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How I got away from my abusive ex, jail story, sober living, & more ❤️‍🩹

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Tinassee- Tina Tsakonas

Tinassee- Tina Tsakonas

Күн бұрын

Sharing my life with you. Showing that recovery is possible. We can enjoy and be gratefull for even the little things in life. Our past doesn't define us and it's okay to talk about it. Do what you need to do to help you heal. You never know who's heart you'll touch or who you'll help. We are not alone with the dark stuff we've been through and with the things we still go through in recovery. Everything is going to be okay. We can get through it together.
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@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Someone is pretending to be me. I changed my profile pic & blocked then from commenting. Please do not give away your info to anyone. Please report them youtube.com/@_tinassee
@sidrennie5348
@sidrennie5348 10 ай бұрын
You are pretending to be you, get over yourself ffs
@kingsclark89
@kingsclark89 Жыл бұрын
Girl I’m 560 days sober and moved out of sober living literally today. You have totally inspired me and I’m so grateful for your channel. Your vulnerability is incredible. Thank you!!
@deafsoda7923
@deafsoda7923 Жыл бұрын
Good for you be strong
@zubetp
@zubetp Жыл бұрын
proud of you! you've got this.
@kaitlea403
@kaitlea403 11 ай бұрын
congratulations!!! keep up the good work ❤
@asmrwishes
@asmrwishes 11 ай бұрын
We're praying for you
@carmenhoma1782
@carmenhoma1782 Жыл бұрын
I’m an old lady who dealt with this stuff years ago. I’m so grateful that you put yourself out there. Your story will help others. Bless you & your journey. I will send prayers your way.
@Katie-uj8xz
@Katie-uj8xz Жыл бұрын
I am too, and this is exactly what I feel
@myrandapistokache6653
@myrandapistokache6653 Жыл бұрын
Girl you have no idea how much you continue to inspire me. I’m not quite out of the grips of my addiction but I’m getting there, I’m doing my research to find help, thank you for using your platform and experiences to help save those of us still trapped
@julesdunham5566
@julesdunham5566 Жыл бұрын
I absolutely love the suggestions you share! You're living proof that Sobriety is attainable! I listen to my sponsor and my Sober Living director. I enjoy going to the meetings. I'm trying to give back what was freely given to me when I finally made it. Getting sober was not easy for me. I am so grateful that my had me involuntary ICD by the state. You keep up the good work!!! I look forward for your next post ❤❤❤
@GorgeouslyGruesomeSFX
@GorgeouslyGruesomeSFX Жыл бұрын
You'll make it as long as you keep putting one foot In front of the other. Once you're 100% ready there's no stopping you. Sending much love light and positive healing energy your way!! Xo
@andielinke8523
@andielinke8523 Жыл бұрын
where are you maybe I can get you a good doctor maybe someone else can you didn't there alone you can't do this alone this is not a recipe for success tell us what's going on we care I do
@carahaney76
@carahaney76 Жыл бұрын
God bless you I'm praying for you.
@myrandapistokache6653
@myrandapistokache6653 Жыл бұрын
@@andielinke8523 hi! I am in north central Texas, I am having a really hard time finding any help without insurance unfortunately
@Hippidippimahm
@Hippidippimahm Жыл бұрын
I’m going through a really hard breakup with my daughter’s dad right now because he became abusive and scared me. I’m definitely in that vulnerable weird place where I’m still attracted to the wrong guys and don’t know exactly what to do with myself. Thank you so much tor your videos, they really do help.
@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Keep working on yourself. You deserve better. No one I mean no one deserves abuse. I'm here if you need me ❤
@JulieIreland
@JulieIreland Жыл бұрын
Learn to love yourself! Don't be afraid to be alone. Stay strong not just for your daughter, but for yourself. Know your worth! It's def not gonna be easy, but I promise it'll be worth it.
@KssN27
@KssN27 Жыл бұрын
You got this babe ❤
@joannaazar7396
@joannaazar7396 7 ай бұрын
Being alone is beautiful.
@1tbrew
@1tbrew Жыл бұрын
My very abusive ex is now in prison. I started following you in order to keep my hopes up that his life will continue when he gets out (in 5-life). I have a protective order and intend to stay zero contact. Your story helps me feel less sorry for him and I have faith that he can get his life together if he works it properly. I don't want him in my life ever again, but it does help my heart feel less guilty for moving on when I hear your story of recovery. Thank you for sharing.
