and beautiful you are ❤️❤️ thank you so much for making videos like this!

I am so happy you talked about this :) This is something I quietly struggle with, and feel embarrassed to tell people about the days I go MIA and why I do. I am slowly getting more comfortable in talking about this, and really appreciate your tips. Wishing you all the best!

Karissa.... this video. Wow. Thank you. I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for the first time in my life for about three months now, it is such a rollercoaster and it hurts so much and I feel so lost sometimes. I feel broken and hopeless and alone. It’s either total happiness, or complete despair lately, like I’m riding a seesaw. Your insight and watching this brought me to tears and really touched my heart. It’s so unbelievably hard to get myself out of the hole I’ve fallen into when I’m going through an episode, but the next time I’m there I’m going to try to use these tips. Thank you for helping me realize I’m not alone. I have so much love and respect for you❤️💘

I really needed this. I have seasonal depression and I’ve been diagnosed with situational depression too. It’s my first year in college, and I’ve felt really isolated recently even though I’m involved in clubs and starting to form close friendships. This week I’ve had problems just concentrating on homework or doing anything beyond going to classes and eating meals, because even that feels like a lot. Thank you for sharing. Tmrw I’m going to try to have a good day. ❤️

Sending love 💘

I used to struggle a lot when I was at home, with nothing to do. Thank goodness for dogs right? I can't imagine how hard it is to live your life on social media, but you're doing it girl! Hope you treat yourself with the kindness and gentleness that you deserve everyday.

This video is great karissa, I’ve personally been battling in my own head more recently than before, it’s been really hard on me and I’ve been trying to deal with it all without wanting to rely on medication . Your positivity you show threw this video is motivating, people like you inspire me to live my best life and deal with anxiety and depression, and to not let it take over me. Thank you.

I love how the sun came through at the end of the video. Just shows there is light at the end of the tunnel. You're not alone, you're so strong 💕💕

Thank you so much for sharing this. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for years, and to this day, I’m still struggling with it. Recently I’ve drifted back into that dark tunnel and I’ve been trying to find my way out of it, but it seems like no matter how hard I try, it pulls me back in. It’s hard to not think negative thoughts when my own mind is putting myself down and telling me how terrible I am or how I’ll never get anywhere in life. I try and put on my mask everyday so no one knows, but it’s so hard when life can be so difficult and things are always thrown in your direction. I hope you, me and everyone else that has commented is able to get out of that tunnel and find happiness. No one deserves to be stuck in that dark place. Thank you for being you! 💜💜💜

I do not suffer from depression but I just wanted to say how brave I think you are to be so honest and transparent and put everything online for the whole world to see! It shows courage and strength, and also the way you edited the video, with clips while you were describing, shows how accurate and precise and amazing you are! Kisses from Italy

Karissa thank you for this video, perfect timing because I’ve been dealing with this for couple months now, and I tried and tried but everything became more complicated over time and watching this video reminds me that this is OKAY. You are so right every single word you’ve said. Thank you, you are going to be okay, I believe in you, you can beat this feeling, so can we 🌈

Great tips Karissa I am a mental health nurse and it’s an honour for me to look after people in their darkest times, I encourage a lot of those tips you suggested, keep fighting the good fight because there IS better days coming there IS a life worth living people just have to survive one day at a time to see it ❤️❤️❤️

I wish I could like this video more than once... it's so important to me and I am so proud of you Karissa for putting your struggles out there like this to help others (Like me!). You truly are strong and beautiful, even if you don't always feel it xxxx

Your videos, both old and recent, always pick me up when my depression arises. What makes depression and loneliness ironic is that everyone feels it. I miss your videos but I completely understand.

I'm crying, I relate to all of this so much. Thank you for this video, it's actually really helpful

Thanks for sharing, Karissa! These tips sound like something I could try. I too struggle with depression and anxiety and sometimes I feel completely helpless, but I know that making any kind of “progress” would help me move past it when it’s at its worst. Although, sometimes crying alone in my closet is my only solution.

I've been a subscriber of yours for five years and when I see this I feel so sad because it feels like you are someone I know and care about in a strange way 😞 Really nice of you to share this, I think you help other people a lot with your words 💓 It's okey not to be okey, we are born with all these emotions to express them. We can't be happy all the time, I don't think that's human in the end. Love from Sweden 💓

so happy you made this. goes to show even people who appear to have the perfect lives deal with stuff like depression too. you've always been such an inspiration to me.

