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I felt this. I felt this. I FELT this. LORD KNOWS I felt this. Feeling constantly exhausted. Feeling tired, feeling overwhelmed. Yes! Life doesn't account for people with different brains.

When you said "I think am I actually suicidal" same, I often wonder if I'm actually depressed or I'm just lying to myself or something. I wonder if everybody doesn't feel the way I do. If everybody isn't just faking being happy.

Real talk- I appreciate the chaos of this video because that’s what my life feels like more often than not. Kudos for prioritizing feeding yourself 😘

a lot of our thoughts align!! something i'd written in my journal that i came across yesterday-- i think i'm sue of cider by nature because living life really just doesn't feel good most of the time and i'm not as into perseverance as a lot of others. I've felt this way since being a young kid-- i'm persevering in a world built to neglect me and i'm exhausted, in a ton of pain, its extremely hard and i'm not going to kms but i'd be lying if i said i genuinely wanted or looked forward to doing this every day. it sucks to live like this and it sucks that we can't talk about it candidly.

Someone that actually looks like me: black woman who's also autistic

I related to this so much. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability.

I'm a year late to this, but I jus found you on my recommended. I'm also autistic and im kind of glad to find out I'm not the only one who gets anxious must-go-now-poops.

Thank you for making this video and being so open and honest with your experience. I’m an autistic woman and wife raising an two children(one is autistic child and the other isn’t) and life is not a cake walk. It’s awesome to see that there are other people out there like me and that I’m not alone in the feelings I feel. Keep on keeping on. Praying for you today.💜

I’ve wished I were not autistic. I also feel I am behind in life.

Don't know if you've tried the likes of imodium for your sh*ts even the cheap own brand versions work. Such a relief watching this video, to see someone that feels the way I do. I sadly think suicidal thoughts and autism come hand in hand. I really feel modern life is to blame in a lot of ways. Even 50-60 years ago life was much quieter and it was more acceptable to have a solo life n have a quiet interest focused job most of which are now obsolete. Things like signal man on the railways etc you'd get your own house with the job n you were just on your own not surrounded by people. You'd then be free to be around others when you saw fit or wanted to. Don't think life as a whole from education to work environments are fit for purpose anymore they only provide a healthy environment for a tiny proportion of people now hence the "mental health" epidemic. Sorry to ramble. I work for a major UK retailer n it's funny how much these companies and people as a whole go on about diversity and inclusiveness when the average person has zero perception of what it even begins to mean to be different. Hope you are doing better this week, I always find you so inspiring Tyla. Take care. X

So thankful for your transparency!! I feel like I'm the only one who feels like this. Exhausted by it all. Frustrated by it all.

Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity 🙏

that's insanely relatable. I have those same thoughts.

ur vidz make me feel a lot better 🌬

I feel this and it’s been weighing on me recently. Thanks for talking about it :)

You're brilliant 💛💛💛

Dear Tyla, I experienced a type of relatable relief when you mentioned visiting the museum. Ive been planning to visit the museum here in Utah for…about 3 years now. Heh’ Thank you for mentioning that. (Still planning)

This is my favourite video of yours. I'm really sorry you're feeling so bad x

Thank you for sharing ☺️ and the meal looks amazing!

I hope you're feeling better, hope you get chance to take things easy and recharge. I loved the moment you described the video as chaos, I watched it basically like it was a professionally directed documentary. Amazing. Thanks for posting.

love the honesty and vulnerability you show in your beautiful videos!

I’ve felt this before.

Just discovered your channel. Your content is real and great ... thanks for uploading. Keep it up! You're repping 🙌 ✊ - learning a lot from it 🙏

I love this video! Your content is so relatable I could scream 😂 it definitely makes me judge myself less so thank you for sharing! I also love a one tray veg dinner but i add sausages on the tray too

sorry to hear your desk was taken :(

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Would it help your aloneness practice to get virtual companions to go places where you feel awkward going by yourself? Like you go to a gallery and video chat someone who is somewhere else? Maybe even another gallery so you can compare? I feel like this must be a thing.

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Tyla what was this job you had? was it manageable as an autistic person?

hi,I have got a question.Not related to content of this vlog .What are Your living arrangements please?I am on the spectrum and got absolutley no idea how to go about it,where to turn to,who to speak and stuff.Would You be so kind and maybe share Your experience please? Thank You very much in advance for any help.

Yeah, I used to think "Well it's not s*icidal ideation if I'm thinking it calmly". But then it's like OK but I'm sitting here choosing to calmly think about death??? bit sketchy tbh also i'm sorry but i wailed in laughter at you having to crouch in the tate to avoid shitting

Once?? At least 27 times.

Want a kebab now