@Hannamariej13
@Hannamariej13 Жыл бұрын
Don’t go back 💖💖💖
@1tbrew
@1tbrew Жыл бұрын
@@Hannamariej13 I'm lucky because I have an amazing support system. Also, he is away for 5 to life, so I hope he had some cooling off time before he gets out.
@nerdfightercommenter6969
@nerdfightercommenter6969 Жыл бұрын
I had a long list of abusive partners until a few years ago. I havent dated since because I’m not healed yet and I realized that the guys that I’m still attracted to are that type and I didnt want to he hurt again. The wild thing is that Im finally changing and I’m starting to like actual nice people. wish me luck. also thanks for sharing you’ve got such a warm energy and it makes my day.
@father_mae_i
@father_mae_i Жыл бұрын
🫂🫂 good luck
@sunnywho409
@sunnywho409 Жыл бұрын
Hey, I randomly found you on KZfaq and i am so thankful for that. You are so open and educating and i truly can feel, that you have such a wonderful soul. I‘m wishing you all the best❤ greetings from germany
@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Thank u sm ❤
@Stephanie_demi_
@Stephanie_demi_ Жыл бұрын
I’ve watched you while I was in active addiction and your content encouraged me to get clean. 350 days today. On 8/12/22 I chose life. Keep doing what you do girl, you’re changing lives 🩵
@bradandheathercrawford3891
@bradandheathercrawford3891 Жыл бұрын
Never been a more true saying; “two wrongs don’t make a right”!!!!! Amen!!’
@Kayla-xw8no
@Kayla-xw8no Жыл бұрын
You are empowering countless lives in infinite ways! I wish you nothing but the best!
@thestudio66
@thestudio66 Жыл бұрын
She's saving lives by sharing her story, and one needs to be brave to share this kind of reality. If more people like this existed in the world, it would be a much better place.
@ItsBellasShorts2
@ItsBellasShorts2 Жыл бұрын
I was scrolling one day and stumbled upon this awesome KZfaq channel. I have been watching for a long time now, you are awesome. ❤️❤️❤️
@ilikespaghett1
@ilikespaghett1 Жыл бұрын
samee
@Danid2023
@Danid2023 Жыл бұрын
Dude you are seriously amazing - such a mentoring and guiding presence - i am currently struggling with marijuana dependence (maybe i can’t admit i’m addicted lol!) and an addiction to nicotine vapes. Smoking in general just soothes me.. its such a nasty habit and has done a number on my mental health. Never went to jail thankfully, but made quite a mess of things… was not thinking straight. Marijuana definitely contributed. I’m doing better but still struggle with kicking the addiction completely. Thank you for telling your story. I just feel less alone in these comments. ❤️ if anyone needs support feel free to message. i have quite the interesting story myself… lol!
@blueviolets52
@blueviolets52 Жыл бұрын
Marijuana is my thing too...I feel like it's tricky because we can function, but it still affects day to day decisions and even relationships... I used to have a drinking problem, but totally stopped that years ago after spending a night in jail. Lately, I'm working on only smoking at night before bed (I have terrible anxiety and insomnia). I hope things get better for you, try not to be hard on yourself.
@Danid2023
@Danid2023 Жыл бұрын
@@blueviolets52 you too friend. It’s gonna be okay… and hey, we all just lived thru a global pandemic - you’re okay to cope any way you need to. ❤️
@saijanaswamy7210
@saijanaswamy7210 Жыл бұрын
You're right, the in btwn period is vulnerable for us. Best suggestion I would give to anyone during that time is don't worry abt dating. If you got out of a toxic/abusive relationship (especially that), take care of yourself first. I feel like somehow these kinds of relationships drain us the most, even if we only been with the person 1 yr. I didn't know how heavy/bad mine was til well after (years) i left mine. I am proud of you for having the courage to end things with your ex. 💝
@MellaYellow
@MellaYellow Жыл бұрын
My first husband tried to unalive me as well. I'm glad we both got out. I think you should continue to just share your stories. There are so many that watch shorts and see you. Even if you only get through to one that's a victory! Proud of you!💗
@crashofthemoons
@crashofthemoons Жыл бұрын
being in multiple abusive relationships, talking about it helps. I'm on my way out of this one, and promised myself i won't date for at least a full year. I need time to heal ❤
@libertys.1534
@libertys.1534 Жыл бұрын
I hope it goes well girl! I was dealing with family abuse so not a relationship but I had to step away, far away. It’s taken a really long time to heal. The first year I cut the abuser out of my life but just shit down didn’t try to heal. It took another year and half after that to heal I’m finally getting to a place of normalcy. Hoping this time away from relationships helps heal you! Taking time for yourself is so important.