Karissa I just want you to know how much i've always looked up to you. I'm sure so many people will appreciate this video. This too shall pass. I'm always here if you ever need to chat to someone, or to have someone just listen. x

Love you Karissa. This was such a strong, emotional video. Depression is something we all struggle with and it is a battle that we have to fight every day. I hope that you start to feel better soon. Lay out on your deck and soak up some sun once it starts to peak through. This always helps me! I always get depressed in the winter when we dont get as much sunlight. I have been feeling depressed for the past few weeks, i just keep pushing through. But there are better days to come! :)

I just want to give you a big hug and tell you that everything will be ok and that you are not alone!!! I’ve been watching your videos for literally years!!! You’re such a rad person and I’m so happy how far you’ve come in life. Take as much time as you need for yourself we will be here for you when you come back!!!!

It was so helpful to me to hear you say “something you are WILLING to do”... I always talk myself out of doing the things that will make me feel better because I don’t WANT to. Because I don’t want to do anything and I feel stuck. Not I huge thing but I really think this could make a difference for me in how I talk to myself. 🙌

Thank you Karissa for being so open and allowing us to see this side of you. By you opening up and sharing this you’ve helped so many not to feel alone in their daily struggle. Depression and anxiety suck and it’s something that a lot of people have to deal with and most of the time they do it by themselves. It’s people like you that help others to be more open about what they are going through. Thanks for the video and the helpful tips xx

My darling girl! Im so proud of you for putting this out there. I've been following you for years now and I'm so proud you in everything you have been through. I know this feeling all too well and i 100% support you 💛💛💛

I’m usually a silent viewer but this video spoke right to my heart and I felt compelled to thank you for sharing!!! I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety since i was a teenager (28 now) and everything in this video rings so true for me. it’s comforting to know I’m not alone in this and there’s so many people that DO understand. So seriously, THANK YOU for sharing... this video could save lives!! ❤️❤️

I never comment on videos, but I'd just like to say that this was a courageous and informative video that I'm sure will help many people see the light in that day. It was well articulated and very brave. As a young women trying to navigate the world, these are the videos that are so important to see.

This video came at the perfect time. I've been struggling with anxiety and depression, on and off for the past couple of years. But this past month has been one of the hardest for me. Thank you so much for putting your story out there. It feels so good knowing that I'm not the only one going through this.

I love you. Your honesty and bravery speak such immeasurable volumes. Thank you, Karissa.

This is such an incredibly strong video. You’re courage in opening up is beautiful. ✨

Thank you for sharing this with us, I believe writing down those three things such as food, physical and mental can help so many people- not just those who suffer with depression! Thank you, again!

I have so much respect for you making this video. I have depression too, in a light form, i don’t need medication to get out of a bad moment. My boyfriends helps me a lot, he Knows exactly what to do. And just small things like watching cat and dog memes or playing with my young son helps me a lot. It takes a lot of gutt to talk about this so openly, even more on the internet. You’re gonna make it Karissa. One day you will feel happiness and only happiness. You are strong and a beautifull person! Love

I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for a few years now and recently began taking anti-depressants. Over the last few months, it’s hit me big time and I feel like I’m in a huge rut. I always feel alone even though I’m surrounded by my family. I recently started at the gym and aim to go at least twice a week. Going to the gym has made a big impact on my mental health and afterward I feel like a weight has been lifted of my shoulders. Thank you for posting this video, it makes me feel as though I’m not alone in how I’m feeling x

Excellent video. I know all too well how these feelings can tear you to shreds. They are debilitating. I commend you for making this video, and sharing such a personal part of your life. Things will get better, as you said. Just keep at it.

Thank you for being brave of telling us about your depression. I, too, am struggling with it. Fighting it, denying it, coping from it is my everyday routine. There are times when something even so little thing can trigger it and suddenly I'm already crying. You are one of my inspirations and I admire you for showing us that you are a human just like us. I know it won't be easy but it won't last forever. :-)

Thank you so much for opening up once again, Karissa 💓This was 100% needed today, as that stubborn rib pain has come back with a vengeance, 24/7, just FEEDING my depression like an insatiable monster... feeling hell worthless, and I just feel like I'm relating to you on so many levels🖤😓 Keep being the strong, badass woman you are, we love you girlie 💓🙌💛

This spoke so deeply to me! When I'm in a bad mental state I make it worse by talking down to myself. I don't take pride in making little choices and getting through the day (I actually belittle myself for it) because I compare myself to others who appear to have no mental struggles and are succeeding in life and always capable and confident. This video reminded me I need to work on being more kind to myself. And that I can't assume that the people I compare myself to don't have their own struggles.

You are amazing. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with the KZfaq community. I know that this video is helping many people. Happy to know you, friend. 💛

Thank you for posting this. I've been struggling with depression for years. No matter the money, the places someone visits or how much you can spend when going out partying or doing anything to cover it. No matter how much alcohol, drugs you intake it won't defeat it. Like you said it's all in your mind. It's a daily struggle, it's a combination of a lot of things and experiences in life. I always try to be the most optimistic person I can be even though it's hard at times. When there's life, there's hope. Keep going, stay positive and be strong. There's a light at the end ofnthen tunnel. Take it one day at a time. Much blessings beautiful and take care.

I have so much respect for you for making this video, it was so honest and vulnerable and so relatable for me. I feel like whenever I get really busy or stressed, I'm constantly resisting depression. It can be exhausting but the littlest things can make the biggest impact. You will come out of this stronger than ever before and I truly believe that as cruel as it is, so much wisdom comes from suffering. Sending you love 💕

I’ve been following your for so long at least 4 years and honestly seeing you make a video like this is so inspiring. With depression people seem to beat around the bush and they don’t want to talk about but I really hope that this video helps open the door of conversation and help to make other people to fell not so alone and help them through it. I hope that you find the strength to get through this and I love you ❤️

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and I hope it passes for you soon. The fact that you've been able to muster up the strength and talk publicly about this so you can let other people know they aren't alone makes you much much stronger than you think you are! Thank you so much xoxo

I've struggled with depression all my life. It's honestly the hardest thing for me at least to struggle with. When you said that thoughts are just thoughts, that really made me feel better. That will always stay with me now. I want to thank you so much for posting this. It really did help me and I constantly forget that I'm not the only who struggles with depression. Thank you for having a positive impact on my life with this video and all your other videos. Sending you all my love Karissa ❤❤❤

Thank you for opening up about your depression. I also struggle with depression and sometimes it's incredibly debilitating. It's nice to know that there are other people out there with the same struggles. You are so inspiring ❤️

This video is so important and it's exactly what I needed to hear right now, thankyou karissa 💗 Xx

Thanks for being so thoughtful and candid. Depression definitely exasperates feelings of isolation and loneliness for me, so it's massively helpful to see that I'm not alone. I'm sorry you're struggling as well. I'm at the point in my life where I'm in my early twenties and I really have no idea where life is taking me, and I feel held back by decisions I made when I was younger. Things are difficult right now and I keep hoping and thinking that if I continue to hold on, things will eventually get better. Hoping for many happy days in the future for you x

This made me cry thank you so much for talking about this. It came during a time i needed it ❤️

Karissa, every video you have posted lately I have been able to connect with you in such a personal level. I want to thank you for talking about this, because a lot of people, in A LOT of people lives make them feel bad for feeling this way. So to let people know they are not alone is incredibly empowering. I love you girl❤️

❤️ love you Karissa. You’re doing amazing. I’m glad you are using your platform to help others, I have had depression for about 5 years on and off, it’s been a struggle and it’s so good (and also sad) to know that I’m not alone. ❤️

❤️❤️❤️ sending so much love karissa! I love the tips you shared with us because when I feel like this is just hard to get out of this funk. ❤️❤️❤️ i literally was crying at work this morning and your video couldn’t come in a more perfect time. You are the realest ❤️

Karissa, I’m so sorry to hear what you are going through - you are so brave to share your story and I wish I could give you a big hug! I appreciate so much how you are able to put a positive spin on situations where you feel like you will never see the light again by finding things that will motivate you, or doing the smallest things that will make you feel better. I’m going through a rough patch at this time as well, and this video reminds me that it’s okay to feel vulnerable and that I do need to stay true to myself in order to see the light again. ❤️🤗

This is the most beautiful video you’ve ever made - it couldn’t have been easy for you to put yourself out there and film this for the world to see but I hope you’re extremely proud of yourself for doing so. Seeing videos like this helps other people to know they are not alone with their feelings and no one has the projected picture perfect life. I also find when I’m feeling down to write how I feel on paper in as much detail as I can, then I walk away and leave it sitting for 30mins, an hour, a day and then return to it, read it, take a deep breath and rip it up to as many pieces as I can. It really helps.xx