@kathy3178
@kathy3178 Жыл бұрын
I found you through KZfaq shorts. You seem so warm, friendly, and down to earth. I am glad I subscribed.
@mistyflores7778
@mistyflores7778 Жыл бұрын
Your so inspirational to me,, I'm an finally clean and sober with finishing one yr in a recovery group,, however I didn't think about the figuring out what to do after you get sober.. so that's where I'm at.. so confused thinking maybe I should get into a sober living.. Thanks for the inspiration in all your videos.
@Thecatnamedkiwi
@Thecatnamedkiwi Жыл бұрын
Yay! I’m so glad you posted a longer video! I would love to hear more of your story! 💜 I’m a recovering opiate addict with 3 years clean. I’m 27 and used for 10 years. My first addiction was adderall pills and alcohol at 16/17 years old. Then coke, alcohol, and mdma at 21. Then pills and H at age 23. I had no breaks in between just one thing after another. It feels INSANE to have my life back! It’s incredible! I will never look back! I have completely changed my life. Complete 180. #wedorecover 💜✨👏 Good up the good work and wonderful content 👍 Also, my boyfriend and I had to break up to get clean. I moved to my dads and went to rehab and continued treatment. I’m still in treatment. Tapering my withdrawal medication still. But once my boyfriend got clean we got back together. And have been together 6 years total now. But we had to figured out a lotttttt of stuff between us before we got back together, we had to hash out all our feelings and overcome things by communication. We had to do a ton of work on ourselves and as a couple. We still make sure that the number one priority is communication. We make sure that we are always on the same page.
@krissysearle2987
@krissysearle2987 Жыл бұрын
Im clean and sober too since 2015!!!!!!
@jwalker7
@jwalker7 Жыл бұрын
I love what you have to say. You're so real and down to earth, I feel like I can't find KZfaqrs (let alone people) that are like you. I love listening to you, can't wait to see what else you have for us!!
@sarahlovesbudgies
@sarahlovesbudgies Жыл бұрын
I can't relate to the addiction struggles that you have gone through. But your videos are so inspirational for me. This year has been really hard for me. This year I have been diagnosed with CPTSD and many other things that go along with that, and it has been a difficult choice to work through those issues in therapy because bringing those traumatic memories into the light instead of repressing them is very painful. And right now I'm in the place where it's easy to feel helpless and hopeless, and my mind keeps telling me that things will never get better, but your videos are helping my a lot. Motivating me to press on and not give up because things in the future will be better. So thank you so much for making these videos❤
@erinhatt1997
@erinhatt1997 9 ай бұрын
Every word you say is delivered with such eloquence. You are a bright light in this crazy world.