Thank you for being an open and honest person Karissa! More people need to know their not alone. Depression is a scary confusing ride, people like you let us know you don't have to do the rollercoaster on their own💜

Great video .If you are Reading this and have Depression, i just want you to know how important and valuable you are . You are so loved and needed in this world . Dont ‘t listen to your Depression because it lies to you . You will not give up because you are a fighter and a warrior. You will beat this .I have faith in you . People do care about you because i’am one of those people. Your story has a happy ending . You have a purpose in this world and you are meant to do great things .Please stay strong and Never Give Up . I love you and God Bless You . Sincerely,Danny Gautama from Canada

It is hard to have a positive mental attitude, it takes work. But once you start it is so refreshing and helps you keep going. Doesn't mean you can't have bad days, just means you don't dwell on them. Learning that was a struggle for me, but it is getting easier. Stay strong, you got this! 💜

Thank you for sharing this Karissa and for being so brave. Your tips are super helpful and I will remember them the next time I find myself in the depression hole ❤️

Karissa, First and foremost, thank you! Thank you for being brave enough to be so vulnerable. Thank you for opening up in such a raw and unfiltered way. Thank you for reminding people that it is ok to feel down sometimes. I too struggle from depression. I have been dealing with it since I was 16, and like you, it likes to show its ugly little head from time to time. Sometimes is a quick visit, other times it likes to hang around a little too long. Again, like you, I have been struggling with health issues, and recently finally got some answers. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto Thyroiditis, which is an auto-immune disease. Not only has this disease been affecting me for years without me knowing, it will continue to affect me for the rest of my life. Now I am fully aware my life could be a hell of a lot harder, and my diagnosis could have been a hell of a lot more serious, but it still sucks and it is still fucking hard. I have 11 of the 13 symptoms, two of which are weight gain and depression. Those have been the two hardest ones to deal with. It has been painful to not feel like yourself and not know how to fix, but also not have the physical/mental strength to get yourself going. I want you to know that YOU are a huge INSPIRATION to me, and make my darker days a little BRIGHTER. So, when you are feeling down about yourself, please remember that you are so loved and adored...and you're a pretty bad ass chick haha. Anyways, long message over. Love your long time internet friend, Lauren XO

Karissa you are literally the best. I love that you are so open and don’t ever try to bullshit yourself or anyone else. I fully believe that the more honest you are with others about how you feel the easier it is for you to be honest with yourself. You are an inspiration!

Thank you for posting this. I deal with depression. Currently I'm dealing with it right now. And you just reaching out has helped me. I know that we can all get through this. Thank you for sharing your story and your positivity! You are an amazing person!

Thank you for this video. I've never experienced depression but I've struggled with anxiety and panic attacks on and off since elementary school. It's so important for people to talk about mental health!!

I dont usually comment but i feel since youve been needing support you might actually read this. I started typing without knowing what i wanna say to you. Im 24 and ive had 3 bigg(er) depression phases in my life and i so feel you, know the feelings you are having and understand you. I just want to say that yes, you are right, it is a phase and it will go away. You have to be strong just a little bit longer. Everything, absolutely everything happens for a reason and after this kind of experiences one becomes stronger, wiser, more emotionally inteligent and empathetic, and i am 100% sure those are some qualities that will be extremely useful in your future path. Lots of good energy and a big friendly hug xx

thank you so much for opening up about this, I‘ve always had so much respect for you and all that you do. now I feel closer to you and less lonely about my mental illness. recently it’s getting worse and it’s breaking me because I have to shut down from everyone I know for a long period of time not only because I don’t want them to see me hurt and in my worst, but mostly because no one really understands, literally! I can see my sister going above and beyond to try and understand me because she always say “but you have everything?” and that’s true and I feel so blessed, but also you can’t tell someone with depression to just cheer up because they have all these wonderful blessings in their life that they should be more grateful for, that’s basically guilt tripping and will only make it worse because they will keep questioning themselves “whats wrong with me? why am I being like this? am I ungrateful?” if you can just cheer up by choice don’t you think we would all choose that? no one wants to be sad and that what defines depression. I’m so grateful for your last line “it doesn’t make it true and it’s not something I have to live by” because lately I’ve been wondering if depression is what I am, if it’s gonna define me, if the people I care about are only gonna see me in that bubble and if I wouldn’t be able to make the person I care about happy because I can’t make myself happy, and what if I make my future kids as miserable as I can be sometimes. all of these thoughts keep haunting me that it ruined most of my relationships and get me thinking like “it’s just a matter of time before all of them leave” and I know my mind is playing me and like what you said “it’s just a feeling passing through” but I’m honestly more terrified about hurting my loved ones more than ending up alone. and I have reached this point of shutting them all out because my mind keeps telling me that this is the only sense of control I can have over it and might as well break it before they do, and my god I just want this to stop. sorry for throwing it all out like that, I really needed to share. thank you again and I wish you good health and happiness

Thank God for your bravery Karissa, not many people who are experiencing depression today have the same courage as you have shown us in this video. Yes we have witnessed some of your dark days through your videos, that even when your filming makeup videos, we can still see the sadness behind your smile. We, your fans are very grateful that you have tried to step forward away from the dark even with your own simplest ways. Please continue doing so, because I know that time will come, your sun will shine brighter than ever. And when that time comes, trust, that we are always here waiting and willing to embrace the new day with you. We love you Karissa, Hugs from the Philippines. xoxo 😘😍😇

Love you Karissa, thank you for being so brave & putting this video out there. It is going to help a lot of people including me. I hope you feel better too. We are all here for you.

Thank you for always being so raw and so real it's refreshing to see. I had the opportunity to meet you a couple years ago at the sephora in downtown Vancouver and watching you grow and change over the years has been insane ! Just know that you're never alone your true subscribers your friends and your family are always here no matter what. We're here to support you through this journey ! I love you sooo much karissa and if you ever need someone to talk to we're all here for you 💕

What a beautiful way to reach out to your viewers. Such strength and realness to what you said. Sending love in abundance xx

Hey Karissa, thank you for sharing this! I've been there and felt like shit for couple of years, not wanting to get out of bed and here I am smiling and feeling like never before! Sending you lots of love and I KNOW you are so strong and will get out of this!

As a person who deals with depression, I find myself putting my favorite youtubers on a pedestal. It's refreshing to hear this knowing that I can stop beating myself up because I don't act as happy and productive as all of my favorite youtubers. Thank you for this. ♥️

You are so incredible for using your depression and pain to help others find a way to cope. Respect for your realness and truth you are sharing with us. I found myself in a state of anxiety and depression for months and months (midwest winters don't help) and finally I realized the same thing as you, motion creates motion. Ever since I've started making a to do list in the morning when I get up it has helped me so much. Focusing on little tasks that will help distract you and make you feel like you are accomplishing something makes such a big difference. Progress is progress, even if it means all I did was brush my teeth and change my clothes, its better than some days when you just get stuck in bed all day. Sending love and light your way Karissa. You are a special lady and I know this video will touch so many others. Brighter days ahead! xo

I've only ever told one person about my depression and it didn't go very well, i think its really great that you're comfortable telling so many people. you're very brave and you deserve a break self care is important

I had no idea !! Thank you for making this video I know lots of people struggle with this and for ppl that don’t know about depression they have no clue how bad it can be. I hope you continue to find peace within yourself. ♥️

Karissa, thank you for opening up. I'm struggling with depression and anxiety too. As I have opened up about it, I have found many friends dealing with this too. I would never wish this on my worst enemy, but it is nice to know you're not alone and others understand. I am working on getting better. Many negatives resulted in a gigantic panic attack, loss off work and time off to take care of myself mentally. But it's difficult. The 3 column list is really simple and helpful, so thank you so much for sharing. I'm sending you lots of love and wishing you out off this funk soon.

karissa this video was absolutely amazing!!! you are so incredibly brave to be able to make yourself vulnerable to the world and you definitely deserve all the love in the universe❤️ ily everyday and you are an amazing influence to me and your other subscribers💕 stay strong my love🌹

i admire you a lot for being so vulnerable. im so sorry you've been dealing with depression, if you ever need a chat im always around on the internet.

I really appreciated this video. For me, the hardest thing is feeling this feeling (deep down inside) that's unexplainable but I feel like I'll never be normal again. Or genuinely happy about life ever again. Like there are things that temporarily lift my mood, but still there's this feeling that I'm empty, lost, and not my true self. you just feel so hopeless that things will ever change for the better after feeling beaten and broken down every day for years. depression slowly eats away at you over time. but i still haven't lost hope. i still wake up every day and try to do at least something. i still feel like genuinely feeling good about my life again is possible. i hope i see the day soon. i really do. and i hope everyone else reading this does too