@endorphinchen
@endorphinchen Жыл бұрын
Thank you Queen for sharing this sensitive Story with us 💕
@sweetspicy7880
@sweetspicy7880 Жыл бұрын
Stay strong honey , virtual hug 🤗 for you ❤
@oshifish2
@oshifish2 10 ай бұрын
New sub here is so random, but I saw your little heart symbol first and it reminded me of our football team ( soccer) here in Scotland! * the hearts! It must have been fate because your story reminds me a bit of mine. I escaped my addict and abusive ex who got locked up. The cop was merciful on me because he could have taken me in too. Skip to now and I met an amazing man across the world from where I was in Atlanta! I fought to stay clean and left my ex then moved here ( saved every penny I would have used to be using!) now he is my sun and moon! Sobriety is possible girl! I hear you! Your guy seems so kind and has my best friend's birthday! Go Libras! So happy I found your channel all due to the little hearts symbol! xo
@callthisnumbernow937
@callthisnumbernow937 Жыл бұрын
I love you tina you’re so cute and a huge inspiration to those of us who are looking to get sober and stay that way
@Amoriahh
@Amoriahh Жыл бұрын
Im so happy your safe and sober and idk if no one told you this but im so so so proud of you tina🥰
@lexicichurski1607
@lexicichurski1607 Жыл бұрын
So proud of you being sober and being out of that abusive relationship. Sober life 🙌is the best and I’m happy you’re in a healthy relationship
@elspethdyce6771
@elspethdyce6771 Жыл бұрын
you are an absoloute icon to me. its so amazing to see you healed/healing :)
@eilissmith8591
@eilissmith8591 10 ай бұрын
You’re channel is great, I’ve been blessed in life and can’t complain about my lot. I think you are just so inspiring, may the Lord bless and be with you all the days of you’re life
@kendallbaker5252
@kendallbaker5252 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for giving me hope, my mom is in and out of jail for drug abuse and I hope that one day she’ll get better❤
@ErickaLDC
@ErickaLDC Жыл бұрын
I got out of my worst addiction 10 years ago and had all these same issues❤ I very proud of you and all the progress you’ve made in your life🎉
@user-hx3ok8sw2u
@user-hx3ok8sw2u 5 ай бұрын
Me and my ex were like that, there werent drugs involved but he was very mentally, physically and emotionally abusive.. i started drinking very heavily do deal with it, and thank god i met my husband when i did and my whole life changed for the better 🙂 now im happy and healthy
@katiesmith4663
@katiesmith4663 11 ай бұрын
I love your videos especially these longer ones. I don’t use tiktok so it’s nice to have another way to watch your content. You are awesome girl and we are all rooting for you! 🖤
@Rosiew86
@Rosiew86 11 ай бұрын
You are such an inspiration and brave. I am fortunate that I have not been in addiction before, but I find your stories very interesting and they help educate me on others and I am learning so much, thank you! From Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿
@sherrielynn5761
@sherrielynn5761 Жыл бұрын
I follow you because your so positive alot of ppl need ppl like you in the life
@whomiswhowespeaktobutwhoiswhom
@whomiswhowespeaktobutwhoiswhom Жыл бұрын
You are a very likable person.
@lindsaymarie1984
@lindsaymarie1984 Жыл бұрын
Girl I love hearing your stories & how you have turnt your life around, keep up the good work & well done
@clopottzz4863
@clopottzz4863 Жыл бұрын
I’m glad ur sober
@skylarcompton91023
@skylarcompton91023 Жыл бұрын
im super proud of you tina! you've come such a long way. i know how hard addiction can be , along w toxic relationships, and getting out of them aren't much easier. stay strong ❤
@TrentMcNary420
@TrentMcNary420 Жыл бұрын
You are perfection personified loved one I just want you to know that 🤙🏾🖤
@maddart4445
@maddart4445 Жыл бұрын
I’ve been wanting a story time with you. I like your content. ❤❤❤
@antoninasoboleva3889
@antoninasoboleva3889 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing it! You inspire people to be as strong as you are! ❤️
@Lisaperk74
@Lisaperk74 4 ай бұрын
I wish I had a recovering addict to talk to about all this but the one person I do speak to is very straight edge and rather judge and I understand why. She does listen without judgement most of the time, but by accident sometimes I talk and set her off with certain triggers and then I apologize for hours. I never mean to do it and am careful to aware of these trigger words but sometimes it just happens. I do wish I had another recovering addict to speak with, they understand it more.😢
@Beachbum471
@Beachbum471 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for supplying informative, relatable and genuine content. I don’t want to see people putting on their makeup, modeling stupid clothes or doing stupid dances! Thanks for being you!!!
@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Thank u vut I do those things too lol 😂
@Beachbum471
@Beachbum471 Жыл бұрын
Well, if you do it’s not obnoxious 😊
@summertime3160
@summertime3160 11 ай бұрын
I'm not an addict, but your content is insightful.
@kristakriener83lilblueyz
@kristakriener83lilblueyz Жыл бұрын
We sound like twins. The bad boy look! You've told you're story and I appreciate you so much. I have a story but noone like mine matters. I really do appreciate you and will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers 🙏 ❤ 💛
@Maria-cl8gk
@Maria-cl8gk Жыл бұрын
I love your videos❤ there’s no doubt that you are inspiring and helping others with your channel. You are so brave to share your stories 😊🫶🏼
@spoonky85
@spoonky85 Жыл бұрын
I'm really proud of you!
@angiemar6358
@angiemar6358 Жыл бұрын
I stumbled upon you from KZfaq shorts ,I love your vibe and keep being strong girly ,your an inspiration to many ❤
@tabithatroxel1772
@tabithatroxel1772 Жыл бұрын
I’m glad that you took the initiative to be clean I actually sadly lost somebody to drugs. It was an overdose, and I am afraid of things like that even though I am disabled, and I have to take pain meds and this and that and the other I do ues CBD but it’s only for medical uses only your a inspiration
@animefangirl9006
@animefangirl9006 Жыл бұрын
Your amazing keep it up ❤❤❤❤❤ we love u Your sweet person God is happy with u ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@friedaclaxton5950
@friedaclaxton5950 7 ай бұрын
Sheesh you’re a better girl than me. If I ever come in contact with my ex I will go to townnnnnn!
@Music_chick
@Music_chick Жыл бұрын
You're so strong 💪 sending positive vibes your way ❤
@miafluke
@miafluke Жыл бұрын
I’m so proud of you and I’m so glad your helping everyone out ❤❤❤❤❤
@angelicacroitoru4946
@angelicacroitoru4946 Жыл бұрын
Tina, i am so glad that you recovered and that you are fine . I whish you the best! 🤗🤗🤗
@user-uo1gt5jd1p
@user-uo1gt5jd1p Жыл бұрын
Reflection of ourselves..great
@whatsup968
@whatsup968 11 ай бұрын
I love hearing about your life. It's different from mine, but that's okay. It's good to learn about people different from you And you are a wonderful, motivating person. You can be a good influence on so many people, including myself. You help motivate me to improve myself Many of your videos also have a very calming/soothing effect. You just sound like you're chatting with us, and your videos have a very safe atmosphere. They feel very grounded Thank you for making the content that you do! 💛
@deafsoda7923
@deafsoda7923 Жыл бұрын
I been following you for a while learned something who you are how you end up in jail and sober living and how you stay clean I love learning something new never stop learning
@Katie-uj8xz
@Katie-uj8xz Жыл бұрын
Just thank you, Tina
@leonornelas9950
@leonornelas9950 Жыл бұрын
Trusting in GOD is how to do it... asking God to guide you and give strength for anything the enemy throws at you
@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Definitely yes but you've still gotta put in the work ❤
@leonornelas9950
@leonornelas9950 Жыл бұрын
@@tinassee absolutely!🙏
@BeautifullySimple
@BeautifullySimple Жыл бұрын
I hope you are very proud of yourself, because you are awesome! Very powerful woman!
@karenway4726
@karenway4726 Жыл бұрын
You are so brave. I am getting there. I like that your video and simple and soooooo true and real. XO
@GlendaMartinez-wr9bj
@GlendaMartinez-wr9bj Жыл бұрын
Stay strong Miss Tina ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@vampgrrl
@vampgrrl Жыл бұрын
You're amazing and very beautiful. Love your honesty and strength ❤
@Monty-Me
@Monty-Me Жыл бұрын
Hoping and praying that your doing better without him and that your recovery is going well god bless and have a good day!💗💗💗
@tinassee
@tinassee Жыл бұрын
Yessss thank u ❤
@Monty-Me
@Monty-Me Жыл бұрын
@@tinassee no problem 🥰💪💗
@JulieIreland
@JulieIreland Жыл бұрын
Grow thru what you go thru! We do recover!
@Ashragdoll
@Ashragdoll Жыл бұрын
I have never struggled with addiction in the conventional way, but coming from a broken home, I have struggled with being extremely self-destructive most of my life. Around 2016, some serious s$%t went down in my life, I ended up in this relationship, where I thought okay I can move in with these guys, rent is cheap, I can save up fast for my own spot and do what I need to fix the wrongs that had been done to me(It's a story I'm just not ready to tell fully, cuz I'm still fighting, but I'm not giving up), this guy, he started out so charming and sweet etc.... until he wasn't, and it was terrifying. He did EVERYTHING short of actually killing me, and that wasn't because of a lack of trying. He kidnapped me twice after we broke up n I was trying to get my stuff, forcing me in his bedroom at knifepoint and putting it to my throat many, many times to make certain I knew he wasn't joking... I finally left him and cut contact in the end of March 2017... At first, he acted confused(he didn't know where I was, so physically I was as "safe" as I could be) sending msgs like: "Are you okay? What's going on?" But, they turned to: "who TF are you with, where are you? You know I can find you!"... in the end of April of 2017, I decided to finally contact the cops and tell them everything... I jumped through every hoop, I did everything thing they asked me, including going to Safe Haven, a resource center for DV victims, to have a female officer take photos of very, VERY private, intimately located injuries... it was humiliating, but I was doing what I believed was right. All my life, I had been hurt, and they all got away with it... so, I gave them my phone with photos(some of my photos I took after a "punishment", my skin was so black and bruised, you couldn't even tell it was skin...), texts or fb msgs where he said blatantly he almost killed me last night, or other either admittance of guilt, or threats... I went on record in a recorded interview and got told ON THAT RECORDING, the detective was worried about putting me on the stand because, and I QUOTE: "You look tough, you know, with your tattoos and piercings and colored hair, you look like someone who can take care of themselves"... I didn't know what to do, in that moment, it felt like time had just stopped... I was maybe 120lbs... this monster had mutilated me, he did damage that permanently affects a part of my life, and it can't be fixed. Physically, that was physical. We aren't even talking about the mental/emotional scars I'll never 100% recover from. Needless to say the DA dropped everything, said there wasn't enough "evidence" to go forward... I was livid. What more did they want?!!! I ended up in another toxic relationship that turned mentally abusive and almost physical. He broke a window right by my head during a fight, shattering it, he hacked my FB(after I said we were done and was only staying there for his daughter, where I slept on the top bunk of her bed, I absolutely loved her and I hated him for how bad of a father he was, a accusation I do not take lightly, but it was the truth), I was in the process of getting ready to move out and in with a close friend, but was staying until he could figure out a daycare for his daughter to go to and I also stated I would still help with HER, do things for/with HER, but he n I were over. In the middle of all this, I met a guy online(online dating gets a lot of shade, but my ex-husband, who's a total sociopath, I met him in college, America dream blah, blah, blah- he is evil AF and unfortunately one of my baby daddies. I've been married twice, the first time was literally right after I turned 18, young & dumb), a dating app and it was... it was love at first sight, I don't care ya'll can roll your eyes, n whatever, he is, to this day, the love of my life(We met in Jan of 2018 and now own a house together, a dog we've raised together, he's a HUGE part of my oldest daughters life, who just graduated HS, lord help me, I had her young at 19, and he's standing by my side against my evil ex while WE fight for my two youngest kids), well one night I was packing my duffle bag because his daughter was with her mom who was a few hrs away(week on off custody) and so I was not around, ever, when she wasn't, and I'd given him a deadline about the daycare or after-school program stuff realizing he was now using my love for his daughter to keep me around. He was yelling at me and it kept going from insults towards me to insults towards himself, I was largely trying to ignore him n just pack my s$%t to leave, he yelled some stuff then disappeared into the bathroom, I thought oh good, maybe he went to take a shower or something and I can leave before he comes back out for round two... Needless to say, he had not went to take a shower, I heard the bathroom door open and him walk out... but then I heard him stop. About 1o feet away from where I was winding the cord around my hair straightener. Suddenly with a raised high pitch(I'm not sure what to call it bc it wasn't yelling at first, hysterics maybe?) Stating: "IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?! WILL THIS SHOW YOU I LOVE YOU??" Keep it mind he was standing up n I was kneeling on the floor so as I slowly turned my head I saw one of many incidents in my life I'll just never forget, I saw blood, dripping onto the white carpet, and it wasn't just a small amount, the red on the white was getting darker and larger. It was right by the left side of his left foot, as my gaze lifted up, I saw his left hand holding something, which was covered completely in blood, along with his fingers and hand... everything seemed to be going in slow motion, and his now yelling was faint and distant. I could hear it, but it was like I had earmuffs on or something, clouding the sound. As my gaze lifted further, I saw blood on his left arm, and then slowly I shifted my gaze to my left to see blood everywhere, ALL OVER his chest, and I suddenly realized what had happened, what was happening, what he'd done, and everything started moving a lot faster. My heart was pounding in my ears, I screamed at the top of my lungs: "WHAT TF!???" and whipped my head away from the sight of him, I zipped up my duffle halfway, sprung up, and bolted out the door, running down the steps of the duplex and out the front door. I waited, sitting outside, in the freezing Feb temps, I didn't even grab a jacket, I folded my arms around myself both because I was cold and in complete shock. The item in his hand was a razor. All the blood was his, and cut, extremely deeply, into his chest was: "Ashley"... as I rocked back and forth, waiting, I don't even remember how long, Nick finally pulled up, he got out and ran around his car asking what was going on, why I didn't have a jacket, my cheeks were stained with dark streaks from my eyeliner giving up on me... and I kept staring straight ahead, not being able to get that image out of my brain, I imagine it's burned there forever in one way or another. Nick took off his coat and put it around me. He slung my duffle over his shoulder and led me to his car, making sure I didn't slip on the ice. On the way to his place, I burst into tears, crying hysterically, and told him what happened. The window incident wasn't that far prior to this, which I downplayed significantly to Nick because I didn't want him to worry. After that night, Nick refused to let me go back to that and insisted I move in with him... normally, I would have said no, but just like you mentioned in this video about your love, the "by the book" method doesn't always work for everyone. Nick and I, as mentioned, have been together for over 5 years, have a house, we're engaged, and he is still the most amazing person I have EVER met, my life of abusive relationships finally(to an extent, I'm in trauma therapy and I advocate for therapy to anyone who needs it) behind me... however, my ex that kidnapped me, tortured me, tried to murder me, all that... he started harassing me again in the end of 2018, he found me on social media and sent msgs stating how where we both lived wasn't that big, he could find me any time, any place. He threatened my fiance as well, whom he didn't even know n had never met. I contacted the police and made a report, the cop who responded pushed hard to get felony warrants because we live across the bridge in a different state now and the warrant would need to be a felony to qualify for extradition. He did get the felony warrant on charges of felony terroristic threats and felony stalking, two counts of both along with like three other misdemeanors. He was eventually picked up and thrown in jail. He kept pleading, not guilty, and they were preparing for trial, where I would be testifying. Then I got the phone call... about 4 1/2 months into his incarceration, he was offered a plea deal, given time served on the misdemeanors that got knocked down from felonies and he was a free man. I obtained a restraining order where in court because he didn't have a lawyer(I did), he got to cross examine me himself, ultimately I was given a 4 year RO. In the past year, he has violated it 4X, and the cops have done NOTHING. I know what this man is capable of... he's done armed robberies before. He's a MONSTER. I just want to end this on a thank you if you actually got through it, as it's a ridiculously long comment, but I love your content, and although I haven't suffered traditional addiction, I've suffered my own addiction where in my head I'm not good enough, I'm not worth it, I deserve to hurt, I deserve the pain... you are SO brave, and your story is an inspiration. Women like you are who have inspired me to start a podcast of my own, as well as other social media platforms. Again, you're an amazing person with an amazing story and never stop being you, ❤. To anyone else who made it through this novel, thank you, I appreciate you.
@malissahenry5105
@malissahenry5105 Жыл бұрын
I really needed to hear this today, thank you! ❤ you girl!
@dek779
@dek779 Жыл бұрын
You are a beautiful woman and a true inspiration.
@becksarmour9922
@becksarmour9922 Жыл бұрын
Your an amazing inspiration, wish you so much happiness and sending love to you ❤
@danwatson8790
@danwatson8790 Жыл бұрын
You keep going lass! You look beautiful!🔥. Surely having the looks, a decent lifestyle and money to spend on clothes etc is what life is about. Rather than going round in that vicious circle. Personally you just need a little family now to give you something to focus on long term! All the best lovely lass x
@bradandheathercrawford3891
@bradandheathercrawford3891 Жыл бұрын
Two wrongs don’t make a right!!! Fuck yah. That one and - it is what it is, those two are my favorite
@francyl4pin
@francyl4pin Жыл бұрын
Much love to you Tina!!!!!❤️❤️❤️🤟🏻
@amandaleigh9358
@amandaleigh9358 Жыл бұрын
Girl. Don’t know you, but proud of you. Nothing is going to stand in your way from the life you deserve. And that hair shine tho……..😮
@Whoyou123.
@Whoyou123. Жыл бұрын
Hi I love your videos and keep on staying strong Tina
@Metaljeans3
@Metaljeans3 Жыл бұрын
I’m glad you managed to turn your life around if you didn’t I don’t think I could enjoy these funny videos drugs can be addictive and some people never stop no matter what I’m glad you were able you helped my friend thru a drug addiction she would have died from drug abuse today if she didn’t stop and your the reason she did if she ever felt down or going back on she would watch your videos I’m so thankful to have my best friend with me this very day
@Del-Blanco-Diablo
@Del-Blanco-Diablo 11 ай бұрын
yeah i went through this with my ex , i broke up with her because i wanted too get clean and she didnt 18 months later shes still living in my house using drugs contributing nothing too the up keep of the house totally taking the piss out of me , every time i broght up her moving out she would threaten me with the cops because she knew i had warrants out for me, i ended up getting that pissed off with the situation i handed myself over too the cops , i spent 3 days locked up then i went too court and my charges were thrown out. i couldnt wait too get home so i could turff her ass out in the streets .
@KssN27
@KssN27 Жыл бұрын
You’re amazing, thank you ❤
@scarlettwilliams2952
@scarlettwilliams2952 Жыл бұрын
My older brother overdose last year and my twin brother found him, it’s was in February and he was in a house that had no power, water, or even a place to use the bathroom, I see your videos and it makes me wish he could have gotten better. I wish he had it in him to recover but I’m glad that you share your message it gives me hope for others. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a voice for those who lost theirs. ❤️‍🩹
@tamarakarlas1
@tamarakarlas1 Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤ sending love from NC
@yadrielairizarryalicea8673
@yadrielairizarryalicea8673 Жыл бұрын
im am so proud of you god bless you
@bubblegum6485
@bubblegum6485 Жыл бұрын
I trying to get sober also.. 6 years of addiction i have tried to get clean 3 times but relapsed really fast. But this time i am going to get my life back. I am so tired , i am disappointed and so disgusted with my self i can not continue this life like this. You have given me so much strength i really thank you from my heart ❤.. my name is elenh . Take care
@erikawanner7355
@erikawanner7355 Жыл бұрын
You’ve got this! One day at a time! *hugs and prayers*
@BrittanyMichelle4
@BrittanyMichelle4 Жыл бұрын
THANKS TINA LOVE THE HAIR LOVE THE SHIRT LOVE THE NAILS LOVE YOUR BEDDING!! ❤❤❤❤❤
@lifewithmell7632
@lifewithmell7632 Жыл бұрын
I watch a lot of your videos , I can relate so much I’ve been clean for three years, ❤❤
@TinasCrazyLife
@TinasCrazyLife Жыл бұрын
We absolutely do recover!
@SimoneMbowman
@SimoneMbowman Жыл бұрын
I love your videos btw!
@ThursdayASMR
@ThursdayASMR Жыл бұрын
That's crazy that I went through something similar. My ex was schizo affective and not medicated and was a meth head. So one moment he cherished me and the next he would try to stab me with scissors. We were on the run from the cops for 3 months until finally he got picked up at a gas station. Never saw him again. Best day of my life.
@ligaozolina9847
@ligaozolina9847 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your experience❤
@user-ql8yv7zs9c
@user-ql8yv7zs9c Жыл бұрын
mine accused me of messing w guards...i hav 2 months lft its been 2 years of fees until sept 15 2023 ty for the vids
@andreacrosby9004
@andreacrosby9004 Жыл бұрын
We love you!!
@Sammi-tube
@Sammi-tube Жыл бұрын
I'm new to ur channel.! Catchin up on gettin to know you.! I love ur shorts, there great
@taliathomas2650
@taliathomas2650 Жыл бұрын
I can't get away from mine because I have heart and bladder problems probably from when I was young doing drugs.... had a state caseworker but they didn't help me at all....they don't want to drive to my house when it's only 15 min away from town...
@stephaniecharlotte4027
@stephaniecharlotte4027 Жыл бұрын
Sending you love!
@angiepangie989
@angiepangie989 Жыл бұрын
I got sober in 2016. Didn't upgrade my men until this year lol it takes time 😅
@Sadgirlhours65
@Sadgirlhours65 Жыл бұрын
How does the sponsor in sober living happen/work? How does someone sponsor you, what do they need to provide, is it someone you usually know, how much does it cost?
@user-uo1gt5jd1p
@user-uo1gt5jd1p Жыл бұрын
Love your videos ❤
@bradandheathercrawford3891
@bradandheathercrawford3891 Жыл бұрын
Me too. I learn every Damn thing and I mean every thing the Hard way too L
@nonya6522
@nonya6522 Жыл бұрын
Youre a star... keep it up
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